Recreating our Potential - Self Responsibility (Part 3) - Day 450

This blog is a continuation to:  Trying to be someone we are not  - Day 448, Recreating our Potential - Day 449 and Recreating our Potential - (Part 2) - Day 450

 

I was looking at another point today in relation to Self-Authority within the context of becoming the potential that we can be for instance, when one identifies oneself as being able to stand within a certain position in the world system, one must walk a physical space/time process to develop and establish the necessary skills to become a living expression of the potential that one had identified within oneself.

 

Within that, we discussed in the previous blog the importance of allocating one's starting point to ensure that one is directing oneself by principle and not by a self-interest desire to become someone that one is not, for the sake of the receiving the perceived benefits from standing within/as a specific position.

 

So when looking at one's starting point of standing within a specific position, one can also assist and support oneself with investigating the responsibilities that the specific position required to be fulfilled. Meaning - Often when we fantasize of being someone/something, we only look at the positive dimension according to our own eye's view and we neglect to look at the responsibilities involved when/as becoming that which we desire to be.

 

For example, let's say that we want to be a CEO of a successful company. And let's say that the starting point that we have established within ourselves is in alignment to the principle of that which is best for all. The next step that we must investigate and identify before we start our journey of establishing ourselves as a CEO of a successful company is to map out what the position of a CEO entails, what would be expected of us, what example we must live as, what we would have to give up, what are the boundaries cannot be crossed and so forth.

 

Here for instance, running a business and standing as a CEO of that business means that the Business comes first in so many levels - one must take care and consider the employees, the contractors, the managers, the suppliers, the clients and so forth. Within that, there is little time for self to indulge because there are many factors that are dependent on the CEO's effective functionality and without the CEO's effective application, the business would fall and all of the above entities will find themselves without a job.

 

Practical example would be - Let's say that currently, you are taking 1-2 months vacation every year because your current job environment allows you to do so. As a CEO of a successful company, it is unlikely that you would be able to indulge for 1-2 months as you are the one that is standing in the authority position that runs the entire operation and unless you make yourself available, the company would not be able to take off and be successful. One dimension within this scenario is - within the want/need/desire to stand within a position of Authority, you must realize your responsibilities and therefore, be willing to respect the position you placed yourself in and move yourself effectively within that which you do. So, when making the decision of standing in a specific position, you must investigate the required responsibilities and be absolutely clear on what you will have to do and you wouldn't be able to do within the position you are about to place yourself in.

 

The other dimension within this scenario would be your responsibilities towards your employees, suppliers, contractors and clients wherein, for example, imagine that each one of your suppliers, contractors or employees decide that they are taking a vacation of 1-2 months a year as you were the first to set the boundaries, where would your company go to when the stuff is not available to run it? Your example within the company would set the parameters of everything that is involved with your company and therefore, it would be again your responsibility to make sure that the parameter set by example are in alignment with the principle of that which is best for all.

 

Obviously here, I gave an extreme example to emphasize the point of realizing one's responsibilities when standing as a specific position and within that, to realize that standing within a specific position is not just the benefits that would manifest from standing in the position but also the responsibilities that comes with a specific position. When we move ourselves from the starting point of a desire for benefits/rewards, without considering the responsibilities involved, we would very quickly fall within ourselves and as a results, we would also take down others with us. Therefore, it is imperative to investigate all the dimensions when making a decision to fulfill one's true potential in ensuring that one is standing stable and clear within oneself and walking one's path to develop one's potential to the best of one's ability.

Trying to be someone we are not - Day 448

Sometimes we look up to someone who is standing in a position of Authority and we would like to stand as this point ourselves. We would like to be this person ourselves. For most parts, it would come from a starting point of a desire to either be recognized or accepted by others but sometimes, it would be coming from a starting point of seeing one's true potential to stand within a particular point of authority.

 

Here, within the context of 'Potential' and 'Authority', it is imperative to define the word 'Authority' because the common use of the word 'Authority' is normally associated with Superiority and Control however, Authority, as a Living Expression of the word is when for instance one had Mastered a specific skill within oneself and therefore is now able to stand stable within a specific position and support others within/as a principle of that which is best for all Life.

