The Effect of ONE single thought - Day 470

It is interesting how sometimes we have a thought as a reaction within ourselves but we got so used to these type of  thought as a part of who we are and so, when the thoughts comes up inside ourselves, we do not question the thoughts as we believe these thoughts are valid and thus, no flag point are coming up for us to unconditionally investigate the nature of these thoughts, the source of these thoughts, where did it come from, why did it come up, what activated it, what behavior pattern the thoughts are based, who we are in relation to these thoughts and so on and so forth.

 

So for example with myself, I remember waking up one day, grabbing my cell phone to check my e-mails and a thought came up: "But why no one directed the point already" as a reaction within myself however, I did not identify the reaction within that thought at all, it was sooo normal, there was no obvious energy movement inside - like another normal day started type of thing.

 

As I moved with the day, I decided to direct the point myself because I am walking the 'direction' process now whereas, if I see that something needs to be directed, I stand up within the realization that it is my responsibility, as the one who saw the problem,  to move myself to direct the solution.
 

All this time, I did NOT see that there is a reaction within myself, it was very very subtle which is interesting because usually, when I am reacting, the emotional body is activating very quickly but in this case, there was no emotion that I could see/feel inside myself at all.  I mean really, this point was so specific - what happened that day - I projected my thought/reaction from the moment I woke up onto someone else without consciously being aware of it - the entire day I was under the "impression" that another have had a slight reaction within themselves and I kept on asking them what the story was all about lol. I kept on asking the person if there is anything that they slightly reacted to today because from my perspective, I was "certain" that I "saw" in this person a slight reaction in how their expression changed during the day. Lol it is fascinating - I couldn't pinpoint the type of reaction that I have "noticed" in them but I was absolutely certain that they are acting strange as if they are slightly reacting to something or someone.

 

This person kept on saying that they looked at what I was saying but they didn't find any reaction inside themselves so I  let it go for a moment because I didn't see it as a big point to pursue. Later on, I saw the person in my environment, and I again "noticed" a slight reaction within the person so I kept on pushing the point with this person.

 

By evening time, I had a look at my day so far because it didn't make sense to me as to why I am seeing a reaction in another while they are in self honesty did not react inside themselves. So I had to first turn the point back to myself and check whether I'm actually projecting my 'slight reaction' onto another without seeing that all along, I was the one who was slightly reacting.

 

When I turned the point back to myself, I looked at the entire day until I got to the first thought I had when I woke up - the thought that was based on a reaction of "But why no one directed the point already". It was so interesting because this 'slight reaction' as a thought - I completely missed;  as you could read in my previous blogs, the pattern that I played throughout my entire life was to shift my responsibility towards others to direct points for me a I defined myself as incapable/weak to direct some points myself.

 

The pattern of shifting responsibility to another contained thoughts like: "why this was not directed? Why does this person not directing the point already" as how I shifted my responsibility and justified it in my mind, not seeing, realizing and understanding that in fact, me having the thoughts: "why this was not directed? Why does this person not directing the point already" was actually me asking myself why did I not direct the point"?  "Why did I haven't yet taken my responsibility to direct a point?.

 

So, because of reactions are/were  an integral/interconnected part of who I have defined myself as, I didn't see the thought as a reaction at all and I didn't see how I was in a state of reaction throughout the day. From my perspective, I believed that I toke responsibility for the point when I directed the solution so inside my mind, I couldn't use the thought: "Why it was not done/directed already" because as far as I was concerned, I was directing the point earlier that day. But - the reaction that I activated in the morning, with one single thought, continued very so slightly the entire day.

 

This in itself led me to the question - did I even direct the point effectively if I was coming from a starting point of reaction, even if it was just a slight reaction?

Getting to know the mind is a fascinating process - how quickly in our mind we react - showing the interconnectedness of the Mind Systems and the level of specificity we must get with ourselves to ensure we have not miss even one breath and actually directed ourselves and our environment to the best outcome.

 

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Art work: Dottie Gleason

Who is to Blame - Day 469

An interesting point opened up today in relation to my process 'Direction' as a living word. For context, I suggest to also read through the blog series -  'Direction' as a Living Word - Day 467' .

 

So, I have aligned myself in relation to my living application and Direction BUT only within ONE dimension where I have taken my responsibility to stand as a point of direction. What I haven't aligned was the living application as an absolute expression of myself, in relation to all and every points that I am able to stand as the directive principle.

