Learning to Trust myself - Day 406

Interestingly enough, in the last couple of weeks, the main point I was working with was Self Trust, Self Acceptance, Respect and Worth as I uncovered a deeper layer I haven't seen before within myself. These are the words I have written down for myself when I started looking at the point maybe 3 weeks ago:

"Recently, it became more evident that I am following a religion, the religion of myself; a religion that I've wrote with my own blood, flesh and the entire body; a religion that I follow so dearly without realizing that within this religion of myself, I have diminished and compromised myself to such an extent that self-worth, self-respect and self-value are just titles I can give to myself through the validation of others. In other words, in the religion that I lived by, the first commandment was- You shall be Valued, Worthy and Respected only if others will…"

I haven't published that blog as I planned to walk the point first as myself, as the living change and then share it with the world as a point of support.

Bernard was pushing this point more and more recently so that I could finally make a decision - to either trust myself completely and unconditionally or to always remain a slave where I require glorifications from others to be able to validate myself. Within my current responsibilities, I was directly working with Bernard as I took on a position that requires Specificity, Responsibility and Certainty and most importantly self-trust. Though, the one thing I feared the most was making mistakes - since a mistake won't only influence my life, but the lives of many others. Bernard never gave me the answers but instead, insisted that I will first look at the point for myself, assess all things, all outcomes and make decisions.

So, a week ago, I started to practically apply Self Trust wherein I would make a decision, be comfortable with the decision, check myself, cross reference myself and then, once the decision was applied, I would share it with him as a 'By the way' thing and he would either say 'cool' or 'have you looked at…' or 'have you considered that' or 'Maya, your voice tonality shows that your decision was done within a starting point of a reaction so what is the reaction all about?'.

But then he died, and I cannot say that I transcended the point yet. In fact, my physical body shows that there is still unresolved points that I haven't considered or effectively applied. The trust point, in my back where the pain shows that there is a part of me that cannot trust myself without Bernard being here to support me within the decisions that I make and the decisions that I will have to make.

So my back is stiff, sore, constricted and basically, that point in my back is now weak as the support structure I've created for myself in separation of myself/body is nonexistent, as I have separated the self-trust into a relationship with Bernard, trusting him more than I trusted myself and in this exists the separation. Now I have to teach myself to trust myself so absolutely - so that no matter what I face, I am stable within myself.

I must create my own support structure wherein Self Honesty, Assessing all things and deciding on that which would result in the outcome that is best for all is practically applied within each breath I take. To trust myself that when I make a mistake, I learn from the mistake, I correct myself and practically change - "simple" as Bernard used to say.

So I commit myself to learn to trust myself unconditionally and to support myself and become the support Bernard stood as and in a way still standing, for me and for others.

From Reaction to Prevention and the Correction Process (Part 3) - Day 241

The Correction Process and The Desteni Message (Part 13)

 

This is a direct continuation to:

 

The Correction Process and The Desteni Message (Part 1) - Day 198

The Correction Process and The Desteni Message (Part 2) - Day 199

The Correction Process and The Desteni Message (Part 3) - Day 200

The Correction Process and The Desteni Message (Part 4) - Day 201

The Correction Process and The Desteni Message (Part 5) - Day 202

The Correction Process and The Desteni Message (Part 6) - Day 203

The Correction Process and The Desteni Message (Part 7) - Day 204

The Correction Process and The Desteni Message (Part 8) - Day 205

The Correction Process and The Desteni Message (Part 9) - Day 206

The Correction Process and The Desteni Message (Part 10) - Day 207

From Reaction to Prevention and the Correction Process (Part 1) - Day 239

From Reaction to Prevention and the Correction Process (Part 2) - Day 240

Thus, I suggest, if you haven't already, to first read the above 2 blogs before continuing to read this blog.

 

Reactions as Distraction

 

 

As we have seen in the previous 2 blogs, our automation as Human Beings is to first React, and then find a solution for the problem through either taking (Re)action based on our Self Interest design, or we will deny, ignore, hide, the actuality of who we have accepted ourselves to be and become. Here, what also must be realized is that one's decision to ignore/hide/deny/suppress stand in alignment to one's self interest design. Reacting to a Problem, both internally and externally is thus, not the solution, the Solution is Prevention in any way, within and as the principle of that which is best for all.

 

What I have recently realized for myself is how through Reactions, I've been distracting myself from looking at and investigating the Origin/Core/Source of the Experience that I had accepted and allowed myself to participate with and instead of facing myself, I was focused on the feelings and emotions that had emerged within a certain event and within that, looking at all directions but at the actual Core/Source/Origin that had accumulated over time till is manifested on a physical and or Mind/Energy level.

