I've been looking at
this point for quite a while. In fact, I started looking at it when I saw that
I am holding past mistakes against people whom I judged, and in doing so, I saw
that I didn't support them to move to a point of change.
For example, the
judgement could come through a point of 'expectation' meaning, expecting
someone to not change because their past action showed that their application can't be trusted. I
saw that I was expecting people to fail
in changing a pattern they have been struggling to change and instead of
holding their utmost potential of who they are, I've been reacting to the fact
they haven't been changing.
But interestingly
enough - what I did not see was how at the same time I've been expecting them
to fail, I failed. That was because I always reacted to them not changing lol.
And in that reaction, I didn't move myself to a point of change in the sense of
stop reacting and stand as a point of support for them, with the pattern they
are struggling to change.
IN other words, it
was never about them not changing, it was about me not changing that I was
mostly reacting to.
In looking at these
things, another question came up. I usually don't ask metaphysical level
questions because I can't answer the questions for myself but this one was
interesting because the possibility the answer was 'yes' was big enough
motivation for me to explore this option. I asked: "Is the reason why they
don't change is because I'm not changing my reaction to them not
changing?"
So now that the
focus shifted completely to me I was looking at my self-honesty, responsibility
and empowerment, and asked: where do I keep myself captive in my own mind? What
are the patterns that I'm struggling to change? What ideas or judgement do I have
about myself through which I keep myself locked in my own mind?
I turned the point
back to myself and explored and still exploring and investigating the moments
of self-judgement where I keep myself captive in my own mind and thus not
allowing myself any moment of grace that could actually lead to a point of real
time change.
It
is actually this blog post that is the introduction to a blog series that I
wrote: "Do I have the right to judge myself?". I will continue discussing and sharing more as it comes and for
now, let's have a look or even make a list of all the moments we've been
keeping ourselves captive in our minds due to self-judgement we've accepted and
allowed to beLIEve to be real. Then, we'll set ourselves free from our own
judgement with the support of specific self-help tools we can each apply for
ourselves - Self Forgiveness, commitment to change and most importantly, the
follow through with our commitment to change until we have, no matter how long
it will take.
Thanks.
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Artist: Simon Birch
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