Learning to Trust myself - Day 406

Interestingly enough, in the last couple of weeks, the main point I was working with was Self Trust, Self Acceptance, Respect and Worth as I uncovered a deeper layer I haven't seen before within myself. These are the words I have written down for myself when I started looking at the point maybe 3 weeks ago:

"Recently, it became more evident that I am following a religion, the religion of myself; a religion that I've wrote with my own blood, flesh and the entire body; a religion that I follow so dearly without realizing that within this religion of myself, I have diminished and compromised myself to such an extent that self-worth, self-respect and self-value are just titles I can give to myself through the validation of others. In other words, in the religion that I lived by, the first commandment was- You shall be Valued, Worthy and Respected only if others will…"

I haven't published that blog as I planned to walk the point first as myself, as the living change and then share it with the world as a point of support.

Bernard was pushing this point more and more recently so that I could finally make a decision - to either trust myself completely and unconditionally or to always remain a slave where I require glorifications from others to be able to validate myself. Within my current responsibilities, I was directly working with Bernard as I took on a position that requires Specificity, Responsibility and Certainty and most importantly self-trust. Though, the one thing I feared the most was making mistakes - since a mistake won't only influence my life, but the lives of many others. Bernard never gave me the answers but instead, insisted that I will first look at the point for myself, assess all things, all outcomes and make decisions.

So, a week ago, I started to practically apply Self Trust wherein I would make a decision, be comfortable with the decision, check myself, cross reference myself and then, once the decision was applied, I would share it with him as a 'By the way' thing and he would either say 'cool' or 'have you looked at…' or 'have you considered that' or 'Maya, your voice tonality shows that your decision was done within a starting point of a reaction so what is the reaction all about?'.

But then he died, and I cannot say that I transcended the point yet. In fact, my physical body shows that there is still unresolved points that I haven't considered or effectively applied. The trust point, in my back where the pain shows that there is a part of me that cannot trust myself without Bernard being here to support me within the decisions that I make and the decisions that I will have to make.

So my back is stiff, sore, constricted and basically, that point in my back is now weak as the support structure I've created for myself in separation of myself/body is nonexistent, as I have separated the self-trust into a relationship with Bernard, trusting him more than I trusted myself and in this exists the separation. Now I have to teach myself to trust myself so absolutely - so that no matter what I face, I am stable within myself.

I must create my own support structure wherein Self Honesty, Assessing all things and deciding on that which would result in the outcome that is best for all is practically applied within each breath I take. To trust myself that when I make a mistake, I learn from the mistake, I correct myself and practically change - "simple" as Bernard used to say.

So I commit myself to learn to trust myself unconditionally and to support myself and become the support Bernard stood as and in a way still standing, for me and for others.

Sudden and Unexpected Physical Shame - Day 313

..."You will do Self Forgiveness and Write Every day, but without SHAME - you will Not Change, and it will All be in VAIN. Even PAIN will not Change Humanity. It will Only Be SHAME. SHAME will be the First REAL Physical Feeling, and Once You Change – You Rebirth as Life, you will Learn to FEEL for Real and be Really Alive.

Those that are of the Illusion as CONsciousness, can Feel No Shame! The Only Shame they Know is the Shame the System use to Keep one Enslaved. Real Shame is a Physical Realisation that Will Remain WITH You, As You, ‘TILL YOU CHANGE!"... (Day 311: The Secret to Self-Realisation)

 

If you haven't already, I suggest reading through this blog above as it IS the key for Real Self Realization.

 

I have faced a few time this year a Physical, unexpected and sudden shame that I couldn't pinpoint or Define as Shame because the 'shame' as I was taught to feel/experience wasn't similar to the Physical Experience that all of a sudden encompassed me. Thus, I would like to share my Relationship with Physical Shame since I see it is a crucial point in one's process of self realization.

 

So, after I read the blog, I was looking at my process of self realization - I saw that I could count the moments of Physical Shame in only one hand which that in itself should emerged shame however, it didn't, I felt nothing in regard. I didn't feel shame for not walking through shame and even when I realized that I should have got myself to a consistent real physical feeling of shame and yet I haven't, I didn't feel shame. I was aware that I didn't feel ashamed/shamed about not feeling shame that I only felt shamed for a few times and when I looked within and as myself, I still didn't feel shame, I felt nothing.

 

The bottom line is that Shame as a Physical Shame isn't something that I can force myself to Feel, it's either Here in absolute self Honesty or it's of the Mind and any attempt to try and make myself feel Shame will be coming from the starting point of a Desire to be More.

