A year passed by - Day 481

Gian was mentioning the other day that when ever someone speak about Bernard, they speak about him in a present tense; and I was looking at this point for myself of how to me Bernard is still 'here' as the principles that he stood as and lived by - this, could  never die with him.

 

His death was a challenge to say the least - having to 'grow up' from Bernard's protective shell and finding my own feet within myself. Learning to trust myself, learning to direct and move myself, learning to develop communication skills that are based on support to one another, learning to live independently and yet interdependent with the people around me; learning to consider myself and others, learning to care for myself and others, learning to be patience with myself and others.

 

Bernard, in his presence, showed us the way and the tools to develop these potentials inside ourselves but it was up to us to stand up and walk these potentials, as principles for ourselves and each other. With his death, we had to make the ultimate decision of who we are and what we stand for though for and for us, there was never a question - we just stood and continued walking, together, with absolute support to one another.

 

Cerise mentioned today in her blog:

In order for us to really grow we had to step out from under the protection that Bernard gave us. It may not have been his intention to shelter us, but he did nonetheless. He would weather a storm if it meant another wouldn't have to. We got too comfortable in the safety and guidance he naturally gave out, we did not move ourselves. The only way that we could really stand up on our own was for him to die - we were not doing it on our own

 

Indeed - those who knew Bernard realized this point for themselves - that for us to grow and expand ourselves, he had to die as we didn't take the responsibility to stand up when he was alive - we were all hoping that we could find a ways to change without actively and physically changing ourselves.

 

Bernard's death in many ways showed us the consequences of when waiting for someone else to walk that which we have to walk ourselves. Realizing this now will not change the past but we can change the future where we no longer wait for consequences to manifest but instead we walk the prevention process as solutions that can be physically applied.

 

Therefore, I will not repeat the same mistake again in waiting for someone to pave the way for me instead of me paving the way for myself; I will not sit back and wait for the world to fix itself, I will become the solution myself. I will not wait until the world reaches the point of no return, I will stand up and create a future that is best for all.

 

So, in looking at the past year - what we have created together thus far and whom we have become - I am grateful for having Bernard in our lives and more so, I am grateful for the opportunity to walk with the people whom are walking with me. we have walked a long way and the road ahead is not an easy one to walk but I am certain that together we will pave the way to create future that is worth living. If anything, this was what Bernard showed us in his death.

Life - Cult(ure) that is Best for all - Day 354

 

 

Over the years of walking with the Equal Life Foundation, Equal Money System and Desteni, we've been identified, defined, accused, blamed, judged, etc. as a Cult. Now, ironically enough, the Principle that we stand for in application implies that everyone on earth would be protected, cared for, educated and honoured and yet, it seems that the principle we stand for: Life that is best for all is so extreme and far from the human's comprehension that there was nothing else to define us and therefor, we must be a cult.

 

Now, if you investigate the Equal Life Foundation you will find a solution for all and every single problem that exists in this world and while you have so many organizations that claim and protest for human rights, you would see that if you bring all of these organization together, it would still not be a complete solution for the establishment of a life that is best for all because none of these organization have understood the extent of the problem we are facing and thus, couldn't come up with an encompassing solution. And yet, we are evil for some reason, brainwashed cult. I mean, I already said it is bizarre didn't I?

 

So it is time to set the record straight: The Equal Life Foundation is a non profit organization that is not part of the Elitist policy control but is based on Individual understanding that what has been accepted and allowed in this world is no longer acceptable and in the era of 2013, with the advance technology available, resources and human power, the atrocities that many are facing must cease to exists.

 

In the near future, I will explain in detail why is it the we have defined as an Evil Cult and what it has to do with Cognitive misinformation but for now, what must be understood is that if you allow yourself to so quickly follow the ones that claim we are dangerous cult without checking the facts for yourself, you are from that moment can no longer be able to justify why is it that you are not part of the problem in this world. Understand that the Equal Life foundation is an organization that its members are from all over the world and we are busy with daily writing, research, investigation and participation in various projects and as such, you will have months of reading to do just to be able to begin to understand what we are all about; Claiming you know who and what we are without reading and investigating the material meticulously is again imply that you have no respect towards Life because you fell into the trap of those who wish that the beast inside you, the beast that is awaiting for you to wake up and stand up for a world that is best for all, will always remind numb because if you wake up, their control and power over you will no longer be possible.

