The Vampires Feed - Day 452

Throughout my process, I've been working a lot with the design of Superiority/Inferiority as that has been the primary point that had sabotage my relationships with myself and with others. Recently, I've started becoming aware of a pattern that I've participated with throughout my entire life and in away, I've always noticed it but found ways to justify for myself why I'm right to participate in it within my mind. However, this cannot be justified any longer and honestly, I don't want to justify it any longer as I see now how I've deliberately sabotaged and limited my relationship with those whom I can learn the most within the process of transforming my weakness to strengths, to live to my upmost potential as a living expression of myself.

 

Let me explain - Within the inferiority/superiority structure, whereas one see and define oneself as inferior to others, one would unconsciously find ways, both internally and externally, to diminish beings that one perceives to be more than self and in that way, one is in essence suppress one's experience of Inferiority that one is experiencing within and as oneself.

 

The reason why I named this blog 'the Vampires Feed' is specific - it is the best way  I could describe how I have accepted and allowed myself to participate in the Inferiority/Superiority design where I would find and feed off  another's weaknesses, so that I could cope/deal with my experience of inferiority within/as myself.

 

In the past couple of weeks, I've been investigating the point of 'Living my Potential' (Trying to be someone we are not  - Day 448) and I've noticed that the people that I'm reacting the most, are the people that represent to me the potential of who I am able to create myself as. When I started to understand the source of my reaction towards them, as them representing me a potential that I'm not standing equal and one yet, I've found that thus far, I was only looking at one dimension within the reactions that I had towards them, the dimension of the external reaction when/as specific sounds/voice tonality triggers unresolved point within myself but.. There is deeper inner reaction that is constantly active though, not so much in the background as I would have imagined a 'deeper reaction' to be, as it is very much conscious, as thoughts in the nature of judgment that runs rampant within my mind.

 

What I have seen is that a reaction started internally, in the form of judgment upon points that I've defined as their weaknesses and slowly but surely, these thoughts accumulated, and energy built up inside myself, waiting to express itself as external reaction. Then, after I externally reacted, I would move to internal reaction in the nature of judgment, trying to justify why I was right to externally react. Meaning, when I worked with the point of external reaction to another being in my environment, I was only looking at the reaction as if it was suddenly manifesting, not realizing that I built up and accumulated moments of internal reactions, in the form of judgment upon points that I've perceived and defined to be their weaknesses.

 

In other words, I locked myself into a time loop of reactions towards those whom I defined as Superior to me by moving myself from internal to external to internal reaction and so forth; each time the reaction expressed itself differently so I didn't see the connection, the source, the reasons behind these reactions and with this, I couldn't see the gifts that these reactions represent once I physically correct and change my living application.

 

This is just the tip of the iceberg and in the next blogs to come, I would open up the dimensions that I've started seeing within myself in relation to the inferiority/superiority design within the context of weaknesses and strengths as the potential of who I can create myself as a living expression of myself.

Beyond the Scene of Impatience voice tonality activation - Expansion - Day 436

Within this blog, I will expand a bit more on a statement I have written in my previous blog post:

 

"...Within this, thus showing me that I have also programmed a relationship between impatience and inferiority within me, where – if another is impatient / I perceive them to be impatient =  I react in inferiority…"

 

In the previous blog, I shared how I accessed inferiority within myself when I felt that I was not 'Knowledgeable' enough to share what I'm seeing within a specific point. What I also shared was how I could see myself accessing Inferiority and how I supported myself in that moment by taking a breath but unfortunately, I also accepted and allowed myself to be manipulated by myself within the belief that I was now stable. But, in the next moment, I perceived the other to be impatient towards me and/or what I expressed and immediately, I accessed inferiority again however now within the context of reacting to a voice tonality that I've defined as impatience.

