Free Speech? Free Choice? Really? - Day 274

It is very clear to me by now that there is no such thing as Free Speech within this current world system and that the fact of the matter is that if you say something that would threaten the System, you'll be targeted and removed from the ability to express yourself.

 

My first Encounter with Controlled "Free" Speech was around 1-2 years ago when, suddenly, unexpectedly and without any warning, the Desteni Main YouTube channels were removed with thousands of videos and millions of views. When we tried to get answers regarding this decision, we got none, to the extent of which, Lindsay Drove to San Francisco, to the YouTube headquarter offices within the attempt to receive some answer but she wasn't even allowed to enter the building.

Till this day, the people and the reasons behind this decision are unknown.

 

A few weeks ago, I saw a Israeli TV news show with a Lawyer that used to work for Politicians and high rank business men . He was one of these people that you wouldn't want to face in your life as he has a army of powerful people behind him that would make sure that if you know anything about one a politicians or high rank business man, that may harm their stance in the system to a point of serving time in Jail due to their Criminal acts, you wouldn't dare to speak up and expose the truth and if you would, you would most likely to find yourself in a worsen position in your life. He was one of these people that would destroy you, if you knew too much. Interestingly enough but sure thing not surprising, all of the lawyers actions stood in alignment to the Laws. This Lawyer had finally realized his responsibility within the harm and abuse he is allowing to exists within the consequences of his actions and he decided 2 years ago to do what ever he can to correct his past doing.

 

He shared specific details about instances where he destroyed the Lives of people that tried to stand up for themselves  and others by exposing the harm and abused they had faced by specific politician or high rank business man. He shared how him and his office where involved with what the News would broadcastand if there was anything that could have harm specific politician, they made sure the News report won't be published.

So, what is the point?

The point is that I face many beings that claim and honestly believe they have free choice and therefor, freely expressing themselves. They claim for Free Speech without investing the time to actually investigate all things instead of blindly following their minds and the minds of the system. I was/is one of these people that claimed to have free speech and Free Choice but every day that goes by and I learn more about this reality, more about the Economic system, about the Education system and the world system as a whole, I understand that Free Choice and Free Speech do not exists as our Mind is conditioned to what we were fed up by those who censor the Information.

 

I Believed that all I need to do is stand up and call for an Equal Money System BUT I came to realize that standing up for Equal Money doesn't end by saying that I'm supporting the Equal Money, at least not at this stage of the Equal Money Movement. It takes Self Responsibility to truly educate myself about how things really works and functions to be able to in fact stand as a Free Expression of myself in Explaining in detail what I've learnt, what is the problem and what is the solution. If I just follow like a sheep, I again do not have any free choice within it because there is no Real Self Realization but rather a feeling/Experience that it is the 'right' thing to do so that I could sleep better at night knowing that I did something in my life to change this world. I see, realize and understand now that changing the world isn't just a figure of (free) Speech. It is actual doing and it must start with myself, understanding the specificity of what I'm standing for and as.

 

So - Currently, there is no Free Choice nor Free Speech unless we  self honestly have proven to ourselves that we have investigated all things, from all possible dimensions and can walk the specificity of the Time Line of how we realized the point and what does it takes to manifest a solution that I best for all lives.

 

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The Correction Process and The Desteni Message (Part 3) - Day 200

 

 

Preprograming Explained

 

This is a continuation to:

The Correction Process and The Desteni Message (Part 1) - Day 198

The Correction Process and The Desteni Message (Part 2) - Day 199

 

Please read this the blog before reading the following blog to make sure you understand the context.

 

 

I remember, as a young child, my parents preference was that  I wouldn't be exposed to the 9 o'clock News playing on TV. They Preferred that by then, I would already be asleep and wouldn't have to face the 'Grown-ups' reality, news reports about War, Crime, Child abuse, a woman being Raped, a neighbour being Killed etc.

From their point of view, they believed they are protecting me from this world and what this world has to offer and wished they could postponed my encounter with the physical reality as much as possible, when I'm prepared to handle the ugly truth.

 

There were nights that I didn't fall asleep by the time the news was on and I could hear pieces of information and it is interesting because when I look at it now, through bringing these memories 'Here' - I can hear specific words  that were Extremely emphasized by the News broadcaster; Words like 'Murder', 'Arabs', 'War', 'Gun', 'Gaza'. And through these words, and how the broadcaster also used specific voice tonality when speaking these words, I literally Experienced Fear within and as myself which from there, every time I heard these words for instance, an experience of Fear emerged from within and as me, unconsciously; and this Memory of me as a child, overhearing the News, knowing that it is not for a child's ears and I'm lying in bed, shit as hell scared in bed, is activated as a picture in my mind that I carry till this day.