 

I will share here my relationship with Physical Shame so that one will see, realize and understand and thus, stop the expectation that self change is manifested automatically the moment that Physical Shame is here because I am the living proof that it is not. I can allocate 3 instances where Physical Shame had emerged and yet, I could only see a change that is worthwhile in the last event as the shame that I faced that day was so overwhelming that I had to make a decision in that moment, within and as myself:

 

The first 2 times where I felt Physical Shame, wherein, a point of transcendence that I could have walked into perfection was here and yet, I didn't jump on this window of opportunity and walk myself into and as a physical change but instead, I got myself into another time loop that I'm still facing until the window is open again and it would be up to me again to decide whether I step up and transcend these 2 specific point.

 

So here, it is to emphasize that Shame isn't something to take for granted once one is experiencing or facing a physical shame because if one isn't absolute self honest and thus, will oneself to take self responsibility and  change as a decision one make within and as oneself, one would close this window of opportunity as one gave up one's power to the fears of change that one had created for and as oneself, in self interest.

 

However, a few weeks ago, I watched a documentary called: Why Poverty - Welcome to the World and a sudden and unexpected Experience overwhelmed me to the extent of me being SO angry, disappointed, overwhelmed and I cried and I couldn't believe how it is possible that I was physically in the places where this documentary took place and I haven't seen what I am seeing at this very moment? How it is possible that I was so blind and completely abdicated my responsibility as a human being in this world? How is it possible that only now, in my 30ties, I finally started becoming aware of the real problems that exists in this world. But I also realized at that very moment the extent of the problem and what will it take for humanity to stand up and change - it will take the impossible and it is up to us to make it possible - it won't be easy though; This undefined experience that I faced, I can now define it as Physical Shame. Here, I had a window of opportunity to either fall or stand up. I decided to stand up and made a clear decision of what will I do with my life. I could have easily fall because I truly understood the extensiveness of the problem and the very small chance that we could actually change our human nature enough to have a majority of votes to walk by/through/as the Equal Money System as a solution. I realized that I would have to give up my life and that I may not succeed to bring enough common sense and awareness to Humanity so that we could together manifest and implement a solution in this world. I realized that I may Die, devoting my life for a change that is impossible and that if we as a group of humanity Fail to establish such change, I would end up with nothing but my Breath.

But interestingly enough, this time, I used the Physical Shame as a point of self motivation tool to Continue investigating and study what is really going on in this world which from there, I could expand, develop and improve my Common Sense, Writing and Communication Skills and thus, would be able to stand in absolute stability and clarity in the face of any Abuser or Hater of Life and direct the points effectively.

 

So a point of assistance and support - One cannot force the experience of Shame because forcing it means, as I've mentioned before, that it is not real, that our starting point is of self deception/manipulation within the Desire to be More than who one is. When and as one face a point of Physical Shame, I suggest to take a breath, see what is directly here and the window of opportunity for a real self change is now here for one to walk through. If the Experience is so overwhelming, I suggest sharing yourself on the Desteni Forum for further assistance and support.

 

Now, I have to walk my talk and to prove to myself that the Decision that I made a few weeks ago stand the test of time because it is very easy to create a personality and/or Entity of/as self interest within the Desire to be More which then thus, all one does is prolonging our processes as a whole.

 

Further Interviews to listen to:

Decision Making 101 (Part 1) - Reptilians - Part 156

Decision Making 101 (Part 2) - Reptilians - Part 157

Tradition of Child Marriage will END in an Equal Money Capitalism System - Day 292

If you haven't already, I suggest to read the Previous blogs to have encompassing understanding with regards to Child Marriage in terms of the severe Problems and the Practical Solutions that would implemented within an Equal Money Capitalism System:

 

Abusive child marriages will END in an Equal Money System - Day 284

Child Marriage will END in an Equal Money System (Overview) - Day 285

Poverty and Child Marriage will END in an Equal Money Capitalism - Day 286

Education Will END Child Marriage in an Equal Money Capitalism - Day 289

Health Disasters and Child Marriage will END in an Equal Money System - Day 290

Violence and Child Marriage - The Unspoken and Disturbing Truth - Day 291

 

 

 

 

The Problem:

 

In some Religions and Cultures, Child Marriage has become a generational tradition.

 

Child marriage is a traditional practice that in many places happens simply because it has happened for generations – and straying from tradition could mean exclusion from the community and the consequences emerge from such instances.

 

From Ending Child Marriage - UNFPA P. 19-20:

"In communities where child marriage is prevalent there is strong social pressure on families to conform. Failure to conform can often result in ridicule, disapproval or family shame. Local myths encourage earlier marriage of girls – such as in the Amhara Region of Ethiopia where people perceive menstruation to be

induced by intercourse – and such myths encourage earlier marriage of girls. Invariably, local perceptions on the ideal age for marriage, the desire for submissive wives, extended family patterns and other customary requirements (e.g. dowries or bride price), are all enshrined in local customs or religious norms.

