Don't have time for headache? - Day 472

Chronic stress has became an epidemic in today's world, as we fight for our lives and barely make it due to how the economic world system is set up.

We find ourselves spending more and more time at work and less and less time with our loved ones. The demand at work is increasing and the threat of losing our source of income is a cloud over our heads. We want to perform better, we strive for results and in doing so, we find ourselves with the feeling of "there isn't enough time".

 

We push ourselves to be creative, to be better, to give something new, to prove that we are worthy - we constantly THINK of our next step, our next client, our next big deal and as a result, we accepted that from time to time, we experience major headache that forces us to slow down but Hey - who have time to slow down when our survival is dependent on us continue to fight for our job?

 

So - the pharmaceutical industry saw an opportunity to ride on our backs and make money of our stress and so, a magic solution is provided for us, the working class, the sheep  of the world system - a magic pill that is advertised as following:

"Don't have time for headache? - it's time to consider a fast headache tablet"

 

But let's look at what they are actually saying - "you are such a stupid creature, a sheep, and you have no clue that you are the source of your own headaches; that your headache is a warning sign that your body produced to support you in slowing yourself down; your headache is a symptom of a dysfunctional economic system world wide that you are equally responsible in accepting and allowing the maintenance of the very same system that is causing stress and harm to your physical body but  hey,  I don't really care about you, I want to make money from your headache - I don't want you to see the truth because then my company's doors will be closed so really, just  take this tablets and forget about it all."

 

So people - understand - the source of the headache is the structure of our economic world system whereas we over stress the physical body, over thinking, over worrying, over fighting for our survival. The source of the headache is the system that we have created where we must push our physical body's limits in the fight for money; for some reason we all accepted the current world system to be  normal but is it? Is it normal that about 1:7 people in the first world countries is suffering from chronic stress with major physical consequences? (and please - this is just one small side effect - the world is suffering far more than headaches on the individual level)

 

You see, the Elite of this world have no interest in supporting your well beings - actually, it is to the contrary - the more you suffer, the more money they can make out of you. If they would to offer real solutions, their profit share is cut. You see, no one really cares about you. We don't even care about ourselves. I mean, we accepted and allowed ourselves to join the survival race without stopping for just one moment to look at solutions that would prevent the problem that you and I are facing on a daily basis - the problem that our children will face -- unless… unless we stand up and source the problem to from there, apply solutions.

 

Taking pain killers, cover our eyes, avoid, ignore - well - that is what we have done thus far and where did it led us? to taking stronger pain killers so that we can block the pain that we put our body through.

So, take a moment before you take your next tablet and look at the bigger picture…

 

Please also watch - Thinking Causes Sickness? How to rid yourself from Stress

Does the System have power over you? - Day 453

When working in the world system, and specifically when running a business, one has to stand within specific deadlines, goals, results, etc. from the starting point of realizing that unless one moves oneself, nothing would move; the business won't move.

 

If you ask anyone who started a business sometime in their lives, they would tell you that the first 2 years of the business were the busiest years in their life whereas one has to work 24/7 almost, as one make oneself available for what ever may come, for what ever needs to be directed.

Within that scenario, if one isn't stable within and as oneself, it is unlikely that one would make their business a success.

The most effective way to get through this process effectively is by applying 'Moment by Moment' principle as a Living application. Have a look -

 

Place yourself in that business man/woman shoes - imagine that your daily schedule is fully occupied from 6AM to 1AM where throughout the entire day, you have business meetings, managing and directing the stuff, phone calls with clients and suppliers and so forth. Imagine also that you are the one that is running the entire operation and for most part, every aspect of your business is depended on your performance.