 

It is not surprising that as a grown-up, I tried as much as possible to avoid listening to the news and develop complete ignorance regarding History, Politics, Economy as well as world wide events.

 

If we have a look at the Time Line of Events that had formed my relationship to the News, we would be able to see how I've designed and shaped my life (or in other words - Pre-Programmed my life) based on accumulation of Memories as follows:

 

-> Parents do not allow me to watch the news

->-> I don't understand why I cannot stay up and be with my family when they watch the
        news.

->->-> When I asked 'Why', I've been told it is not a show for kids but only for grown ups.

 

-> One night, I couldn't fall asleep

->-> and I went to the living room to be caressed by my parents.

->->-> While walking towards them, I stopped in front of the TV screen

->->->-> because I saw explosion of something and there was grey cloudiness going up from
              the explosion trigger point, up to the sky.

->->->->->I never seen anything like that before

->->->-> the way the news broadcaster speak,

->->->->-> I could tell it was nothing good (Positive) and something bad happen

->->->->->-> So I asked my father what's going on

->->->->->->-> He said to me that I shouldn't watch this, it's grown-up stuff, not for kids.

->->->->->->->-> And he would really appreciate if I won't watch the news.

->->->-> The Experience within me was of so overwhelming and I felt Fear

->->->->-> Because I couldn't understanding what's going on

->->->->->-> and knew that what I was just exposed to was bad (not Positive).

->-> So I went back to my room but still, couldn't fall asleep

->->-> I could still hear some of it from my bedroom.

->->->-> and specifically I could hear Words that I associated with Negative Value

->->->->-> Meaning, the Broadcaster emphasized and used specific tonality when speaking
                  the words: 'Murder', 'Arabs', 'War', 'Gun', 'Gaza'.

->->->->->-> I experienced extensive FEAR within and as me

->->->->->->-> I feared that I might get exploded one day.

 

-> A few years after

->-> When my Younger sister was about the same age I was in the night I described above

->->-> I had a dream

->->->->  that Arab people are in my Sister's kindergarten

->->->->-> and they were shooting everyone that were there.

->->-> After School, I went to my Sister's Kindergarten to make sure she is alright

->->->-> and I would deliberately, from that day, went and checkout if my sister is fine before
              heading home.

 

-> As I grew up

->-> I developed the habit of not watching or reading the news.

->->-> Which result also with feeling inadequate when other people would speak about
            world events and politics.

->->->-> I couldn't commit myself to study the History that lead to our current world wide
              events

->->->->-> because I didn’t want to watch or read the news

->->->->->-> I rather do something Fun instead (Justification)

->->->->->->-> and besides, there is nothing I can do to assist and support the world with

->->->->->->->-> I'll focus on that which will benefit me in MY future.

 

As you can see, the Above timelines show a few of the consequential outflows that had emerged through my perceptual reality, from the night I experienced Fear, for the first time, towards the PICTURE that I've seen on the TV Screen and the WORDS that were spoken by the broadcaster which resonated Negativity as Fear within and as me which then together with my perceptual reality, I created the Experience of FEAR within and as me as MEMORY, when ever I heard words like 'Murder', 'Arabs', 'War', 'Gun', 'Gaza'.

Meaning, my First encounter with the Experience of FEAR as an Experience towards listening/watching the News was part of my programming of how I would direct myself later in my life when specific Words activated the Memory that I carried within and as myself which instantaneously, I accessed the Experience of Fear.

In Other words - Through that Memory that I Stored within and as myself, of the Experience of Fear, when listening/Watching the News, I contributed to my Programming to always react in FEAR when and as I hear the words 'Murder', 'Arabs', 'War', 'Gun', 'Gaza' which manifested the unconscious resistance to watch/listen to the News, later in my life,  where I had believed that it is simply not my preference (as justified to myself within the timeline above) and in that, never realized that I had accepted and allowed myself to completely ignore and deny the News in getting to know what is really going on in this world, Investigate the details, the relationships, the functionality of this world, why it exists as it is, why people are suffering and so on. Because, I've Preprogramed myself to always react in FEAR when what I hear/read/Watch is in alignment to what I had defined as Negative.

