The seclusion in Inclusion - Day 227

This a continuation to:

From Evilness to Life - Day 226

 

For the context of this blog, Please read Earth's Journey to Life blog - "Birthing ourselves as life, as a partnership Part 11 - Understanding the reflection in the mirror - I feel excluded".

 

 

 

 

 

Here is an extraction from the blog:

 

"...The symbolism of seeing 2 people busy with something where I see myself as incapable of participating on their level – Now here ‘their level’ means that I do not see myself as capable of doing what they are doing – be that a form of socialising / work related / discussion related.

 

Firstly here to notice, is that I had judged myself as incapable of participating –which means that I had judged myself as ‘not good enough’ – But this judgment stands in comparison to these 2 other people. So – through me judging myself through comparison as to what it is that I see others are doing – I ‘exclude’ (separate) myself from what is happening, as I had made the decision and choice within and as myself that I am not capable (I judged myself). I am thus the one who ‘excluded’ myself from what was happening and by me not wanting to seeing that I had done this, I blame others ‘for excluding’ me, when it was in fact me excluding me for what was happening.

 

When we face points where we ‘feel’ excluded we are to investigate the nature of the situation as we create our own self fulfilling prophesies where we exclude ourselves (through our judgements) and then project these feelings of exclusion onto the people whom we excluded (judged) from ourselves…"

 

After I read Esteni's blog, I had a look within and as myself, whether or not, when and as I'm one of these 2 people, and I see the third being struggling within and as themselves with their own self judgement that was described, if there is any Evil Energetic Movement within and as myself, enjoying the fact that I am now More than within the other's eyes. 

 

I was not surprise to find within and as myself, the Dark Evil joyful character that I've created within and as myself, wherein, I've accepted and allowed myself to participate in the Superior/Inferior game that I played with the third being, within and as my resonance expression. In these moments, I wouldn't make an effort to include the third being and I would deliberately create a 'special relationship' with the second being so that the Third being would be jealous, judgemental towards oneself through comparing themselves to me.

 

I forgive myself that I've NOT accepted and allowed myself to consider the beings in my direct environment and within that, how I'm directly responsible for how they would experience themselves wherein, I would deliberately accept and allow myself to create a friction and conflict within and as themselves through presenting to them a specific picture which they would be jealous at and activate jealousy towards me which would give me the experience of being More and Superior in my own mind. Within this, I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to NOT considering all points, all relationship, all consequences and align these points/relationships/consequences within and as the principle of what is best for all and do onto another that which you'd like to be done to you wherein, instead of deliberately creating situation where I know that others would fall into their patterns and I would experience myself as More in comparison to their fall, to stand as a pillar of support for myself and others in walking WITH other human beings, as Equal, where we could learn from each other, expand, grow and empower ourselves and each other in walking together as ONE unit instead of Two or more enemies.

 

Thus, I commit myself to-  when and as I find myself in situations where I'm having a conversation with a person and there is another being in the room, accessing inferiority, self judgement and jealousy, I stop, I breathe and I look within and as myself in checking my own alignments in that moment, my starting point, energetic movement, what would be the best solution in consideration of all the relationship that exists within that moment and accordingly, align myself, align the situation in standing in absolute self honesty within and as myself.

 

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to form relationships and groups that exclude some beings and include only the "special" ones according to my 'likes' and/or my 'Preference', not seeing, realizing and understanding that my 'Likes' and 'Preferences' were created by me, according to a specific program design that I've accepted and allowed as myself, in separation of myself and that I've utilized these 'likes' and 'Preference' based on what would give me the best result outcome for an experience that I would be satisfied with, with no consideration regarding who am I stepping on, in the process of me getting the experience that I desire to have within and as myself.

 

In this, I forgive myself that I've NOT accepted and allowed myself to see, realize and understand that what I accept and allow myself to participate in my direct environment, I accept and allow to exists in the world wherein, we created Groups, Cultures, Religion that Includes some and excludes others without realizing, understanding and directly seeing that unless we stand together as ONE group, united, within ONE principle of that which is best for all, there is no chance we would ever bring about a world that is Best for all living creatures.

