Blind Spot and Deceiving Hope - Day 255

I always stopped myself from watching Documentary because I believed that I must have knowledge and information regarding the History of Humanity which I perceived myself as lacking and incapable of learning and educate myself and thus, the Common Belief I held within myself was that watching Documentaries that are based on History is useless because I won't get it anyway.

 

It was very recently that I pushed through the point of resistance and gave myself the Gift of Real Time Education where I could not only start adding the dots in the History of Humanity but also Learn much of the unspoken truth regarding the world and within that, our lack of responsibility that had lead to this manifestation that we call 'Life on Earth'. Only through the Education Process I set forth for myself I had realized that unless we correct what we have created, we stand no chance.

 

Like me, there are Million or even Billion people that have access to Real Education that is shared unconditionally. Real Education meaning - not the Education one learns at School. This type of education is very much Bias, Limited and of the interest of those who are in Power. But again, you don't have to believe what I say here - investigate it for yourself - Is anything you learn at school was in any way Practical? Did it open your horizons in becoming an effective human being in this world?

Within that context, I suggest watching the 'COLLEGE CONSPIRACY' Documentary that explain in detail the forces that are involved in the current Education System and why the Education System around the world is inadequate, impractical and in no way exists to Empower, Grow and Expand the Human Race.

 

Last week I watched the Documentary - Blind Spot which for a moment, activated some Fears and Reactions within me however, when I stepped out of my Pre-Program design of Reacting instead of Preventing, I've realized that literally, if we continue reacting and only sort out the manifested consequences only after it had already manifested to a point of no return, there is no way we will make it. Well, maybe we will, but the generation to come will most certainly not.

 

The reason why we would not investigate the Problems in this world and move to a Principle of Prevention instead of Reaction is due to the inherent Design of HOPE that is based on our Self Interest.

It’s funny that We all say that we care for our children, that our children are our world and yet, we do nothing to ensure that the Life of our children and their Children will be Certain, safe and sound from the perspective stabilizing Earth for them to have a world to live in. It is interesting that we believe that our Love for our children comes down to making sure that their life will be safe as long as WE live; as long as we Exists; because really, what we want to define ourselves as is in being Good and Loving Parents and yet, we do not care at all, about the Lives of our grandchildren and their grandchildren because the Physical Evidence is showing that we are living in a doomed Earth that unless we do something NOW to make sure Earth will Remain, there would be no Life on Earth on 90-200 years from now.

 

Hope is a very interesting Design - it is a BLIND Participation within and on this Earth, within the comfortable belief that everything will be fine and we will find a solution for what ever may occur because thus far, we survived like this - there was always a person or a group of beings that found a solution for the problem that had manifested and this is why, I'm not worried about anything, it will be ok. But will it be ok? What if there is a point where there is no way of fixing the problem any more? What if our grandchildren will live in a world where fossil fuel will be no more, where food would not be accessible, maintained and sustained? Why is it that despite of the Scientific evidence that we are heading towards the end of Fossil Fuel in this world, where alternative energies will not sustain and be enough to our current life style, we sit and do nothing? Hoping and depending on Science to bring the solution while Science already came and presented solutions - but we do not want to listen to the solution in the nature of Prevention because that would mean that we will have to change - change the way we consume, the way we live, the way we enjoy our life style.

 

Hope is also sound like Help - Always hoping for someone or something to Help us, to Save us. When will we realize that no one is coming to save us? that there is no God, no UFO coming to save earth, No Jesus coming of a cloud, no Superman that will save the day - it is only us - we cannot continue ruin this earth and expect others to clean our mess - there is also no money in this world that would buy the renewal of earth because Money is one of the main reasons for the destruction of earth in the first place.

 

I suggest reading my blog: From Reaction to Prevention and Obviously, watch the documentaries listed below to have a better understanding of what really goes on underneath our nose. We have the solution, but we require you to stand with because unless you move, unless you change, no movement or change is possible. We are in this together, we have to take ourselves out of it together. There isn't any other way.