 

For example, what I have done in relation to specific point was to place in my mind, a point of direction, as if it was 'belongs' to someone else to direct or more specifically, as if the responsibility to decide on the course of direction is for that one person only. Within that though, I have reacted to what I perceived to be their decision of direction as the direction that was seemingly decided, effected my "quality of life" on some levels. And because it effected my quality of life, I was reacting within and as myself and within the reaction, went and ask the other person to change their decision and direct the point differently. but because I saw the decision to be theirs and theirs alone, I felt that I am powerless within the decision and believed that I have to compromise and just let it be, even if it is effecting me.

 

Though, I didn't let go of the reaction, as I felt powerless within the decision that was made and therefore, every day, it became more intense in terms of the things that I had to do which I believed that are effecting my quality of life. The fascinating thing within that point is that, If I stand back for a moment to look at what really changed in my "quality of life", nothing really changed - for the most part, I had a chance to learn something about myself in realizing what it really means to stand with another unconditionally.

 

Tonight  it got to a point where I literally had enough, though, as a reaction within myself - which thereafter, the point could opened up -

In my mind, I did give the point the direction within my 'accepted boundaries' where I believed that the decision is not my own to take, and so, everyday for the past week, I asked the other person to look again at their decision. Every time, I got the same answer and that perpetuated the reaction within myself. The thing is - this was not a direction as a living application. Going and asking someone else to look at their decision within a reaction, doesn't mean 'direction' - if anything, it is an  abdication of responsibility. Because within asking another to look at their decision and every day telling them the same things is not the same thing as COMMUNICATING with another, without any reaction, and truly discuss the decision as in genuinely asking them to share with me what was the point they were looking at within the decision that they have made and therefore, with having all the information in place, seeing if the decision is valid and/or require alignment/adjustment which I am then able to stand as a point of support.

 

In essence what I have done was self-deception whereas, "I'm the good one"/"They are the bad ones" as they did a decision that I am not satisfied with. BUT - did I tell them that I was not satisfied within a clear starting point? No. Did I ask them to share with me what was involved with the decision to see if there is anything I haven't considered before? No; 

 

The Blame came out today on the other person whereas I used the reaction that I accumulated inside myself in blaming them bluntly that they have made the wrong decision. When I was asked a simple question: "Why haven't you directed the point" I said: "Well, but I did, but THEY didn't listen to me". But wait a second - I didn't really direct the point as I showed above. So what is it that I actually did? Justifying in my mind why I was directing the point as part of my commitment to live 'direction' while at the same time, blaming the other for not directing the point as I would have directed the point, without even communicate it with them - this is an application of 'abdicating responsibility' and 'manipulation'

 

This play-out of events,  takes me back to how the mind is mutating preprogrammed patterns within the process of change wherein, when I made a decision to change a point within myself, I later found that I repeated the same pattern in a mutated version.

 

Obviously, an alignment/correction must be made, self forgiveness is applied and forgiveness from the other is required.

How to now correct my living application - firstly, looking at how my reality played out recently, more points in relation to 'direction' are showing themselves. Thus, placing a red flag for each and every reaction that I have and accordingly ask myself, who I am in relation to 'Direction' and the 'Reaction' that is playing out? Is there any point within the reaction that is coming from the desire of placing the responsibility and thereafter blame on another instead of standing as a point of direction.

 

Secondly, to make a list of all the points that I'm holding others responsible inside my mind and see where have I abdicated responsibility in relation to the point and from there, make the necessary alignment within myself.

 

So stay tuned.

 

 

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Art Work: Dottie Gleason

Stop, Breathe, Direct - Day 440

A few days ago, I was writing about the difference between Reaction and Response and I promised to share more examples for us to see how a small change in one's living application creates a big change in one's relationship to oneself and others.

 

So, within walking this point of correction, in terms of correcting my preprogram design whereas I had the tendency to quickly judge something or someone as a reaction within myself, to a living application of 'Direct seeing' the physical reality, the relationship that the physical reality based on and accordingly, response to that which is presented 'here' at any given moment as a living directive principle.

 

Obviously, it is very important to understand that getting to a point of 'direct seeing' isn't manifesting in one moment as a separate moment in time. It is a process that I'm busy walking where I accumulate moments of correction and slowly but surely, 'Directly See' will emerge as a living expression of myself.

