A Solution for effective Relationships - Day 150

This is a continuation to:

The Importance of Physical Communication - Day 148

Not everything revolved around me -  Day 149

 

I commit myself to push myself to become effective in my communication with other human beings because I see, realize and understand that for effective relationship with other beings in my world, the communication must be specific and direct so that no misinterpretation may occur and  we stand in alignment within each and every Living word we speak.

 

I commit myself to SHOW the relationship between our ineffective world where we allow the abuse of each other, the suffering of many and extensive harm of our plant, with our ineffective communication within ourselves and each other.

 

I commit myself to STOP having inner conversation with other beings in my mind and instead, I transform all mind communication to Physical communication wherein, when and as I see that I'm reacting towards another human being in my world and therefor, having communication with them in my mind, I stop and investigate the point within and as myself by turning the point back to myself and align myself to that which is here and accordingly, when and as I see that this point require physical correction, I direct the point within and as myself as well as, if I see that the point must be communicated within and as the principle of what is best for all as unconditional support, I take a breath, I make sure I'm here, stable, no energy movement, clear within me and I directly communicate the point with the being, not accepting and allowing myself to remain in my mind, having conversation with the being in my mind wherein I know where it would lead and what would be the consequences of this ineffective communication.

 

I commit myself to STOP expecting others to know what I'm speaking about inside my mind, with myself, and accordingly, expect them to make their best to make me feel good within and as myself. I see, realize and understand how I've sabotaged, compromised and abuse the relationships in my world through developing and establishing a dependency on others to fulfil me, to complete me and to comply to my wants/needs/desires and essentially, stand in alignment to my own self interest in my quest to fulfil my desires. Thus, when and as I see that I'm the inner movement of expecting others to do something for me, to support with my own self interest for a specific experience, I stop, I breathe, I turn the point back to myself, to see where I'm not standing in alignment with and as myself. I correct myself through a process of physical self forgiveness in self honesty and if I still see that I require support, I directly communicate the point with the being.

 

I commit myself to stand in absolute stability within and as myself when communicating with another human being and regardless of their actions, I will not accept and allow any energy movement to emerge within and myself. I see, realize and understand that I'm Here, able and capable to assist and support myself in every moment of breath and thus, when and as I'm receiving feedback from the other human being, in direct communication, that the being cannot at the moment stand within the point I ask them to support with, I accept and respect their feedback and not allowing any form of manipulation to get them to do what I desire/want/need them to do as that would indicate that I'm not clear within and as myself, that I'm not trusting my own self application and that essentially, I've separated myself from myself and the other and accordingly, I stand, assess, investigate and correct myself through and as principle of equality and oneness.

 

I commit myself to stand within and as the principle of give as you'd like to receive regardless of other beings actions within and as themselves as I see, realize and understand that unless I stand, myself, within and as the principle of give as you'd like to receive, I'm not in fact standing as an example for others to assist and support themselves as well, in transforming and changing themselves according to that which is best for all. In this, when and as I see myself expecting others to give me as I would have given them, I stop, I breath and I correct myself in that moment of breath as I see, realize and understand that my starting point within giving wasn't absolutely unconditional as I hiddenly expected them to give me something in return. 

Not everything revolved around me - Day 149

This is a continuation to:

The Importance of Physical Communication - Day 148

 

I forgive myself that I've NOT accepted and allowed myself to see, realize and understand that unless I communicate with the beings in my world and come to an agreement with them on each and every single point, there is no way they would stand in alignment with me.

 

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to NOT realize that for effective relationship with another human being, communication must be open and expressed as this world is clearly showing us the consequences of ineffective relationship where beings are NOT communicating physically with each other but rather having constant communication with themselves in their mind, with no alignment to each other whatsoever.

 

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to expect someone to do something for me when and as I've not directly communicate and discussed the point with the being and I haven't realized that unless the communication would be steadfast, direct and open, there is no way to establish a supportive relationship with a being that would be based on principle of oneness and equality.

 

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to believe that another may know what I require/need/desire/want without me directly communicate the point with the being and within that, I forgive myself that I've NOT accepted and allowed myself to see, realize and understand that even myself is not aware of my requirement/needs/desires/wants due to the extent separation that I've allowed within and as myself and therefor, there is no way another can know what I do not myself.

