The Mastery of Memories Manipulation - Day 426

A few days ago, Gian and I were talking about Physical Integration and we were looking at ways to explain the concept of 'Physical Integration' to someone who have never heard about it before. So we were playing with the point and Gian asked me to use my imagination and go back to my first driving lesson and so I did - I went back to my first driving lesson and "re-lived" the memory within and as myself.

 

Now, for context - My first driving lesson was in Israel where we drive on the right side of the road and the wheel is at the left side of the car. In the past few years, I've been living in South Africa and here we drive on the left side of the road and the wheel is at the right side of the car.

 

When I accessed the memory of my first driving lesson, a fascinating thing happened - as Gian took me through the time line and I was experienced myself in my first driving lesson, I remembered how my driving teacher in an instant of a moment asked me to change from second to third gear and I could remember the specifics of how I felt insecure because I never done is before and I remembered how I looked at the gear with confusion of "what now?!" and as I was looking at the gear and at my teacher - I realized: "Hey, there is something wrong with this memory" -  I was driving on the left side of the road, the wheel was at the right side of the car and my driving teacher was sitting to my left side.

In that moment when the teacher asked me to change gears and I was looking at the gear and then at him - I was looking at the gear from the right side of the car and then looked at my driving teacher who set to my left. Physically, it is not possible when you drive in Israel.

 

As I've mentioned, the memory was very vivid, even though it was 16 years ago; I believed that I literally accessed the specifics of that moment, what I felt, what I did, how I experienced myself and so forth. I could swear that this was exactly what happened in that moment and yet - it was not; because the positioning of me, the road, the wheel, the gear and the driving teacher were completely opposite to the physical reality where there is absolute certainty that I drove on the right side of the road while sitting on the left side of the car, the gear was to my right as well as the driving teacher.

 

What is showing here is an example of how we unconsciously manipulate our memories. In this specific scenario, I manipulated the memory to fit with my current environment where I adopted the positioning of driving in my memory to how it is done in South Africa.  Fascinating enough, I just checked by accessing the memory of driving for the first time again I still see myself driving the opposite from how I drove in the physical reality.

 

This raise the question - can we really trust our memories? How can we be certain that we haven't manipulate our memories in other instances? How can we be certain that what we remember is what was? How many times we experienced a friction with others because we absolutely believe that we remember something while the other is absolutely convinced that they remember something else?

 

This is a very good example for us to take a moment to revisit our blind belief in our own memories because obviously, the example that I shared here clearly show that there is a manipulation going on within ourselves without us even being aware of it. The next question is - if we cannot trust our own memories, what can we trust? This is a big question with a very simple answer - we can only trust that which is here. What does it practically implies? This will be a blog series by itself…

 

(Physical integration in a nutshell  - when we no longer have to think about what we do but trust our natural ability to do something. So for example - how for instance we didn't know how to drive a car the first time we were taught to drive a car but over the years and with physical repetition of driving, we can now drive home without having to think about all the physical movements we require to do like for example, changing gears, checks the mirrors, push the gas pedal, clutch pedal and so forth - all of that is done by us automatically without a conscious thinking about what we need to do when driving a car)

 

 

 

Manipulation and voice tonality - Day 423

In the last few days, I started going more into depth within my investigation - who I am in relation to Voice Tonalities and last night a new point opened up - I was talking on the phone with a someone I've known my entire life  and over the years, I started developing specific reactions in relation to specific voice tonality which I've interpreted as Manipulation. Thus, when/as I heard this specific sound/voice, I shifted within myself where I would  be uncertain as to how to direct the conversation from that moment onwards because I believed that the words the being is speaking are taint with manipulation. These reactions are so minute that unless Sunette asked me whom I was talking with and asked me to go back to the conversation to see any slight reaction, I wouldn't even consider the moment and wouldn't see the reaction I allowed within myself.

 

What I have not considered was that by interpreting the sound, the voice tonality as manipulation, I didn't actually hear the other being, I didn't embrace the other being because I was in that moment going into my mind, "protecting" myself from what I believed to be manipulation, not taking the other person into consideration wherein for them, it won't be conscious manipulation or it won't be manipulation at all - it could be a simple point of how they express themselves in that moment in the context of who they are and the process they are walking.

 

So I started looking at my memories with people that I was reacting to when I perceived their words, the tonality/sound of the words to be manipulation and how within the reaction that I've accepted and allowed in these moments, I was only looking at what they were saying from my mind, not actually physically hearing them and thus, not practically supporting them within the point they are facing. It is interesting that in these moments of reactions to perceived manipulation, I would become aggressive, tough and blunt, not considering them, who they are, where they are within their process and so forth. Obviously, my behavior created friction and conflict within our relationship which does not support any of us.

