The End of Times - Day 187

 

This is a continuation to:

 

The Elite's delusion of stress - Part 1 - Day 45

The Elite's Delusion of Stress - Part 2 - Day 46

The Decision of TIME - Day 67

 

And:

 

This is a continuation to:

Copy Paste Character - the Way for Success? - Day 183

Copy Paste Character - The Education System - Day 184

Is it possible to Cheat yourself? Day 185

It is time to STOP Existing as a Human Machine - Day 186

 

In the last 2 days, while walking the Copy Paste character, I came to realize that my application within the tasks that I do is not Absolute from the perspective of investing the time each task require to be done to its utmost potential, breath by breath. That is because I've accepted and allowed way to much task than what a person can handle in a time frame of 24 hours a day. The starting point when taking these tasks upon myself, as I've mentioned in my previous blogs, was to be defined as MORE because I couldn't see myself as worthy as Me, here, as who I am but rather, I've defined myself according to other's eyes views and unless they saw me as more, I couldn’t worthy or respect myself.

 

So now, when slowing down, I see that I must face the consequences and keep on doing what I usually do however, the starting point must be changed and within that, I must be patient and humble with myself, letting go of all the loose hands of the desires I've accepted and allowed within and as myself and walk, as who I am, within what I do, one breath at a time, one step at a time and be OK with the fact that not everything will be done in time within the realization that there is so much one can do in every breath.

 

The reason why I'm writing about this point today is because I experienced a massive frustration in the past few days because I wasn't satisfied with my application in general and specifically, with my participation in the Desteni Forum where my Support wasn't as effective as I can support because I've only scanned through the posts without actually reading the posts and paying attention to the details along with missing a day where I wasn't on the forum at all which created the consequences of spending extra time on the day after, to be able to catch up with everyone's processes. I wasn't satisfied from the support I was sharing as I've seen the cracks slowly but surely coming into the surface and how within that, I'm compromising other people’s processes which is to me, not acceptable living application.

 

So, how to go about and change my application to be and to stand as effective as possible within each and every breath, with the time frame I have in every day, with my current projects and task that I'm participating with and within it all, how to make sure I'm not compromising and sabotaging myself, my human physical body and the people that I'm working and interacting with.

 

What was fascinating in the last 2 days was seeing myself trying, in my mind, to find a new short cut, how to round a few corners so that I could change my application meaning - how can I have more time to do what I do and physically invest the time/space required to do it all. And as I realized there is no way to make it work, I became frustrated, angry, irritated and - missed many many breaths which within that obviously, couldn't be effective lol - how can one be effective when one is spending time in one's mind, trying to figure out how to be effective.

 

When I talked with a friend that has walked the same point I've been walking and now, re-walking, she referred me to my own blogs from day 45, 46 and 67.

 

So - let me walk this again, in greater specificity and to stop the time loop for once and for all as I see, realize and understand that accepting this within and as myself, in unacceptable as it is compromising all of our processes as a whole.

 

Thus, let's look at the Character dimension of "I don't have Time".

I've written down for myself, the character dimensions as Fear, Thoughts, Imagination, Back chat, reactions and physical behaviour which I will slowly but surely publish, once I walk the correction through Self Forgiveness and self Commitments. After I'm done, I will walk the Consequences Dimension as the Self Forgiveness and Self Commitment that encompass the entire Character as I gain more perspective and realization of my own accepted and allowed 'I don’t have Time' Character.

It is time to STOP Existing as a Human Machine - Day 186

This is a continuation to:

Copy Paste Character - the Way for Success? - Day 183

Copy Paste Character - The Education System - Day 184

Is it possible to Cheat yourself? Day 185

 

I commit myself to STOP diminishing myself through and as Accepting and Allowing the Copy-Paste Character to exists within and as me as I see, realize and understand how and why I have accepted the character to exists within and as me and the consequences that had emerged from accepting and allowing the Copy-Paste character to exists within and as me. I realized that I've been looking for the short cut, the Quick Fix, as part of my desire and design to be MORE than who I am within the belief that the More I do, the More I'm being validated by others and to be able to do MORE, the less time I have in walking each and every responsibility to its utmost potential. I Realized that through accepting and allowed the Copy-Paste Character, not only I'm sabotaging myself, I'm also compromising the Group as I've NOT accepted and allowed myself to walk each and every step within Breath by breath living application and instead, have been walking short cuts and not fulfilling my responsibility as effective as possible.

