The Answer is within the Question - Day 390

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

This is a continuation of the previous blog: Why did we stop questioning our reality? (Part 1) - Day 387 and

Why did we stop questioning our reality? (Part 2) - Day 388 and Why children do not respects Parents? - Day 389. For the full context of this blog, I suggest reading through these blogs for context.

 

So why have we stopped questioning our reality? How is it that at a young age we constantly asked: "But Why?" and then all of a sudden we became these beings that had submitted to the system that is dysfunctional in nature and yet, do not question it whatsoever? And of course, we cannot even question why we didn't thus far question because that would indicate that we are questioning our reality but since we are so use to not question anything, we end up where we are - in a dysfunctional world system where Equality, Integrity and Oneness is no where to be found; in a world system that is based on Greed, Power and Control where the winner takes it all; in a world system where unless you have money, you are not safe; in a world system that it's based foundation is to keep the human enslaved, limited and ineffective; it is time to start questioning our reality and in doing so, also walk the solutions and establish a world we can all be proud at.

 

As I've shown in the previous blogs, suppressing our natural ability to understand and comprehend a point was taken cared of at home, by our parents. And they cannot be blamed because they have been suppressed and limited by their own parents which are also not to be blamed because they have walked the same path with their parents and so on and on and on... the sin of the fathers keep on passing generation after generation. But the cycle must be stopped eventually and the questions must be asked and resolve into a solution that is best for all.

 

It seems to me that at some stage in our lives, when we realize that we are not going to live the happily ever after story as how we would have pictured and imagined our lives to be, for a glimpse of a moment we find ourselves wondering how did we come to this point and what went wrong during the way. We will start questioning our lives and from here, one of two things would happened: most likely, we would again submit to our course of life and justify for ourselves why our lives is just perfect the way it is and in rare cases, we would continue to investigate but once we realize that we are the solution, that we are the key, we will immediate give up and then justify for ourselves again why we shouldn't even bother. Yes, there are also these rare cases were we become activists and make a small and insignificant change in the world and again, justify for ourselves that we did our share and that is all that one can do. Although, there is one thing that none of us have yet to realize and that is - on the individual level, we cannot make a change however, once we stand together, as humanity and we align ourselves to the principle of absolute equality as what is best for all then… we can make a change.

 

It isn't going to be easy and with any new change, resistance will come up and it's ok - we have all been there and walked this point and you can read all about it in our journeys to life but the thing is - the answer is within the question and all we have to do is keep on asking the questions so that we can finally see the answer that was always here.

 

Join us in our journey of questioning our reality and see the answer for yourself.

 

 

 

 

Why doesn't God answer my Prayers? Day 349

 

Why doesn't God answer the Prayers of those who starve?

Why doesn't God answer the Prayers of those who in a daily pain?

Why doesn't God answer the prayers of the children who are born into slavery?

Why does God only answer those with Money?

Why does God only answer with/trough Money?

Wait! Does that mean that God is in essence Money?

 

For a few years I prayed as well. I didn't call it God, I called it Grandfather (that had died). When my prayer didn't come through, I finally decided to stop but it didn't last long and a few years later I found another 'higher source' I could pray to. This time I called it 'Guide'. But.. This guide didn't answer my prayer either and I felt lost for a moment until I started to develop some form of common sense in adding the points together when I asked the above questions.

 

So I realized that Money is the force that direct our lives; that Money decide who lives and who dies; that Karma is just a brand name that was used to make us either feel better with ourselves if we have money or at least enough money to suppress the truth of ourselves or make us feel guilty and ashamed if we born to the wrong side of the Money polarity.

 

I think that it is safe to say that if God really exist, he doesn't do a great job and its creation had evolved to something that if God would have existed, he would be ashamed of himself for accepting and allowing this existence to become the manifestation it is now.

 

So, wouldn't you agree that it is time to take our godly powers back to ourselves and correct the mess that we live in? wouldn't you want to ensure that your children and grandchildren could live in a world where abundance is not a world that is associated with only a select few? Wouldn't you want the future of your generation to come to be a future where they could actually live in dignity and integrity without fearing for their survival? I'm sure you do. So let's do some simple Math:

At the moment: God = Money. and what is it that we truly desire for? A Life that can actually be lived in peace and harmony. Does, what needs to be changed? The value we define Money as. If we change the value of Money to Value that encompass LIFE that is best for ALL (Which include you as part of the all), we could finally start changing the course of our living experiences isn't right?

