Sex Education - Part 2 - Day 128

 

This is a continuation to:

Sexual Inadequacy - Overview - Day 124

Sex in the Dark – Sexual Inadequacy–Part 1 - Day 125

Sex in the Dark – Sexual Inadequacy – Part 2 - Day 126

Sex Education - Part 1 - Day 127

 

 

Also, I suggest listening to:

What is Sex - Who am I as Sex - Part 30

What is Sex - Why am I as Sex - Part 31

 

 

I commit myself to investigate in writing, Who I am as Sex, Why I am as Sex and What is Sex to me to assist and support me with allocating my starting point of having sex and in that, to assist and support myself to transform my Mind Sex participation into and as a physical expression of and as myself, as my human physical body, in equality and Oneness.

 

I commit myself to assist and support myself to STOP my participation in my mind while having sex, through a process of writing each and every thought and back chat that I've accepted and allowed during sex so that I could physically be here, as touch, as sex, as a physical expression when having sex, to for the first time, explore and investigate WHO I Am as a physical sex expression.

 

I commit myself to MOVE myself as breath, when and as I'm having sex, without the mind dictating me what to think, how to act, how to preform, what to say, how to move, what to do; I see, realize and understand now how I've deliberately sabotage and in that, abuse myself when having sex as I've done so through the mind, in self interest desire for an experience that I've heard/seen by others and accordingly, have attempted to live their experience instead of Exploring/investigate myself as Sex, as physical expression in equality and oneness as myself human physical body.

 

I commit myself to SHOW the relationship between sexual suppression within and as human being and the lack of supportive and tangible sexual education in this world.

 

I commit myself to support children in developing effective sex education so that they won't have to be left alone to discover themselves while the chances of them abusing themselves and their partner are high as they would try to live their illusions/fantasy in their mind that was and is impulse, imprinted, infused in their mind by the current media and advertisement without having any guideness and support by those who supposed to be their example, their educator, their support structure.

 

For more context, please read -

Sexual Expression – Overview  Day 112

Investigating Sexual Expression - Self Forgiveness Part 1 - Day 113

Investigating Sexual Expression - Self Commitments - Part 1 - Day 114

 

Investigating Sexual Expression - Part 2 - Day 121

Investigating Sexual Expression - Self Forgiveness - Part 2 - Day 122

Investigating Sexual Expression - Self Commitments - Part 2 - Day 123

 

Spilling semen in vain - Day 115

Spilling semen in vain - Self Forgiveness -  Day 116

Spilling semen in vain - Self Commitments -  Day 117

 

Be Fruitful and Multiply - Day 118

Be Fruitful and Multiply - Self Forgiveness - Day 119

Be Fruitful and Multiply - Self Commitments - Day 120

 

 

Investigating Sexual Expression - Self Commitments - Part 2 - Day 123

This is a continuation to:

Sexual Expression – Overview  Day 112

Investigating Sexual Expression - Self Forgiveness Part 1 - Day 113

Investigating Sexual Expression - Self Commitments - Part 1 - Day 114

 

Investigating Sexual Expression - Part 2 - Day 121

Investigating Sexual Expression - Self Forgiveness - Part 2 - Day 122

 

 

I commit myself to SHOW that the definitions/connotations/associations that we have attached to words are the exact definitions/connotations/associations that our parents had attached and accordingly, we are passing, generation after generation a language that is based on absolute separation and in this, make sure that no one in fact stand as equal and one as the Living Words as that which is best for all.

 

I commit myself to show that the language that we have taught to speak is taint with Definitions as FEARS and through this, we create our FEARful reality because we haven't realize that we are in fact the Living Words and accordingly, when the words are separated from who we are and are based on fear, our creation as this world would be equal to the one as the living words and to change this world, we must change ourselves as the living words and in this, to redefine, explore, investigate each and every word and transform the word to that which is best for all so that we can create a world that is best for all and to ensure our best for all creation, we will pass on to our children the language that is based on Principle of Oneness and Equality as the living words, as ourselves.

 

I commit myself to take part of the establishment and development of Designing Mathematical Bio-grammatical Structures to Assist in the Re-definition of Words in Specific Detail to Always Result in Outcomes that are Best for All Life.

http://creationsjourneytolife.blogspot.com/2012/08/day-116-re-defining-words-to-living.html

 

I commit myself to be attentive and aware to any physical changes/movements within and as my human physical body because I now see, realize and understand that those changes/movements are automated and activated through the words that I speak/hear and in that, I realized that when and as I'm reacting mentally and physically to words, I'm in that moment had abdicated my directive principle within and as the breath because I've not moved/changed/react as a self movement awareness, here, but rather automated my movement in separation of me and allowed the mind to take over and dictate me how to feel/react/move.

