How I created my Meditation Experience - Day 237

This is a continuation to:

Is Meditation the Key to Enlightenment?

 

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to judge meditation within a negative emotional charge, not seeing, realizing and understanding that I've actually judged myself for the things that I've accepted and allowed myself to participate in my past, the things that I now see, realize and understand that had only benefited me within my own self interest delusional mind and through judging Meditation I distracted myself from facing the Practical correction because, so long as I judge, I still allowing my mind to be the directive principle instead of utilizing the Principle: Investigate all points and keep that which is best for all. Within that context, Breathing exercise as a self support tool can and should be utilized within a clear and directive starting point in assisting and supporting oneself to Bring oneself back to one's own physical body, where one could, in breath, assess, check and investigate oneself until eventually, Breathing becomes one's Directive Principle in any given moment.

 

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to associate and connect Breathing with Meditation and since I've Judged meditation as wrong, I sabotaged and compromised myself in not gifting myself the opportunity to assist and support myself in any given moment, to simply Breathe, Be here, within and as my human physical body in alignment to the Movement that Life is.

 

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to spiritualize Breathing and within that create an Experiences that would be aligned with the Spiritual Programs that I've created within and as myself. Within this, I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to fear having Spiritual Experiences as it indicate that I accepted and allowed my mind to take over the moment. In this, I forgive myself that I've not accepted and allowed myself to realize that it is useless to try and suppress that which exists within and as me and rather, if a Spiritual experience emerge from within and as me, it is cool, because then, I'm able to assist and support myself to release myself from the entity that I've created within and as myself through going to the draw board to investigate what I've not seen and sorted out within and as myself and accordingly, take self responsibility and correct the point within and as myself.

 

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to define myself as inadequate when and as a Spiritual Experience emerge from within and as me, as if I have done something terribly wrong, not seeing, realizing and understanding that I should simply see it as it is, another window of opportunity to sort out that which was already existent within and as me. In this, I forgive myself that I've NOT accepted and allowed myself to realize that if I react to the Spiritual Program that I've inserted and program myself, I create another experience, another entity and thus, only prolong my process instead of Quantified my process in walking through each and every point that reveal itself here, stand in stability and in self trust that I have all that I require for, to assist and support me to step out of mind experience and step into the Physical reality as an Expression of myself.

 

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to NOT realize that I've judged the Spiritual Experience that I had created within and as myself, because I've defined myself as More than a spiritual person, utilizing the Knowledge and information that I have, to justify for myself, why I am MORE than another. Within this, I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to want, need and desire to define myself as MORE than a spiritual person and within that suppress that which I've program myself to exists as, while I was myself a spiritual person, not seeing, realizing and understanding that the Program still exists within and as me, till I, as the directive principle, take the responsibility and release myself from the systems and programs that I've inserted and stored within and as myself with practical Self Forgiveness Process, in taking self responsibility for my own acceptance and allowances and change myself, immediately, within and as Breath. 

 

I commit myself to assist and support myself in practicing my Breathing application as a directive principle through which I expand my application to align with the movement that Life exists within and as till in every step, in every moment, I am Here, in and as Breath.

 

I commit myself to assist and support myself to - when and as a Spiritual Experience is emerging from within and as me, to Stop, to Breathe and to see where I'm not aligned and clear within and as myself and in that, to investigate the source/core/origin of the Experience and accordingly, to take Self Responsibility and, correct my physical living application and change.

 

I commit myself to STOP the internal and external friction and conflict within and as myself, within the context of Spirituality as I now see, realize and understand that I have a process to walk, in writing, regarding my self definition and relationship with Spirituality as points opened up within this blog that I must take responsibility for and direct and accordingly correct within and as myself.