 

So - if you wish to call, define, brand, judge us a cult - go for it however realize that the our Cult(ure) is the most honourable Cult(ure) that have ever existed - a Cult(ure) of Life that is best for all and if you are not part of a Cult(ure) that is best for all than you are in a cult of Self Interest that belongs to a few and unfortunately, most likely that you are not part of these few but only their slave with no awareness that you are.

What is care really? Day 340

Continuing with the Question Who is Responsible for our Children's Education?

 

When going through the news headlines and seeing the craziness humanity is suffering from, it is clear that Real Care does not exists in this world. One can blame the world system, the education system, the neighbours, the living conditions, you name it; however, if we look in self honesty, we would see that we were the ones who created the system that allows such madness; we would start seeing our responsibility from the perspective that what ever we now see accelerating around the world, is the exact duplicate of the nastiness, madness and evilness that exists in our minds. For more context, I suggest reading Why Changing the World start with Self - Day 311 and Facing the Evil within - the KEY to Self Awareness - Day 188.

 

Now, if we look back at the original question: Who is Responsible for our Children's Education? it is safe to say that if Real Care for one's children was existing, us, as Parents in this world, would have make sure that our children would be and become the best they could be within a very specific guideline of:

- Give as you would like to receive.

- Do unto another as you would like to be done unto you.

Making sure that our Children would be the best they can be within these above guidelines, would have resulted with a world that is best for all where Madness and Craziness would be non existent; where Poverty and Crime would no longer exists; War and Abuse would be something that we couldn't even grasp to be existing in our harmonized world. Which by the way, if we look at the word: 'Harmony' we would find 2 fascinating things within the sounding of the word:

1. Harmony - No Harm ->When Harmony is truly applied, there is no Harm.

2. Harm Money -> Money is the Root of all Harm isn't it?

 

HOWEVER - we cannot do it unless we understand what Real Care Imply; what Give as you would like to receive and Do unto another as you would like to be done unto you, is practically implies on a Best For all application and consideration; we cannot do it unless we understand our own Mind, our own Programming, our own reactions, thoughts, and automated behaviours and unless we walk our own process of Rebirthing ourselves as Life that is honourable, we would pass on to our children, our own generational sins without even realizing that we do so.

 

So here is to remind ourselves that there is no one to blame, not even ourselves and from here, all we have to do is to move directly to the Correction that is required to stop repeating the same generational patterns that had led us to create a world of Madness in its absolute glorification.

If you haven't already, I suggest reading through the Blog series: The correction Process and the Desteni Message as a 101 guidelines to understand what Programming Is, How we program ourselves, the difference between Honesty and Self Honesty, what does it mean to correct and change ourselves and why, etc.

 

If you are already ready to start investigating and introspecting yourself in all the level of the minds, I suggest walking the Free On-Line DIP Lite Course and start your process of Establishing the basic tools for Self Correction and Realization so that you could become the Seed of Life that would bring about Harmonized Life as a Living example.

 

Derren Brown Expose - Crowed behaviour is Evil - Day 246

 

 

I just finished watching Derren Brown - The Gameshow and frankly what Derren showed on a micro-cosmos level, is exactly how humanity as a whole works and functions as a crowd - Directly and indirectly through our collective silent acceptance of this world system. But before I'll explain, let's review the show in a nutshell.

 

In this show, Derren Brown did an experiment on a crowd that had no idea they are the subject of the experiment but rather they believed that they are participants on a new TV show.

What the Crowd had to do, anonymously, was to vote/decide the fate of another human being that had no clue that everyone around him involves and play/act according to the crowd decisions.

The Crowd always had 2 choices the vote from: A. Positive Outcome; B. Negative Outcome.

Each time, the crowd chose the Negative outcome without considering that a man's life is in stake and what would be the traumatic consequences this may lead to.

 

Since Derren Brown knew, and could easily anticipate what the crowd will chose each time, he decided to prepare a fake part in case the crowd in fact decides to embarrass their Evil Nature in its totality, to prevent the harm/injury of the being that was the scapegoat of the crowd decisions.

