Is it too late? Day 527

Sometimes in my life, I find myself in a point of self-blame, regrets and self-judgements for the mistakes that I've done. By mistakes I mean - saying or doing things I should not have said/do, that caused a friction and sabotaged a particular relationship. Or things I haven't said or done, that I should have said or do to potentially prevent negative consequences from manifesting.

But what is the point of going into self-blame, regrets and self-judgements if we do not learn or make any effort to truly change? I've been looking at this question lately and here is what I have found:

We normally reflect back on our lives when negative consequences are showing themselves in our reality - this is where the self-blame, regrets and self-judgements experience start, along with the energy that it carry around the whole body.

It feels 'Icky' and uncomfortable and this can go on and on, so long as we still accepting the self-blame, regrets and self-judgements as valid and allowing the experience to continue inside of ourselves, without giving ourselves supportive direction. With accepting and allowing the energetic experience, we are essentially punishing ourselves for the mistakes that we have made and at the same time, we do not learn from our mistakes. Thus, we are continuing this vicious cycle that we never step out from.

The Irony is that in self-honesty, regret makes us feel good about ourselves - it gives us the idea that we are taking responsibility for the mistakes. It is like almost a belief that because we are able to feel regret, we must be good because  bad people wouldn't give a damn and never take responsibility. Though, by accepting and allowing regret, we don't take self-responsibility for the mistakes like for instance:
1. Mapping out the event

2. Investigating the time lines

3. Slowing down to see the reactions that we accepted and allowed inside of ourselves

4. Practically learning to be able to correct our application when the next window of opportunity arrive.

Another point to looks at in self-honesty - when we judge and blame ourselves, we unconsciously believe that we are good people. We stand as our own judge, we put ourselves in trial, we are judged by the judge who is ourselves and we get punished. Once the punishment has been served, we could then be at peace with ourselves - we are forgiven by god in a way. Only the good people are forgiven by god.

Alright so by now it is becoming clear that feeling regret and blaming/judging ourselves is useless and counterproductive. Feeling regret, judging and blaming ourselves, doesn't bring us closer to the real root cause of the problem that we are facing. For the most part, as I just explained, it only makes us feel better about ourselves and that's as far as it actually goes. I mean, if it would take us to a point of correction, if it would motivate us to make real time change then sure, it can be valid. But as long we continue the vicious cycle of making mistake -> regret/blame/judgment -> feeling good about ourselves -> making another mistake, it will reach a point of being 'too late'.

So now what?

When or as you realize you made a mistake, or when the consequences have manifested, and the regret/blame/judgement start to come up and take over your mind -> STOP for a moment, TAKE a breath and FORGIVE yourself. Forgiveness would be the KEY, the foundation from which you are able to move yourself towards the a solution, towards a change. What do I mean by that? Well, why won't you find out for yourself? Here is a link to a self-development FREE course where you are able to learn about self-forgiveness and how to effectively apply forgiveness in your reality - DIP Lite.

Meanwhile, you can also leave a message at the comment section to continue this discussion.

Why doesn't God answer my Prayers? Day 349

 

Why doesn't God answer the Prayers of those who starve?

Why doesn't God answer the Prayers of those who in a daily pain?

Why doesn't God answer the prayers of the children who are born into slavery?

Why does God only answer those with Money?

Why does God only answer with/trough Money?

Wait! Does that mean that God is in essence Money?

 

For a few years I prayed as well. I didn't call it God, I called it Grandfather (that had died). When my prayer didn't come through, I finally decided to stop but it didn't last long and a few years later I found another 'higher source' I could pray to. This time I called it 'Guide'. But.. This guide didn't answer my prayer either and I felt lost for a moment until I started to develop some form of common sense in adding the points together when I asked the above questions.

 

So I realized that Money is the force that direct our lives; that Money decide who lives and who dies; that Karma is just a brand name that was used to make us either feel better with ourselves if we have money or at least enough money to suppress the truth of ourselves or make us feel guilty and ashamed if we born to the wrong side of the Money polarity.

 

I think that it is safe to say that if God really exist, he doesn't do a great job and its creation had evolved to something that if God would have existed, he would be ashamed of himself for accepting and allowing this existence to become the manifestation it is now.