 

When I investigated the two scenarios of Inferiority reactions as described above, I realize that -

The first inferiority reaction within the context of not being knowledgeable enough was a program that I created within myself wherein, every time I'm not fully understanding a specific topic, I experience myself inferior to those who know more than me. Here it was important for me to realize that taking a breath and believing that I'm clear and stable without checking all dimensions and relationship in the context of Inferiority and 'not being knowledgeable enough' is a dangerous point because, the physical reality showed me a moment later that I've not yet completely walked through and changed the programming "If I'm not knowledgeable enough = I react in inferiority". Though, there would be other times where I won't be as fortunate to have another moment presenting itself so quickly to show me that I've missed a point hence the "danger" of believing that I am calm/stable as a mind fuck manifestation that I've created within myself.  

 

So, with having  programs running inside myself:

"If I'm not knowledgeable enough = I react in inferiority..."

"If another is impatient / I perceive them to be impatient =  I react in inferiority…"

The second reaction to the voice tonality of Impatience is another program that I've created within myself however here, it was intense from the perspective of me being able to see in slow motion the activation point, the reaction, the movement inside myself in a quantum moment as the reaction of inferiority was now perpetuated through the voice tonality triggered in amalgamation with the first programming resonance platform awaiting to be activated again.

 

In a way you can say that the physical reality, the other being I was discussing with, supported me in seeing that the programming "If I'm not knowledgeable enough = I react in inferiority..." wasn't yet aligned within and as myself.

So, here it is for me to continue and investigating those 2 programs because the physical reality showed that there is still a point that I've missed, not seeing clearly yet within myself.

 

It is a Vicious Cycle from that perspective is how we activate systems/energies/programs/reactions within ourselves and then we believe that we calmed down, perceived ourselves as 'Stable', unaware that all this time other programs are still running in  an 'awaiting' mode for the next time a window of opportunity present itself and the program would activate, taking us to the starting point to realize that : "ooops, here it goes again.." lol however, if we miss the 'problem' or and we are not taking the responsibility to assist and support ourselves in our correction process - the cycle is vicious as it is a time loop that would again and again takes us to the very first point that we missed and unless we correct, we will continue looping.

 

Here we have to step further into the Quantum Mind.

I suggest investing and investigate in the Quantum Mind Interview series to better understand what the Quantum Mind is, what is its purpose and functionality. In a very simple explanation -the Quantum Mind is the Mind platform from which various systems are being activated on a conscious, subconscious and unconscious level. Once these system are activated, energy is created and for the Mind to continue to survive.

 

We are completely unaware of what is going beyond the scenes of our own mind; we seldom stop and ask ourselves: "But, where this reaction came from, what is the source?". The Fascinating thing is that if we look at the word: "Reaction" -> Re-Action -> Re-activation; meaning a reaction doesn't manifest just like that, there is always a platform or a place holder on a quantum mind level that 'host' (activate) the reaction in a specific space/time as a support for the mind to generate the energy it required for its survival. This obviously can only be done when we miss a breath, when we are unaware of ourselves, our physical body, our physical environment as we have separated ourselves from ourselves and that which is unconditionally here. 

 

What is the solution then - For myself, I have seen that I used to perceive myself as stable and/or clear within myself in the aftermath of a reaction towards someone or something. This experience with the reactivation of inferiority that I explained here, shows that there is much more to the mind/physical relationship that one could ever perceive.  Therefore, the solution is to continue and developing one's self honesty in how one is assisting and supporting oneself to really step out of the mind and into the physical in every moment of breath.

Another point is that I used to judge myself for accessing inferiority and/or when reacting to a specific voice tonality but then I realized that judging myself is counterproductive and not supportive in any way because within the judgment I abdicated my responsibility to empower myself in understanding my own created programming and within that, taking the responsibility to correct my living application within the principle of what is best for all.

Beyond the Scene of Impatience voice tonality activation - Day 435

There was a moment today where I accessed inferiority for a split second while being in a discussion with another being. When I noticed that I accessed inferiority I slowed myself down, took a breath and consciously snapped out of it however, there was still a resonance movement of inferiority within myself.

 

The next moment, I perceived the other to become impatient in their body movement and voice tonality expression which triggered a reaction within myself that locked into the inferior resonance  I had accepted and allowed the previous moment; therefore, the inferiority Re-activated again. Within this, thus showing me that I have also programmed a relationship between impatience and inferiority within me, where – if another is impatient / I perceive them to be impatient =  I react in inferiority.