From the Bossy to the Loser - Day 215

This is a continuation to:

The Elite's delusion of stress - Part 1 - Day 45	The REAL Fear - Day 192
The Elite's Delusion of Stress - Part 2 - Day 46	The things we Won't tell ANYONE - Day 193
The Decision of TIME - Day 67	Missing out on the Good Life - Day 194
The Decision of TIME - Day 67	Let's have some Fun - Day 195
Copy Paste Character - The Education System - Day 184	Stupidity Loop - Jumping from the Bad to the Good to the Bad - Day 196
Is it possible to Cheat yourself? Day 185	The Smoke Screen of Ignorance - Day 197
It is time to STOP Existing as a Human Machine - Day 186	Leaving in a Dream - Day 208
The End of Times - Day 187	Having the Life Style you always dreamt to have - Day 209
Facing the Evil within - the KEY to LIFE - Day 188	IT is MY time Now - don't say a word - Day 210
Fear of Disappointing others - Day 189	Let's go on Vacation - Day 211
The Psychology of TIME - Day 190	Comparison is a Bitch - Day 212
I Regret, therefor, I'm a Good Person. NOT!!! - Day 191	Damn, I will never have everything done - Day 213
	Standing as an Example - Self Interest or Self Realization? - Day 214

 

For the purpose of context, suggest reading these posts above prior to reading the post below, if you haven’t already. Here I will be walking the 'I don't have TIME' Character - Internal Conversation/ back chat Dimension - Practical support with Self Forgiveness and Self Commitments.

 

Here, one must understand that the Back chat, are the source of all Evil wherein, what one accepting and allowing within oneself, within the belief that no one will ever find out, is nasty and evil shit. Therefor, I will be walking back chat by back chat, in making sure I purify myself from the Evil that I've accepted and allowed within myself, in the context of the ' I don't have Time' Character.

 

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Look at X - X is working much harder then me, X is studying, working, walking the responsibilities X committed to, sleeping for 2-3 hours - if X can do it, I must do it and stop complaining.

 

Within this backchat my starting point is still in comparison that was activated within a reaction towards the idea/opinion that I don't have enough time. Thus, instead of utilizing X as an Example and within that reminding myself that there is an example that I can learn from and perfect myself to stand as Equal to this being, I participated in this backchat from the starting point of calming myself down, after a series of previous backchat that were more self destructive in nature.

 

As I've mentioned in my Previous blog - Standing as an example doesn't mean standing as more or less than anyone else, standing as an example is a self expression within the realization of: This is who I am, this is why I am here and this is how I decide to walk my life in assisting and support myself as others within the principle of Give as You would Like to Receive and as I received the Gift of having people in my Life that are standing as an example of what I could be and become, I make the decision for and as myself to walk my Own process in becoming that which I can become and so, as I walk my process, I'm Giving that which I received by standing as Example as an expression of myself.

 

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to believe that having a backchat within the nature of calming self down is Valid and within that, haven't realized how I've manipulated myself within the belief that calming myself down through Thoughts is supportive and accordingly haven't investigated the nature of the backchat, what is behind the backchat and what is the backchat imply regarding to who I am within that moment. I forgive myself that I've NOT accepted and allowed myself to realize that calming myself down with thoughts is still done within a reaction and not in complete and absolute self movement of seeing what I have accepted and allowed myself to participate with and to accordingly, as I see, realize and understand the point, moving through this, bring myself here, BREATHE and keep on going. 

 

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to compare myself to a being that I perceive to be better than me, as a motivator Key to how I would move and direct myself through Thoughts within and as myself, not seeing, realizing and understanding that this being is simply an example of self movement that shows me that once a decision is made in absolute self honesty and clarity, self is effective within and as oneself which reflect in what one do, as an expression of who one is.

 

In this, I forgive myself that I've NOT accepted and allowed myself to see the starting point within having a comparative back chat within and as myself and its relationship to the Diminishment character that I've created within and as myself wherein, I've Utilized a comparison point to "Remind" myself how I'm not good enough because there are others who are better than me and thus, I must not complain and simply do the work. In that, I forgive myself that I've NOT accepted and allowed myself to see how through calming myself down in such away, through suppressing the 'I don't have time' Character, I had Shifted to the 'Diminishment Character' instead of assisting and supporting myself in standing within and as myself, so absolute and directive, in letting all of this Go, Breathe and move on.

 

A suggested reading to clarify the relationship between comparison and self diminishment:

The Self Diminishment Character - Day 94

They are Better than me, I'm so fucked up - Day 95

Taking responsibility for my creation - Day 96

 

" I don't understand how Y is doing what she is doing; I mean seriously, she is like a super woman.

What the fuck is wrong with me? why can't I simply apply myself breath by breath and have things done? Why I'm always complaining and blaming and being jealous.