 

For one to master and stand as a specific skill, one would walk a physical process and within that test one's skill in real time to ensure that what ever one faces, one is stable within and as oneself wherein one first establish Self-Authority within and as oneself in relationship to the skill that one is busy mastering within oneself. Slowly but surely, as one accumulate physical moments where one applied one's skill in real time, one would start standing as a point of Authority and thus be able to assist and support others in the same way that one had walk one's own process of mastering a skill within and as oneself.

 

Due to how the current system is built and structured, wherein Authority is a symbolism of Power and Fame, many would like to create themselves as someone who has Authority, without realizing what Authority as a living expression of oneself is; how Self-Authority is created; what is the responsibility of standing as an Authority; What is the Physical Process that is involved in mastering a specific skill; Now, when one is directing oneself from the starting  point of desire and does not consider all of these points, one would try to mimic the expression of others who are standing in a point of authority without actually Mastering the skills for/as themselves as a point of self-authority.

 

Often one would find that one is actually creating the exact opposite reality than what one had wished for, whereas, one would be rejected/ignored by others within one's attempt to support them because when the expression of oneself is not real, from the perspective of standing as something/someone that self hasn't yet established Self-Authority within and as oneself, others would pick it up as 'fake' if you will and may resist to one's presentation of 'Authority'.

 

Will share tangible examples within my next blog.

Inferiority and voice tonality - Day 422

As we grow up and shape our character/personality - some of us would embody the inferior character and others would embody the superiority character. In many cases, those who embodied the inferiority character would present themselves as superior to suppress and hide behind the inferiority they have defined themselves as.

Voice tonality plays a major rule within the energetic design of the embodiment of inferiority/superiority.

 

Within my investigation process of myself, I've noticed that I have become the inferior character where I would present myself as superior to those who I define as inferior while I became inferior within myself when/as I defined another as superior to me. For most part, even with becoming aware of the "game" I was playing with myself,  I've not seen, realized or understood that this design consist of many layers and dimensions. Recently, another dimension opened up and that is in relation to voice tonality where I would over sensitively react to specific voice tonality of those whom I defined superior to me. But first, to understand the design of inferiority/superiority within relationships, I suggest listening to the YouTube interviews:

 

2010: 1 The Dynamics of Competition - Process Support

2010: 2 The Dynamics of Competition - Process Support

2010: 3 The Dynamics of Competition - Process Support.flv

 

 

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to react within and as myself when/as a specific sounds/voice tonality is being spoken by another whom I perceived to be superior to me wherein in one moment, I would shift and access my mind, allow energy to spread throughout my entire body to a point of shakiness and physical weakness which I've interpreted as powerlessness, not realizing that this experience of powerlessness is directly related to how I have defined myself in relation to another where I perceived myself as inferior and the other as superior, perpetuating this definition of myself through/as reacting to their voice tonality.

 

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself disempower myself when and as specific sound/voice tonality is being spoken by another where I would immediately introvert within myself, looking for ways to get out of the experience of disempower by fighting with the other, not seeing, realizing and understanding that within the decision to fight with the other to what I perceived as empowering myself, I'm actually fighting for my limitation as I believed I must make the other see that I'm right as if that would empower me within their mind.

 

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize and understand that when someone is speaking in a specific voice tonality that I've defined as a tonality of an authority which I have programmed myself to reacted to, I have within that moment, limited my expression within the idea that they are the authority and I'm powerless. Within this, I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to NOT see, realize and understand that by accepting and allowing myself to react to a specific voice/sound, I cannot hear what the other is saying to me and thus, cannot assess whether what they stand for within that moment is of assistance and support for me to see a point that I've missed within myself or whether the other also accessed a reaction and we are both now dancing the reaction dance; The importance of assessing the situation is to then embrace the support of the other person who is standing at that moment as a support structure and accordingly move to self-correction or to either effectively direct us both to step out of the reaction game that we played and to instead assist and support each other to investigate what was the source of each one's reaction so that from there  we could then assist and support ourselves to develop effective communication where we empowering each other instead of limiting each other.