 

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to interpreted specific sound/voice tonality as manipulation and within that, creating an idea within my mind that every word the other is speaking is no longer valid as it is taint with manipulation. In this, I forgive myself that I've NOT accepted and allowed myself to see, realize and understand that through defining a specific voice tonality to be manipulation, I invalidated the other person and made them less than who they are within my mind, not allowing myself to really hear what they are saying, where they are within their process, who they are in relation to the words they are speaking and more importantly, not investigating who I am in relation to the context of what they are saying.

 

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to blame and judge the other for trying to manipulate me according to a specific sound/voice tonality that I've defined as manipulation. The interesting thing is that so long as I accepted and allowed myself to react to a specific voice tonality that I've defined/associated with manipulation, I have not investigate who I am in relation to this voice tonality and whether or not I was the one who is using this sound/voice tonality to manipulate a specific moments/people in a moment. Within this, I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to divert my attention towards other people 'faults' (believing that they are manipulating me) wherein 'their fault' is a fault that I've created within my mind as a smoking screen from which I cannot see who I am in relation to the 'fault' I've projected towards them.

 

I forgive myself that I've NOT accepted and allowed myself to be gentle, comforting, attentive in moments where I believed that the other is indirectly saying something to me as I perceived their voice tonality to be manipulative. In this, I forgive myself that I've NOT accepted and allowed myself to physically hear what the other is saying, the context of what they are saying and expressing, who they are in relation to the context of what they are saying and so forth. Within this, I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself within the starting point of reaction to a specific voice tonality which I defied as manipulation, to not consider the other human being and the consequences thereof where I would slowly but surely developed resistance speaking to them so that I won't have to face these discomfort moments where I believed to be manipulated by them.

 

I forgive myself that I've NOT accepted and allowed myself to face myself in moments of reactions towards specific sound/voice tonality which I have defined/associated with manipulation but instead, I developed resistance towards these people and created a friction within my relationship with these people which in essence means that instead of facing my reactions and moving to the physical correction application, I resisted these people that activate the reaction within me without ever stopping to investigate who I am in relation to this reaction and the resistance I have developed towards these people.

 

I commit myself to become aware of every and all slightest movement within the nature of reaction to/towards specific voice tonality that I've defined as manipulation and to - when and as I see myself reacting to what I perceived to be manipulation, to stop, take a breath, bring myself back to my physical body and to embrace the other being within myself to be able to physically hear what they are saying within the context of who they are within their own process and who I am in relation to what they are saying.

 

I commit myself to become consciously aware of the changes in the voice tonalities that I'm expressing, to assist and support myself in my process of change. I see, realize and understand that when/as I'm expressing myself with a fluctuation  in my voice tonalities while I was not consciously making the decision to change my voice tonality, it is a flag for me to see that I'm not absolutely here but somewhere in my mind and thus require to stop, change my starting point, clear myself and move on.

 

Please also read:

Reacting to Voice Tonality - Day 421

Inferiority and voice tonality - Day 422

Manipulation - The art of Control (Part 2) - Day 419

A comment I received on my previous blog:

 

I do not see the point of manipulation and control in saying: "Where do you want to park the car? It's just a question to coordinate the intentions of you both.

I see manipulation and control rather in the pushy way of saying: "please park in the under parking because…"

 

Perspective:

 

What I have shared yesterday was the point I've seen within and as myself in that specific moment where I had a specific agenda of where to park and I wasn't direct about it within the way I structured the question. My starting point was not to coordinate the intentions of us both, my starting point was to control the event to suite a desirable outcome that I've have schemed in my mind without sharing my intention with another.

 

The manipulation is from the perspective of - I knew specifically where I wanted to park when I asked her where she planned to park and I didn't want her to give me an answer that won't suite my desirable outcome so I continued with the manipulation by using specific voice tonality when I said that I need to buy a fabric softener because I knew that she will calculate the route and see that the underground parking is the best place to park. In neither of these 2 statements was I direct and said - 'in terms of what we need to do in the mall, it is best to park in the underground parking" but I rather structured my statements/questions in a way that indirectly the outcome would be what I wanted it to be.

 

The point you brought up of  "coordinate the intention of both" is a cool solution of moving from Controlling and event  to mutual agreement, and that is done by being direct with one another from the starting point of really considering each other, considering what each have to say and accordingly, both make a decision that is best for both.

 

So remember, this is an example that I've seen myself participating with and I see it more and more within how I'm communicating with others. I see it in movies, in the media, as well as memories that came up of past relationships and friendships - I was never direct in my communication and I always used manipulation to get what I wanted.

 

For myself, I was taught as child to not be direct in communication with others because seemingly, being direct is rude in our culture. As a derivative, I was basically indirectly  taught to manipulate from the perspective of learning to get what I wanted by not being direct about it.

