Showing posts with label desteni. Show all posts
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Nov 22, 2015 | By: A Woman

Should I blindly trust another - Day 530



After I wrote the previous blog, The Truth about Blind trust - Day 529  I saw the following quote by Brian Tracy:

"The glue that holds all relationships together, including the relationship between the leader and the led, is trust, and trust is based on integrity."

Looking at the examples we discussed in the previous blog - we can see how blind trust turned into a complete distrust when the objects of our trust lost their credibility and thus their integrity in our eyes' view. Yet, most of us just accepted the fact that integrity was lost and that relationships aren't trustworthy as a normal way of living instead of actually investigating solutions.

I think that we reached that level of 'giving up' inside of ourselves because things have always been this way and we are tired of fighting with each other in away so instead, we just accept the status-que and maintain some level of getting along with each other, knowing that we cannot absolutely trust anyone in this world. This is sad isn't it?

The question is, can we trust ourselves? Can we trust that in a moment of truth, we will act on what is best for everyone and not just on what is best for me? Can we trust ourselves to make decisions that would benefit the majority of this world? Will we, in moments of temptation take more instead of give? Many of us claim to be good people and see ourselves as those who want to create a better world, yet, in our daily action we prove that we are thinking of ourselves and ourselves only.

Understand, I am not here to judge anyone - I am here to be brutal honest so that we can face the point inside of ourselves and for once and for all, reach a level of self-honesty that would lead to us to a level of self-trust. Because unless we are able to trust ourselves, we will follow the same path we currently are at and blindly trust that something will change, that some good will come our way, not seeing that our physical reality showing us the exact opposite.

So look, let's be honest - we are not yet at a point of being able to blindly trust anything or anyone but ourselves. So let's establish that step first. The best way to establish self trust is through applying the principle - "Investigate all things and keep that which is good". Whenever something comes up inside of you that you are not sure about, check yourself, introspect and find the source (to help yourself with the process, please sign up for the free life mastery skills course - http://lite.desteniiprocess.com). by "something comes up inside of you" I mean - thoughts, reactions, blame, judgement, anger and so forth - get to a point of self honesty and see what activate and manifest that reaction inside of you instead of blindly trust that whatever came up inside of you is valid.

AND - when someone is saying something to you, no matter how good it sounds, check the information, don't blindly trust the information no matter who the person is. Do your research, develop critical thinking to discern the information in such a way that you can see clearly whether the information is something you can test for yourself or not.

When you develop the habit of investigating all things (both internally and externally) and keep that which is good, you start establishing a point of self-trust with yourself because you can trust now that you do not blindly follow information but actually checking and researching the information and could thus make an informative decision. In that, you also stop the habit of blaming and judging other people for suggestions that they gave and instead you support them when the information they carry is contaminated. You thus support yourself to stand with integrity and supporting others to develop integrity within themselves and others. Can you see where I am going with it? A key for successful relationships, a key for an actual change is by developing self-trust and that self-trust will be the guiding force that can be trusted to bring a change for this world that is of worth, that is of integrity and harmony.

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Art work : www.cuded.com

Aug 11, 2014 | By: A Woman

A year passed by - Day 481

Gian was mentioning the other day that when ever someone speak about Bernard, they speak about him in a present tense; and I was looking at this point for myself of how to me Bernard is still 'here' as the principles that he stood as and lived by - this, could  never die with him.

 

His death was a challenge to say the least - having to 'grow up' from Bernard's protective shell and finding my own feet within myself. Learning to trust myself, learning to direct and move myself, learning to develop communication skills that are based on support to one another, learning to live independently and yet interdependent with the people around me; learning to consider myself and others, learning to care for myself and others, learning to be patience with myself and others.

 

Bernard, in his presence, showed us the way and the tools to develop these potentials inside ourselves but it was up to us to stand up and walk these potentials, as principles for ourselves and each other. With his death, we had to make the ultimate decision of who we are and what we stand for though for and for us, there was never a question - we just stood and continued walking, together, with absolute support to one another.

 

Cerise mentioned today in her blog:

In order for us to really grow we had to step out from under the protection that Bernard gave us. It may not have been his intention to shelter us, but he did nonetheless. He would weather a storm if it meant another wouldn't have to. We got too comfortable in the safety and guidance he naturally gave out, we did not move ourselves. The only way that we could really stand up on our own was for him to die - we were not doing it on our own

 

Indeed - those who knew Bernard realized this point for themselves - that for us to grow and expand ourselves, he had to die as we didn't take the responsibility to stand up when he was alive - we were all hoping that we could find a ways to change without actively and physically changing ourselves.

 

Bernard's death in many ways showed us the consequences of when waiting for someone else to walk that which we have to walk ourselves. Realizing this now will not change the past but we can change the future where we no longer wait for consequences to manifest but instead we walk the prevention process as solutions that can be physically applied.

 

Therefore, I will not repeat the same mistake again in waiting for someone to pave the way for me instead of me paving the way for myself; I will not sit back and wait for the world to fix itself, I will become the solution myself. I will not wait until the world reaches the point of no return, I will stand up and create a future that is best for all.

 

So, in looking at the past year - what we have created together thus far and whom we have become - I am grateful for having Bernard in our lives and more so, I am grateful for the opportunity to walk with the people whom are walking with me. we have walked a long way and the road ahead is not an easy one to walk but I am certain that together we will pave the way to create future that is worth living. If anything, this was what Bernard showed us in his death.