 

I forgive myself that I've NOT accepted and allowed myself to see, realize and understand that within the starting point of defining myself as powerless and another the authority, I'm limiting my living expression as I give my power away to my mind to define who I am in relation to the relationships in my life and within that, not giving myself to in fact grow, expand and empower myself within the relationship that I have with another.

 

I forgive myself that I've NOT accepted and allowed myself to see, realize and understand that by becoming angry when another speaks to me in a specific voice tonality, I'm distracting myself from the gift that the moment presented wherein, it is not about what the other did or didn't do, it is about who I am in relation to that person and/or voice tonality and how can I practically support myself to change.

(Please also read "From Reaction to Prevention and the Correction Process - Day 239")

 

I thus commit myself to be consciously aware of every and all reactions to another's voice tonality within the process of exploring and investigating who I am in relation to voice tonalities. In this, I commit myself to when and as I see myself reacting to a specific sound/voice tonality, to take a breath, stop the reaction within myself as I now understand where it started and where it would lead me if I allow the reaction to continue within and as myself.

 

I commit myself to when and as I see myself reacting to a specific sound/voice tonality, to transform the reaction to a gift wherein I allow myself to investigate and explore another layer within myself that I've not stood equal and one as, and accordingly move myself within the physical correction process.

 

I commit myself to change my living application wherein I would no longer accept and allow myself to define myself as more or less than others whom I am in relationship with and to instead, utilize the opportunity to learn and discover who I am in relation to myself and my relationships with others.

 

I commit myself to assist and support myself to stabilize myself in relation to voice tonality to eventually stand equal and one with and every sound/voice tonality and within that, not accept and allow myself to define who I am or who the other is according to their voice tonality.

Why children do not respects Parents? - Day 389

This is a continuation of the previous blog: Why did we stop questioning our reality? (Part 1) - Day 387 and

Why did we stop questioning our reality? (Part 2) - Day 388. For the full context of this blog, I suggest reading through these blogs for context.

 

In the previous blog I ended of with the following quote:

So - why did this memory came up. when I was looking at the memory and asked myself why this memory came up, a word flashed in my mind: "Respect". I realized that my relationship with my grandfather was of respect and integrity because he always took the time to explain to me a point when I asked: "Why". And as I go through my data base of information as I write here, I see more and more events when I asked him a question and he answered me while others did not. I also remember that when my grandmother for instance said: "No, because I said so", he expanded on the point and explained me the reason behind the answer: "No".

 

How can a parent expect their child to respect them if the parent do not stand within the principle of give as you would like to receive and within that context - treat with respect and you will be respected. If one do not respect the child in taking the time to walk them through the time line of understanding, and especially when  the child ask "why", one's action indicate that one do not respect one's child but rather acting as a dictator in controlling and forcing the child to absolute submission and suppression by using one's parental authority.

 

So now the child understands the meaning of the words: "No, because I said so" and the child will slowly but surely start to disrespect and distrust the parent because a relationship of integrity was never established. The child by now already realize that there is no common sense in the words: "No, because I said so" and the child already realize that there is no use to try and ask for clarification because there isn't much chance that the parent will suddenly change their contaminated habit and start explaining the reasoning behind the decision that had led them to speak the words: "No, because I said so". This is when the Rebelling stage comes in play.

 

With the child desire to walk a specific path and the parent saying "No", the child did not associated the path they wanted to go with the word: "NO" but they have associated the word "No" with their parents and therefore, from the child perspective, all they have to do is to remove the parent from the equation and the path is clear to go. Now they will walk the path behind the parents back. Do you know anyone who didn't do what ever they wanted behind the parents' back? Do you think that your parents did not do the same - did what ever they wanted behind their parents' back?

 

But later on, consequences will come to the child's doorstep so to speak and at the end of the day, they will have to tell the parents what they have done which by then, in many cases, it is too late and one can no longer prevent the consequences but face them.

