Investigating Sexual Expression - Self Forgiveness - Part 2 - Day 122

This is a continuation to:

Sexual Expression – Overview  Day 112

Investigating Sexual Expression - Self Forgiveness Part 1 - Day 113

Investigating Sexual Expression - Self Commitments - Part 1 - Day 114

 

Investigating Sexual Expression - Part 2 - Day 121

 

I forgive myself that I've NOT accepted and allowed myself to see, realize and understand that the language that I speak and the associations/definitions/connotation that I have attached to words were all embedded within me through the fear definitions of those who have come before me and accordingly, the emotions and feeling that they have attached to specific words, resonated and imprinted into me. Therefor, I forgive myself that I've NOT accepted and allowed myself to realize that the embedded language that I've carried within and as myself, from those who have come before me, where the foundation of my existence of fear and through this foundation, all my memories that I've stored and used to create my own characters where the continuation of those who have come before me and essentially, who and what I have become as a total separated force that I've defined myself as, was nothing but memories that formed my characters without me ever realizing that all those memories and character were based on the fears of those who have come before me, which I have automatically accepted as me, and I would automatically pass on to my children and make sure that our AT-Most-Fear will ever remain with no actual change generation after generation.

 

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to define/attached/associated/connected a positive energetic charge to the words: Romance, Making love and Love and accordingly, every time I spoke/heard the words my human physical body has expanded in the belly towards the heart area and sense of breathing from the inside from my body has emerged as well as a smile was  spread on my face;

 

In this - I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to ignore the physical changes within and as my body when hearing/speaking the words Romance, Making Love and Love because as far as I concern, those words are positive and the feeling that I'm experiencing in my body is valid and acceptable and therefor, there is nothing I should pay attention to. Within that, I forgive myself that I've NOT accepted and allowed myself to raise a red flag to any physical changes that I'm experiencing when and as I'm not in fact the directive principle of the change/movement and there is something separated from me that is moving/changing me wherein I'm giving it full permission because it feels nice, warm and cosy within and as myself as my human physical body.

 

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to define a being as negative when and as one has taking the responsibility to question and challenge every single movement/change that emerge within and as one's human physical body because I've NOT accepted and allowed myself to investigate the driving force of the change/movement as I've not accepted and allowed myself to see, realize and understand the extent to which I've separated myself from myself as my human physical body and in this, I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to judge those who have taken their responsibility to become the driving force as the directive principle of themselves and their LIVES because I simply didn't understand what they are doing and normally, I judge that which I don't understand. Through this, I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to limit, compromise and sabotage myself through judging that which I don't understand because if I allow myself to understand and realize why and how am I require to take the responsibility and investigate each and every thought/movement/change within and as myself, I would change myself and through this change, I would have to give up the Positive feelings that I'm experiencing within and as myself and I don't want to do that because it feels good, cosy and warm within and as my human physical body.

 

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to be brainwash by those who have come before me wherein Making Love, Romance and Love is acceptable, valuable and validated while Sex and Fuck isn't and through this, I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to confuse the physical expressional act of 2 human being enjoying the physical act/expression with a different definition that I've attached to the words, in separation of me, not accepting and allowing myself to ever consider, WHO I am within and as the physical expression of 2 human being touching and exploring each other.

 

I forgive myself that I've NOT accepted and allowed myself to see how from a very young age I've been programming myself to seek for LOVE and Romance in separation of me, through the various kind and types of media that I was exposed to and therefor, I've accepted and allowed myself to separate myself from myself as my human physical body, believing that something out there can fulfil and complete me, never considering and realizing that it was ALWAYS here, as me, that fulfil and complete me in equality and oneness to myself as myself as the physical living expression that I am, in every moment of every breath.

 

Love is the greatest fear we ever invented which makes sure we never change the systems and ways that create fear and is the best protection fear can ever have to ensure its continuous existence. Bernard Poolman

 

I forgive myself that I've NOT accepted and allowed myself to see how I have created FEAR to exists within and as myself to the extent of which FEAR has become my driving force, my directive principle, that which will determine each and every single decision that I would ever make and in this, I've created LOVE as the opposite to my FEARS so that for a moment, I would be able to ignore and deny my fears that I'm experiencing within and as myself and through LOVE and Romance, I am able to Hide being my reality of Fear and never do anything to question, investigate and challenge my blind belief in my fears because apparently, there is someone else that fear exactly like me and within the principle of 2 and more in my name, here I am, I can validate my fears and never in fact change my existence and our existence as a whole.

 

 

More Self Forgiveness statements to come...

Investigating Sexual Expression - Part 2 - Day 121

This is a continuation to:

Sexual Expression – Overview  Day 112

Investigating Sexual Expression - Self Forgiveness Part 1 - Day 113

Investigating Sexual Expression - Self Commitments - Part 1 - Day 114

 

A few days ago, I was writing about the Negative Charge within the words Sex, Fuck and so forth and today, I will continue with looking and investigating the Positive Charge that we have attached for example, to the words: Romance, Making Love, Love etc.

 

It is interesting to see, how we are only working/writing/dealing with that which makes us feel uncomfortable and we disregards that which makes us feel good, better, superior. Meaning, why should I investigate that which makes me feel good? Why can't I only get rid of the negative feeling within and as myself? Why do I need to stop the positive energy within and as myself? I don't want to.. Lol. That is a common statement that I hear from many beings - "you are so negative! You have to fight the human nature with positivity! All you need is Love". Is it? If that is so, why we have defined sex and making Love with a polarity charge despite of the fact that it describe the same thing? And obviously, if Love is all we need, how come there is so much abuse in this world. (for context watch my vlog 2012 - LOVE Month - Is Love and Light the Solution?

The Polarity design of energy was explained in details in Earth's Journey to Life - Day 5: Redefining Words (Part 2) - Playing polarity games

 

Why is it that making LOVE is accepted and Sex/fuck isn't? I mean, seriously, that is the exact same thing. why are we reactive in a positive way to the words 'Making Love' and reacting in a negative way to the words sex/fuck?

 

So, why is it that Making Love and Romance is Ok? Is Positive? Is allowed? While the fact of the matter is that the physical act remain the same - 2 human beings fucking each other.. Lol

Why is it wrong to Make Love with ourselves? Why is it shameful to create an environment for ourselves, alone, candles in one's room, clean sheets, quite music, maybe some essential oil burners and simply touch ourselves, becoming intimate with our physical body? Why is it that when touching oneself in a warm, candle light, music environment is suddenly sound bad/wrong when we called the physical touch - Masturbation. Oh no, god forbid saying this word. 

 

In self honesty, one can look within oneself at the physical body changes when hearing the words Fuck vs. hearing the words Making love. The word Fuck comes with disgusted, constriction in the belly area, the face constricting as well and specifically in the mouth reign and our entire human physical body yells: "NO, it's awful, don't say that". However, when hearing the word 'Making Love' the body expand, like breathing from the inside, smile suddenly automatically emerge and warm and positive energy moves within and as us from the belly area towards the heart.  Fascinating isn't it?

 

This shows the extent of separation that we've allowed within and as ourselves in relation to how we LIVE the WORDS we speak and hear. How for each and every word we assigned/associated/connected/defined with either positive or negative charge. For more information with regards to the Living words and redefining of words, I suggest reading Earth's Journey to Life - Day 4: Redefining words - Part 1.

 

Within my following blogs, I will walk the positive energy charge that is associated to the word Love in relation to sex and masturbation through a process of self forgiveness and self corrective/commitments statements.