I forgive myself that I’ve accepted and allowed myself to
leave a back door for mistakes through always having someone to blame for my responsibilities,
instead of walking a time line, walking in clarity and effectively planning
that which I’m participating with and get to the utmost potential in everything
that I do.
I forgive myself that I’ve accepted and allowed myself to –
Instead of walking my responsibilities during my day, in self trust and
directing myself effectively, I seek for someone to direct and approve my doing
so that if I fuck up, I could blame this person for it.
I forgive myself that I’ve NOT accepted and allowed myself
to take full responsibility for my responsibilities within the need for someone
to approve that which I do.
I forgive myself that I’ve NOT accepted and allowed myself
to see the nature of my dependency towards others within looking/seeking for
someone to stand as a pillar to approve and validate my doing and within that,
haven’t accepted and allowed myself to be and become the directive principle of
myself and my world, within self-trust in every moment of every breath.
I forgive myself that I’ve NOT accepted and allowed myself
to see that my entire existence was dependent upon others to validate, direct
and approve me and in that, I forgive myself that I’ve NOT accepted and allowed
myself to take responsibility for my life because I gave my power away to those
whom I blindly follow and trust them to direct me.
I forgive myself that I’ve accepted and allowed myself to be
directed, controlled and enslaved to the world system wherein, I give my power
away to other beings to make decisions for me without realizing and seeing that
by giving my power away, I’m compromising myself and my world as the silent
acceptance of this world to continue functions as it is because apparently, I’m
not worthy to speak and stand up because I require someone else to insert words
into me so that I know that what I’ve said or done was pre-approved and
validated.
I forgive myself that I’ve accepted and allowed myself to
exists as a shadow in this world through not taking the responsibility and
actually directing myself but instead, blindly followed by the example of those
who came before me despite of the physical evidence that their example wasn’t
and isn’t an example that is worthwhile due to the consequences of this current
world system that is based on abuse, suffering, crime, wars and survival and in
no way best for all.
I forgive myself that I’ve accepted and allowed myself to
train and program myself to always seek for approval for my doings and in that,
abdicated the responsibility to be and become a human beings that is standing
in stability, directing oneself and one’s world without being influenced, controlled
and enslaved to a system that is founded on self interest and the survival of
the fittest.
I forgive myself that I’ve NOT accepted and allowed myself
to see that I’m trusting other beings to direct me and in that, making the
statement that I’m not worthy for my own self trust.
I forgive myself that I’ve NOT accepted and allowed myself
to see that my entire existence is depending on others to direct and validate
me and within that, I’ve not seen how the world system functions exactly the
same where only a select few direct and validate those who blindly accepted themselves
as inferior and unworthy.
I forgive myself that I’ve accepted and allowed myself to
give value to those who have come before me because apparently, they know
better and I must follow them, despite the physical daily prove that they have
no clue within how to direct themselves and our world because if they would
have known, this world was already a world that is best for all.
I forgive myself that I’ve accepted and allowed myself to
validate and worthy myself through the approval of others and when I didn’t get
the approval, I doubted and question myself from the starting point of
inferiority.
I forgive myself that I’ve NOT accepted and allowed myself
to realize that for a substantial change in this world, I cannot trust anyone
but myself and thus, I will myself to be and become the directive principle of
myself and my world so that in every moment of every breath, I will act and do
only that which is best for all.
I forgive myself that I’ve NOT accepted and allowed myself
to realize the meaning of ‘cross referencing’ and thus, I used it to indirectly
seeking for approval, trying and attempting to present that I’m clear and
directive but the fact of the matter was that I’ve manipulated others so that I
could be validated and approved and thus, if anything went wrong, I could
justify it through saying that it was cross reference and blame others for the
fuck up instead of taking responsibility from the get go and utilizing cross referencing
form equality and oneness starting point instead of fear and inferiority.
I forgive myself that I’ve NOT accepted and allowed myself
to realize that if I require someone to tell me what I should say or do, I
cannot trust myself to direct this world
to a world that is best for all and thus, I’ve abdicated my responsibility as a
human being, to face myself, correct the relationship that I’ve formed with my
mind and change myself so that I would be able to stand up within myself and this
world and do whatever it takes to make sure that this world is a world that is
best for all.
I commit myself to get myself sorted out in all aspects as I
see and realize the extent of that which I’ve accepted and allowed myself to
live and exists as, with the direct consequences of allowing a world that is
best for only a few while others are seeking for the approval of their very existence
through money.
I commit myself to be and become the directive principle of
myself and my world within self trust and so, Will not accept and allow myself
to be influenced, controlled and enslaved by anything and anyone and thus, I commit
myself to understand how and why I have blindly diminished myself to such an
extent that my entire existence is dependent on others.
I commit myself to – when and as I see a movement within me
of wanting to say/ask something so that I could validate myself through the
answer, I stop, I breathe, I bring myself back here, I stand within and as me
in self trust within the realization that if I would to fuck up, I will learn
from it, face, correct and change.
I commit myself to direct myself in every moment according
to a basic principle of what is best for all lives and in that, I do not
require anyone to tell me what is best for all lives because with common sense
and self honesty, the answer is very clear.
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2 comments:
Thanks Maya! this was a very cool SF - assistance for me! Cool
Thanks for sharing Maya, definitely vital points here in the process of us standing-up in full self-responsibility!
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