 

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to be frustrated and angry about another human being that didn't stand according to my desires while I was busy manipulating the communication without being direct within the communication, expecting the other being to comply to my needs, to know what I want from the being; in this, I forgive myself that I've NOT accepted and allowed myself to turn the point back to myself to see that I am able to assist and support myself in any given moment, in every breath and essentially, do not require another to do something for me to make me feel good about myself.

 

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to NOT realize that other human beings are not directly communicating with me when I'm having conversation with them in my mind and have no idea regarding my thoughts, inner conversations, backchat, reactions and unless I first sort myself out and stand stable within and as myself in self honesty and communicate physically with the other human being, our relationship wouldn't cease to exists the moment my inner thoughts/reactions/backchat would accumulate to the extent of me developing resentment towards the being and break of the relationship.

 

I forgive myself that I've NOT accepted and allowed myself to see, realize and understand that having conversation with other human beings in my mind indicate that there is something I'm not aligned yet to, within and as myself and thus, I must first stop, take a breath and investigate that which I've accepted and allowed myself to participate with, in separation of myself, direct and change myself and only than, if still required, I direct the communication physically, with the other human being from the starting point of assistance and support of both of us, equal and one.

 

I forgive myself that I've NOT accepted and allowed myself to see how and why I've accepted and allowed myself to sabotage and compromise my relationships with other human being in my world through accumulating backchat/reactions towards them without turning the point back to myself to see where I have not being honest with myself and blamed/judged the beings without seeing myself within it and because I didn't want to take the responsibility to change myself, I preferred breaking off the relationship, hoping my backchat/reaction would disappear only what I've not realized was that the backchat/reaction would always be there, cycling from one relationship to another, sabotaging one relationship after the following one, unless I stop, sort out myself and align myself to myself, my world and existence as a whole.

 

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to feel anger and resentment towards a being in my world whom I perceived that one could have done something for me, according to my eye's views, and yet they didn't and I haven't accepted and allowed myself to realize that they couldn't have done this thing for me unless I directly communicate the point with them, looking together if the point is practical, supportive for both and in alignment to where we are in our current process and within that, coming together to an agreement on that specific point, making a decision together, decision that is based on support of the physical rather than support the mind as to fulfil one's inner desires/wants/needs.

 

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to believe that beings in my environment must comply to my wants/needs/desires even when I'm not directly communicate about it and ask them for support. In this, I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to believe that this world is revolved around me and everyone must live their lives according to my best interest. In this, I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to NOT realize that I must stand within and as the principle: give as you'd like to receive regardless of whether or not others are walking the principle themselves as I see, realize and understand that when I stand according to principles of give as you'd like to receive, I also stand as an example for others to transform and change themselves according to that which is best for all however, I cannot expect anyone to stand within and as a principle of equality and oneness unless I stand first, in every moment of every breath, stable, sound and clear within myself.

The cultural society norms character - Self Commitments - Day 99

This is a continuation to

The Chameleon Character in my Movie of my Life - Day 97

The cultural society norms character - Self Forgiveness Day 98

 

I commit myself to let the guilt of not standing within and as how I've programmed myself to be and become as my culture/society norms and behaviors because I see, realize and understand that guilt emerge when and as I hold onto memories of the other characters that I perceived to be disappointed from me stepping out of my character and so long as I allow those memories to dictate my living expression, I've not in fact changed and stood within and as a principle of what is best for all as I accept and allow myself to separate myself from here, as all that exists here, through giving value to specific groups/cultures/societies and disregard everything and everyone else in this world.

 

I commit myself to STOP the co-dependent relationships in my world and my reality and to transform the relationship's starting point to that which is best for all which then, the relationship will become interdependent relationship where all are working together, in agreement, assisting and supporting each other to step out of character, so that we can for once and for all, stand together and recreate the our existence through clearing up the mess within and as ourselves and clearing up the mess within and as existence as ourselves. I see, realize and understand that when the relationship isn't co-dependent relationship, when/if one step out of character, the other wouldn't be dependent on the other to remain in character and so, each make the decision to either remain in character or step out of character. We decide.

 

I commit myself to show that the value that we have attached/defined/connected to our culture/social norms that we brought up to accept and allow as ourselves was done within and as separation where we have only maintain our culture guideline and have protected our legacy while all along, disregard all other cultures and have allowed abuse and suffering all around the world.