 

That in itself is stressful point which we will get to in a moment but what I would implore you to have a look at now is the first moment of waking up in the morning at 5:30AM, knowing that the next time that you will be seeing your bed is in 20 hours from now. So you get out of bed, barely have time for coffee nevertheless breakfast, you get into your car and drive yourself to the first meeting. The next moment, it is already 10AM in the morning and a thought comes up - "OMG, it is just the beginning of the day… " so you continue with your meetings and it is lunch time - we all know how the buddy feels when you are physically tired and food is being processed in the stomach - you become even more tired. BUT - you have to continue to the next meeting; a few hours later, you look at the time, it feels like you have been working for the whole day already, you check the time, it's 3PM and "OMG - there is still so much ahead."

So you continue with your day, don't have much time for dinner but you grab something to eat and continue with your meetings, your eyes are heavy, you are physically tired, you look at the watch and "Shame, 4 more hours to go".

Now imagine, this is your life for a moment - some days will be like these, some days will be more flexible but in general - you are busy busy busy.

 

So - a suggestion here for all of us who have a busy life, either those that work in the world system or parents that are with their children 24/7 - when a thought comes up such as: "this is going to be a long day/week"; or "OMG, there is so much a head" - Stop these thoughts within yourself immediately, take a breath - This would be the first step.

 

The second step is to realize is the importance of living Moment by Moment - 

For instance, when I have weeks like that, I used to feel sorry for myself,  I would wake up in the morning, wishing it would be night time already. I would look at the time during the day and be frustrated that there is so much ahead. Within this, I haven't realize that as long as I allow myself to participate with these thoughts, I'd actually perpetuated the tiredness even more, making it unnecessarily hard for myself to move ahead with my day and be as effective as I can be. Within this, I also sabotaged my work/performance because while I was in a meeting (a moment), I already in my mind planned the next moment, thinking about the next moment which implies that I was not fully committed to the current meeting (moment).

 

Fascinating enough, this week was one of these weeks and I remember sharing with another my schedule for the day. What happened in that moment was that I could hear myself lol - when I expressed my frustration out, I could hear my own voice tonality and I could see what I was doing inside myself and that was unacceptable. At that moment, a physical change had to be lived and therefore, I stood within myself and I voiced the words: "Maya, Moment by Moment - it's time to live these words".

 

So for a moment, I assisted and supported myself to focus on what needed to be done/directed in that meeting/task/assignment and once the task/meeting/assignment was effectively done, I moved to the next point however, I found that it isn't as easy as it sounds because I've accumulated stress and worries throughout the entire week for instance, and therefore, as of yet, I cannot self honestly say that I've changed and that I now absolutely live moment by moment as this I have to walk and physically apply consistently, over time until living moment by moment is an expression of myself.

 

Within my next blog I will be sharing the manifested consequences that I've experienced during the busy week that I had and how through participating in stress in relation to time and  responsibilities, I sabotaged my physical body. I will also share what I'm doing to assist and support myself in relation to stress, worries and changing my application to a moment by moment living application so stay tuned.

I have nothing to do - something must be wrong - Day 437

 

 

With all the holidays that came up, my work load was extremely low in comparison to the rest of the year. Up until now, holidays didn't affect much the responsibilities that I have but this year, with the type of responsibilities that I'm currently walking, the holidays did have an affect on the tasks I normally walk on a daily basis.

Before the holidays, it pretty much felt like I'm running against time - there was so much to do and at the end of each day I was physically tired and so, the first morning that I had a 'relaxed' day, from the perspective of having far less tasks to apply, I woke up and felt stress within myself. I drank coffee like I do every day though, that morning, there was nothing in particular that I had to do after my morning coffee. The thought came up of: "Is it really that I have nothing to do at this moment? Can it be? Am I manipulating? Did I miss a point? Maybe I should sit all day and write 10 blogs to catch up on all the days that I could get to it? You know... I was stress that I have missed something.

Later on that day, I wanted to enjoy the sun, but because of the stress inside myself, and the busyness that I normally feel, I didn't allow myself to just sit in the sun and enjoy myself, so I took a rake and started raking the grass. After 15 min, the sun hit really bad lol and 'forced' me to take a break.