 

Now, all of that is not understood by the parents in this world despite of the fact that we, when we were children, disrespected our parents, did things behind their back, told them about it only when it was already too late and consequences emerged and yet - once we become parents, a funny thing happen - we forget that we were children, we forget that we didn't trust our parents and we repeat the same mistakes our parents did with us even though we swear so many times that we will never be like our parents. But the fact of the matter is that there is only one thing we never did as adults - question our reality in terms of looking at how is it possible that despite of our agreement with ourselves to not treat our children as our parents treated us, we still repeat and walk our parents' foot steps. Bizarre.

 

More to come in the next blog

The Submissive Daughter and the Controlling Mother Character - Day 82

This is a continuation to my previous blog:

My Life as a character - Overview - Day 79

The Family Charade in Character - Day 80

The Rebellion Daughter Mother Character - Day 81

For Context, also read: Day 79: Stepping out of Character with LOVED ONES - Creation's Journey to Life, Bernard Poolman.

Part 3: The Mother/Daughter Character - Looking at specific Characters:

The Submissive Daughter and the relationship with the Mother:

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself as the Daughter Character in this world to have refused to see how I have created the Controlling Mother character so that I could keep the Submissive Daughter Character and thus, I've I accepted this role and always accepted the Mother Character to tell me who I am, what I must do, whom I should be with, when to do it and where while all along, I was busy creating another character in my mind, of and as the rebellion as I've participated in my mind, with spiteful, resentment and resistance thoughts towards the Mother character. And I forgive myself that I've NOT accepted and allowed myself to see, realize and understand how I've trapped myself with multiple characters that serve only one purpose which is to keep me in character and never step out of character and actually change and rebirth myself from and as the physical as LIFE.

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself as the Submissive Daughter Character in this world to go into my mind with back chats towards the Mother character that I've created for me to remain submissive and participate with spiteful thoughts, resentment, anger and frustration where I'm having internal conversation with the mother character in my mind, in the attempt to prepare myself to stand up for myself and yet, what I haven't seen, realize and understood that in the moment I've prepared myself to stand up in my mind, placing the mother character within and as me where I talk to her in my mind, I've actually created and manifested the controlling mother character.

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself  as the Submissive Daughter character in this world to have create this character based on past memories that I've imprinted into my flesh where I was punished, yelled at or got beaten and through preserving the fear, I've locked myself within and as the Submissive character, trapped myself to the extent to which I will never step out of the character.

I forgive myself that I've NOT accepted and allowed myself to see, realize and understand how I have always been my own character creator and the script that I've written for myself and thus, I've blamed everything and everyone for my existence of me as the submissive daughter character in this world so that I would not have to face my own creation and thus, could remain forever enslaved. Because I've failed to see that for me to be the submissive daughter, I must have created the controlling character that will allow me to remain in the submissive character.

I forgive myself that I've NOT accepted and allowed myself as the Submissive Daughter Character in this world to see, realize and understand how I've created polarized characters wherein I will either integrate myself within and as the character of the submissive daughter it my complete and entire human physical body and become Equal to and One as the character and so, I will always remain within the Submissive character wherein I would create my children in the image and likeness that would suit with my Submissive character and would thus then, create my children as abusers of me. OR - I will either balance the existence of me as the Submissive character through the children that I've created and would become the exact duplicate of the Mother character that I've created earlier in my life and thus, create the characters of my children as submissive so that we can all together - continue the cycle and thus make sure that none of us will ever step out of character.

I forgive myself that I've NOT accepted and allowed myself as a submissive daughter character in this world to try and attempt to control the friends in my life in the attempt to balance my character without realizing that I've actually also created the controlling character and thus made sure that I will always remind in character. What a nice trap.

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself as the controlling mother character in this world, to create and manifest the child as the submissive character so that I could remain in my perceived control to hide behind my other character of inferiority and thus, through missing that very basic understanding of creation, I've NOT allowed myself to create myself as life but rather, created enslaved, controlled and limited life for myself and existence as a whole. 

I commit myself to show that as long as one create one's character in one's mind, one will remain enslave to one's own creation and will never become LIFE within and as the physical reality.

I commit myself to show that as long as one continue blaming others for one own creation of characters, one is deliberate responsible for the future of this world as one will continue creating more and more character to justify why one must remain in character because others are wrongs and will not stand in the face of LIE(f) and create LIEF that is best for all.

