Investigating Sexual Expression - Self Forgiveness - Part 2 - Day 122

This is a continuation to:

Sexual Expression – Overview  Day 112

Investigating Sexual Expression - Self Forgiveness Part 1 - Day 113

Investigating Sexual Expression - Self Commitments - Part 1 - Day 114

 

Investigating Sexual Expression - Part 2 - Day 121

 

I forgive myself that I've NOT accepted and allowed myself to see, realize and understand that the language that I speak and the associations/definitions/connotation that I have attached to words were all embedded within me through the fear definitions of those who have come before me and accordingly, the emotions and feeling that they have attached to specific words, resonated and imprinted into me. Therefor, I forgive myself that I've NOT accepted and allowed myself to realize that the embedded language that I've carried within and as myself, from those who have come before me, where the foundation of my existence of fear and through this foundation, all my memories that I've stored and used to create my own characters where the continuation of those who have come before me and essentially, who and what I have become as a total separated force that I've defined myself as, was nothing but memories that formed my characters without me ever realizing that all those memories and character were based on the fears of those who have come before me, which I have automatically accepted as me, and I would automatically pass on to my children and make sure that our AT-Most-Fear will ever remain with no actual change generation after generation.

 

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to define/attached/associated/connected a positive energetic charge to the words: Romance, Making love and Love and accordingly, every time I spoke/heard the words my human physical body has expanded in the belly towards the heart area and sense of breathing from the inside from my body has emerged as well as a smile was  spread on my face;

 

In this - I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to ignore the physical changes within and as my body when hearing/speaking the words Romance, Making Love and Love because as far as I concern, those words are positive and the feeling that I'm experiencing in my body is valid and acceptable and therefor, there is nothing I should pay attention to. Within that, I forgive myself that I've NOT accepted and allowed myself to raise a red flag to any physical changes that I'm experiencing when and as I'm not in fact the directive principle of the change/movement and there is something separated from me that is moving/changing me wherein I'm giving it full permission because it feels nice, warm and cosy within and as myself as my human physical body.

 

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to define a being as negative when and as one has taking the responsibility to question and challenge every single movement/change that emerge within and as one's human physical body because I've NOT accepted and allowed myself to investigate the driving force of the change/movement as I've not accepted and allowed myself to see, realize and understand the extent to which I've separated myself from myself as my human physical body and in this, I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to judge those who have taken their responsibility to become the driving force as the directive principle of themselves and their LIVES because I simply didn't understand what they are doing and normally, I judge that which I don't understand. Through this, I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to limit, compromise and sabotage myself through judging that which I don't understand because if I allow myself to understand and realize why and how am I require to take the responsibility and investigate each and every thought/movement/change within and as myself, I would change myself and through this change, I would have to give up the Positive feelings that I'm experiencing within and as myself and I don't want to do that because it feels good, cosy and warm within and as my human physical body.

 

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to be brainwash by those who have come before me wherein Making Love, Romance and Love is acceptable, valuable and validated while Sex and Fuck isn't and through this, I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to confuse the physical expressional act of 2 human being enjoying the physical act/expression with a different definition that I've attached to the words, in separation of me, not accepting and allowing myself to ever consider, WHO I am within and as the physical expression of 2 human being touching and exploring each other.

 

I forgive myself that I've NOT accepted and allowed myself to see how from a very young age I've been programming myself to seek for LOVE and Romance in separation of me, through the various kind and types of media that I was exposed to and therefor, I've accepted and allowed myself to separate myself from myself as my human physical body, believing that something out there can fulfil and complete me, never considering and realizing that it was ALWAYS here, as me, that fulfil and complete me in equality and oneness to myself as myself as the physical living expression that I am, in every moment of every breath.

 

Love is the greatest fear we ever invented which makes sure we never change the systems and ways that create fear and is the best protection fear can ever have to ensure its continuous existence. Bernard Poolman

 

I forgive myself that I've NOT accepted and allowed myself to see how I have created FEAR to exists within and as myself to the extent of which FEAR has become my driving force, my directive principle, that which will determine each and every single decision that I would ever make and in this, I've created LOVE as the opposite to my FEARS so that for a moment, I would be able to ignore and deny my fears that I'm experiencing within and as myself and through LOVE and Romance, I am able to Hide being my reality of Fear and never do anything to question, investigate and challenge my blind belief in my fears because apparently, there is someone else that fear exactly like me and within the principle of 2 and more in my name, here I am, I can validate my fears and never in fact change my existence and our existence as a whole.

 

 

More Self Forgiveness statements to come...