 

In many contexts child marriage is legitimized by patriarchy, and related family structures, which ensure that marriage transfers a  father’s role over his girl child to her future spouse. This is often encouraged “to take place before a girl reaches the age when she might question it.” The reality for many women and girls in

rural areas is that their daily lives are more often dictated by customary laws than by national laws. "

 

 

From Ending Child Marriage - UNFPA P. 19:

Control over sexuality and protecting family honour

"Child marriage is traditionally recognized as necessary for controlling girls’ sexuality and reproduction. Cultural and religious notions of a girl’s virginity and chastity in many societies are directly linked to the honour and status of a family or clan. This means that there is tremendous pressure on parents to marry off girls early to preserve family honour and minimize the risk of improper sexual activity or conduct. Indeed, girls are perceived as incapable of protecting themselves through their own agency.

Girls in rural communities may be withdrawn from school at first menstruation to restrict their movements in order to protect their sexuality. "

 

What should concern us the most is how Tradition and Cultural customs have been used as an Excuse for instance, for child trafficking. For more information, please read:

MAURITANIA: Child marriage tradition turns into trafficking

NIGER: Early marriage – from rural custom to urban business

 

And in other case, girl that ran away from her abusive elder husbands, Prisoned by the Police because allegedly, the man who helped her to escape had sexual interaction with the girl and according to the cultural law, the punishment is 10-15 years in jail or death.

Please read: AFGHANISTAN: Widespread child marriage blamed for domestic violence

 

Also, I suggest having a look at:

Traditions can change - ending child marriage

Ending Child Marriage - UNFPA

 

The Solution:

 As Elder Graça Machel, Nelson Mandela's Wife says in her blog: “I believe that one of the main reasons why child marriage has not been tackled in a concerted way at the local, national or international level is that it is closely linked to tradition and it is often endorsed by religious figures.

There is no religion whose fundamental principles and values promote child marriage. It is not a matter of faith. Yet over time, a series of practices have developed which are now seen as “traditions”.

(Why we are building an alliance to end child marriage)

 

In most, if not all cases of Early Marriages of Children, the real starting point is Money.

Either through selling the Girl or settling Debt or the Fear of being outcast. Fear of being outcast from the perspective of - if one is outcast from one's environment, one cannot perform any form of economical activities to support one's family and therefor, being outcast has economical effects which again shows us that in essence, it is all about Money.

 

This is why, within the Equal Money Capitalism System, none of these Reasons, Justifications and Excuses to accept and allow Child marriage would be Valid and there for, with no Economical Threats on the heads of Billons of Families in this world and with Proper Education for actual self Awareness, Child marriage would cease to Exists as a traditional and Cultural Generational Design.

 

The Reward:

No Human Being should be allowed to be abused by the name of Religion, Tradition and/or Culture as the Main and really Basic Principle of the Equal Money Capitalism is "Do to another that which you'd like to be done to you". If we place ourselves in the shoes of these young girls, that are forced to get marry and in many cases, with Elder guy -  would we Enjoy our lives? Would we want to be forced to a Life of misery where all form of choice has been taken a way from us? No! and therefor, the Reward of Ending child Marriages from the Perspective of Tradition, Culture and Religion is to End Abuse and Suffering of Millions of young girls in this world because we wouldn't want ourselves to be forced to live such Lives.

 

On a global Scale, Ending Child Marriages would assist and support with the Development of humankind as there would be more people, that would enter the Cycle of Education and would be able to express themselves and Contribute to this world within their capacity and capability.

 

SO - Equal Money Capitalism System would END Child Marriages and all the Consequences that comes with it which from here, we could grow, expand and empower the human Race to become effective and supportive human beings. Human beings with effective Life Skills, Educations and tools to allow one to make informative decisions within the principle of that which is best for all. In this, we not only Ending the Consequences, we are Preventing the Consequences so that abuse such as this, will never reoccur again.

 

Videos that I suggest watching:

Too Young to Wed: Destaye

Too Young to Wed: The Secret World of Child Brides

The Bride Price: Consequences of Child Marriage Worldwide

Bangladesh Child Marriage (A documentary by BBC's Angus Crawford)

Archbishop Desmond Tutu and Hilary Clinton join forces to end child marriage

 

 

Articles to read:

Child Marriage Factsheets

Child Marriage Fact Sheet - Unicef

National Geographic - Child Brides

The terrifying world of child brides: Devastating images show girls young enough to be in pre-school who are married off to older men  

Health Consequences of Child Marriage in Africa

Solutions to Ending Child Marriage in Southern Asia

 

Suggested Websites:

The International Center for Research on Women (ICRW)
To Young to Wed

Charity Exposed - Day 73

For Context -

Please listen to the interview:

Life Review - An Elite Philanthropist

And read:

Day 68: Why Does Our Future Even Require Funding - Activist Journey to Life

Day 39: Is Charity Greed? - Creation Journey to Life

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to have refused to see that Charity isn't the solution that will bring about a world that is best for all because for Charity to exists, poverty must exists, diseases must exists, disabled people must exists etc. within that, I forgive myself that I've NOT accepted and allowed myself to see the polarity that is playing out within the Charity concepts wherein for Charity to exists - Poverty and Wealth must exists as a polarity design that perpetuate the inequality of this world.