 

And in this, I commit myself to assist and support myself in changing the way I view myself and this world, from a mind self interest dimension to a physical absolute and direct seeing of all the relationships, all the consequences, all the points that form our lives as a whole and to do so, I start with myself, in assisting and supporting myself to dissect all the Evil parts of myself that I've created, accepted and allowed within and as myself and bring myself to physical equal and one standing with all that is here through first stand in equal and one relationship with my own mind, expand myself in standing equal and one with the beings in my environment to then standing equal and one with the rest of existence.

 

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to treat others in the very same way that I wouldn't want others to treat me, from a starting point of Spite, in self interest, to diminish them so that I could be More, not seeing, realizing and understanding that the reason why I wouldn't want to be treated in a specific behaviour by others is because I know, within and as myself the evilness that this behaviour is consisting of and existing as because I'm doing the same to others. And thus, instead of developing and establishing relationships that are based on mutual respect, understanding, expansion and growth, I create relationships that are based on pure Evil to elevate my own Experiences of being more on the backs of and the expanse of others. 

 

I commit myself to - when and as I see others reacting to me, to assess and check in self honesty whether or not I had a part in how they are experiencing themselves, whether or not I'm directly, and deliberately supporting their reaction so that I could experience myself as more and in doing so, I check and assess how I would react if I were in their shoes and accordingly, align the moment in the utmost supportive way in taking into consideration the consequences and outflows of each decision that I make.

OMG, I'm so Special because I'm speaking with the Dead - Day 163

This is a continuation to:

Walking Breath by Breath - Part 1 - Day 160

Walking Breath by Breath - Part 2 - Day 161

Spiritualizing beings that had Died - Day 162

 

When I had the dream about my grandfather lying on the metal silver bed, with a light on top of him, and I knew that he was dead - what was behind the dream? Where did I ever heard about such experience before, and if I haven't and it had emerged in the very first time, what was this dream all about? What did this dream gave me throughout my life in relationship with my grandfather in particular and all my relationships as a whole? And how through this dream, I've characterized myself from that moment onward?

 

Usually, when we do not understand something, we try to make sense out of it. the only way I could make sense of this dream was as if I've given a sign, as if my connection with my grandfather was so great that I was sensitive enough to see him in his death. In other words - I was special in my ability to sense my grandfather, I had a special relationship with my grandfather, more than anyone else, I was the special one, I was the chosen one, I was the favourite one.

 

Now, this happened long before 1998, when the connection between earth and the dimension was still open and fucking with one's life could easily be done. For more information regarding the relationship between heaven and earth before and after 1998 and before and after the Portal had opened, I suggest listening to the Journeys into the Afterlife interview series. 

What I have not realized until recently, that the dream was preprogrammed so that I could characterize myself as special through having the sensitive abilities which through that, I could remain special in my own mind, in my secret mind and create an illusionary reality that would be the foundation of my later on spiritual phase where I was almost completely fucked up if I wouldn't came across Desteni and could hear their message.

 

So obviously, I didn't question the nature of the Dream and my After Death Communication with my Dead grandfather because this entire experience gave me power, made me feel so absolute Special in comparison to my other family members, which was in essence, my own self interest desire for an experience that I could validate myself through, that I could worthy myself through and that I could empower myself through; only what I haven't realized was that the only thing that I've validated was my own mind, my own pre-programming that I've accepted and allowed myself to exists within and as.

 

Before and after my grandfather had died, the primary experience was of me being special, cared for and loved unconditionally by him and during my life, I was seeking and looking for these character that would give me the experience of being special, cared for and Loved unconditionally. Clearly, I wasn't able to conceptualized that I am here, regardless how others are giving me, or I never conceptualized what does it even means unconditional love and unconditional taken cared for in an existential level.