I commit myself to show how the cycle of abuse continue as we create our children in the image and likeness that will suit with the characters that we've created for ourselves and within that, make sure the children will remain in character and so, create their own children's character, generation after generation after generation.

I commit myself to show how we are not in fact changing when we jump from one character to the other character in the attempt to balance ourselves as character and that in fact, we have only created another character.

The Secret War between Women - Daughter in War with Authority - Part 4 - Day 56

This is a continuation to:

The Secret War between Women - Overview - Day 52

The Secret war between Women - the Childhood years - Part 1 - Day 53

The Secret War between Women starts at home - Part 2 - Day 54

The Secret War between Women - Mother Daughter relationship - Part 3 - Day 55

 

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to create an inferiority response pattern to authority figures in my life from my first encounter with my mother's imposed authority onto me as a child and I have NOT realized that I've imprinted the response pattern into my physical and lived it out as back chat throughout my life when and as I felt threatened by a female's authority and have thus then, allowed the secret thoughts towards the female without even realize that I had no directive awareness in that moment and I was blindly following my pre-programming and within that, I forgive myself that I have NOT accepted and allowed myself to take my responsibility to investigate and introspect the origin/source of the subconscious backchat that I've manifested towards a female that I perceived as authority and simply accepted it to be natural response that comes up from within me.

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to react in a form of backchat/internal conversation/thoughts towards women that I perceive to have authority over me and I haven't stopped for a moment to bring the point back to myself, to investigate the origin of the resistance and the core of my allowed backchat, because If I would investigate, I would see how I've accepted and allowed a specific  response pattern in relation to authority figures  already in my childhood years where I've resisted my mother's authority and have thus externalized the resistance towards all women that represent my mother according to my eye's view, in separation of me.

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself as a child in this world to experience myself as inferior towards my mother because I've accepted the authority of my mother as valid, normal and natural and thus, have created a relationship with her that is based on authority/submission which within that, I forgive myself that I've NOT accepted and allowed myself to see, realize and understand that my acceptance of me as inferior during the age of 0-7, has become a physical memory that is in the flesh of my beingness which I've externalized within my relationship with women to such an extent that when and as I experience myself threatened, the memories from my subconscious mind will come up as a backchat/internal conversation/ thoughts towards a woman while I had no real understanding of the origin/core/source and thus, lived out the secret war between Woman - internally and externally.

I forgive myself that I've NOT accepted and allowed myself to stand up and stop the inferior response pattern to authority and allowed myself to react every time I've faced a being that I've perceived to be superior/has authority on me and within that, I forgive myself that I've NOT accepted and allowed myself to realize that unless I stop pattern by pattern, I will pass on the very same patterns to my children and they will pass them on to their children and thus, it is my responsibility to stand up, change myself and thus change the future of the generations that will comes after me by giving them a chance to express who they are without me imposing my own programmed designs onto them but rather stand as a stable support for them within their processes of becoming and standing as LIFE.

I commit myself to stop the inferiority response  to authority pattern as I realized how I've initially created the pattern as a child and my responsibility within and the consequences it if I won't stop, delete and correct myself as the outflows upon the generation to come.

I commit myself to take my responsibility and check and investigate every reactions, response, physical body movements and eyes movement that I have automated without my directive awareness and search for the source/origin/core point where I've initially created the pattern and accordingly delete and continue walking breath by breath.

I commit myself to show how and why in the first 7 years of the child's life, the child is creating and developing one's personalities through the examples of the patterns   and why thus, it is important to have programs to support all parents with having appropriate parenting skills so that we could stop passing on, generation after generation, patterns that do not support any LIFE and instead provide the children to come a LIFE that is actually worth living where they could express themselves as who they are.

The Secret War between Women - Mother Daughter relationship - Part 3 - Day 55

This is a continuation to:

The Secret War between Women - Overview - Day 52

The Secret war between Women - the Childhood years - Part 1 - Day 53

The Secret War between Women starts at home - Part 2 - Day 54

I forgive myself that I've NOT accepted and allowed myself to see the influential consequences of the dynamics between the Mother/Daughter relationship and the secret war between Women, where the first War would be between the Mother and the child for example would manifest when and as the child 'perceives' the authority of the mother to be too rigid/not understanding/unsupportive and would then thus, develop back chat towards the mother which eventually externalized and become a habit in one's life towards other female that represent the mother figure in one's life.

