Changing the Human Nature - Day 89

This is a continuation to my blog:

Humans are so fucked up - you cannot trust anyone - Day 88

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to give up on Humanity within and as the statement: "Humans are fucked up - you cannot trust anyone" and I forgive myself that I have NOT accepted and allowed myself to realize that all along, I have accepted my limitations, my programming and the design that I've created myself within and as and I have allowed the limitation, programming and design within and as this world, as equal to and one as me and through my acceptance and allowances, I directly responsible for us as humanity, in our current nature/design because I haven't take my own responsibility of stepping out of that which I've accepted and allowed myself to be and become in separation of me, stand as an example that a change is possible and that the only reason we won't allow ourselves to change is because or our self interest nature which blinds us from seeing clearly what we have ignored and disregarded from the beginning of time and how through our ignorance, we have accepted and allowed ourselves to create and manifest a world as it is exists today.

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself as the giving up character, to use, justify and make excuses of why I cannot change because changing would mean to let go of the character that I've created myself as, in separation of me and within that, I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to forget that I was the one who created myself as the human nature, and that I was so powerful that I've even created the forgetfulness character so that I can make sure, that I will never bring myself back to myself within and as equality and oneness as LIFE that is best for all.

I forgive myself that I've NOT accepted and allowed myself and this world as equal and one to realize, understand and see that so long as I accept and allow the evil secret mind that I've become in absolute equality and oneness and therefore, have accept and allow spiteful thoughts, jealousy, comparison, competition, judgement, diminishment of others in my mind, I cannot be trusted to the extent to which - if I think, I can't be trusted and within and as equality and oneness fuckupness - I cannot trust any one who accept and allow thoughts to be one's directive principle in separation of oneself and this existence as a whole.

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to be petrified to face myself as my mind, as what I have accepted within myself and this world, and thus, the easy way out if through stating that the human nature will never change and within that, I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to give my power away within the desire to belief that the human nature cannot be changed as I've abdicated my responsibility to test for myself whether I can change and stand as an example that the human nature can be changed.

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to justify why I'm not willing to face that which I've accepted and allowed myself to be and become within and as the statement: "the human nature cannot be changed" and furthermore, I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to hurt, harm and kill anyone who dared to stand up and prove that change, within and without is possible.

I forgive myself that I've NOT accepted and allowed myself to see that I'm EVIL in fact because I accept and allow myself to participate within and as my evil secret mind, judging, spiting, competing with everything and everyone: my best friends as well as my enemies and I haven't accepted and allowed myself to realize that unless I take the responsibility to in fact face myself and all that I've accepted and allowed within myself and within this world, I'm directly responsible for the abuse that manifested within and as this world.

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to use the excuse: If I stop my mind, I will become a zombie" and I haven't taken the responsibility to test and confirm that excuse/belief for myself because within and as me I already KNEW and didn't want to face that stopping the mind is the KEY, stopping the mind is an extensive process that one has to walk in absolute self dedication.

I commit myself to show that a change is possible through my 7 years commitment of writing. And so, through writing myself out, I stand as an example that a change is possible because I've committed to myself to never give up on myself, as I see, realize and understand that giving up on myself means that I'm giving up on LIFE that is best for all.

I commit myself to show the stupidity loop that we have created as ourselves wherein us as the creators of the multiple characters within and as ourselves, also created a character to forget that we are in character and so, me within and as my powerfulness, have created a loop where we could never get out of, unless we do, through taking the responsibility to let go of all our characters, to download the program of and as LIFE that is best for all into and as our physical flesh and change who and what we have become to and as a principle of LIFE that is best for all.

I commit myself to show and expose that Trust cannot exists as long as one THINK. We have created a world based on thinking and it is clear that we haven't done a good job. Our relationships with others are based on thinking and it is obvious what goes on inside one's mind towards their beloved one. (if one dare to be self honest and admit to oneself the actuality of what I'm writing here)

I commit myself to SHOW and PROVE that when stopping the mind, one doesn't become a zombie, as I'm walking my own process of stopping the mind and it doesn't seem that I'm becoming a zombie but quite the opposite - fully expressive, A LIVE and functioning.