 

So, wouldn't you agree that it is time to take our godly powers back to ourselves and correct the mess that we live in? wouldn't you want to ensure that your children and grandchildren could live in a world where abundance is not a world that is associated with only a select few? Wouldn't you want the future of your generation to come to be a future where they could actually live in dignity and integrity without fearing for their survival? I'm sure you do. So let's do some simple Math:

At the moment: God = Money. and what is it that we truly desire for? A Life that can actually be lived in peace and harmony. Does, what needs to be changed? The value we define Money as. If we change the value of Money to Value that encompass LIFE that is best for ALL (Which include you as part of the all), we could finally start changing the course of our living experiences isn't right?

 

So - to learn how it can practically be done - Investigate the Equal Money System where the starting point of Money is Life that is best for all. Explore the possibilities of your Future and the future of your Loved one if only you would dare to take what was always belong to you but you forgot about it -> Life! It's time for a change so be the change you want to see in this world, in a practical and physical manner.

 

Judgement as self Perfection - Day 218

 

 

This is a continuation to:

 

The Elite's delusion of stress - Part 1 - Day 45 The Elite's Delusion of Stress - Part 2 - Day 46 The Decision of TIME - Day 67 The Decision of TIME - Day 67 Copy Paste Character - The Education System - Day 184 Is it possible to Cheat yourself? Day 185 It is time to STOP Existing as a Human Machine - Day 186 The End of Times - Day 187 Facing the Evil within - the KEY to LIFE - Day 188 Fear of Disappointing others - Day 189 The Psychology of TIME - Day 190 I Regret, therefor, I'm a Good Person. NOT!!! - Day 191 The REAL Fear - Day 192 The things we Won't tell ANYONE - Day 193

Missing out on the Good Life - Day 194 Let's have some Fun - Day 195 Stupidity Loop - Jumping from the Bad to the Good to the Bad - Day 196 The Smoke Screen of Ignorance - Day 197 Leaving in a Dream - Day 208 Having the Life Style you always dreamt to have - Day 209 IT is MY time Now - don't say a word - Day 210 Let's go on Vacation - Day 211 Comparison is a Bitch - Day 212 Damn, I will never have everything done - Day 213 Standing as an Example - Self Interest or Self Realization? - Day 214 From the Bossy to the Loser - Day 215 Jealousy and Frustration - I want the Life they Have - Day 216 The Poison within Irritation and Anger - Day 217

 

For the purpose of context, suggest reading these posts above prior to reading the post below, if you haven’t already. Here I will be walking the 'I don't have TIME' Character - Reaction Dimension - Practical support with Self Forgiveness and Self Commitments.

 

Reactions Dimension:

* Jealousy

* Frustration

* Irritation

* Anger

* Judgment and Self Judgment

* Impatient

* Self Pity

* Depression

* Anxiety

* Stress

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Judgement and Self Judgement:

 

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to judge people as More or Less than me according to where I'm at within the "I don't have time' character time line meaning - I would either judge them as less than me when I compare them to what I believe they should be doing with their time within their effectiveness and their potential to become as effective that they can be, or I would rather judge them as More than me, to justify why I have to perfect myself and push myself even more, to stop complaining and simply do the work in separation of me. (For more context, please read - From the Bossy to the Loser - Day 215)

 

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to judge myself for either being More or Less than other people, in comparison to an ideal that I've created within and as my mind, not taking into consideration each individual and our processes and thus, instead of equally assisting and supporting myself and the others, I would diminish myself and the others in my mind, to either balance the positive or the Negative experience that exists within and as me.

 

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to judge my application and my effectiveness in moments where everything seems to be overwhelming and I access the ' I don't have time' character, and within this judgement, would start to spite myself in looking at all the moments that I fell and missed a breath instead of understanding that I can instead learn from the point, align myself to perfect my application/effectiveness and that judging my past doing is useless, pointless, meaningless and counterproductive.

 

I forgive myself that I've NOT accepted and allowed myself to realize that Judging and Chastising myself because I have seen that I could have applied myself more effectively, and in that, wouldn't have gone to the point of overload in overwhelmingness is a form of self dishonesty because within self Honesty, I could learn, assess and empower myself in seeing how I can correct my application to stand in alignment with my utmost potential and from that moment onwards, to simply walk the corrective application till the application is simply an expression of who I am in oneness and equality.

 

I forgive myself that I've NOT accepted and allowed myself to see, realize and understand how I've utilized the judgement of others for my own self interest / self definition wherein When and as I 'feel' that my standing within myself is compromised, I would try to justify to myself the 'Ok'ness in compromising myself through comparing myself to others that I perceive to be less stable within and as themselves.