 

Here, I really had to again slow myself down, see quickly what I had created within myself and my environment to ensure I do not compromise the quality of the discussion through the reactions that I had allowed within and as myself.

 

What I have found is that Resonance movement or layers if you will, slowly move inside the body despite one perceiving oneself stable after the effect. This shows how we are unaware of the harm and sabotage of our physical body within every time we accept and allow a reaction to activate within ourselves. I, for most part, was aware mostly to the reaction, to how my physical body is changing while/during a moment of reaction however, I am now starting to also see the consequences of the aftermath of a reaction which is the resonance manifestation within the physical body.

 

Consequences meaning - my experience of resonance activation or movement is like a smoky thick wall that I build inside myself to protect me from the other that I had a reaction to. It's like a defense mechanism through which I create a protection layer and so, when I'm in the environment with the being I had a reaction to, this wall/protection layer is resonating faster and I am more consciously aware of the words I speak from a 'Fear' starting point, I would become more aware of how I move, how I present myself and I would have thoughts towards the other, trying to find fault in them to make myself feel more than (which is simply the Inferiority design where one would try within oneself making oneself more than the other that one had perceived to be superior to self)

 

The interesting thing is that when the other is not in my immediate environment, the resonance movement is still here only that it moves much slower; Only when slowing down,  I can self honestly see and identify the slow motion resonance expression within myself. What I have realized through observing this within myself lately - the slow motion resonance movement is in essence a platform that is awaiting for external triggers to be activated; within the example I shared today, the other being that I previously reacted to, was the trigger that activated the resonance within myself - this resonance, when moving fast, generate energy within myself, this energy harm the physical body and slowly but surely, if these points not sorted out within myself, physical consequences may manifest over time and consistent participation in reactivation the system.

 

So - how to practically support oneself in these moments - Firstly it is to become aware that even when one perceived myself as stable after a momentary reaction, one must slow oneself down to ensure there is not aftermath resonance platform that is awaiting to be activated. Understand that as long as these resonance platform exists, one would easily react to an external trigger that one is facing within oneself.

Secondly, for more perspective on how these things works, I suggest listening to:

Voice Tonalities - Atlanteans - Part 141

Voice Tonalities: Practical Support - Atlanteans - Part 146

 

Also, if you haven't already, I suggest reading through the blog series that I started with regards to the dimensions of Voice tonality reactions.

 

Reacting to Voice Tonality - Day 421

Inferiority and voice tonality - Day 422

Manipulation and voice tonality - Day 423

Voice Tonality - Impatience - Day 427

Voice Tonality - Sharpness - Day 434

Continuing with the blog series - Voice Tonality.

If you haven't already, please also read:

Manipulation and voice tonality - Day 423

Inferiority and voice tonality - Day 422

Reacting to Voice Tonality - Day 421

Voice Tonality - Impatience - Day 427

 

Within this blog, I will explore the point of reacting to someone's sharpness voice tonality, as I've recently became aware of my tendency to react to this voice tonality in a very fascinating way.

The story was as follows - A few days ago, we had a discussion and someone was expressing themselves in a way that I've defined to be edgy towards myself and others in the environment. Edgy voice tonality can also be interpreted as a very sharp voice tonality.

 

So within myself, there was a very slight reaction which I didn't immediately saw or experienced; mainly because it wasn't specifically towards me alone but to everyone in the discussion so in my mind, I abdicated my responsibility to investigating whether or not I was reacting in that moment and rationalized the event to be 'their' point - not mine.

 

The next day, I experienced depression within myself - I wanted to sleep most of the day, I didn't know what was going on inside me because I couldn't pinpoint the experience. I spent most of the day in a state of sickness almost, physically tired and weak, not realizing that these manifestation is the ground I used to excuse myself from the physical reality and isolated myself. Every time the being was in my environment, I felt uncomfortable within myself, felt restless and wanted the being to go away and the best way I could avoid facing the being was to isolate myself in my room.