 

"Remember the world system is just a system of relationships. It only exists because of all the participants; so if the participants change, the world changes – it’s really simplistic. It’s an individual thing. That’s why one by one, everyone must change, to bring about a change in the world. And you have to actually change the relationships, so that the relationships that are formed between people, animals, environment, is what is best for all Life – really simplistic". Bernard Poolman

 

Blind Spot

http://www.youtube.com/watch?feature=player_embedded&v=pByCxG2dIWY

 

War on Democracy

http://johnpilger.com/videos/the-war-on-democracy

The Century of the Self: Part 1- Happiness Machines

http://youtu.be/prTarrgvkjo

 

The Power Principle

http://metanoia-films.org/the-power-principle/

 

The Trap

http://archive.org/details/AdamCurtis_TheTrap

 

Psywar

http://metanoia-films.org/psywar/ 

 

Human Resources: Social Engineering in the 20th Century

http://metanoia-films.org/human-resources/

 

Investigate Equal Money System - It is time to MOVE - Will you dare to care for REAL?

Don't you Dare Giving me this look - Day 248

 

This is continuation to:

Don't you Dare Blaming me - Day 244

Don't you Dare Manipulating me - Day 245

 

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to React to other beings Facial Expression that I perceived to be an expression of Spite/ anger/disguised that is directed and in relation to their experience of me. In this, I forgive myself that I've NOT accepted and allowed myself to realize that their inner experience has nothing to do with me directly but what they have accepted and allowed within and as themselves and thus, when I accept the change in their facial expression through associating a past memory of someone being angry/spiteful/disguised, and make it personally, I, in that moment, validating their experience and disempowering/diminishing/compromising myself as I take their experience that they have accepted and allowed themselves to participate with and make it my own.

 

I forgive myself that I've NOT accepted and allowed myself to see, realize and understand the other human being process, in unconditionally seeing the being as who they are, their Life Path, the Process they have walked and accordingly, assist and support, in self honesty, and in alignment to 'Give as you'd like to Receive', but rather, I have accepted and allowed myself to react to their reactions, make it personally and access a mind possession that I could have prevented, simply through/as/within breath.

 

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to Believe myself when I interpret another Facial Expression through my own mind, through my own knowledge and information database that I have collected, stored and accumulated throughout my life  and according to that, come to the conclusion that the other is in a reaction towards me, and thus, I must embrace now the Defense Mode Character that I have also created within and as myself and to  then thus, interact and communicate from a Mind starting point as how I would perceive to be the best tactic that would result in "peace" with the other human being and within that, for not just moment consider the other human being and their life path and their processes because I was to occupied in my own mind, separating myself not only from myself but from the other and within that, failed to stand by my own commitment to assist and support myself to Stop participating with my own mind as I already seen, realized and understood that nothing worthwhile can manifest from one's participation of one's mind.

 

I commit myself to assist and support myself in getting to the bottom of all points of reaction to other human beings within and as myself and to walk, slowly but surly, from Mind Reaction to Prevention as I already see the outcome when accepting and allowing myself to participate in Reaction and how in those moments, I completely disempowered myself and compromised myself and the other.

 

I commit myself to investigate my own body Language and my own facial expressions and within that, assist and support myself with communicating with the being in my environment, asking them how my face changes in specific moments so that I'll have a reference point for and as myself and in this - Not accepting and allowing myself to react and take myself personally when and as they showing me that which I wasn't seeing before. Through this, I develop open and intimate communication with others, in an agreement to assist and support ourselves to expand and grow ourselves, in getting to know ourselves and each other so that, instead of diminishing and disempower each other, we stand as support and accordingly, grow, expand and empower ourselves.

 

 

I commit myself to Stop making assumptions, perceptions and therefore conclusions and to stop believing the conclusion I come to within and through the mind as I see, realize and understand that following my mind, and reacting to what I see through my eyes, does not and will not result with an outcome that is worth while. Thus, I commit myself to - When and as I see that another had changed their facial expression, I stop, I breathe, and I make sure that I'm Here, within and as my human physical body, I touch my hand to support me with grounding myself and once I'm clear, I direct myself in that moment.