Within that, I commit myself to show that when a baby comes to the world, he doesn't have any memories, thoughts, emotions/feelings and value towards one's culture and that the parents as the culture have brainwashed the child until the child accepted and allowed the value of the culture to be his dictator as the child is already lost within and as him mind, as character.

 

I commit myself to stand in the face of frictions/disagreement that may occur due to me stepping out of characters. I see, realize and understand that the cause of friction is due to me not standing as equal to and one as the memories that people are holding towards me and as I stand and challenge their character, they will access resistance and friction as that was the process that I've walked within and as myself. And I commit myself to show, how I've supported myself to step out of my characters, how I've walked and still walking through the resistances that I face in the moment of change as the memories that I stored within my flesh doesn't match the character that I'm busy deleting and as such, the mind resisting its deletion but it is only me who decide whether to give in or stand up. it is always me who decide.

 

I commit myself to show how the culture/society norms brainwash its followers through a rewards system for their good behaviour as it was the culture/society norms as who we are that have created the rewards system to enslave and control us to the source/power/god/elite of Money that will provide us our rewards.

 

I commit myself to stand as equal and one as my self-responsibility to step out of character and within that, not accept and allow other people's character as I see, realize and understand that so long as I accept the shit of others, I accept the shit of myself and that is because I wasn't willing to stand up and direct my world and my reality within and as a principle of what is best for all and so long as I'm not standing in this position, I accept and allow myself to recreate my own shit that is a reflection of this world as a mirror of my acceptance and allowances.

 

I commit myself to let go of all my desires for a specific experience within self interest as I see the consequences of me accepting and allowing myself to exists within such desires; I commit myself to show that so long as we accept and allow the self interest desire of rewards as energy, we accept and allow the abuse and suffering in this world as all we care about is ourselves and ourselves only; I commit myself to show that so long as we care for ourselves only, we blind ourselves from the real physical reality that is Here, and we are not in fact doing anything to change the physical experience of the majority of this world into a fulfilling Life experience that is equal to and one for all; I commit myself to show that it is in our power, self will and ability to change this world if and as we let go of our individual race for our own self interest desire for an experience and practically apply the principle of do onto another that which you'd like to be done to you.

 

I commit myself to let go of the belief that I must explain myself to others as there is only ONE being that I must explain myself to and that is me - explain why despite of all I know, I haven't yet changed myself and accordingly, take the responsibility to do what ever it takes, as long as it takes, and change in fact.

The cultural society norms character - Self Forgiveness Day 98

This is a continuation to

The Chameleon Character in my Movie of my Life - Day 97

 

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to have taken for granted the belief that I must embody specific emotions and feeling within and as myself according to how the society and culture expect me to behave and thus, when and as I've not stood within the embodiment of a specific emotion/feeling when for example, someone questioned/challenged my stance, I access guilt for not being possessed by the expected emotion/feeling without realizing that in that moment of guilt, I've in fact have become possessed through accessing another dimension of and as Guilt and thus, I forgive myself that I've NOT accepted and allowed myself to stand as who I am, with no energy movement within and as myself and instead, have allowed the Chameleon Character that I've created and become to dictate the script I would play, the script that would ensure my position within and as the my society/culture so that I would please my environment and could maintain the 'peace' within the relationship.

 

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to not realize how instantaneously, me, as the Chameleon character, chooses the character that will suit the best outcome in any given moment wherein when my stance within the cultural and society norms is challenged, I would choose the best character that will automatically speak on my behalf so that I wouldn't create a friction within my environment. In this, I forgive myself that I've NOT accepted and allowed myself to see, realize and understand that the core/source/reason for why I haven't accepted and allowed myself to stand up as LIFE that is best for all is because of fear of losing my desires as I believed that only those in my culture/society can fulfil these desires because they have done so in the past and thus, I forgive myself that I've NOT accepted and allowed myself to see, realize and understand the co-dependency relationships that I've created with my environment wherein, we are dependent on each other to remain in character and fulfil each other desires, despite of the fact that it is only our desires, in self interest that we are providing for each other and there is no equal and one care and consideration to everything and everyone in this world and so, if one will step out of character, the relationship will fall and our desires wouldn't be able to be fulfilled any longer. 

 

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to have place Value within and as the culture and society norms that I grow up with and have thus, embodiment those values within and as my flesh to be guided and directed in any given moment and accordingly, have automated my behaviour through creating myself as the chameleon character, as a data bank of all the character that I can use to be able to maintain/sustain myself as my culture/social norms dictate me and would be able to fit in, be accepted, validated and rewarded.

