Depression - Self Interest or a Real Physical Condition? - Day 221

This is a continuation to:

The Elite's delusion of stress - Part 1 - Day 45 The Elite's Delusion of Stress - Part 2 - Day 46 The Decision of TIME - Day 67 opy Paste Character - The Education System - Day 184 Is it possible to Cheat yourself? Day 185 It is time to STOP Existing as a Human Machine - Day 186 The End of Times - Day 187 Facing the Evil within - the KEY to LIFE - Day 188 Fear of Disappointing others - Day 189 The Psychology of TIME - Day 190 I Regret, therefor, I'm a Good Person. NOT!!! - Day 191 The REAL Fear - Day 192 The things we Won't tell ANYONE - Day 193 Missing out on the Good Life - Day 194 Let's have some Fun - Day 195

Stupidity Loop - Jumping from the Bad to the Good to the Bad - Day 196 The Smoke Screen of Ignorance - Day 197 Leaving in a Dream - Day 208 Having the Life Style you always dreamt to have - Day 209 IT is MY time Now - don't say a word - Day 210 Let's go on Vacation - Day 211 Comparison is a Bitch - Day 212 Damn, I will never have everything done - Day 213 Standing as an Example - Self Interest or Self Realization? - Day 214 From the Bossy to the Loser - Day 215 Jealousy and Frustration - I want the Life they Have - Day 216 The Poison within Irritation and Anger - Day 217 Judgement as self Perfection - Day 218 Impatience as Evilness - Day 219 Please feel Sorry for me - Day 220

 

 

For the purpose of context, suggest reading these posts above prior to reading the post below, if you haven’t already. Here I will be walking the 'I don't have TIME' Character - Reaction Dimension - Practical support with Self Forgiveness and Self Commitments.

 

 

Reactions Dimension:

* Jealousy

* Frustration

* Irritation

* Anger

* Judgment and Self Judgment

* Impatient

* Self Pity

* Depression

* Anxiety

* Stress

 

 

 

 

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Depression

 

One must understand that the context of what I've been walking in my last few blogs was Specifically within the context of the 'I don't have Time' Character. Today, I will be walking the Depression that I've accepted and allowed myself to participate with, within the 'I don't have Time' character.

 

I forgive myself that I've NOT accepted and allowed myself to see, realize and understand that the self created Depression that I've accepted and allowed to exists within and as me, when the 'I don't have time' character take the front, was done deliberately to justify the belief that I don't have time as Equal to and One as the accepted and allowed Self Pity design. (For more context, please read the previous blog - Please feel Sorry for me - Day 220).

 

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to believe myself when I felt Depressed because apparently, I didn't have time and within that belief, I've sabotaged, compromised and limited myself in actually looking at what is behind the Depression and how I was utilizing the depression as self manipulation to not face my own self interest desires that were activated within and as my mind, in the imagination domain. (For more Context, please read Stupidity Loop - Jumping from the Bad to the Good to the Bad - Day 196 and Leaving in a Dream - Day 208)

 

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to follow the feeling of Depression to justify why I took a moment for myself, to do nothing, and why it was 'ok' for me to neglect and compromise the things I committed myself to get done and instead went and do things to please my desire for entertainment because according to Society codes that I've accepted and allowed as myself, as a religion of myself, "it is valid to take a momentary 'break' when feeling Depressed; everybody does that".

 

I forgive myself that I've NOT accepted and allowed myself to see how I've manipulated myself and others within the Depression embodiment within the belief that I'm entitle to feel depressed because everybody does from time to time and therefor, I can take a moment and indulge within my self interest desires even though 'I don't have time' for it. Within this, I forgive myself that I've NOT accepted and allowed myself to consider the Physical reality but rather, trusted my mind within the experience of Depression to justify for myself that it's ok to take a momentary break and thus, have not realized, seen and understood that within that justification, my directive Principle is my Mind and not Me that moves equal and one as the physical as what is best for all. In this, I forgive myself that I've NOT accepted and allowed myself to see, that I do not require any form of manipulation to move myself in any given moment but rather, stand in self honesty, assess what would be best for all in a moment and accordingly move myself, without the mind telling me how I feel, what I should do, who or what I am

 

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to base my decisions according to how I perceive my Experience through my mind instead of trusting the Physical within the principle of what is best for all and move myself accordingly. Within this, I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to trust the experience of Depression, as if it is me, not seeing, realizing and understanding how I am the only creator of the depression within and as me and how I have used and abused myself in manipulating myself within the belief that I am depressed, to justify my fall into my own desires in the nature of self interest and to thus, compromise myself within giving up on that which I've committed myself to.