Later on, I have found more dead to spiritualize in my mind and that was when I became spiritual. All those powers and attributes that I've assign to them, in separation of me, gave me the experience of being so special. I mean, as a spiritual person, hearing the positive words in books and scripts was so powerful and divine. I was really sure that the divine Masters, Guides and Angles are taking care of me, are resonating through me, healing me and others as me. And again, I obviously didn't question their existence because why should I? I was so special in my own mind. it was the only place I could feel so loved and special and having a propose. What is interesting to see now is the polarized realities that I had within my mind where in for moments, I felt so divine and powerful and in the next moment, I was so alone, useless, unworthy and depressed. That in it self raise the question - are we all Schizophrenic in the context of the polarity that we exists as within and as our mind? the only difference is that l Schizophrenic beings had externalized their mind into words while the Normal being have the ability to filter their minds when it comes to speaking.

 

Ok, so I will continue tomorrow with How I've spiritualized Living beings in comparison to the dead. Thanks for reading.

The real truth about intelligence - Day 93

This is a continuation to:

I Think Therefore I am - Day 90

I Think, therefore I fucked this Existence - Day 91

I Think - Therefore I am Intelligent - Day 92

I commit myself to show that it is NOT thinking that allow us to exists, it is the very physical reality as interconnectedness relationships that allow me to exists. And that the fact of the matter is, that we, the human beings who are able to thinking are abusing and harming the life forces that gives us life by our deliberate ignorance within and as our starting point of self interest desire for MORE.

I commit myself to educate myself with regards to everything that is here in terms of how ALL works and functions and within that, sustaining the Balance within our interconnectedness that I've abused thus far through my deliberate ignorance and lack of responsibility which I've defined within and as my so called intelligent as I see, realize and understand that intelligent doesn't mean a thing but to empower my own EGO and has nothing practical whatsoever to sustain a LIFE that is best for all.

I commit myself to respect the life forms that gives us LIFE because I see, realize and understand that without it, we are all doomed and thus, this is a shout out to all that unless we stop the abuse of the nature and the animals with the establishment of the Equal Money System, it is inevitable that consequences will manifest; consequences that we could have stopped if we become self honest, educate ourselves and our environment and stand together as LIFE and create a LIFE that is best for all.

I commit myself to show that we have defined ourselves as intelligent because we born into Money that could buy us education to be able to defined us as educated and intelligent and that without Money, we wouldn't be able to defined ourselves as such.

I commit myself to stand up and shout out again and again, until the message will be clear and understandable for everyone - we are the KEY in making sure that ALL have Equal opportunity for LIFE, for Education, For health, for Food, for Water etc. if we dare ourselves to step out of our self interest characters and consider all Lives as Equals so that we can return to our Physical character and establish LIFE that is best for all in all ways possible.

I commit myself to support those who will walk the practical development and establishment of a new World Education system that will support all the children and parents in this world to be and become what they could always have been - effective Human Being that walk, move and direct themselves according to principles of what is best for all and within that, work together will all the life forms that gives us life in absolute interdependency and interconnectedness, in respect to one another so that abuse, harm and suffer will be no more. 

Experience as self Brainwashing - Day 64

I forgive myself that I've NOT accepted and allowed myself to see, realize or understand the God within each and every relationship that I have - either with myself and with each other - The God that is me, as the Energy as the creator of Experience, within which is all based on one thing only - the self interest desire for a specific reward from the experience within and as myself and each other; I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to have refused to see the basic structure of any relationship - energetic relationship of give and take feelings and emotions as a desired experience instead of Giving LIFE to receive LIFE that is best for all, practically and physically as the guiding of all and any relationship that exists within ourselves and each other.

I forgive myself that I've NOT accepted and allowed myself to see, realize and understand how I've created relationships in my life, based on expected experience that I yearn to receive from the relationship and how within it, I have NOT accepted and allowed myself to create and establish relationships that are based on Equality, relationships that Support Life that is best for all as a guideline principle.