Jul 7, 2014 | By: A Woman

Realizing and living my utmost potential (Part 3) - Day 477

Lionel TalaroIn this blog post, I will continue sharing the story of how and why I had realized that everyone has a potential including myself and how this realization assisted me in changing the course of my life where I am able to walk as a living principle to my utmost potential. Thus, for the context, please read through the previous blog posts:

The Desteni of Living - My Declaration of Principle - Day 474

Realizing and living my utmost potential (Part 1) - Day 475

Realizing and living my utmost potential (Part 2) - Day 476

 

So, for many years I didn't allow myself to give myself all that I've got - to do something that is worthwhile where I see something that I want and can be good at and just go for it because what I was holding on to was the fear of failure, of disappointing myself and others.

 

This is also why in terms of career - it was a struggle because on the one hand, I had a desire to be able to provide for myself and my family but on the other hand, the fear of failure and the disbelief in myself restrained me from walking a path to my utmost potential. Therefore, I only went for the jobs that there was no strings attached, no contract, no commitment, where I could walk away  the moment the shit hit the fan without having to look back. Obviously, in the world that we live today, it can only last for so long and eventually, I reached the point where I had one of 2 options - to either find a job that will generate a substantial income or go back to live with my parents. Going back to live with my parents was not really an option for me and I forced myself to just go and get a job.

 

So even then and there - I didn't want to commit to anything in particular, I didn't want to climb up the chain for success, I wanted to do something that I won't feel restrained or limited, I wanted to have a boss who will not ask me to work over time, I wanted to work in an environment of mind like people and most importantly, I wanted to find a job that will allow me to continue carrying all my responsibilities that I started creating for myself within the Desteni group.

 

I must say, I was lucky because I knew exactly who I wanted to work for - Remember the first 'real' job I had in the world system, the telemarketer for an insurance company? Well, fortunately, a week before I quit that job, a new boss came along and he could see my potential even though I couldn't see it at all. Since that day that he saw me, he didn't gave up on me and he tried to get me to work for him again. For years I didn't want to listen to him but at the same time, I allowed him in my life because there was something genuine about him.

 

When I made the decision to go out there to the business world again, he was the first person that came up in my mind and the day after I contacted him, I was already working for him as if all these years he's been waiting for me. He knew how to hock me into his business - he knew that for me to be happy (which is how I can utilize the potential he saw in me to make money for him), he must respect my private life, he must respect my time, he must be OK with me not seeing the business as my higher priority, he knew that I must feel 'free' to set my own terms and conditions, my own hours and essentially, my own salary.

 

I didn't really know what I am walking into, I didn't know what my job actually be, I just knew I must work there for a year before I move to the South Africa. At this point in time, I didn't see me yet, I didn't realize my potential yet but I knew that he saw something in me and I knew I must walk this point.

Will continue in my next post

art work: Lionel Talaro

Mar 11, 2014 | By: A Woman

But I applied Self-Forgiveness - why didn't I change - Day 457

 

Sometime I find myself applying Self-Forgiveness in relation to a specific patterns that I've seen within myself but on a physical level, I self honestly do not see a self-change as the point reoccurring over and over again.

When I investigated the point within myself, I have found that there are 2 dimensions that I must consider:

 

  1. It may seem as if there was no Self-Change but in fact, what is showing is simply another dimension that I haven't seen before and hence, I require to work with that which opened up, forgive myself and 'wait' till a moment reveal itself again for me to see/assess if the self forgiveness was effective or there are more dimensions I must open up and investigate within and as myself.
  2. I may have forgiven myself however, the automated programming still very must existent and all that is required from me to do now is  to stop and change the programming through accumulation of moments where I physically correct the point within and as myself. Here, What I often find myself doing is firstly judging myself for falling again - "I shouldn't have done that", or "what the fuck now",  or "how could I" or "I can't believe I fell into this again" or "what the hell is wrong with me".  Other times, a memory comes up and I suck into the emotional experience of that memory but at the same time, I do stop myself, not accepting that shit any more the exist within me but the moment after, I judge myself for accessing the memory in the first place not realizing that 'hey, it was me who directed myself to snap out of the emotional experience of the memory as how I've instructed myself when I paved my way before me to physically change myself when/as the memory comes up again.

 

What I also found is that when it is another dimension that opens up which I require to further explore/investigate, the self judgement is not as intense as it is when the exact same programming is repeating itself. Because, in the first scenario, the programming doesn't play out exactly as it was playing out before, something new emerge but when the second scenario is playing out, it is the exact same point that I have worked with before. In other words, taking it back to the nature of Self Judgement, in the first scenario, the self judgement is coming as: "but what am I missing? I don't understand" unlike the second scenario where the self judgement is more in the sense of self-hatred/anger if you will.

 

It is strange that it was said so many times before the Self Forgiveness by itself does not change self as the change must be walked in the physical real time and yet, time after time I judge myself when something that I already looked at and worked on is playing out and yet, the programming takes over and the pattern is playing out again.

 

Interestingly enough, the only point where I literally fall is when I judge myself lol

Because, as I've explained in my previous blog - who I am is not determine by an outcome. Who I am is determine according to my relationship to the outcome and within that, whether or not I will stand up and physically change my living application.