It is only in a much much later stage where I started to ask these questions but that was through the assistance and support I had received in investigating the Desteni Message and within that, the Principle of 'Investigate ALL things and keep that which is good for All.

 

In the blog The Correction Process and The Desteni Message (Part 1) - Day 198 I've shown how one create the ‘Experience’ as a positive or negative experience towards the Physical reality’ through the Value one had assigned to what one Perceive reality to be. Within this blog, we went one step further in understanding that the Value one assigns, meaning the positive value or the negative value that one assigns to experiences / memories, towards one’s perception of reality IS how one program’s oneself as the acceptances and allowances of how one perceives this reality to be.

 

The Desteni Message is Parallel to the Experience we have when watching the News for Instance, it is not oriented towards the fulfilment of one's Desire for a Positive Experience as it is not what we have Programmed ourselves to align ourselves with. I Mean, who doesn't have a Negative Experience towards listening to the News? Who like hearing the news about how much corruption and abuse and suffering exists in this world? Who Enjoy listening to it? No One.

Thus, I understand that When reading through the Desteni Material and the Journey to Life, that is being walked by the Desteni Members from all across the world, one may react in a Negative experience because, what is presented is NOT aligned with the Positive Experience we Seek to have, from the perspective of our preferences of what we would like to read, hear and watch. However, our Preference is our Pre-Programmed Design that we have created within and as ourselves, already at childhood, while having no clue of how we have actually created our preferences.

 

However, as I've mentioned in my Previous Blogs - the Desteni Message is neither Positive or Negative - it is about seeing directly reality as what it is, looking at the core/source/origin/Root of the Problems that we are currently experiencing as Humanity and accordingly, Move towards a correction that would result in a best for all outcome.

 

If one have a look, in self honesty, what we present is the actual, real truth of what is going on inside our minds as individual and what is going on in this world as a whole.

For Example:

The Heaven's Journey to Life describe in detail the Existential seeing of the reality beyond and within the Mind and the Physical.

The Earth's Journey to Life walk you through the Various designs/components of the Personalities/characters we have created within and as ourselves, in the most simplistic way that everyone can relate.

The Creation's Journey to Life will guide you, in a process of self education, towards seeing directly the Physical reality as it is, through exposing the Nitty Gritty of our individual and collective acceptance and allowances.

The Activist's journey to Life is a commentary perspective regarding the Daily world's events

The Economist's Journey to Life will guide you through the ins and outs of how our current Economic structure and what is really behinds the Scenes that most people are not aware of.

The Psychologist's Journey to Life specifically shows how One is able and capable in being one's own Psychologist when facing with one's reality and how to practically work with what is Here, in our day to day living application, to self perfection in applying self correction.

 

As you investigate these blogs, the Material Desteni is Providing, you'd noticed, that we are not just showing the problems, we are presenting a solution within a process of correction of all the points that individually and collectively had part in the creation of ourselves and this world as we know it today.

 

Will continue in my next blog.

The Correction Process and The Desteni Message (Part 2) - Day 199

 

 

 

 

The Heart of Winning vs. The Heart of Living.

 

This is a continuation to:

The Correction Process and The Desteni Message (Part 1) - Day 198

Please read this the blog before reading the following blog to make sure you understand the context.

 

In the Previous blog, we have seen that what ever our perception of reality - either Positive or Negative - it would not change the Physical reality and would not influence the Structure and the foundation of the Physical reality but only change our Experience that we have created within and as our mind as the perception we have towards reality within the Value that we have assigned to our experiences. 

 

Within this Blog, we will have a look at the difference between the Heart of Winning to the Heart of Living. Wherein, the Heart of Winning would represent the Positive thinker and attitude and the Heart of Living would represent the Desteni Message.

 

The Heart of Winning is when for example, one would walk one's life and would initially focus one's attention to one's immediate environment - One would care for one's family and Friends and even care for one's neighbours. Within one's heart - one's attitude is a Positive one or in other words, one would define oneself as a positive person who takes care of other people and not only focused on oneself.

 

When one is watching the news for instance, one would feel bad within oneself, when seeing the atrocities that exists in this world and even feel sorry for those who are in a lesser position in this world system. One would then thus, decides within and as oneself that once one have enough money, or when one is retired, one would commit oneself to make good in this world by helping here and there to the poor families, by donating money for charity or by volunteering in a shelter for abused children.