Be the Change you want to see in this World - Overview - Day 71

This is a continuation to the blog -

Process of self perfection - overview - Day 70

I forgive myself that I've NOT accepted and allowed myself to practically stand as an example in this world within and as the principle of "Be the Change you want to see in this World" and I have refused to see, realize and understand that if I claim that I've changed without proving it within my breath by breath practical living application and cross reference the change within the physical reality, I haven't changed in fact but rather created an entity/personality as my EGO within the attempt to be defined as authority in this world, to claim for Power and control to sustain myself as Energy without having to stand within and as myself as Equal to and One as all that is here and to practically give up my self interest desires and direct myself and thus this world towards a place that is best for all LIFE as a living decision that I stand as and by.

I forgive myself that I've NOT accepted and allowed myself to see, realize and understand why and how the Spiritual Masters in this world are not, in any way whatsoever stand as an example for the change they claim they want to see in this world because if they would, they would have stand as a solution that is measurable, practical and physical and wouldn't accept and allow faith and hope to be their directive principle;

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to believe the politician that claim they want to see a change in this world, just before the elections and I haven't realized that for a change to manifest in this world, we MUST change the current world system to a system of Equality that consider all beings in this world.

Within that, I forgive myself that I've NOT accepted and allowed myself to see how we have blindly followed the statement "be the change you want to be in this world" coming from the politicians as we've placed faith and hope in others to bring about the change without us having to actually change; and thus, we gave our power away by trapping ourselves within the words the politicians speaks, without even knowing that those words are specific and were directed by the public relations specialist who have research and investigated how to brainwash the mass without the mass realizing it. For context - watch - 'Peace, Propaganda and the Promise Land' as well as 'Spywar', Century of the Self' and the 'Trap'.

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to believe that the parents in this world wants the best for their children despite of them not willing to change themselves according to that which is best for all as a directive clear decision that they stand by for eternity.

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself as a parent in this world to state that I want the best for my children and yet, not willing to practically become the change that I want to see in this world and thereby, assist and support myself to change, take responsibility for myself as the entirety of this world and within that, making sure that this world will become a place that is best for all children in this world, Equal and One.

I commit myself to stand as the example and change that I want to see in this world and to actually bringing that seeing into a practical and physical manifestation by assisting and supporting myself to change in fact, prove the change to myself, and to walk within a clear and absolute decision to change this world within doing what is necessary to be done within this ONE life time and to leave behind me a world that I would like my children to grow up in.

I commit myself to show, expose and explain in details within extensive writing, how faith and hope are in no way a practical change that will bring about a world that is best for all, a world that I would like to see myself and the generation to comes existing in.

I commit myself to show how the so called enlighten spiritual Masters do not stand as an example neither for their followers or any other being for that matter and in fact, they stand for and as the Elite in this world, they stand for the continuation of abuse and suffering in this world, they stand for the accepted evilness in this world.

I commit myself to expose to the world how we have accepted and allowed ourselves to give our power away to be controlled, influenced and in essence enslaved to the Elite in this world who uses Public Relations specialist who have studied the Human Behaviour and have thus manipulated the behaviour of the mass for the interest of the Elite in this world instead of utilizing their research to assist with the empowerment, growth and expansion of human beings.

I commit myself to expose the self interest preprogram design of parents who claim they want the best for their children and yet, not willing to stand as the example and change of the current world system by implanting a system that is best for the entire children of this world. Within that, I commit myself to assist and support parents to realize their responsibility for all children of this world and thus, assist them within their process of self perfection;

Spirituality - How to Make Money - Day 62

An interesting perspective I found on the internet which I'd like to share before I start this blog:

How to make Money like Eckhart Tolle:

"1) Identify an ancient piece of wisdom that's been around for thousands of years.

2) Give it a new and mysterious name like "The Now"

3) Present a compelling story of personal transformation: from suicidal depression to ULTIMATE BLISS in a flash.... and you can have this too and never feel pain again.

4) Neglect to mention you're describing old ideas in a new way.

5) Explain it in words that people can understand and put it in a context that's socially acceptable; away from distasteful religious beliefs.

6) An attention grabbing, and succinct title "The Power Of Now"

The Exciting Bonus: Once you have established a reputation as a wise guru it's a cash cow. Continue to present the same idea in new ways e.g. "A New Earth", and "Practicing The Power Of Now"

Brilliant. "

http://www.stevepavlina.com/forums/business-financial/32239-make-money-like-eckhart-tolle.html

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to have refused to see the relationship between Money and Spirituality wherein the celebs Masters and Gurus are making a fortune by selling their products and workshops to the masses that blindly follow and seek after the experience of rewards as enlightenment and within that I forgive myself that I have NOT accepted and allowed myself to raise the question - What is the starting point of the Celebs Gurus and Masters within promoting their products - is in fact to assist and support humanity as a whole within the principle of that which is best for all or whether the starting point is to make profit on the backs of the autopilot sheep that seek after the rewards experience of enlightenment within the hope and faith that they could run away from facing their physical reality?