Many may confuse the term 'Direct seeing' to 'Enlightenment' so here is to make it very clear -

One must realize, as I did, that there is no quick fix and that Enlightenment is a point that the spiritual people invented to avoid taking responsibility for our physical reality within the hope that in one moment they will change and everything will be peaceful and magnificent. No - this is not what direct seeing is all about - Direct seeing is a skill acquired by oneself through walking one process of correction on a Physical level, there is nothing special about it, in fact, it is quite normal if we really look at it. What is abnormal is the fact that we do not yet have direct seeing to that which is here on a physical level. Each one of us has the potential and the only thing that separate us from becoming the potential we can become is ourselves through the separate relationship we have created with our mind, the physical and ourselves.

 

After this little disclaimer (lol) I want to share here how I was able to assist and support myself today to move from Reaction to Response within one specific moment and how I commit myself to continue to support myself in perfecting such moments wherein I would move in a quantum moment to response as an expression of myself instead of allowing a moment of reaction to direct me. Let me explain -

 

As you know, in Desteni we work with the principle of cross referencing, double checking, aligning, cross referencing again and so forth. I was double checking that a point was applied by another because the projects we are working on always consists of multiple people collaborating and within each project, each one has a responsibility for a specific point however, we all stand as a cross reference point for one another. 

I was cross referencing today that a specific and new task was done to its completion and I found out that somewhere along the line, the point was not done. Within myself, I reacted and judged the other for not walking their responsibility effectively and within and through the reaction, I took the task on myself and directed it but again, as a reaction that I have experienced within myself and thus, it was not as a living expression of myself as a response. This type of reaction is within the nature of Control which is another point that I'm currently busy changing and correcting. (Also see - Can Life be Controlled - Day 416)

 

Then, I realized that I was reacting, as my physical body changed in terms of being more constricted and firm, I stopped, I breathed and I checked the information because whenever there is a point of judgment within myself, there is information that I didn't consider. Meaning - I could only judge that which I don't understand. I started tracing back the information, seeing that everything and everyone are on the same page, that all of us has the same information or access to the same information and so I found that the person that I was previously judging and reacting to, do not have access to the information that I had and therefore, practically and physically, the being couldn't apply their responsibility.

 

I realized that the fact that the being didn't realize that their responsibility was not applied was because from the get go, the being didn't have all the information and from that perspective, they didn't even know what is it that they are responsible for. This is the being point to investigate within themselves as to why they have accepted and allowed themselves to take a point without having all the information and making sure they are clear on what the responsibility practically implies however, if I would to only judge them and thus taking the responsibility from them, there is no way that I could see what was missed by all parties and accordingly, I would not be standing in a position of supporting myself nor them within it all; I would not be standing in a position where I could show them where they have missed the point of making sure the task is clear and applicable and within that, what the responsibility of this task practically implies.

 

Here, I showed to myself again that reacting and judging is counterproductive as it leaves the problem without any resolution where all the participants are limited in their ability to take their responsibilities back to ourselves and walk the practical correction/solution.

Thus, when I found the source of the problem, I could direct the point and ensure that the task is applied into perfection  and that was when I moved to response whereas I first identified the problem and then presented a solution, cross referenced with others that the solution is valid, applicable and effective so that all of us could move to correction within our physical living application of the responsibilities that we took on for ourselves.

 

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The difference between Reaction and Response - Day 438

I was doing shopping on the supermarket today and it was quite busy in there. The man behind me ran over my foot with his trolley and as I felt the pain, a surge of anger possessed me, as a reaction within myself. I snapped at the guy and yelled at him.

When I investigated the moment of Anger that came up with the pain, I realize that I missed a breath and allowed my preprogram design to kick in and within that, I acted out of reaction instead of a response.

 

Moving from a reaction to a response is a point I'm currently working on in terms of correcting my preprogram design of reaction and instead taking a moment to see the points clearly and with clarity, directing the point to its upmost potential. Directing the point to its fullest potential is what I define as 'response' in terms of seeing that there is a problem and only direct within stability, after looking at all the points and seeing the best path to walk that would eventually lead to the best for all outcome.   

 

So for instance within the example of someone running over me with his trolley in the supermarket - Obviously, snapping at him and reacting to the pain that I've experienced within myself is not acceptable. What would be beneficial in these situations is - firstly, take a moment and stabilize my human physical body. Here, one must take a breath and realize that the pain won't go away just because we reacted and yelled at the person; actually, the opposite will probably manifest - the snapping point is the Adrenalin that is produced from the source of the pain and with yelling at another, we actually perpetuating the adrenalin and making the pain worse.