 

Within the 'Heart of the Winner' - one would Win one's life style through devoting one's life in labour for at least 50 years of one's life. One would Win in the world system from the perspective of oneself and one's family is safe and sound and could afford luxuries from time to time and only when one Win the Right to Life, through Money, one would then give some of what one have.

 

However, what one is NOT considering is, that life is too short! And there is no way, one could bring about any meaningful change in one's life and in the life of all, in the time period one have, till one's death.

Meaning - by the time one had accomplished and fulfilled oneself (winning), one would not have the sufficient space/time to actually move and direct oneself towards a change that is substantial and sufficient, in making sure that ALL are safe and sound, that all are taken cared for and all are equally provided with the basic necessities for a decent and worthy life.

 

Here, we can see again that despite of one's Positive Attitude, one would always focus on one's life and One's immediate environment lives and if there is any Extra left, one would give to others the time and money that one can give while the fact of the matter is - the Physical reality remain the same - the core/root/origin/source of the Problem wasn't corrected and changed.

 

The Heart of Living is a complete Different Scenario - it is to bring in practicality the Principle of Give as you would like to Receive as a Principle that one would walk for one's entire life and not only when one had already won the life one desired to have. The Heart of Living would then thus, is a commitment one is standing within and as, to do, what ever it takes in bringing about a world that is best for all, as a living expression of oneself, regardless the outcome, regardless of the chances, regardless of what everyone in one's society would have to say about it, regardless the attitude of others towards self and what self is standing for.

The Heart of Living is walking in seeing reality directly, seeing all the relationships that are involved in each and every Brick that is the foundation of this physical existence as a whole.

 

Desteni Represents the Heart of Living - seeing reality as what it is, as was explained in the previous blog - in being aware of all the relationships that form this physical reality and what ever is not aligned to the principle of what is best for all, must be corrected from the very foundation - as the core/origin/root/source.

 

The Heart of Living as a Principle - is NOT based on experience as either Positive or Negative - it is based on seeing reality directly and immediately take action, when and as the root/core/origin/source of the relationship that formed a part of this reality was misaligned with the principle of what is best for all.

 

Unfortunately, that in itself, would not change this world because, as I've explained in the previous blog, one's Living expression of oneself as one particle in this entire existence, won't change the foundation and the structure of the physical reality. I mean, even if I'm Here, fully aware of my own physical body and all the physical relationships that this physical reality consisting of and existing as, I would not be able, by myself, to change this world to a world that is best for all because we are already living in a manifested consequences that are far worse then what we can even imagine and to correct it - we all must come together and Correct the core/source/root/origin of the problem because one must understand - we are the Problem.

 

Will continue in the next blog.

Fear of being Crucified - Self Commitments - Day 111

This is a continuation to:

Fear of being Crucified - Day 109

Fear of being Crucified - Self Forgiveness - Day 110

Principled Living

And also -

Journey to Life - Day 91 Israeli Self Immolation

I commit myself to SHOW the Evil Human Nature of Greed and self interest desire of enslaving and controlling the majority of beings in this world, to the extent of accepting and allowing the assassination/murder of those who DARE to stand up, within and as Principles that are best for all, to bring about a change in this world that will place everything and everyone in an EQUAL position.

I Commit myself to show the Basic Common Sense Equation that The Elite of this world, are well aware of what they have accepted and allowed to manifest in this world and that they will do, what ever it takes to remain in their position of power and control with no consideration of the Atrocity conditions and suffering in this world due to the inequality equation that this world system is based on.

I commit myself to SHOW how convenient it is for us to remain in fear, to be able to maintain our self interest desire for an experience, despite of us all being aware of the real deal of this world, the real and physical pain and suffering that most of us experience in every single moment and I commit myself to SHOW the consequences of remaining in FEAR, through repeating again and again and again, the same very thing until all could hear.

I commit myself to SHOW how we perpetuate our Enslavement through reminding ourselves our fear of being crucified through the Jesus Symbols, through the memorial days of those who were killed for that which they stand within and as themselves and through this propaganda, what we are actually doing is suppressing the fear more and more within and as ourselves, not seeing, realizing and understanding what we are in fact doing, accepting the enslavement of ourselves in our mind, as well as accepting the physical enslavement of those we are daily struggling to live another day.

I Commit myself to SHOW that the fear of being Crucified/killed/murdered/assassinated for daring to stand up and call for a change in this world serves only those who are in a control and power positions in this world and though this FEAR that we accept and allow to silence us, we are directly responsible for the abuse and suffering of this world because we gave up on change as long as our bubbly world is safe and sound.