 

I commit myself to assist and support me in moments where I see that judgement kicks in, either towards myself or towards others and to transform those moments to gifts in assisting and supporting me to see how and why I've separated myself and from there, walk the correction process and change.

 

I Commit myself to SHOW that any form of judgment is Self Dishonesty as one could have assess, investigate and introspect self to see how one can learn and perfect oneself as one's application but instead, through judgement, one gave in to one's mind with no actual and real self support.

 

I Commit myself to NOT accept and allow myself to judge myself or others and instead, investigate what I haven't seen for myself, as myself and in myself that I could learn from, correct and change.

Spiritualizing beings that had Died - Day 162

This is a continuation to:

Walking Breath by Breath - Part 1 - Day 160

Walking Breath by Breath - Part 2 - Day 161

 

So, the pain in my back is almost gone, but it's not completely gone which indicate a point that I haven't yet seen, investigated and realized within and as myself.

Today, I will further look at how I've placed my power, my trust in others, how I've spiritualized them within my mind, how I have attached and gave them power, through imagination and how within that, I've lost myself so to speak, lost critical thinking, lost common sense…

 

When I was about 11 years old, I lost my grandfather which I was very much connected with from the perspective of - he had never seen me as a child, as someone who is less than him, he had never judged me, yelled at me or put me down. He was always very much gentle with me. He used to tell me stories about his past and within that, walked me through the common sense point of why and how there is no God for real.

Obviously, he couldn't explain to me how creation was created and how we have evolved to where we are now but what was very much clear to him is that there is no God and if there is a God, than God is a sun of a bitch, the most evil man on earth.

 

The night that he had died, I could feel it even though it was out of the blue, he wasn't old or anything.. Only 75 years old. At that night, I was waking up in the middle of the night from a dream about my grandfather lying on a silver metal bad, with a light on top of him, he was naked with a blanket on and he wasn't moving. I didn't experience any previous death before and I didn't understand what I was seeing in my dream. At 1:00 AM, the phone was ringing, waking me up from my dream. I put myself back to sleep until the morning came. I went up from bed, so many people in our house and my sister came towards me in the attempt to take me aside and tell me what had happened, but I already knew and I started yelling at her. I don't remember what I was saying to her but it was something in the nature of - don't you dare say it, I already know, he is dead..

 

His death was one of the most difficult things I have ever experienced because this man, was my entire world, he was my sanity in a world I couldn't see sanity. He was practical, direct, assertive, caring - something rarely to seen and found in this current world. I knew that from now on, there would be no one that I can trust with telling me the truth, no one that I could trust to never judge me or put me down. I wanted to believe so much that he is still here in spirit so I started talking to him. asking him questions, asking him to assist me with communicate effectively with my parents, asking me to give me signs so that I'll know that I'm in the right path, asking him about guys and what his perspective on them.. It was all fine until it didn't lol.

 

In moments of bad experiences, when things could have gone completely out of balance, completely wrong, and in the last moment something had happened and I was saved by chance, I connected it to my grandfather watching me and taking care of me. I've essentially made him my Guardian Angle, my God, My Saviour.

 

There was a time when things went completely wrong and I couldn't get what I wanted, especially with males that I became obsessed with and they didn't pay attention to me. When the "Love of my Life" had broken up with me and I felt my world had collapsed, I blamed my grandfather. One night, I was driving my car back home, crying so much, like almost a panic attach. I yelled at my grandfather to give me a sign for his existence because if he wouldn't, I wouldn't trust that he is there watching me. Yes, I made some excuses and justifications like - he cannot watch me every single moment and he might assist and support other human beings in certain moment but at that very moment, when I was crying like crazy and yelled at him, I expected him to hear me and give me a sign. I told him that he can take a few days to give me a sign because I didn't know how long it would take him to manifest the sign for me but if it won't happened, I'm done. I would stop this blindly belief.

And so, I stopped. For a few years I didn't talk with my grandfather anymore, I didn't think about him, I stopped looking for signs that where never there and I was completely alone with no one to watch me from way above. Until.. One day. When I was already a spiritual person, I was laying on the couch with my face towards to TV screen. The house was full with candles which created a warmth environment and suddenly… I saw my grandfather, I saw him on the TV screen, giving me a sign for his existence and immediately, the belief had emerged again - my grandfather always there, letting me to experience some life lessons but he had never stop taking care of me.