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself as a mother in this world to use my authority upon my child without walking with them the time line so that they could see the common sense equality equations for themselves and I have failed to realized that when I'm playing the authority game with them, it is inevitable they will create a resistance towards me and would then thus,  develop their rebellion war against me as a response to my authority game - the beginning of the Secret War between Women.

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself, as a mother in this world, to for example, superimpose my fears onto my daughter and would forbid her to participate in social gathering which I've defined as inappropriate or dangerous without taking a moment to look in a practical common sense way whether my fears has any ground in the physical reality due to me that have inherited my fears from my parents which then influenced me within how I would direct points in my world instead of supporting myself to first turn the point back to myself, allocate my starting point and support myself to see the points directly through practical Self Forgiveness and corrective application.

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself as a mother in this world to NOT realize, that by not communicating with my daughter through explaining in common sense why I believe that my daughter should not walk a specific path and thus forbid her from walking it by using my mother authority, my daughter will resist my authority and create a backchat/thoughts/internal conversations/reactions towards me which would perpetuate the secret war between women already at home.

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to superimpose my failure within my Life onto my child , fearing that they will also fail, wherein I will teach her how to not make the same mistakes as I did and thus push her to excel in all areas of LIFE to have the best from all - Man, Career, children, clothes, friendships etc. and within that, I have failed to realize that my desires are not my child's desires and by me forcing her to walk a specific path which is not her own, she will create and manifest resistance towards my up bringing of her exactly as I have done towards my mother and within that, continue the cycle of War between women - mother/daughter generation after generation.

I commit myself to show the relationship between the superimposed authority of the mother upon her daughter and the secret war between women and within that, I commit myself to support mothers to learn how to upbringing their children in the utmost effective way by first sorting themselves to be able to stand as an example for their children, be able to understand themselves as their children and to walk in equality with them in absolute support for them to become effective human beings in this world.

I commit myself to show and explain in details the consequences of the existential inherited fears from generation after generation from the beginning of time and present, stand as a support for those who dare investigating themselves and physically/practically change according to principles of that which is best for all.

I commit myself to present technics and methods to support the parents with the upbringing of their children and to stop, for once and for all the abusive superimpose  authority upon children  and instead, establish a supportive relationship with them that will be based on self respect, trust and honesty.

Help!! - They are influencing me - Day 32

Art by Scott Cook

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to be influenced by the words of others when and as I experience myself as inferior and thus, I believe and perceive that they know better and I should submit to their suggestion/obligation/authority  without considering the point for myself within common sense and accordingly, make a decision within self trust and walk the decision as a physical living application.

I forgive myself that I've been accepting and allowing myself to follow other beings words without considering the words for myself and WHO I am within the words as well as not investigating the words as a living expression and thus walking like a automated robot as words that I haven't integrated as myself in alignment in separation of me.

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to take the words of those who I define as more than me and follow blindly what I've been told because I haven't respected and trusted myself enough to walk and direct myself according to WHO I Am as the living expression of the words within alignment to as and me.

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to obey to the beings whom I defined as more than me and within that, allowed myself to be inferior to my self and haven't allowed myself to become the authority of myself as my mind within the practical living application as the directive principle of myself and my world.

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to follow other beings that I define as more than/authority because I haven't allowed myself to see the points for myself as well as giving me the permission to see the points for myself and thus, compromised and limited Who I Am by blindly follow what I've been told instead of taking responsibility and within self honesty, investigate and explore point by point by point for myself and thus, only walk that which is best for all in every moment of every breath.

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to be influenced by other beings and thus, already assumed that I know what their reaction would be and accordingly, design and direct myself according to how other people would like me to be instead of trusting me as WHO I am and direct and move myself without fearing what other beings say or do to me and within that, I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to shape and mould myself according to how other expect me to be through projections and assumptions and I haven't realized that I'm not directly influenced by other people because I'm living it in my own mind without considering the practical common sense, who I am within it and what I will or will not accept in my world and my reality and basing my decision to principles of that which is best for all. 