 

So - to learn how it can practically be done - Investigate the Equal Money System where the starting point of Money is Life that is best for all. Explore the possibilities of your Future and the future of your Loved one if only you would dare to take what was always belong to you but you forgot about it -> Life! It's time for a change so be the change you want to see in this world, in a practical and physical manner.

 

Stupidity Loop - Jumping from the Bad to the Good to the Bad - Day 196

This is a continuation to:

The Elite's delusion of stress - Part 1 - Day 45

The Elite's Delusion of Stress - Part 2 - Day 46

The Decision of TIME - Day 67

And:

Copy Paste Character - the Way for Success? - Day 183

Copy Paste Character - The Education System - Day 184

Is it possible to Cheat yourself? Day 185

It is time to STOP Existing as a Human Machine - Day 186

The End of Times - Day 187

Facing the Evil within - the KEY to LIFE - Day 188

Fear of Disappointing others - Day 189

The Psychology of TIME - Day 190

I Regret, therefor, I'm a Good Person. NOT!!! - Day 191

The REAL Fear - Day 192

The things we Won't tell ANYONE - Day 193

Missing out on the Good Life - Day 194

Let's have some Fun - Day 195

For the purpose of context, suggest reading these posts above prior to reading the post below, if you haven’t already. Here I will be walking the 'I don't have TIME' Character -Imagination Dimension - Practical support with Self Forgiveness and Self Commitments.

 

Imagination Dimension:

* I fantasize of taking a vacation, lying down on the beach, with nothing else to do but enjoy the sun, swimming in the ocean, going to a restaurant, having a fruit shake - in India or Thailand lol.

* I imagine other people doing the same just now, while I'm stuck on the computer, doing my routine work.

* I imagine the life of those who have money and can do what ever they want with their life - having a spa day, going out, enjoying themselves as I used to do myself a few years back.

* I imagine people coming back from work, after a long day, and sitting on the coach with their partner, hanging out, watching a movie, laying back, with nothing really to do.

 

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* I fantasize of taking a vacation, lying down on the beach, with nothing else to do but enjoy the sun, swimming in the ocean, going to a restaurant, having a fruit shake - in India or Thailand lol.

 

This is a direct imagination deriving from the initial picture that I've seen yesterday and I have shared in my blog: Let's have some Fun - Day 195

 

Self Forgiveness:

 

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to hold onto a memory experience of me spending a long period of time overseas where all I've done all day was lying on the beach during the days and partying during the nights and within that memory, contain the experience of Freedom as an energetic experience.

 

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to limit myself to such an extent, believing that lying on the beach and partying at night is the definition of Freedom and within that, deliberately "forgetting" the inner Negative experience that I've experienced while on vacation, the anxiety when meeting new people, the depression that I've suppressed and the slight sadness that was constant within and as me. Within that, I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to deliberately suppress the Negative experience and only remember the positive experience so that I won't have to face, correct and change both the Negative and Positive as Energetic experiences and in that, remain limited to only exists as polarized Energy experiences that would activate constantly and continuously the 'I don't have time' Character that I've accepted and allowed as myself.

 

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to NOT allow myself to investigate how the mind works and functions and who I am as the mind and thus, when and as a picture of a good and positive experience came up from within me, instead of stopping and investigating the source/nature of the picture, what the picture represents, why the picture suddenly came up, who I am as the picture, what activate the picture, where did this picture came from and what the picture implies about me, I've accepted and allowed myself to follow and go into the imagination dimension, preoccupying myself in my mind, in total separation from what is REAL, as Breathe, this Physical reality because, in doing so, I don't have to face the physicality, that which is Real, and that which is going on in front of me - Life, that I've missed in every moment I've accepted and allowed myself being in my mind, within the imagination domain.

 

I forgive myself that I've NOT accepted and allowed myself to see, realize and understand the stupidity loop that I've accepted and allowed within myself wherein - what I've NOT accepted and allowed myself to realize is that both the Negative experience as what I face in the physical reality within the 'I don't have time' character and the positive Experience that I'm imagining in my mind - Both are NOT real from the perspective that both is my acceptance and allowance of seeing existent through my eyes as the mind and not seeing the physical reality as a whole, directly, in a quantum moment. Meaning - the Negative experience as I perceive my reality to be like as a burden of all the tasks and work I must do, in a specific moment that the 'I don't have time' character is activated is through a veil that I've placed, Deliberately, as a mind Barrier and that negative experience can only exists through comparing the experience to the positive experience as imagination, in my mind.