 

Fortunately, the spiritual phase didn't last so long, it was around 2 years before I had found Desteni and I could finally realize my own responsibility, my own relationship with my mind as imagination, my own reasoning as illusions regarding what is real and what is not, without even testing the points for myself in common sense.

 

So here, I wrote done the story for myself, as the foundation of the point that I would look at in my next blog, regarding my experience with spiritualizing a being, how did it influenced my life, how did it influence my relationships with other human beings, and how I have utilize this being to abdicate my own responsibility through blaming him for my own self creation.

To do this - I would walk my experience and relationship with him before and after he had died to see who I am/was within this relationship, why have I created this godly relationship with him, before and after he had died, to see, realize and understand in more depth how through my relationship with my grandfather, I've accepted and allowed myself to abdicate my own responsibility in standing within and as self trust, directing myself and my world, breath by breath.

 

With regards to After Death Communication – I suggest reading through Creation’s Journey to Life Day 151 onwards as well as watch the following Video: www.youtube.com/watch?feature=player_embedded&v=ZGoCC3vID8I

Be Fruitful and Multiply - Self Commitments - Day 120

This is a continuation to:

 

Be Fruitful and Multiply - Day 118

Be Fruitful and Multiply - Self Forgiveness - Day 119

 

I commit myself to SHOW that within the desire to fulfil one's Mitzvah to produce and bring more children into this world is in fact a SIN, as one is accepting and allowing oneself to bring into this world children, without having the ability to practically support them throughout their LIFE.

 

I commit myself to SHOW that following the Mitzvah of Be Fruitful and Multiply is bases on self interest desire to not be defined by God as  a Sinner/Murderer and that Self interest is based essentially on FEAR and thus, bringing more children into this world by following the Jewish Law is following our own FEARS and have nothing to do with the Child best interest that must be taken into consideration when and as one is making the decision to bring children into this world.

 

I commit myself to Support those who based their Lives on FEAR within the decision making and assist them to step out of their fear, stand up from within and as themselves, show them the tools of Self Forgiveness and Self corrective application so that they could start directing and move themselves according to ONE principle - of that which is best for all.

 

I commit myself to SHOW that through blindly following religious Laws, we are in fact, accepting and allowing the continuation of a world of abuse and suffering and that the fact of the matter is = following the religious LAWs is a crime against humanity because within that, we accept and allow the abuse of our own children that are born into this world without any means of support to practically assist them to stand as human beings that are able to make decisions and direct themselves according to that which is best for all and as long as we allow the cycle to continue - we produce more and more self interest being into this world and only perpetuate the abuse that we are allowing in this world.

 

I commit myself to show that within the directive Fear as a principle, I accept and allow the abuse of my children as I bring them into this world without being ready or skilled to be an effective parent.

 

I Commit myself to SHOW that instead of taking care of the Billions of children that are already existing in this world as the ultimate application of Love thy Neighbour as thyself, we abdicate our responsibility as human being in this world and rather make our own children for the sake of fulfilling some Mitzvah. And within that, I commit myself to show the extent of the separation that exists within and as the religious Laws through exposing in writing and share common sense perspective that each one of us can test out for themselves. 

 

I commit myself to SHOW and EXPLAIN that our biggest priority as humanity, is to first make sure we have a world of Value as LIFE to bring our children into and accordingly, stand up together and establish a world of EQUALITY where all have EQUAL access to earth's resources, health care, education, food, clothes, transportation etc before we attempt making children of our own.

 

I commit myself to SHOW that if we want to leave after us, for our children, a world that is best for all, we must first establish an equality system where each participant is taking into consideration what is here, what can be used with minimum abuse and harm to the world's resources.

 

I commit myself to SHOW that for a world that is best for all where the parents are skilled and educated to raise their children, there is no way that a family can have so many children and to give to each child the best care possible and accordingly, we will have to do a research to see what is the amount of children that each family can have so that the children will have the utmost potential to grow up in a warm, trustworthy, educational, supportive family unit so that we could sustain a world of care for all.