 

I commit myself to STOP looking for the short cuts and the Quick Fix as I see, realize and understand that through seeing and looking for the quick fix and the short cuts, I'm in fact Missing a breath since - to be able to desire the short cuts and the quick fix, I must have created an idea/belief/opinion about who I would be as the end result of that which I do and through projecting this idea/belief/opinion towards what I do, I've missed a breath, missed an opportunity to walk Breath by Breath as WHO I really am which would result with the best utmost potential outcome within everything that I do because when walking within and as breath, step by step, moment by moment, One is Physically here, directing one's world and one's environment according to that which is best for all within the realization that there is so much that can be done within each and every breath and everything that is being done within each and every breath must be, walked and applied to one's utmost abilities within and as the principle of what is best for all and within that - the Physical space time is irrelevant - what relevant as WHO one is within Everything that one do.

 

I commit myself to BE HERE, within each and every breath, within each and every thing that I do and within that, I commit myself to - when and as I'm busy with a task, to Asses my starting point within that, making sure it is aligned with what's best for all. I commit myself to - When and as I'm busy with a task, to BREATHE, to test and check in self honesty that I'm physically here, walking the steps that would result with the utmost best outcome, regardless that time that it takes as I see, realize and understand that when I accept and allow myself to rush and have things done, I'm not applying myself as the best that I am able to, which result with compromising of myself, the group and existence as a whole because I would time loop again and again till I change myself in fact, in absolute self honesty.

 

I commit myself to SHOW how and why the world system as a whole and the Education system in particular, is in the support of the continuation of the Human Robot existence that would never stand up and call for a change that is best for all as this change may threaten those in Power, those with Money and thus Control and would place them in an EQUAL position to the rest of man kind with EQUAL opportunities of having Dignified and fulfilling LIFE.

 

I commit myself to SHOW How and Why the Education system do not support the human beings in developing a critical thinking, developing Skills to think, analyse, assess, check their existence within and as a principle of what is best for all and in that, I commit myself to SHOW that the education system world wide do not in fact educate the humans to be and become an effective human beings in this world, with substantial Life Skills that would benefit existence as a whole because once the human beings would stand in equilibrium with who they are, within and as the principle of equality and oneness, those in power and control would have EQUAL status to every human being in this world and would have to equally contribute to maintain and sustain a world that is best for all, unlike how it is working now for them, where they have slaves to do the hard work for them.

Can a world of Insanity be Normal? - Day 166

This is a continuation to:

Walking Breath by Breath - Part 1 - Day 160

Walking Breath by Breath - Part 2 - Day 161

Spiritualizing beings that had Died - Day 162

OMG, I'm so Special because I'm speaking with the Dead - Day 163

Cannot Conceptualize Equality in our Minds - Day 164

Coming Down to Earth - Part 1 - Day 165

 

 

I forgive myself that I've NOT accepted and allowed myself to Realize what NORMAL is and within that, had accepted and allowed myself to define this existence, the people, the mind, the suffering, the pain, etc. as Normal while the physical reality shows the exact opposite - that what we have defined as Normal thus far had result with INSANITY. In this, I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to attach/associate/define/connect to what should have been common sense understanding of what Normal is - Living Breath By Breath as the physical reality, directing and moving Self according to that which is best for all when and as one had will oneself to step out of one's mind - as some magical/divine powers; not seeing, realizing and understanding how I've separated myself from Normality through defining Normality within and as magical power so that I would NOT realize my own Power as the one who decide to walk as Normal as that which is best for all, breath by breath, step by step.

 

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to align myself with society's definition to the word 'Normal' without ever questioning the definition in itself and thus, so blindly accepted a "Normal" world where people are fighting for their survival, dying from starvation, abusing themselves and each other by the name of "it is normal behaviour, it's human nature. I see now that 'Normal' is Norm-Al which means:

Norm=Principle

Al= in Hebrew it mean Superior/utmost.