The fascinating thing is that when a sharp pain is manifesting, making a specific sound within stabilizing the body may be supportive though it would be a constant sound, like ' hammmm' sound that is coming from our beingness as a decision we made within ourselves to support ourselves to stabilize the body.

 

Anyway, the second step is to assess the environment - In the example that I shared, I snapped at the guy for not considering his physical environment BUT - it was actually me who didn't consider my physical environment. The moment he ran over me, was the moment I saw LJ and Maite and I stopped for a moment to talk to them. I saw them coming towards me and I knew that I would stop for a moment and yet, I didn't let the guy behind me be aware of what I was aware that is going to happened. Meaning, I could have directed my environment by either signal LJ and Maite to move to the left so that we won't stop in the middle of the place where lots of traffic is taking place; or - I could let the guy behind me know that I'm going to stop for a moment and that he need to bypass me.

 

But let's say that LJ and Maite would not be around - in the case most likely that if the guy would have to run over me with his trolley, it would be because the guy was somewhere in his mind and didn't notice that I'm right in front of him - instead of yelling at him after the event, I could have talk to him and show him what is the consequences of being so much in the mind without considering the physical reality and if I would to do that, it would be a response rather than a reaction that would not support neither myself or the other being to actually learn from one's mistake and apply the correction in one's living application.

 

This is a very simple example of the difference between Reaction and Response. As time goes by, I will share more examples so that we can all learn from each other reactions and start moving to response to effectively direct ourselves and our environment in ways that would empower ourselves and others instead of diminishing ourselves and others.

 

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Beyond the Scene of Impatience voice tonality activation - Day 435

There was a moment today where I accessed inferiority for a split second while being in a discussion with another being. When I noticed that I accessed inferiority I slowed myself down, took a breath and consciously snapped out of it however, there was still a resonance movement of inferiority within myself.

 

The next moment, I perceived the other to become impatient in their body movement and voice tonality expression which triggered a reaction within myself that locked into the inferior resonance  I had accepted and allowed the previous moment; therefore, the inferiority Re-activated again. Within this, thus showing me that I have also programmed a relationship between impatience and inferiority within me, where – if another is impatient / I perceive them to be impatient =  I react in inferiority.

 

Here, I really had to again slow myself down, see quickly what I had created within myself and my environment to ensure I do not compromise the quality of the discussion through the reactions that I had allowed within and as myself.

 

What I have found is that Resonance movement or layers if you will, slowly move inside the body despite one perceiving oneself stable after the effect. This shows how we are unaware of the harm and sabotage of our physical body within every time we accept and allow a reaction to activate within ourselves. I, for most part, was aware mostly to the reaction, to how my physical body is changing while/during a moment of reaction however, I am now starting to also see the consequences of the aftermath of a reaction which is the resonance manifestation within the physical body.

 

Consequences meaning - my experience of resonance activation or movement is like a smoky thick wall that I build inside myself to protect me from the other that I had a reaction to. It's like a defense mechanism through which I create a protection layer and so, when I'm in the environment with the being I had a reaction to, this wall/protection layer is resonating faster and I am more consciously aware of the words I speak from a 'Fear' starting point, I would become more aware of how I move, how I present myself and I would have thoughts towards the other, trying to find fault in them to make myself feel more than (which is simply the Inferiority design where one would try within oneself making oneself more than the other that one had perceived to be superior to self)

 

The interesting thing is that when the other is not in my immediate environment, the resonance movement is still here only that it moves much slower; Only when slowing down,  I can self honestly see and identify the slow motion resonance expression within myself. What I have realized through observing this within myself lately - the slow motion resonance movement is in essence a platform that is awaiting for external triggers to be activated; within the example I shared today, the other being that I previously reacted to, was the trigger that activated the resonance within myself - this resonance, when moving fast, generate energy within myself, this energy harm the physical body and slowly but surely, if these points not sorted out within myself, physical consequences may manifest over time and consistent participation in reactivation the system.

 

So - how to practically support oneself in these moments - Firstly it is to become aware that even when one perceived myself as stable after a momentary reaction, one must slow oneself down to ensure there is not aftermath resonance platform that is awaiting to be activated. Understand that as long as these resonance platform exists, one would easily react to an external trigger that one is facing within oneself.

Secondly, for more perspective on how these things works, I suggest listening to:

Voice Tonalities - Atlanteans - Part 141

Voice Tonalities: Practical Support - Atlanteans - Part 146

 

Also, if you haven't already, I suggest reading through the blog series that I started with regards to the dimensions of Voice tonality reactions.