 

For additional context, Please read:

Sexual Expression – Overview  Day 112

Investigating Sexual Expression - Self Forgiveness Part 1 - Day 113

Investigating Sexual Expression - Self Commitments - Part 1 - Day 114

 

Spilling semen in vain - Day 115

Spilling semen in vain - Self Forgiveness -  Day 116

Spilling semen in vain - Self Commitments -  Day 117

Be Fruitful and Multiply - Self Forgiveness - Day 119

This is a continuation to:

Be Fruitful and Multiply - Day 118

 

 

I forgive myself that I've NOT accepted and allowed myself to question and challenge the Mitzvah/Law/commandment "Be Fruitful and Multiply" and within that, allocate my starting point of producing children in a world where I have no means to educate, raise and support effectively the children to come and I haven't realized that through the fear of me  being defined by God as a murderer due to not following the Mitzvah, I've accepted and allowed the abuse of my children who have no real chance in this world due to my lack of resources, money, skills to bring about effective human beings in this world who would stand no matter what for a world that is best for all.

 

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to bring children into this world, despite of the fact that I have no clue of how to effectively raise, educate, support them within this world system of Money and I haven't accepted and allowed myself to see my self interest within my action of bringing more and more children into this world, that is based on a fear that I programmed within and as me as if, I would be defined as a sinner/murderer if I won't follow the Mitzvah and through this fear, I've made the decision to bring the children into this world, not seeing, realizing and understanding that my motivation of bringing children into this world wasn't my effectiveness in being a supportive parent but rather fear that enslave, control and direct me into making decisions that may cause harm and abuse, not only to my children but to existence as a whole as the ripple affect of my decisions as part of the interconnection between me and the whole in equality and oneness.

 

I forgive myself that I've NOT accepted and allowed myself to see, realize and understand how and why I've accepted and allowed myself to make decisions that include not only my Life but the LIVES of others and within that, I've NOT seen, realized and understood that my decisions are based on FEAR rather then informative and Commonsensically decisions that are based on the principle of that which is best for all.

 

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to bring more and more children into this world as part of my blindfold belief that I must do so or else I would be punished by God and I haven't even taken into consideration the world that I'm bring my children into and how can I practically make sure that the children will be born in a world that is best for all.

 

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to direct myself according to my self interest desire to fulfil the Mitzvah "Be Fruitful and Multiply", without taking into consideration the life that I practically can provide to my children, the resources that are available for me to care and support them and my ability to educate them effectively.

 

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to abdicate my responsibility to assist and support the Billion of children all over the world because as far as I concern, I must have my own children so that God can love me and I must not even consider anyone else's children. Within this - I forgive myself that I've NOT accepted and allowed myself to see the extent of the separation that exists within and as this Mitzvah where Billions of children can be taken cared for but because taking care of them will not fulfil the Mitzvah, we accept and allow their life of starvation, famine, abuse etc.

 

I forgive myself that I've NOT accepted and allowed myself to take into consideration that the First LAW/Mitzvah that all of us as humanity MUST apply to - is the law of that which is best for all and accordingly, before we even consider having more children of our own into this world, we REQUIRE to practically change this world to a world where all children have Equal access to the world's resources, education, heath care etc. and once we make sure that no one is lacking and everyone on earth is taken care for, we can go ahead and bring more children into this world as long as this is what's best for all meaning - as long as the parents are in self honestly are Sure that they are able to support the child with everything the child is required for to be and become an effective human being in this world that would equally contribute to this world within the principle of give as you'd like to receive.

 

I forgive myself that I've NOT accepted and allowed myself to see, realize and understand that the real SIN within this world, is having children without means to properly raise them and that having children for the sake of fulfilling one's Mitzvah as self interest FEAR, is an abusive act that one should be punished for as one is directly responsible for the abuse of those children and the consequences these children has to live with and as due to the parents lack of self movement as the principle of that which is best for all.

 

I forgive myself that I've NOT accepted and allowed myself to take into consideration what is already HERE within this world and accordingly based my decisions but rather, I've directed, moved and applied myself through my Fears as self interest to fulfil a Mitzvah that is abusive in nature as clearly, no one is able to practically and effectively raise so many children in one household and giving the attention and care that each child is required for.

 

I forgive myself that I've NOT accepted and allowed myself to see the relationship between fulfilling the Mitzvah and the abuse of the Earth's resources wherein, there is so much that the world can offer and if everyone of us will produce as many children as possible, there won't be enough for all to share equally and within that, I forgive myself that I've NOT accepted and allowed myself to see, realize and understand how this mitzvah is expanding the separation between human being as it is perpetuate the need to compete for one's  survival and the survival of the family and none are taking into consideration what is practically can be done so that we could live in a world of plenty where no one is ever lacking.