 

Self Commitments:

 

I commit myself to SHOW and PROVE that how we see reality is ONLY through our mind as accumulated experiences that we so blindly believe to be real where our own self interest is the stepping stone which we would direct, move and walk this LIFE with no consideration to the actual and real Physical reality, to not face all of ourselves - bad and good, the Negative and Positive as energy experiences, so that we won't have to  take the responsibility, change and correct ourselves within and without - ourselves and this world as a whole, in physical Equality and Oneness.

 

I commit myself to when and as I see myself going into the imagination domain, in my mind, to stop, breathe and question the existent of the imagination, in specificity and in that- to ask myself questions and answer in self honesty until I see the entire design, see the positive/Negative experience cycle I've participated within and as and in that, investigate what it was , that I've tried to ignore, deny and suppress as the negative experience through running away to the realms of my mind as imagination as the positive experience and obviously, accordingly, change and correct my physical application.

Let's have some Fun - Day 195

 

 

This is a continuation to:

The Elite's delusion of stress - Part 1 - Day 45

The Elite's Delusion of Stress - Part 2 - Day 46

The Decision of TIME - Day 67

And:

Copy Paste Character - the Way for Success? - Day 183

Copy Paste Character - The Education System - Day 184

Is it possible to Cheat yourself? Day 185

It is time to STOP Existing as a Human Machine - Day 186

The End of Times - Day 187

Facing the Evil within - the KEY to LIFE - Day 188

Fear of Disappointing others - Day 189

The Psychology of TIME - Day 190

I Regret, therefor, I'm a Good Person. NOT!!! - Day 191

The REAL Fear - Day 192

The things we Won't tell ANYONE - Day 193

Missing out on the Good Life - Day 194

 

For the purpose of context, suggest reading these posts above prior to reading the post below, if you haven’t already. Here I will be walking the 'I don't have TIME' Character - Thought as Picture Dimension - Practical support with Self Forgiveness and Self Commitments.

 

 

Thoughts Dimension:

I see myself pleasuring out in the sun, taking a swim, lying on the grass, watching a movie.

 

In looking at my words - it is clear that the thought that pop up in my head when I access the 'I don't have time' character is based on………… Self Interest. Because what the picture represents is a Desire for a Positive experience that would benefit ME and ME alone and even if I wouldn't act on it in my day to day living application, I still desire it, it is still a point that influence the decisions I make because I've separated myself from the Desire to such an extent that I couldn't even see the existent of the Desire within and as me because this thought as picture flashes so fast that unless I slow down completely from the starting point of being self honest with myself and see it, I would never notice or have been aware that this thought as picture is existent within and as me; and accordingly, would have still make decisions based on a Desire that I'm not even aware of, in total separation from myself, as an automated machine with no self awareness whatsoever.

 

Thus -

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to separate myself to such an extent that I'm not aware at all of my own mind flashing thoughts as picture, in quantum time, which then thus, these thoughts as picture would the hidden foundation of my decisions within the belief that it was ME who made the decision, that the decision was informed, calculated, considered.

 

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to come up with a picture in my head of me pleasuring out in the sun, taking a swim or lying in the grass or watching a movie that activated the possession of 'I don't have TIME' character and through accepting and allowing this picture to exists within and as me, I've accepted and allowed myself to get myself further into the realm of my mind, feeling sorry for myself for not having time to do the things I believe I enjoy doing because it is apparently, gives me a positive energetic feeling, as an experience.

 

I forgive myself that I've NOT accepted and allowed myself to see, realize and understand that for the mind, Participating in the 'I don't have time' character is a "positive" thing because the mind isn't functioning on the differentiation between positive and Negative energy; for the mind, energy is just energy that the mind would utilize for its survival. In that, I forgive myself that I've NOT accepted and allowed myself to See, Realize and Understand that the polarity within the 'I don't have time' character exists within and as one's self interest desire for positive experience vs. the Negative Experience such as feeling sorry for oneself for having lots of work to do.

 

In that, I forgive myself that I've NOT accepted and allowed myself to see that for the polarity existent within the 'I don't have time' character, the thought as a picture activate the character from a comparison starting point wherein, unless one compare one's current experience through a picture of a desired positive experience, one would not be able to define one's current experience as negative. 