 

Reacting to Voice Tonality - Day 421

Inferiority and voice tonality - Day 422

Manipulation and voice tonality - Day 423

Voice Tonality - Impatience - Day 427

Manipulation and voice tonality - Day 423

In the last few days, I started going more into depth within my investigation - who I am in relation to Voice Tonalities and last night a new point opened up - I was talking on the phone with a someone I've known my entire life  and over the years, I started developing specific reactions in relation to specific voice tonality which I've interpreted as Manipulation. Thus, when/as I heard this specific sound/voice, I shifted within myself where I would  be uncertain as to how to direct the conversation from that moment onwards because I believed that the words the being is speaking are taint with manipulation. These reactions are so minute that unless Sunette asked me whom I was talking with and asked me to go back to the conversation to see any slight reaction, I wouldn't even consider the moment and wouldn't see the reaction I allowed within myself.

 

What I have not considered was that by interpreting the sound, the voice tonality as manipulation, I didn't actually hear the other being, I didn't embrace the other being because I was in that moment going into my mind, "protecting" myself from what I believed to be manipulation, not taking the other person into consideration wherein for them, it won't be conscious manipulation or it won't be manipulation at all - it could be a simple point of how they express themselves in that moment in the context of who they are and the process they are walking.

 

So I started looking at my memories with people that I was reacting to when I perceived their words, the tonality/sound of the words to be manipulation and how within the reaction that I've accepted and allowed in these moments, I was only looking at what they were saying from my mind, not actually physically hearing them and thus, not practically supporting them within the point they are facing. It is interesting that in these moments of reactions to perceived manipulation, I would become aggressive, tough and blunt, not considering them, who they are, where they are within their process and so forth. Obviously, my behavior created friction and conflict within our relationship which does not support any of us.

 

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to interpreted specific sound/voice tonality as manipulation and within that, creating an idea within my mind that every word the other is speaking is no longer valid as it is taint with manipulation. In this, I forgive myself that I've NOT accepted and allowed myself to see, realize and understand that through defining a specific voice tonality to be manipulation, I invalidated the other person and made them less than who they are within my mind, not allowing myself to really hear what they are saying, where they are within their process, who they are in relation to the words they are speaking and more importantly, not investigating who I am in relation to the context of what they are saying.

 

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to blame and judge the other for trying to manipulate me according to a specific sound/voice tonality that I've defined as manipulation. The interesting thing is that so long as I accepted and allowed myself to react to a specific voice tonality that I've defined/associated with manipulation, I have not investigate who I am in relation to this voice tonality and whether or not I was the one who is using this sound/voice tonality to manipulate a specific moments/people in a moment. Within this, I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to divert my attention towards other people 'faults' (believing that they are manipulating me) wherein 'their fault' is a fault that I've created within my mind as a smoking screen from which I cannot see who I am in relation to the 'fault' I've projected towards them.

 

I forgive myself that I've NOT accepted and allowed myself to be gentle, comforting, attentive in moments where I believed that the other is indirectly saying something to me as I perceived their voice tonality to be manipulative. In this, I forgive myself that I've NOT accepted and allowed myself to physically hear what the other is saying, the context of what they are saying and expressing, who they are in relation to the context of what they are saying and so forth. Within this, I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself within the starting point of reaction to a specific voice tonality which I defied as manipulation, to not consider the other human being and the consequences thereof where I would slowly but surely developed resistance speaking to them so that I won't have to face these discomfort moments where I believed to be manipulated by them.

 

I forgive myself that I've NOT accepted and allowed myself to face myself in moments of reactions towards specific sound/voice tonality which I have defined/associated with manipulation but instead, I developed resistance towards these people and created a friction within my relationship with these people which in essence means that instead of facing my reactions and moving to the physical correction application, I resisted these people that activate the reaction within me without ever stopping to investigate who I am in relation to this reaction and the resistance I have developed towards these people.

 

I commit myself to become aware of every and all slightest movement within the nature of reaction to/towards specific voice tonality that I've defined as manipulation and to - when and as I see myself reacting to what I perceived to be manipulation, to stop, take a breath, bring myself back to my physical body and to embrace the other being within myself to be able to physically hear what they are saying within the context of who they are within their own process and who I am in relation to what they are saying.

 

I commit myself to become consciously aware of the changes in the voice tonalities that I'm expressing, to assist and support myself in my process of change. I see, realize and understand that when/as I'm expressing myself with a fluctuation  in my voice tonalities while I was not consciously making the decision to change my voice tonality, it is a flag for me to see that I'm not absolutely here but somewhere in my mind and thus require to stop, change my starting point, clear myself and move on.