 

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to NOT take my own children into consideration within my attempt to fulfil my Mitzvah of be Fruitful and Multiply as while I'm busy fulfilling my Mitzvah, my children will be the ones who would have to carry my burden as they will be the primary educational figure of their siblings as there is no practical way that I can raise effectively  more 1-2 children and having more than that is irresponsible and in fact abusive.

 

For more context, please read:

Sexual Expression – Overview  Day 112

Investigating Sexual Expression - Self Forgiveness Part 1 - Day 113

Investigating Sexual Expression - Self Commitments - Part 1 - Day 114

 

Spilling semen in vain - Day 115

Spilling semen in vain - Self Forgiveness -  Day 116

Spilling semen in vain - Self Commitments -  Day 117

Be Fruitful and Multiply - Day 118

 

This is a continuation to:

Sexual Expression – Overview  Day 112

Investigating Sexual Expression - Self Forgiveness Part 1 - Day 113

Investigating Sexual Expression - Self Commitments - Part 1 - Day 114

 

Spilling semen in vain - Day 115

Spilling semen in vain - Self Forgiveness -  Day 116

Spilling semen in vain - Self Commitments -  Day 117

 

In addition to my Previous blogs with regards to Spilling one's Semen in vain, there is another Mitzvah/Law that the Jewish Orthodox must follow - Be Fruitful and Multiply.

 

So, I've been doing some more research about sexuality within the Jewish laws and I have to say, it made me literally laugh out loud. WHY? Because I have found so many interpretation of the Mitzvahs that contradict the Laws and it is clearly shown how the laws have been shaped and formed within a blindfold beliefs that when and as one will question the Mitzvah, one will find an explanation to sent one back on track.

 

Like for example - within the Mitzvah - Be Fruitful and Multiply, the couple must have at least one Daughter and one Son. Here is an example of how one is manipulating with words When another mentioned that Adam and Eve had only 2 Sons, they came up with the following justification:

 

"(Genesis 5:4) The days of Adam after he fathered Seth were 800 years; and he had other sons and daughters.

As you can clearly read, the Word tells us that Adam and Eve had daughters also.

Adam didn't just have two son's, he had quite a few children. Adam's sons and daughters married each other. It seems strange to us now, but back in the day that's how they did it.

Genesis 5: 3 - 5

3)And Adam lived 130 years and begat a son in his own likeness, after his image and called his name Seth.

4)and the days of Adam after he had begotten Seth were 800 years and he begat sons and daughters.

5)and all the day that Adam lived were 930 years, and he died.

http://wiki.answers.com/Q/If_Adam_and_Eve_had_two_sons_but_no_daughters_how_did_the_world_get_populated#ixzz235RhfSB9

 

So after this anecdote moment that should provide us all with some healthy laugh, we can get down to the first Mitzvah - Be Fruitful and Multiply, Genesis 1:28.

 

I was trying to find a common sense reason for this Mitzvah and honestly, I couldn't find it. What does it worth giving a Mitzvah/law when and as no one seem to understand the starting point of how and why this mitzvah would assist and support humanity to be and become human beings that direct themselves and each other according to ONE Commonsensically Law - That which is best for all. Obviously, within the law of that which is best for all, the Mitzvah of bringing more children to this world without developing and establishing educational programs both to the parents and the children so that each one of us could contribute for the behalf everything and everyone so that we could live in a world that is best for all, is unacceptable and in fact - the Mitzvah is a crime against humanity.

 

What is the value of bringing more and more children into this world when our infrastructure of a world that is best for all is no where to be found? What is the Value of bring children into this world, where the only thing the world has to offer at the moment is Greed, Competition, Starvation, Crime and Wars while everyone are striving for their survival?

What is the Value of having multiple children into this world where there are Billion of Children without a HOME to be safe and protected form the climate/whether?

What is the Value of having more children in this world where Billions of children do not have food, water, health care, education?

 

I mean seriously, what was God's purpose with commending us to be fruitful and multiply ourselves if the outcome of this Mitzvah is the perpetuation of abuse and suffering?

Within the next blog series - I will SHOW, PROVE and EXPOSE why and how the Mitzvah - Be fruitful and Multiply is a CRIME against humanity, literally.