 

When the fake part took place, and the being merely killed when a car ran over him, Derren Brown exposed the true Evil Nature of human beings when and as they are acting anonymously and decide the fate of another human being without ever looking at themselves, looking at the consequences and outflows and not only that, cheering all the way through the Evil decisions they have made. The more Negative experience the being had and the more serious outcome it led to, the more the crowd cheered up.

 

(I suggest watching it for yourself, for a better impression of what human beings are capable of.)

 

When I read the reviews of this show, done by Psychologists, it was interesting to see how to Psychologist tried to diminish Brown's experiment by claiming that the experiment wasn't done properly despite of them being familiar with Crowd Behaviour:

 

"...Why is all this important? Does it really matter to anyone other than social psychologists that outdated theory is portrayed as factual on prime-time television? The point is that an understanding of crowd psychology has important consequences for society. Regarding crowds as anti-social entities acting without identity or reason can legitimate their violent repression by security forces, prevent intragroup helping in emergencies, and facilitate the dismissal of popular protest as irrational by those in positions of power. Poor theory can therefore ultimately lead to both public disorder, and an attack upon our democratic rights as individuals to express our views collectively. It is therefore in all of our interests to gain an accurate understanding of crowd behaviour, rather than rely upon outdated theory that is not only wrong, but dangerous.."

 

So, what is the Democratic Right as Individual to Express our Views collectively?

There is only ONE right that can be Valid within this context and that is the Right to a Life that is best for all. Throughout History, there wasn't once that a crowd stood up and expressed their Right for a world that is best for all COLLECTIVELY and yet, we have the right to do so. What we did stood for was for Lynches, Wars, Crucifixions and so on.

 

Where is our Individual Expression as a collective when we as the Individuals accepting and allowing the Collective Consequences that manifested in this world? Here is a part of Lindsay Craver Blog that is relevant to this discussion:

 

...Each day that I walk the Learned Helplessness Character in writing and in living-correction is another day that I peel back yet another layer and get to see with more clarity just how important it is to eradicate every single acceptance of helplessness within myself and equally within this world. I do not and cannot accept myself nor this world to cower under a pressure that isn’t even real, but is self-induced as a way to try/attempt to get out of standing accountable, because one single 20 year old did not shoot and kill all those children today, one single soldier did not ever drop a bomb on a village full of children, one single man did not make a decision to starve entire countries – we ALL pulled the trigger, we ALL dropped the bomb, and we ALL withheld and continue to withhold vital resources from those who are in dire need – and indeed, to come to terms with this fact is one of the most difficult things that we will ever require to do as human beings, because to come to terms is to admit our wretchedness, is to admit that we are accomplices in acts of atrocious violence,  yet it is through admitting our inadequacies and total failures at being and becoming the potential that we are actually able to be, that we are able to have the courage and humility to stand corrected and to embrace the absolute shame for what we have done so that we can through this make absolute sure that not another child is robbed of life in any way, ever again...

 

Thus, It is Detrimental that we will become aware of our indirect Individual Expression as Collective in seeing, realizing and understanding what we are in fact expression and the consequences thereof. When we see a world of abuse where Children are born to a life of misery and yet we remain quite, our expression is of acceptance and allowance of the continuation of a world of abuse and suffering for the majority of the people.

 

We are Evil in Nature, regardless if we are in a crowd that supports our Evilness Nature or as an individual that sit on their asses and do nothing to change this world. Our Individual Expression in all times MUST be according to Principles that are best for all because otherwise, we are responsible for each and every outcome and consequences that exist within this world because we didn't stand up and stop, nor ourselves or this world to continue its cycle of abuse that we have accepted and allowed through our Individual expression.

 

The Focus of this show was to Expose Crowd behaviour and the cruelty Crowd behaviour can lead to. What was not exposed in this show is the Indirectly Crowd Behaviour of us human being, that have the means and power to change the fate of this world, to prevent the birth of children to a world of abuse and instead to prepare the way before them to birth into world that will take care of them, from birth till death.

Understand, our Silent Expression is still an expression of what we accept and allow and what we will not. The fact we do nothing to change the face of this world indicate our Evil Expression of Human Beings.