If one would look in self-honesty and investigate the point, one would find that in many cases where we ask for instance:  "Would you mind…"; "What would you prefer?"; "What do you want?"; "I don't care, what ever you decide" -  in our secret mind we know exactly what we want, we want a specific outcome but we don't want others to think that we have a secret agenda because they might judge us or disagree with us and so we first 'test the water' so to speak, assess the dynamic and then decide how to approach the point to get to our desirable outcome.

It is rarely that we are asking these question from a genuine starting point where we consider the other before we consider ourselves and/or when we genuinely don't have a specific preference our a specific outcome in mind. It is seldom that we don't have a specific agenda that we will either push or let it go, dependent on the other response to our indirect question and the nature of our relationships with another and who we are within that relationship.

 

So yes, I agree - looking at the specific example that I shared - a practical correction would be to speak directly and share my intention to coordinate it with the other intentions and accordingly, both walk the practical application of what is best for both in that specific moment.

Manipulation - the Art of Control - Day 418

Continuing with discovering the Art of Control that we so much got used to and without our direct awareness are walking our life within the starting point of Control. In the Previous 2 blogs I was showing examples of how we control specific situations in our lives, as a reaction within ourselves to a specific outcome and how little do we actually embrace moments in assisting and supporting ourselves to step out of our mind and actually investigate and discover who we are in relation to these moments.

 

Today, I will share a short story of a moment that had happened a few weeks ago, a moment that opened up for me an entire ray of pre-programming that I became aware of.

Esteni and I went to the mall and while we were driving there, I remembered that I needed to also buy a fabric softener in a specific store. To understand the time line of events, I have to give you an idea about this mall lol. This mall is not structured effectively from the perspective of - to cross the mall from one end to the other, you have to walk quite a bit and if you don't have much time, you have to calculate everything specifically to be able to manage your time effectively. The store that I wanted to go to is in the other side of where Esteni and I planned to go to and so, I asked Esteni: "Where do you want to park the car?" but what I really wanted to say was: "please park in the under parking because I need to buy a fabric softener". Before she answered my questioned, I made sure that I will get the answer that I wanted to get and to thus, control the decision to suite my momentary desire. So I said to her: "I'm asking because I would like to go to Dis-chem to buy a fabric softener". Esteni said "Ok" and I felt quiet weird within myself so I took a moment to investigate why the hell I couldn't be direct? Why wasn't I direct by saying: "please park in the under parking because…"?

 

When investigating the point I have realized that: "OMG" my entire design of communication is of Control and to Control I had to use manipulation. One would think that this is not a big point because no one is getting hurt from such "small manipulation" though, looking at my entire life, how I communicated with people, how I tend to get what I wanted without being direct, by manipulating my environment to get this "little" points as a desired outcome of events.

 

So I kept investigating and I looked at fears from the perspective of - What is the Fear through which I have programmed myself to communicate indirectly with other human? Is it that bad to get 'No' as an answer? Is my Ego will crash if I be direct and get a 'No' as an answer? Is it that I fear that others will see me as control freak? Is it that I don't want to be perceived pushy?  Gush, this was a revealing point in my process - to see how I have structured my communication with people by manipulating moments to be able to control a moment according to how I wanted the moment to play out.

 

Obviously there are many dimensions that are connected to the pattern of not being direct in a communication, which I will write about in the future though, here, what we must become aware of is our tendency to indirectly attempt to control a moments.

 

The fascinating thing was that - when I shared with Esteni what I've seen myself doing, she suggested that I will correct the statement and ask her directly to park in a specific place. You cannot believe how hard it was for me. I felt embarrassed to speak the question directly; I have tried so many times to structure one simple question in a direct way and nothing authentic came up. This showed my how rooted this design is within me - this is how I have expressed myself throughout my entire life so now when I attempted to speak directly, I met with resistance because, as all of us know, change usually start with resistance. So now that the point is 'here', I'm assisting and supporting myself to change the design that I've created as myself and be direct in my communication - there is no magic cure, it is a process that started with a decision to will myself to be direct with myself and others and I commit myself to moment by moment assist and support myself to change my living application, as a living expression of myself where I no longer accept and allow myself to communicate indirectly but instead, assisting and supporting myself to stand as expression of integrity in every given moment within clear and direct communication.

Capitalism and Ignorance is Bliss - Consuming Kids (Part 2) - Day 317

 

Illustration by Isabelle Arsenault

 

This is a continuation to:

Capitalism and Ignorance is Bliss - Day 315

Capitalism and Ignorance is Bliss - Consuming Kids (part 1) - Day 316

 

Problem No.2

Physical Health - Obesity Epidemic

 

Children are exposed to Mass Marketing of Sweats and Candies, Beverages and Foods with no real Nutrition Values from the moment they entered this world.

