The Smoke Screen of Ignorance - Day 197

This is a continuation to:

The Elite's delusion of stress - Part 1 - Day 45

The Elite's Delusion of Stress - Part 2 - Day 46

The Decision of TIME - Day 67

And:

Copy Paste Character - the Way for Success? - Day 183

Copy Paste Character - The Education System - Day 184

Is it possible to Cheat yourself? Day 185

It is time to STOP Existing as a Human Machine - Day 186

The End of Times - Day 187

Facing the Evil within - the KEY to LIFE - Day 188

Fear of Disappointing others - Day 189

The Psychology of TIME - Day 190

I Regret, therefor, I'm a Good Person. NOT!!! - Day 191

The REAL Fear - Day 192

The things we Won't tell ANYONE - Day 193

Missing out on the Good Life - Day 194

Let's have some Fun - Day 195

Stupidity Loop - Jumping from the Bad to the Good to the Bad - Day 196

For the purpose of context, suggest reading these posts above prior to reading the post below, if you haven’t already. Here I will be walking the 'I don't have TIME' Character -Imagination Dimension - Practical support with Self Forgiveness and Self Commitments.

 

 

Imagination Dimension:

• I fantasize of taking a vacation, lying down on the beach, with nothing else to do but enjoy the sun, swimming in the ocean, going to a restaurant, having a fruit shake - in India or Thailand lol.
• I imagine other people having fun just now, while I'm stuck on the computer, doing my routine work.
• I imagine the life of those who have money and can do what ever they want with their life - having a spa day, going out, enjoying themselves as I used to do myself a few years back.
• I imagine people coming back from work, after a long day, and sitting on the coach with their partner, hanging out, watching a movie, laying back, with nothing really to do.

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I imagine other people having fun just now, while I'm stuck on the computer, doing my routine work.

 

Self Forgiveness:

 

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to define my daily Routine as Negative in comparison to 'Having Fun' as the Positive experience without seeing, realizing and understanding that the only way to define the Daily Routine as Negative, I must Compare it to an Idea I have in my mind as what would be a Positive Experience such as for instance, fun entertainment which Both the Negative and the Positive are just a Polarized experiences I've created within and as my mind which then thus, imposed this Idea onto the Physical reality, placing a Veil in front of my Eyes, not seeing the physical reality in fact, as what's Here and what needs to be done to bring about a world that is best for all lives.

 

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to hold onto the idea of what fun is, as a positive past memory experience and then, compare this idea to what I perceived my reality, or my experience in my reality was, not seeing, realizing and understanding that in that moment of comparison where I've compare between to Mind Realities - one as positive that is in my mind as imagination and the other is Negative as my perception of my experience in the physical reality. Within that, I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to ignore and deny the real, actual, Physical reality, as what we have created from this physical reality to its current abusive manifestation because - as long as my focus is in MY perception of reality through bouncing between the positive and the negative experiences within my OWN mind, I cannot SEE directly this physical reality and will keep myself and this entire world enslaved to Experiences as ENERGY without actual practical change within and as myself and without and as this world as a whole.

 

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to NOT see how addictive it is to imagining experiences within my mind and what is the scientific, chemical processes that are involved when participating in one's mind within the imagination domain in particular and THINKING in General whenever one is accessing both the Negative and the Positive Experiences as Energy within and as oneself.

 

I forgive myself that I've NOT accepted and allowed myself to realize the various dimensions that are involved in the imagination domain wherein, through perceiving having a negative experience in my reality, without even considering that this Negative experience is nothing but my own mind, and from there, going into the imagining process of a positive scenarios such as Fun for instance, I'm also allowing myself to further perpetuate the Negative Experience I perceive myself to experience however now, accessing Jealousy towards all the people that are having Fun and through this Jealousy, Generating More Energy for my mind to maintain its existent as Energy and separating myself form the Real Physical Reality, Here.

 

In that - I forgive myself that I've NOT accepted and allowed myself to realize that while I desire to have fun and experience the Positive Energy Experience, Billion of people are dying because I haven't stood up in absolute self honesty and directed myself, in every moment of every breath in doing what ever needs to be done, to End the Suffer and abuse in this world. In that, I forgive myself that I've NOT accepted and allowed myself to REALize how through accessing my mind and bouncing from the Negative to the Positive Experiences, I've abdicated my responsibility in seeing the Physical reality Directly and all the relationships that are involved from the moment of creation to the manifested consequences and accordingly, align and correct that which is here to that which must be here - Physical Equality and Oneness.