 

Another incident that happened about 3 weeks ago - I had a procedure in my eyes and the Doctor ordered me to spend the day in bed. After 3 hours I woke up and I wanted to go back to work. Esteni saw me and couldn't believe that I'm up on my feet again and had to really push me to go back to bed and follow the doctor's orders. After a few hours, I said to her: "You know, I really like being Busy, I don't like it when I have nothing to do"; This was a statement that clearly showed me the polarity that I've created within myself, the like and the dislike; the 'lots to do' and 'nothing to do'; I actually realized that: "ooops, I created a polarized character" meaning - I used to live the character: "I don't have time" and after walking through all the dimensions of that character, I misaligned the correction by creating a new character: "I like being busy" character.

 

So that morning, when I had nothing much to do "responsibilities wise", I felt this movement inside myself that initially wasn't so clear to me. I just walked around with a 'feeling' that there is something wrong, something isn't right, there must be something that I forgot to do and if I won't do it now, I would be stressed about it in the last moment.

 

The movement that I experienced within myself was a resonance movement that when I slowed myself down, it physically felt like the body shaking/vibrating inside all of the cells, very quick and short movements back and forth, in a constricted way. When I saw that this is what my body is expressing from the inside, it was clear to me that the stress has manifested on a physical level, as a constant movement inside my physical body and that if I continue to allow this physical manifestation to run amok in my body, it won't take long till physical consequences emerge.

 

I decided in that moment to stop my participation within stress and to support myself to change this pattern through a day by day living correction wherein the commitment that I've made within myself was to slow down, walk that which must be walked, to allow myself to indulge from time to time, take a break, even a few days if time allows, so long as the indulgent isn't becoming a point of self abuse/sabotage/suppression/isolation.

 

From time to time the stress point still comes up and thus, I still assist and support myself to stop, and to not accept and allow myself to physically manifest stress within my physical body within the realization that there is really so much that one can do in every given moment.
Realize that this character, as a pattern that I've created within and as myself through time, will also take time and consistency to change as a physical  living application of myself. I will continue to share points in relation to moments that I've seen within myself in the context of stress and how I assist and support myself to correct the pattern when/as it comes up in a moment.

 

Stress: The History, Origin and Nature - Atlanteans - Part 97

Stress: Sounding Self Forgiveness - Atlanteans - Part 100

Stress: Personality Development (Part 1) - Atlanteans - Part 98

Stress: Personality Development (Part 2) - Atlanteans - Part 99

Stress: Practical Living Support - Atlanteans - Part 101

Stress and Anxiety - Self Creation or Elite's Mind Control?–Day 222

This is a continuation to:

 

The Elite's delusion of stress - Part 1 - Day 45 The Elite's Delusion of Stress - Part 2 - Day 46 The Decision of TIME - Day 67 opy Paste Character - The Education System - Day 184 Is it possible to Cheat yourself? Day 185 It is time to STOP Existing as a Human Machine - Day 186 The End of Times - Day 187 Facing the Evil within - the KEY to LIFE - Day 188 Fear of Disappointing others - Day 189 The Psychology of TIME - Day 190 I Regret, therefor, I'm a Good Person. NOT!!! - Day 191 The REAL Fear - Day 192 The things we Won't tell ANYONE - Day 193 Missing out on the Good Life - Day 194 Let's have some Fun - Day 195

Stupidity Loop - Jumping from the Bad to the Good to the Bad - Day 196 The Smoke Screen of Ignorance - Day 197 Leaving in a Dream - Day 208 Having the Life Style you always dreamt to have - Day 209 IT is MY time Now - don't say a word - Day 210 Let's go on Vacation - Day 211 Comparison is a Bitch - Day 212 Damn, I will never have everything done - Day 213 Standing as an Example - Self Interest or Self Realization? - Day 214 From the Bossy to the Loser - Day 215 Jealousy and Frustration - I want the Life they Have - Day 216 The Poison within Irritation and Anger - Day 217 Judgement as self Perfection - Day 218 Impatience as Evilness - Day 219 Please feel Sorry for me - Day 220 Depression - Self Interest or a Real Physical Condition? - Day 221

 

For the purpose of context, suggest reading these posts above prior to reading the post below, if you haven’t already. Here I will be walking the 'I don't have TIME' Character - Reaction Dimension - Practical support with Self Forgiveness and Self Commitments.