I commit myself to STOP my participation within and as the fear of being crucified as I lead the way into and towards a world that is best for all because I see, realize and understand the origin of this fear, the consequences of allowing this fear to control me and how through this fear, I'm compromising the future of this world and the lives of us all.

I commit myself to - when and as I communicate with those who do not accept, validate, agree with that which I stand as, to make sure I'm Here, within and as breath. And I speak common sense, within self trust, self stability, Self power and within that, take no shit, be frank, direct and expose that which is require to be exposed and directed so that we can for once and for all - walk as equals and change ourselves and our world according to that which is best for all.

I commit to stop the value and attention to what other see, say and speak about me because who I am is not defined by others but rather who I am is a reflection of what I will allow and what I will not and accordingly, I speak/stand up, regardless the consequences that may be.

I commit myself to walk the process of bringing about a world that is best for all and I will stop with death when and as it may be. I will not accept and allow the fear of death to compromise and sabotage this existence as a whole as I see, realize and understand the extent of our journey, the challenges, the temptation and the things that I will have to give up so that we could all have a life that is dignified, worthy and fulfilling.

Fear of being Crucified - Self Forgiveness - Day 110

This is a continuation to:

Fear of being Crucified - Day 109

Principled Living: Maya

And also -

Journey to Life - Day 91 Israeli Self Immolation

I forgive myself that I've NOT accepted and allowed myself to realize that those who are in the position of power and control due to their abundant of Money in this world, will do what ever they can, to remain in their position and if/when necessarily, they will be willing to kill/murder/assassinate those who question the World System Equations and they will be willing to kill/murder/assassinate those who have the power to bring about common sense into this world because it will undermine the Elite's position of Control and Power and would place them in a position of Equals to everything and everyone which according to the Elite's eyes view, that is their worst nightmare.

I forgive myself that I've NOT accepted and allowed myself to realize that the Elite are well aware of their acceptance and allowance of positioning themselves in Power and Control over the Majority of this world because, we have seen throughout History that at the moment their position of Power and Control is being challenged, those who stand up for Equalization are being killed/murdered/assassinate for some "miraculous reason".

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to NOT realize how the Elite is very much aware of the atrocity and suffering in this world and yet, would do nothing about it because if they would, they would lose their position of power and control over those who are currently being enslaved by them and thus, when the Elite's Life Style of abundance is being shaken by those who stand up for a change in this world that might position the Elite in less abundant position in this world, someone get killed/murdered/assassinate which then, for a moment, their position in this world is safe and sound till the next group comes up and challenged the Elite's position in this world, get killed/murdered/assassinated and the cycle continue and no change is in fact being implemented and established. 

I forgive myself that I've NOT accepted and allowed myself to see, realize and understand how  through History, we  perpetuate the immobilizes fear of being crucified for that which is best for all to regenerate the preprogram design of Fear, of powerlessness, of uselessness which through this brainwashed fear, we will not stand up, we will not change the world and we will keep accepting and allowing the abuse, suffer, crime, greed, competition etc. to remain our directive principle with no real and substantial change. 

I forgive myself that I've NOT accepted and allowed myself to see and realize that the FEAR of being Crucified when and as a being is standing up according to a principle that may shake the face of the world, is the Fear that immobilize us to in fact become a strong and stable leader in our world and lead the way for a world that is best for all. Within that, I forgive myself that I've NOT accepted and allowed myself to question and investigate the starting point of this fear and who and what this Fear serve; to see, realize and understand how we have infused ourselves within and as this fear, to not be able to change in fact, ourselves nor this world and within that, submit to this current world of abuse, suffering, atrocities, greed, self interest and Evilness. And thus, I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to remain in Fear of Change as the fear of being crucified and have thus, accepted and allowed and gave permission to the world to continue as it is currently is and in this, I forgive myself that I've NOT accepted and allowed myself to see my responsibility in accepting and allowing the fear of being crucified to enslave, control, immobilize me and how through the acceptance and allowance of this fear, I'm directly accepting and allowing abuse and suffering to be the daily living experience of the Majority of this world.

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to submit to the FEAR of being Crucified and within that, have decided to give away my power to stand as a pillar in this world, a Pillar of common sense that stand in absolute stability within and as Principle of that which is best for all and through an example, assist and support all to stand up as well because the only way we can in fact change this world, is if each and everyone of us will see, accept and allow our individual responsibilities to create, establish and implement a world that is best for all.