If you get what I'm saying, it is time you join the Crowd that is standing up for a world that is best for all, face your evil nature and change yourself to be and become an effective human being in this world that Express, in every moment of every breathe the Principle of Give as you'd Like to Receive and Love thy Neighbour as thyself. Investigate Equal Money System and the Desteni I Process.

 

 

Seeing the Evil Nature in Dreams - Day 229

This a continuation to:

From Evilness to Life - Day 226

The seclusion in Inclusion - Day 227

 

I had Quite a Vivid dream last night which was fascinating from the perspective that I had listen to the Life Review Interview - Dream Interpreter the day before, which was a great assistance and support in walking through the point that had opened up in the dream.

 

As was explained in the interview, Dreams are specific and represents one's Personalities Participation in one's day to day Living which Consciousness may imprint to the Dream Domain and through this, one could assist and support oneself to see what one require to further investigate within and as oneself and accordingly take responsibility and change from a Mind Personality to a Living Physical Expression of and as oneself.

 

In this Life Review, a man came through the Portal to share his life on Earth within his relationship to how he would interpret dreams and what he had Realized about himself and the Consequences of his actions on earth within his relationship to Dream interpretation after he had died and within that, how little did he actually understood about Dreams and their meanings.

 

It was suggested that one would look at one's reactions, behaviour, memories, past events, experiences etc. that came up in the dream because that will show the relationships that one haven't sorted out yet, within and as oneself.

 

So now that I'm working with the Evil Point within the last 3 days of writing, it was interesting that the Dream came up to show me another layer/dimension that I haven't looked at yet in self honesty, which I'm grateful for as I'm seeing within and as myself now that this unresolved point within me, is a key factor that is causing a friction and conflict within my relationship with another human being in my Physical Environment for more than 2 years now.

 

So - Within my relationship with this being, we had 2 past experiences wherein I perceived the being to betray me with getting involved with 2 males (in 2 separated occasions) that the being knew I was interested with. None one of these males where in alignment to where I was within my process and the chances of us actually getting to know each other and developing a stable and supportive relationship/agreement, were close to nothing, and yet, I still perceive the being to spite me and I started developing and growing resentment towards the being within and as myself, very slowly but surely.

 

I haven't face this point in writing till now but I see already that it is detrimental to face this point and correct myself because as long as I keep and hold onto this memory about this being, and the experience of being betrayed, I would not be able to stand in Equality with the being. What I've seen within and as myself was that, I would deliberately activate this memory of the experience of being betrayed in moments that I feel inferior within the relationship with the being and I would access this revenge that exists within me and would get the 'Power' to spite, and talk the being down through justifying to myself that I cannot trust them due to past event where they have hurt me.

 

In the Dream that I had, me and this being were in a camping park with lots of people around us, maybe watching a movie on a big screen or something and we saw a couple of friends of us, male and a female that were waving towards us to come over. The guy is someone that I knew in real life, a guy that I had a sex relationship a few years back. Our level of communication was abusive in nature where he would disrespect me in front of others and I would accept it because I had sex with him and I had to justify to myself that it is fine so that I would be able to continue having sex with him. In the dream, the being and I started walking towards the 2 friends and I've noticed that the being is planning to sit next to the guy and I felt a surge of jealousy, resentment and anger within me like: "what the fuck, why does she get to sit next to him, this is my guy". I can't remember which one of us set next to the guy but I remember I was talking to myself in calming myself down, reminding myself that this guy isn't someone that I even want to be with but I felt the competition in walking to them faster so that I could win and get what I wanted before the being could take the guy away from me again.

 

When I woke up and looked at the dream, investigating my reactions, the experience, the back chat, the thoughts, my expression, the way I behaved and so forth, it was clear that the past event of me feeling betrayed still affect my relationship with this being till this day, as there is a part of me that would not let it go and trust the relationship to stand when and as there is a male in the picture in particular but it also goes to the extent of which, I would not trust the being in other instances and would always keep a certain distance so that I wouldn't get hurt again.

 

It was fascinating because this part of me that wouldn't let go, the part that would keep the need to revenge to protect myself, is the Evil personality that I've been working within the last few days and here I go, having a dream that is so specific that shows a point within and as myself that I was not willing to face before.