Art by Scoot Cook

Within that, I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to abdicate my responsibility of directing and moving myself according to that which is best for all because I've allowed myself to be influenced by other beings opinions/belief to such an extent that the scene was playing in my mind even before I did the act and I've thus, not directed myself as an expression of life but rather according to society norms as my directive principles despite of the evidence that the society norms are not the principle for the establishment of a world that is best for all because if it was, we were already living and experiencing a world that is best for all life.

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to be influenced by others opinions/beliefs and thus, compromised and sabotaged my physical living expression by following whom I should be according to the society norms instead of expressing myself as Who I am that is the same yesterday, today and tomorrow through the realization that who I am isn't defined by what I do or How I do and whom I do it with but rather, who I am is the reflection of what I allow, how I allow myself to be and thus - the question is - What, how and WHO will I allow myself to be? Life or Mind? I decide Life.

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to take the knowledge and information that is shared with me as the truth without questioning and investigate the information for myself and I forgive myself that I've NOT accepted and allowed myself to question the information and knowledge that was shared with me by those whom I perceive and define as more than me because I do not trust or respect myself enough to even question them and the information that was presented.

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed and gave permission to myself to be influenced by the manipulation of others whom I feel connected to and accordingly calculate my moves, assessing my expression and reacted and thus, shape and mould myself within the starting point of pleasing and avoid reaction and in that, sabotage, compromise and limiting myself and this world as that which I allow within, I allow without.

I forgive myself that I've NOT accepted and allowed myself to see how I'm allowing myself to be influenced by the advertisement on the various kinds of Media and thus, created myself as automated consumer machine within the belief that if I consume, I'll be happy or satisfied as the advertisement instructed and I have never question that point of how is that I accept and allow myself to be moved by something that is separated from me without me being the directive principle that moves myself in every breath.

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to be influenced and brainwashed by and through those who have come before me, within the belief that they know better as they are the authority that direct and move me and within that, abdicated the responsibility of having authority over myself as the directive principle of myself and this world and I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to be influenced by those who have come before me within the starting point of they must know better despite of the evidence that if they would have known better, they would have assisted and supported me within becoming the directive principle of myself and this world within the principle of what is best for all lives instead of assisting and supporting me to become a self interest person that do not consider everyone and everything and thus, allowed a world of abuse and suffering while I lived a world of abundance.

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed the fears of those who have come before me to influenced me and the decisions that I'm making and walking instead of standing within self trust and directing myself according to that which is best for all because I realize that as I can trust my breath, I can trust myself because I always have the breath to assist and support me with applying my decision of stepping out of my mind, direct and move myself according to that which is best for all as a physical living application.

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed blame those whom I perceived to influence me without taking the point back to myself within self responsibility and see how and why I've accepted and allowed myself to be influenced and thus control and enslaved to my own mind. 

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I commit myself to breath as the trust exists in breath and I commit myself to utilize the breath as my directive principle.

I commit myself to stop blindly follow the words of others and instead, take word by word and redefine it for myself so that I could walk the living expression of the words.

I commit myself to stop the existence of me as inferior and trust my breath to breath application because I realize that authority is my own to become as the authority of myself and I commit myself to NOT accept and allow myself to bounce from one side of the polarity to the other and align myself to myself as a physical living expression.

I commit myself to SEE ME in every moment and to question my existence in self honesty and to not accept and allow myself to blindly follow those who have come before me as I see and realize that there is no living example to follow but the example of myself as the role model that I am for myself alone.

I commit myself to investigate and explore each and every single point that is shared with me so that I won't accept and allow myself to ever again walk as a sheep after others.

I commit myself to make informed decisions after I've questioned and challenged myself in all ways possible so that I can trust WHO I am as a physical living expression in every moment of breath.

I commit myself to stand as an example for the children to come as a living physical expression that stand for what is best for all and do not accept and allow any shit from myself and others.