 

Reactions Dimension:

* Jealousy

* Frustration

* Irritation

* Anger

* Judgment and Self Judgment

* Impatient

* Self Pity

* Depression

* Anxiety

* Stress

 

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Stress and Anxiety

 

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to react in Stress and Anxiety within the Embodiment of the 'I don't have Time' Character and within that, I forgive myself that I've NOT accepted and allowed myself to investigate the nature of the Stress and Anxiety within and as me, in seeing, realizing and understanding that I've accepted and allowed Stress and Anxiety because I've Defined myself according to what I do and specifically, how others would define/judge me according to what I do and the results that I bring and thus, when and as t 'I don't have time' to finish specific task/work in time, it is due to my expectations from myself to be more effective within and as myself as well as the Fear that others would be disappointed from me because they have expected better results from me. In this, I forgive myself that I've NOT accepted and allowed myself to see that unless expectations exists, either from myself or from others, Stress and Anxiety cannot exists. Please also, Read Day 61: Anxiety Character

 

I commit myself to STOP placing Value in how others would define me according to what I do and in this, to respect myself, to value and worthy myself within Physical Self Trust in assisting and supporting myself to walk breath by breath, seeing directly the Physical Reality as what would be the best for all outcome, in any given moment.

 

I commit myself to remind myself that Who I am is not defined according to what I do but within who I am as what I do and accordingly, to always cross reference myself, in questioning myself, and the starting point that I've based my decision of walking in any given moment and accordingly, if I see in self honesty that the starting point is not aligned and that I've projected the outcome to fit with my desire to be worthy, validated and accepted by others, I correct and change the starting point immediately, in breath.

 

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to create expectation from myself and within that, set myself in a goal of achieving these expectation, in my mind as a projection, and accordingly define myself as. In this, I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to access Stress and Anxiety when and as I'm not standing in alignment to my own goals/projections/expectations, instead of assessing whether the goals/projections/expectations that I've set forth for myself are realistic in a space/time consideration and within that, ask myself, what can I learn and correct within and as myself in how I could prioritize the time differently in aligning the space/time in a practical considerations so that the next time, I would have the sufficient time to walk through a point/task/work efficiently, specifically and effectively.

 

In this, I commit myself to transform moments of Stress and Anxiety to Gifts where I can learn, correct and perfect myself in how I look at things and make decisions, who I am within my decisions, what is my starting point and within that, align myself to self support practical consideration and application within the principle of what is best for all in any given moment, instead of Mind Self Destruction within and as for instance, accepting Stress and Anxiety to exists within and as me through a mind projections as expectations that I've set forth from the starting point of being validated, accepted and worthy in the eyes of others. .

 

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed the common belief that Stress is valid as it is one's catalyst and motivator for one's movement, in how one would direct and push oneself to perfect oneself however, within that, I have NOT accepted and allowed myself to realize that one do not require Stress as a motivator for one's movement because one can decide to move oneself, in all parts of oneself, in breath by breath living application as one realize one's Self Responsibility in Self honesty within and as the principle of what is best for all and in the very least, Stress as a motivator, was promoted by the world system, in how stress is connected with Money as how one would  motivate oneself in Comparison and Competition to others because one knows that unless one produce a specific outcome, one would not be rewarded and would face consequences that is not in alignment to one's self interest Desire to Survive.

 

I commit myself to further investigate the relationship between Stress, Anxiety and Money within the world system and within that, to educate myself in seeing how Stress was used throughout time to enslave and control human being for the benefit of the Elite of this world.