 

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to fear stepping out of the culture and society norms character because I know that when stepping out of character, friction would defiantly manifest and within that, I forgive myself that I've NOT accepted and allowed myself to walk in self trust in every moment of every breath in absolute self honesty, trusting that I would keep walking no matter what may manifest and thus, I let go of the fear of friction as there is nothing to be afraid of - Friction will manifest as it is part of the change as the challenge that each one will face and unless I stand in the face of the challenge and friction, I will know one thing - I had a chance to step out of my character and stand up as Life that is best for all, and yet, I haven't as I've allowed myself as the fear character to direct, control, enslave and dictate me who and what I am as the culture and society norms that I've accepted as myself and within that, I forgive myself that I've NOT accepted and allowed myself to realize that unless I step out of character, I am useless as I have all that one needs for one self change - I've got the tools, I've got the support and it is me who decide whether I stand or fall and it would be me who would have to explain why and how I've allowed myself to fall with all the support that I have had throughout my Life.

 

I forgive myself that I've NOT accepted and allowed myself to see the relationship between remaining in the culture/society norms character and the self interest desire for a reward as an experience because according to my past experience, when and as I stood within the cultural/society norms, I got a reward for my behaviour and thus, have decided to remain in character so that I could maintain and sustain my rewards.

 

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to compromise and diminish myself through taking other people cultural and society norms characters personally and have thus, wear specific suits and changed my colours to sustain the peace within our relationships because I feared facing friction and within that, I haven't seen, realized and understood that so long as I accept and allow them to remain in their characters, I'm supporting their characters and thus, support their acceptance and allowance of the diminishment and compromise of themselves as characters because I wasn't willing to step out of my character and stand as a pillar of support within and as myself and within and as others as myself.

 

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to change my colours around people which I've stored memories about and haven't allowed myself to express myself as who I am, despite of me knowing exactly what is that I'm accepting and allowing when and as I allow myself to change my colours and submit to the cultural/society character and I forgive myself that I've not accepted and allowed myself to stand in self honesty as who I am, in every given moment due to fears of being mocked, judged, not accepted and validated because there was a desire that I didn't allow myself to give up yet, a desire for a self interest reward that I may get if I play along with the game, a desire that I didn't allow myself to let go because I haven't established self trust within and as myself that I will stand in the face of what ever my come, and walk the same as yesterday today and tomorrow, that I will stand and find a practical solution for what ever that may come because there is ALWAYS a solution if I dare myself to see it because the solution is Me, as what I decide ME to be and become, what I will accept and what I won't - it is always me who decides.

 

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to believe that I must explain and justify why I've changed to those who are still in character and within the fear of sharing myself as what I've walked, I in fact made sure that I won't step out of character and as such, will have nothing to explain and the truth is that I have not changed in fact because if I had, I would stand no matter what.

 

 

How to Choose a Partner – Day 21

I forgive myself that I’ve accepted and allowed myself to when considering a prospective partner to participate with the back chat: “I hope my family will accept him” to exist within and as me.

I forgive myself that I’ve NOT accepted and allowed myself to see that the thought: “I hope my family will accept him” influenced my decisions as well as I forgive myself that I’ve accepted and allowed myself to base my decisions on the fear that my family won’t approve my partner without getting to know the person and see if there is a potential for a supportive and effective relationship/agreement.

I forgive myself that I’ve accepted and allowed myself to compromise myself within that relationships that I’ve had because I made a decision of being with a partner based on whether or not my family will approve him instead of getting to know the person and making the decision based on common sense principle that I’ve set up for myself in relation to what agreement/relationship do I want for myself from the starting point of what is best for ME within the process that I’ve walking.

I forgive myself that I’ve accepted and allowed myself to when seeing a prospective partner, judge him according to his physical body appearance instead basing the decision according to guidelines that I’ve set up for myself in relation to the agreement/relationship that I would like to walk with another human being.

I forgive myself that I’ve accepted and allowed myself to connect the prospective body appearance to the back chat – “ I hope my family will approve him” in separation of me and accordingly, make a decision to walk or not to walk an agreement/relationship with the prospective partner despite of the fact that I didn’t even take the time to get to know the being and see for myself if there is a potential to establish an effective and supportive agreement/relationship with the being.