Finally I have realized that my behavior and physical manifestation is unacceptable and I decided to investigate the point and see what's going on inside myself and this is the fascinating point that I mentioned earlier - in terms of my experience within myself towards the other being, I experienced the sharp voice tonality as a knife that tear apart the relationship between us as an idea that I've created within myself; as if the relationship was sliced/cut in that moment and everything I have build up and developed with that person was gone; Thus, with that being going on in my inner reality, I unconsciously created my external reality to be in alignment to what I have experienced inside myself by isolating myself from the being. Furthermore, the depression was due the idea of the relationship being cut down into 2 pieces where I stand on the one end and the other is standing on the other end.

 

When I realized what I have done both internally and externally, there was immediate release within myself. I applied SF and directly moved into the correction where I went to the other being, gave them a big hug and shared with the being what I was facing/experiencing within myself.

So here again, reacting to a voice tonality is a gift for one to explore and investigate one's reaction towards another and most importantly, to get to know a part of self that one haven't seen before - for most part, once one walk through the reaction into a correction, one relationship with another actually becomes more enjoyable as one is able to spend time with the other and communicate with each other without having all sorts of reactions coming up from 'no where'.

Voice Tonality - Impatience - Day 427

 

 

Note - I've been walking and sharing some points in relation to reactions I've seen within and as myself that were triggered when I heard specific voice tonalities. If you haven't already, I suggest to also read the following blogs:

Reacting to Voice Tonality - Day 421

Inferiority and voice tonality - Day 422

Manipulation and voice tonality - Day 423

 

Throughout our lives, we have encountered people that expressed impatience towards us and especially within the realm of education.  For children, the experience of another being impatient towards them  in the context of learning, can lead to devastated outcome where the child for instance connect the experience of learning to impatience and therefore, would make a decision within themselves to stop asking questions when they do not understand something or to act out as if they do understand a point and this is to avoid the experience within themselves in moments where another is impatient with them.

 

Now, if one understand the importance of laying the bricks in the brick wall of understanding effectively within the formative years of a child's life, one would also understand how destructive an experience of impatience towards a child can be within how the child would define oneself within one's own mind according to how one experience oneself with others. Wherein, as the child learn and develop their confident, self esteem, trust etc. and external influence such as a slight impatient from the teach or the parents comes up, the child would imprint the moment and create unconscious idea about themselves and thus, decide for example, that they cannot tell anyone when they do not understand something.

 

Fascinating enough, the experience of someone being impatient towards us create great consequences within ourselves far more than we would like to admit and here, the voice tonality reaction plays a major rule.

For example, imaging that you are now an adult and you are starting a new job or a business and to be able to do your job/business, there are things you must understand because otherwise, you won't be able to perform your job effectively. So you ask a question because you really do not understand something and the person you are asking is becoming impatient with your question because let's say that in their mind, you should have already understand the point.

 

So they raise their voice and you perceive or interpret them as  becoming 'bigger' within themselves and as such, you react and feel 'smaller' within yourself because suddenly, the past experience from your childhood kicked in, of when your teacher/parent where impatient towards you. Now, because you are reacting and you don't really know why you are reactive,  you cannot even hear what the other is explaining to you because you are far gone in your mind, within the reaction and the experience of being stupid for instance.

 

Thus, a suggestion here, when/as we face these moments where another is impatience with us, the first thing we must do is to take a breath in, breath out, and if necessary, breath again, slow ourselves down. From there, we must realize that what ever the other is expressing within themselves has nothing to do with us per say but so long as we react, there is unresolved point within ourselves that we haven't sorted out yet and if we go back to the example above it would be for instance, how we held onto the idea that if we don't understand something we must not show/tell  to anyone or even dare to ask questions due to the fear of experiencing a moment where another is impatient with us.

 

If we are the ones who become impatient towards others - here we have to slow ourselves down and investigate why is it that we allow ourselves to be impatience towards another, what is it that the other is showing us that we haven't dealt with for ourselves. It can be for example - the question that the other is asking us is not very clear even within ourselves and now that the other is asking us a question and we are uncertain as to how to direct it, we become impatient, not really towards the other person but towards ourselves from the perspective of: "how can I explain something to another that I am not fully understand myself".