I forgive myself that I've NOT accepted and allowed myself to realize how I've been brainwashed to establish a specific types of relationships that will give me a specific type of Experience, by those who have come before me as well as through the various kind of Media and how within my acceptance of the desired experience, the energy reward became my directive principle within the relationships creation and I have in no way had a free will within my decisions and I had simply followed my mind as my self interest desire for energy rewards from the relationship experience.

I forgive myself that I've NOT accepted and allowed myself to see how I've sabotaged, limited and compromised myself within and through my self interest desire for an experience from the relationships in my life wherein, if I didn't get the positive energetic charge that I yearn to, I took the back door and ran after a new relationship creation and if I did get my energetic reward, I completely lost myself within the experience to the extent to which I've blinded myself to deliberately not see how beside energy charge, there is no support structure within the relationship that will allow me and my partner to practically grow and expand ourselves within and as the principle of that which is best for all, and to physically step out of our mind and walk into the Physical equality and oneness.

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to - when seeing a prospective partner, to assess whether one can provide me with a positive energetic reward instead of practically getting to know the being, getting to know myself as the being and from there, make an informative decisions that are based on the assessment of whether or not there is a possibility that the partner can walk equal and one with me within this ONE life time so that together, we can assist and support each other within our processes, grow and expand ourselves to be and become effective human being in this world that will direct, move and lead this world towards a world that is best for all.

I forgive myself that I've NOT accepted and allowed myself to get to know myself and my prospective partner within our relationship creation and within that, establish an effective and intimate relationship with myself as well as my partner as myself because I was seeking for the feeling experience that I believed to come with the relationship and I was willing to ignore all the red flags that were shining to bright within the faith and hope that I will get my positive energetic experience which I've defined as LOVE.

I forgive myself that I've NOT accepted and allowed myself to realize that LOVE is an energetic experience and in no way a physical expression of equality and oneness that is best for all and within that, I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed my life to be oriented towards the experience of LOVE within the desire to get a positive energetic reward from external force that is separated from me to the extent to which I've blindly follow my feelings instead of remaining here, breath by breath and walk decisions that are based only on ONE principle - best for all.

I forgive myself that I've NOT accepted and allowed myself to see how the LOVE experience is deception wherein, we walk and move ourselves within a constant seek for the LOVE experience as a self interest desire and while we do so, we disregard everything and everyone that do not gives up the energetic experience of LOVE and thus, we have accepted and allowed the majority of this world to exists within and as a constant battle, fear, abuse and suffering because we didn't feel LOVE towards them and thus, can conveniently ignore them and let them be so long as we have what we need, we have LOVE or a potential to receive LOVE.

I commit myself to stop the sucking demonized Godly me that is strives for energetic experience of reward as emotions and feelings within any given relationship and to thus then, establish a supportive relationship with myself, align myself to who I am as a physical breath to breath being, within which I will stand in absolute self honesty within all my relationships in existence as a whole to so together, walk according to the guideline- Give that which you'd Life to receive = Give LIFE to Receive LIFE that is best for all.

I commit myself to align my relationships to a guideline of that which is best for all and within that not accept anything that is less than that. I see, realize and understand how the relationship creation was establish from one singular starting point as self interest desire for an energetic experience and thus, within and as the self interest desire for an experience within the relationship creation, we have abdicated our responsibility to Give life to be able to receive LIFE that is best for all and have thus, manifested a world that is based on the survival of the individuals instead of LIFE of ALL in dignity, abundances and joy.

I commit myself to show how we have been trained to create relationships that are based on experience of the self interest individuals, generation after generation; experience that charged our energy within and as ourselves as the inherit belief of its being LIFE. Within that, I commit myself to support the educational program developments, to educate the humans to stop feeding of each other within energetic experiences of relationships and to instead establish relationships that are being practically lived within and as the principle of that which is best for all LIVES in Oneness and Equality.