I forgive myself that I’ve NOT accepted and allowed myself to get to know beings that do not stand according to the relationship profile that I’ve created in my mind and within that, I forgive myself that I’ve NOT accepted and allowed myself to see that I’m limiting myself to such an extent through giving value to how the prospective partner would look like instead of taking the time to get to know the being and see whether there is a potential for us to align ourselves to and as one’s process.

I forgive myself that I’ve accepted and allowed myself to have a judgement day picture in my mind wherein I bring the partner home for dinner and according to that, assessing whether or not this person has a potential to be with me and within that, I forgive myself that I’ve accepted and allowed myself to hold on to a judgement day picture in my mind where my partner meet my family and through that assumption/judgement, I’m making a limited decision with regards to the being in relation to whether or not we could walk an agreement/relationship together.

I forgive myself that I’ve accepted and allowed myself to be influenced by my own judgement of the prospective partner through projecting it onto my family because I’ve not accepted and allowed myself to respect myself enough to actually get to know the person and make a decision from .

I forgive myself that I’ve accepted and allowed myself to use the beings that won’t fit to the family picture profile that I have in my mind only for sex and I forgive myself that I’ve NOT accepted and allowed myself to take a moment and get to know them because from the get go, I didn’t think there is a chance for the relationship/agreement according to the family profile picture that I’ve hold in my mind

I forgive myself that I’ve NOT accepted and allowed myself to walk into an agreement/relationship for ME but instead, tried to restore my relationship with my family through a partner that will fit into the family profile picture and with doing so, I’ve accepted and allowed myself to sabotage, compromise and abuse myself through making decisions that has nothing to do with WHO the person is and Who I am within the agreement/relationship.

I forgive myself that I’ve NOT accepted and allowed myself to see how I’ve sabotaged and abused myself within my relationship with males because I haven’t taken a moment to get to know them and see whether or not there is a potential for us to align ourselves to each other within our processes because my starting point was to have a partner that will fit with the family profile picture and thus, when someone fit the family profile picture, I’ve blinded my eyes and I didn’t see the obvious signs when the partner was not align with me and the process that I’m busy walking.

I forgive myself that I’ve accepted and allowed myself to establish relationship with males that I knew that the relationship won’t last and within that, felt superior within myself through the experience of spiting and rebelling to what i perceived to be expected of me without realizing that the only person whom I spiting against is myself through the accepted and allowed relationships in my life that are in no way a form of support.

I forgive myself that I’ve accepted and allowed myself to go deliberately into relationships that won’t last because I wanted to spite and rebel my upbringing without considering that the only person whom I spite and dishonour is myself.

I forgive myself that I’ve NOT accepted and allowed myself to see that I’m spiting myself when I’m making a decision to spite my family and within that, I forgive myself that I’ve accepted and allowed myself to make a decision based on spitefulness in relation to my prospective partner instead of walking a decision that is based on common sense principles that I’ve set up for myself in relation to how I would like to walk an agreement with another from the starting point of support to myself and my process that I’m busy walking.

I forgive myself that I’ve NOT accepted and allowed myself to walk into relationship/agreement with partners who have money because when I did go out with rich guys, I felt inferior, unworthy and not in their league and I didn’t want to spend the rest of my life within that experience. Within that, I forgive myself that I’ve NOT accepted and allowed myself to be open about my experience in relation to money to be able to face and correct the experience and thus then, come to an agreement with my partner in relation to money and instead, I ran away from myself and my partner before I even got to know him and see whether or not we can establish and develop an effective and supporting agreement/relationship.

I forgive myself that I’ve NOT accepted and allowed myself to see the relationship between money and relationships  wherein, when my partner has more money than me, I believe I cannot control him and thus, will always be in a position of inferior, attempting to please and validate myself to him, to sustain our relationship and within that, I forgive myself that I’ve NOT accepted and allowed myself to even consider establishing an agreement that is based on 2 equals walking their process where no one is controlling anyone but vice versa, assist and support each other to face and correct our self interest existence that we have become as well as expanding ourselves within the process of stepping out of the mind and stepping into ourselves as the physical equality and oneness reality.

I forgive myself that I’ve accepted and allowed myself to NOT go into a relationship/agreement with partners who have money because I felt ashamed that I can’t afford that which they can and I didn’t want to be feel inferior within the relationship. Within that, I forgive myself that I’ve not accepted and allowed myself to be open and communicate the money point with my partners and thus, get to an agreement of how we will walk our relationship/agreement in relation to money.