 

What is "Wrong" with me is now the 'Diminishment' Character in full action that I had accepted and allowed myself to access to and give all my power away. So here, Despite of me noticing within and as myself that I compare, and complain, and blame and all of it through Jealousy, I still accept and allow this energy, this possessed entity to exists within and as me.

 

So, being so all mighty in my Previous back that that was discussed in Standing as an Example - Self Interest or Self Realization? - Day 214, to comparing myself to X, I slowly but surely went from the Polarity of being superior towards those that I've diminished in my mind, those that I had defined as ineffective in comparison to my "effectiveness", I now went into the other polarity, seeing my ineffectiveness in comparison to X and then I conclude that I'm worthless through the comparison to Y - that is how the Diminishment Character works and functions which I again suggest reading (Day 94-96)

 

I Commit myself to assist and support myself to STOP bouncing from one character to the other through NOT accepting and allowing myself any backchat whatsoever within and as my mind. I understand that it is going to take a process of Breath Accumulation and so, I commit myself to Remain Humble within and as myself, to not accept and allow myself to judge and be hard on myself and to simply, walk the layers of the mind, as it reveal itself, slowly but Surely.

 

I Commit myself to establish Self Respect within and as myself and to stop Diminishing myself and others within and as my mind as I see, realize and understand the Evil that exists within and as the Diminishment of others and I now walk the correction, Stop Comparing, competing, judging and spiting other people and myself, within and as my mind. Thus, When and as I see a backchat comes up, where I compare, judge, diminish and spite myself and others, I stop, I breathe, Delete and move on. I see, realize and understand that temptation would come and it is up to me to decide, in any given moment of breath whether I respect myself and others in self honesty, or whether I accept and allow the Evil nature of me to take over in absolute possession and so - I commit myself to assist and support myself to Decide, over and over and over again, to stand as Life until I no longer require to remind myself as I'm the living expression of Life that is best for all.

 

 

 

 

 

Stupidity Loop - Jumping from the Bad to the Good to the Bad - Day 196

This is a continuation to:

The Elite's delusion of stress - Part 1 - Day 45

The Elite's Delusion of Stress - Part 2 - Day 46

The Decision of TIME - Day 67

And:

Copy Paste Character - the Way for Success? - Day 183

Copy Paste Character - The Education System - Day 184

Is it possible to Cheat yourself? Day 185

It is time to STOP Existing as a Human Machine - Day 186

The End of Times - Day 187

Facing the Evil within - the KEY to LIFE - Day 188

Fear of Disappointing others - Day 189

The Psychology of TIME - Day 190

I Regret, therefor, I'm a Good Person. NOT!!! - Day 191

The REAL Fear - Day 192

The things we Won't tell ANYONE - Day 193

Missing out on the Good Life - Day 194

Let's have some Fun - Day 195

For the purpose of context, suggest reading these posts above prior to reading the post below, if you haven’t already. Here I will be walking the 'I don't have TIME' Character -Imagination Dimension - Practical support with Self Forgiveness and Self Commitments.

 

Imagination Dimension:

* I fantasize of taking a vacation, lying down on the beach, with nothing else to do but enjoy the sun, swimming in the ocean, going to a restaurant, having a fruit shake - in India or Thailand lol.

* I imagine other people doing the same just now, while I'm stuck on the computer, doing my routine work.

* I imagine the life of those who have money and can do what ever they want with their life - having a spa day, going out, enjoying themselves as I used to do myself a few years back.

* I imagine people coming back from work, after a long day, and sitting on the coach with their partner, hanging out, watching a movie, laying back, with nothing really to do.

 

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* I fantasize of taking a vacation, lying down on the beach, with nothing else to do but enjoy the sun, swimming in the ocean, going to a restaurant, having a fruit shake - in India or Thailand lol.

 

This is a direct imagination deriving from the initial picture that I've seen yesterday and I have shared in my blog: Let's have some Fun - Day 195

 

Self Forgiveness:

 

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to hold onto a memory experience of me spending a long period of time overseas where all I've done all day was lying on the beach during the days and partying during the nights and within that memory, contain the experience of Freedom as an energetic experience.