Thus, Normal - is the utmost Principle.

We have thus far, regarding the utmost/superior principle that we live as and by within our self interest - disregarding anything and everyone and most often, ourselves as well.

When walking as the living word, within and as What is best for all - Normal is the Utmost/Superior Principle as that which is best for all. So to redefine the word Normal in alignment to what is best for all as a principle - Is walking through, by and as  a principle that is best for all in every breath, in every step.

 

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to Define the existence of thoughts, reactions, emotions, feelings, desires, etc. as Normal because everyone else existing with and as thoughts, reactions, emotions, feelings, desires, etc. and to justify my acceptance and allowance of these components, I've stated that it's the Human Nature and accordingly, it's Normal. In this, I forgive myself that I've NOT accepted and allowed myself to see, realize and understand that by accepting Normal as human nature striving for our self interest desires, I've accepted and allowed a world of abuse and suffering, where wars are justified, where Education is not accessible for all, where the unconditional earth resources has been privatized and only if you have money, you can get access to it. We are living in a "Normal world" but all around us are Insane human beings that cannot see and conceptualized Equality as a simple principles:  Love your neighbour as yourself and give as you'd like to receive

 

Coming Down to Earth - Part 1 - Day 165

This is a continuation to:

Walking Breath by Breath - Part 1 - Day 160

Walking Breath by Breath - Part 2 - Day 161

Spiritualizing beings that had Died - Day 162

OMG, I'm so Special because I'm speaking with the Dead - Day 163

Cannot Conceptualize Equality in our Minds - Day 164

 

 

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to follow the dream I had about my grandfather dying and instead of investigating the nature of the dream, how dreams works and functions, why are we dreaming and what happened to my physical body when I dream, I have blindly interpreted the dream as if I was some kind of special because I could sense my grandfather presences, sense his death and be connected with him while others couldn't and within that, I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to abdicate my responsibility to investigate my emotions and feelings, my starting point in accepting and allowing the emotions and feelings as myself, only because it give me some sort of powers, specialness and comfort, to sustain my own self interest desire to be MORE than everyone else.

 

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to trust the dreams without investigating why and how we have dreams, who I am within the dreams and within that, why is it that dreams are existed while I'm sleeping wherein I am not consciously directing and moving myself within and as the dreams but rather, something else is moving and directing the dreams for me and from that perspective, I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to take the existence of dreams for granted, as if this is normal because everyone dreams and I haven't taken the time to really investigate the point for myself to see the insanity of having dreams that are not direct and specific for me to utilize as a tool to assist and support myself in realizing myself but rather, accepting and allowing dreams to fuck with my reality, to form opinions and beliefs about is with not actual, physical ground to cross reference that which I perceive myself to understand within and as the dream.

 

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to put so much emphasize regarding dreams and I haven't realized that if I require my mind to analyse and interpret the dreams, than it is best to let it go as I have no reference whether or not the point that I've seen is real or an illusion that I've created in my mind.

Note - 'Real' from the perspective of having physical cross reference as a principle that I accept and allow myself to live as best for all and 'Illusion' from the perspective of utilizing the mind to charge energy that would stand in alignment as my self interest desire for an experience.

 

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to create and establish an illusionary relationship with my grandfather as a coping mechanism to avoid facing my reality and in doing so, I haven't given myself the permission to stand, assist and support myself in directing and moving myself within and as my world and my reality and establishing an effective communication with physical human beings.

 

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to develop and establish an illusionary communication with the dead because it made me feel protected, cared for and loved and I haven't seen, realized and understood that this communication is only happening within and as my mind and for this communication to exists, I must generate energy, enough to sustain my illusionary reality in my mind and therefor, I would go and seek for things that would charge the energy so that I could continue visiting my mind, be able to avoid the real and physical reality and when the energy dissolve and dissipate and accordingly, the communication can no longer exists, I would go and find resources to recharge myself to be able to again, utilize the energy to communicate with the dead.

 

I forgive myself that I've NOT accepted and allowed myself to see, realize and understand the relationship between my mind and the physical wherein, because I couldn't cope with the physical reality or to be more specific, didn't have specific and supportive tools to utilize in facing the physical reality, I found comfort in remaining in my mind, communicating with my dead grandfather, hoping that he would assist and support me in changing the course of my life instead of me, becoming stable within and as myself, standing up in self responsibility and directing myself and my world within and as the principle of that which is best for all.