I forgive myself that I’ve accepted and allowed myself to fear getting hurt again due to a failed relationship and thus, I’ve made a decision to never engage to an agreement/relationship where I could get hurt and thus, I made sure to not place myself in a vulnerable position and only went for superficial relationship as well as to unavailable partners, not even considering how I’m abusing and sabotaging myself within it and also, not considering taking a moment and sort myself out, to be able to walk an effective relationship/agreement with myself and with others.

I forgive myself that I’ve NOT accepted and allowed myself to see that getting hurt due to a failed relationship was my own self creation which I’ve accepted and allowed because I didn’t have the tools to assist and support me with practical common sense application and thus, I forgive myself that I’ve accepted and allowed myself to live in a world where the most important education isn’t in place and beings are being occupied in their mind with self pity, self sorrow and so on, and within that, abdicated the responsibility to assist and support themselves to step out of their mind, establish themselves in the physical equality and oneness reality and thus, creating a world that is best for all.

I forgive myself that I’ve accepted and allowed myself to make decision of not getting in the position of being vulnerable and intimate with any partner so that I won’t have to go through the hell that I’ve experienced after a failed relationship and thus, accepted and allowed myself to sabotage, compromise and abuse myself within the belief that I can use sex to overcome the self sorrow, depression and self pity, despite of the fact that it didn’t assist and support me in anyway but only increased the emptiness that I’ve experienced within myself, because I did not had the tools to assist and support myself with stepping out of the emotional body that I’ve allowed myself to exists as and within that, I forgive myself that I’ve accepted and allowed a world where beings are subjected to their self creation mind design in total separation of themselves because we haven’t establish an effective education system that will allow everyone to face their acceptance and allowances which from there, we can take the responsibility to assist and support ourselves and other and together, establish a world that is best for all.

I forgive myself that I’ve accepted and allowed myself to use and abuse males for sex because of a self belief that I could feel good and better about myself and hide and suppress the depression that I’ve experience after a failed relationship and within that, I forgive myself that I’ve NOT accepted and allowed myself to utilize sex as a physical self support and instead, tried and attempted to “fix” myself through having sex with males that I don’t have intimate relationship/agreement with despite the fact that I was never “fixed” and thus, accepted and allowed myself the cycle of abuse of myself and others without any practical corrective application.

I commit myself to stop making decisions according to a family profile picture that I’ve created in my mind and to assist and support me with creating a practical guideline for a decision making with regards to a prospective partner so that when and as I see anyone that is not standing according to the guideline that I’ve set up for myself, I will not manipulate myself an fall into the pattern of making decisions that are not based on self support but rather self sabotage abuse and compromise.

 I commit myself to walk and LIVE my own life within the starting point of self support principle of what is best for all.

I commit myself to embrace and respect myself and within that, establish an effective agreement with myself to NOT fall into the trap of self manipulation patterns of abuse and sabotage and in that, stand up, as who I am within everything that I do, and thus, not accepting anything that is less than me as well as from my prospective partner.

I commit myself to walk an agreement with a partner that respect himself enough to assist and support himself to step out of his mind in alignment with the process that I’m busy walking and thus, I will cross reference and investigate his application before making the decision to walk an agreement with him, to make sure that the decision is based on a real and trust worthy self support application.

I commit myself to get to know the prospective partner before making any decision of walking an agreement with him, to see if there is an actual potential that we can be aligned within ourselves and our processes.

I commit myself to Stop using sex to manipulate myself and others and to only utilize sex as a self physical support when and as I’m walking an agreement with another where intimacy and comfortably with each other is established.

Religion of Self – Dependency – Day 9

I forgive myself that I’ve accepted and allowed myself to leave a back door for mistakes through always having someone to blame for my responsibilities, instead of walking a time line, walking in clarity and effectively planning that which I’m participating with and get to the utmost potential in everything that I do.

I forgive myself that I’ve accepted and allowed myself to – Instead of walking my responsibilities during my day, in self trust and directing myself effectively, I seek for someone to direct and approve my doing so that if I fuck up, I could blame this person for it.

I forgive myself that I’ve NOT accepted and allowed myself to take full responsibility for my responsibilities within the need for someone to approve that which I do.