 

I forgive myself that I've NOT accepted and allowed myself to see, realize and understand how deliberate depression is, within and as me where I would give up on Life, on the Principle of what is best for all through justifying to myself my fall in the name of Depression that would entitle me to indulge and take the time I require to 'heal' myself from the depression because apparently, it wasn't me who decided to become depressed "because it is real and I could feel it" and within that, I forgive myself that I've NOT accepted and allowed myself to trust the Physical, to trust the Principle of what is best for all and instead, trusted my mind, in separation of me, within the belief that I'm experiencing Depression and that it is real because I can feel it.

 

I Commit myself to when and as I see myself accessing Depression, and now I'm referring whatever the reason for the self created depression is, not only in the context of 'I don't have time' character to Stop, Breathe, and remind myself why and How I've seen for myself that I've deliberately created depression to manipulate myself in not facing the real core/source/origin of the Depression as a cover-up to justify my desires in the nature of self interest. Within that, I commit myself to investigate and further expand the my SF application with regards to Depression within all the layers of the mind, for myself, and accordingly, to walk the correction process that is required to be walked, in self honesty/realization.

 

I Commit myself to Trust the Physical as what is here that I can cross reference and within that, to not trust the mind within the experience that I 'Feel' as I now see, realize and understand that whatever I feel and see through my mind is self created deception and it's not actual direct seeing of and as the Physical and if I accept and allow myself to trust my mind, I accept and allow the diminishment of myself, as living physical being and within that, in every moment that I accept and allow myself to base my decisions according to what I feel or see through my mind, I miss a breath and a window of opportunity to in fact change and walk, breath by breath, within and as the principle of that which is best for all lives.

 

I Commit myself to Establish Physical Self Trust within and as myself and to assist and support me in making decisions that are based on Physical cross referenced investigation rather than making decisions that are based on mind Trust as I've seen and proven to myself that I cannot trust my mind in anyway whatsoever.

Please feel Sorry for me - Day 220

 

 

This is a continuation to:

 

The Elite's delusion of stress - Part 1 - Day 45 The Elite's Delusion of Stress - Part 2 - Day 46 The Decision of TIME - Day 67 opy Paste Character - The Education System - Day 184 Is it possible to Cheat yourself? Day 185 It is time to STOP Existing as a Human Machine - Day 186 The End of Times - Day 187 Facing the Evil within - the KEY to LIFE - Day 188 Fear of Disappointing others - Day 189 The Psychology of TIME - Day 190 I Regret, therefor, I'm a Good Person. NOT!!! - Day 191 The REAL Fear - Day 192 The things we Won't tell ANYONE - Day 193 Missing out on the Good Life - Day 194

Let's have some Fun - Day 195 Stupidity Loop - Jumping from the Bad to the Good to the Bad - Day 196 The Smoke Screen of Ignorance - Day 197 Leaving in a Dream - Day 208 Having the Life Style you always dreamt to have - Day 209 IT is MY time Now - don't say a word - Day 210 Let's go on Vacation - Day 211 Comparison is a Bitch - Day 212 Damn, I will never have everything done - Day 213 Standing as an Example - Self Interest or Self Realization? - Day 214 From the Bossy to the Loser - Day 215 Jealousy and Frustration - I want the Life they Have - Day 216 The Poison within Irritation and Anger - Day 217 Judgement as self Perfection - Day 218 Impatience as Evilness - Day 219

 

For the purpose of context, suggest reading these posts above prior to reading the post below, if you haven’t already. Here I will be walking the 'I don't have TIME' Character - Reaction Dimension - Practical support with Self Forgiveness and Self Commitments.