Damn, I will never have everything done - Day 213

 

This is a continuation to:

The Elite's delusion of stress - Part 1 - Day 45
The Elite's Delusion of Stress - Part 2 - Day 46	The REAL Fear - Day 192
The Decision of TIME - Day 67	The things we Won't tell ANYONE - Day 193
The Decision of TIME - Day 67	Missing out on the Good Life - Day 194
Copy Paste Character - The Education System - Day 184	Let's have some Fun - Day 195
Is it possible to Cheat yourself? Day 185	Stupidity Loop - Jumping from the Bad to the Good to the Bad - Day 196
It is time to STOP Existing as a Human Machine - Day 186	The Smoke Screen of Ignorance - Day 197
The End of Times - Day 187	Leaving in a Dream - Day 208
Facing the Evil within - the KEY to LIFE - Day 188	Having the Life Style you always dreamt to have - Day 209
Fear of Disappointing others - Day 189	IT is MY time Now - don't say a word - Day 210
The Psychology of TIME - Day 190	Let's go on Vacation - Day 211
Comparison is a Bitch - Day 212	Comparison is a Bitch - Day 212

 

For the purpose of context, suggest reading these posts above prior to reading the post below, if you haven’t already. Here I will be walking the 'I don't have TIME' Character - Internal Conversation/ back chat Dimension - Practical support with Self Forgiveness and Self Commitments.

 

Here, one must understand that the Back chat, are the source of all Evil wherein, what one accepting and allowing within oneself, within the belief that no one will ever find out, is nasty and evil shit. Therefor, I will be walking back chat by back chat, in making sure I purify myself from the Evil that I've accepted and allowed within myself, in the context of the ' I don't have Time' Character.

 

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Damn, I will never have everything done.

 

Obviously not, how can I have everything done when I'm so preoccupied in my mind? How is it that I have time to participate in thoughts and imaginations but I don't have a sufficient time to walk in practicality, everything that needs to be done? That is an interesting question that all must inquire within and as themselves.

 

Within this backchat, what needs to be considered, investigated and looked at is 'Priorities' and when I was looking within and as myself, the only thing that separate me from 'Having everything done' is my own Desire and the Value that I gave to my Desires and within that, trying to manipulate myself, to be able to justify, why I have decided to not have everything that needs to be done within giving in and following my self interest desires.

 

Also a point to look at is that - what separate me with having things done is the very statement that there is Me, and there are things that needs to be done, as if it is 2 separate entities and what was not yet considered, realized and understood is the Interdependent relationship that this world is consisting of and existing as which then thus, there is not Me, as how I have defined myself within my mind, and 'things that needs to be done' in separation - what is Real is me, as Who I am, within what I do, in walking breath by breath by breath and in every step, direct myself according to the principle of what is best for all however, as long as I am in my mind, scheming for short cuts, having back chats, separating myself from what I do as if it is an entity that I must now achieve.

 

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to believe that things needs to be done, in separation of me, not seeing, realizing and understanding that there is nothing in separation of me that needs to be done, it is simply being Here, in absolute awareness, Breathing and directing myself according to a principle, step by step.

 

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to NOT see and realize that the reason why I have created 2 separate entities - Me, and things that needs to be done, implies, that my starting point within the decision that I've made was not clear and absolute and therefor, I forgive myself that I've NOT accepted and allowed myself to see, realize and understand that when I experience overload, and stress to have things done, it is just an Experience that I've created within my mind and I have not realized that there is so much that can be done in every moment of breath and so, I must direct myself in every moment of breath to do what I do, as who I am, in ease, with no effort and as an expression of Who I am, as what I have decided to do in a specific and particular moment within self honesty, responsibility and realization that I'm here, and there is always things that needs to be done which I am able to walk to the best of my ability, capability in making the most out of it, as an expression of myself.

 

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to NOT investigate what triggered and activated the thought: "Damn, I will never have everything done" and within that, had accepted and allowed myself to continue the thought within a Negative Energy Experience as an expression of what I've accepted and allowed myself in that moment to become, in separation of myself. In this, I forgive myself that I've NOT accepted and allowed myself to see, realize and understand that the starting point of having such thought indicate, that what ever I'm doing, I haven't done for myself, as myself, within realizing my own self responsibility in walking breath by breath to the utmost of my potential.