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to ignore the steps that I will have to take in order to establish in fact a world that is best for all and within that, the first step of implementing the Equal Money System because I've accepted and allowed the fear of being crucified to control and enslave and blind me to the extent of which, I haven't accepted and allowed myself to give myself the permission to look at what will it takes to bring about a world that is best for all, what will I have to give up and what will I have to do, in order to make sure that we as a group will lead the way for our children, our parents, our animals, our plants, our earth - all Equal as One and within that, I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to wait for others to will lead the way for me, so that they will be the one who be killed/assassinate/murder and I could remain alive, doing my own things, not seeing, realizing and understanding that I'm preparing the way before me to give up on my principles and my stance if/when one of us will get killed/assassinated/murdered as I know within and as myself, that once that will happened, I'll be immobilized and wouldn't allow myself to continue the way after them.

I forgive myself that I've NOT accepted and allowed myself to see, realize and understand that by giving value and attention to the fear of being crucified within and as myself, I'm in fact creating the event inside my mind, as I've NOT accepted and allowed myself to realize how I'm the Creator of this reality and the relationship between my mind and the physical existence.

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to utilize the fear of being crucified as my stumbling stone for me to not move and direct myself and this world and to bring about a world that is best for all in all ways possible and I haven't accepted and allowed myself to realize that so long as I accept and allow myself to move and direct myself according to fears, I'm sabotaging not only myself, but this world as a whole as I'm willing to compromise everything and everyone in this world, to sustain my own desire for safe LIFE as I will not stand up as long as I consist of and exists as fear and in this, I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to compromise the lives of the majority of this world, because I wasn't able to give up the Fear of being crucified for the principle that I stand for as my own self interest of my own survival.

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself not to be direct in my communication with people that are not accepting and agreeing with that which I stand for because within and as me, the fear of being crucified resonant and I have thus, accepted and allowed myself to adjust and align myself with abusers, to not create a friction, to not trigger any evil spike within them that will lead to my death. Within that, I see realize and understand how through shaping and moulding myself to be accepted by society through the fear of being crucified if I won't, I'm sabotaging and compromising our lives as a whole and in that, giving permission to the fear to dictate our lives and existence as a whole.

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to fear speaking up in common sense because common sense as that which is best for all is the opposite from everything that we have ever taught to believe and be because what we have become, is a self interest desire for our own survival with no consideration of everything and everyone as a whole. And thus, I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed the fear that is existent within and as me, to be my directive principle where I will compromise and shut up and won't speak/stand up when and as I see that a point must be directed, must be understood, clarified and explained.

Fear of being Crucified - Day 109

 

Recently I was seeing more and more within and as myself the fear of being crucified, literally, for standing up for a world that is best for all.  Throughout History, those who stood up in the intent to make a real and substantial change in this world, were murder and/or Crucified; and as I was looking deeper at what will it takes, what will I have to do and what will I have to give up within my Journey to bring about a world that is best for all, I started seeing the extent of my Journey as well as the Journeys of those who are walking with me - The Destonians; and with that, the fear emerge slowly but surely into my Conscious mind.

 

17 years ago, the Israeli Prime minister, Rabin, was murder in a Peace Convention. It was a few moments after he step down from the stage, singing the Peace Song, that he got Shot by a Religion Fanatic.

 

49 years ago, the 35th President of the United States, John Fitzgerald Kennedy, was assassinated due to his steps to stop the cycles of abuse caused by the Elite of this world.

 

2012 Years ago, Jesus was crucified for standing up by the Principle of Give as you'd like to Receive and Love your Neighbour as yourself.

 

When I was doing a Google search today, I was very much surprise on the amount of world leaders that were assassinated/murdered/killed for the cause of what they have stood within and as. Will one of us will be the next one?

 

Why is it, that when and as a group of people presents a solution for this world, all the forces are in the process of assassinating the principle of that which is best for all? I mean, look at the Desteni's Haters that represents the Evil that drives us as humanity to never allow any change that is in fact, best for ALL. Look at those who are against the Equal Money System, not willing and daring to look after anything and anyone other than themselves. And here we are, The Destonians, the Group that will lead the way for a practical and physical change that the minority won't necessarily likes because it will place them in a position of Equals instead of where they are now, in a position of power and control over the majority that is suffering on the Elite's expense.