Delusion of Ego or Self Movement? Process Support - Day 242

"When we are in situations wherein we begin participating in patterns, such as self judgement, we must make the decision to stop - an actual self will to stop the thoughts as they come up - because in truth we know exactly where these thoughts will take us, we know exactly where they are going and it is only out of a perverse sense of curiosity that we continue allowing ourselves to be consumed by the thoughts. We are within these situations all that stand in our way, because we have the tendency to allow ourselves to sink into a state of self pity and helplessness, convincing ourselves that we are unable to stop these experiences.

 

Self forgiveness and writing assists one to see where and how these patterns exist within us, though we must also make the choice to no longer participate in the patterns - we must stop - self forgiveness is useless without practically walking corrections.

 

The thoughts will continue to come up, the patterns will continue to emerge - our application and honouring of our choice must stand firm throughout the layers of our patterns. If we make a mistake, we must be willing to forgive ourselves, learn from it and continue walking our chosen path - beating ourselves up is counter productive. Consistency is key - practice, practice, practice." Cerise Poolman

 

Cerise wrote this statement on the Desteni Forum as a reply in the thread - Re: Why am I worried about my appearance SO much? which is why I have decided to write this blog as this is the KEY point each of us must realized and understand because otherwise, no REAL and constant change within and as ourselves and this world.

 

This morning, I woke up after 4 hours of sleep and the last thing I wanted to do was working in the garden. I preferred going back to sleep because I 'felt' really tired. I also had a white bunny in my pocket that I could use to excuse myself from working today - on Wednesdays, I'm not supposed to work in the Garden because my Schedule is tight up and it was decide to I support myself by not taking the extra responsibility such as working in the garden for 2 hours. However, I've seen within and as myself that specifically today, I was able to work because unlike every other Wednesday, today isn't so hectic. So I was sitting on the veranda, drinking my Coffee and felt so tired and I was about to remind everyone that today I'm not working on the garden. As I was sitting and drinking my coffee, I decided that I'm not accepting and allowing myself to excuse myself when it is not necessary but the feeling of the body being so tired was overwhelming. I then started to calculate: maybe I won't work today and I will work on Saturday for an extra 2 hours? Maybe if I won't say to anyone that my schedule isn't that hectic today, they won't expect me to work on Saturday for extra 2 hours. And as I participated in my back chat, the Atlanteans interview came up in my mind where it was suggested to when waking up, to simply align ourselves with the body and say: "Body, Let's wake up and start a new day".

So I did, I told my body, Let's do this, let's wake up, snap out of the Experience. And Guess what- I immediately woke up, went to work and started my day.

 

Now, there were many other times where I've applied this point within and as myself, but nothing changed, because what I haven't realized before was that unless I, in absolute self honesty decide to change, I won't change and the only 'change' would be me feeding more energy into and as my mind with Excuses, Justification which are nothing but a distraction to in fact change.

 

Thus the point being - One must make the absolute decision within and as oneself, in self honesty. I'm not saying it would be easy, I'm saying it is possible as I've proven that to myself many times before. One would see, that in this moments of change, Resistance exists within and as us, it is almost like a constant friction and conflict where we would bounce between thoughts, justify ourselves, and contradict our justification, find another excuse, and contradict it and we will loop this points until we would find the excuse/justification that would set us up to give in within and as ourselves and make the decision to not change.

 

So, with the Waking up point that I shared above, if one would apply it for oneself, one would find that it is quite an easy point to take on because in essence, we have nothing to lose but one or two more hours of sleep. However, the challenges is to Stop, stand as the Directive Principle in moments where our entire self definition is at stake, where our Ego is so extensive that we feel that if we would to let it go, a part of us would be lost, diminished, gone because we haven't realized that this part of us that is now about to get lost, is not who we really are, it is a pre-program design that we have imprinted and stored within and as ourselves which upon that design, created multiple personalities as our self definition that we believed to be ourselves.

 

Thus, one must develop a real and absolute self movement, self directiveness and self will because otherwise, we would keep on looping on and on with no actual change. We would then judge ourselves for not making much progress in our processes and go into self defeat mode which would be harder to step out of. Obviously, judging ourselves for not making any substantial progress is also a distraction from getting to the core/source/origin point and absolutely apply and correct ourselves, in self honesty, self will and self Power.