Thus,

 

I commit myself to assist and support myself with getting to know the entirety of myself and in that, to slow myself Down so completely that I would be able to see what I've accepted and allowed myself to activate each and every character that I've created within and as myself and through realizing the design of the character, the activation/trigger point, I would understand and realize how I as the mind works and functions and accordingly, Forgive myself for my previous acceptance and allowances in separation of myself and practically assist and support myself in changing the pattern/characters/personality to no longer be govern by my own creation that I've created in separation of and as myself.

 

I commit myself to delete the picture in my mind - 'pleasuring out in the sun, taking a swim, lying on the grass, watching a movie' as I now see, realize and understand why and how I've accepted and allowed this picture to exists within and as me as the foundation of the 'I don't have time' character so that I could compare my current experience with the experience the picture represents, which would perpetuate the negative experience and from there - the path to self destruction is already known.

 

I commit myself to further expand the investigation and self introspection regarding Self Interest in its entirety and all the various dimensions of myself as my mind as I see now, how Evil it is in fact, to exists within and as Self Interest and the consequences self interest application manifest within my life and the life of all.

The things we Won't tell ANYONE - Day 193

This is a continuation to:

The Elite's delusion of stress - Part 1 - Day 45

The Elite's Delusion of Stress - Part 2 - Day 46

The Decision of TIME - Day 67

And:

Copy Paste Character - the Way for Success? - Day 183

Copy Paste Character - The Education System - Day 184

Is it possible to Cheat yourself? Day 185

It is time to STOP Existing as a Human Machine - Day 186

The End of Times - Day 187

Facing the Evil within - the KEY to LIFE - Day 188

Fear of Disappointing others - Day 189

The Psychology of TIME - Day 190

I Regret, therefor, I'm a Good Person. NOT!!! - Day 191

The REAL Fear - Day 192

 

For the purpose of context, suggest reading these posts above prior to reading the post below, if you haven’t already. Here I will be walking the 'I don't have TIME' Character - Fear Dimension - Practical support with Self Forgiveness and Self Commitments.

 

The List below consists of the Fears which are the foundation of the 'I don't have Time' Character.

 

Fear Dimension:

* Fear that I'll disappoint other people if I won't take more tasks on myself

* Fear that I would be defined as unworthy because I'm not using my time to

it's utmost potential.

* Fear that I won't get things done and would regret it when consequences

would emerged so basically, fear of the consequences.

* Fear that I would be seen as not good enough, replaceable, inadequate

* Fear of being exposed as self dishonest because I know, that if I put my self

interest desires aside, I'm able to walk my tasks in absolute perfection.

* Fear of Missing out the Positive as Entertainment

 

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* Fear of being exposed as self dishonest because I know, that if I put my self

interest desires aside, I'm able to walk my tasks in absolute perfection.

 

Self Forgiveness:

 

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to - Despite of seeing my own self-dishonesties through observing my own thoughts/backchats, I've developed a relationship towards being self dishonest and had hold that relationship so dearly through developing FEAR of being exposed for what I've accepted and allowed instead of standing up, Face myself as all that I've accepted and allowed myself to be and become, inside and out and obviously - change myself accordingly.

 

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to place my own desire as valuable, and in that, disregarding the principle of that which is best for all life as that principle do not stand in alignment to my own self interest desires and within that, I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to FALL within moments where my self interest desires override the principle of that which is best for all lives, deliberately because one ALWAYS know what one is accepting and allowing within oneself but one would justify and validate why one should pursue one's desires and make it OK within one's eyes despite of seeing, directly what one is accepting and allowing oneself to participate with, one's own deliberate self dishonesty within the hope that no one would notice, no one will be effected or harm because only self knows what self is planning, and justify in one's mind and in that, one would FEAR being exposed so that one could keep on acting in on the behalf on one's self interest and remain an abuser of Life without ever having to take SELF responsibility and change.

 

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to deliberately round the corners and walk a task till it's acceptable, but not perfect within the excuse that I don't have time and I have many other tasks waiting in queue and I simply can't invest my time in walking in perfection. Within that, I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to ignore, suppress, hide and avoid my inner self honesty force of stopping myself for harming, sabotaging and compromising myself within my accepted and allowed decision to round the corners instead of walking in self perfection and as long as no one knows that I've compromised a task, I can get along with it, remain self dishonest and untrustworthy in fact. 