Humans are so fucked up - you cannot trust anyone - Day 88

From time to time, I hear the statement - "yes, it is fucked up, it's human nature, there is nothing we can do about it. We simply cannot trust anyone, there are people that will stab a knife in your back the moment you turn around, there will be those who will rape the neighbours daughter, there will be those who will murder the prime minister, there will be those…" and the list goes on and on and on.

However, what is fascinating is that within that statement or various types of statement within and as the nature of the statement above, one has already given up on humanity. One has already given up on the possibility to change human nature and simply accepted within and as oneself and allowed within and as this world, the fact that the human nature is so fucked up and there is nothing we can do about it.

But is it in fact so? Is it the human nature that cannot be changed or is it me that will not dare myself to change? I will vote for the second option as I've seen within and as myself the extent of self will that one must become for one to absolutely change one's preprogram design / the human nature.

Ok, so yes, we cannot trust anyone in this world but that is not because of who they are - it is because who we are within and as our own human nature/preprograming. Why?

Let's do an exercise - imagine a person you dislike. What are the thought you have about him/her? What is the nature of the thoughts you accept and allow within and as your mind? Can you see it? Not so pretty hay?

but now you will tell me - well, I don't like this person because of this and that and you will justify why it's ok that you have accepted and allowed those thoughts towards this person because I mean, that’s what everyone does when they don't like someone, nothing wrong with me disliking someone, so stop with your stupid questions.

Let's continue with our journey into the mind and now - imagine your best best best best friend in this world. Ohhh, that's nicer, it feels good now within and as yourself. I understand. BUT, your very best friend has now disagreed with you and a friction manifested; You'll have to become self honest now, to be able to answer the following question: What is the nature of your thoughts towards your best best friend now? What memories from the past did you bring to this moment of friction that have been suppressed until this very moment of friction till you burst all out and took all the shit out.

So you see, I wouldn't trust you as my best friend exactly as I wouldn't trust you if you were my biggest enemy so long as I know what's going on in your secret mind; and the only reason I know what’s going on in your secret mind is because I'm exactly the same as you, within and as the human nature that I've accepted and allowed myself to be and become. Meaning, as long as we THINK, we cannot be trusted and the only way we can be trusted by ourselves and others is when and as we stop thinking.

 

When we say that the human nature cannot be changed, it is ONLY because we don't want to change within and as ourselves, simply because we have never known ourselves otherwise. We believe that we will become zombies if we stop the mind but we never actually decided to test the point for ourselves to see if there is any ground to our belief. I mean, if it comes to the point that you would become zombie when the mind stop and you stop thinking than, go ahead and start thinking again. It is very simplistic.

The only way to make a change in this world, is to first stop our own evil secret mind that continuously think 24/7 non stop. We judge others, we judge even ourselves; we are jealous of others; we compete with everything and everyone for our own limitation; we're spiteful towards each other; would you want to be in relationship with yourself when you SEE very clearly what's going on in your secret mind towards those who are in relationship with you? would you want to be in relationship with others when you KNOW what is the nature of the thoughts they have towards you in a moment of friction? NO! and yet, we accept and allow it.

To be continued with a practical support within and as Self Forgiveness statements and Corrective Commitment - the tools of Stopping the mind and becoming LIFE that is trustworthy.

The Decision of TIME - Day 67

This is a continuation to:

The Elite's delusion of stress - Part 1 - Day 45

The Elite's Delusion of Stress - Part 2 - Day 46

I forgive myself that I've NOT accepted and allowed myself  to see in self honesty that my decision of walking in every moment of every breath according to principle of that which is best for all, wasn't absolutely clear, because if it was, I wouldn't have spend time in Backchat, internal conversations and thoughts within and as me.