 

Thus, my weakness point throughout the process that I've walked was self judgement where I accepted and allowed myself to be hard on myself as a reaction, instead of practically assess myself in any given moment and walk the relevant alignment that would support me to physically change myself when/as a point is 'here' again. Though, as long as I was giving my attention to my own enemy - my own self judgement, I slowed my process of change down as I didn't directly and immediately moved to the correction.

 

Where am I going with this - I realized that if anything, 'self judgement' is unacceptable as it is not in fact assisting and supporting me to expand and empower myself but quite to the contrary - it is limiting my self-expansion growth. So, why have I allowed self judgement to exists within and as me thus far - that is because I have valued myself according to outcomes in separation of myself instead of being humble and patient with myself within the realization that self-value is defined by who I am in how I stand up within myself when/as misalignment is showing itself as a physical outcome.

 

Thus, I commit myself to physically integrate self value within myself through accumulation of moments where I prove to myself that I've corrected and change a point/pattern that was existent within myself. Within this, when/as I see that a change was not yet been absolute as a living expression of myself, I stop, I look, I investigate, align, and move to the next moment where I will physically assess and test my living application.

Oct 24, 2013 | By: A Woman

Manipulation - The art of Control (Part 2) - Day 419

A comment I received on my previous blog:

 

I do not see the point of manipulation and control in saying: "Where do you want to park the car? It's just a question to coordinate the intentions of you both.

I see manipulation and control rather in the pushy way of saying: "please park in the under parking because…"

 

Perspective:

 

What I have shared yesterday was the point I've seen within and as myself in that specific moment where I had a specific agenda of where to park and I wasn't direct about it within the way I structured the question. My starting point was not to coordinate the intentions of us both, my starting point was to control the event to suite a desirable outcome that I've have schemed in my mind without sharing my intention with another.

 

The manipulation is from the perspective of - I knew specifically where I wanted to park when I asked her where she planned to park and I didn't want her to give me an answer that won't suite my desirable outcome so I continued with the manipulation by using specific voice tonality when I said that I need to buy a fabric softener because I knew that she will calculate the route and see that the underground parking is the best place to park. In neither of these 2 statements was I direct and said - 'in terms of what we need to do in the mall, it is best to park in the underground parking" but I rather structured my statements/questions in a way that indirectly the outcome would be what I wanted it to be.

 

The point you brought up of  "coordinate the intention of both" is a cool solution of moving from Controlling and event  to mutual agreement, and that is done by being direct with one another from the starting point of really considering each other, considering what each have to say and accordingly, both make a decision that is best for both.

 

So remember, this is an example that I've seen myself participating with and I see it more and more within how I'm communicating with others. I see it in movies, in the media, as well as memories that came up of past relationships and friendships - I was never direct in my communication and I always used manipulation to get what I wanted.

 

For myself, I was taught as child to not be direct in communication with others because seemingly, being direct is rude in our culture. As a derivative, I was basically indirectly  taught to manipulate from the perspective of learning to get what I wanted by not being direct about it.

If one would look in self-honesty and investigate the point, one would find that in many cases where we ask for instance:  "Would you mind…"; "What would you prefer?"; "What do you want?"; "I don't care, what ever you decide" -  in our secret mind we know exactly what we want, we want a specific outcome but we don't want others to think that we have a secret agenda because they might judge us or disagree with us and so we first 'test the water' so to speak, assess the dynamic and then decide how to approach the point to get to our desirable outcome.

It is rarely that we are asking these question from a genuine starting point where we consider the other before we consider ourselves and/or when we genuinely don't have a specific preference our a specific outcome in mind. It is seldom that we don't have a specific agenda that we will either push or let it go, dependent on the other response to our indirect question and the nature of our relationships with another and who we are within that relationship.

 

So yes, I agree - looking at the specific example that I shared - a practical correction would be to speak directly and share my intention to coordinate it with the other intentions and accordingly, both walk the practical application of what is best for both in that specific moment.

Oct 21, 2013 | By: A Woman

Manipulation - the Art of Control - Day 418

Continuing with discovering the Art of Control that we so much got used to and without our direct awareness are walking our life within the starting point of Control. In the Previous 2 blogs I was showing examples of how we control specific situations in our lives, as a reaction within ourselves to a specific outcome and how little do we actually embrace moments in assisting and supporting ourselves to step out of our mind and actually investigate and discover who we are in relation to these moments.

 

Today, I will share a short story of a moment that had happened a few weeks ago, a moment that opened up for me an entire ray of pre-programming that I became aware of.

Esteni and I went to the mall and while we were driving there, I remembered that I needed to also buy a fabric softener in a specific store. To understand the time line of events, I have to give you an idea about this mall lol. This mall is not structured effectively from the perspective of - to cross the mall from one end to the other, you have to walk quite a bit and if you don't have much time, you have to calculate everything specifically to be able to manage your time effectively. The store that I wanted to go to is in the other side of where Esteni and I planned to go to and so, I asked Esteni: "Where do you want to park the car?" but what I really wanted to say was: "please park in the under parking because I need to buy a fabric softener". Before she answered my questioned, I made sure that I will get the answer that I wanted to get and to thus, control the decision to suite my momentary desire. So I said to her: "I'm asking because I would like to go to Dis-chem to buy a fabric softener". Esteni said "Ok" and I felt quiet weird within myself so I took a moment to investigate why the hell I couldn't be direct? Why wasn't I direct by saying: "please park in the under parking because…"?