 

For those of you who knew Bernard, you know what does it means to live the word 'patience' wherein one is able and willing to unconditionally explain something to another regardless of how many times one as to show the same thing again and again and again. Not once I've seen Bernard being impatient towards another; always embracing the other and looking for ways of saying the same things in different ways till the  other see/understand a point.
 

More to come...

 

 

Manipulation and voice tonality - Day 423

In the last few days, I started going more into depth within my investigation - who I am in relation to Voice Tonalities and last night a new point opened up - I was talking on the phone with a someone I've known my entire life  and over the years, I started developing specific reactions in relation to specific voice tonality which I've interpreted as Manipulation. Thus, when/as I heard this specific sound/voice, I shifted within myself where I would  be uncertain as to how to direct the conversation from that moment onwards because I believed that the words the being is speaking are taint with manipulation. These reactions are so minute that unless Sunette asked me whom I was talking with and asked me to go back to the conversation to see any slight reaction, I wouldn't even consider the moment and wouldn't see the reaction I allowed within myself.

 

What I have not considered was that by interpreting the sound, the voice tonality as manipulation, I didn't actually hear the other being, I didn't embrace the other being because I was in that moment going into my mind, "protecting" myself from what I believed to be manipulation, not taking the other person into consideration wherein for them, it won't be conscious manipulation or it won't be manipulation at all - it could be a simple point of how they express themselves in that moment in the context of who they are and the process they are walking.

 

So I started looking at my memories with people that I was reacting to when I perceived their words, the tonality/sound of the words to be manipulation and how within the reaction that I've accepted and allowed in these moments, I was only looking at what they were saying from my mind, not actually physically hearing them and thus, not practically supporting them within the point they are facing. It is interesting that in these moments of reactions to perceived manipulation, I would become aggressive, tough and blunt, not considering them, who they are, where they are within their process and so forth. Obviously, my behavior created friction and conflict within our relationship which does not support any of us.

 

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to interpreted specific sound/voice tonality as manipulation and within that, creating an idea within my mind that every word the other is speaking is no longer valid as it is taint with manipulation. In this, I forgive myself that I've NOT accepted and allowed myself to see, realize and understand that through defining a specific voice tonality to be manipulation, I invalidated the other person and made them less than who they are within my mind, not allowing myself to really hear what they are saying, where they are within their process, who they are in relation to the words they are speaking and more importantly, not investigating who I am in relation to the context of what they are saying.

 

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to blame and judge the other for trying to manipulate me according to a specific sound/voice tonality that I've defined as manipulation. The interesting thing is that so long as I accepted and allowed myself to react to a specific voice tonality that I've defined/associated with manipulation, I have not investigate who I am in relation to this voice tonality and whether or not I was the one who is using this sound/voice tonality to manipulate a specific moments/people in a moment. Within this, I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to divert my attention towards other people 'faults' (believing that they are manipulating me) wherein 'their fault' is a fault that I've created within my mind as a smoking screen from which I cannot see who I am in relation to the 'fault' I've projected towards them.

 

I forgive myself that I've NOT accepted and allowed myself to be gentle, comforting, attentive in moments where I believed that the other is indirectly saying something to me as I perceived their voice tonality to be manipulative. In this, I forgive myself that I've NOT accepted and allowed myself to physically hear what the other is saying, the context of what they are saying and expressing, who they are in relation to the context of what they are saying and so forth. Within this, I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself within the starting point of reaction to a specific voice tonality which I defied as manipulation, to not consider the other human being and the consequences thereof where I would slowly but surely developed resistance speaking to them so that I won't have to face these discomfort moments where I believed to be manipulated by them.

 

I forgive myself that I've NOT accepted and allowed myself to face myself in moments of reactions towards specific sound/voice tonality which I have defined/associated with manipulation but instead, I developed resistance towards these people and created a friction within my relationship with these people which in essence means that instead of facing my reactions and moving to the physical correction application, I resisted these people that activate the reaction within me without ever stopping to investigate who I am in relation to this reaction and the resistance I have developed towards these people.