While the parent Beliefs one is reading their Child a Book that would enhance the Child's Communication, imagination and Language skills, one does not take into consideration the hidden and indirect advertisement existent in the Book's Illustrations that would influence the Child's Nutrition Choices, later on in one's Life and therefor, one's Health and Well-Being. What was supposed to be a tool of Education and Entertainment for children, transformed into a Marketing Place for the Big Corporations.

 

The US food system is the second largest advertiser in the American economy through the massive Marketing over the television, newspaper, magazine, billboard, and radio advertisements - All of which would determines one's Life without one being aware and Conscious about one's Decisions and Choices one is so dearly protest to be Free.

However, what is more concerning is the 'In-School Marketing' that includes Commercial Activities, Direct advertising and indirect advertising and Market Research with Students:

 

* International Journal of Behavioral Nutrition and Physical Activity

 

Since the 80s, Obesity in Children at the ages of 6-19 has roughly TRIPLED:

 

Source: Childhood Obesity - US Department of Health & Human Services.

 

A literature review by Kaiser Family Foundation highlighted a number of studies that suggested that advertising influenced dietary and other food choices in children, which likely contributed to energy imbalance and weight gain. It is not surprising that Half of the advertising time on Children's TV is devoted to Food Advertising and  While fruit and vegetables as well as grains and beans are rarely aired.

 

The Marketing of the Food ads are done through 'Persuasive Appeals' such as Taste, Fun and Uniqueness. Often, Incentive are introduced like for instance McDonalds' Children Happy Meal that comes with all sorts of Games and Puppets but most importantly, the most beneficial Persuasive Appeal is through connecting the products with the Children's 'Feelings' which would Develop, Create and Design the Child to become an Effective Present and Future Consumer.

Unfortunately, what is not Seen, Realized and Understood is that Advertising directed at children within Persuasive Appealing Technics is by its very nature, Exploitative and unacceptable.

 

Obesity is a significant health problem which the Corporation Elite are form a direct part in it within our Profit Driven Capitalistic System. Obesity can lead to high Health Risk conditions such as Heart disease, stroke, High blood pressure, Diabetes, Cancer and etc.

Within that context, I suggest following Paul's Journey to Life who is working with the Consequences of high level of Sugar intake as a child that had led him to a life with Diabetes Type 1.

 

While the Research indicate specifically the correlation and relationship between Advertisement and Obesity, not much has been done to Prevent the Problem and Support with a Solution that would stop the Harm and Abuse of the Generations to come.

 

Another Problem is the Legitimate Continues Harmful Advertisement through the First Amendment of the United State's Constitution within the realm of commercial free speech. In other words, the First Amendment allow the Big Corporations make the kids suffer from Physical Health problems with a life long Consequences.

The Food and Media Corporation have repeatedly stated that their Advertisement is protected speech under the First Amendment and therefore, up until today, all attempts to Ban TV Commercials targeting Children in the US have failed  regardless the Research that were done, showing that if such era will arise where TV commercial Ads would be banned, we will see dramatic decline of Obesity cases.

 

While Children have no Real Free Choice in what they are being exposed to either at home or at their Environment, we have the power to stand up for a solution that would Prevent a future and much worsen Epidemic to a point of no Return. The Solutions are available and all we have to do is to Decide to walk the correction Process. 

 

Will Continue in the next blog to uncover the Mental Health Problems in relation to Advertisement which from there, I will move Forwards to the Solutions.

 

For further Context and thus Understanding, I suggest Reading and Watching:

Aleksey Graboviy, Consumerism and Its Dangers to Children: A Call for Regulation in Advertising (PDF)

Consuming Kids

Branding Children: Marketing Techniques

International Journal of Behavioral Nutrition and Physical Activity

Childhood Obesity - US Department of Health & Human Services

W Gantz, N Schwartz, J Angelini, and V Rideout, Food for thought: television food advertising to children in the United States, Kaiser Family Foundation, 2007, viewed 9 September 2010

Paul's Journey to Life

effects of junk food advertising on childhood obesity

Childhood obesity, advertising and the first amendment

Capitalism and Ignorance is Bliss - Consuming Kids (part 1) - Day 316

This is a continuation to:

Capitalism and Ignorance is Bliss - Day 315

 

 

Problem No.1

 

For further Context and thus Understanding, I suggest Reading and Watching:

Aleksey Graboviy, Consumerism and Its Dangers to Children: A Call for Regulation in Advertising (PDF)

Consuming Kids

Schor, J. B. (2004). Born to buy. New York: Scribner

A Woman's Journey to Life - Brainwashed consumers – Part 1 – Day 19

Bachmann Achenreiner, G., & Roedder John, D. (2003). The meaning of brand names to children: A developmental investigation. Journal of Consumer Psychology 

 

Over the Years, the Corporate Profit Driven Capitalism, have evolved itself by utilizing psychologically targeted persuasive technique. That was done with the assistance of Support of Edward Bernays that had showed the American corporations how to make people want things they didn't need by linking mass produced goods to their unconscious desires. (I suggest watching the Documentary 'Century of the Self' for further Understanding of how we have been Brainwashed by the Corporations and those in Power and Control and thus blindly followed our Desires that are/were not even our own).