 

I forgive myself that I've NOT accepted and allowed myself to realize that the very statement of: "Damn, I will never have everything done" is entirely not true because eventually, what ever I'm working on will be done as a decision that I've made to walk a specific point until it's done. And thus, I forgive myself that I've NOT accepted and allowed myself to consider that maybe, the time frame that I've calculated for a specific task wasn't in alignment to the physical space/time reality and therefor, I can learn from my mistake and make sure that next time, my time estimation would be correct and in alignment to the physical space/time reality.

 

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to desire being validated within what I do and therefor, when not having things done, my entire self definition would be compromise and threaten and in this, I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to priorities my self definition as a desire before the principle of that which is best for all because my starting point was to satisfied my desire to be validated through what I do and not walking as an expression of myself within what I do as a self realization that: This is who I am, this is why I am here, that needs to be done and therefor, I walk.

 

I commit myself to remind myself that there is so much that one can do in every single breath and therefor, thinking about 'not having things done' and feeling stress about that, won't make anything magically done but quite to the contrary, all I am accepting and allowing when and as I participate with such a thought is to waste my time in compromising myself and my effectiveness within what I do as Who  I am. Thus, when and as I see that practically, I won't be able to have things done within a time frame that I've set forth to myself, I take a breath, I assess and check how can I practically walk this point and simply walk it, with no effort, no stress, breath by breath.

 

I commit myself to SHOW that having such a thought as: "Damn, I will never have everything done", won't make things done but to the contrary - having any thought, will only prolong the process and would compromise and sabotage self and the relationship self has with oneself and others in this world.
 

I commit myself to consider all points when making a decision so that my decision would be informed and practical in application and within that, to be humble and patient with myself that whether the time that I've calculate for a specific task isn't in alignment to the physical space/time reality, I learn from my mistake and align myself accordingly and so - expand and grow myself instead of diminish, sabotage and compromise myself within having a thought such as: "Damn, I will never have everything done" that is in no way supportive or practical in anyway whatsoever.

Comparison is a Bitch - Day 212

This is a continuation to:

The Elite's delusion of stress - Part 1 - Day 45	I Regret, therefor, I'm a Good Person. NOT!!! - Day 191
The Elite's Delusion of Stress - Part 2 - Day 46	The REAL Fear - Day 192
The Decision of TIME - Day 67	The things we Won't tell ANYONE - Day 193
The Decision of TIME - Day 67	Missing out on the Good Life - Day 194
Copy Paste Character - The Education System - Day 184	Let's have some Fun - Day 195
Is it possible to Cheat yourself? Day 185	Stupidity Loop - Jumping from the Bad to the Good to the Bad - Day 196
It is time to STOP Existing as a Human Machine - Day 186	The Smoke Screen of Ignorance - Day 197
The End of Times - Day 187	Leaving in a Dream - Day 208
Facing the Evil within - the KEY to LIFE - Day 188	Having the Life Style you always dreamt to have - Day 209
Fear of Disappointing others - Day 189	IT is MY time Now - don't say a word - Day 210
The Psychology of TIME - Day 190	Let's go on Vacation - Day 211

 

For the purpose of context, suggest reading these posts above prior to reading the post below, if you haven’t already. Here I will be walking the 'I don't have TIME' Character - Internal Conversation/ back chat Dimension - Practical support with Self Forgiveness and Self Commitments.

 

Here, one must understand that the Back chat, are the source of all Evil wherein, what one accepting and allowing within oneself, within the belief that no one will ever find out, is nasty and evil shit. Therefor, I will be walking back chat by back chat, in making sure I purify myself from the Evil that I've accepted and allowed within myself, in the context of the ' I don't have Time' Character.