 

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to truly believe that if no one knows about my inner thoughts and decisions, I'll be fine and everything would be OK, and within that, accepting and allowing the FEAR of being exposed because I haven't accepted and allowed myself to move and direct myself in self honesty, breath by breath and only FEARed being exposed as who I have accepted and allowed myself to be and become because my entire self definition is based on what others would say about me or see me as. In that, I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to in spite of seeing my own fear of being exposed as untrustworthy, I have done nothing about it to in fact change.

 

Self Commitments:

 

I commit myself to - when and as I see I have inner conversation with myself, scamming how to round the corners so that no one would noticed, to Immediately Stop as I see, realize and understand the relationship I've created with being dishonest within myself and with that relationship, to fear being exposed because once I am exposed, the relationship I've created with myself must fall.

 

I commit myself to get HERE, Physically, in full awareness of everything the is HERE and to do that, I commit myself to assist and support myself to expose ALL my inner self interest desires as I see, realize and understand that unless I stand, within and as the principle of that which is best for all lives and in that, letting go my own self interest desires, there is no real and substantial change within myself and accordingly in the world as what I allow to exists within, I allow to exist without.

 

I commit myself to SHOW and EXPOSE the Evil that we have become within the hope and belief that what we think in the inside, doesn't harm, influence, sabotage and compromise anything and anyone and in that, I commit myself to prove that the EVIL exists within each and everyone of us and unless we come to terms with the fact that we are EVIL, no change is possible within oneself and this world as a whole. I commit myself to PROVE that when one accept and allow oneself to THINK - one is EVIL.

For Further understanding of EVILness - suggest listening to: Day 187 - EVIL – Journey to Life  and study the Quantum Mind on EQAFE

The REAL Fear - Day 192

This is a continuation to:

The Elite's delusion of stress - Part 1 - Day 45

The Elite's Delusion of Stress - Part 2 - Day 46

The Decision of TIME - Day 67

And:

Copy Paste Character - the Way for Success? - Day 183

Copy Paste Character - The Education System - Day 184

Is it possible to Cheat yourself? Day 185

It is time to STOP Existing as a Human Machine - Day 186

The End of Times - Day 187

Facing the Evil within - the KEY to LIFE - Day 188

Fear of Disappointing others - Day 189

The Psychology of TIME - Day 190

I Regret, therefor, I'm a Good Person. NOT!!! - Day 191

 

For the purpose of context, suggest reading these posts above prior to reading the post below, if you haven’t already. Here I will be walking the 'I don't have TIME' Character - Fear Dimension - Practical support with Self Forgiveness and Self Commitments.

 

The List below consists of the Fears which are the foundation of the 'I don't have Time' Character.

 

 

Fear Dimension:

* Fear that I'll disappoint other people if I won't take more tasks on myself

* Fear that I would be defined as unworthy because I'm not using my time to

it's utmost potential.

* Fear that I won't get things done and would regret it when consequences

would emerged so basically, fear of the consequences.

* Fear that I would be seen as not good enough, replaceable, inadequate

* Fear of being exposed as self dishonest because I know, that if I put my self

interest desires aside, I'm able to walk my tasks in absolute perfection.

* Fear of Missing out the Positive as Entertainment

 

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* Fear that I would be seen as not good enough, replaceable, inadequate

 

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to Fear not being seen as good enough, replaceable or inadequate without giving me the permission to see the REAL fear that I'm accepting and allowing within and as myself which is in essence the fear of loss the Value I've assign to What I Do. Wherein:

Fear of being replaceable in one's Job/work is in itself clearly shows that one had assign value towards one's Job/work through which one is defining oneself as worthy and when one is being replaced, one take it personally because one defined oneself as one's Job/work.

Fear of feeling Inadequate implies that again, one had taken one's Job/work as one's self definition and thus, when the outcome isn't meet one's or other's expectation, one take it personally instead of Stopping for a moment, breath and see, in self honesty whether one should invest the time and effort in aligning one's skills, perfect oneself, learn from other's example and from there, walk in every moment within and as self trust.

Fear of being seen as no good enough is again, taking things personally because one could have investigated where one wasn't standing within and as the principle of that which is best for all and accordingly, align oneself but when taking things personally, one is so possessed in one's mind that no Common sense is seen or considered.