I forgive myself that I've NOT accepted and allowed myself to question the Charity funds process wherein the resources, food, labour that goes into it, the fuel, airplane, medical practitioners - all of that comes from many other sectors in the world system that the Elite families own and thus, the fact of the matter is that when the Elite families are giving money to charity, they are double and triple their profit in the process because within that, money is being circulated within the world money system without any actual regard or care of the people that are starving because in essence, the more people have nothing, the more the elite have for themselves.

I forgive myself that I've NOT accepted and allowed myself to see, realize and understand that when the charity ourses are being distributed from different sectors around the globe, the Money system is making money of the existence of charity because all that was gathered for charity is mostly own be specific elite families funds, which is connected to various corporation, industries, companies, countries etc which in essence, the Charity industry, is another way for the elite family to make more money.

I forgive myself that I haven't accepted and allowed myself to see, realize and understand that Charity is part of the Money System and is dependent on the world system of poverty and wealth which within that, an actual solution to the global situation of poverty, starvation and famine is in no concern of the world system because if it was, we would change the entire world system into a manifestation that will make sure that all the resources will distributed equally and will reach all parts of the world and yet, the current concern of the world/Money system is to make more and more money.

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to have failed to see that Charity isn't and won't change the world for the better because it can only touch beings life for a moment and then it's gone; If charity was really beneficial in this world, it would have already made a change. Within that, I forgive myself that I've not accepted and allowed myself to acknowledge that charity is just another part of the world money system and its existence is dependent on poverty, famine and war as the foundation of the world economic system and thus, in essence, Charity is another profit opportunity for the Elite families of this world to make more money.

I forgive myself that I've NOT accepted and allowed myself to realize that my expectation that charity and fund raising can actually make a change in this world is naïve and irresponsible because within that, I haven't consider the actual, practical and physical requirement of the resources, to assist and support the third world countries to stand up on their feet and within that, I have not consider what it actually take to walk with a country and reconstruct/rebuild the country until it's done and the dependency is no longer determine whether or not one will live or die.

I forgive myself that I've NOT accepted and allowed myself to SEE, REALIZE and Finally UNDERSTAND that the earth's resources should have never been allowed to be privatized and own by only a few and that within a system of Equality, all the resources are equally distributed as a basic human living right.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that charity is used by the dishonest EGO to feel better about the many daily dishonesties that are required from each human to function and be part of a failed system. Bernard Poolman

I commit myself to bring an end to poverty and to stop the dependent relationship between Money and the earth resources within the establishment of Equality system that will equally distributed all resources to all parts of the world.

I commit myself to expose the Charity Process and to prove that the starting point of charity is in no way to actually support all Equally but to in fact, double and triple the profit of those who owns the world system's industries, banks, corporations etc.

I commit myself to end Charities as it is clearly demonstrated to have no beneficial effect within the world system and within that, I stand for a world that is best for all and thus, commit myself to an active part of the establishment of Equal Money System that will bring LIFE that are worthy Equally to All.

I commit myself to show and expose the relationship between the existence of Charity and Poverty and to show - that when Charity exists, Poverty exists. When Equality exists, charity will no longer exists.

I commit myself to show that those who funds and maintain the entire charity industries, could have used their power and resources to bring about a world that is in fact best for all which than within that, the fact that they didn't, question their integrity and good will.

Be the Change you want to see in this World - Overview - Day 71

This is a continuation to the blog -

Process of self perfection - overview - Day 70

I forgive myself that I've NOT accepted and allowed myself to practically stand as an example in this world within and as the principle of "Be the Change you want to see in this World" and I have refused to see, realize and understand that if I claim that I've changed without proving it within my breath by breath practical living application and cross reference the change within the physical reality, I haven't changed in fact but rather created an entity/personality as my EGO within the attempt to be defined as authority in this world, to claim for Power and control to sustain myself as Energy without having to stand within and as myself as Equal to and One as all that is here and to practically give up my self interest desires and direct myself and thus this world towards a place that is best for all LIFE as a living decision that I stand as and by.