 

Our reactions and how we would (Re)act upon our reactions is how one would distract oneself from seeing, and investigating the Real Source/Core/Origin of Poverty and Starvation in this world for instance and no matter how one would 'Deal' with one's initial reaction, one would not in fact look at the source/origin/core of the problem as starvation and poverty and walk the Prevention Process that would ensure a world where Poverty and Starvation will no longer exists. I mean - clearly, none of us actually educated ourselves to understand how Money moves in this world, how and why it is possible that still, in  2012, people die from the consequences of Poverty? What is the reason, what can be done to change it? we have never asked ourselves such questions and walked the Answer in a practical and physical application.

 

On the Individual level, when facing a point which we initially reacted to, we tend to find faults in others, blame our peers and family for our Negative Experiences and would not turn the point back to ourselves to see how and why we have accepted and allowed ourselves to react from the get go. We would distract ourselves through and by reactions, which we would justify for ourselves, and wouldn't dare and will ourselves to take responsibility for what we have accepted and allowed within and as ourselves and practically change from the Core of our beingness into and as human beings that are trust worthy, effective and equate.

 

Thus I suggest - let's take each accepted and allowed reaction that exist within ourselves and this world and commit ourselves to transform and change our reactions to prevention. Let's Prepare the way before us, by walking and applying the preventative solution so that we can be free from the fears/self interest that is the foundation of each and every reaction so that we can once and for all, stop dealing with the problem but prevent problems and accordingly, manifest a world that is best for all.

From Reaction to Prevention and the Correction Process (Part 2) - Day 240

The Correction Process and The Desteni Message (Part 12)

 

This is a direct continuation to the previous blog: From Reaction to Prevention and the Correction Process (Part 1) - Day 239 where I've discussed the Principle of Prevention as the Correction Process within and as the world system. Within this Blog, we will be looking at the Individual Process of Correction and what does it imply to Move from Reactions to Prevention.

 

Firstly, let's Specify what Reactions are.

A reaction is an Energetic Movement within and as ourselves that is activated through how we perceive our internal and/or external experiences in relationship with how we defined our reality through our minds. What is interesting about the word 'React' is the sounding of the word: 'Re-Act' which indicates that our reactions always repeat themselves as we Re-act according to our Pre-program design as how we prepared the way before us to react in a specific Energetic Charge to a Specific event/experience/thought. (If you haven't already, I suggest reading the blog The Correction Process and The Desteni Message (Part 3) - Day 200 where I had explained what does it mean 'Pre-Programming).

 

When slowing ourselves down, we would notice that the trigger of any reaction exists within and as our self Interest, wherein we respond to our environment and react to the stimulus's that are contradicting our Pre-Program Design. For greater understanding, I suggest studying the Quantum Mind Interview series on EQAFE.

 

As Children, we were taught to React to Problems and only later, to maybe go one step further and Solve the Problem. Like for instance - when I was a child, for a long period of time, I experienced extensive headaches on a daily basis. I've seen many doctors and nothing that they did and/or suggested had any results and I kept on taking pain killers daily. Only a few months after, when one of the doctors suggested that I'll write everyday, when and as I see the pain start to emerge and just before I was about to take another pain killer. Slowly but surely, the pain was gone.

 

The reaction to the constant pain, on the parenting level was probably very extensive. I mean, who would want to see their child suffers? The Reaction then, was fear both of my parents and myself because no-one knew what I had and no-one considered that it wasn't anything physically but rather mentally as how I would escape my reality and suppress my experiences because I didn't have any practical tools to face myself and my world and thus, I preferred to excuse myself through creating Pain that would allow me to stay at home for instance. Thus, the Principle was Reacting to the Problem and trying to find a solution only after the problem had occur and manifested consequences on a physical level as constant pain. What was not applied within that context was Prevention, in teaching me by Example, how to take responsibility for myself and my world and within that, one could expand and grow oneself already from Childhood instead of suppressing my reality and cover up the problems by taking pain killers that would give me a momentary outlet till the pain came up again.

 

Meaning, we were never taught to Directly see all the Relationships that each and every point we participate with, consists of and exists; we were never taught to look at the consequential outflows of every decision we make but rather, when and as something happen, we taught to first react and then, take actions to either Solve the problem or Cover it up.

 

We were never taught that Prevention is: 'Pre-Even' - to Even out (Principle of Equality) all the Problems BERFORE it occur in how we would direct and move ourselves to Transform our Reactions that we have accepted and allowed within and as ourselves into a practical application of Prevention. Which means that the Parent's responsibility should and must be, showing the Child Examples of how one would Prevent a problem and accordingly, the parent would present a practical Solution that can be applied by the child.

 

Ok, so in the next blog, we will have a look at why Reactions acts as a distraction from seeing the Origin/Core/Source of problems and within this, how Reactions play a destructive role within and as our lives, both internally and externally.