 

Reactions Dimension:

* Jealousy

* Frustration

* Irritation

* Anger

* Judgment and Self Judgment

* Impatient

* Self Pity

* Depression

* Anxiety

* Stress

 

 

 

 

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Self Pity

 

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to want, need and desire others to feel sorry for me within the context of the ' I don't have time' character, as a manipulation tactic to stipulate others to assist me with the task I must do, instead of being direct, see what needs to be done, what I can do within the space/time consideration and accordingly, if I see in self honesty that I require additional support - I simply ask. In this, I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to react either positively or Negatively to the  feedback of whether or not one can assist with additional support in walking a specific task that must be walked wherein, if the person would agree, I would be happy and if the person would disagree, I would again feel sorry for myself and be nasty and resentful towards the other being instead of - what ever the feedback of the other person may be, I stand stable within and as myself and direct the moment according to the feedback, breath by breath.

 

Thus, I commit myself to assess in self honesty, whether or not I require additional support in walking a specific task. When and as I ask for additional support, I make sure that whatever the feedback may be, nothing within me moves as I trust myself that I would sort the point in one way or another independently of a specific feedback. And thus, may the feedback be 'Ok, I can assist' or 'sorry, can't assist here', I breath, I make sure that I clear within and as myself, that no pictures of comparison comes within and as me, that there is no hidden resentment, judgement or spite whether the being cannot assist. All that has changed is  additional piece of information that I would utilized in making the next Move as self movement within and as a clear and stable decision.

 

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to feel sorry for me because I have so many things to do and I don't get things done, not seeing, realizing and understanding that if I would to stop, Breathe, and walk with and as my physical, I might have get to everything in a practical and effective way however, when spending time in my mind, in feeling sorry for myself, all I do is waste the time that I could have utilize to the best of my abilities.

In this, I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to project in my mind, to all the things I would like to get to and accordingly assess what is possible and not possible to walk within a space/time consideration and thus, to not accept and allow myself to feel sorry for myself for not being able to do all that I would like to do and to instead, I commit myself to utilize such moments, in a practical and supportive way where I would assess all the points and prioritize them according to what would support me and the group the most and accordingly, make a decision, so absolutely, in leaving no back door for self pity and sorrow as I understand why I'm here, who I am and what are my responsibilities within my understanding of who I am.

 

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to feel sorry for myself when accessing the 'I don't have Time' character and perpetuate the point through sharing with others all the things I must do during the day so that they could also feel sorry for me and perhaps volunteer to support, not seeing, realizing and understanding that that which I walk, I walk for ME, as the Decision of who I am as an expression of myself and that it is my point to walk because I simply able to and that any emotions like feeling sorry for myself is unacceptable.

 

I forgive myself that I've NOT accepted and allowed myself to investigate and realize the design of self pity where one would access self pity, to justify for oneself why one is right in being stressed, frustrated, irritated and so on and within that, what one is really desiring for, is recognition from others, to validate one's self sorrow so that one, wouldn't have to face one's creation of self pity/sorrow but rather remain enslaved to one's creation of one's mind with no actual self awareness movement in assisting and supporting self to see, realize and understand what one had accepted and allowed oneself to participate with, in separation of self and accordingly, walk one's self correction into changing self from Mind movement to Self Movement in any given moment.

Thus, I commit myself to SHOW that accepting and allowing self pity, is to prepare the way before self to fall as one is accepting and allowing self defeat, self limitations and self victimization instead of taking a moment to investigate and see what self had accepted and allowed self to be and become in separation of self, as how self had defined self within self pity and to, take a breath in, take a breath out, place oneself back in one's physical body, release self from the pre-CONceived ideas self had defined self as and accordingly, in self honesty and self responsibility, immediately correct and change.