 

I commit myself to SHOW and Explain in details, as many times as necessary Why and How the words that we are living are polarized within and as Negative or Positive Charge and in this, Why it is so important that we would walk the redefining process of each and every Word we speak, Positive as well as Negative, to make sure we are no longer dictated by the experience of a words but rather a human living physical human being that are equal to and one as the living Words.

 

I commit myself to SHOW how and why we have been programmed and brainwashed by the Media to live a Life of self interest, where we seek for an experience in separation of ourselves and our world and have not realized, seen or understood that in essence, our self interest desire for an experience is to hide/cover/ignore our FEARS that we have deliberately created ourselves, to remain slaves to our own minds and accordingly, we have created the Media to support with our enslavement processes and to never in fact create a world/Life that is best for all.

 

I commit myself to SHOW in writings and vlogging How and Why FEAR and LOVE are the opposite Polarity of each other, Why and how we have created Love to Hide/Ignore/Cover our FEARS, Why and how we have created ourselves in FEAR; and Why and How, every decision we make and have made was ALWAYS based on Fears.

Investigating Sexual Expression - Self Forgiveness - Part 2 - Day 122

This is a continuation to:

Sexual Expression – Overview  Day 112

Investigating Sexual Expression - Self Forgiveness Part 1 - Day 113

Investigating Sexual Expression - Self Commitments - Part 1 - Day 114

 

Investigating Sexual Expression - Part 2 - Day 121

 

I forgive myself that I've NOT accepted and allowed myself to see, realize and understand that the language that I speak and the associations/definitions/connotation that I have attached to words were all embedded within me through the fear definitions of those who have come before me and accordingly, the emotions and feeling that they have attached to specific words, resonated and imprinted into me. Therefor, I forgive myself that I've NOT accepted and allowed myself to realize that the embedded language that I've carried within and as myself, from those who have come before me, where the foundation of my existence of fear and through this foundation, all my memories that I've stored and used to create my own characters where the continuation of those who have come before me and essentially, who and what I have become as a total separated force that I've defined myself as, was nothing but memories that formed my characters without me ever realizing that all those memories and character were based on the fears of those who have come before me, which I have automatically accepted as me, and I would automatically pass on to my children and make sure that our AT-Most-Fear will ever remain with no actual change generation after generation.

 

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to define/attached/associated/connected a positive energetic charge to the words: Romance, Making love and Love and accordingly, every time I spoke/heard the words my human physical body has expanded in the belly towards the heart area and sense of breathing from the inside from my body has emerged as well as a smile was  spread on my face;

 

In this - I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to ignore the physical changes within and as my body when hearing/speaking the words Romance, Making Love and Love because as far as I concern, those words are positive and the feeling that I'm experiencing in my body is valid and acceptable and therefor, there is nothing I should pay attention to. Within that, I forgive myself that I've NOT accepted and allowed myself to raise a red flag to any physical changes that I'm experiencing when and as I'm not in fact the directive principle of the change/movement and there is something separated from me that is moving/changing me wherein I'm giving it full permission because it feels nice, warm and cosy within and as myself as my human physical body.

 

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to define a being as negative when and as one has taking the responsibility to question and challenge every single movement/change that emerge within and as one's human physical body because I've NOT accepted and allowed myself to investigate the driving force of the change/movement as I've not accepted and allowed myself to see, realize and understand the extent to which I've separated myself from myself as my human physical body and in this, I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to judge those who have taken their responsibility to become the driving force as the directive principle of themselves and their LIVES because I simply didn't understand what they are doing and normally, I judge that which I don't understand. Through this, I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to limit, compromise and sabotage myself through judging that which I don't understand because if I allow myself to understand and realize why and how am I require to take the responsibility and investigate each and every thought/movement/change within and as myself, I would change myself and through this change, I would have to give up the Positive feelings that I'm experiencing within and as myself and I don't want to do that because it feels good, cosy and warm within and as my human physical body.

 

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to be brainwash by those who have come before me wherein Making Love, Romance and Love is acceptable, valuable and validated while Sex and Fuck isn't and through this, I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to confuse the physical expressional act of 2 human being enjoying the physical act/expression with a different definition that I've attached to the words, in separation of me, not accepting and allowing myself to ever consider, WHO I am within and as the physical expression of 2 human being touching and exploring each other.