 

When investigating the point I have realized that: "OMG" my entire design of communication is of Control and to Control I had to use manipulation. One would think that this is not a big point because no one is getting hurt from such "small manipulation" though, looking at my entire life, how I communicated with people, how I tend to get what I wanted without being direct, by manipulating my environment to get this "little" points as a desired outcome of events.

 

So I kept investigating and I looked at fears from the perspective of - What is the Fear through which I have programmed myself to communicate indirectly with other human? Is it that bad to get 'No' as an answer? Is my Ego will crash if I be direct and get a 'No' as an answer? Is it that I fear that others will see me as control freak? Is it that I don't want to be perceived pushy?  Gush, this was a revealing point in my process - to see how I have structured my communication with people by manipulating moments to be able to control a moment according to how I wanted the moment to play out.

 

Obviously there are many dimensions that are connected to the pattern of not being direct in a communication, which I will write about in the future though, here, what we must become aware of is our tendency to indirectly attempt to control a moments.

 

The fascinating thing was that - when I shared with Esteni what I've seen myself doing, she suggested that I will correct the statement and ask her directly to park in a specific place. You cannot believe how hard it was for me. I felt embarrassed to speak the question directly; I have tried so many times to structure one simple question in a direct way and nothing authentic came up. This showed my how rooted this design is within me - this is how I have expressed myself throughout my entire life so now when I attempted to speak directly, I met with resistance because, as all of us know, change usually start with resistance. So now that the point is 'here', I'm assisting and supporting myself to change the design that I've created as myself and be direct in my communication - there is no magic cure, it is a process that started with a decision to will myself to be direct with myself and others and I commit myself to moment by moment assist and support myself to change my living application, as a living expression of myself where I no longer accept and allow myself to communicate indirectly but instead, assisting and supporting myself to stand as expression of integrity in every given moment within clear and direct communication.

Sep 17, 2013 | By: A Woman

Learning to Accept myself - Practical Application (Part 3) Day 413

Within my process of walking self acceptance, I've realized how I have separated myself from everything of me that I judged, and within that judgment, I couldn't practically change because I didn't accept that which I've judged as a part of who I have become. I tried to resist it, not realizing that I'm resisting myself; I've tried to suppress it, not realizing that I'm suppressing myself; I've tried to ignore it, not realizing that within that ignorance, there is no space for real change.

 

Walking Self Acceptance practically implies that I must transform every single point of self judgment to a point of change and to do so, I must first accept that this point that I'm judging, is me and because it is me, I have the power to change myself within the principle of investigate all things and keep that which is best for all.

Here, one must realize that it is not just working with the negative judgment of ourselves, it is also to investigate the positive judgment we have of ourselves and see, in self honesty, whether the positive judgment stands as/by the principle of that which is best for all.

 

Within self acceptance, we can quantumize our processes from the perspective of, once we accept that which we judge about ourselves, unconditionally, within the realization that this is 'who I am', even if we don't like what we see within ourselves, it is sill who we are. however, it doesn't mean that we should continue to accept and allow ourselves to remain enslaved to who we have become; this is where self forgiveness within self honesty becomes real and self forgiveness can genuinely applied within an absolute decision to change and become a being that is actually trustworthy. 

 

What I am finding is that once the point of acceptance in relation to even the slightest point I've judged myself, stability exists. Meaning - once I transform the self- judgment into a point of self investigation through accepting that this is who I have been thus far in relation to this slightest point, I create stability within and as me through which I can support myself to unconditionally investigate the point, be honest with myself, forgive myself and make self commitment to change in a physical and practical manner. In doing so, the resistances to open up a point is no longer the directive principle because how can I resist to something that I've consciously accepted as myself within the understanding that through accepting myself, I can practically change within the principle of investigating all things and keep that which is best for all.

 

So, when self judgment comes up, and it doesn't matter what is the source of the judgment, whether it be because we completely fucked up something, whether we made a huge mistake, whether we regret it, whether we blame ourselves - none of that is valid - what is valid is to accept that we fucked up something and made a mistake and within that acceptance investigate how could we have possibly done things differently, how could have we prevented the consequences,  how can we ensure that we won't repeat the same mistake again, what can we learn about ourselves; and from investigating the point, find solutions and commit ourselves to walk the solutions as a living expression of ourselves.

Aug 19, 2013 | By: A Woman

Seeing the Potential we can become - Day 407

 
Bernard had this ability to see the potential in others, to guide and support us to see ourselves, the real self; he assisted us to see our strengths, develop/empower our natural skills and to overcome the limitations we have defined as ourselves so that we could really grow and establish our self standing  within the principle of that which is best for all life. 

Bernard stood as a temporary stability point for us all and in standing as our stability point he gave us the opportunity to investigate, explore and see who we are and what we have become, what we accepted and allowed and what we will no longer accept within ourselves and this world, how can we perfect ourselves, how can we change ourselves to stand as living examples, as a principle, of that which is best for all life.

When he died, I could no longer lean on Bernard as a stability point; I have to stand as a stability point. I could no longer wait till he expose a point within myself that I haven't dealt with; I have to expose me to myself and walk through the point. I could no longer be dependent on him as a point of trust; I must become a living trust. I could no longer depend on him to support me and others; I must stand as self-support and thus supporting others.