Throughout the Evolution of the Corporate Marketing, they had perfected their Techniques through extensive Manipulation tactics within the understanding of the Human's Functionality of the Mind into Consumerized Robots.

 

Research were conducted on the Human's Behaviour and Social trends within the starting point of what would produce the most Power and Money to the Corporations which then thus, the focus started to be on Children as not only the indirect Present consumers but the Direct Future Consumers. Accordingly, some Corporations abused this knowledge of the power of Persuasive and thus, could increase sales by Manipulating the Children in Advertisement and thus, indirectly forcing the parents to buy the goods for their children. Obviously, within a Profit Driven System, the Advertisements do not include the necessary information and Education that would provide the children and thus the Parents with the skills and tools to identify whether or not the 'Goods' would result with Harm either Mentally and/or Physically or whether, it may actually support them.

 

According to Juliet B. Schor (Schor, J. B. (2004). Born to buy. New York: Scribner):

The Estimation is that Children are exposed to about 100 Daily Commercials and thus, view, more than 40,000 a year. The Commercials are Designed specifically according to Components such as Gender, Race, Culture and Age which then thus, the influence of the Children's mind is highly Effective.

 

Research done in the 90ties shows that Children can reason and categorize objects on a conceptual basis

already at the age of 18 months old (Carey, 1985; Gelman&Coley, 1990; Mandler, Bauer,& McDonough, 1991) in other words, they are able to recognized Logos and Brand names.

For myself, when working with Children at these ages where they have already developing their Communication skills either with body Movements or Language to express their wants, needs and Desires are - unless you buy them the Dora Candy in the grocery store, you and the entire neighbourhood would hear the screaming of the baby that didn't get the Dora Candy.

 

Schor stating that:

"Upon arrival at the schoolhouse steps, the typical first grader can evoke 200 brands. And he or she has already accumulated an unprecedented number of possessions, beginning with an average of 70 new toys a year. "

http://bcm.bc.edu/issues/fall_2004/ft_schor.html

 

There is nothing Natural in the Development of a consumerism Society that is blindly abused by Deception and Manipulation of the Deliberate Unskilled individuals through Mass Marketing of the big Corporations. The Massive Brainwash start already at age 0 and without the understanding of the Relationship between the Mind and the Physical, no one is really understanding the consequences and the outflows that emerged in the long run and thus can directly connect it to the Corporate mass Advertisements that is currently protected by the First Amendment. This is unfortunate and saying that, I encourage you to start educating yourself with regards to the Relationship between the Mind and the Physical - Studies that no Scientist or Psychologist had ever reached before: Parenting - Perfecting the Human Race.

It is no wonder thus that our values system is distorted and we have no Consideration for LIFE, of those that make LIFE Possible and those who dies, day in and day out for our peruse of Happiness. Instead of Developing Real Life Skills and Intimacy with ourselves and others to become an Effective Human beings in this world that would contribute to the well beings of us all, the Children are forced to a Life of Materialism which follow a real Deep form of Ignorance which we then thus, Perceive and Define as Bliss.

 

Will Continue in the next blog to Expose the Problems in relation to Consuming Kids: Mental and Physical Health which would follow with the Presentation of Solutions Rewards within such application. So stay tuned.

Don't you Dare Manipulating me - Day 245

 

In my Previous blog, I started walking the point of Reacting to others and taking it personally when and as one is blaming me for their Negative experience.

 

As I wrote the Self Forgiveness statements, I've notice the multidimensionality of the Reaction point in how the reaction is varied according to a specific memory that I've stored within and as myself, throughout my life.

Thus, I will be walking and investigating how, why, when, where I react and to what, so that I can identify the points of reaction and within that, transform my application from Reaction to Prevention.

 

Within today blog, I will be investigating my reactions when and as I perceive another to manipulate me, directly or indirectly and within that, assist and support myself in standing stable when and as such instances occur because I realized that accepting and allowing myself to react to others is to accept and allow myself to disempower, diminish and compromise myself which is obviously not acceptable. But also, there is always 2 sides to the same coin and thus, another point to consider and investigate is when and as I'm the manipulator side. that will be walked in the next blog.