 

So - Let's do it because really, we don't have anything to lose but to win the greatest gift of all - Life that is REAL, trustworthy and respectful.

 

 

 

Holding onto a Grudge - Day 230

This a continuation to:

From Evilness to Life - Day 226

The seclusion in Inclusion - Day 227

Seeing the Evil Nature in Dreams - Day 229

 

So, the dream that I shared yesterday opened up a point within the Evil context that one wouldn't usually consider within and as oneself, in one's relationships to other human beings in one's world - How we Keep and Store Past Memory Events where we felt Betrayed and/or hurt by our Friend/Sibling/Parents/Partner/Co-worker, which then, we would utilize the Past Memory Negative Experience, the moment we feel threatened, to justify to ourselves why it is ok to behave and treat the other with Spite and/or Distrust.

 

What we haven't realized is - so long as we accept and allow ourselves to keep and store Past Negative Memories as an Experience, our Relationships with other human being wouldn't stand the test of time. Sure, one can continue to suppress the Negative Experience towards the other being but slowly but surely, the Experience would accumulate till a moment where everything would burst out where one would make the decision - Face the point and sort the relationship out regardless of the outcome or to suppress the point again, make fake peace and continue the relationship as it was, till the next outbreak. 

 

What I've seen within and as myself was that the relationship never get to a point of 'Peace' again because there is a constant movement within and as me, when being around the beings that I've associated them with a Negative Past Experience and within this, I would always expect the worse case scenario of them hurting or betraying me again  and accordingly, would never accept and allow myself to trust them. Interestingly enough, I never looked at the point of self trust within that context and why it is that I would always engage into relationships within the expectation of getting hurt and within that, the fears that I carry from the past that would drive me to participate in the same patterns, manifesting the same consequences, over and over again.

 

As I'm writing, I see that this point is a multi-dimensional point that would require further investigation and introspection. Unfortunately, I won't be able to go into it today, in physical space time consideration within the level of specificity that I would like to walk, . So, I will continue with myself for a moment and will share tomorrow the points that I've seen, realized and understood within and as myself so stay tuned.

 

From Evilness to Life - Day 226

There are moments in time where one sees what one is doing to another, what it is that one is deliberately accepting and allowing within and as oneself, one see’s how one's words and actions has an affect on others in harmful and destructive ways and yet, one would continue one's participation in one's design/program/pattern/character/personality and would never take responsibility for such moments in making sure that one would not accept and allow oneself to ever again harm oneself and other human beings in this world.

 

This is why I am now writing this blog as I've seen in myself the Evilness that exists within myself, that I've accepted and allowed to accumulate Evilness  over the years, without giving myself any constructive and supportive direction and as such, my actions, my words and my resonance outflows, may harm and cause damage to others as the only things that I would consider in such moments are ME and my Experiences and I would not consider the other beings at all. Till here no further.

 

This blog will be an overview of the points that I've seen within and as myself thus far and from here, I would go into more details and specifics in assisting and supporting myself in walking the path of standing Equal to and One as other human beings and within that, stand as a support rather than a machine that suck the life out from other beings to sustain my Ego/Personalities as how I've defined myself as 'who I am' in separation of myself, others and this world as a whole.

 

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to desire to be so much more than another human being that within that, I would accept and allow myself to walk over their toes and smash them so completely, in making them so small within and as my mind so that I could remain in control over them which would give me the Experience that I'm More. Within that, I forgive myself that I've not accepted and allowed myself to question myself as to why and how I have accepted and allowed the pattern/design as desire to be more, to exists within and as me and within that, haven't assisted and supported myself in stopping this pattern/design as the desire to be more and accordingly standing in alignment to the other being, in an assisting and supportive relationship instead of diminished and compromised relationship that would not benefit anything or anyone.

 

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to try and attempt to make people so small in comparison to me, in my own mind, internally and externally and thus utilized all my "powers" as manipulation and defence tactics in doing all that I can so that they won't grow and expand themselves within who they are so that I won't have to stand in Equality with them but always remain more than them, in my own eyes but then, not seeing, realizing and understanding that I'm not only compromising them, but also compromising myself in  deliberately not assisting and supporting myself and others, equally as one to grow, expand and empower ourselves in becoming effective, trustworthy and respectful human beings in this world.