When he died, the stability point he stood as for me that I created within myself - died with him and in that moment, I shifted into instability within and as myself. To understand though, that I am by no means saying that ‘he stood as stability FOR me’, no. For those who have met Bernard, when you’re with him – it’s like he could with/through his words, open up inside you a part of you, you haven’t realized yourself/seen yourself as a potential that you can be/become. I hadn’t realized before he died how I had, within myself, believed that ‘it was Bernard and Bernard only keeping me stable’ – when, all the while, it was in fact a point already existent within me, a potential already existent within me. Then I realized - the stability that I had seen within Bernard and also experienced within myself when with him - stood as a potential; the stability I experienced when Bernard was around is the stability I can stand as, for and as myself - it is what I can become through an accumulation of moment by moment where I direct and support myself to face that which I have separated myself from, correct, align, change - which is actually what Bernard always said: 1+1+1+1 moment by moment by moment by moment, till I stand.

He said to me once: there will be a moment where a window would open and you will be able to see and make a decision; Make sure that the decision is that which add +1 to the equality equation and that which would result with an outcome that is best for all. The window that had opened up with Bernard's death is showing the potential. The potential of what I can become as a stable and aware human being in any given moment. Bernard temporarily stood as that stability and showed me, that I can stand in stability and in awareness in every breath and thus I commit myself to assist and support myself to accumulate moments of awareness and stability until I stand in any given moment as a living principle, a living example and to then thus give to others that which Bernard gave to me - the opportunity to realize the potential we can become.
Aug 14, 2013 | By: A Woman

Learning to Trust myself - Day 406


Interestingly enough, in the last couple of weeks, the main point I was working with was Self Trust, Self Acceptance, Respect and Worth as I uncovered a deeper layer I haven't seen before within myself. These are the words I have written down for myself when I started looking at the point maybe 3 weeks ago:

"Recently, it became more evident that I am following a religion, the religion of myself; a religion that I've wrote with my own blood, flesh and the entire body; a religion that I follow so dearly without realizing that within this religion of myself, I have diminished and compromised myself to such an extent that self-worth, self-respect and self-value are just titles I can give to myself through the validation of others. In other words, in the religion that I lived by, the first commandment was- You shall be Valued, Worthy and Respected only if others will…"

I haven't published that blog as I planned to walk the point first as myself, as the living change and then share it with the world as a point of support.

Bernard was pushing this point more and more recently so that I could finally make a decision - to either trust myself completely and unconditionally or to always remain a slave where I require glorifications from others to be able to validate myself. Within my current responsibilities, I was directly working with Bernard as I took on a position that requires Specificity, Responsibility and Certainty and most importantly self-trust. Though, the one thing I feared the most was making mistakes - since a mistake won't only influence my life, but the lives of many others. Bernard never gave me the answers but instead, insisted that I will first look at the point for myself, assess all things, all outcomes and make decisions.

So, a week ago, I started to practically apply Self Trust wherein I would make a decision, be comfortable with the decision, check myself, cross reference myself and then, once the decision was applied, I would share it with him as a 'By the way' thing and he would either say 'cool' or 'have you looked at…' or 'have you considered that' or 'Maya, your voice tonality shows that your decision was done within a starting point of a reaction so what is the reaction all about?'.

But then he died, and I cannot say that I transcended the point yet. In fact, my physical body shows that there is still unresolved points that I haven't considered or effectively applied. The trust point, in my back where the pain shows that there is a part of me that cannot trust myself without Bernard being here to support me within the decisions that I make and the decisions that I will have to make.
So my back is stiff, sore, constricted and basically, that point in my back is now weak as the support structure I've created for myself in separation of myself/body is nonexistent, as I have separated the self-trust into a relationship with Bernard, trusting him more than I trusted myself and in this exists the separation. Now I have to teach myself to trust myself so absolutely - so that no matter what I face, I am stable within myself.
I must create my own support structure wherein Self Honesty, Assessing all things and deciding on that which would result in the outcome that is best for all is practically applied within each breath I take. To trust myself that when I make a mistake, I learn from the mistake, I correct myself and practically change - "simple" as Bernard used to say.

So I commit myself to learn to trust myself unconditionally and to support myself and become the support Bernard stood as and in a way still standing, for me and for others.
Jul 10, 2013 | By: A Woman

Why do I write my Journey to Life - Day 399

The truth is that there is almost no day that I don't face resistance to start writing my blog.

It is a subtle resistance that is almost undefined but it is there. Even after 399 days of writing, the resistance is still existent since writing isn't part of how I programmed myself to exists as.

 

So I remind myself Daily about my responsibility in writing as my window to express myself and make a difference in this world in a controlled and protected environment where I'm not physically exposed to abusive behaviours of those who do not agree with the words I stand as.

 

I remind myself my responsibility in standing as an example of consistency in breaking the chains of my own programming is possible.

 

I remind myself my responsibility in educating myself with everything that is not taught in the Academia or in the schooling system so that I can see for myself what is really here, what needs to be done and how to practically do it to prevent potential problems we all face and accordingly, share this in writing.

 

I remind myself that I'm part of a group that consists of individuals and that each individual is a brick in the wall that must stand as a pillar for this world and when one brick is cracked and no longer functional, the entire wall is unstable, unbalanced and eventually will fall and thus, I must make sure that I won't be the one who create the crack in the wall/group because at the end of the day, I want to live with myself knowing I've done everything possible to be a functional brick in this world.