I forgive myself that I've NOT accepted and allowed myself to see, realize and understand why and how the Spiritual Masters in this world are not, in any way whatsoever stand as an example for the change they claim they want to see in this world because if they would, they would have stand as a solution that is measurable, practical and physical and wouldn't accept and allow faith and hope to be their directive principle;

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to believe the politician that claim they want to see a change in this world, just before the elections and I haven't realized that for a change to manifest in this world, we MUST change the current world system to a system of Equality that consider all beings in this world.

Within that, I forgive myself that I've NOT accepted and allowed myself to see how we have blindly followed the statement "be the change you want to be in this world" coming from the politicians as we've placed faith and hope in others to bring about the change without us having to actually change; and thus, we gave our power away by trapping ourselves within the words the politicians speaks, without even knowing that those words are specific and were directed by the public relations specialist who have research and investigated how to brainwash the mass without the mass realizing it. For context - watch - 'Peace, Propaganda and the Promise Land' as well as 'Spywar', Century of the Self' and the 'Trap'.

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to believe that the parents in this world wants the best for their children despite of them not willing to change themselves according to that which is best for all as a directive clear decision that they stand by for eternity.

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself as a parent in this world to state that I want the best for my children and yet, not willing to practically become the change that I want to see in this world and thereby, assist and support myself to change, take responsibility for myself as the entirety of this world and within that, making sure that this world will become a place that is best for all children in this world, Equal and One.

I commit myself to stand as the example and change that I want to see in this world and to actually bringing that seeing into a practical and physical manifestation by assisting and supporting myself to change in fact, prove the change to myself, and to walk within a clear and absolute decision to change this world within doing what is necessary to be done within this ONE life time and to leave behind me a world that I would like my children to grow up in.

I commit myself to show, expose and explain in details within extensive writing, how faith and hope are in no way a practical change that will bring about a world that is best for all, a world that I would like to see myself and the generation to comes existing in.

I commit myself to show how the so called enlighten spiritual Masters do not stand as an example neither for their followers or any other being for that matter and in fact, they stand for and as the Elite in this world, they stand for the continuation of abuse and suffering in this world, they stand for the accepted evilness in this world.

I commit myself to expose to the world how we have accepted and allowed ourselves to give our power away to be controlled, influenced and in essence enslaved to the Elite in this world who uses Public Relations specialist who have studied the Human Behaviour and have thus manipulated the behaviour of the mass for the interest of the Elite in this world instead of utilizing their research to assist with the empowerment, growth and expansion of human beings.

I commit myself to expose the self interest preprogram design of parents who claim they want the best for their children and yet, not willing to stand as the example and change of the current world system by implanting a system that is best for the entire children of this world. Within that, I commit myself to assist and support parents to realize their responsibility for all children of this world and thus, assist them within their process of self perfection;

What is Morality? Day 25

 

What is Morality and Why have I blindly accepted Morality to be my directive principle without even considering that expressional freedom is just behind the veil of Morality and that LIFE isn’t defined or confine to Morality because if Morality was the solution, we wouldn’t accepted and allowed a world that is based on greed, survival, corruption, crime, war, abuse and suffering.

Within this Blog, I will be looking at the Positive and Negative aspects and values that I’ve attached to Morality, I will be looking at How I’ve limited my expression according to Morality and How I’ve missed myself as Who I am as Life within separating myself from Life as Myself through the shade of Morality.

Moral – (From Dictionary.com)

1. of, pertaining to, or concerned with the principles or rules of right conduct or the distinction between right and wrong; ethical: moral attitudes.

2. Expressing or conveying truths or counsel as to right conduct, as a speaker or a literary work; moralizing: a moral novel.

3. Founded on the fundamental principles of right conduct rather than on legalities, enactment, or custom: moral obligations.

4. capable of conforming to the rules of right conduct: a moral being.

5. Conforming to the rules of right conduct ( opposed to immoral): a moral man.

It is clear that Morality as the Living Expression of the word according to how the system define the word ‘Moral’ wasn’t standing the test of time and does not in fact bring about a world that is best for all.

How many of us claim to be Moral and yet, none of us has actually stood up and question the morality of this world despite of the physical evidence that if we would walk according to what is best for all as the LIVING EXPRESSION of the word ‘Moral’ within the principle of Oneness and Equality, we would have made the distinguish between Self Interest principle and Equality and Oneness Principle and thus, wouldn’t accepted and allowed any form of abuse upon ourselves or each other and would practically have move and direct ourselves towards a world that is BEST for all.

Morality in this world was never practically lived and thus, we require having a close look at all the values and aspects that we’ve associated with morality and to test everything for ourselves from the perspective of – Look at the point, see the outflows/consequences test it and cross reference the point with yourself within your human physical body feedback.