I forgive myself that I've NOT accepted and allowed myself to see how deceptive the statement of " I don't have time" is because if I play with the variables and add Money to the equation as a reward for my good work, I would simply walk all my tasks until they are done and perhaps I even would have take more tasks on myself, to increase the rewards (Money) and I would still won't make the statement "I don't have time to do everything".

I forgive myself that I've NOT accepted and allowed myself in self honesty, to see, realize and understand that when I allow myself to participate in the statements: "OMG, I don't have time, I will not make it, I don't have time for myself", I'm actually wasting my time in thoughts, emotions and feelings instead of standing up, delete the experience of stress, self victimization and simply direct myself as effectively as possible, breath by breath.

I forgive myself that I've NOT accepted and allowed myself to see, realize and understand that if my decision to walk in every breath according to that which is best for all was clear, I wouldn't have accepted and allowed myself to be stressed and nervous about not having enough time during the day because clearly, I did have time to participate in backchat. What I'm showing here to myself is that when and as I allow the thought "I don't have time,  omg" to come up from within me - what I know is that I wasn't breathing, I wasn't clear in my starting point and that I must take a step back, realign myself back to myself and my decision and to accordingly walk my day to day responsibilities, breath by breath until it's done.

I forgive myself that I've NOT accepted and allowed myself  to consider that when I experience my day to day tasks as a burden within and as myself, I'm not in fact here within and as my human physical body but rather somewhere in my mind, missing a breath. And within that, I forgive myself that I've NOT accepted and allowed myself to red flag the experience of burden within and as myself in relation to my day to day tasks because the very fact that I gave permission to the experience should worry me as it is indicating that my initial decision of walking those tasks was not done from the starting point of what is best for all but as a point of self interest to be able to reward myself with Energy that I would get from others, who would validate and approve me according to what I do.

I forgive myself that I've NOT accepted and allowed myself to see, realize and understand that if I compare the amount of my daily tasks with the tasks that others have, I'm not in fact standing clear within my decisions of walking my daily tasks because if I would have a clear starting point, what others do or not, wouldn't influence me in anyway whatsoever and I would focus on my breath by breath living application and walk my daily task in the utmost effective way possible regardless of the others.

I forgive myself that I've NOT accepted and allowed myself to see, realize and understand that some of my tasks might be lagged as there is so much that one can do within each and every breathe and thus, instead of judging myself for not having it all done, I direct myself to assess in self honesty whether I was effective throughout the day and if not, I investigate where, when and how I wasn't absolutely directing myself effectively  to be able to correct my living application and change that which required to be changed;

I commit myself to realign my starting point within everything that I do according to that which is best for all. When and as I see energy movement as frustration, stress, burden, anxiety, comparison and judgement, I stop, I bring myself back to this physical reality, I ground the energy back to earth and I direct myself to apply myself, as the expression of who I am, breath by breath.

I see, realize and understand that my starting point thus far wasn't clear as I've accepted and allowed back chat to exists within and as me. I take responsibility to investigate and introspect in self honesty and through a process of self forgiveness, to then thus, stop indulging into self interest desire for a reward and instead, to move and direct myself as who I am, as life that is best for all, in every moment of every breath.

I commit myself to stop the back chats that I've automated in separation of me, as I see the consequences of allowing backchat for myself and this world. Every moment that I spend in my mind, is another moment that I could have done something that actually has value in this world, it is another moment that someone is dying from starvation and it is another moment that I've separated myself from myself and this existence as a whole.

I commit myself to assess my days every night before I go to sleep and to check in self honesty the level of effectiveness that I've walked throughout the day and accordingly take responsibility, correct and change.

When someone is blaming me - Day 66

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to emotionally reacted when and as I perceived that someone is blaming me or pointing fingers towards me, and immediately I accessed a defense mode where my entire body is constructed and stressed, my voice tonality became lower and the sentences that I spoke became short and ineffectively communicated.