 

I realize that within the tendency of trying to analyse and interpreted a dream within the starting point of self interest desire to be defined myself as worthy, important, unique and special - the outcome would never be that which is best for all. And thus, I commit myself to - when and as I have a dream which I perceive to be so significant that I must get answers, and I must analyse the dream and find out what does it means - I stop, I breathe and clear myself from the energy possession through breathing and breathing and breathing and till I again stand clear and stable within and as myself.

Once I'm clear and stable within myself, I assess my starting point that initiated/triggered the energy possession of: "I must analyse and understand the dream, I must get answers". As I see within and as myself that the dimension of the character that I've created within myself, I move through all the dimensions.

When that point is clear, I move to the next point in assessing in self honesty whether or not this dream is relevant to that which I'm currently walking/facing/working through and if I could utilize the dream as a tool to assist and support myself in expanding further the points that I'm facing.

In that, I am not accepting and allowing myself to use my mind in the attempt of figuring out what the dreams means as I am only looking at the relevancy in terms of what practically I can assist and support myself within and through the dream.

 

I Commit myself to STOP placing so much value ad emphasize on dreams as if I'm receiving a divine message from the dead as I see, realize and understand that when and as I require my mind in understanding a point, it is no real self realization but most likely another mind fuck that I've accepted and allowed myself to participate with. In this, I extract from the dream only that which is obvious, clear and direct as a tool to assist and support myself in expanding myself. I see, realize and understand that there is nothing divine in dreams but quite to the contrary - when and as I'm not the directive principle in every moment of breath, what do I know? Oh oh, there is a problem, I'm not here and there is something else in separation of me that decides for me how to run my life  while I've been blindly giving my life force power away to be ran by a machine that present pictures, audio, images for me to preoccupy myself in it and in that, to never in fact, stand as the life/source/power, as the directive principle, in every moment of every breath.

 

I Commit myself to Show the relationship between fearing facing the physical reality `and the tendency to develop communication with the after life, as a coping mechanism that one is utilizing to assist and support oneself in avoiding one's reality and access one's mind where it is safe and sound because no one but self can be there.

 

In that, I commit myself to assist and support parents in having the require skills to assist and support their children in being capable and able to face and direct the reality and their mind in their relationship to the physical reality.

Cannot Conceptualize Equality in our Minds - Day 164

This is a continuation to:

Walking Breath by Breath - Part 1 - Day 160

Walking Breath by Breath - Part 2 - Day 161

Spiritualizing beings that had Died - Day 162

OMG, I'm so Special because I'm speaking with the Dead - Day 163

 

 

It is interesting how we give beings power to the extent of complete abdication of self responsibility.  I mean, even with Bernard, I have to keep reminding myself that he is not special and that he is a physical living human beings with no special powers and that the fact of the matter is that what he does, how he speaks how he lives is what is NORMAL however, I couldn't even conceptualized that NORMAL is living by a principle of that which is best for all.

 

I mean none of us have a real understanding of what best for all implies because if we had, we would not accept and allow ourselves to exists within and as an abusive world that is based on one's self interest for one's survival. Seriously, when I come to look at it - How we live, how we act, how we speak, react etc. that is not NORMAL - that is all automated reactions and behaviours that we have accepted and allowed within and as ourselves and it goes to the extent of which we cannot even SEE that Living Here, within and as the physical is what is NORMAL.

 

Like for example, we have defined as normal that our country doesn't really take care of us, that if one doesn't have enough money to invest in their children's education, it's ok, that's life - some times it good and some time it is not.  We have defined as normal that if something goes wrong in the other side of the world, we won't do anything about it because it isn't really bothering us, it is not our loved ones that we need to take care of. we have defined as normal that when  someone needs a kidney implant but one doesn't have money for a kidney, then one would die. We have accepted as normal that when one do not have medical insurance, one wouldn't get medical aid.