 

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to react in anger within and as myself, when I perceive another to manipulate me and within that, I haven't accepted and allowed myself to turn the point back to myself to see, that the reaction of Anger, has nothing to do with the other manipulating me or not, it has to do with me accepting and allowing myself to miss a breath, to allow myself to be manipulated and in that disempowering myself to the extent of which I would compromise not only myself but the other as well as I'm not standing as a pillar of support, in directing the moment within Common Sense Practical Consideration but I direct the moment within a dismissive, inferior position which I would then thus try to avoid by accessing a defense mode, attempting to diminish the other so that I won't experience my own victimization that I've accepted and allowed within and as myself.

 

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to React in Anger when and as I perceived another to manipulate me because by the time that I realize that I allowed myself to be influenced by another's manipulation, I blamed the other for manipulating me and accordingly, get angry at them, not seeing the actuality of how I projected the anger towards them as if they forced me to be manipulated, not seeing, realizing and understanding that it was me who decide to allow myself to be manipulated and the anger that I experience is actually towards myself for accepting and allowing myself to miss a breath and allow manipulation to influence my stance within and as myself. 

 

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to blame another for manipulating me instead of realizing that the source of this Blame is in fact anger towards myself for accepting and allowing myself to fall into their manipulation however, what I haven't realized that so long as I accept and allow myself to blame other for my experiences and/or, for what I have accepted and allowed within and as myself, I'm abdicating my responsibility to turn the point back to myself, seeing my responsibility within it and how I can prevent such instances and stand in stability and self trust and thus, direct the situation to the best for all outcome.

 

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself while and during my reaction when I perceive that another is manipulating me or the situation that involves me from the perspective of my self interest design that I created within and as myself to then, instead of STOP my reaction within and as myself, allocating my starting point and realign my starting point through and as the Principle of what is best for all and within that developing a common sense approach in how to direct such points that would result with the outcome that is best for all, I have accepted and allowed myself to try and attempt to take my power back from self interest starting point through diminishing the other, and prove them wrong and in that, keep my self interest intact, not seeing, realizing and understanding that in doing so, I compromise myself and the other through NOT standing as the directive principle but rather, allowing my emotions to take control and direct the situation for me.

 

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to react to another's manipulation of a situation because I fear that they will 'win' their argument and it will affect me in some way or another however, I haven't realized that when I accept and allow myself to react to another attempt to manipulate a situation, I disempower myself from the ability to direct the situation effectively, in supporting the other to see their participation in manipulation so that we could re-align our starting point in making an agreement of how we would resolve the situation and thus transform the friction and conflict as reactions to a solution that will stand in alignment to the principle of what is best for all.

 

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to judge and define another as manipulator because they have been manipulating me in the past and accordingly, haven't allowed myself to trust them as I accepted and allowed myself to hold onto grudge of the past event. In this, I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed my approach towards these beings to be from the get go, a defense mechanism approach and  thus, I would be alert and attentive and look for the spots of manipulation emerging so that I won't fall again and become manipulated. In this, I forgive myself that I've NOT accepted and allowed myself to turn the point back to myself in seeing, realizing and understanding that it was always me that had decided whether or not I allow myself to be manipulated and if anything, because I've accepted and allowed their manipulation in the past, I didn't stand as a support in showing them that they have accepted and allowed manipulation to exists within and as them. In this, Instead of developing self trust within and as myself, to effectively direct situation when another is manipulating and thus, support them to see what they have accepted and allowed within them, I created another program within and as myself to detect such manipulation and to automatically React in Anger, short temper and spite and accordingly, start to defend myself when it is occur. In this, I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to prepare myself to situation where I feel that another is manipulating me, through a program that I created within and as myself as Reaction where I would access a defense mode and attempt to prove the other wrong because I seemingly right instead of taking a breath, stop the reactions and direct the situation in common sense so that we can resolve the point to manifest the best for all outcome.

 

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to FEAR that another will manipulate me and their manipulation will affect me, as my self interest, in some way or another, and thus, I developed a defense mechanism as a reaction where I  will automatically access to, not seeing, realizing and understanding that while and during accepted and allowed reaction, I completely disempowered myself to practically direct a situation to produce the best for all outcome. In this, I forgive myself that I haven't accepted and allowed myself to trust myself to stand stable and clear when and as someone try and attempt to manipulate me or a situation that involves me, and within that self stability, to direct myself and the other according to a principle that would produce an outcome that is best for all.

 

I commit myself to further expand, open up and investigate reactions as I see, realize and understand that when accepting and allowing reactions to exists within and as me, I completely disempower myself and compromise myself, others and this world as a whole so long as I don't stand in self stability, breathing and direct the moment to the best for all outcome.

 

I commit myself to when and as I perceive another to manipulate me, to then stop, breathe and realign my starting point and in that, to make sure that I'm free from reaction and able to direct the moment to the best for all outcome as a principle.

 

I commit myself to when and as I see myself accessing anger towards another when I perceive them to manipulate me, to then stop, breathe, turn the point back to myself, let go of the energy possession of and as anger and remind myself that the anger is directed and towards myself for allowing myself to miss a breath and speak from a self interest reaction. I thus, make sure that I'm clear and only then speak.