 

 

 

 

 

Spilling semen in vain - Self Commitments - Day 117

This is a continuation to:

Sexual Expression – Overview  Day 112

Investigating Sexual Expression - Self Forgiveness Part 1 - Day 113

Investigating Sexual Expression - Self Commitments - Part 1 - Day 114

 

Spilling semen in vain - Day 115

Spilling semen in vain - Self Forgiveness -  Day 116

 

 

I commit myself to Expose and Show that the ALL religion LAWS are based on Absolute IGNORANCE with none Common Sense whatsoever.

 

I commit myself to WRITE and EXPLAIN in Details the relationship between the Mind and the Physical throughout my process of Stepping out of my mind and rebirth myself as the Physical and within that, Explain how to support ourselves as the Physical Body with and through Masturbation and Sex.

 

I commit myself to do what ever I can to Support children from all religions in questioning and challenging their belief systems which was taught to them by their parents and accordingly, assist and support them with applying Common Sense in their day to day living application in order to be, become and changed into and as effective human beings in this world who would stand within and as principle of a world that is best for all.

 

I commit myself to PROVE and SHOW that the real SIN is the Abuse that we have accepted and allowed to manifest in this world where we allow billions of people to daily die from Starvation, malnutrition, diseases etc. and within that, literally living the physical application of spilling our Semen in Vain as we allow our children of this world to Die without having any potential LIFE, a life that is dignified and worthwhile in all ways possible.

 

I commit myself to SHOW that the real SINNERs are those who brainwash their children to become zombified human being that will justify the abuse and suffering in this world by the name of GOD, God's Will, Karma, Punishment etc.

I commit myself to SHOW how through the religious Parent's Belief System in relation to sex and masturbation, they are in fact creating unhealthy children that would spend their time, in their mind, defining themselves as EVIL for having thoughts they are not able to understand as they were never been educated to understand the relationship between their human physical body and their mind as well as the consequences that may manifest through/by supressing their physical sexuality.

 

I commit myself to assist and support with the development and the establishment of educational youth programs that will educate and train the youth with the understanding of the equality and oneness within and as their human physical body as well as standing as a pillar of support for the children who are not in a position to be educated by their parents with regards to Sex and Masturbation as their parents have not yet walked their process of stepping out of their mind, their pre-programmed mind that CONsist of and Exists as their religion of Self and as such, are not able to stand in equality and oneness with their children and support them according to what each child in this world is required for, to be able to be and become an effective human being in this world.

 

I commit myself to SHOW that many religion relationships between partners are done for the sake of SEX as a way and means to deal with one's physical changes and therefor, to EXPOSE the abusive religious systems that support the youngsters into abusive relationships that do not support anyone whatsoever.

For those who can read Hebrew - an interesting blog that I've read today: http://www.xnet.co.il/family/articles/0,14566,L-3096594,00.html

 

I commit myself to SHOW that producing children without having an effective platform that cares about each and every child in the family, where the parents are directly involved with the education of their child, is in fact SIN.

 

I commit myself to SHOW that producing children to not spill the semen in vain is an abusive religion LAW that do not take into consideration the children that are born into a world where the parents are not directly involved in one's upbringing, the parents doesn't have the skills, the money and the resources to take care of the children as what each child in this world is required for, is the ultimate abuse that one is accepting and allowing by the name of GOD.

 

To be continued...

Spilling semen in vain - Self Forgiveness - Day 116

This is a continuation to:

Sexual Expression – Overview  Day 112

Investigating Sexual Expression - Self Forgiveness Part 1 - Day 113

Investigating Sexual Expression - Self Commitments - Part 1 - Day 114

 

Spilling semen in vain - Day 115

 

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to blindly follow the Religion laws, telling me that I must not touch myself and explore myself as my human physical body within the belief that if I would, I will be deserve to DIE.

 

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to attach, define and connect masturbation with SIN and I haven't realized that the real SIN is that which we have accepted and allowed this world to be and become;

 

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to believe that if I masturbate, I'm a sinner and I haven't accepted and allowed myself to question the Real SIN which is my blindfold belief of my religious laws which justifying and allowing the continuation of abuse in this world by the name of God.

 

I forgive myself that I haven't accepted and allowed myself to investigate, research and educate myself with regards to the physical consequences that may emerge if I allow myself to suppress my physical expression within self intimacy with MYSELF as I've NOT considered the relationship between the mind and the physical due to lack of understanding of those who have come before me; those who have set the laws without taking the physical aspect in consideration and those who have brainwashed me from a very young age till I've obey and accepted the laws as myself.