 

Please also read:

Reacting to Voice Tonality - Day 421

Inferiority and voice tonality - Day 422

Reactions as a window of Opportunity for self Intimacy - Day 310

I realized today a fascinating thing about reactions as Judgement and Blame - what we judge about the other was always there meaning - their behaviour never changed or their thought patterns are always the same but only when we perceive that their behaviour or thought pattern may Harm us in any way whatsoever we then react to it Judgement, Blame, Resentment and so on.

 

Like for example, let's say that you work in a 2 floor office where your colleagues and you are divided to 2 floors. You are all in a way responsible for certain projects but each has their own responsibility. As long as you don't see what they do, there won't be any thoughts/backchats running around in your mind however, the moment you become aware of their doing, and you perceive that what they do would harm you in a way, you'll then develop backchats about them and judge/blame them within and as your mind.

 

So even though these people behaved/acted the same previous to your awareness of that, you only started to judge and blame them when you became aware of it and only because you perceived that their behaviour is unacceptable and may cause harm to you or others which compromised your self interest, you reacted.

 

In this scenario, the Reaction is what actually Compromised not only you but also your peers because if you noticed a point that require correction but instead of effectively directing it and come to a point of correction, you reacted to it and the problem persists.

 

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to judge another when I Perceive through my own Physical eyes that they are doing something that is not acceptable according to the set of Norms that I've Encrypted within and as myself, set of norms that I've installed and lived as, in separation from myself without any consideration or regards to the validity of these Norms that I've accepted and allowed blindly as myself.

 

Within this, I forgive myself that I've NOT accepted and allowed myself to realize that what I judge is that which I 'Feel' that would threaten my Self Interest, because otherwise, if I would have seen a point that is not best for all, I would have been directing it within self trust and stability but the fact that I've reacted in judgement and/or Blame indicate a point within and as myself that I overlooked and haven't sort out yet.

 

I forgive myself that I've NOT accepted and allowed myself to see, realize and understand that the pattern or the point that I judged in another, was something that didn't quantimaly manifested but was always there only now, I became 'aware' of it because it interfere with my self interest which then thus, activated a personality system within and as myself through which I accepted and allowed myself to react instead of Direct and Correct.

 

In this, I forgive myself that I've NOT accepted and allowed myself to see, realize and understand that reacting to such point/pattern instead of directing them indicate that I've accepted and allowed my own process of compromised application as well as the Process of another because I haven't realize that as long as I accept and allow myself to react instead of clearing myself from these Energies,  stand in stability and clarity and assist and support the other to see one's participation of that which is not standing in alignment to what is best for all, I've accepted and allowed myself to compromise not only myself within my initial reaction but also the other as I've not stood as an example and as a pillar of support.

 

I forgive myself that I've NOT accepted and allowed myself to question why is it that I only react to what I'm aware of while the point was always there regardless my awareness of its existence and within that, how is it that I've accepted and allowed myself to react to knowledge and information in terms of, reacting to what I became aware of instead of standing in stability in ever moment of breath? In this, how is it that I've accepted and allowed myself to change my entire behaviour through reactions to new pieces of Information that I've either heard/read/seen and thus, why it is that something outside of myself moves me and my entire expression?

 

I commit myself to further investigate the point of reactions as a design as I now see, realize and understand that there much more to it than what meets the eyes.

 

I commit myself to when and as I see myself reacting, to flag the point and use this window of opportunity to get to know myself more, to be able to transcend such points wherein nothing separated from me would move and change me but rather I stand as the directive principle in every moment of each breath.

 

I commit myself to investigate why it is that I've accepted and allowed myself to react to knowledge and information in terms of, reacting to what I became aware of instead of standing in stability in ever moment of breath? In this, how is it that I've accepted and allowed myself to change my entire behaviour through reactions to new pieces of Information that I've either heard/read/seen and thus, why it is that something outside of myself moves me and my entire expression?

Blind Spot and Deceiving Hope - Day 255

I always stopped myself from watching Documentary because I believed that I must have knowledge and information regarding the History of Humanity which I perceived myself as lacking and incapable of learning and educate myself and thus, the Common Belief I held within myself was that watching Documentaries that are based on History is useless because I won't get it anyway.