 

Within that thus, I commit myself to - when and as I see a thought and or reaction in the nature of fear of losing a point that I've defined myself as, to Stop, Breathe, and investigate in self honest why and how I've accepted and allowed myself to separate myself from who I am to such an extant that I've limited myself to only this one point as self definition instead of Value myself as who I am as I direct, move and support myself in walking breath by breath, in getting myself back Here and out of the mind. I see, realize and understand that Value myself as Who I am isn't base on energy movement, on self definition, on others to validate myself. Value myself means that I recognized that I'm Here, and that I'm walking towards getting Here, as Who I am and within that, assisting and supporting myself in making decision that are supportive in fact as a principle of Life that is best for all and in that, not accepting and allowing myself to fuck myself with automated reactions, thoughts, behaviours that originated from Fears which I haven't taken the responsibility to look at, investigate, realize myself and accordingly direct.

Can a world of Insanity be Normal? - Day 166

This is a continuation to:

Walking Breath by Breath - Part 1 - Day 160

Walking Breath by Breath - Part 2 - Day 161

Spiritualizing beings that had Died - Day 162

OMG, I'm so Special because I'm speaking with the Dead - Day 163

Cannot Conceptualize Equality in our Minds - Day 164

Coming Down to Earth - Part 1 - Day 165

 

 

I forgive myself that I've NOT accepted and allowed myself to Realize what NORMAL is and within that, had accepted and allowed myself to define this existence, the people, the mind, the suffering, the pain, etc. as Normal while the physical reality shows the exact opposite - that what we have defined as Normal thus far had result with INSANITY. In this, I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to attach/associate/define/connect to what should have been common sense understanding of what Normal is - Living Breath By Breath as the physical reality, directing and moving Self according to that which is best for all when and as one had will oneself to step out of one's mind - as some magical/divine powers; not seeing, realizing and understanding how I've separated myself from Normality through defining Normality within and as magical power so that I would NOT realize my own Power as the one who decide to walk as Normal as that which is best for all, breath by breath, step by step.

 

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to align myself with society's definition to the word 'Normal' without ever questioning the definition in itself and thus, so blindly accepted a "Normal" world where people are fighting for their survival, dying from starvation, abusing themselves and each other by the name of "it is normal behaviour, it's human nature. I see now that 'Normal' is Norm-Al which means:

Norm=Principle

Al= in Hebrew it mean Superior/utmost.

Thus, Normal - is the utmost Principle.

We have thus far, regarding the utmost/superior principle that we live as and by within our self interest - disregarding anything and everyone and most often, ourselves as well.

When walking as the living word, within and as What is best for all - Normal is the Utmost/Superior Principle as that which is best for all. So to redefine the word Normal in alignment to what is best for all as a principle - Is walking through, by and as  a principle that is best for all in every breath, in every step.

 

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to Define the existence of thoughts, reactions, emotions, feelings, desires, etc. as Normal because everyone else existing with and as thoughts, reactions, emotions, feelings, desires, etc. and to justify my acceptance and allowance of these components, I've stated that it's the Human Nature and accordingly, it's Normal. In this, I forgive myself that I've NOT accepted and allowed myself to see, realize and understand that by accepting Normal as human nature striving for our self interest desires, I've accepted and allowed a world of abuse and suffering, where wars are justified, where Education is not accessible for all, where the unconditional earth resources has been privatized and only if you have money, you can get access to it. We are living in a "Normal world" but all around us are Insane human beings that cannot see and conceptualized Equality as a simple principles:  Love your neighbour as yourself and give as you'd like to receive

 

Coming Down to Earth - Part 1 - Day 165

This is a continuation to:

Walking Breath by Breath - Part 1 - Day 160

Walking Breath by Breath - Part 2 - Day 161

Spiritualizing beings that had Died - Day 162

OMG, I'm so Special because I'm speaking with the Dead - Day 163

Cannot Conceptualize Equality in our Minds - Day 164

 

 

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to follow the dream I had about my grandfather dying and instead of investigating the nature of the dream, how dreams works and functions, why are we dreaming and what happened to my physical body when I dream, I have blindly interpreted the dream as if I was some kind of special because I could sense my grandfather presences, sense his death and be connected with him while others couldn't and within that, I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to abdicate my responsibility to investigate my emotions and feelings, my starting point in accepting and allowing the emotions and feelings as myself, only because it give me some sort of powers, specialness and comfort, to sustain my own self interest desire to be MORE than everyone else.

