My Life as a Character - Overview - Day 79

I forgive myself that I've NOT accepted and allowed myself to REALize that I'm the creator of instantaneously characters which all of them has ONE purpose, to keep me in character.

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to create myself as a dimensional character that create more dimensional characters that creates more characters for one single purpose - to create more character and within that, I've enslaved myself for eternity, always creating characters separated from me, not Realizing the power of my creation that is bigger from me as the creator because I created character to create character while all along, I was the character that created character. So who am i? a character?

I forgive myself that I've NOT accepted and allowed myself to understand creation because I forgot that I've created myself as a character that created the character that forgot that I'm a character. Isn't it a nice stupidity loop?

I forgive myself that I've NOT accepted and allowed myself, as the creator of all the character to remind myself  that I'm the creator of the characters that I've created in separation of me and because I haven't created a character to remind myself that I've created me as a character, I doomed myself for eternity.

I forgive myself that I've NOT accepted and allowed myself to see my responsibility as the creator wherein I've created all the relationships to support me as a character to not see the power I have as the creator that can create LIFE because I created an agreement with all the characters to support me to remain in character and have thus, enslaved us all, looping between all the characters moment by moment, breath by breath until we remember creation and create ourselves as Life .

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to believe that I'm the characters/personalities because I forgot that I've created these characters/personalities and I haven't considered that as the powerful creator of an eternal enslavement, I can delete the characters and freely choose, in self honesty, to step out of character and clear up the mess that I've created in character.

I forgive myself that I've NOT accepted and allowed myself to realize that I've accepted and gave permission to other characters to resists change and to thus, do what they can to sabotage and limit my own self change because that is how I made sure that I won't change. Within that, I see, realize and understand how I've created resistance, how I gave power to resistance because I created resistance to protect me from an actual change.

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to create a character that fear stepping out of character because I know that I created characters that will attack and hurt my character because I fuck up with their characters. Thus, I realize that the conflicts, attacks and harms are all characters that I've created and I commit myself to stand in the face of what may come, prepared, in self trust, Here. And I realize that within that statement, I've created a character and thus I stop.

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to look at the thought, realize that the thought was a character, to then find out that it was a character that realized that the thought was a character because I have now created a memory of the "realization" which I now let go, return to my human physical body and in an instantaneously moment, I create another character as a thought comes up and the cycle looping itself. So I keep reminding myself that I've created myself as character and I stop, and I realized that I created the character that reminds me that I've created a character until I step out of all the characters and no longer require character to remind myself that I'm a character.

I commit myself to support myself in seeing, releasing, deleting and clearing the mess that I've created in characters

I commit myself to keep reminding myself to step out of character when and as I see myself accessing a character and within that, I let go self judgement when I see that I'm still a character because I realized that self judgement is another character that I've created.

I commit myself to remind myself that I've created a character the remind myself that I'm a character to assist and support myself with stepping out of all my characters until I'm no longer creating a character of stepping out of character.

I commit myself to clear up the mess that I've created as characters and stand in the face of each and every character, forgive myself as the character and let it go.

I commit myself to show that character is being created instantaneously when a thought comes up, a memory has now been created as an experience that the memory has created as it created me. And within that, we are eternally fucked until we step out of character by cleaning that mess that we have created in character. 

 

Experience as self Brainwashing - Day 64

I forgive myself that I've NOT accepted and allowed myself to see, realize or understand the God within each and every relationship that I have - either with myself and with each other - The God that is me, as the Energy as the creator of Experience, within which is all based on one thing only - the self interest desire for a specific reward from the experience within and as myself and each other; I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to have refused to see the basic structure of any relationship - energetic relationship of give and take feelings and emotions as a desired experience instead of Giving LIFE to receive LIFE that is best for all, practically and physically as the guiding of all and any relationship that exists within ourselves and each other.

I forgive myself that I've NOT accepted and allowed myself to see, realize and understand how I've created relationships in my life, based on expected experience that I yearn to receive from the relationship and how within it, I have NOT accepted and allowed myself to create and establish relationships that are based on Equality, relationships that Support Life that is best for all as a guideline principle.

I forgive myself that I've NOT accepted and allowed myself to realize how I've been brainwashed to establish a specific types of relationships that will give me a specific type of Experience, by those who have come before me as well as through the various kind of Media and how within my acceptance of the desired experience, the energy reward became my directive principle within the relationships creation and I have in no way had a free will within my decisions and I had simply followed my mind as my self interest desire for energy rewards from the relationship experience.