 

I forgive myself that I've NOT accepted and allowed myself to see how from a very young age I've been programming myself to seek for LOVE and Romance in separation of me, through the various kind and types of media that I was exposed to and therefor, I've accepted and allowed myself to separate myself from myself as my human physical body, believing that something out there can fulfil and complete me, never considering and realizing that it was ALWAYS here, as me, that fulfil and complete me in equality and oneness to myself as myself as the physical living expression that I am, in every moment of every breath.

 

Love is the greatest fear we ever invented which makes sure we never change the systems and ways that create fear and is the best protection fear can ever have to ensure its continuous existence. Bernard Poolman

 

I forgive myself that I've NOT accepted and allowed myself to see how I have created FEAR to exists within and as myself to the extent of which FEAR has become my driving force, my directive principle, that which will determine each and every single decision that I would ever make and in this, I've created LOVE as the opposite to my FEARS so that for a moment, I would be able to ignore and deny my fears that I'm experiencing within and as myself and through LOVE and Romance, I am able to Hide being my reality of Fear and never do anything to question, investigate and challenge my blind belief in my fears because apparently, there is someone else that fear exactly like me and within the principle of 2 and more in my name, here I am, I can validate my fears and never in fact change my existence and our existence as a whole.

 

 

More Self Forgiveness statements to come...

Investigating Sexual Expression - Part 2 - Day 121

This is a continuation to:

Sexual Expression – Overview  Day 112

Investigating Sexual Expression - Self Forgiveness Part 1 - Day 113

Investigating Sexual Expression - Self Commitments - Part 1 - Day 114

 

A few days ago, I was writing about the Negative Charge within the words Sex, Fuck and so forth and today, I will continue with looking and investigating the Positive Charge that we have attached for example, to the words: Romance, Making Love, Love etc.

 

It is interesting to see, how we are only working/writing/dealing with that which makes us feel uncomfortable and we disregards that which makes us feel good, better, superior. Meaning, why should I investigate that which makes me feel good? Why can't I only get rid of the negative feeling within and as myself? Why do I need to stop the positive energy within and as myself? I don't want to.. Lol. That is a common statement that I hear from many beings - "you are so negative! You have to fight the human nature with positivity! All you need is Love". Is it? If that is so, why we have defined sex and making Love with a polarity charge despite of the fact that it describe the same thing? And obviously, if Love is all we need, how come there is so much abuse in this world. (for context watch my vlog 2012 - LOVE Month - Is Love and Light the Solution?

The Polarity design of energy was explained in details in Earth's Journey to Life - Day 5: Redefining Words (Part 2) - Playing polarity games

 

Why is it that making LOVE is accepted and Sex/fuck isn't? I mean, seriously, that is the exact same thing. why are we reactive in a positive way to the words 'Making Love' and reacting in a negative way to the words sex/fuck?

 

So, why is it that Making Love and Romance is Ok? Is Positive? Is allowed? While the fact of the matter is that the physical act remain the same - 2 human beings fucking each other.. Lol

Why is it wrong to Make Love with ourselves? Why is it shameful to create an environment for ourselves, alone, candles in one's room, clean sheets, quite music, maybe some essential oil burners and simply touch ourselves, becoming intimate with our physical body? Why is it that when touching oneself in a warm, candle light, music environment is suddenly sound bad/wrong when we called the physical touch - Masturbation. Oh no, god forbid saying this word. 

 

In self honesty, one can look within oneself at the physical body changes when hearing the words Fuck vs. hearing the words Making love. The word Fuck comes with disgusted, constriction in the belly area, the face constricting as well and specifically in the mouth reign and our entire human physical body yells: "NO, it's awful, don't say that". However, when hearing the word 'Making Love' the body expand, like breathing from the inside, smile suddenly automatically emerge and warm and positive energy moves within and as us from the belly area towards the heart.  Fascinating isn't it?

 

This shows the extent of separation that we've allowed within and as ourselves in relation to how we LIVE the WORDS we speak and hear. How for each and every word we assigned/associated/connected/defined with either positive or negative charge. For more information with regards to the Living words and redefining of words, I suggest reading Earth's Journey to Life - Day 4: Redefining words - Part 1.

 

Within my following blogs, I will walk the positive energy charge that is associated to the word Love in relation to sex and masturbation through a process of self forgiveness and self corrective/commitments statements. 

Religion of Self – Dependency – Day 9

I forgive myself that I’ve accepted and allowed myself to leave a back door for mistakes through always having someone to blame for my responsibilities, instead of walking a time line, walking in clarity and effectively planning that which I’m participating with and get to the utmost potential in everything that I do.

I forgive myself that I’ve accepted and allowed myself to – Instead of walking my responsibilities during my day, in self trust and directing myself effectively, I seek for someone to direct and approve my doing so that if I fuck up, I could blame this person for it.

