Beyond the Scene of Impatience voice tonality activation - Expansion - Day 436

Within this blog, I will expand a bit more on a statement I have written in my previous blog post:

 

"...Within this, thus showing me that I have also programmed a relationship between impatience and inferiority within me, where – if another is impatient / I perceive them to be impatient =  I react in inferiority…"

 

In the previous blog, I shared how I accessed inferiority within myself when I felt that I was not 'Knowledgeable' enough to share what I'm seeing within a specific point. What I also shared was how I could see myself accessing Inferiority and how I supported myself in that moment by taking a breath but unfortunately, I also accepted and allowed myself to be manipulated by myself within the belief that I was now stable. But, in the next moment, I perceived the other to be impatient towards me and/or what I expressed and immediately, I accessed inferiority again however now within the context of reacting to a voice tonality that I've defined as impatience.

 

When I investigated the two scenarios of Inferiority reactions as described above, I realize that -

The first inferiority reaction within the context of not being knowledgeable enough was a program that I created within myself wherein, every time I'm not fully understanding a specific topic, I experience myself inferior to those who know more than me. Here it was important for me to realize that taking a breath and believing that I'm clear and stable without checking all dimensions and relationship in the context of Inferiority and 'not being knowledgeable enough' is a dangerous point because, the physical reality showed me a moment later that I've not yet completely walked through and changed the programming "If I'm not knowledgeable enough = I react in inferiority". Though, there would be other times where I won't be as fortunate to have another moment presenting itself so quickly to show me that I've missed a point hence the "danger" of believing that I am calm/stable as a mind fuck manifestation that I've created within myself.  

 

So, with having  programs running inside myself:

"If I'm not knowledgeable enough = I react in inferiority..."

"If another is impatient / I perceive them to be impatient =  I react in inferiority…"

The second reaction to the voice tonality of Impatience is another program that I've created within myself however here, it was intense from the perspective of me being able to see in slow motion the activation point, the reaction, the movement inside myself in a quantum moment as the reaction of inferiority was now perpetuated through the voice tonality triggered in amalgamation with the first programming resonance platform awaiting to be activated again.

 

In a way you can say that the physical reality, the other being I was discussing with, supported me in seeing that the programming "If I'm not knowledgeable enough = I react in inferiority..." wasn't yet aligned within and as myself.

So, here it is for me to continue and investigating those 2 programs because the physical reality showed that there is still a point that I've missed, not seeing clearly yet within myself.

 

It is a Vicious Cycle from that perspective is how we activate systems/energies/programs/reactions within ourselves and then we believe that we calmed down, perceived ourselves as 'Stable', unaware that all this time other programs are still running in  an 'awaiting' mode for the next time a window of opportunity present itself and the program would activate, taking us to the starting point to realize that : "ooops, here it goes again.." lol however, if we miss the 'problem' or and we are not taking the responsibility to assist and support ourselves in our correction process - the cycle is vicious as it is a time loop that would again and again takes us to the very first point that we missed and unless we correct, we will continue looping.

 

Here we have to step further into the Quantum Mind.

I suggest investing and investigate in the Quantum Mind Interview series to better understand what the Quantum Mind is, what is its purpose and functionality. In a very simple explanation -the Quantum Mind is the Mind platform from which various systems are being activated on a conscious, subconscious and unconscious level. Once these system are activated, energy is created and for the Mind to continue to survive.

 

We are completely unaware of what is going beyond the scenes of our own mind; we seldom stop and ask ourselves: "But, where this reaction came from, what is the source?". The Fascinating thing is that if we look at the word: "Reaction" -> Re-Action -> Re-activation; meaning a reaction doesn't manifest just like that, there is always a platform or a place holder on a quantum mind level that 'host' (activate) the reaction in a specific space/time as a support for the mind to generate the energy it required for its survival. This obviously can only be done when we miss a breath, when we are unaware of ourselves, our physical body, our physical environment as we have separated ourselves from ourselves and that which is unconditionally here. 

 

What is the solution then - For myself, I have seen that I used to perceive myself as stable and/or clear within myself in the aftermath of a reaction towards someone or something. This experience with the reactivation of inferiority that I explained here, shows that there is much more to the mind/physical relationship that one could ever perceive.  Therefore, the solution is to continue and developing one's self honesty in how one is assisting and supporting oneself to really step out of the mind and into the physical in every moment of breath.

Another point is that I used to judge myself for accessing inferiority and/or when reacting to a specific voice tonality but then I realized that judging myself is counterproductive and not supportive in any way because within the judgment I abdicated my responsibility to empower myself in understanding my own created programming and within that, taking the responsibility to correct my living application within the principle of what is best for all.

Beyond the Scene of Impatience voice tonality activation - Day 435

There was a moment today where I accessed inferiority for a split second while being in a discussion with another being. When I noticed that I accessed inferiority I slowed myself down, took a breath and consciously snapped out of it however, there was still a resonance movement of inferiority within myself.