 

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to limit myself to such an extent, believing that lying on the beach and partying at night is the definition of Freedom and within that, deliberately "forgetting" the inner Negative experience that I've experienced while on vacation, the anxiety when meeting new people, the depression that I've suppressed and the slight sadness that was constant within and as me. Within that, I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to deliberately suppress the Negative experience and only remember the positive experience so that I won't have to face, correct and change both the Negative and Positive as Energetic experiences and in that, remain limited to only exists as polarized Energy experiences that would activate constantly and continuously the 'I don't have time' Character that I've accepted and allowed as myself.

 

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to NOT allow myself to investigate how the mind works and functions and who I am as the mind and thus, when and as a picture of a good and positive experience came up from within me, instead of stopping and investigating the source/nature of the picture, what the picture represents, why the picture suddenly came up, who I am as the picture, what activate the picture, where did this picture came from and what the picture implies about me, I've accepted and allowed myself to follow and go into the imagination dimension, preoccupying myself in my mind, in total separation from what is REAL, as Breathe, this Physical reality because, in doing so, I don't have to face the physicality, that which is Real, and that which is going on in front of me - Life, that I've missed in every moment I've accepted and allowed myself being in my mind, within the imagination domain.

 

I forgive myself that I've NOT accepted and allowed myself to see, realize and understand the stupidity loop that I've accepted and allowed within myself wherein - what I've NOT accepted and allowed myself to realize is that both the Negative experience as what I face in the physical reality within the 'I don't have time' character and the positive Experience that I'm imagining in my mind - Both are NOT real from the perspective that both is my acceptance and allowance of seeing existent through my eyes as the mind and not seeing the physical reality as a whole, directly, in a quantum moment. Meaning - the Negative experience as I perceive my reality to be like as a burden of all the tasks and work I must do, in a specific moment that the 'I don't have time' character is activated is through a veil that I've placed, Deliberately, as a mind Barrier and that negative experience can only exists through comparing the experience to the positive experience as imagination, in my mind.

 

Self Commitments:

 

I commit myself to SHOW and PROVE that how we see reality is ONLY through our mind as accumulated experiences that we so blindly believe to be real where our own self interest is the stepping stone which we would direct, move and walk this LIFE with no consideration to the actual and real Physical reality, to not face all of ourselves - bad and good, the Negative and Positive as energy experiences, so that we won't have to  take the responsibility, change and correct ourselves within and without - ourselves and this world as a whole, in physical Equality and Oneness.

 

I commit myself to when and as I see myself going into the imagination domain, in my mind, to stop, breathe and question the existent of the imagination, in specificity and in that- to ask myself questions and answer in self honesty until I see the entire design, see the positive/Negative experience cycle I've participated within and as and in that, investigate what it was , that I've tried to ignore, deny and suppress as the negative experience through running away to the realms of my mind as imagination as the positive experience and obviously, accordingly, change and correct my physical application.

Let's have some Fun - Day 195

 

 

This is a continuation to:

The Elite's delusion of stress - Part 1 - Day 45

The Elite's Delusion of Stress - Part 2 - Day 46

The Decision of TIME - Day 67

And:

Copy Paste Character - the Way for Success? - Day 183

Copy Paste Character - The Education System - Day 184

Is it possible to Cheat yourself? Day 185

It is time to STOP Existing as a Human Machine - Day 186

The End of Times - Day 187

Facing the Evil within - the KEY to LIFE - Day 188

Fear of Disappointing others - Day 189

The Psychology of TIME - Day 190

I Regret, therefor, I'm a Good Person. NOT!!! - Day 191

The REAL Fear - Day 192

The things we Won't tell ANYONE - Day 193

Missing out on the Good Life - Day 194

 

For the purpose of context, suggest reading these posts above prior to reading the post below, if you haven’t already. Here I will be walking the 'I don't have TIME' Character - Thought as Picture Dimension - Practical support with Self Forgiveness and Self Commitments.

 

 

Thoughts Dimension:

I see myself pleasuring out in the sun, taking a swim, lying on the grass, watching a movie.