 

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to trust the dreams without investigating why and how we have dreams, who I am within the dreams and within that, why is it that dreams are existed while I'm sleeping wherein I am not consciously directing and moving myself within and as the dreams but rather, something else is moving and directing the dreams for me and from that perspective, I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to take the existence of dreams for granted, as if this is normal because everyone dreams and I haven't taken the time to really investigate the point for myself to see the insanity of having dreams that are not direct and specific for me to utilize as a tool to assist and support myself in realizing myself but rather, accepting and allowing dreams to fuck with my reality, to form opinions and beliefs about is with not actual, physical ground to cross reference that which I perceive myself to understand within and as the dream.

 

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to put so much emphasize regarding dreams and I haven't realized that if I require my mind to analyse and interpret the dreams, than it is best to let it go as I have no reference whether or not the point that I've seen is real or an illusion that I've created in my mind.

Note - 'Real' from the perspective of having physical cross reference as a principle that I accept and allow myself to live as best for all and 'Illusion' from the perspective of utilizing the mind to charge energy that would stand in alignment as my self interest desire for an experience.

 

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to create and establish an illusionary relationship with my grandfather as a coping mechanism to avoid facing my reality and in doing so, I haven't given myself the permission to stand, assist and support myself in directing and moving myself within and as my world and my reality and establishing an effective communication with physical human beings.

 

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to develop and establish an illusionary communication with the dead because it made me feel protected, cared for and loved and I haven't seen, realized and understood that this communication is only happening within and as my mind and for this communication to exists, I must generate energy, enough to sustain my illusionary reality in my mind and therefor, I would go and seek for things that would charge the energy so that I could continue visiting my mind, be able to avoid the real and physical reality and when the energy dissolve and dissipate and accordingly, the communication can no longer exists, I would go and find resources to recharge myself to be able to again, utilize the energy to communicate with the dead.

 

I forgive myself that I've NOT accepted and allowed myself to see, realize and understand the relationship between my mind and the physical wherein, because I couldn't cope with the physical reality or to be more specific, didn't have specific and supportive tools to utilize in facing the physical reality, I found comfort in remaining in my mind, communicating with my dead grandfather, hoping that he would assist and support me in changing the course of my life instead of me, becoming stable within and as myself, standing up in self responsibility and directing myself and my world within and as the principle of that which is best for all.

 

I realize that within the tendency of trying to analyse and interpreted a dream within the starting point of self interest desire to be defined myself as worthy, important, unique and special - the outcome would never be that which is best for all. And thus, I commit myself to - when and as I have a dream which I perceive to be so significant that I must get answers, and I must analyse the dream and find out what does it means - I stop, I breathe and clear myself from the energy possession through breathing and breathing and breathing and till I again stand clear and stable within and as myself.

Once I'm clear and stable within myself, I assess my starting point that initiated/triggered the energy possession of: "I must analyse and understand the dream, I must get answers". As I see within and as myself that the dimension of the character that I've created within myself, I move through all the dimensions.

When that point is clear, I move to the next point in assessing in self honesty whether or not this dream is relevant to that which I'm currently walking/facing/working through and if I could utilize the dream as a tool to assist and support myself in expanding further the points that I'm facing.

In that, I am not accepting and allowing myself to use my mind in the attempt of figuring out what the dreams means as I am only looking at the relevancy in terms of what practically I can assist and support myself within and through the dream.

 

I Commit myself to STOP placing so much value ad emphasize on dreams as if I'm receiving a divine message from the dead as I see, realize and understand that when and as I require my mind in understanding a point, it is no real self realization but most likely another mind fuck that I've accepted and allowed myself to participate with. In this, I extract from the dream only that which is obvious, clear and direct as a tool to assist and support myself in expanding myself. I see, realize and understand that there is nothing divine in dreams but quite to the contrary - when and as I'm not the directive principle in every moment of breath, what do I know? Oh oh, there is a problem, I'm not here and there is something else in separation of me that decides for me how to run my life  while I've been blindly giving my life force power away to be ran by a machine that present pictures, audio, images for me to preoccupy myself in it and in that, to never in fact, stand as the life/source/power, as the directive principle, in every moment of every breath.

 

I Commit myself to Show the relationship between fearing facing the physical reality `and the tendency to develop communication with the after life, as a coping mechanism that one is utilizing to assist and support oneself in avoiding one's reality and access one's mind where it is safe and sound because no one but self can be there.

 

In that, I commit myself to assist and support parents in having the require skills to assist and support their children in being capable and able to face and direct the reality and their mind in their relationship to the physical reality.