 

The next moment, I perceived the other to become impatient in their body movement and voice tonality expression which triggered a reaction within myself that locked into the inferior resonance  I had accepted and allowed the previous moment; therefore, the inferiority Re-activated again. Within this, thus showing me that I have also programmed a relationship between impatience and inferiority within me, where – if another is impatient / I perceive them to be impatient =  I react in inferiority.

 

Here, I really had to again slow myself down, see quickly what I had created within myself and my environment to ensure I do not compromise the quality of the discussion through the reactions that I had allowed within and as myself.

 

What I have found is that Resonance movement or layers if you will, slowly move inside the body despite one perceiving oneself stable after the effect. This shows how we are unaware of the harm and sabotage of our physical body within every time we accept and allow a reaction to activate within ourselves. I, for most part, was aware mostly to the reaction, to how my physical body is changing while/during a moment of reaction however, I am now starting to also see the consequences of the aftermath of a reaction which is the resonance manifestation within the physical body.

 

Consequences meaning - my experience of resonance activation or movement is like a smoky thick wall that I build inside myself to protect me from the other that I had a reaction to. It's like a defense mechanism through which I create a protection layer and so, when I'm in the environment with the being I had a reaction to, this wall/protection layer is resonating faster and I am more consciously aware of the words I speak from a 'Fear' starting point, I would become more aware of how I move, how I present myself and I would have thoughts towards the other, trying to find fault in them to make myself feel more than (which is simply the Inferiority design where one would try within oneself making oneself more than the other that one had perceived to be superior to self)

 

The interesting thing is that when the other is not in my immediate environment, the resonance movement is still here only that it moves much slower; Only when slowing down,  I can self honestly see and identify the slow motion resonance expression within myself. What I have realized through observing this within myself lately - the slow motion resonance movement is in essence a platform that is awaiting for external triggers to be activated; within the example I shared today, the other being that I previously reacted to, was the trigger that activated the resonance within myself - this resonance, when moving fast, generate energy within myself, this energy harm the physical body and slowly but surely, if these points not sorted out within myself, physical consequences may manifest over time and consistent participation in reactivation the system.

 

So - how to practically support oneself in these moments - Firstly it is to become aware that even when one perceived myself as stable after a momentary reaction, one must slow oneself down to ensure there is not aftermath resonance platform that is awaiting to be activated. Understand that as long as these resonance platform exists, one would easily react to an external trigger that one is facing within oneself.

Secondly, for more perspective on how these things works, I suggest listening to:

Voice Tonalities - Atlanteans - Part 141

Voice Tonalities: Practical Support - Atlanteans - Part 146

 

Also, if you haven't already, I suggest reading through the blog series that I started with regards to the dimensions of Voice tonality reactions.

 

Reacting to Voice Tonality - Day 421

Inferiority and voice tonality - Day 422

Manipulation and voice tonality - Day 423

Voice Tonality - Impatience - Day 427

Voice Tonality - Impatience - Day 427

 

 

Note - I've been walking and sharing some points in relation to reactions I've seen within and as myself that were triggered when I heard specific voice tonalities. If you haven't already, I suggest to also read the following blogs:

Reacting to Voice Tonality - Day 421

Inferiority and voice tonality - Day 422

Manipulation and voice tonality - Day 423

 

Throughout our lives, we have encountered people that expressed impatience towards us and especially within the realm of education.  For children, the experience of another being impatient towards them  in the context of learning, can lead to devastated outcome where the child for instance connect the experience of learning to impatience and therefore, would make a decision within themselves to stop asking questions when they do not understand something or to act out as if they do understand a point and this is to avoid the experience within themselves in moments where another is impatient with them.

 

Now, if one understand the importance of laying the bricks in the brick wall of understanding effectively within the formative years of a child's life, one would also understand how destructive an experience of impatience towards a child can be within how the child would define oneself within one's own mind according to how one experience oneself with others. Wherein, as the child learn and develop their confident, self esteem, trust etc. and external influence such as a slight impatient from the teach or the parents comes up, the child would imprint the moment and create unconscious idea about themselves and thus, decide for example, that they cannot tell anyone when they do not understand something.

 

Fascinating enough, the experience of someone being impatient towards us create great consequences within ourselves far more than we would like to admit and here, the voice tonality reaction plays a major rule.

For example, imaging that you are now an adult and you are starting a new job or a business and to be able to do your job/business, there are things you must understand because otherwise, you won't be able to perform your job effectively. So you ask a question because you really do not understand something and the person you are asking is becoming impatient with your question because let's say that in their mind, you should have already understand the point.

 

So they raise their voice and you perceive or interpret them as  becoming 'bigger' within themselves and as such, you react and feel 'smaller' within yourself because suddenly, the past experience from your childhood kicked in, of when your teacher/parent where impatient towards you. Now, because you are reacting and you don't really know why you are reactive,  you cannot even hear what the other is explaining to you because you are far gone in your mind, within the reaction and the experience of being stupid for instance.

 

Thus, a suggestion here, when/as we face these moments where another is impatience with us, the first thing we must do is to take a breath in, breath out, and if necessary, breath again, slow ourselves down. From there, we must realize that what ever the other is expressing within themselves has nothing to do with us per say but so long as we react, there is unresolved point within ourselves that we haven't sorted out yet and if we go back to the example above it would be for instance, how we held onto the idea that if we don't understand something we must not show/tell  to anyone or even dare to ask questions due to the fear of experiencing a moment where another is impatient with us.