Judgement as self Perfection - Day 218

 

 

This is a continuation to:

 

The Elite's delusion of stress - Part 1 - Day 45 The Elite's Delusion of Stress - Part 2 - Day 46 The Decision of TIME - Day 67 The Decision of TIME - Day 67 Copy Paste Character - The Education System - Day 184 Is it possible to Cheat yourself? Day 185 It is time to STOP Existing as a Human Machine - Day 186 The End of Times - Day 187 Facing the Evil within - the KEY to LIFE - Day 188 Fear of Disappointing others - Day 189 The Psychology of TIME - Day 190 I Regret, therefor, I'm a Good Person. NOT!!! - Day 191 The REAL Fear - Day 192 The things we Won't tell ANYONE - Day 193

Missing out on the Good Life - Day 194 Let's have some Fun - Day 195 Stupidity Loop - Jumping from the Bad to the Good to the Bad - Day 196 The Smoke Screen of Ignorance - Day 197 Leaving in a Dream - Day 208 Having the Life Style you always dreamt to have - Day 209 IT is MY time Now - don't say a word - Day 210 Let's go on Vacation - Day 211 Comparison is a Bitch - Day 212 Damn, I will never have everything done - Day 213 Standing as an Example - Self Interest or Self Realization? - Day 214 From the Bossy to the Loser - Day 215 Jealousy and Frustration - I want the Life they Have - Day 216 The Poison within Irritation and Anger - Day 217

 

For the purpose of context, suggest reading these posts above prior to reading the post below, if you haven’t already. Here I will be walking the 'I don't have TIME' Character - Reaction Dimension - Practical support with Self Forgiveness and Self Commitments.

 

Reactions Dimension:

* Jealousy

* Frustration

* Irritation

* Anger

* Judgment and Self Judgment

* Impatient

* Self Pity

* Depression

* Anxiety

* Stress

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Judgement and Self Judgement:

 

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to judge people as More or Less than me according to where I'm at within the "I don't have time' character time line meaning - I would either judge them as less than me when I compare them to what I believe they should be doing with their time within their effectiveness and their potential to become as effective that they can be, or I would rather judge them as More than me, to justify why I have to perfect myself and push myself even more, to stop complaining and simply do the work in separation of me. (For more context, please read - From the Bossy to the Loser - Day 215)

 

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to judge myself for either being More or Less than other people, in comparison to an ideal that I've created within and as my mind, not taking into consideration each individual and our processes and thus, instead of equally assisting and supporting myself and the others, I would diminish myself and the others in my mind, to either balance the positive or the Negative experience that exists within and as me.

 

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to judge my application and my effectiveness in moments where everything seems to be overwhelming and I access the ' I don't have time' character, and within this judgement, would start to spite myself in looking at all the moments that I fell and missed a breath instead of understanding that I can instead learn from the point, align myself to perfect my application/effectiveness and that judging my past doing is useless, pointless, meaningless and counterproductive.

 

I forgive myself that I've NOT accepted and allowed myself to realize that Judging and Chastising myself because I have seen that I could have applied myself more effectively, and in that, wouldn't have gone to the point of overload in overwhelmingness is a form of self dishonesty because within self Honesty, I could learn, assess and empower myself in seeing how I can correct my application to stand in alignment with my utmost potential and from that moment onwards, to simply walk the corrective application till the application is simply an expression of who I am in oneness and equality.

 

I forgive myself that I've NOT accepted and allowed myself to see, realize and understand how I've utilized the judgement of others for my own self interest / self definition wherein When and as I 'feel' that my standing within myself is compromised, I would try to justify to myself the 'Ok'ness in compromising myself through comparing myself to others that I perceive to be less stable within and as themselves.

 

I commit myself to assist and support me in moments where I see that judgement kicks in, either towards myself or towards others and to transform those moments to gifts in assisting and supporting me to see how and why I've separated myself and from there, walk the correction process and change.

 

I Commit myself to SHOW that any form of judgment is Self Dishonesty as one could have assess, investigate and introspect self to see how one can learn and perfect oneself as one's application but instead, through judgement, one gave in to one's mind with no actual and real self support.

 

I Commit myself to NOT accept and allow myself to judge myself or others and instead, investigate what I haven't seen for myself, as myself and in myself that I could learn from, correct and change.