 

In looking at my words - it is clear that the thought that pop up in my head when I access the 'I don't have time' character is based on………… Self Interest. Because what the picture represents is a Desire for a Positive experience that would benefit ME and ME alone and even if I wouldn't act on it in my day to day living application, I still desire it, it is still a point that influence the decisions I make because I've separated myself from the Desire to such an extent that I couldn't even see the existent of the Desire within and as me because this thought as picture flashes so fast that unless I slow down completely from the starting point of being self honest with myself and see it, I would never notice or have been aware that this thought as picture is existent within and as me; and accordingly, would have still make decisions based on a Desire that I'm not even aware of, in total separation from myself, as an automated machine with no self awareness whatsoever.

 

Thus -

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to separate myself to such an extent that I'm not aware at all of my own mind flashing thoughts as picture, in quantum time, which then thus, these thoughts as picture would the hidden foundation of my decisions within the belief that it was ME who made the decision, that the decision was informed, calculated, considered.

 

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to come up with a picture in my head of me pleasuring out in the sun, taking a swim or lying in the grass or watching a movie that activated the possession of 'I don't have TIME' character and through accepting and allowing this picture to exists within and as me, I've accepted and allowed myself to get myself further into the realm of my mind, feeling sorry for myself for not having time to do the things I believe I enjoy doing because it is apparently, gives me a positive energetic feeling, as an experience.

 

I forgive myself that I've NOT accepted and allowed myself to see, realize and understand that for the mind, Participating in the 'I don't have time' character is a "positive" thing because the mind isn't functioning on the differentiation between positive and Negative energy; for the mind, energy is just energy that the mind would utilize for its survival. In that, I forgive myself that I've NOT accepted and allowed myself to See, Realize and Understand that the polarity within the 'I don't have time' character exists within and as one's self interest desire for positive experience vs. the Negative Experience such as feeling sorry for oneself for having lots of work to do.

 

In that, I forgive myself that I've NOT accepted and allowed myself to see that for the polarity existent within the 'I don't have time' character, the thought as a picture activate the character from a comparison starting point wherein, unless one compare one's current experience through a picture of a desired positive experience, one would not be able to define one's current experience as negative. 

Thus,

 

I commit myself to assist and support myself with getting to know the entirety of myself and in that, to slow myself Down so completely that I would be able to see what I've accepted and allowed myself to activate each and every character that I've created within and as myself and through realizing the design of the character, the activation/trigger point, I would understand and realize how I as the mind works and functions and accordingly, Forgive myself for my previous acceptance and allowances in separation of myself and practically assist and support myself in changing the pattern/characters/personality to no longer be govern by my own creation that I've created in separation of and as myself.

 

I commit myself to delete the picture in my mind - 'pleasuring out in the sun, taking a swim, lying on the grass, watching a movie' as I now see, realize and understand why and how I've accepted and allowed this picture to exists within and as me as the foundation of the 'I don't have time' character so that I could compare my current experience with the experience the picture represents, which would perpetuate the negative experience and from there - the path to self destruction is already known.

 

I commit myself to further expand the investigation and self introspection regarding Self Interest in its entirety and all the various dimensions of myself as my mind as I see now, how Evil it is in fact, to exists within and as Self Interest and the consequences self interest application manifest within my life and the life of all.

Missing out on the Good Life - Day 194

This is a continuation to:

The Elite's delusion of stress - Part 1 - Day 45

The Elite's Delusion of Stress - Part 2 - Day 46

The Decision of TIME - Day 67

And:

Copy Paste Character - the Way for Success? - Day 183

Copy Paste Character - The Education System - Day 184

Is it possible to Cheat yourself? Day 185

It is time to STOP Existing as a Human Machine - Day 186

The End of Times - Day 187

Facing the Evil within - the KEY to LIFE - Day 188

Fear of Disappointing others - Day 189

The Psychology of TIME - Day 190

I Regret, therefor, I'm a Good Person. NOT!!! - Day 191

The REAL Fear - Day 192

The things we Won't tell ANYONE - Day 193

 

For the purpose of context, suggest reading these posts above prior to reading the post below, if you haven’t already. Here I will be walking the 'I don't have TIME' Character - Fear Dimension - Practical support with Self Forgiveness and Self Commitments.

 

The List below consists of the Fears which are the foundation of the 'I don't have Time' Character.

 

Fear Dimension:

• Fear that I'll disappoint other people if I won't take more tasks on myself

• Fear that I would be defined as unworthy because I'm not using my time to it's utmost potential.