 

If we are the ones who become impatient towards others - here we have to slow ourselves down and investigate why is it that we allow ourselves to be impatience towards another, what is it that the other is showing us that we haven't dealt with for ourselves. It can be for example - the question that the other is asking us is not very clear even within ourselves and now that the other is asking us a question and we are uncertain as to how to direct it, we become impatient, not really towards the other person but towards ourselves from the perspective of: "how can I explain something to another that I am not fully understand myself".

 

For those of you who knew Bernard, you know what does it means to live the word 'patience' wherein one is able and willing to unconditionally explain something to another regardless of how many times one as to show the same thing again and again and again. Not once I've seen Bernard being impatient towards another; always embracing the other and looking for ways of saying the same things in different ways till the  other see/understand a point.
 

More to come...

 

 

Impatience as Evilness - Day 219

This is a continuation to:

 

The Elite's delusion of stress - Part 1 - Day 45 The Elite's Delusion of Stress - Part 2 - Day 46 The Decision of TIME - Day 67 The Decision of TIME - Day 67 Copy Paste Character - The Education System - Day 184 Is it possible to Cheat yourself? Day 185 It is time to STOP Existing as a Human Machine - Day 186 The End of Times - Day 187 Facing the Evil within - the KEY to LIFE - Day 188 Fear of Disappointing others - Day 189 The Psychology of TIME - Day 190 I Regret, therefor, I'm a Good Person. NOT!!! - Day 191 The REAL Fear - Day 192 The things we Won't tell ANYONE - Day 193 Missing out on the Good Life - Day 194

Let's have some Fun - Day 195 Stupidity Loop - Jumping from the Bad to the Good to the Bad - Day 196 The Smoke Screen of Ignorance - Day 197 Leaving in a Dream - Day 208 Having the Life Style you always dreamt to have - Day 209 IT is MY time Now - don't say a word - Day 210 Let's go on Vacation - Day 211 Comparison is a Bitch - Day 212 Damn, I will never have everything done - Day 213 Standing as an Example - Self Interest or Self Realization? - Day 214 From the Bossy to the Loser - Day 215 Jealousy and Frustration - I want the Life they Have - Day 216 The Poison within Irritation and Anger - Day 217 Judgement as self Perfection - Day 218

 

For the purpose of context, suggest reading these posts above prior to reading the post below, if you haven’t already. Here I will be walking the 'I don't have TIME' Character - Reaction Dimension - Practical support with Self Forgiveness and Self Commitments.

 

Reactions Dimension:

* Jealousy

* Frustration

* Irritation

* Anger

* Judgment and Self Judgment

* Impatient

* Self Pity

* Depression

* Anxiety

* Stress

 

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Impatient

 

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to access impatient towards anything and anyone in my environment, when and as I embodied the 'I don't have time Character' that I've created within and as myself.

 

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to project impatient towards others in my world wherein the words that I will use would be taint with Evil and Poison, within the attempt to brush them off, either externally directly to them, or internally, within and as my mind as back chat and internal conversations.

 

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to wish that no one will talk to me, send me e-mails or ask me questions when I'm in the 'I don't have time' character, not seeing realizing and understanding that within that moment, I've separated myself form my entire existence, as if I'm the only one that is here, the only one that is busy and within that, the only one that is important and thus, whomever interrupt me or making noises, is lesser than me and not considering me and also annoying according to my eyes view, while the fact of the matter is that - I am the one that interrupt myself through participating within a reaction in my mind, having internal conversation with myself, as well as not being considerate towards others in my environment when I'm busy occupying myself in my mind, justifying why they are inconsiderate and annoying and within that, sees only ME without seeing them as who they are in that very specific moment.

 

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to be impatient towards others when they ask me questions while I'm busy with something else and thus, I would give them indirect answers, so that they would leave me alone as they would notice that I'm being impatient however, when they keep asking the same question because I didn't give them a direct answer, I become angry at them and even nasty towards them, in complete possession because apparently, they didn't consider me in that moment and haven't seen how busy I was. I forgive myself that I've NOT accepted and allowed myself to speak directly in the moment, within assisting the being with what they asked me, in being as clear as possible which would make the entire process less time than what it would be, when I'm impatient and indirect.

 

 

I commit myself to not accept and allow myself to access Impatient behavioural mode as I now see, realize and understand how Evil one can become when and as one accept and allow oneself to direct oneself within impatient towards others.

 

I commit myself to - when and as someone is asking me a question that I see within and as myself that I have the answer and yet, I'm busy, I take a breath, I assess within and as myself whether there is any slightly movement of energy inside myself that can turn into evilness in the nature of impatient and if there is, I move through the energy, letting it go, earthing myself, clearing myself, and assist the being in a way that is clear and direct, and go back to do what ever I was busy with a moment ago.

 

For Further Support, please listen to : Life Review - A Life of Impatience