Let’s start –

I forgive myself that I’ve accepted and allowed myself to have failed to see that morality according to the system definition is based on self interest and EGO because if we have walked the LIVING expression of the word Morality within the starting point of Equality and Oneness wherein Morality in fact is – Applying the principle of What is best for all, we would not have created a world that is based on individualized purposes of survival which created and manifested a world of abuse, suffering, crime, war, corruption and cruelty.

I forgive myself that I’ve accepted and allowed myself to have failed to see that I’m limiting my own LIVING expression by blindly following the morality codes that I’ve taught to believe to be the truth as what is wrong and right.

I forgive myself that I’ve Not accepted and allowed myself to realize Who I am as a living expression of and as LIFE because I’ve bind myself to a separated version of me which I’ve defined as me and haven’t allowed myself to explore and investigate for myself what LIFE as equal to and one as me IS but instead, accepted and allowed myself to follow those that have gone before me despite of the fact that if they wouldn’t have known what is best for all as the living expression of the word Morality, they wouldn’t have accepted and allowed this world to exists as it is and they would have stand as an example for LIFE and yet, they did not.

I forgive myself that I’ve NOT accepted and allowed myself to express myself unconditionally because I’ve directed myself to live according to morality and society codes and within that, I forgive myself that I’ve NOT accepted and allowed myself to investigate and explore for myself what are the principles that I would like to direct myself as but walked blindly after those who have come before me, even though I was able to see their expressional suppression that has emerge within them and yet, I wasn’t strong enough to question those set of beliefs as morality because I’ve accepted morality as myself and within that belief, one shouldn’t question one’s culture and upbringing and I forgive myself that I’ve not accepted and allowed myself to see the very deception that exists within Morality as a massive brainwash norm because according to morality, you can’t question morality which leaves us with a ignorant and deliberate set of roles to live by.

I forgive myself that I’ve accepted and allowed myself to create and manifest a religion of self within me that is telling me what is wrong and right according to the morality principles that I’ve accepted as me through my upbringing age and I forgive myself that I’ve accepted and allowed the suppression of the beingness that is me that is equal to and one as life, through many layers of definitions and values that I’ve attached to the polarity design of wrong/right within the context of morality and thus, deny from myself the opportunity to actually practically LIVE and express myself unconditionally.

I forgive myself that I’ve NOT accepted and allowed myself to question and investigate the moral codes and instead, taken the moral codes as it is and within that, I forgive myself that I’ve accepted and allowed myself to live by limited and compromising codes that has no contextual relationship with what is best for all.

I forgive myself that I’ve accepted and allowed myself to confuses morality with what is best for all because I’ve not seen, realized or understood that morality is based on self interest roles, definitions and values because if morality was based on principle of Oneness and Equality, we wouldn’t have allowed ourselves to create a manifest a world of abuse, suffering, war, corruption and cruelty.

I forgive myself that I’ve NOT accepted and allowed myself to see how I’m compromising myself, my process and thus the world by obeying to the moral codes through participating in back chat, justifying why it’s cool to go against the belief of what is wrong but I haven’t considered that as long as I’m accepting the back chat in the nature of justification, I’m still being directed by the morality codes because if I would have given up the morality codes, I wouldn’t have back chat about it and I was simply here, breathings and directing myself in the upmost effective way, in every moment of every breath.

I forgive myself that I’ve NOT accepted and allowed myself to see that when I rebel against the morality codes, I still accept and allow the morality codes polarity design to exits within and as me because if I would have seen and realized the consequences of participating in such design, I would have change my living application and stood stable in clarity and self trust. And thus, I forgive myself that I’ve accepted and allowed myself to have failed to see the consequences of the morality polarity design as a direct reflection of our world that is best for only a select few while the rest are living in atrocity and I forgive myself that I’ve NOT accepted myself to see, realize or understand that there is nothing right or wrong as a morality polarity design and the only thing that is VALID in fact is a principle that is best for all and has nothing to do with one’s culture, religion and beliefs

 Morality and Relationships:

I forgive myself that I’ve accepted and allowed myself to follow the morality and society codes within my relationships with beings in my world instead of coming to terms within solid agreement to assist and support each other in all ways possible to step out of the mind and become a living expression within and as this physical reality.

I forgive myself that I’ve accepted and allowed myself to have failed to see that relationships that are defined and valued within the morality design construct are invalid as the relationship is followed and based on individual self interest purposes of survival and when and as the self interest desire cannot be fulfilled within one’s relationship, the relationship falls and we jump to the next self interest based relationship within the hope that this time, it would fulfil our desires.