I commit myself to show how limited is one's expression, self grow and expansion in this world within the current relationships manifestation and how in fact, the relationships that are being walked today were deliberately designed to control, enslave and direct the beings into one's own little bubble in one's mind so that one could remain preoccupied within one's mind and to never in fact, take the step of questioning one's reality, this world and accordingly, stand up within self, become the change, the example and walk towards the creation of a world that is best for all within and as the establishment/creation of interdependent relationships that form LIFE.

I commit myself to stop my mind as the desire for energetic experience to influence my decisions and to take my power away back to myself, assess all the various points that reveal themselves here and thus, make informative decisions that are based on the ONE principle - LIFE that is best for all.

I commit myself to show, expose and reveal the truth about LOVE and how, everything is in reveres wherein - LOVE is EVOL where the oneness and equality of the letter 'O' is not being LIVED as LOVE that is best for all and instead, the 'I', the self interest 'I' is that which makes LOVE EVIL as a direct reflection to how this world is currently manifested.

I commit myself to stand as an Example of LOVE that is best for all within my breath by breath self application of the ONE principle - best for all LIFE and thus, I move and direct myself according to what is necessary to be done in order to create, manifest and establish a world that is best for all in fact as the ultimate expression of LOVE - Love your neighbour as thyself.

For more support -

The Death of Experience - Day 58
http://mayaprocess.blogspot.com/2012/06/death-of-experience-as-me-part-1-day-58.html
Memory makes me Robot - Day 59
http://mayaprocess.blogspot.com/2012/06/memory-makes-me-robot-day-59.html
Trusting my experience - Day 63
http://mayaprocess.blogspot.com/2012/06/trusting-my-experience-overview-day-63.html

Inversion of purpose – Day 24

I forgive myself that I’ve accepted and allowed myself to have failed to see our inversion of purpose wherein instead of us all coming and standing together in Oneness and Equality, we have separated ourselves to individualized purposes to fulfil our desires, wants and needs without considering where the resources are coming from and within that, I forgive myself that I’ve accepted and allowed myself to have failed to see that through our fight for our individual purpose of survival, we’ve used and abused the resources that are available on Earth without taking into consideration that if we would have walked in Oneness and Equality, we would have make sure that the resources will be available to everyone on Earth and we wouldn’t have allowed a world where more than half of the beings do not have access to the resources and thus are dying from starvation, dehydration, and diseases.

I forgive myself that I’ve NOT accepted and allowed myself to see and realized that we have become locked and limited to our individual purposes of survival and within doing so, compete for the resources that are available on earth without any consideration of the abuse not only of the resources but also towards those who do not have access to the resources because a select few has taken control over the physical resources and have put a tag price on is as if it is belong to them as well as being defined and valued by Money, despite of the fact that the physical resources are of Earth and as such, should have been unconditionally shared with all that is here, in harmony and equality.

I forgive myself that I’ve accepted and allowed myself to have failed to see that we are all walking and directing ourselves according to our purposes of survival and within that, accept and allow competition, greed, war, crime, and corruption to manifest and exists in this world and we have Failed to realized Oneness and Equality and thus, separated ourselves from LIFE as ourselves and become individualized beings that see to fulfil their purposes of survival despite of the fact that there isn’t enough for all the fulfil their purpose of survival due to Life being defined according to Money and thus, I forgive myself that I’ve NOT accepted and allowed myself to consider Equality and Oneness and therefore, utilizing what is available on Earth within the starting point of What is best for all by making sure that we stop the abuse of the resources and distribute it equally to all.

I forgive myself that I’ve NOT accepted and allowed myself to see that LIFE isn’t define by fulfilling one’s purpose to survive as it is a very very limited and separated version of LIFE and yet, I’ve taken my purpose for granted because it was what I’ve been taught at home/religion/culture/environment  without questioning and challenge the belief of fulfilling my purpose of survival while the majority of this world is far from reaching any form of LIFE as their birth is followed by death from starvation, malnutrition, dehydration and diseases even though the physical resources in this world is enough for everyone to have a dignified LIFE but due to Money, power and control, only a select few can fulfil their purpose of survival in ease while the rest of us are in constant fight and chase for Money to sustain are Lives that should have been, from the Get-Go, a life that is best for all if we’ve realized and understood Equality and Oneness as ourselves, as Life, as WHO we are.