 

I remind myself how supportive it is to read other people's blogs in the sense of not having to walk through what they have faced physically, because they have shared their process, their realizations, what they have done to support themselves and accordingly, all I have to do is correct the point within myself and prevent unnecessary time loops that I would have walked if I have not read their process and applied myself accordingly.

 

I remind myself that the excuse and justifications I have in the back of my mind, as back chats, are not valid and that if I listen to myself speaking bullshit in my mind, I'm accepting my own limitations that I've created for and as myself. Within this, I remind myself that resisting writing takes longer than the writing itself and in essence this entire resistance process is counterproductive.

 

I remind myself the times before I started writing and how unstable I was and how I slowly but surely became stable within myself with the support I'm gifting myself with writing.

 

I remind myself that I have one life to live and in that one life, I must do everything possible to be heard, to educate and to support myself and others in this world

 

And so I write.

Jan 15, 2013 | By: A Woman

Free Speech? Free Choice? Really? - Day 274

Elva studenter tar farväl av Umeå konstskola med en utställning, och det är som vanligt en ansenlig bredd. I år, liksom förra året, har andraårseleverna lämnat sina lokaler i Umedalen för att ställa ut i Fabriken vid Strömpilen.It is very clear to me by now that there is no such thing as Free Speech within this current world system and that the fact of the matter is that if you say something that would threaten the System, you'll be targeted and removed from the ability to express yourself.

 

My first Encounter with Controlled "Free" Speech was around 1-2 years ago when, suddenly, unexpectedly and without any warning, the Desteni Main YouTube channels were removed with thousands of videos and millions of views. When we tried to get answers regarding this decision, we got none, to the extent of which, Lindsay Drove to San Francisco, to the YouTube headquarter offices within the attempt to receive some answer but she wasn't even allowed to enter the building.

Till this day, the people and the reasons behind this decision are unknown.

 

A few weeks ago, I saw a Israeli TV news show with a Lawyer that used to work for Politicians and high rank business men . He was one of these people that you wouldn't want to face in your life as he has a army of powerful people behind him that would make sure that if you know anything about one a politicians or high rank business man, that may harm their stance in the system to a point of serving time in Jail due to their Criminal acts, you wouldn't dare to speak up and expose the truth and if you would, you would most likely to find yourself in a worsen position in your life. He was one of these people that would destroy you, if you knew too much. Interestingly enough but sure thing not surprising, all of the lawyers actions stood in alignment to the Laws. This Lawyer had finally realized his responsibility within the harm and abuse he is allowing to exists within the consequences of his actions and he decided 2 years ago to do what ever he can to correct his past doing.

 

He shared specific details about instances where he destroyed the Lives of people that tried to stand up for themselves  and others by exposing the harm and abused they had faced by specific politician or high rank business man. He shared how him and his office where involved with what the News would broadcastand if there was anything that could have harm specific politician, they made sure the News report won't be published.


So, what is the point?

The point is that I face many beings that claim and honestly believe they have free choice and therefor, freely expressing themselves. They claim for Free Speech without investing the time to actually investigate all things instead of blindly following their minds and the minds of the system. I was/is one of these people that claimed to have free speech and Free Choice but every day that goes by and I learn more about this reality, more about the Economic system, about the Education system and the world system as a whole, I understand that Free Choice and Free Speech do not exists as our Mind is conditioned to what we were fed up by those who censor the Information.

 

I Believed that all I need to do is stand up and call for an Equal Money System BUT I came to realize that standing up for Equal Money doesn't end by saying that I'm supporting the Equal Money, at least not at this stage of the Equal Money Movement. It takes Self Responsibility to truly educate myself about how things really works and functions to be able to in fact stand as a Free Expression of myself in Explaining in detail what I've learnt, what is the problem and what is the solution. If I just follow like a sheep, I again do not have any free choice within it because there is no Real Self Realization but rather a feeling/Experience that it is the 'right' thing to do so that I could sleep better at night knowing that I did something in my life to change this world. I see, realize and understand now that changing the world isn't just a figure of (free) Speech. It is actual doing and it must start with myself, understanding the specificity of what I'm standing for and as.

 

So - Currently, there is no Free Choice nor Free Speech unless we  self honestly have proven to ourselves that we have investigated all things, from all possible dimensions and can walk the specificity of the Time Line of how we realized the point and what does it takes to manifest a solution that I best for all lives.

 

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Nov 7, 2012 | By: A Woman

The Correction Process and The Desteni Message (Part 10) - Day 207

The Collective Corrective Process

 

This is a continuation to:

The Correction Process and The Desteni Message (Part 1) - Day 198

The Correction Process and The Desteni Message (Part 2) - Day 199

The Correction Process and The Desteni Message (Part 3) - Day 200

The Correction Process and The Desteni Message (Part 4) - Day 201

The Correction Process and The Desteni Message (Part 5) - Day 202

The Correction Process and The Desteni Message (Part 6) - Day 203

The Correction Process and The Desteni Message (Part 7) - Day 204

The Correction Process and The Desteni Message (Part 8) - Day 205

The Correction Process and The Desteni Message (Part 9) - Day 206

 

this world should be heaven for everyone copyWe are finally in the last part of this blog Series where we are now going to discuss the Collective Correction Process and the Desteni Message.

 

We can all agree that there is a problem in this world. We can all agree that something must be done to minimize as much as possible the abuse, the suffering, the Starvation, the poverty etc.