I forgive myself that I’ve NOT accepted and allowed myself to unconditionally express and LIVE myself with my relationships with other human beings because I’ve followed the morality codes that are embedded within my mind and also, I forgive myself that I’ve accepted and allowed myself to dare to step away from the morality codes within my relationships, I’ve judged myself and immediately went into “correction” from the starting point of pleasing and thus, suppressed and compromised myself so that I could keep and hold on to the relationship due to the fear of ending up alone.

I forgive myself that I’ve NOT accepted and allowed myself to see the relationship between morality and judgement and instead of allowing myself and others in my world to express themselves as Who they are as the beingness that they are, I’ve limited and compromised myself and others within the acceptance of the morality codes of what is wrong and what is right to do and behave.

I forgive myself that I’ve NOT accepted and allowed myself to see, realize and understand how limited and compromising the blinded following of the morality/social codes within one’s relationships and through trying and attempting to stand within the morality and social codes, I’ve separated myself from all that is here because my focus was to fulfil my desires within my relationship and I haven’t considered all of humanity as part of my relationships with all that exists, and I’ve accepted and allowed a part of me, within my separated relationship with the part that is me, to suffer from the day one born till the day one dies and thus, I forgive myself that I’ve NOT accepted and allowed myself to established an agreement with myself and with all that exists, to walk, express and live only that which is best for all but instead, I’ve followed narrow and limited moral codes in spite of the physical abusive fact that moral codes has no affect in terms having a world that is best for all because if it was, we have all stand up together and wouldn’t have accepted the continuation of abusive world that we’ve created thus far.

I forgive myself that I’ve accepted and allowed a world where relationships are defined by moral codes that we’ve set in separation of ourselves and each other according to self interest desires to fulfil one’s one purpose of survival and I forgive myself that I’ve accepted and allowed myself to judge myself when I didn’t stand according to the relationships moral codes because I haven’t taken a moment to investigate the outflows in self honesty and accordingly correct myself and I forgive myself  I’ve not became the directive principle within my relationships and thus, accepted and allowed abuse of myself and others by walking blindly according to morality polarity design that is in no way a support of an actual and practical self change and transformation to be and become LIFE that is best for all.

I forgive myself that I’ve accepted and allowed myself to compromise myself and others whom I have relationship with when and as I see a point that require direction and yet, I haven’t stood up and directed the point in self honesty and self trust because if I would, I would have break the moral codes and I would have taken the chance to end the relationship but what I’ve failed to realized is that if a relationship ends because I’ve stood up according to principle that are best for all, the relationship wasn’t valid from the get go.

I forgive myself that I’ve accepted and allowed myself to judge myself when and as I’m not following the morality/socials codes within my relationships because I haven’t realized the attachment and values that I gave to moral codes even if I didn’t followed them and instead of sorting myself out and aligning myself to and as principles that are best for all, I’ve tried and attempted to correct my relationships through pleasing the companions within the starting point of having them forgiving me for disappointing them when I didn’t follow the moral codes of relationships. 

I forgive myself that I’ve not accepted and allowed myself to stand up within my relationships with other human beings because I feared that if I will, they will take it personally and blame and/or judge me because apparently, within relationship, one shouldn’t hurt another human being within the spectrum of the moral/social codes but what I’ve failed to see is that if we won’t assist and support each other to become life through following the moral/social codes, we are in fact abusing and compromising each other within our relationships.

I forgive myself that I’ve NOT accepted and allowed myself to see that irony of the moral codes wherein, according to the moral codes, one must not do harm to another human being and yet, we accept and allow the harm of the majority of this world through our acceptance of this current money system that is based on corruption, greed, war and self interest.

I commit myself to stop following the relationship morality codes and instead, direct myself according to PRINCIPLES that are best for all and within that, I commit myself to LIVE and EXPRESS myself as the beingness that I am and when and as I see myself going into suppression due to a religion of self in the nature of morality, I stop, I breathe and I bring myself to the expression that I am, I push myself to go and explore that which I’ve programmed myself to resist to, to be able to see and investigate for myself WHO I am.

I commit myself to self correction living application within all that I’ve suppressed throughout my life due to a belief that it was wrong and if, when and as resistance emerge, I stop, I breathe through and I immediately correct my living application to see for myself Who I am within it.

I commit myself to stop follow the relationships moral codes and express myself unconditionally within my relationships with other beings. I commit myself to – when and as seeing a point that require direction, to direct it within self trust regardless the outcomes and consequences of ending the relationship because I see and realize that if a relationship is falling because I’ve stood up, the relationship wasn’t real from the get go.

I commit myself to expose the irony of the moral codes wherein, we’ve value only towards those whom we are in direct relationship with and we have no consideration towards the majority of this world whom we do not have a direct relationship with because we have separated ourselves into individualized purposes of survival that seek only for our own fulfilment of our desires instead of considering everything and everyone equally and within that, making sure that all will have equal access that all that is here and the fight for one’s survival will be no more.