 

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"I also want to watch a movie now, lay back for the rest of the evening; Why can't they share the responsibility so I won't have to work so many hours a day? "

 

Haha, this is a common one and it is again reflect a part of the Righteous character that I've accepted and allowed to define myself as meaning - If I had to walk my responsibilities within seeing my responsibility as Who I am and not as what I do; and who I am as my self realization that what I do reflect the principle of that which is best for all within what I do than, I would not have accepted and allowed this back chat to Exists within and as me because I wouldn't compare what other are doing to what I'm doing since Who I am is not dependent on what others are doing or don't do.

 

Thus, this back chat raise the question of - Who I am? What are the Decisions that I am making as who I am? The back chat in itself imply that the decision of Who I am isn't yet clear as I still require external factor to determine the definition that I define myself as, which is not so cool.

 

Then obviously, if what I do is not clear within and as me, as who I am, what was my starting point within the decision that I've made or maybe it is simply irrelevant what was my starting point because I can decide now to re-establish my starting point.

 

So -

 

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed the back chat - "I also want to watch a movie now, lay back for the rest of the evening; Why can't they share the responsibility so I won't have to work so many hours a day? " to exists within and as me because accepting and allowing this back chat to come up from within me, imply that I've separated myself from who I am, as what I do, and therefor, I must now re-establish my starting point in seeing, realizing and understanding that whatever I decide to do as who I am, is a decision that I've made for myself as and myself and thus, what others are doing with their time doesn't influence who I am because I'm standing stable and clear within who I am and the decision that I make.

 

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to simply accept and allow the back chat : "I also want to watch a movie now, lay back for the rest of the evening; Why can't they share the responsibility so I won't have to work so many hours a day? " to come up from within me, and within that, not questioning the ridiculousness of blindly accept and allow thoughts/backchat that would determine my Modes as an energy experience that I would either define as positive and negative according to the Environment stipulates that activates memories within and as me, as part of a pre-program design that I've accepted and allowed to manifest within and as me. (To understand the Pre-Program Design, please read: The Correction Process and The Desteni Message (Part 3) - Day 200)

 

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to be influence by what I see in my environment and accordingly to either access a Positive or Negative Experiences through making a judgement, in comparison to the Ideal that I've insert within and as my mind.

 

I forgive myself that I've NOT accepted and allowed myself to realize that when I make a decision, as myself and for myself, what others are doing is irrelevant and cannot influence my stance within and as me. Thus, I now see, realize and understand that if I'm accepting and allowing myself to be influenced by others, the Decision that I made wasn't absolute clear within and as me, as a decision of Who I am, in every moment of breath because if it was, I would simply apply myself according to the decisions that I made regardless the external stipulates that I see in my environment.

 

I commit myself to re-establish a starting point that is clear and absolute within and as myself and within that, to re-evaluate all the decisions that I have ever made in my life, that still control my current living conditions as I see, realize and understand that every decision that I made that I still have back chat coming up from within me, isn't clear within and as myself and must thus, correct and change so that who I am, is not defined and influenced by anything or any one and that all the decisions that I made and will be making in the future will be in absolute self honesty, clear, so absolutely which from there, all I have to do is to simply walk the practical application of the decision, breath by breath.

 

I commit myself to - when and as I make a decision, to check and cross reference within myself, that I'm clear, that I see all points and all the relationships that involve in making a decision and in that, making sure that the decision is made according to that which is best for all and accordingly, if or when a backchat comes up, to immediately stop, breathe and investigate in self honesty, what layer/dimension this backchat reveal and expose that I have not yet seen and sorted out and obviously, take the necessarily steps to sort myself out.

 

I commit myself to remind myself to be humble and patient with myself and with others and within that, remind myself that each one of us is walking their own individual processes; that we all make and will be making mistakes because that is how one learns and thus, I commit myself to not accept and allow myself to judge anyone's process including my own through comparison to an ideal that I've created within and as my mind because I now see, realize and understand that when I accept and allow myself to judge through comparison, I'm not standing in my utmost potential as a pillar of support for myself and others but rather, compromising myself and others within our existential processes.