From Reaction to Prevention and the Correction Process (Part 1) - Day 239

The Correction Process and The Desteni Message (Part 11)

 

This is a continuation to:

The Correction Process and The Desteni Message (Part 1) - Day 198

The Correction Process and The Desteni Message (Part 2) - Day 199

The Correction Process and The Desteni Message (Part 3) - Day 200

The Correction Process and The Desteni Message (Part 4) - Day 201

The Correction Process and The Desteni Message (Part 5) - Day 202

The Correction Process and The Desteni Message (Part 6) - Day 203

The Correction Process and The Desteni Message (Part 7) - Day 204

The Correction Process and The Desteni Message (Part 8) - Day 205

The Correction Process and The Desteni Message (Part 9) - Day 206

The Correction Process and The Desteni Message (Part 10) - Day 207

 

 

All the Problems we face during our Life time, Internally and Externally, have always been Known.

The History keeps repeating it self exactly as the saying - There is nothing New under the Sun and yet we do nothing to change the cycle that we keep looping within and as, Internally and Externally but always dealing with the Consequences once they manifested, only after we initially reacted to it.

 

As I've shown in my Previous blogs -  in order to Solve the Problems, we must get to the core/source/origin of the Problem and correct it in alignment to the Principle of what is best for all. Within that context, Prevention IS the Correction Processes as it is the Solution to EVERYTHING - both internally within and as ourselves and Externally, in our world.

 

Prevention in the context of our External reality -

If we look at what can be prevented in this world, once we change how we approach the problems from Reaction to Prevention, we will see the immediate change and result that would manifest an outcome that is best for all. For example:

 

Starvation - When we hear about a child that had died due to lack of nutrition, we React within and as ourselves. If we slow down, we would see that our reaction is based on our Self Interest of and as Fear within thoughts like: "what if it was my child? What if I didn't have anything to eat?" - So then, we will move to solving the problem through either ignore the fact that there are children in this world that dies every moment from starvation, or we go and volunteer in a charity organization or we would donate some money. we may also work harder to make sure we have enough to feed our children, or we will start forcing our children to eat everything on their plate and we will tell them that they must eat because they are lucky to have food. None of the above are an actual application of Prevention because the ultimate prevention is to make sure that no-one will ever again starve through the implantation of the Equal Money System for instance. Because when we establish an Equal Money System, we correct the core of the Problem, which is Money and Control and Prevent the Consequences of having people die from lack of Nutrition.

 

Poverty - When we see a beggar on the Streets, what do we do? We React. Why? Because we fear that we would end up like them, bagging for someone to help them keep their survival in this world. How are we dealing with it? we either give them Money, or we would ignore them, or we just feel sorry for them and thank god we are not in their shoes. However, what would be the Correction Process within the Principle of Prevention? To Establish an Equal Money System that would ensure a Dignified Life for all where no-one needs to bag for their existent forever more.

 

And as we go and explore all the problems that exists in this world, we would see that there is a solution - Prevention, that can be applied to stop the repeated History and create a world that is best for all. 
 

So now that we have looked at our External Reality within this World system, we will have a look at our Internal Reality and within that, the Principle of Prevention. Also, we would look at how and why Reactions are nothing but a distractions that we have accepted and allowed within and as ourselves, to not in fact Correct the Core/Source/Origin of each and every point we faced or would face if we would not Correct/Prevent it.

Desteni is a cult - Day 61

You have been trained in a school of thought – that school of thought is claiming that anything that is against it is apparently a cult. We’re not a cult or the occult, we are purely human beings that is no longer controlled through mind control or through money control, I mean mind control and money control is the same thing. If you are ready to consider that war must be ended, weapons must be stopped and humans must be free from their fears so they don’t have to kill each other to be free, then join us at Desteni, we are here for you as well, whether you are with us or not because what we’re proposing includes you in a way that will give you true freedom and that will protect your family and your future. I’m quite sure somewhere inside you there must be some little bit of common sense and you’ll be able to hear some of what I am saying. I understand the fear is immense but one is completely overrun by it, therefore you’ll attack ’cause that is apparently the best defence. But that only means that there is a fence, there shouldn’t be a fence between neighbours, between those that love each other. There should have been sharing but it doesn’t exist. Bernard Poolman

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to define and judge Detseni and the Desteni's members as cult because according to my eye's view everyone who question my right to have my own opinions must be a member of vicious cult that wants to take over the world however, what I have missed within it was my responsibility to truly investigate the Desteni Message, to cross reference my opinions and to see if there is any physical fact that can validate my opinion.

I forgive myself that I've NOT accepted and allowed myself to investigate what a CULT really is and what are the symbolism of a cult according to the System's definition of a Cult because if I would - I would see that religion, culture, family, new age movements hold the very same symbolism of how society attached to a cult.