 

I commit myself to assist and support myself in standing firm, stable and clear within and as myself, when and as I communicate with another, in any given moment.

 

 

Don't you Dare Blaming me - Day 244

 

 

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to react and access defense mode when and as someone is directly or indirectly blaming me for their Negative Experience and within that, I forgive myself that I've NOT accepted and allowed myself to Realize that when allow myself to React and take their Blame Personally, I accept and allow myself to embody energetic system into and as me, that I feed with my attention I give it through my emotions and feelings, which is really, a (re)act of insanity wherein, one is accepting and allowed oneself to embed energy systems that wasn't previously existent within and as oneself but now, making the system one's own, which now, one has a bigger problem as one has to go back, investigate one's acceptance and allowance and correct oneself.

 

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to program myself to (Re)act when someone is directly or indirectly blaming me for their negative experience that they have associated with me and within that, haven't investigated why and how I have programmed myself, when did I first stored and installed this program and what is the Self Interest starting point of this Programming because obviously, if I accepted this programming as myself, there was something i believed I would benefit from.

 

I forgive myself that I've NOT accepted and allowed myself to realize that if I react to another blaming me for their own Negative Experience, I do not stand as a pillar of support, both for myself and another because when I am in a reaction within a defense mode, trying to justify myself or fight for my righteous believes about myself and at the same time, the other will fight for their right to make their point while neither of us is actually inverting the points of reactions back to ourselves in seeing, realizing and understanding why and how we have accepted and allowed the reaction to exists within and as ourselves and accordingly, stand as the directive principle and make the decision to not accept and allow ourselves to participate in such reactions as we see, realize and understand that accepting and allowing these reactions to continue, we accept and allow ourselves to disempower and diminish ourselves which within that, become lesser version of ourselves than who we really are as an expression of ourselves.

 

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to program myself to react and take things personally when another is blaming me or having some sort of attitude towards my presence which within that, what I haven't considered and/or realized for myself is that when and as I take the other personally, I validate their experience by making it my own, and in that moment of acceptance and allowance, I disempower myself through not standing in stability and clarity, as Breath, within and as myself, and thus, cannot support myself or the other as I'm already in a mind fuck of my own.

 

I thus Commit myself to assist and support myself in investigating in depth the design of Reaction that I've created within and as myself and within that, investigate the multidimensionality of the design so that I could for once and for all, stop all reactions within and as myself, to assist and support myself to be and become an effective human beings in this world where I stand in any given moment as a pillar of support for myself and others.

 

I Commit myself to investigate the Reaction Games that I had accepted and allowed within and as myself to participate within the relationships that I have with other human beings in this world as I see now that when and as I accept and allow myself to react and take things personally, I accept and allow my own disempowerment, diminishment and thus, compromise of myself and others.

 

I Commit myself to Flag the points of Reaction when it occur and to remind myself that accepting and allowing myself to communicate while and within a reaction is useless and counterproductive and in no way a form of support for myself nor others.

Depression - Self Interest or a Real Physical Condition? - Day 221

This is a continuation to:

The Elite's delusion of stress - Part 1 - Day 45 The Elite's Delusion of Stress - Part 2 - Day 46 The Decision of TIME - Day 67 opy Paste Character - The Education System - Day 184 Is it possible to Cheat yourself? Day 185 It is time to STOP Existing as a Human Machine - Day 186 The End of Times - Day 187 Facing the Evil within - the KEY to LIFE - Day 188 Fear of Disappointing others - Day 189 The Psychology of TIME - Day 190 I Regret, therefor, I'm a Good Person. NOT!!! - Day 191 The REAL Fear - Day 192 The things we Won't tell ANYONE - Day 193 Missing out on the Good Life - Day 194 Let's have some Fun - Day 195

Stupidity Loop - Jumping from the Bad to the Good to the Bad - Day 196 The Smoke Screen of Ignorance - Day 197 Leaving in a Dream - Day 208 Having the Life Style you always dreamt to have - Day 209 IT is MY time Now - don't say a word - Day 210 Let's go on Vacation - Day 211 Comparison is a Bitch - Day 212 Damn, I will never have everything done - Day 213 Standing as an Example - Self Interest or Self Realization? - Day 214 From the Bossy to the Loser - Day 215 Jealousy and Frustration - I want the Life they Have - Day 216 The Poison within Irritation and Anger - Day 217 Judgement as self Perfection - Day 218 Impatience as Evilness - Day 219 Please feel Sorry for me - Day 220

 

 

For the purpose of context, suggest reading these posts above prior to reading the post below, if you haven’t already. Here I will be walking the 'I don't have TIME' Character - Reaction Dimension - Practical support with Self Forgiveness and Self Commitments.