 

I will continue walking this point with a process of Self Forgiveness and Practical corrective application however, for today, here is an example of how to work with dreams in a practical way, as was explained in much more specificity within the Life Review - Dream Interpreter.

 

For those who are working with dreams or have worked in the past, I suggest listening to this interview as it would give some insights and points to consider when and as one work with dreams.

 

The seclusion in Inclusion - Day 227

This a continuation to:

From Evilness to Life - Day 226

 

For the context of this blog, Please read Earth's Journey to Life blog - "Birthing ourselves as life, as a partnership Part 11 - Understanding the reflection in the mirror - I feel excluded".

 

 

 

 

 

Here is an extraction from the blog:

 

"...The symbolism of seeing 2 people busy with something where I see myself as incapable of participating on their level – Now here ‘their level’ means that I do not see myself as capable of doing what they are doing – be that a form of socialising / work related / discussion related.

 

Firstly here to notice, is that I had judged myself as incapable of participating –which means that I had judged myself as ‘not good enough’ – But this judgment stands in comparison to these 2 other people. So – through me judging myself through comparison as to what it is that I see others are doing – I ‘exclude’ (separate) myself from what is happening, as I had made the decision and choice within and as myself that I am not capable (I judged myself). I am thus the one who ‘excluded’ myself from what was happening and by me not wanting to seeing that I had done this, I blame others ‘for excluding’ me, when it was in fact me excluding me for what was happening.

 

When we face points where we ‘feel’ excluded we are to investigate the nature of the situation as we create our own self fulfilling prophesies where we exclude ourselves (through our judgements) and then project these feelings of exclusion onto the people whom we excluded (judged) from ourselves…"

 

After I read Esteni's blog, I had a look within and as myself, whether or not, when and as I'm one of these 2 people, and I see the third being struggling within and as themselves with their own self judgement that was described, if there is any Evil Energetic Movement within and as myself, enjoying the fact that I am now More than within the other's eyes. 

 

I was not surprise to find within and as myself, the Dark Evil joyful character that I've created within and as myself, wherein, I've accepted and allowed myself to participate in the Superior/Inferior game that I played with the third being, within and as my resonance expression. In these moments, I wouldn't make an effort to include the third being and I would deliberately create a 'special relationship' with the second being so that the Third being would be jealous, judgemental towards oneself through comparing themselves to me.

 

I forgive myself that I've NOT accepted and allowed myself to consider the beings in my direct environment and within that, how I'm directly responsible for how they would experience themselves wherein, I would deliberately accept and allow myself to create a friction and conflict within and as themselves through presenting to them a specific picture which they would be jealous at and activate jealousy towards me which would give me the experience of being More and Superior in my own mind. Within this, I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to NOT considering all points, all relationship, all consequences and align these points/relationships/consequences within and as the principle of what is best for all and do onto another that which you'd like to be done to you wherein, instead of deliberately creating situation where I know that others would fall into their patterns and I would experience myself as More in comparison to their fall, to stand as a pillar of support for myself and others in walking WITH other human beings, as Equal, where we could learn from each other, expand, grow and empower ourselves and each other in walking together as ONE unit instead of Two or more enemies.

 

Thus, I commit myself to-  when and as I find myself in situations where I'm having a conversation with a person and there is another being in the room, accessing inferiority, self judgement and jealousy, I stop, I breathe and I look within and as myself in checking my own alignments in that moment, my starting point, energetic movement, what would be the best solution in consideration of all the relationship that exists within that moment and accordingly, align myself, align the situation in standing in absolute self honesty within and as myself.

 

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to form relationships and groups that exclude some beings and include only the "special" ones according to my 'likes' and/or my 'Preference', not seeing, realizing and understanding that my 'Likes' and 'Preferences' were created by me, according to a specific program design that I've accepted and allowed as myself, in separation of myself and that I've utilized these 'likes' and 'Preference' based on what would give me the best result outcome for an experience that I would be satisfied with, with no consideration regarding who am I stepping on, in the process of me getting the experience that I desire to have within and as myself.