 

Self Commitments:

 

I commit myself to get myself HERE, in full self Awareness of myself Equal to and One as this Physical Reality and All the Relationships that are Interconnected and intertwine and in that, figure out what is it that I really Enjoy doing from a physical equality and Oneness point of view, rather as it is currently wherein my Definitions of what is fun is based on Energetic experiences that I've created within and as myself.

 

I commit myself to PROVE and SHOW the Chemical Processes that are involved When and as One is participating in one's mind - Either Positive and Negative Experiences and on that note, I suggest to study the Quantum Mind - Self Awareness, to see, realize and understand how little we actually seeing, realizing and understanding about ourselves, our minds and this existence and a whole BECAUSE - through understanding the Ins and Outs of the Quantum Mind, one would be able to specify one's application through SELF realization of oneself in relationship to one's mind. http://eqafe.com/series/21-quantum-mind-self-awareness

 

I commit myself to Assist and Support myself in stopping the Polarized Energetic bouncing between the Negative to the Positive because I now see, realize and understand that Any Experience, Positive or Negative can only exits as Energy as the Mind and that this Energy, is the Veil I've placed in front of my Physical Eyes to not see Directly this Physical reality and thus, could ignored and deny that which is here so that I won't have to take responsibility and practically Change myself and this world as a whole.

Investigating Sexual Expression - Part 2 - Day 121

This is a continuation to:

Sexual Expression – Overview  Day 112

Investigating Sexual Expression - Self Forgiveness Part 1 - Day 113

Investigating Sexual Expression - Self Commitments - Part 1 - Day 114

 

A few days ago, I was writing about the Negative Charge within the words Sex, Fuck and so forth and today, I will continue with looking and investigating the Positive Charge that we have attached for example, to the words: Romance, Making Love, Love etc.

 

It is interesting to see, how we are only working/writing/dealing with that which makes us feel uncomfortable and we disregards that which makes us feel good, better, superior. Meaning, why should I investigate that which makes me feel good? Why can't I only get rid of the negative feeling within and as myself? Why do I need to stop the positive energy within and as myself? I don't want to.. Lol. That is a common statement that I hear from many beings - "you are so negative! You have to fight the human nature with positivity! All you need is Love". Is it? If that is so, why we have defined sex and making Love with a polarity charge despite of the fact that it describe the same thing? And obviously, if Love is all we need, how come there is so much abuse in this world. (for context watch my vlog 2012 - LOVE Month - Is Love and Light the Solution?

The Polarity design of energy was explained in details in Earth's Journey to Life - Day 5: Redefining Words (Part 2) - Playing polarity games

 

Why is it that making LOVE is accepted and Sex/fuck isn't? I mean, seriously, that is the exact same thing. why are we reactive in a positive way to the words 'Making Love' and reacting in a negative way to the words sex/fuck?

 

So, why is it that Making Love and Romance is Ok? Is Positive? Is allowed? While the fact of the matter is that the physical act remain the same - 2 human beings fucking each other.. Lol

Why is it wrong to Make Love with ourselves? Why is it shameful to create an environment for ourselves, alone, candles in one's room, clean sheets, quite music, maybe some essential oil burners and simply touch ourselves, becoming intimate with our physical body? Why is it that when touching oneself in a warm, candle light, music environment is suddenly sound bad/wrong when we called the physical touch - Masturbation. Oh no, god forbid saying this word. 

 

In self honesty, one can look within oneself at the physical body changes when hearing the words Fuck vs. hearing the words Making love. The word Fuck comes with disgusted, constriction in the belly area, the face constricting as well and specifically in the mouth reign and our entire human physical body yells: "NO, it's awful, don't say that". However, when hearing the word 'Making Love' the body expand, like breathing from the inside, smile suddenly automatically emerge and warm and positive energy moves within and as us from the belly area towards the heart.  Fascinating isn't it?

 

This shows the extent of separation that we've allowed within and as ourselves in relation to how we LIVE the WORDS we speak and hear. How for each and every word we assigned/associated/connected/defined with either positive or negative charge. For more information with regards to the Living words and redefining of words, I suggest reading Earth's Journey to Life - Day 4: Redefining words - Part 1.

 

Within my following blogs, I will walk the positive energy charge that is associated to the word Love in relation to sex and masturbation through a process of self forgiveness and self corrective/commitments statements. 

Trusting my experience - Day 63

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to trust my past memory experience within the belief that the past experience will repeat itself and according to the energetic charge that I've defined the experience as, I will either feel excitement (if the charge is Positive) or I will feel anxiety/fear (if the charge is negative) and I forgive myself that I haven't accepted and allowed myself to see, realize and understand that so long as I trust the experience and define Who I am as the experience, I am not living LIFE but rather living my perception of LIFE that is limited to the extent to how I've separated myself from myself and this world as a whole.