 

I commit myself to become aware of every and all slightest movement within the nature of reaction to/towards specific voice tonality that I've defined as manipulation and to - when and as I see myself reacting to what I perceived to be manipulation, to stop, take a breath, bring myself back to my physical body and to embrace the other being within myself to be able to physically hear what they are saying within the context of who they are within their own process and who I am in relation to what they are saying.

 

I commit myself to become consciously aware of the changes in the voice tonalities that I'm expressing, to assist and support myself in my process of change. I see, realize and understand that when/as I'm expressing myself with a fluctuation  in my voice tonalities while I was not consciously making the decision to change my voice tonality, it is a flag for me to see that I'm not absolutely here but somewhere in my mind and thus require to stop, change my starting point, clear myself and move on.

 

Please also read:

Reacting to Voice Tonality - Day 421

Inferiority and voice tonality - Day 422

Inferiority and voice tonality - Day 422

As we grow up and shape our character/personality - some of us would embody the inferior character and others would embody the superiority character. In many cases, those who embodied the inferiority character would present themselves as superior to suppress and hide behind the inferiority they have defined themselves as.

Voice tonality plays a major rule within the energetic design of the embodiment of inferiority/superiority.

 

Within my investigation process of myself, I've noticed that I have become the inferior character where I would present myself as superior to those who I define as inferior while I became inferior within myself when/as I defined another as superior to me. For most part, even with becoming aware of the "game" I was playing with myself,  I've not seen, realized or understood that this design consist of many layers and dimensions. Recently, another dimension opened up and that is in relation to voice tonality where I would over sensitively react to specific voice tonality of those whom I defined superior to me. But first, to understand the design of inferiority/superiority within relationships, I suggest listening to the YouTube interviews:

 

2010: 1 The Dynamics of Competition - Process Support

2010: 2 The Dynamics of Competition - Process Support

2010: 3 The Dynamics of Competition - Process Support.flv

 

 

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to react within and as myself when/as a specific sounds/voice tonality is being spoken by another whom I perceived to be superior to me wherein in one moment, I would shift and access my mind, allow energy to spread throughout my entire body to a point of shakiness and physical weakness which I've interpreted as powerlessness, not realizing that this experience of powerlessness is directly related to how I have defined myself in relation to another where I perceived myself as inferior and the other as superior, perpetuating this definition of myself through/as reacting to their voice tonality.

 

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself disempower myself when and as specific sound/voice tonality is being spoken by another where I would immediately introvert within myself, looking for ways to get out of the experience of disempower by fighting with the other, not seeing, realizing and understanding that within the decision to fight with the other to what I perceived as empowering myself, I'm actually fighting for my limitation as I believed I must make the other see that I'm right as if that would empower me within their mind.

 

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize and understand that when someone is speaking in a specific voice tonality that I've defined as a tonality of an authority which I have programmed myself to reacted to, I have within that moment, limited my expression within the idea that they are the authority and I'm powerless. Within this, I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to NOT see, realize and understand that by accepting and allowing myself to react to a specific voice/sound, I cannot hear what the other is saying to me and thus, cannot assess whether what they stand for within that moment is of assistance and support for me to see a point that I've missed within myself or whether the other also accessed a reaction and we are both now dancing the reaction dance; The importance of assessing the situation is to then embrace the support of the other person who is standing at that moment as a support structure and accordingly move to self-correction or to either effectively direct us both to step out of the reaction game that we played and to instead assist and support each other to investigate what was the source of each one's reaction so that from there  we could then assist and support ourselves to develop effective communication where we empowering each other instead of limiting each other.

 

I forgive myself that I've NOT accepted and allowed myself to see, realize and understand that within the starting point of defining myself as powerless and another the authority, I'm limiting my living expression as I give my power away to my mind to define who I am in relation to the relationships in my life and within that, not giving myself to in fact grow, expand and empower myself within the relationship that I have with another.