 

In this, yes, I'll be frank, there is fear within and as me, a fear that I've programmed myself to exists within and as, a fear that each and everyone of us unconsciously possessed, the fear that keeps us immobilized to in fact change who and what we have become to eventually change who and what this world have become.

 

In the Blogs to come, I will walk the Self Forgiveness Process within the starting point of releasing the preprogramed fear that control, enslave and direct me so that I will take the next step, in absolute self trust, of Standing, no matter what, even if it means that I will have to die for that which I stand for and as. Because, What was already been established - I am the one who decide and I decide - TO STAND FOR ETERNITY FOR THAT WHICH IS BEST FOR ALL.

 

If we won't break down the fear, nothing is worthwhile. Fear is control and Control is not who I am.

So - time to embrace some courage and walk, without ever looking back and do, what ever is necessarily to be done, until it is done.

They are Better than me, I'm so fucked up - Day 95

This is a continuation to the Blog post:

The Self Diminishment Character - Day 94

 

Within this Blog, I will Walk the Process of Self Forgiveness:

 

I forgive myself that I've NOT accepted and allowed myself to see, realize and understand how and why I've created myself within and as the Self Diminishment Character as a data base for multiple Characters that I can choose from that will suit me the best in every given moment to serve One purpose only - My own Self Interest within and as a desire for an experience, either Positive or Negative.

 

I forgive myself that I've NOT accepted and allowed myself to see how I've created the Diminishment character within and as myself through an idea that I've created in my mind of who and what I should be in any given moment and as long as the picture/idea in my mind doesn't match the physical reality, I will not be satisfied with myself and within that, I forgive myself that I've NOT accepted and allowed myself to see, realize and understand that my own dissatisfaction from myself is through comparing myself to the idea/picture in my mind through projecting the idea/picture onto other people in my environment wherein through those people, I will activate the Cycle where I access self diminishment through first becoming Jealousy, then spiteful in finding fault in them, move to elevate myself for a moment until I go back to comparison, self diminishment, jealousy, spitefulness and the cycle continue. Thus, I commit myself to when and as I see myself accessing the comparison towards another human being, to sustain the idea/picture I hold within myself in my mind, to STOP, Breathe, and to not accept and allow myself to follow the back chat, move through the character, delete the idea/picture that I have about myself in my mind and Stand Here, as who I am, as Life that is here.

 

I forgive myself that I've NOT accepted and allowed myself see and realize how I've manifested the Diminishment character wherein I will first create and idea as picture in my mind of who and what I should become and who and what I see myself within my world and my environment; when a being in my environment challenge my perception of myself as the idea/picture in my mind, I immediately access comparison and competition with that person, not seeing, realizing and understanding that this being is standing as a mirror of my own comparison toward myself to the idea/picture I have about myself in my mind. and thus, because I haven't realized that I'm comparing myself to myself and I believe that it is all about the other person, I access jealousy; when and as I'm in this LOW and NEGATIVE energy charge, I will seek for ways to balance that emotions and elevate myself through finding faults within and as the other human being based on past memories that I hold onto them for that exact moment where I could use the memory against them, to create a positive feeling. But than, as I push myself to find the fault, there is a voice within and as me that remind me that I have failed an thus a failure, how wrong and unworthy I am and so - I go back to the Negative emotional charge but of course, I will not allow myself to stay there and I'll keep on looking for faults in the other being so that I can access the positive energetic charge again until… the experience of "I'm so bad, I'm unworthy, they are better than me" is in complete possession and I've absolute integrated with and as the diminishment character.

 

I forgive myself that I've NOT accepted and allowed myself to see, realize and understand that for the Self Diminishment Character to Exists, the Comparison and Competition Character must Exist and I haven't accepted and allowed myself to realize that I've been missing a critical point all along - Instead of comparing and competing with other beings in my world and my reality, I'm able to expand and grow myself through Learning from other people within the understanding that in order to develop the skills that those whom I compare myself with has, I require to walk a time Line in space/time physical reality. Within that, I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to create my self existence within and as the Diminishment Character and within that, enslaved and trapped myself within and as a infinite cycle where I will never see, realize and understand Who I am and my utmost potential as a Physical Living Human Being as I was busy comparing myself to others, not giving myself the possibility to in fact expand and grow myself through others that are standing as an example of who I am able to be and become within and as the principle of Oneness and Equality.