I forgive myself that I've NOT accepted and allowed myself to realize how limiting it is to only defined myself according to a few feelings/emotions as a reflection to how I've defined the energetic charge such as: excitement or Anxiety/fear as positive and negative respectively, is just a minute and limited expression of who I am as LIFE within and as myself.

I forgive myself that I've NOT accepted and allowed myself to realize that so long as I give permission to my mind to tell me how to experience any given moment according to the energetic charge of either positive or negative within and as a past memory experience, I'm not in fact LIVING.

I forgive myself that I've NOT accepted and allowed myself to realize that by holding onto the past memory experiences within an energetic charge, Positive or Negative, I'm limiting my moment to moment living self expression as who I am and within that, not accepting and allowing myself to Physically LIVE so long as I bound-to and prisoning myself within my own self created past memory experiences that control, enslave and direct my expression as Who I am.

I forgive myself that I've NOT accepted and allowed myself to realize how the energetic movement within and as my human physical body changes and alters according to the memory experience that I've associated to any given moment meaning - if I experience positive energetic charge within me, there is a memory that is associated to the point I'm facing, a memory experience that I've defined as positive and if I experience a negative energetic charge within me, there is a memory that is associated to the point that I'm facing which I've defined as negative.

I forgive myself that I've NOT accepted and allowed myself to see how within my self, I trust that the a future experience  that I'm expecting to have will manifest exactly as I imagine/plan it to be and within that, not giving myself the permission to practically live as I leave a very small space to experience a real and physical experience than what I wish to experience as a self interest desire and thus, if things go well as expected, I will be satisfied and if something will go 'wrong' I will become frustrated and start to manipulate myself and my environment in the attempt to reach the experience that I've yarn for from the get-go.

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to attempt and control an experience within any given moment without seeing, realizing or understanding all the relationships that are involved within my desire for an experience and within that, I forgive myself that I've NOT accepted and allowed myself to realize that what I'm essentially trying to control is the relationships in my life through shaping, molding and manipulate the beings involved so that I could have my self interest experience manifest according to how I want to experience it and thus they must submit to my wants and needs and provide me with their presence MY experience and if they failed to give me what I want, I will end the relationship and start seeking after for the next relationship that will give me the experience that I'm looking/desiring for.

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to trust the emotions/feelings within any given experience and I haven't seen the relationship between the experience and the energetic charge that is aligned/attached/connected with the experience and within that, I forgive myself that I've NOT accepted and allowed myself to realize how limited my expression is within any given moment through me attaching/aligning each and every moment to a past memory experience that I have defined within and as energetic charge, either positive or negative and accordingly, move and direct myself as the experience instead of walking breath by breath, here, and letting go energetic experience connection after connection until it is done.

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to have refused to give-up my trust in a mind energetic experience and to instead, establish self trust that is based on a practical physical realty within my breath by breath living application.

I commit myself to be attentive to any single energy movement within and as my human physical body - Positive and Negative and to investigate the origin/source/core of the energy movement as I see, realize and understand that any energetic movement is in direct relationship to an experience that I've defined myself according to, that is limiting my self living expression within and as the physical reality.

I commit myself to investigate each and every energetic experience that I've programmed myself throughout my life to define myself as and respectively, stop my participation within and as energy, Positive and Negative within a breath by breath process, until it's done and I'm absolutely aligned to the physical that consist of and exists as all that is here in oneness and equality.

I commit myself and give permission to myself to LIVE as who I am within and as my self expression and to stop dictating my life according to experience that I dearly trusted thus far and to instead, establish absolute self trust within and as myself in any given moment.

I commit myself to walk memory experience by memory experience within a process of self forgiveness in self honesty and to delete all association/definitions/connections that I've accepted and allowed within and as myself because I see, realize and understand that so long as I accept and allow the experience to tell me who I am and within that, abdicated my responsibility to move and direct myself breathe by breathe, I'm not in fact LIVING life that is best for all but rather attempt and try to live the LIFE that is best for me in absolute inconsideration to everything and everyone.

I commit myself to stop direct and move myself according to an expected experience and within that, stop existing within a polarity that is defined according to the velocity of the energetic charged that I've charged myself with.

I commit myself to face within myself, in writing the experiences that I've defined within a negative charge and have thus, tried to avoid and suppress the experience so that I won't have to face, investigate, correct and change because I see and realize that so long as I allow myself to avoid and suppress, I'm not in fact that directive principle of myself and my world as I'm bound to how the mind direct me, in separation of me.

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