 

However, what IS normal is when everyone will get medical aid because they need it. everyone will have food on their table, because they need it. if I go across the world and require assistance or a place to sleep in, it is normal that someone will assisting me and take care of me because they can do that. That is NORMAL - life within equality and oneness is NORMAL but we cannot conceptualized that within our minds because our mind doesn't stand in alignment to that which is best for all. In that, there is nothing magical and powerful in walking as an example of that which is best for all, there is nothing special or powerful in walking with no Mind to direct and move oneself but rather, breath by breath self movement, Here, within and as the physical.

 

An interview that had assisted and supported me in opening up this point further is the Crucifixion of Jesus - Part 10.

 

What I'm seeing is that I've created throughout my life and specifically the spiritual phase was creating symbolism as to who one is when one is stepping out of one's mind. and in that, through spiritualizing the symbolism instead of walking and living as myself, that which was shown to me, I have perpetuated my own separation and in that, have not given myself the permission to practically and physically stand as equal to and one with the being that is walking as an example but instead, had gave the being powers (which I now see as simply Normal living application) within my own desire to be that special when I would also, walk and be done with my process. And being done with my process is also a point of separation because my process will not end until everyone's processes would end. But within me, all I had cared about is my own process, my own glorification within this process as the glorification that I've assign to Sunette and Bernard, my grandfather, Kryon, Guides and Angles.

 

Within this, instead of walking that which is shown to me, in very detailed and specific words, I've created them as something so MORE than me that if I could get it myself, I would be that MORE and others would see me as MORE and everything is but my own desire to always feel and be special; Instead of Practically, slow myself down, Hear and be Here, see their words within and as me and stand as them, equal, in simplicity so that I could assist and support myself and in that, assist and support others and in that - get the fuck out of our minds so that we could start LIVING within and as this physical reality, as NORMALS :-)

 

Ok, More to come.. Tomorrow.

OMG, I'm so Special because I'm speaking with the Dead - Day 163

This is a continuation to:

Walking Breath by Breath - Part 1 - Day 160

Walking Breath by Breath - Part 2 - Day 161

Spiritualizing beings that had Died - Day 162

 

When I had the dream about my grandfather lying on the metal silver bed, with a light on top of him, and I knew that he was dead - what was behind the dream? Where did I ever heard about such experience before, and if I haven't and it had emerged in the very first time, what was this dream all about? What did this dream gave me throughout my life in relationship with my grandfather in particular and all my relationships as a whole? And how through this dream, I've characterized myself from that moment onward?

 

Usually, when we do not understand something, we try to make sense out of it. the only way I could make sense of this dream was as if I've given a sign, as if my connection with my grandfather was so great that I was sensitive enough to see him in his death. In other words - I was special in my ability to sense my grandfather, I had a special relationship with my grandfather, more than anyone else, I was the special one, I was the chosen one, I was the favourite one.

 

Now, this happened long before 1998, when the connection between earth and the dimension was still open and fucking with one's life could easily be done. For more information regarding the relationship between heaven and earth before and after 1998 and before and after the Portal had opened, I suggest listening to the Journeys into the Afterlife interview series. 

What I have not realized until recently, that the dream was preprogrammed so that I could characterize myself as special through having the sensitive abilities which through that, I could remain special in my own mind, in my secret mind and create an illusionary reality that would be the foundation of my later on spiritual phase where I was almost completely fucked up if I wouldn't came across Desteni and could hear their message.

 

So obviously, I didn't question the nature of the Dream and my After Death Communication with my Dead grandfather because this entire experience gave me power, made me feel so absolute Special in comparison to my other family members, which was in essence, my own self interest desire for an experience that I could validate myself through, that I could worthy myself through and that I could empower myself through; only what I haven't realized was that the only thing that I've validated was my own mind, my own pre-programming that I've accepted and allowed myself to exists within and as.

 

Before and after my grandfather had died, the primary experience was of me being special, cared for and loved unconditionally by him and during my life, I was seeking and looking for these character that would give me the experience of being special, cared for and Loved unconditionally. Clearly, I wasn't able to conceptualized that I am here, regardless how others are giving me, or I never conceptualized what does it even means unconditional love and unconditional taken cared for in an existential level.