• Fear that I won't get things done and would regret it when consequences would emerged so basically, fear of the consequences.
• Fear that I would be seen as not good enough, replaceable, inadequate
• Fear of being exposed as self dishonest because I know, that if I put my self interest desires aside, I'm able to walk my tasks in absolute perfection.

• Fear of Missing out the Positive experience as Entertainment

 

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* Fear of Missing out the Positive experience as Entertainment

 

Self forgiveness:

 

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to FEAR missing out on a Positive experience when I'm busy working on a task/work/assignment because I believed that when I'm busy while others having a positive experience as entertainment and I'm not joining them, than eventually, they would stop inviting me to join them and I'll slowly but surely be cast away from all my relationships with other human beings. In that, I forgive myself that I've NOT accepted and allowed myself to see the nature of 'Fear of missing out' within that context wherein, what I fear missing out is my own self interest desire for an experience because I haven't yet realized who I am as breath in any given moment where - who I am is not define by either positive or negative experiences but rather - who I am within and as these experience.

 

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to fear losing my own self interest desires as I've valued these desires and defined myself according to my desires and accordingly, have separated myself from the physical experiences I'm participating with, breath by breath, when I've accepted and allowed myself to attach and assign specific values according to how I would benefit in walking these experiences within my own self interest. Within that, I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to define experiences as positive or negative in separation from myself wherein the Energy that I would gain from participating within these experiences would be my directing principle when making the decisions of what I would participate and what I  would not. In that, I forgive myself that I've NOT accepted and allowed myself to see, realize and understand how Decisions are made based on one's value that one is giving to the energetic experiences either as positive or Negative with no actual and physical consideration within and as the principle of that which is best for all as well as who one is within and as these experiences.

 

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to compromise and sabotage myself and therefor others when and as I accept and allow myself to act upon the fear of missing out where I would abdicate my responsibilities and go for a positive experience such as entertainment and within that, I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to rush through my tasks/work/assignment and brush it off within the idea that I don't have time however, when it comes to entertainment, I have enough time.

 

Self Commitments:

 

I commit myself to STOP my own self interest desires that are the stumble stones to an actual self change as I see, realize and understand that unless I stand up, in every moment of every breath, in absolute self honesty, in directing and moving myself ONLY according to what id best for all LIVES, as within as without - no change is possible. In that, I commit myself to SHOW that unless we stand up and transform our self interest to Best for all interest - we would not be able to change ourselves and this world as a whole because this world is a direct reflection of what the consequences within our collective acceptance and allowance of acting out on our self interest desires for Experiences within the definitions that we have assigned to these experiences and with no consideration, whatsoever to Humanity as a whole - Equal and One.

 

I commit myself to assist and support myself with identifying everything that I have assigned positive or negative value to, to then thus, investigate the nature of the definition, Who I am within it, is it standing within and as the principle of that which is best for all or is to protect my self interest desires - as I see, realize and understand that continue walking and directing myself according to experiences that hold a specific value as positive or negative energetic charge, is to walk and direct myself according to preprogram life design with no actual and physical, Hereness of really directly seeing who I am in every given moment and what alignments are required to be done to stand in absolute self honesty, hereness, breath by breath.

 

I commit myself to continue assisting and supporting myself in walking through the layers of the mind within and as the 'I don't have time' character and in that, to STOP sabotaging and compromising myself and therefor all, through abdicating my responsibility of acting, moving, directing MYSELF, breath by breath and to practically change myself to stand in alignment with ONE principle of Physical Equality that is best for all as I see, realize and understand my responsibility in changing myself and its effect on this world as a whole.

The things we Won't tell ANYONE - Day 193

This is a continuation to:

The Elite's delusion of stress - Part 1 - Day 45

The Elite's Delusion of Stress - Part 2 - Day 46

The Decision of TIME - Day 67

And:

Copy Paste Character - the Way for Success? - Day 183

Copy Paste Character - The Education System - Day 184

Is it possible to Cheat yourself? Day 185

It is time to STOP Existing as a Human Machine - Day 186

The End of Times - Day 187

Facing the Evil within - the KEY to LIFE - Day 188

Fear of Disappointing others - Day 189

The Psychology of TIME - Day 190

I Regret, therefor, I'm a Good Person. NOT!!! - Day 191

The REAL Fear - Day 192

 

For the purpose of context, suggest reading these posts above prior to reading the post below, if you haven’t already. Here I will be walking the 'I don't have TIME' Character - Fear Dimension - Practical support with Self Forgiveness and Self Commitments.