I forgive myself that I've NOT accepted and allowed myself to see how I've sabotaged, limited and compromised myself within and through my self interest desire for an experience from the relationships in my life wherein, if I didn't get the positive energetic charge that I yearn to, I took the back door and ran after a new relationship creation and if I did get my energetic reward, I completely lost myself within the experience to the extent to which I've blinded myself to deliberately not see how beside energy charge, there is no support structure within the relationship that will allow me and my partner to practically grow and expand ourselves within and as the principle of that which is best for all, and to physically step out of our mind and walk into the Physical equality and oneness.

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to - when seeing a prospective partner, to assess whether one can provide me with a positive energetic reward instead of practically getting to know the being, getting to know myself as the being and from there, make an informative decisions that are based on the assessment of whether or not there is a possibility that the partner can walk equal and one with me within this ONE life time so that together, we can assist and support each other within our processes, grow and expand ourselves to be and become effective human being in this world that will direct, move and lead this world towards a world that is best for all.

I forgive myself that I've NOT accepted and allowed myself to get to know myself and my prospective partner within our relationship creation and within that, establish an effective and intimate relationship with myself as well as my partner as myself because I was seeking for the feeling experience that I believed to come with the relationship and I was willing to ignore all the red flags that were shining to bright within the faith and hope that I will get my positive energetic experience which I've defined as LOVE.

I forgive myself that I've NOT accepted and allowed myself to realize that LOVE is an energetic experience and in no way a physical expression of equality and oneness that is best for all and within that, I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed my life to be oriented towards the experience of LOVE within the desire to get a positive energetic reward from external force that is separated from me to the extent to which I've blindly follow my feelings instead of remaining here, breath by breath and walk decisions that are based only on ONE principle - best for all.

I forgive myself that I've NOT accepted and allowed myself to see how the LOVE experience is deception wherein, we walk and move ourselves within a constant seek for the LOVE experience as a self interest desire and while we do so, we disregard everything and everyone that do not gives up the energetic experience of LOVE and thus, we have accepted and allowed the majority of this world to exists within and as a constant battle, fear, abuse and suffering because we didn't feel LOVE towards them and thus, can conveniently ignore them and let them be so long as we have what we need, we have LOVE or a potential to receive LOVE.

I commit myself to stop the sucking demonized Godly me that is strives for energetic experience of reward as emotions and feelings within any given relationship and to thus then, establish a supportive relationship with myself, align myself to who I am as a physical breath to breath being, within which I will stand in absolute self honesty within all my relationships in existence as a whole to so together, walk according to the guideline- Give that which you'd Life to receive = Give LIFE to Receive LIFE that is best for all.

I commit myself to align my relationships to a guideline of that which is best for all and within that not accept anything that is less than that. I see, realize and understand how the relationship creation was establish from one singular starting point as self interest desire for an energetic experience and thus, within and as the self interest desire for an experience within the relationship creation, we have abdicated our responsibility to Give life to be able to receive LIFE that is best for all and have thus, manifested a world that is based on the survival of the individuals instead of LIFE of ALL in dignity, abundances and joy.

I commit myself to show how we have been trained to create relationships that are based on experience of the self interest individuals, generation after generation; experience that charged our energy within and as ourselves as the inherit belief of its being LIFE. Within that, I commit myself to support the educational program developments, to educate the humans to stop feeding of each other within energetic experiences of relationships and to instead establish relationships that are being practically lived within and as the principle of that which is best for all LIVES in Oneness and Equality.

I commit myself to show how limited is one's expression, self grow and expansion in this world within the current relationships manifestation and how in fact, the relationships that are being walked today were deliberately designed to control, enslave and direct the beings into one's own little bubble in one's mind so that one could remain preoccupied within one's mind and to never in fact, take the step of questioning one's reality, this world and accordingly, stand up within self, become the change, the example and walk towards the creation of a world that is best for all within and as the establishment/creation of interdependent relationships that form LIFE.

I commit myself to stop my mind as the desire for energetic experience to influence my decisions and to take my power away back to myself, assess all the various points that reveal themselves here and thus, make informative decisions that are based on the ONE principle - LIFE that is best for all.

I commit myself to show, expose and reveal the truth about LOVE and how, everything is in reveres wherein - LOVE is EVOL where the oneness and equality of the letter 'O' is not being LIVED as LOVE that is best for all and instead, the 'I', the self interest 'I' is that which makes LOVE EVIL as a direct reflection to how this world is currently manifested.

I commit myself to stand as an Example of LOVE that is best for all within my breath by breath self application of the ONE principle - best for all LIFE and thus, I move and direct myself according to what is necessary to be done in order to create, manifest and establish a world that is best for all in fact as the ultimate expression of LOVE - Love your neighbour as thyself.