 

I forgive myself that I've NOT accepted and allowed myself to see, realize and understand that by becoming angry when another speaks to me in a specific voice tonality, I'm distracting myself from the gift that the moment presented wherein, it is not about what the other did or didn't do, it is about who I am in relation to that person and/or voice tonality and how can I practically support myself to change.

(Please also read "From Reaction to Prevention and the Correction Process - Day 239")

 

I thus commit myself to be consciously aware of every and all reactions to another's voice tonality within the process of exploring and investigating who I am in relation to voice tonalities. In this, I commit myself to when and as I see myself reacting to a specific sound/voice tonality, to take a breath, stop the reaction within myself as I now understand where it started and where it would lead me if I allow the reaction to continue within and as myself.

 

I commit myself to when and as I see myself reacting to a specific sound/voice tonality, to transform the reaction to a gift wherein I allow myself to investigate and explore another layer within myself that I've not stood equal and one as, and accordingly move myself within the physical correction process.

 

I commit myself to change my living application wherein I would no longer accept and allow myself to define myself as more or less than others whom I am in relationship with and to instead, utilize the opportunity to learn and discover who I am in relation to myself and my relationships with others.

 

I commit myself to assist and support myself to stabilize myself in relation to voice tonality to eventually stand equal and one with and every sound/voice tonality and within that, not accept and allow myself to define who I am or who the other is according to their voice tonality.

Reacting to Voice Tonality - Day 421

If you haven't already listened  to the interview "Voice Tonalities" I really suggest that you would and especially if you are a woman. Most of us women, have the tendency to react to voice tonalities and within that, have the tendency to become emotionally sensitive without apparent reason. It almost feels like we are holding grudge towards another without knowing why, it feels like we cannot control ourselves, we even sometimes feel lonely within it all and all of that is because we haven't understood the reason/core/source for our reaction and what is really going on behind the scene, in the realm of our minds, within the tendency to become emotionally reactive to  voice tonalities.

 

If you are a woman that is highly sensitive and find yourself from time to time crying without any particular reason, it is suggested to investigate the system behind the reaction to particular voice tonalities as this system design is the source of why is it that us woman are becoming highly emotional, sensitive and reactive towards specific people in our lives.

 

If you are a man that is very emotional and reactive within yourself, I suggest that you also listen to the interview to assist and support yourself to understand the source of your reaction and thus, be able to effectively support yourself to change the point within yourself.

 

If you are a friend or a partner of someone that is highly emotional, this interview is also for you so that you understand the programming that runs in the background of your friend/partner mind and thus, be able to patiently stand as a support structure to assist them in identifying the design for themselves and to thus, be able to change the point within and as themselves.

 

What I have noticed within myself was the tendency to become emotional without any "seen" reason meaning, one word within a particular voice tonality could trigger a reaction within myself wherein I would all of a sudden possessed myself with all kind of negative emotions for very long time period.  We tend to disregard this one moment of reaction to a specific voice tonality because we cannot conceptualize that this one "little" reaction could lead to substantial consequences however these little moments are accumulating and building up within ourselves to a point of eventually explosion that cause consequences within our relationships with other people in our lives. On that note:

 

"...I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to chase after the ‘big points’ believing that the big points would give me ‘big realizations’ – not seeing/realizing/understanding that all is in reverse and that what is actually meaningful is in the menial, and to try and find meaning in the big is meaningless, as I only become lost in my mind…"

 

"...I commit myself to slow myself down so as to see/realize/understand the small in the big and the big in the small, so that I am able to best direct myself in my world/reality down to absolute specificity and thus no longer allow myself to be at the whim of my mind’s demands, disregarding the interconnectedness of all things to instead remain separated in a lonely bubble of fear..."

A Psychologist's Journey to Life - Day 27: The ME in Menial Tasks.

 

So women, and men - time to source our emotional reactions to voice tonalities - you would be surprised how much there is to such "menial" thing such as voice tonality and how and why not being aware of these points would effect our lives and the lives of the people we are in relationships with.

 

here is another video you can listen to in the context of Voice Tonality - Voice-Tonality - Measuring Reactions – YouTube