I forgive myself that I’ve NOT accepted and allowed myself to take full responsibility for my responsibilities within the need for someone to approve that which I do.

I forgive myself that I’ve NOT accepted and allowed myself to see the nature of my dependency towards others within looking/seeking for someone to stand as a pillar to approve and validate my doing and within that, haven’t accepted and allowed myself to be and become the directive principle of myself and my world, within self-trust in every moment of every breath.

I forgive myself that I’ve NOT accepted and allowed myself to see that my entire existence was dependent upon others to validate, direct and approve me and in that, I forgive myself that I’ve NOT accepted and allowed myself to take responsibility for my life because I gave my power away to those whom I blindly follow and trust them to direct me.

I forgive myself that I’ve accepted and allowed myself to be directed, controlled and enslaved to the world system wherein, I give my power away to other beings to make decisions for me without realizing and seeing that by giving my power away, I’m compromising myself and my world as the silent acceptance of this world to continue functions as it is because apparently, I’m not worthy to speak and stand up because I require someone else to insert words into me so that I know that what I’ve said or done was pre-approved and validated.

I forgive myself that I’ve accepted and allowed myself to exists as a shadow in this world through not taking the responsibility and actually directing myself but instead, blindly followed by the example of those who came before me despite of the physical evidence that their example wasn’t and isn’t an example that is worthwhile due to the consequences of this current world system that is based on abuse, suffering, crime, wars and survival and in no way best for all.

I forgive myself that I’ve accepted and allowed myself to train and program myself to always seek for approval for my doings and in that, abdicated the responsibility to be and become a human beings that is standing in stability, directing oneself and one’s world without being influenced, controlled and enslaved to a system that is founded on self interest and the survival of the fittest.

I forgive myself that I’ve NOT accepted and allowed myself to see that I’m trusting other beings to direct me and in that, making the statement that I’m not worthy for my own self trust.

I forgive myself that I’ve NOT accepted and allowed myself to see that my entire existence is depending on others to direct and validate me and within that, I’ve not seen how the world system functions exactly the same where only a select few direct and validate those who blindly accepted themselves as inferior and unworthy.

I forgive myself that I’ve accepted and allowed myself to give value to those who have come before me because apparently, they know better and I must follow them, despite the physical daily prove that they have no clue within how to direct themselves and our world because if they would have known, this world was already a world that is best for all.

I forgive myself that I’ve accepted and allowed myself to validate and worthy myself through the approval of others and when I didn’t get the approval, I doubted and question myself from the starting point of inferiority.

I forgive myself that I’ve NOT accepted and allowed myself to realize that for a substantial change in this world, I cannot trust anyone but myself and thus, I will myself to be and become the directive principle of myself and my world so that in every moment of every breath, I will act and do only that which is best for all.

I forgive myself that I’ve NOT accepted and allowed myself to realize the meaning of ‘cross referencing’ and thus, I used it to indirectly seeking for approval, trying and attempting to present that I’m clear and directive but the fact of the matter was that I’ve manipulated others so that I could be validated and approved and thus, if anything went wrong, I could justify it through saying that it was cross reference and blame others for the fuck up instead of taking responsibility from the get go and utilizing cross referencing form equality and oneness starting point instead of fear and inferiority.

I forgive myself that I’ve NOT accepted and allowed myself to realize that if I require someone to tell me what I should say or do, I cannot  trust myself to direct this world to a world that is best for all and thus, I’ve abdicated my responsibility as a human being, to face myself, correct the relationship that I’ve formed with my mind and change myself so that I would be able to stand up within myself and this world and do whatever it takes to make sure that this world is a world that is best for all.

I commit myself to get myself sorted out in all aspects as I see and realize the extent of that which I’ve accepted and allowed myself to live and exists as, with the direct consequences of allowing a world that is best for only a few while others are seeking for the approval of their very existence through money.

I commit myself to be and become the directive principle of myself and my world within self trust and so, Will not accept and allow myself to be influenced, controlled and enslaved by anything and anyone and thus, I commit myself to understand how and why I have blindly diminished myself to such an extent that my entire existence is dependent on others.

I commit myself to – when and as I see a movement within me of wanting to say/ask something so that I could validate myself through the answer, I stop, I breathe, I bring myself back here, I stand within and as me in self trust within the realization that if I would to fuck up, I will learn from it, face, correct and change.

I commit myself to direct myself in every moment according to a basic principle of what is best for all lives and in that, I do not require anyone to tell me what is best for all lives because with common sense and self honesty, the answer is very clear.

 

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