 

In this, I forgive myself that I've NOT accepted and allowed myself to see, realize and understand that what I accept and allow myself to participate in my direct environment, I accept and allow to exists in the world wherein, we created Groups, Cultures, Religion that Includes some and excludes others without realizing, understanding and directly seeing that unless we stand together as ONE group, united, within ONE principle of that which is best for all, there is no chance we would ever bring about a world that is Best for all living creatures.

 

And in this, I commit myself to assist and support myself in changing the way I view myself and this world, from a mind self interest dimension to a physical absolute and direct seeing of all the relationships, all the consequences, all the points that form our lives as a whole and to do so, I start with myself, in assisting and supporting myself to dissect all the Evil parts of myself that I've created, accepted and allowed within and as myself and bring myself to physical equal and one standing with all that is here through first stand in equal and one relationship with my own mind, expand myself in standing equal and one with the beings in my environment to then standing equal and one with the rest of existence.

 

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to treat others in the very same way that I wouldn't want others to treat me, from a starting point of Spite, in self interest, to diminish them so that I could be More, not seeing, realizing and understanding that the reason why I wouldn't want to be treated in a specific behaviour by others is because I know, within and as myself the evilness that this behaviour is consisting of and existing as because I'm doing the same to others. And thus, instead of developing and establishing relationships that are based on mutual respect, understanding, expansion and growth, I create relationships that are based on pure Evil to elevate my own Experiences of being more on the backs of and the expanse of others. 

 

I commit myself to - when and as I see others reacting to me, to assess and check in self honesty whether or not I had a part in how they are experiencing themselves, whether or not I'm directly, and deliberately supporting their reaction so that I could experience myself as more and in doing so, I check and assess how I would react if I were in their shoes and accordingly, align the moment in the utmost supportive way in taking into consideration the consequences and outflows of each decision that I make.

From Evilness to Life - Day 226

There are moments in time where one sees what one is doing to another, what it is that one is deliberately accepting and allowing within and as oneself, one see’s how one's words and actions has an affect on others in harmful and destructive ways and yet, one would continue one's participation in one's design/program/pattern/character/personality and would never take responsibility for such moments in making sure that one would not accept and allow oneself to ever again harm oneself and other human beings in this world.

 

This is why I am now writing this blog as I've seen in myself the Evilness that exists within myself, that I've accepted and allowed to accumulate Evilness  over the years, without giving myself any constructive and supportive direction and as such, my actions, my words and my resonance outflows, may harm and cause damage to others as the only things that I would consider in such moments are ME and my Experiences and I would not consider the other beings at all. Till here no further.

 

This blog will be an overview of the points that I've seen within and as myself thus far and from here, I would go into more details and specifics in assisting and supporting myself in walking the path of standing Equal to and One as other human beings and within that, stand as a support rather than a machine that suck the life out from other beings to sustain my Ego/Personalities as how I've defined myself as 'who I am' in separation of myself, others and this world as a whole.

 

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to desire to be so much more than another human being that within that, I would accept and allow myself to walk over their toes and smash them so completely, in making them so small within and as my mind so that I could remain in control over them which would give me the Experience that I'm More. Within that, I forgive myself that I've not accepted and allowed myself to question myself as to why and how I have accepted and allowed the pattern/design as desire to be more, to exists within and as me and within that, haven't assisted and supported myself in stopping this pattern/design as the desire to be more and accordingly standing in alignment to the other being, in an assisting and supportive relationship instead of diminished and compromised relationship that would not benefit anything or anyone.

 

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to try and attempt to make people so small in comparison to me, in my own mind, internally and externally and thus utilized all my "powers" as manipulation and defence tactics in doing all that I can so that they won't grow and expand themselves within who they are so that I won't have to stand in Equality with them but always remain more than them, in my own eyes but then, not seeing, realizing and understanding that I'm not only compromising them, but also compromising myself in  deliberately not assisting and supporting myself and others, equally as one to grow, expand and empower ourselves in becoming effective, trustworthy and respectful human beings in this world.

 

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to deliberately create and manifest relationships in my life with beings that I "see" and perceive as less than me so that I could always stand in a superior position, in control over them. Within that, I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself when the Relationship Dynamic changes and the being is actually moving and changing themselves in assisting and supporting themselves to grow, expand and empower themselves within who they are, to react within and as myself because how I have defined myself as more and superior according to them, has now collapsed and I can no longer sustain the superior personality that I've created within and as myself. Within this, I forgive myself that I've NOT accepted and allowed myself to assist and support myself in standing in absolute self trust as who I am, without needing/desiring/wanting to be More than who I am and specifically, in comparison to others.