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to have refused to see my backchat when and as I perceive another's ways of communicating a point to be in the nature of Blame, wherein I would start defending myself in my mind, try to solve the point with my mind and also blame the other for that which I perceived myself to be blamed for, not seeing, realizing and understanding that I'm playing a blame game in my mind, either directly or indirectly whereas, I'm abdicating my responsibility to stand up from the emotional energy movement that I'm experiencing, BEATHE, ground the energy back to earth and look at the point that was communicate with me, assess in self HONESTY whether it is a point that I require to investigate, correct myself and change or whether I'm clear and able to assist and support the other to turn the point back to self instead of projecting the self blame onto others. 

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to react in self judgement when and as I perceive that someone is blaming me for a point, either directly or indirectly and I haven't allowed myself to let the energy movement go through grounding it back to earth, stand up and investigate within and as myself whether there is a point within me that I've missed and thus, require to correct in writing self forgiveness in self honesty and walk the practical physical correction, breath by breath. Within that, I forgive myself that I've NOT accepted and allowed myself to actually face the point and direct myself accordingly through using and abusing the other in my mind, to defend, justify and validate myself, as a protection/defence mechanism, within the attempt to defend me as the EGO without having to practically face and change who I have accepted and allowed myself to be a become as a dishonesty personality design that I've programmed myself as.

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to miss a breath when and as I perceive someone to blame me and automatically access a mind personality as the experience of myself as inferior without giving me the permission to stand up, breathe, stop the energy, delete the personality and assess in self honesty the point that was communicate to and with me.

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to interpret what was communicated with me within a polarity of 'right/wrong' and have thus, defined myself as being 'wrong' when and as I perceived someone to blame me and within that, I haven't accepted and allowed myself to take a moment, Stop my reactions, BREATH and look within self honesty at the context of the words that were shared with me to see for myself, whether it is in fact a point that I require giving myself direction and walk the practical correction.

 

I forgive myself that I've NOT accepted and allowed myself to give myself the permission to HEAR the point that is being discussed with me with no energy movement whatsoever, with no reaction nor backchat and instead allowing myself to unconditionally be Here, Hear other's perspective and introspect within myself, in self honesty whether I require to further look at the point and support myself within practical corrective application.

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to physically lock myself within a past memory experience where I felt being verbally abused by someone who claimed to support me to step out of my EGO and thus, when and as someone suggest to me to look within and as myself for a specific point that I've missed, I lock myself to the extent of which my entire physical body is constricted, I access a defend mode and I'm not allowing myself to unconditionally HEAR what is being shared with me to be able to assess within and as myself, in self honesty whether I've actually missed a point that I require direct myself, correct and change.

I forgive myself that I've NOT accepted and allowed myself to see, realize and understand the cause/origin/reason for my body being constricted when and as someone is suggesting me to look within and as myself at a point that I've missed, was due to me not giving me the permission to actually face the point and to within self honesty investigate the point for myself as a defence mechanism that I've programmed myself within and as where I allow my EGO to be my directive principle within the accepted polarity design of being right/wrong, instead of me, being the directive principle in any given moment, unconditionally allow myself to expose, reveal and show myself to myself and thus, WILL myself to practically take responsibility for myself and direct myself effectively to change within and as myself according to the principle of Equality and Oneness as myself and my world.

I commit myself to NOT accept and allow myself to emotionally REACT when and as I perceived someone to Blame me and I thus, FLAG the point to assist and support myself to identity those moments and thus, STOP, BREATHE and bring myself within and as myself, to my human physical body, ground the energy back to earth and allow myself to HEAR what is being said and accordingly direct myself effectively.

I commit myself to assist and support myself to stop the nature of blame within and as myself and to thus, not accepting and allowing myself to sabotage my relationships just because I didn't take responsibility for my own back chat and within that, participating in my dishonesties, through using and abusing one's support of showing me a point that I've missed, and to hide behind my self protection mechanism to not face and direct the point within and as myself. 