I forgive myself that I've NOT accepted and allowed myself to see, realize and understand how

spirituality has became a powerful commodity in the global marketplace buy people that are aligned to the "love and light" experience by faith and hope for a long period of time through the repetition of specific vocabulary that is altered and changed according to era.

I forgive myself that I've NOT accepted and allowed myself to see, realize and understand the relationship between Spirituality and Consumerism wherein the Gurus and Spiritual Masters will use specific words and prompt specific feelings that will activate one's mind and through brainwashing the believers, will make the sale and within that, I have NOT accepted and allowed myself to realize that I've fallen to the trap of good and positive words within the fear of: "and what if what they say is the truth, I must buy the product because  if I won't, I might regret it for the rest of my life".

“Consumerism exist to show us how far we would take the Lie of love. Products are sold through getting the consumer to Love it out of fear. Next time you read the label, watch your inner response to the information and you will always look if you really need the product, but what you really look at is if you can survive without the product. If you fear the not having the product enough, you will buy it to give yourself the vitamins it proclaims to have as you wonder if you have enough of these vitamins. Health is the hell of fear where the human pretend to know how things really work. Go to the doctor when you sick to see how little is known. The diagnosis is done on symptoms and a broad-spectrum chemical is given to hopefully kill the disease. The doctor really have no actual clue and will spend only a moment with you as he is chasing money to pay for a magnificent lifestyle build on your fear of death.” – Bernard Poolman

I forgive myself that I've NOT accepted and allowed myself to consider that if there was anything worthwhile within the spiritual message of 'LOVE and LIGHT', it would be equally distributed and would have made sure that those who really need some 'light' in their lives will get equal access to earth's resources.

I forgive myself that I've NOT accepted and allowed myself to see how I've been addicted to the experience of the 'LOVE' message of the celebs Gurus and Masters and thus, while I was possessed with the energy experience of LOVE, I have refused to see how I've allowed the Spiritual message to brainwash me to the extent to which I will go into debt just to be able to experience the experience of enlightenment through participating in more spiritual workshops, buying more spiritual books, meet more Gurus and become more spiritual and while I'm getting deeper into debt, the Celebs Gurus and Masters are making money out of my delusional expense.

I forgive myself that I have NOT accepted and allowed myself to realize that the only way Spirituality Movement can exists is through utilizing the inherit FEAR OF DEATH and with sophisticated Marketing technics the fear is being commercialized and branded into various types and kind of Spirituality Movements to supply each and every fear robot with their specific type of words they require to hear to suppress their fear and raise their HOPE levels into buying the Gurus/Master's products.

I forgive myself that I've not accepted and allowed myself to see that Spirituality can only be consumed by those who have MONEY and I haven't considered that there is no physical attempt to spread the message globally which question the authentic of the message in itself if it can only be applied by a minute part of existence rather than existence as a whole.

I forgive myself that I’ve accepted and allowed myself to not realize that the basic message of the ascendant master have not changed for many decayed neither has it produced any change in the physical reality. Where things in fact now get worse daily and the only thing that stand between the demise of the ascension futility is MONEY. Once there is no money the shocking truth of reality becomes something real to deal with. Bernard Poolman

I commit myself to show, expose and explain in details how Spirituality Consumption works and function in this world, how is was evolved and how it is currently utilized as a silver plate of profit through its ability of feeding off human's fear of death.

I commit myself to show, expose and reveal how and why spirituality has become but another consumption products utilizing specific words that will activate one's desire for an experience and through the experience imprint, one will automatically align oneself with the consumption of the various types and kind of Spirituality Products

I commit myself to show the true nature of Gurus and Spiritual Masters as deceptive, and misleading human being that will accept and allow themselves to deliberately use specific types of words that commonly associated with a good and positive experience that one is seeking after and would thus then fall into the spiritual consumerism trap with no self awareness whatsoever.

Also read my blogs:

Spirituality - The Bigger Plan - Day 40

Spirituality - the Message - Day 41

Spirituality - Following Gurus and Spiritual Masters - Day 42

Spirituality - Love and Light - Day 43

Conversation with the Mind as God

As well as - Spirituality Exposed: http://spiritualityexposed.wordpress.com

AND - read Day 61: Ascension