 

I forgive myself that I've NOT accepted and allowed myself to see how ridiculous the law: "Do not spill your semen in Vain" where in, when I'm having sex, there are about 300 million sperm that released in an ejaculation and thus, according to the analogy in the bible, I should be defined as a murderer of 300 Million Potential children. Also, each month, as the woman goes through the menstruation cycle, there is an egg that release  - does it means that every month the woman is the murderer of a potential child if she doesn't have sex and become pregnant?

 

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself believe that I would be deserve to die, if I explore, become intimate and touch myself as my human physical body and I have accepted this belief to be my directive principle as I've lost all common sense and have tied myself into my own law systems which I gave my power to, in separation of me, without ever considering who I am as the physical touch; never considered or allowed myself to investigate the laws that I bind myself to and accordingly, stand up, and directing myself and my world according to common sense informative decisions which I'm able to stand within and as, for eternity.

 

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to judge myself in spite because of sexual thoughts that came up in my mind, thoughts that I wasn't prepared, educated and taught to deal with; thoughts that my Religious environment taught me it is Evil and therefor, I've defined myself as EVIL within and as myself, not realizing that the same way I have those thoughts, my environment has those thoughts and because none of us understood how the mind worked and functions, we believed that if we won't tell anyone, everything would be ok and if we won't act on those thoughts, God will not know.

 

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to when and as the sexual thoughts and hormonal physical changes emerged within and as me, to suppress the thoughts and feelings within and as myself and I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to remain in FEAR of not knowing what is wrong with me as I believed that I was not allowed to speak about it, ask for guideness and direction and in this, I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed the silence about sex and Masturbation within my Religious community and therefore, have blindly accepted and allowed the Religious Laws, despite of me being aware of my body changes and the thoughts that came up, which had accumulated and become unbearable till I had to act on it, within and as self shame, not telling anyone and hoping that I won't be exposed, not ever considering that everyone are doing the same but would never talk about it.

 

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed religious Law to dictate what I can or cannot do with myself, as my human physical body and I haven't realized that the reason for these laws were and still are, to control the human beings in their own fears, so that no one would ever question and challenge our existence and actually become the change that we all want to see in this world.

 

I forgive myself that I've NOT accepted and allowed myself to see the separation that exists within and as the religious laws and how through accepting and allowing the laws as who I am, I've actually, accepted and allowed the separation of me from myself as my human physical body.

 

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to go into marriage at a very young age so that I could deal with my hormonal changes within a marriage unit where sex is allowed. In this, I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to justify why I'm engaging into marriage within and as my mind, not seeing, realizing and understand my own starting point - the desire for sex. In this, I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to base my relationship on a desire for sex, disguised by a religion act, not seeing, realizing and understanding that relationship required to be based on AGREEMENT where both parties commit to assist and support themselves and their partner EQUALLY, agreement that is based on self honest communication that will allow both parties to grow and expand themselves into become effective human being in this world. 

 

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to bring so many children in this world, without having the ability to raise them effectively and within that, I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed the desire for sex to override common sense wherein, to be able to have sex, I believe I must not use my semen in vain and accordingly, must have children.

 

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to abused my children through enslaving them to raise their siblings so that I could have sex from time to time and accordingly, have more children into this world which would also be raised by their siblings.

 

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to believe that masturbation is wrong because in masturbating, I'm committing a crime as I spill my semen and in that, murdering my potential children and I haven't accepted and allowed myself to see, realize and understand that the real crime, is the belief of the religious laws that by the name of god, the abuse, as enslavement of my children is allowed, as they have to be the guardians of their siblings so that I could have sex and talk with god all day long.

 

I forgive myself that I've NOT accepted and allowed myself to take my children into consideration when I made the decision to bring MORE children into this world and within that, I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to ignore the physical needs that every child is required in this world despite of me, not being able, in no way, to give that to my children when my family unit consists of 10-20 children.

 

I forgive myself that I've NOT accepted and allowed myself to walk with my child and explaining them what is going on inside them, as their body start to change and be influenced by physical hormones and instead, I left them alone to believe there is Evilness within themselves that is talking them into masturbation because I didn't have the courage to speak openly about my own process of discovering my human physical body, my own process of becoming intimate with my body because as far as I concern, I'm not allowed to do so, nevertheless, speak about it. Within that, I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to be and become an effective parent in this world as I tied myself into a religious laws, in separation of myself and have blindly followed it as if it is the ultimate truth.

 

To be continued...