I forgive myself that I’ve accepted and allowed myself to have blind myself from the obvious – our human physical body that is standing as an example of Oneness and Equality wherein all the cells in the body are working together in Equality and Oneness, without any separation and hierarchy as all the cells in the body are functioning together and assisting and supporting each other to sustain the human physical body in its upmost potential.

I forgive myself that I’ve accepted and allowed a world that is accumulation of individualized separated beings who only seek for one’s purpose of survival and because we’ve failed to see and realized Equality and Oneness We have allowed from this very separation, to create a world that survival is defined by Money and the resources has been taken over by a select few who has Money and thus, what was supposed to be a world that is best for all with equalized resources distribution, has become a world of corruption, abuse, crime, war and conflicts where the majority of the beings in this world has no chance to survive due to not having access to the physical resources that are HERE.

 I forgive myself that I’ve accepted and allowed myself to failed to see that if we would all worked together as Equals, we would have made sure that all the resources will be utilized equally but because we are extensively separated from ourselves and each other, we have accepted, allowed and thus created a world that is abusive in nature, as a direct reflection of ourselves and thus, I forgive myself that I’ve NOT accepted and allowed myself to face, realize, correct and change my very abusive nature that is directly responsible for how this world exists today because I’ve taken for granted the world system and did nothing to practically chance myself as the creator of myself and this world and therefore, walk within a self trust decision of WHO I am as LIFE in every moment of every breath and to lead by example a world that is Best for ALL.

I forgive myself that I’ve NOT accepted and allowed myself to see that when we take and take and take to fulfil our individual purpose of survival we are within that, making a statement that we do not care or consider everyone equally in this world as the physical evidence clearly shows that the majority of this world has no access to the available resources on EARTH because of our abusive nature of taking and not giving, instead of walking according to the Jesus message of Give as you’d Like to Receive and within that, making an agreement with ourselves and each other to do what ever it takes to bring about a world that is best for all in all way possible so that EVERY ONE will have free access to the resources available on EARTH.

I forgive myself that I’ve accepted and allowed myself to have failed to see the competitive nature of human beings of TAKING without GIVING to fulfil one’s purpose of Survival and within that competitive nature, we disregard and inconsiderate all as Equals by accepting and allowing a world where only a select few have access to the resources that are available on EARTH instead of walking the principle of Give as You’d Like to Receive and within that, making sure that ALL have equal access to the resources that are available on Earth.

I commit myself to expose the inequality in this world and stand up and implement a solution that will make LIFE enjoyable to all human beings and within that, to invert the purpose of survival to purpose of LIFE as all as ONE as Equals where we walk together in agreement to support everything and everyone that is here within the principle of what is best for all.

I commit myself to make sure that all the resources that are available on EARTH will be equally distributed and physical equality and Oneness will stand in fact.

I commit myself to a process of re-education from an individualized divided beings that seek for our own survival, to humanity that the directive principle IS LIFE as WHO we are and thus, we will ALL work together within agreement to support everyone Equally and establish a world that is best for all in all ways possible and will never again accept anything that is less than LIFE as Who we are.

I commit myself to change my abusive nature of taking without giving to walk in every moment according to the principle ‘Give as you’d like to Receive’ as a direct reflection as what I would like this world to be and become and within that, I commit myself to assist and support all beings to change their abusive nature so that we can all correct our abusive living application to human beings that lives in harmony and equality as What is Best for all lives because we see and realize that what is best for all IS also best for me.

I commit myself to invert myself back to LIFE and realize that my purpose is LIFE that is best for all and thus, I commit myself to do whatever it takes and as long as it takes to face, correct and change myself – to bring myself back to myself as LIFE as Who I am.