I forgive myself that I’ve NOT accepted and allowed myself to see the nature of my dependency towards others within looking/seeking for someone to stand as a pillar to approve and validate my doing and within that, haven’t accepted and allowed myself to be and become the directive principle of myself and my world, within self-trust in every moment of every breath.

I forgive myself that I’ve NOT accepted and allowed myself to see that my entire existence was dependent upon others to validate, direct and approve me and in that, I forgive myself that I’ve NOT accepted and allowed myself to take responsibility for my life because I gave my power away to those whom I blindly follow and trust them to direct me.

I forgive myself that I’ve accepted and allowed myself to be directed, controlled and enslaved to the world system wherein, I give my power away to other beings to make decisions for me without realizing and seeing that by giving my power away, I’m compromising myself and my world as the silent acceptance of this world to continue functions as it is because apparently, I’m not worthy to speak and stand up because I require someone else to insert words into me so that I know that what I’ve said or done was pre-approved and validated.

I forgive myself that I’ve accepted and allowed myself to exists as a shadow in this world through not taking the responsibility and actually directing myself but instead, blindly followed by the example of those who came before me despite of the physical evidence that their example wasn’t and isn’t an example that is worthwhile due to the consequences of this current world system that is based on abuse, suffering, crime, wars and survival and in no way best for all.

I forgive myself that I’ve accepted and allowed myself to train and program myself to always seek for approval for my doings and in that, abdicated the responsibility to be and become a human beings that is standing in stability, directing oneself and one’s world without being influenced, controlled and enslaved to a system that is founded on self interest and the survival of the fittest.

I forgive myself that I’ve NOT accepted and allowed myself to see that I’m trusting other beings to direct me and in that, making the statement that I’m not worthy for my own self trust.

I forgive myself that I’ve NOT accepted and allowed myself to see that my entire existence is depending on others to direct and validate me and within that, I’ve not seen how the world system functions exactly the same where only a select few direct and validate those who blindly accepted themselves as inferior and unworthy.

I forgive myself that I’ve accepted and allowed myself to give value to those who have come before me because apparently, they know better and I must follow them, despite the physical daily prove that they have no clue within how to direct themselves and our world because if they would have known, this world was already a world that is best for all.

I forgive myself that I’ve accepted and allowed myself to validate and worthy myself through the approval of others and when I didn’t get the approval, I doubted and question myself from the starting point of inferiority.

I forgive myself that I’ve NOT accepted and allowed myself to realize that for a substantial change in this world, I cannot trust anyone but myself and thus, I will myself to be and become the directive principle of myself and my world so that in every moment of every breath, I will act and do only that which is best for all.

I forgive myself that I’ve NOT accepted and allowed myself to realize the meaning of ‘cross referencing’ and thus, I used it to indirectly seeking for approval, trying and attempting to present that I’m clear and directive but the fact of the matter was that I’ve manipulated others so that I could be validated and approved and thus, if anything went wrong, I could justify it through saying that it was cross reference and blame others for the fuck up instead of taking responsibility from the get go and utilizing cross referencing form equality and oneness starting point instead of fear and inferiority.

I forgive myself that I’ve NOT accepted and allowed myself to realize that if I require someone to tell me what I should say or do, I cannot  trust myself to direct this world to a world that is best for all and thus, I’ve abdicated my responsibility as a human being, to face myself, correct the relationship that I’ve formed with my mind and change myself so that I would be able to stand up within myself and this world and do whatever it takes to make sure that this world is a world that is best for all.

I commit myself to get myself sorted out in all aspects as I see and realize the extent of that which I’ve accepted and allowed myself to live and exists as, with the direct consequences of allowing a world that is best for only a few while others are seeking for the approval of their very existence through money.

I commit myself to be and become the directive principle of myself and my world within self trust and so, Will not accept and allow myself to be influenced, controlled and enslaved by anything and anyone and thus, I commit myself to understand how and why I have blindly diminished myself to such an extent that my entire existence is dependent on others.

I commit myself to – when and as I see a movement within me of wanting to say/ask something so that I could validate myself through the answer, I stop, I breathe, I bring myself back here, I stand within and as me in self trust within the realization that if I would to fuck up, I will learn from it, face, correct and change.

I commit myself to direct myself in every moment according to a basic principle of what is best for all lives and in that, I do not require anyone to tell me what is best for all lives because with common sense and self honesty, the answer is very clear.

 

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