 

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to deliberately create and manifest relationships in my life with beings that I "see" and perceive as less than me so that I could always stand in a superior position, in control over them. Within that, I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself when the Relationship Dynamic changes and the being is actually moving and changing themselves in assisting and supporting themselves to grow, expand and empower themselves within who they are, to react within and as myself because how I have defined myself as more and superior according to them, has now collapsed and I can no longer sustain the superior personality that I've created within and as myself. Within this, I forgive myself that I've NOT accepted and allowed myself to assist and support myself in standing in absolute self trust as who I am, without needing/desiring/wanting to be More than who I am and specifically, in comparison to others.

 

I forgive myself that I've NOT accepted and allowed myself to see how Evil one can be and become, in how one would speak, move, behave to other human beings in one's world within and as oneself when and as one accept and allow oneself to deliberately manipulate oneself and one's relationships with other human beings, within the starting point of keeping the Relationship Dynamics as it always was in satisfying one's desire to define oneself according to a specific attribute or component that one perceive oneself as lacking within and as oneself through the other being.

 

I commit myself to STOP the Evilness that I've accepted and allowed within and as myself and within that, be aware of such moments where I would change my personality in the attempt to diminish others on my behalf, to sustain my own self created definition that I've defined myself as within my relationships with others.

 

I commit myself to assist and support myself in walking the process from Evilness to life that is best for all and within that, to investigate all the points within and as myself that I've accepted and allowed the Evil nature to override the principle of what is best for all life.

 

I commit myself to Re-Establish my relationships with other people in my world and direct myself within the relationships according to that which is best for all as a principle wherein, we transform the relationships to constructive and supportive where both would assist and support ourselves to grow, empower and expand ourselves as living beings instead of limit, compromise and diminish ourselves within who we are in our relationships to ourselves and each other.

 

I commit myself to investigate why and how I've created relationships that I could experience myself as superior and within that, its relationship to the polarized experience within and as myself, as inferior that I've attempted to suppress through creating relationship that would defined me externally, otherwise.

Having the Life Style you always dreamt to have - Day 209

 

This is a continuation to:

The Elite's delusion of stress - Part 1 - Day 45

The Elite's Delusion of Stress - Part 2 - Day 46

The Decision of TIME - Day 67

And:

Copy Paste Character - the Way for Success? - Day 183

Copy Paste Character - The Education System - Day 184

Is it possible to Cheat yourself? Day 185

It is time to STOP Existing as a Human Machine - Day 186

The End of Times - Day 187

Facing the Evil within - the KEY to LIFE - Day 188

Fear of Disappointing others - Day 189

The Psychology of TIME - Day 190

I Regret, therefor, I'm a Good Person. NOT!!! - Day 191

The REAL Fear - Day 192

The things we Won't tell ANYONE - Day 193

Missing out on the Good Life - Day 194

Let's have some Fun - Day 195

Stupidity Loop - Jumping from the Bad to the Good to the Bad - Day 196

The Smoke Screen of Ignorance - Day 197

Leaving in a Dream - Day 208

For the purpose of context, suggest reading these posts above prior to reading the post below, if you haven’t already. Here I will be walking the 'I don't have TIME' Character -Imagination Dimension - Practical support with Self Forgiveness and Self Commitments.

 

 

Imagination Dimension:

• I fantasize of taking a vacation, lying down on the beach, with nothing else to do but enjoy the sun, swimming in the ocean, going to a restaurant, having a fruit shake - in India or Thailand lol.
• I imagine other people doing the same just now, while I'm stuck on the computer, doing my routine work.
• I imagine the life of those who have money and can do what ever they want with their life - having a spa day, going out, enjoying themselves as I used to do myself a few years back.
• I imagine people coming back from work, after a long day, and sitting on the coach with their partner, hanging out, watching a movie, laying back, with nothing really to do.

 

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I imagine people coming back from work, after a long day, and sitting on the coach with their partner, hanging out, watching a movie, laying back, with nothing really to do.