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to stand against those who have dedicated their LIFE to bring about a change in this world that is best for all (which also includes me) and I haven't realized that the point that I'm standing for is my right to abuse as I'm part of this world that is based on the allowance to abuse because even though we are aware to the physical fact that the majority of this world are born to die from starvation, malnutrition, dehydration and diseases we do not do anything about it and in that accepting the continuation of their slow and painful death and within that, I forgive myself that I have NOT accepted and allowed myself to see the relationship between me as an abuser, the world system as the foundation that allow abuse abuse and the consequences of my acceptance and allowances when and as I stand against the principle of what is best for all as equal to and one as what is Desteni is standing for.

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to defend my right to abuse because being an abuser is what I always known myself to be, as my accepted and allowed CULTural brainwashing that I've made as my own without questioning the starting point of my CULTture, investigate the Principle that my CULTure is standing for because if I would have question and investigate, I would come to the conclusion that I am in fact an abuser of LIFE through my acceptance and allowance of walking according to the principle of what is best for me in total separation from existence as a whole and accordingly, I would take my responsibility as a human being in this world, to make what ever is required and necessary steps to establish a world that is best for all.

I forgive myself that I haven't accepted and allowed myself to realize, see and understand how I prisoned myself within my own cult as my mind in a direct reflection to how I speak to myself about myself and others as well as how I justify my beliefs/opinions/ideas and try to destroy anyone who do not stand as equal to my opinions and within that, I forgive myself that I've NOT accepted and allowed myself to see that my self cult as my religion of self is the building block that created and manifested this world in its correct state of spite and abuse the majority of this world in separation of ourselves.

The Religion of Self Cult has been the most devastating of All religions throughout history and is built on the foundations of self interest as the social order of Consumerism, Profit and Capitalism."

‎"The pursuit of Happiness as one of the foundation teachings of the Religion of Self have placed billions into poverty and created a social system of Fake love and individual Glory. The Gore of this can be seen in how animals are driven to extinction and forests decimated just so that self may have the belief of happiness. How can any one put faith in such a religion that have splintered into the millions of Self religions that exist as the Elite with money in this world? There is no real feeling in this religions. Just self interest in the drive to profit and wealth. Investigate equal money system to save you from your delusions." - Bernard Poolman

I forgive myself that I've NOT accepted and allowed myself to see that my fears that manifested the experience of hate towards a group of people has caused me to react in spitefulness and viciousness towards them and I haven't seen that the people that I'm actually spiteful and disregard are the majority of this world that are in constant day to day battle to survive and within that, I forgive myself that I've NOT accepted and allowed myself to see that my FEAR to change is the building block of War, Friction, Terrorism, Abuse and separation in this world because I would rather manifest Hate towards that which threaten my right to abuse other than taking responsibility for myself and my world and practically assist and support myself to walk the practical application of Love your neighbour as yourself and give that which you'd like to receive.

It is self-evident that instilling fear and hatred based on spitefulness, ignorance or mere jealousy is the very trait that is responsible for WAR, TERROR and SEPARATION in this world. Bella Bargilly

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to defend my free choice to abuse and my right to freely express my hatred speech and within that, I forgive myself that I've become SOOOO blind to the fact that I have NO free choice as I've gave a full permission for my mind to dictate, control and enslave me according to my CULTural brainwashing that is based on self interest and the right to abuse.

I commit myself to show and expose those who defend their right to ABUSE by making statements and remarks against Desteni and the Desteni's members as I see, realize and understand that when and as I'm standing in the way of those who are busy changing themselves and the world, I'm allowing the continuation of abuse to occur in this world and am thus, an abuser of LIFE.

Here is an example of EX Desteni hater who have taken the responsibility to let go of his Ego, fears and attempt to defend his right to abuse and practically changed his way and become an example that a change is possible.

http://marleypeterbenjamindawkins.blogspot.com/2012/04/delusional-desteni-hater.html

I commit myself to show and expose how the mind has become the dictator of one's LIFE to the extent of which one do not see how CULTure within its current manifestation is the foundation of the abuse in this world through a process of extensive brainwashing of generations after generations and within that, I commit myself to show, reveal and expose the true nature of religion, families, CULTures, and New age movements as the real and true abusers of it all and how in fact, those above are acting and participating within the structure of a CULT that is against all LIFE that is best for all.

I commit myself to show in common sense how and why one is standing against Desteni, the Equal Life Foundation and the Equal Money system and within doing so, I will prove that the only thing they are standing against is their right to ABUSE, diminish and destroy LIFE that is best for all.

I commit myself to show that those who claim that Desteni is a cult are the cause of WAR, CRRIME and TERORISM in this world.

I commit myself to show and expose how the world system defend those who stand against Desteni by allowing their abusive expression to spread around the internet with no LAWS to stop bullies within the so called free speech while they ban and close the Desteni channels without giving any explanation or a reason for the ban.

For context - read this blog - http://andrearossouw.wordpress.com/2012/04/03/internet-victimization-and-rick-ross/

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