We all have certain experiences towards this reality - some of our experiences are positive, some our experiences are Negative however, none of our experiences has a direct influencing in bringing about a physical world that is best for all because, as I was showing previously, our experience towards a physical point won't change the physical point, the only thing that would change is our experience that we have associated/connected/defined, within and as ourselves with either a positive energetic charge or a negative energetic charge.

 

At Desteni, we had realized that unless we correct the problem from its origin/source/core, no substantial change is possible because, everything that could have possibly be done, by those who define themselves as good and positive people, was already done and no physical result that is best for all was never seen on earth and thus, the test of time proves that Fixing and Sorting out the manifested consequences, do not ensure that the very same consequences won't emerge again and the fact of the matter is - the living condition of the majority of this world is getting worsen.

 

Thus - The collective Correction Process start with the Individual Corrective Process as was explained in my previous blog: The Correction Process and The Desteni Message (Part 9) - Day 206.

Why? Because, unless we understand the principle of self honesty wherein, we are directly and indirectly responsible for everything that exists and within that, unless we integrate the Principles:

- Give as you would like to receive

- Do unto another as you would like to be done unto you

- Investigate ALL things and keep that which is good for All.

Within and as ourselves, as our physical living expression of ourselves, there is no way we could even grasp what is the origin/source/core of the problem in this world, in its totality and entirety to be able to then thus, take responsibility as individuals, in walking towards a solution in practicality that is best for all.

 

Unfortunately, the individual corrective process cannot be walked by those with no free access to the internet or to a life style that would make it possible for them to invest the necessary time, to get to a level of self introspection that is the foundation of the individual corrective process.

nonetheless, the level of education within this current world system, is keeping the majority of this world limited by not having in place, an effective education system where all are educated in  the very least, in being able to read and write, which is the foundation of what one would require to be able to walk one's individual process of correction.

 

Therefore, we have presented a momentary solution - the Equal Money System to provide/give everyone on earth a life that we would like to receive ourselves, where at the very least - our basic needs are met.

A momentary solution meaning - the Equal Money System will not make a change in the Human Nature Level of responsibility and self honesty as our pre-programming is already so extensive and overriding common sense as we could have seen, for ourselves, through walking this step by step blog series, the extent to which our 'free choice' is not in fact free due to our blinded accepted and allowed programming within and as ourselves. Thus, for a moment, we would first create a platform for the Individual corrective Process through bring this world to a level of Equality that would ensure dignified Life of each and every living being on earth, regardless their willingness to assist and support themselves within and as the Individual Process. We are aware that the individual Corrective process can not be force on anyone as it is an individual decision each must take for themselves because after all - is it about ONE'S self Honesty.

 Give llife to live life

The Principle of the Equal Money System is the Collective Correction Process wherein, we locate the Problem, get to its core/source/origin and correct the very foundation of the problem. for instance, Money is the Value we have currently define Life within and as. I mean, If one doesn't have money, one would die as one is not capable to assist and support one's physical human body with the basic requirements such as Food, Water, Health care, housing, and clothes. (Please listen to the song: I finally Understand) Thus, when we change the Value of Money to a value of Life that is best for all where all are equally having access to the world's resources, all have equal access to the basic necessities to sustain a dignified and worthy Life, we remove the consequences of Starvation, poverty, diseases etc.

If you trace each and every point in this world that manifest problematic consequences, we find that Money, in some way or another is involved and thus, when Money is Equal to Life that is best for all and no longer utilized for the sake of Competition, Survival, corruption etc. we would see in no time, that the world is in one step towards a world that is best for all, practically.

 

Understand that the collective correction Process include everyone, and you as well. We cannot correct this world alone, we must stand up as a united group, strong and effective so that we can together, change this world from its very core, to a manifested consequences that are Best for all lives.

 

And again, remember, it has nothing to do with being positive or Negative - it is to dare to see the problems and fix its root to first stop the manifested consequences that are not in alignment to that which is best for all which from there, we decide together, how to create a world that is best where no more abuse would be allowed in any way whatsoever.

 

Thus, the correction Process -> when and as there is a problem, we investigate what is the source/root/core/origin of the problem and we work it out from there, step by step, point by point, in always making sure that the outcome would be that which is best for all and when it's not, we go back to locate the core/source/root/origin and walk the correction process again, until everything is aligned and the outcome is an outcome that we can all be satisfied with, within and as the principles of:

- Give as you would like to receive

- Do unto another as you would like to be done unto you

- Investigate ALL things and keep that which is good for All.

 

There is a lot to be done and our journey is extensive. When and as you join, the journey will be shorter. The shorter it is, the less pain and suffer for everyone but at the end - it is always you that decide.

Be the Key; get to know yourself, our world and will yourself to accordingly take responsibility and walk the correction process, individually and collectively.

 

Please thoroughly investigate Desteni, DiP Lite, DIP Pro, Equal Money System and EQAFE.

When or if points of resistance comes up from within you, Stop, Breathe, and read this blog series again, to remind yourself that the resistance is nothing but a program that you have created within and as yourself.

Support yourself, support the group of humanity and lets walk this, until we are done.

 

Thank you!

Oct 29, 2012 | By: A Woman

The Correction Process and The Desteni Message (Part 1) - Day 198

*note for those who are following my blogs – I will continue walking the various Dimensions of the ‘I don’t have Time Character’ after this blog series is complete.