I commit myself to value LIFE as what is best for all as my directive principle and I commit myself to find a way to change the current moral codes of self interest to what is best for all moral codes that each will be able to see for oneself in common sense and direct oneself accordingly.

Morality and Sex and Masturbation

I forgive myself that I’ve NOT accepted and allowed myself to explore and investigate WHO I am within sex and masturbation and thus, limited, compromised and separated from myself as the physical expression of sex and masturbation because I’ve defined sex and masturbation within the context of morality and had strict rules of what is right and wrong within sex and masturbation.

I forgive myself that I’ve accepted and allowed myself to failed to see that the morality as what is wrong and right within the expression of a physical sex and masturbation has been a major factor within one’s suppressions because we have accepted and allowed ourselves to be directed by the morality codes instead of taking the responsibility to investigate, explore and establish an intimate agreement with ourselves and our human physical body.

I forgive myself that I’ve NOT accepted and allowed myself to investigate and explore myself within an intimate agreement with myself through masturbation.

I forgive myself that I’ve accepted and allowed myself to judge having sex with a being of my own gender because according to the moral codes, it is wrong and thus, I’ve denied myself a physical expression with another being of my gender and haven’t allowed myself to investigate and explore who I am within a sexual expression with another being of my own gender.

I forgive myself that I’ve accepted and allowed myself to limit myself to having sex with only beings in the opposite gender because I’ve feared of being judged and labelled as a lesbian without the basic realization and understanding that physical sexual expression isn’t defined by whom I’m doing it with but who I am within it.

I forgive myself that I’ve NOT accepted and allowed myself to utilized masturbation to investigate and explore who I am within masturbation because a belief that masturbating is wrong and thus, every time that I did masturbate, I was limited to a suppress expression within self judgement of doing something wrong and haven’t allowed myself to truly explore and investigate myself within self intimacy.

I forgive myself that I’ve accepted and allowed myself to limit my sexual expression within having sex and masturbation through judging positions as wrong and thus, instead of allowing myself to explore sex and masturbation and see who I am within it, I’ve supressed and deny myself the opportunity to LIVE as a physical expression and instead, was confined and limited to my own mind, creating a religion of self in separation of me, of what is wrong and what is right without investigating and exploring the point for myself, as myself.

I forgive myself that I’ve NOT accepted and allowed myself to be and become intimate with myself and see my likes and dislikes within sex through masturbation and thus, lost myself within my mind when having sex with a partner through the belief of what is wrong and what is right and instead of allowing myself to express myself unconditionally, I’ve only used sex to please my partner within the fear of ending up alone instead of utilizing sex as a physical support, as a physical need.

I forgive myself that I’ve accepted and allowed myself to judge specific sexual expression as wrong within a morality design without having accepted and allowed myself to investigate it for myself and see who I am within those specific sexual expressions.

I forgive myself that I’ve accepted and allowed myself to judge gay and lesbian beings because it was wrong according to the morality codes that I’ve lived by.

I forgive myself that I’ve accepted and allowed myself to feared being judged and labelled as gay/lesbian if I allow myself to investigate and explore a sexual experience with a being of my own gender and thus, I’ve supressed myself and haven’t allowed myself to even go there within my own mind instead of letting go the morality codes judgement and allow myself to investigate EVERY point that I have resistance towards and see WHO I am within the point so that I could LIVE a fulfilment LIFE that is not defined by what is wrong and what is right but rather on WHO I am, as a living expression of LIFE.

I commit myself to having an intimate agreement with myself and to allow myself to investigate and explore WHO I am as a physical expression rather than a limited mind expression.

I commit myself to stop judging my sexuality and my sexual expression because I realized that what I’ve judged was due to moral polarity aspects that I’ve attached to sex and masturbation without realizing that sex and masturbation ARE a physical expression that can be utilize to support oneself in one’s process of stepping out of the mind and stepping into the physical equality and oneness reality.

I commit myself to stop limiting myself through judgement and allow myself to be intimate with myself as a living physical expression of myself.

I commit myself to stop judging other beings according to my own religion of self that I’ve created through a morality right and wrong and I commit myself to face all religion of self that I’ve created as myself and change myself to not accept and allow any limitation to control and enslave me within this physical reality.

I commit myself to learn and investigate sex as a physical expression and to assist with educating others to be and become intimate with themselves as a physical expression and I commit myself to assist and support parents to have skills to support their children within the physical sexual living application.

Within my next blog, I will be opening the following points:

Morality and Laws, Morality and Family, Morality and Money, Morality and Culture so… to be continued…