 

 

Reactions Dimension:

* Jealousy

* Frustration

* Irritation

* Anger

* Judgment and Self Judgment

* Impatient

* Self Pity

* Depression

* Anxiety

* Stress

 

 

 

 

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Depression

 

One must understand that the context of what I've been walking in my last few blogs was Specifically within the context of the 'I don't have Time' Character. Today, I will be walking the Depression that I've accepted and allowed myself to participate with, within the 'I don't have Time' character.

 

I forgive myself that I've NOT accepted and allowed myself to see, realize and understand that the self created Depression that I've accepted and allowed to exists within and as me, when the 'I don't have time' character take the front, was done deliberately to justify the belief that I don't have time as Equal to and One as the accepted and allowed Self Pity design. (For more context, please read the previous blog - Please feel Sorry for me - Day 220).

 

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to believe myself when I felt Depressed because apparently, I didn't have time and within that belief, I've sabotaged, compromised and limited myself in actually looking at what is behind the Depression and how I was utilizing the depression as self manipulation to not face my own self interest desires that were activated within and as my mind, in the imagination domain. (For more Context, please read Stupidity Loop - Jumping from the Bad to the Good to the Bad - Day 196 and Leaving in a Dream - Day 208)

 

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to follow the feeling of Depression to justify why I took a moment for myself, to do nothing, and why it was 'ok' for me to neglect and compromise the things I committed myself to get done and instead went and do things to please my desire for entertainment because according to Society codes that I've accepted and allowed as myself, as a religion of myself, "it is valid to take a momentary 'break' when feeling Depressed; everybody does that".

 

I forgive myself that I've NOT accepted and allowed myself to see how I've manipulated myself and others within the Depression embodiment within the belief that I'm entitle to feel depressed because everybody does from time to time and therefor, I can take a moment and indulge within my self interest desires even though 'I don't have time' for it. Within this, I forgive myself that I've NOT accepted and allowed myself to consider the Physical reality but rather, trusted my mind within the experience of Depression to justify for myself that it's ok to take a momentary break and thus, have not realized, seen and understood that within that justification, my directive Principle is my Mind and not Me that moves equal and one as the physical as what is best for all. In this, I forgive myself that I've NOT accepted and allowed myself to see, that I do not require any form of manipulation to move myself in any given moment but rather, stand in self honesty, assess what would be best for all in a moment and accordingly move myself, without the mind telling me how I feel, what I should do, who or what I am

 

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to base my decisions according to how I perceive my Experience through my mind instead of trusting the Physical within the principle of what is best for all and move myself accordingly. Within this, I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to trust the experience of Depression, as if it is me, not seeing, realizing and understanding how I am the only creator of the depression within and as me and how I have used and abused myself in manipulating myself within the belief that I am depressed, to justify my fall into my own desires in the nature of self interest and to thus, compromise myself within giving up on that which I've committed myself to.

 

I forgive myself that I've NOT accepted and allowed myself to see, realize and understand how deliberate depression is, within and as me where I would give up on Life, on the Principle of what is best for all through justifying to myself my fall in the name of Depression that would entitle me to indulge and take the time I require to 'heal' myself from the depression because apparently, it wasn't me who decided to become depressed "because it is real and I could feel it" and within that, I forgive myself that I've NOT accepted and allowed myself to trust the Physical, to trust the Principle of what is best for all and instead, trusted my mind, in separation of me, within the belief that I'm experiencing Depression and that it is real because I can feel it.

 

I Commit myself to when and as I see myself accessing Depression, and now I'm referring whatever the reason for the self created depression is, not only in the context of 'I don't have time' character to Stop, Breathe, and remind myself why and How I've seen for myself that I've deliberately created depression to manipulate myself in not facing the real core/source/origin of the Depression as a cover-up to justify my desires in the nature of self interest. Within that, I commit myself to investigate and further expand the my SF application with regards to Depression within all the layers of the mind, for myself, and accordingly, to walk the correction process that is required to be walked, in self honesty/realization.

 

I Commit myself to Trust the Physical as what is here that I can cross reference and within that, to not trust the mind within the experience that I 'Feel' as I now see, realize and understand that whatever I feel and see through my mind is self created deception and it's not actual direct seeing of and as the Physical and if I accept and allow myself to trust my mind, I accept and allow the diminishment of myself, as living physical being and within that, in every moment that I accept and allow myself to base my decisions according to what I feel or see through my mind, I miss a breath and a window of opportunity to in fact change and walk, breath by breath, within and as the principle of that which is best for all lives.

 

I Commit myself to Establish Physical Self Trust within and as myself and to assist and support me in making decisions that are based on Physical cross referenced investigation rather than making decisions that are based on mind Trust as I've seen and proven to myself that I cannot trust my mind in anyway whatsoever.