 

How-i-was-able-to-hear-the-desteni-messageThere are many that come across Desteni and define the Message as a Negative one or 'Not so much Positive'. They Say that Desteni Message is Radical and Extreme and from that, make the assumption that they already know what it is all about and thus, stop their investigation because it doesn't resonant with them. However, as I will be showing in this blog, the Desteni Message is all about Living the following Principles within and as an expression of oneself:

- Give as you would like to receive

- Do unto another as you would like to be done unto you

- Investigate ALL things and keep that which is good for All.

Within this, there is no Good or Bad, it is not about Positive or Negative nor Good or Evil - it is about seeing Reality as what it's really is and accordingly, walk the correction that would result in the Best outcome for the Lives of all. 

 

 

Lets investigate how we perceive reality through pictures. We are yet to understand, that what we are perceiving the physical reality to be, is nothing but a PICTURE we are projecting and imposing onto what we then Believe reality to be - We process the information we see   through our minds, which we then, form Opinions, Beliefs, Ideas, Perceptions about Reality and Create an Experience within and as ourselves - either Positive or Negative.

 

To further explain why it is that we see Reality as a Picture, as an Experience we define as either Positive or negative, let's have a look at the following:

 

When we look at a brick for instance,  what do we see? A brick. As simple as that. We might pay attention to its colour, to its shape, to its alignment with the rest of the bricks but that is as far as we go when looking at a brick. However, is it only just a brick as we perceive a brick to be? How about the relationship the Brick has with the various participant that were involved in the creation of the brick? The Sand, the Water, the wind, the person who shaped it, the person who coloured it, the person who delivered it, the person who placed it in the wall, the bugs that visited the brick, the cloth that cleaned the brick, the beings that are enjoying the existence of the brick in its current manifestation? How about the Cells and the Molecules of the Brick? Its Chemical alignments?

From here, we can conclude that our perception of Reality is extremely Limited and we take what we see through our Physical eyes for granted, Not seeing Directly the Entire universe that exists within and as a brick for example.

 

What I'm showing here is our limited vision of reality and within that, I raise the question - how many things have we missed by defining a brick as simply a brick while ignoring, not taking into consideration, not seeing all the relationships the Brick consists of and exists as when looking at a brick on our wall?

 

So if we don't like the colour or the shape of the brick, Does it change anything in the physical reality? Is the brick going to change its form? No. If our Attitude towards the brick will be Positive, will the Brick change in any way how it exists? No. Our Experience in relation to the Brick has no influence on the Physicality of the Brick and thus, our Attitude towards the Brick - either Negative or Positive will have no Influence on the Brick as a physical form and we would not be able to change the relationship the brick have with everything it is consisting of and existing as. 

 

Meaning the value (positive or negative value) we assign to the colour of the brick, the shape of the brick, the texture of the brick, will not change the brick itself, it will only create the experience that we have towards the brick in that we will create a reality within and as ourselves where we believe that the brick is 'better' or the brick is 'worse', which is the perceptual reality that we create within and as ourselves of how we perceive this reality. The physical manifestation of the brick does however not change through how we associate positive or negative connotations to it.

 

We cannot Deny that within this world, there is much Abuse and Suffering that people are daily experiencing. We can agree that this world is not a safe place, no matter where we are located in this world - War, Crime, diseases, Earthquakes, Tsunami and whatnot. We can agree that the Education System is dysfunctional, we can agree that health care is not perfect, we can agree that the Media isn't  supporting the minds of our children and we can agree that working our entire lives to fight for our survival is not the greatest way to experience Life. We can absolutely agree that politics is corrupted all over the worlds and that our representatives are not quite serving our best interests;

 

Now, all of the above are again - neither Good nor Bad. As making these things 'good' or 'bad' means that we have assigned a positive or a negative value / experiences to the physical manifestations of what we had created within the physical reality. The physical manifestations are simply what it is - it is the Manifested Consequences of our collective acceptance and allowances either directly or indirectly. One must understand that Consequences here, as a living word, does not contain a negative Charge - 'Consequences' are the Desired or Undesired out flows of our actions and deeds that stem from a sequence of events that place to affect a specific outcome as a manifestation within the physical.

 

If we look at the World Picture - We are not even close to be absolutely aware of all the physical interconnected relationships that makes this world functional. For example, I'm sitting on a balcony now and in front of me there is a beautiful picture of Nature - Green Grass, Trees and Mountains which most people would define this moment in time with a positive association.  The question is - is it real? And whether my Positive Experience would have any influences on the Physical reality?

 

My own personal positive association to the beautiful picture that I see before me only gives me pleasure in this one moment, yet when I stop my participation within and as my mind of where and how I had associated this positive experience to the picture that I see, I am able to stop for a moment and look at this reality directly. So - When I stop with my positive feeling within and as myself and look into the scenery that I had associated a positive experience to - What do I see? I see mountains, I see fields being worked for harvesting food, I see trees that are planted for harvesting with their neat little rows. All of this together within and as myself I have associated a positive experience to - But have I considered the labour that is involved in getting the plantations to be as they are, the little animals that find refuge in these areas, just to be uprooted again when the harvesting season comes. So while I am 'trapped' within my illusion of a positive experience - reality is lived by what is here within and as the physical - while I am blind to what is really going on.

 

Will continue in my next Blog...