 

It was very recently that I pushed through the point of resistance and gave myself the Gift of Real Time Education where I could not only start adding the dots in the History of Humanity but also Learn much of the unspoken truth regarding the world and within that, our lack of responsibility that had lead to this manifestation that we call 'Life on Earth'. Only through the Education Process I set forth for myself I had realized that unless we correct what we have created, we stand no chance.

 

Like me, there are Million or even Billion people that have access to Real Education that is shared unconditionally. Real Education meaning - not the Education one learns at School. This type of education is very much Bias, Limited and of the interest of those who are in Power. But again, you don't have to believe what I say here - investigate it for yourself - Is anything you learn at school was in any way Practical? Did it open your horizons in becoming an effective human being in this world?

Within that context, I suggest watching the 'COLLEGE CONSPIRACY' Documentary that explain in detail the forces that are involved in the current Education System and why the Education System around the world is inadequate, impractical and in no way exists to Empower, Grow and Expand the Human Race.

 

Last week I watched the Documentary - Blind Spot which for a moment, activated some Fears and Reactions within me however, when I stepped out of my Pre-Program design of Reacting instead of Preventing, I've realized that literally, if we continue reacting and only sort out the manifested consequences only after it had already manifested to a point of no return, there is no way we will make it. Well, maybe we will, but the generation to come will most certainly not.

 

The reason why we would not investigate the Problems in this world and move to a Principle of Prevention instead of Reaction is due to the inherent Design of HOPE that is based on our Self Interest.

It’s funny that We all say that we care for our children, that our children are our world and yet, we do nothing to ensure that the Life of our children and their Children will be Certain, safe and sound from the perspective stabilizing Earth for them to have a world to live in. It is interesting that we believe that our Love for our children comes down to making sure that their life will be safe as long as WE live; as long as we Exists; because really, what we want to define ourselves as is in being Good and Loving Parents and yet, we do not care at all, about the Lives of our grandchildren and their grandchildren because the Physical Evidence is showing that we are living in a doomed Earth that unless we do something NOW to make sure Earth will Remain, there would be no Life on Earth on 90-200 years from now.

 

Hope is a very interesting Design - it is a BLIND Participation within and on this Earth, within the comfortable belief that everything will be fine and we will find a solution for what ever may occur because thus far, we survived like this - there was always a person or a group of beings that found a solution for the problem that had manifested and this is why, I'm not worried about anything, it will be ok. But will it be ok? What if there is a point where there is no way of fixing the problem any more? What if our grandchildren will live in a world where fossil fuel will be no more, where food would not be accessible, maintained and sustained? Why is it that despite of the Scientific evidence that we are heading towards the end of Fossil Fuel in this world, where alternative energies will not sustain and be enough to our current life style, we sit and do nothing? Hoping and depending on Science to bring the solution while Science already came and presented solutions - but we do not want to listen to the solution in the nature of Prevention because that would mean that we will have to change - change the way we consume, the way we live, the way we enjoy our life style.

 

Hope is also sound like Help - Always hoping for someone or something to Help us, to Save us. When will we realize that no one is coming to save us? that there is no God, no UFO coming to save earth, No Jesus coming of a cloud, no Superman that will save the day - it is only us - we cannot continue ruin this earth and expect others to clean our mess - there is also no money in this world that would buy the renewal of earth because Money is one of the main reasons for the destruction of earth in the first place.

 

I suggest reading my blog: From Reaction to Prevention and Obviously, watch the documentaries listed below to have a better understanding of what really goes on underneath our nose. We have the solution, but we require you to stand with because unless you move, unless you change, no movement or change is possible. We are in this together, we have to take ourselves out of it together. There isn't any other way.

 

"Remember the world system is just a system of relationships. It only exists because of all the participants; so if the participants change, the world changes – it’s really simplistic. It’s an individual thing. That’s why one by one, everyone must change, to bring about a change in the world. And you have to actually change the relationships, so that the relationships that are formed between people, animals, environment, is what is best for all Life – really simplistic". Bernard Poolman

 

Blind Spot

http://www.youtube.com/watch?feature=player_embedded&v=pByCxG2dIWY

 

War on Democracy

http://johnpilger.com/videos/the-war-on-democracy

The Century of the Self: Part 1- Happiness Machines

http://youtu.be/prTarrgvkjo

 

The Power Principle

http://metanoia-films.org/the-power-principle/

 

The Trap

http://archive.org/details/AdamCurtis_TheTrap

 

Psywar

http://metanoia-films.org/psywar/ 

 

Human Resources: Social Engineering in the 20th Century

http://metanoia-films.org/human-resources/

 

Investigate Equal Money System - It is time to MOVE - Will you dare to care for REAL?