I commit myself to STOP judging myself by taking myself personally, when and as I see and expose myself to the patterns that I've accepted and allowed myself to be and become, because I see, realize and understand that there is nothing personally within it - who and what I've programmed myself to be, is not me in fact, as a physical living expression and I have the ability and capability to CHANGE myself within and as the principle of what is best for all/oneness and equality and to not accept and allow myself to be anything that is less than that.

I commit myself to HEAR every single word that is being communicated with me and to stop all reactions, back chat, energy movement that comes up from within and as me. I give myself permission to unconditionally Hear, investigate and correct myself when and as a point within m require my direct alignment.

I commit myself to flag the point for myself when my body becomes constricted and locked down due to a past memory experience that is associated to the polarity design of being right/wrong within and as  EGO personality that I've manifested myself as and accordingly assist and support myself with changing who I am, in the moment of breath, letting go of the energetic charged experience, align myself back to myself; I realize that the constriction of my human physical body indicates a point that I do not want to look at and face and thus, I push myself to investigate the entire network, design, program that I've accepted and me, face it for what it is, correct myself and practically change. 

For more practical support - read - Daily Practivism: Facing Projected-Blame

The Secret War between Women - Mother Daughter relationship - Part 3 - Day 55

This is a continuation to:

The Secret War between Women - Overview - Day 52

The Secret war between Women - the Childhood years - Part 1 - Day 53

The Secret War between Women starts at home - Part 2 - Day 54

I forgive myself that I've NOT accepted and allowed myself to see the influential consequences of the dynamics between the Mother/Daughter relationship and the secret war between Women, where the first War would be between the Mother and the child for example would manifest when and as the child 'perceives' the authority of the mother to be too rigid/not understanding/unsupportive and would then thus, develop back chat towards the mother which eventually externalized and become a habit in one's life towards other female that represent the mother figure in one's life.

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself as a mother in this world to use my authority upon my child without walking with them the time line so that they could see the common sense equality equations for themselves and I have failed to realized that when I'm playing the authority game with them, it is inevitable they will create a resistance towards me and would then thus,  develop their rebellion war against me as a response to my authority game - the beginning of the Secret War between Women.

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself, as a mother in this world, to for example, superimpose my fears onto my daughter and would forbid her to participate in social gathering which I've defined as inappropriate or dangerous without taking a moment to look in a practical common sense way whether my fears has any ground in the physical reality due to me that have inherited my fears from my parents which then influenced me within how I would direct points in my world instead of supporting myself to first turn the point back to myself, allocate my starting point and support myself to see the points directly through practical Self Forgiveness and corrective application.

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself as a mother in this world to NOT realize, that by not communicating with my daughter through explaining in common sense why I believe that my daughter should not walk a specific path and thus forbid her from walking it by using my mother authority, my daughter will resist my authority and create a backchat/thoughts/internal conversations/reactions towards me which would perpetuate the secret war between women already at home.

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to superimpose my failure within my Life onto my child , fearing that they will also fail, wherein I will teach her how to not make the same mistakes as I did and thus push her to excel in all areas of LIFE to have the best from all - Man, Career, children, clothes, friendships etc. and within that, I have failed to realize that my desires are not my child's desires and by me forcing her to walk a specific path which is not her own, she will create and manifest resistance towards my up bringing of her exactly as I have done towards my mother and within that, continue the cycle of War between women - mother/daughter generation after generation.

I commit myself to show the relationship between the superimposed authority of the mother upon her daughter and the secret war between women and within that, I commit myself to support mothers to learn how to upbringing their children in the utmost effective way by first sorting themselves to be able to stand as an example for their children, be able to understand themselves as their children and to walk in equality with them in absolute support for them to become effective human beings in this world.

I commit myself to show and explain in details the consequences of the existential inherited fears from generation after generation from the beginning of time and present, stand as a support for those who dare investigating themselves and physically/practically change according to principles of that which is best for all.

I commit myself to present technics and methods to support the parents with the upbringing of their children and to stop, for once and for all the abusive superimpose  authority upon children  and instead, establish a supportive relationship with them that will be based on self respect, trust and honesty.