 

I forgive myself that I've NOT accepted and allowed myself to see, realize and understand that so long as I give myself the permission to diminish myself within and as my mind and within that, not accepting and allowing myself to grow and expand myself as a Physical Living Human being, I will remain trapped within and as my own mind not ever be able to step out of my mind as I'll be busy judging myself and be hard on myself and never in fact change.

 

I forgive myself that I've NOT accepted and allowed myself to realize the cycle of Self Sabotage that I've created within and as the Self Diminishment Character wherein, instead of standing within and as a principle of Oneness and Equality and learn from the people in my environment, that have proven that change is possible through a decision that that they have made to assist and support themselves to step out of their character and become LIFE that is best for all, I had allowed myself to compare myself to them within the attempt to WIN my validation, gratification and glorification without ever realizing that I can Never be more than who I am, I can never be More than who others are and that within and as this game/movie that we have created within and as a decision that we have made very long time ago to trap ourselves for eternity to and as our mind, the only solution is to wake us all up, stand together in Equality and Oneness and change who and what we have become according to ONE principle - that which is best for all within which, we'll stand up together and change our creation to and as LIFE that is Equally best for all.

The Secret War between Women - Daughter in War with Authority - Part 4 - Day 56

This is a continuation to:

The Secret War between Women - Overview - Day 52

The Secret war between Women - the Childhood years - Part 1 - Day 53

The Secret War between Women starts at home - Part 2 - Day 54

The Secret War between Women - Mother Daughter relationship - Part 3 - Day 55

 

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to create an inferiority response pattern to authority figures in my life from my first encounter with my mother's imposed authority onto me as a child and I have NOT realized that I've imprinted the response pattern into my physical and lived it out as back chat throughout my life when and as I felt threatened by a female's authority and have thus then, allowed the secret thoughts towards the female without even realize that I had no directive awareness in that moment and I was blindly following my pre-programming and within that, I forgive myself that I have NOT accepted and allowed myself to take my responsibility to investigate and introspect the origin/source of the subconscious backchat that I've manifested towards a female that I perceived as authority and simply accepted it to be natural response that comes up from within me.

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to react in a form of backchat/internal conversation/thoughts towards women that I perceive to have authority over me and I haven't stopped for a moment to bring the point back to myself, to investigate the origin of the resistance and the core of my allowed backchat, because If I would investigate, I would see how I've accepted and allowed a specific  response pattern in relation to authority figures  already in my childhood years where I've resisted my mother's authority and have thus externalized the resistance towards all women that represent my mother according to my eye's view, in separation of me.

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself as a child in this world to experience myself as inferior towards my mother because I've accepted the authority of my mother as valid, normal and natural and thus, have created a relationship with her that is based on authority/submission which within that, I forgive myself that I've NOT accepted and allowed myself to see, realize and understand that my acceptance of me as inferior during the age of 0-7, has become a physical memory that is in the flesh of my beingness which I've externalized within my relationship with women to such an extent that when and as I experience myself threatened, the memories from my subconscious mind will come up as a backchat/internal conversation/ thoughts towards a woman while I had no real understanding of the origin/core/source and thus, lived out the secret war between Woman - internally and externally.

I forgive myself that I've NOT accepted and allowed myself to stand up and stop the inferior response pattern to authority and allowed myself to react every time I've faced a being that I've perceived to be superior/has authority on me and within that, I forgive myself that I've NOT accepted and allowed myself to realize that unless I stop pattern by pattern, I will pass on the very same patterns to my children and they will pass them on to their children and thus, it is my responsibility to stand up, change myself and thus change the future of the generations that will comes after me by giving them a chance to express who they are without me imposing my own programmed designs onto them but rather stand as a stable support for them within their processes of becoming and standing as LIFE.

I commit myself to stop the inferiority response  to authority pattern as I realized how I've initially created the pattern as a child and my responsibility within and the consequences it if I won't stop, delete and correct myself as the outflows upon the generation to come.

I commit myself to take my responsibility and check and investigate every reactions, response, physical body movements and eyes movement that I have automated without my directive awareness and search for the source/origin/core point where I've initially created the pattern and accordingly delete and continue walking breath by breath.

I commit myself to show how and why in the first 7 years of the child's life, the child is creating and developing one's personalities through the examples of the patterns   and why thus, it is important to have programs to support all parents with having appropriate parenting skills so that we could stop passing on, generation after generation, patterns that do not support any LIFE and instead provide the children to come a LIFE that is actually worth living where they could express themselves as who they are.