 

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to program myself within the belief that a person must work during the day and when a person comes home, it is then time for a being to rest, spend time with the family, watch TV or go out and within that, define that lift style to be normal and within that context, through defining that preprogram belief within and as a positive charge, I accepted and allowed myself to compare that ideal to my current living condition of working from day till night. In that, I forgive myself that I've NOT accepted and allowed myself to see how I've created a friction/conflict within and as myself wherein, the physical reality clashes with the imaginary reality as ideal that I've created within and as my mind.

 

I commit myself to assist and support myself with studying the Quantum Mind - Self Awareness as I now see, realize and understand how little do I know about myself and the relationship that I have with my mind and this physical reality. Also, I commit myself to SHOW that what we have defined as Ideal and Normal is in fact Abnormal as we have used and abused Normality to justify our priorities that would serve our self interests wherein for instance, we would come back from work, believes ourselves to ''earn'' our rest in the evening while there is an entire world out side that can benefit from us standing up and move ourselves within the direction of finding out what is really going on in this world so that we can do something about it. in this, Normal is to Give Up our self interest movement and consider everything and everyone and not just ourselves wherein our higher priority is establishing a world that is practical and physical best for all.

 

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to NOT realize how and why I've programmed my ideal life style as is reflected in the imaginary domain in my mind, and accordingly, define that ideal as Normal, not seeing, realizing and understanding that through this ideal as imaginary, I'm placing a stone for me to stumble on wherein, I would fantasies of having the ideal life to justify why it is that I'm not willing to give up everything of myself for just this life, and do what ever it takes to bring about a world that is best for all as the desire of having the idea, would be my directive principle as a pre-program design that would override common sense.

 

I commit myself to remove the ideal of what is Normal Life Style as a pre-program design within and as myself as I see, realize and understand that Ideal as Normal Life style is only valid when everyone have equal opportunity to have that life style and unless people are in life condition that would not allow them to have a normal life style, something in the definition of Normality is misaligned and thus, we must change the definition in practicality in establishing the physical condition, physical system that would result with Dignified and worthy life style for all as a basic right for all humans on earth, within and as the principle of Equality because Normal - is that which is best for all.

 

 

The Importance of Physical Communication - Day 148

How much time are we spending talking with other beings in our environment, in our mind, without actually communicating with them?

How many times are we assume we know what the other being is going through, what the other being would answer if we ask the being a question?

How many times we become totally frustrated and angry at another being because we assume the being did something without taking us into consideration?

How many times we perform an entire conversation with another being in our mind, playing out all the possibilities within ourselves with the being, inside our mind, so when we actually communicate with the being, we forget to walk a time line with the being because as far as we concern, the conversation was already done (in our mind) and the being is full aware of our string of thoughts.

It is clear to me now, how and why I fucked so many relationships in my life by not communicating with the being, accumulate resentment towards the being through my assumption that I know what the being has done, through the assumption that the being didn't take me into consideration and thus, the being is not supporting me in anyway whatsoever.

For example: a week ago, I was talking with a friend and I made them aware of the situation that I'm in. I didn't tell them: "Hey, would you like to come and see me, I would like to be in your company right now, enjoy ourselves together". I was expecting the other being to see that I would like to meet them without me having to directly communicate it with the being.

The day after, this being called me and told me about their day before, who they met, how was the experience and so on. Within me, I started to be angry and frustrated because I assumed that where this being were was some place close to where I've been and the being should have come to see me. I was angry at this being for giving more value to what they have decided to be and whom they have decided to be with, and not for a moment considered where I am within my process and accordingly, came to see me.

When I saw the anger, resentment and frustration coming up, I stopped, turned the point back to myself and saw what I was accepting and allowing. What I've seen was that I was the one who didn't communicate the point of wanting to hang out together with the other being, I didn't let them be aware of where I am within my process and what would assist and support me in that moment. And so, I let it go.

On our next discussion, this point came up when the being shared another story about their experience the day I expected them to see me and yet, they had other plans which they had attendant to. This time, I was here, breathing, hearing what the being is sharing with me. I then told this being the process I've walked through regarding this point of me being frustrated about them and how I assisted and supported myself to turn the point back to myself and see what I've accepted and allowed myself to participate with and the important of physical communication rather than Mind communication.