 

I forgive myself that I've NOT accepted and allowed myself to see how Evil one can be and become, in how one would speak, move, behave to other human beings in one's world within and as oneself when and as one accept and allow oneself to deliberately manipulate oneself and one's relationships with other human beings, within the starting point of keeping the Relationship Dynamics as it always was in satisfying one's desire to define oneself according to a specific attribute or component that one perceive oneself as lacking within and as oneself through the other being.

 

I commit myself to STOP the Evilness that I've accepted and allowed within and as myself and within that, be aware of such moments where I would change my personality in the attempt to diminish others on my behalf, to sustain my own self created definition that I've defined myself as within my relationships with others.

 

I commit myself to assist and support myself in walking the process from Evilness to life that is best for all and within that, to investigate all the points within and as myself that I've accepted and allowed the Evil nature to override the principle of what is best for all life.

 

I commit myself to Re-Establish my relationships with other people in my world and direct myself within the relationships according to that which is best for all as a principle wherein, we transform the relationships to constructive and supportive where both would assist and support ourselves to grow, empower and expand ourselves as living beings instead of limit, compromise and diminish ourselves within who we are in our relationships to ourselves and each other.

 

I commit myself to investigate why and how I've created relationships that I could experience myself as superior and within that, its relationship to the polarized experience within and as myself, as inferior that I've attempted to suppress through creating relationship that would defined me externally, otherwise.

From the Bossy to the Loser - Day 215

This is a continuation to:

The Elite's delusion of stress - Part 1 - Day 45	The REAL Fear - Day 192
The Elite's Delusion of Stress - Part 2 - Day 46	The things we Won't tell ANYONE - Day 193
The Decision of TIME - Day 67	Missing out on the Good Life - Day 194
The Decision of TIME - Day 67	Let's have some Fun - Day 195
Copy Paste Character - The Education System - Day 184	Stupidity Loop - Jumping from the Bad to the Good to the Bad - Day 196
Is it possible to Cheat yourself? Day 185	The Smoke Screen of Ignorance - Day 197
It is time to STOP Existing as a Human Machine - Day 186	Leaving in a Dream - Day 208
The End of Times - Day 187	Having the Life Style you always dreamt to have - Day 209
Facing the Evil within - the KEY to LIFE - Day 188	IT is MY time Now - don't say a word - Day 210
Fear of Disappointing others - Day 189	Let's go on Vacation - Day 211
The Psychology of TIME - Day 190	Comparison is a Bitch - Day 212
I Regret, therefor, I'm a Good Person. NOT!!! - Day 191	Damn, I will never have everything done - Day 213
	Standing as an Example - Self Interest or Self Realization? - Day 214

 

For the purpose of context, suggest reading these posts above prior to reading the post below, if you haven’t already. Here I will be walking the 'I don't have TIME' Character - Internal Conversation/ back chat Dimension - Practical support with Self Forgiveness and Self Commitments.

 

Here, one must understand that the Back chat, are the source of all Evil wherein, what one accepting and allowing within oneself, within the belief that no one will ever find out, is nasty and evil shit. Therefor, I will be walking back chat by back chat, in making sure I purify myself from the Evil that I've accepted and allowed within myself, in the context of the ' I don't have Time' Character.

 

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Look at X - X is working much harder then me, X is studying, working, walking the responsibilities X committed to, sleeping for 2-3 hours - if X can do it, I must do it and stop complaining.

 

Within this backchat my starting point is still in comparison that was activated within a reaction towards the idea/opinion that I don't have enough time. Thus, instead of utilizing X as an Example and within that reminding myself that there is an example that I can learn from and perfect myself to stand as Equal to this being, I participated in this backchat from the starting point of calming myself down, after a series of previous backchat that were more self destructive in nature.