Judgement as self Perfection - Day 218

 

 

This is a continuation to:

 

The Elite's delusion of stress - Part 1 - Day 45 The Elite's Delusion of Stress - Part 2 - Day 46 The Decision of TIME - Day 67 The Decision of TIME - Day 67 Copy Paste Character - The Education System - Day 184 Is it possible to Cheat yourself? Day 185 It is time to STOP Existing as a Human Machine - Day 186 The End of Times - Day 187 Facing the Evil within - the KEY to LIFE - Day 188 Fear of Disappointing others - Day 189 The Psychology of TIME - Day 190 I Regret, therefor, I'm a Good Person. NOT!!! - Day 191 The REAL Fear - Day 192 The things we Won't tell ANYONE - Day 193

Missing out on the Good Life - Day 194 Let's have some Fun - Day 195 Stupidity Loop - Jumping from the Bad to the Good to the Bad - Day 196 The Smoke Screen of Ignorance - Day 197 Leaving in a Dream - Day 208 Having the Life Style you always dreamt to have - Day 209 IT is MY time Now - don't say a word - Day 210 Let's go on Vacation - Day 211 Comparison is a Bitch - Day 212 Damn, I will never have everything done - Day 213 Standing as an Example - Self Interest or Self Realization? - Day 214 From the Bossy to the Loser - Day 215 Jealousy and Frustration - I want the Life they Have - Day 216 The Poison within Irritation and Anger - Day 217

 

For the purpose of context, suggest reading these posts above prior to reading the post below, if you haven’t already. Here I will be walking the 'I don't have TIME' Character - Reaction Dimension - Practical support with Self Forgiveness and Self Commitments.

 

Reactions Dimension:

* Jealousy

* Frustration

* Irritation

* Anger

* Judgment and Self Judgment

* Impatient

* Self Pity

* Depression

* Anxiety

* Stress

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Judgement and Self Judgement:

 

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to judge people as More or Less than me according to where I'm at within the "I don't have time' character time line meaning - I would either judge them as less than me when I compare them to what I believe they should be doing with their time within their effectiveness and their potential to become as effective that they can be, or I would rather judge them as More than me, to justify why I have to perfect myself and push myself even more, to stop complaining and simply do the work in separation of me. (For more context, please read - From the Bossy to the Loser - Day 215)

 

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to judge myself for either being More or Less than other people, in comparison to an ideal that I've created within and as my mind, not taking into consideration each individual and our processes and thus, instead of equally assisting and supporting myself and the others, I would diminish myself and the others in my mind, to either balance the positive or the Negative experience that exists within and as me.

 

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to judge my application and my effectiveness in moments where everything seems to be overwhelming and I access the ' I don't have time' character, and within this judgement, would start to spite myself in looking at all the moments that I fell and missed a breath instead of understanding that I can instead learn from the point, align myself to perfect my application/effectiveness and that judging my past doing is useless, pointless, meaningless and counterproductive.

 

I forgive myself that I've NOT accepted and allowed myself to realize that Judging and Chastising myself because I have seen that I could have applied myself more effectively, and in that, wouldn't have gone to the point of overload in overwhelmingness is a form of self dishonesty because within self Honesty, I could learn, assess and empower myself in seeing how I can correct my application to stand in alignment with my utmost potential and from that moment onwards, to simply walk the corrective application till the application is simply an expression of who I am in oneness and equality.

 

I forgive myself that I've NOT accepted and allowed myself to see, realize and understand how I've utilized the judgement of others for my own self interest / self definition wherein When and as I 'feel' that my standing within myself is compromised, I would try to justify to myself the 'Ok'ness in compromising myself through comparing myself to others that I perceive to be less stable within and as themselves.

 

I commit myself to assist and support me in moments where I see that judgement kicks in, either towards myself or towards others and to transform those moments to gifts in assisting and supporting me to see how and why I've separated myself and from there, walk the correction process and change.

 

I Commit myself to SHOW that any form of judgment is Self Dishonesty as one could have assess, investigate and introspect self to see how one can learn and perfect oneself as one's application but instead, through judgement, one gave in to one's mind with no actual and real self support.

 

I Commit myself to NOT accept and allow myself to judge myself or others and instead, investigate what I haven't seen for myself, as myself and in myself that I could learn from, correct and change.