The funny thing was that I was not aware of a little single point - the place they were attending to was not even close to where I was as my initially trigger point of: I can't believe they have been so close to where I live and didn't come and see me. It was only me, making the assumption that I know where the being was and from that initial assumption, I created a scenario in my mind of not being considerate.

The point is - we cannot expect others to know what we are going through without communicating about it. we cannot expect others to do something for us if we didn't directly asked them to; obviously, the next dimension one must look at regarding expectation is that nothing should move within and as oneself if the other being would not comply to that which we ask them to. What ever their answer may be, we stand, clear, stable. If any movement, backchat, reaction comes up - it is not about anyone but self and self must take the responsibility to turn the point back to self and investigate how and why self has separated self from self through accessing one's mind.

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Multiple Partners? Shame on you - Part 6 - Day 147

 

 

This is a continuation to:

Multiple Partners? Shame on you - Part 1 - Day 142

Multiple Partners? Shame on you - Part 2 - Day 143

Multiple Partners? Shame on you - Part 3 - Day 144

Multiple Partners? Shame on you - Part 4 - Day 145

Multiple Partners? Shame on you - Part 5 - Day 146

 

I commit myself to SHOW that the decisions children and adults are making are always based on FEAR and to assist and support oneself in seeing, understanding and realizing the source of their fears in relation to each and every single decision one is about to make, so that the decision would be in fact based on What is best for oneself through the principle that what is best for self in self honesty is what's best for all.

 

I commit myself to SHOW that Despite of parents' intent to raise their kids to reach their utmost potential as a human being, unless the parent first clear one's starting point and standing in absolute self honesty, the parent would impose their fears onto their children which would result in ineffective decision making done by the child.

 

I commit myself to SHOW that when the parent speak to their children in fear, the sound in their words of fear would imprint into the child without any actual education process regarding of how to develop and establish an effective trust within oneself, in every moment of every breath and so, making decisions based on principle of what's best for all instead of making decisions that would result in one's self harm, abuse, sabotage and compromise.

 

I commit myself to SHOW to when the parents' control and limit their child's expression without walking with them the common sense educational process, the child would develop suppressed spite towards the parent and would make decisions that would be based on revenge of the parent with no consideration of the consequential outflows of their doing that may result in self abuse/compromise/harm/sabotage.

 

I commit myself to SUPPORT the youth with the understanding, seeing and realizing of who they are as a physical human being through sharing my own self investigation regarding my youth years and the decisions I've made that result in ineffective outflows and consequences that if I had the tools to assist and support myself back than, I would have had the chance to make decisions that would support me, my human physical body and this world as a whole and so, as I'm walking my correction in my journey to life writing, I'll stand as an example, as an educator, as a support for the youth and their parents in presenting the tools, the considerations and the support that we all required to be and become to manifest a world that is best for all, as who we are, as Life that is best for all.

Journey to Life - Day 100

Today, when  I realized that it's my 100 of Writing myself to Become LIFE, initially my reaction was - Shit, Day 100! Man! Cool! but then, in self honesty, when looking back at those last 100 days, I've realized the importance of continue writing every day. I mean, what I've accomplished in 100 days were just a small changes, nothing substantial that I can say - I changed. No..

 

Obviously, I'm not saying that from a point of judgement or diminishment, I'm saying it as this is what it is. in Self Honesty, there is a long way to walk, lots of suppressions  that I must allow myself to reveal to myself, face, let go and change, practically and physically.

 

When I asked myself the question: Why is it, that despite of me seeing the points that must be changed, I still allow myself to be preoccupied by myself in my mind? Why is it, that despite of me KNOWing what must be done, I am still not doing it? The answer is simplistic, I've approached the points from Knowing instead of self realization that is fully integrated as me - Within and as me and thus, what must be let go of is KNOWLEDGE and simply Living the practical Living expression of my realizations as Self change.