 

The List below consists of the Fears which are the foundation of the 'I don't have Time' Character.

 

Fear Dimension:

* Fear that I'll disappoint other people if I won't take more tasks on myself

* Fear that I would be defined as unworthy because I'm not using my time to

it's utmost potential.

* Fear that I won't get things done and would regret it when consequences

would emerged so basically, fear of the consequences.

* Fear that I would be seen as not good enough, replaceable, inadequate

* Fear of being exposed as self dishonest because I know, that if I put my self

interest desires aside, I'm able to walk my tasks in absolute perfection.

* Fear of Missing out the Positive as Entertainment

 

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* Fear of being exposed as self dishonest because I know, that if I put my self

interest desires aside, I'm able to walk my tasks in absolute perfection.

 

Self Forgiveness:

 

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to - Despite of seeing my own self-dishonesties through observing my own thoughts/backchats, I've developed a relationship towards being self dishonest and had hold that relationship so dearly through developing FEAR of being exposed for what I've accepted and allowed instead of standing up, Face myself as all that I've accepted and allowed myself to be and become, inside and out and obviously - change myself accordingly.

 

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to place my own desire as valuable, and in that, disregarding the principle of that which is best for all life as that principle do not stand in alignment to my own self interest desires and within that, I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to FALL within moments where my self interest desires override the principle of that which is best for all lives, deliberately because one ALWAYS know what one is accepting and allowing within oneself but one would justify and validate why one should pursue one's desires and make it OK within one's eyes despite of seeing, directly what one is accepting and allowing oneself to participate with, one's own deliberate self dishonesty within the hope that no one would notice, no one will be effected or harm because only self knows what self is planning, and justify in one's mind and in that, one would FEAR being exposed so that one could keep on acting in on the behalf on one's self interest and remain an abuser of Life without ever having to take SELF responsibility and change.

 

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to deliberately round the corners and walk a task till it's acceptable, but not perfect within the excuse that I don't have time and I have many other tasks waiting in queue and I simply can't invest my time in walking in perfection. Within that, I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to ignore, suppress, hide and avoid my inner self honesty force of stopping myself for harming, sabotaging and compromising myself within my accepted and allowed decision to round the corners instead of walking in self perfection and as long as no one knows that I've compromised a task, I can get along with it, remain self dishonest and untrustworthy in fact. 

 

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to truly believe that if no one knows about my inner thoughts and decisions, I'll be fine and everything would be OK, and within that, accepting and allowing the FEAR of being exposed because I haven't accepted and allowed myself to move and direct myself in self honesty, breath by breath and only FEARed being exposed as who I have accepted and allowed myself to be and become because my entire self definition is based on what others would say about me or see me as. In that, I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to in spite of seeing my own fear of being exposed as untrustworthy, I have done nothing about it to in fact change.

 

Self Commitments:

 

I commit myself to - when and as I see I have inner conversation with myself, scamming how to round the corners so that no one would noticed, to Immediately Stop as I see, realize and understand the relationship I've created with being dishonest within myself and with that relationship, to fear being exposed because once I am exposed, the relationship I've created with myself must fall.

 

I commit myself to get HERE, Physically, in full awareness of everything the is HERE and to do that, I commit myself to assist and support myself to expose ALL my inner self interest desires as I see, realize and understand that unless I stand, within and as the principle of that which is best for all lives and in that, letting go my own self interest desires, there is no real and substantial change within myself and accordingly in the world as what I allow to exists within, I allow to exist without.

 

I commit myself to SHOW and EXPOSE the Evil that we have become within the hope and belief that what we think in the inside, doesn't harm, influence, sabotage and compromise anything and anyone and in that, I commit myself to prove that the EVIL exists within each and everyone of us and unless we come to terms with the fact that we are EVIL, no change is possible within oneself and this world as a whole. I commit myself to PROVE that when one accept and allow oneself to THINK - one is EVIL.

For Further understanding of EVILness - suggest listening to: Day 187 - EVIL – Journey to Life  and study the Quantum Mind on EQAFE