For more support -

The Death of Experience - Day 58
http://mayaprocess.blogspot.com/2012/06/death-of-experience-as-me-part-1-day-58.html
Memory makes me Robot - Day 59
http://mayaprocess.blogspot.com/2012/06/memory-makes-me-robot-day-59.html
Trusting my experience - Day 63
http://mayaprocess.blogspot.com/2012/06/trusting-my-experience-overview-day-63.html

The Decision - Am I the creator? - Day 26

Artist - Scott Cook

I forgive myself that I’ve NOT accepted and allowed myself to make a decision of WHO I AM and thus, allowed myself to trust my mind who tells me Who I am according to my limited grasp of LIFE and I forgive myself that I’ve accepted and allowed myself to have failed to see that unless I make a decision of WHO I AM and live the decision within every moment of every breath, I’m giving up on myself, I’m giving up on Life that include everything and everyone and within that making a statement that I’m useless and worthless and I might as well die.

I forgive myself that I’ve accepted and allowed myself to have failed to realize what LIFE is. I see and realize that LIFE is interdependent relationships that form a support structure by always moving and directing within the principle of that which is best for all. The entirety of all the PARTS that forms LIFE must establish an agreement with themselves and each other to always move according to that which is best for all.  So – I start with myself;  I’m here making a commitment, a decision, to establish an agreement with all my parts, as myself to always move and direct myself and this world according to that which is best for all.

I forgive myself that I’ve NOT accepted and allowed myself to see and realize the decision to be and become LIFE that is equal to and one with all the parts of me within all the relationships that forms LIFE is a moment to moment decision and physical application; it is the accumulation of moments as breaths and thus I forgive myself that I’ve accepted and allowed myself in moment of falling into my mind where I’ve missed a breath to judge myself as unworthy instead of immediate bring myself back here, to my physical human body, correct and change myself and stand by my commitment to support and embrace myself, and come to terms with myself as the mind that I’ve become and yet, not accept the continuation of the limitations and abuse and simply BREATHE and move myself back to myself within the responsibility that I hold as the creator of LIFE.  

I forgive myself that I’ve accepted and allowed myself to have failed to realize that be and becoming LIFE is through making the decision of WHO I AM and even though I’m not standing Equal to and One as LIFE in this very moment, the very decision to become LIFE is my directive principle and everything that I will do from that starting point of become life will be determine by WHO I am.

I forgive myself that I’ve NOT accepted and allowed myself to make the decision to be and become LIFE as WHO I am and direct myself according to this starting point within all that I do because I feared the implication of having to change in fact and thus, I forgive myself that I’ve accepted and allowed through fear to compromise myself and all that is HERE as the interdependent relationships that forms LIFE because I’ve allowed the fear to be my directive principle and abdicated the responsibility to decide and practically walk as WHO I am in every moment.

I forgive myself that I’ve NOT accepted and allowed myself to make the decision of WHO I am because I’ve valued and trusted myself as the mind despite of the realizations that following my mind have got me nowhere as well as humanity as a whole and thus, I’ve missed the obvious of walking according to principle of What is best for all is the common sense practical physical living application within the responsibility that we have as the creator of LIFE as ourselves.

I forgive myself that I’ve NOT accepted and allowed myself to realize what LIFE is and WHO I Am as the creator of LIFE and I’ve taken for granted and lived the definition of MY limited version of  LIFE as a separated individual with purposes of survival

And So Who I am is to first realize that who I am is PART of all the interdependent relationships that forms LIFE and thus, I, as an individual part of ALL - is the creator of LIFE. Being the creator of LIFE comes with a responsibility – To get myself back to myself as the practical physical living application in every moment of what is best for all so that whatever I create, I create from self honesty best for all principle within the realization of Who I Am as the creator of LIFE that is HERE;

When we were born, we were born with nothing and yet, we were given LIFE. Through the years, we’ve separated ourselves from LIFE and stepped into our mind. Thus the key is to re-birth ourselves and from Nothingness, to create ourselves and this world according to that which is best for all.

Who I am? I'm in my process to understand and realize creation because I created myself, I responsible for that which i've created without understanding creation, I responsible for How the world manifested to its current design because i've understood myself, i haven't sorted out myself and I've allowed myself to stand up and take responsibility for that very creation of myself and this world.
 

 For more blogs

 

Who I am is NOT what I have been taught that I am – Day 22

http://mayaprocess.blogspot.com/2012/05/who-i-am-is-not-what-i-have-been-taught.html

Who I am is a Free Choice?  Day 23

http://mayaprocess.blogspot.com/2012/05/who-i-am-is-free-choice-day-23.html

Inversion of purpose – Day 24

http://mayaprocess.blogspot.com/2012/05/inversion-of-purpose-day-24.html