 

As I've mentioned in my Previous blog - Standing as an example doesn't mean standing as more or less than anyone else, standing as an example is a self expression within the realization of: This is who I am, this is why I am here and this is how I decide to walk my life in assisting and support myself as others within the principle of Give as You would Like to Receive and as I received the Gift of having people in my Life that are standing as an example of what I could be and become, I make the decision for and as myself to walk my Own process in becoming that which I can become and so, as I walk my process, I'm Giving that which I received by standing as Example as an expression of myself.

 

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to believe that having a backchat within the nature of calming self down is Valid and within that, haven't realized how I've manipulated myself within the belief that calming myself down through Thoughts is supportive and accordingly haven't investigated the nature of the backchat, what is behind the backchat and what is the backchat imply regarding to who I am within that moment. I forgive myself that I've NOT accepted and allowed myself to realize that calming myself down with thoughts is still done within a reaction and not in complete and absolute self movement of seeing what I have accepted and allowed myself to participate with and to accordingly, as I see, realize and understand the point, moving through this, bring myself here, BREATHE and keep on going. 

 

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to compare myself to a being that I perceive to be better than me, as a motivator Key to how I would move and direct myself through Thoughts within and as myself, not seeing, realizing and understanding that this being is simply an example of self movement that shows me that once a decision is made in absolute self honesty and clarity, self is effective within and as oneself which reflect in what one do, as an expression of who one is.

 

In this, I forgive myself that I've NOT accepted and allowed myself to see the starting point within having a comparative back chat within and as myself and its relationship to the Diminishment character that I've created within and as myself wherein, I've Utilized a comparison point to "Remind" myself how I'm not good enough because there are others who are better than me and thus, I must not complain and simply do the work. In that, I forgive myself that I've NOT accepted and allowed myself to see how through calming myself down in such away, through suppressing the 'I don't have time' Character, I had Shifted to the 'Diminishment Character' instead of assisting and supporting myself in standing within and as myself, so absolute and directive, in letting all of this Go, Breathe and move on.

 

A suggested reading to clarify the relationship between comparison and self diminishment:

The Self Diminishment Character - Day 94

They are Better than me, I'm so fucked up - Day 95

Taking responsibility for my creation - Day 96

 

" I don't understand how Y is doing what she is doing; I mean seriously, she is like a super woman.

What the fuck is wrong with me? why can't I simply apply myself breath by breath and have things done? Why I'm always complaining and blaming and being jealous.

 

What is "Wrong" with me is now the 'Diminishment' Character in full action that I had accepted and allowed myself to access to and give all my power away. So here, Despite of me noticing within and as myself that I compare, and complain, and blame and all of it through Jealousy, I still accept and allow this energy, this possessed entity to exists within and as me.

 

So, being so all mighty in my Previous back that that was discussed in Standing as an Example - Self Interest or Self Realization? - Day 214, to comparing myself to X, I slowly but surely went from the Polarity of being superior towards those that I've diminished in my mind, those that I had defined as ineffective in comparison to my "effectiveness", I now went into the other polarity, seeing my ineffectiveness in comparison to X and then I conclude that I'm worthless through the comparison to Y - that is how the Diminishment Character works and functions which I again suggest reading (Day 94-96)

 

I Commit myself to assist and support myself to STOP bouncing from one character to the other through NOT accepting and allowing myself any backchat whatsoever within and as my mind. I understand that it is going to take a process of Breath Accumulation and so, I commit myself to Remain Humble within and as myself, to not accept and allow myself to judge and be hard on myself and to simply, walk the layers of the mind, as it reveal itself, slowly but Surely.

 

I Commit myself to establish Self Respect within and as myself and to stop Diminishing myself and others within and as my mind as I see, realize and understand the Evil that exists within and as the Diminishment of others and I now walk the correction, Stop Comparing, competing, judging and spiting other people and myself, within and as my mind. Thus, When and as I see a backchat comes up, where I compare, judge, diminish and spite myself and others, I stop, I breathe, Delete and move on. I see, realize and understand that temptation would come and it is up to me to decide, in any given moment of breath whether I respect myself and others in self honesty, or whether I accept and allow the Evil nature of me to take over in absolute possession and so - I commit myself to assist and support myself to Decide, over and over and over again, to stand as Life until I no longer require to remind myself as I'm the living expression of Life that is best for all.