 

So, how to assist and support myself to integrate my realization as ME, as the Physical flesh that is me? The answer is also a simplistic one - it's to give myself the Permission to Decide! Give myself the permission to let go of all my desires as I can see very clearly that the desires are the stumbling blocks that I've not accepted and allowed myself to remove and are in essence the points that leads me to temptations, to remain in characters.

 

So.. What now, I remove the desires, the stumbling blocks are removed and.. How to live? When there are no longer systems that dictate each and every steps? How to live when there are no memories that comes up and tells me where to go, how to speak, how to express myself? That will be an interesting journey in itself as I see, realize and understand that from that moment onwards, it will be Me, as the physical flesh that will direct and move myself in every moment of every breath. Nothing is automated, it's self movement, here. So, I work with what is here, what is practically physically in my hands, I test the information for myself and see if it's aligned with the principle of that which is best for all, and I make the decisions accordingly. Because - what must be understood and realized is that I decide, in every single moment. I DECIDE.

 

And thus, I commit myself to identify my desires in its totality, to not leave anything behind that will keep an open door for any temptations; I commit myself to assist and support myself to dissect myself from all and every dimensions of my mind through a process of daily writing to be able to see the Desires that I've set forth for my fall and thus, to not change in fact.

The Self Diminishment Character - Day 94

The Self Diminishment Character is a very sneaky Character. The Character LIEs behind various other characters such as Self Judgement Character, Jealousy Character, Spitefulness Character, Unworthy Character, I'm not good enough Character, I'm so fucked up Character etc. however, all of these character can only exists when one is engaging the Comparison Character because unless one compare oneself to something or someone, one wouldn't be able to see oneself as unworthy, not good enough and so on.

 

So what is the self diminishment Character?

We tend to create a picture in our mind of who and what we should be, who and what we require to be. When a person in our environment standing according to the idea/picture that we have created in our mind and we are not yet standing as that picture/idea, the Self Diminishment Character is activated through comparing ourselves to the idea we have about ourselves through projecting that picture/idea onto the being in our environment.

 

What self does from that moment onward is quite fascinating:

Self will jump from one character to another in the attempt to Balance the emotions and feelings that self is participating with. As we have seen, the Self Diminishment Character will activate the moment that the idea/picture that one has in one's mind about oneself doesn't stand in alignment to the physical reality when and as One is accessing the Comparison Character. Instantaneously, self will access the Jealousy Character and the feelings within and as oneself will be in a form of heaviness within and as one's chest area. What self is busy with now is the self Judgment Character within and as the experience of: I'm not good enough, why can't I be like this being, why haven't I changed already, Why am I so fucked up, I should have been perfect already, I should have known that already….

 

These Characters carry a negative emotional charge and so, Self will attempt to Balance the Negative emotional charge through accessing the Spiteful Character wherein Self will look at and search for all the memories self hold onto the other being to find faults within and as the other being.

However, the spitefulness in one's mind towards the other being can last for so long, until the cycle restart itself and self will access again to the Self Diminishment Character through comparing the being to the picture/idea in one' mind and start feeling sorry for oneself and continuously feed self with self pity.

 

As all Characters, the Self Diminishment Character can only exists within one's self interest for an experience through comparison. The idea/picture that one has about oneself in one's mind, is to serve one point only - one's interest to be More than who one IS within the belief that when Self will be 'More', Self would be able to define oneself as Superior to others and special.

 

However, when Self access the Diminishment character by utilising comparison, there are 2 scenarios that might manifest:

1. Self has already given up on the idea/picture that one has about oneself because self can no longer be so Special as there is another being that took the spot. And so, self will now create an alternate idea/picture in one's mind to be able to position oneself as Special and Superior according to one's mind.

2. Self became "motivated" even more to be and manifest the idea/picture that self has about oneself and will find the places where self can be More than the other being according to one's mind to be able to step up in the spot light and get the recognition from one's environment.

 

What we have not realized was that the being that we are busy comparing ourselves to, is standing as an example of what we are able to be and become if we dare ourselves to step out of our own self interest of an experience to be special, and simply learn from this being and expand ourselves.

Another point that we've missed was that one require to walk a time line in relation to developing the skills required to be able to effectively become the expression one is jealous at.