Later on, I have found more dead to spiritualize in my mind and that was when I became spiritual. All those powers and attributes that I've assign to them, in separation of me, gave me the experience of being so special. I mean, as a spiritual person, hearing the positive words in books and scripts was so powerful and divine. I was really sure that the divine Masters, Guides and Angles are taking care of me, are resonating through me, healing me and others as me. And again, I obviously didn't question their existence because why should I? I was so special in my own mind. it was the only place I could feel so loved and special and having a propose. What is interesting to see now is the polarized realities that I had within my mind where in for moments, I felt so divine and powerful and in the next moment, I was so alone, useless, unworthy and depressed. That in it self raise the question - are we all Schizophrenic in the context of the polarity that we exists as within and as our mind? the only difference is that l Schizophrenic beings had externalized their mind into words while the Normal being have the ability to filter their minds when it comes to speaking.

 

Ok, so I will continue tomorrow with How I've spiritualized Living beings in comparison to the dead. Thanks for reading.

Intimacy in Practical Application - Part 1 - Day 154

This is a continuation to:

Developing Intimate sexual communication with Self - Day 151

Intimacy in Words - Part 1 - Day 152

Intimacy in Words - Part 2 - Day 153

 

I commit myself to assist and support myself in developing and establishing an effective communication with myself where, I slowly but surely walking out of my mind, allowing myself to become absolutely honest with myself and leaving no suppressed system behind and in this, I commit myself to effectively walk my Agreement Course to assist and support myself in establishing this commitment that I've set forth to myself as I see, realize and understand that the Agreement course is the stepping stone in establishing an effective relationship with self, which from that, one is able to establish an effective relationship with others.

Thus, when and as I face resistance to walk through my lessons and assignments, I stop, let go of this resistance as I see, realize and understand that the existence of the resistance is due to a fear of change and as I commit myself to change who I have become, I push through the resistance and walk myself through the lessons as the assignments and in that, giving myself the permission to change.

 

I commit myself to develop and establish an effective communication regarding sex and sexuality with myself. In this, to explore and investigate my human physical body so that when sex is here, I will not accept and allow any form of self abuse that may harm my body.

 

In this, I commit myself to accept and allow myself to walk in alignment with my prospect partner regarding sex and sexuality and within this, share, explore and investigate together the physical support required to our bodies because I see, realize and understand the extent of separation we have accepted and allowed from and as our human physical body and the consequences therefore wherein, within accepting and allowing walking in misalignment to/as our human physical body, we accept and allow the abuse of the body that we have given to walk with in this one life time.

 

I commit myself to form, establish and develop communication with my prospect partner wherein, we would investigate together and commit within an agreement regarding to how we would walk this life, what we would accept and allow and what we would not, how are we going to assist and support ourselves within our processes and how we would utilize the physical support within and as sex. I see realize and understand that without having a stable foundation to an agreement, abuse, sabotage and compromise will be allowed which is a point I will not tolerate, accept and allow to exists within me and my world.

 

I commit myself to Stop my reactions towards people in my world as I see, realize and understand that having reaction indicate a point within myself that is not aligned and must be looked at, investigated and sorted out. In this, I commit myself to take the responsibility, when and as I see myself accessing these reactions, to Stop, Breathe and bring myself back here and to in this, stop my participation in my mind, to change my living application that I've allowed to manifest in that moment and to immediately change myself, here, without any form of excuse like: "oh, I will write it down later, I will look at this point later, I can't do it write now", as I see, realize and understand that any form of excuses to not change myself in a quantum time moment is accepting and allowing my own opinions to enslave and control me and in that, sabotage myself and my relationships with others. I realize that all it takes is a self honest decision to STOP, Transform and Change and it is ME who Decide to either remain enslaved or to change.

 

I commit myself to write down my expectations from my prospect partner to see how can I align/transform/change my expectation to what is here as best for all principle within what I would accept and allow and what I would not from myself as well as my partner and in doing so, to investigate in self honesty my opinions, beliefs, ideas and essentially my starting point within these expectation and to make sure there is no previous pattern and/or fears that is guiding and leading these expectation with no common sense foundation in alignment to/as what is best for all. In this, I commit myself to communicate with my partner and establishing the basic foundation for our agreement.