Behavior Modification - Day 74

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Life Review - My Life of Behaviour Modification

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself as a child, to react in absolute self judgement and fear of what others will say about me, when a person in my environment said to me that I'm acting like a show-off and thus should immediately stop expressing myself in dancing because according to the being eye's view, by dancing=show-off,  I'm hurting other people in my environment by making them feel inferior/less than me.

I forgive myself that I've NOT accepted and allowed myself to check within and as myself, in self honesty, my starting point of my expression in that moment to be able to assess whether there was a want/desire within me to present myself as more than or whether this statement was a self reaction within the being who made the statement. I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to react in self judgement to this statement because I didn't understand how the mind works and how to assist and support me within that moment, to assess in self honesty the entire play out/time line and thus, I've imprinted in that moment, a single dimension of the entire play out, as a point I could connect myself to because I knew within me that I have tried/attempted to, in various situations pre this event to be more than this person that I'm supposedly hurting within my expression.

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to NOT investigate within and as myself the starting point of the being's statement to see if the statement was as a point of a support for me to look at a specific point within who I am in my environment of whether it was a self judgement point of the being who made the statement that I shouldn't take personally but instead, assist and support the being to see what the being has accepted and allowed themselves to be and become.

Within that, I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to capture that memory in a time capsule within and as myself and allowed this past memory imprint to influence who I am, as self expression, from that moment onwards where I became self conscious about my expression and accordingly, made the decision to suppress my expression and modify myself according to the Society eyes view.

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to take one statement spoken by a being and make it bigger than what is was to the extreme of this statement becoming my directive principle in my life instead of me, walking and directing me, as who I am as self expression, in every moment of every breath.

I forgive myself that I've NOT accepted and allowed myself to see how I have shaped, mould and manifested myself within and as specific type/s of personality to keep me 'stable' within my environment within this world system and within that, I forgive myself that I've NOT realized that these personalities that I've created  within the first 7 years of my life was to modify and adapt myself to the Norms of my environment as well as the values and mannerism that my society/culture/religion/environment stand within and as, in absolute separation from myself as LIFE.

I forgive myself that I've NOT accepted and allowed myself to consider and question what abnormal behaviour even means within this world system and why the system defined specific behaviours as abnormal. Was it to keep us controlled? What is the reason for keeping beings controlled? What is it that the system doesn't want us to know?

All of these question can be answered within and as oneself, in self honesty and a bit of common sense - just follow the money route and you'll see the answer. Otherwise, suggest investing some time to investigate http://equalmoney.org/wiki

I forgive myself that I've NOT accepted and allowed myself, as a parent in this world, to make the commitment of getting to know myself as the mind, getting to know my child as the mind, so that I could stand in absolute support for my children wherein instead of forcing them to create personalities according to the example that I stand within and as, as what I've passed on to them from generation to generation in total separation, I will stand and educate my children to express who they are as Life that is best for all.

I forgive myself that I've NOT accepted and allowed myself to grasp my responsibility within my child's behaviour development and how I am a direct influence within their behaviour development and unless I get to know myself as the mind, align myself back to myself as a physical living human being, I will not and cannot stand as an absolute support for my children within and as the principle of oneness and equality and thus, I commit myself to get to know myself as my mind, as what I have accepted and allowed myself to be and become in separation of myself and accordingly change, BEFORE I even consider bringing a child into this world because I see, realize and understand how and why I am the most influential being in my child's life and it's up to me to first take responsibility for myself before I can take responsibility for another. Within that, I commit myself to show that this is not a point of judgement towards those who already have children because within every moment of every breath, one is able to make the commitment to themselves to change according to principles they are willing to stand as for eternity and within that, take responsibility for themselves and their child within self trust that they have supported their child in the utmost of their ability in this ONE life time.

I commit myself to not force and impose my opinions/ideas/beliefs onto another by making even the smallest statement as I see, realize and understand how I can influence and effect another human life when and as I'm not clear within and as myself and especially, when I'm standing as a point of support and responsibility towards the being.

I commit myself to always investigate and check within and as myself a being's statement that was addressed to me so that I can asses in self honesty whether it is a point that I require to look at and correct or whether I stand in clarity and support the being to see the point that they have missed within themselves.

I commit myself to go through my past memories, and delete them one by one until I'm empty so that my expression, who I am, will no longer be dependent on my past as limitation that I've accepted and allowed within and as myself.

I commit myself to show that society's norms are but another form of control and enslavement of the humans into a closed circuit system that they can never get out of so long as they are contained within their mind, according to their preprogram design.

I commit myself to show the parents influence of the child development within the first 7 years of their life  and why it is crucial for the parents to take the responsibility to get to know themselves as the mind, to be able to support their child to develop themselves as LIFE that is best for all.

I commit myself to show the relationship between society regulation of the humans within the definition of what is normal and abnormal and MONEY.

Help!! - They are influencing me - Day 32

Art by Scott Cook

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to be influenced by the words of others when and as I experience myself as inferior and thus, I believe and perceive that they know better and I should submit to their suggestion/obligation/authority  without considering the point for myself within common sense and accordingly, make a decision within self trust and walk the decision as a physical living application.

I forgive myself that I've been accepting and allowing myself to follow other beings words without considering the words for myself and WHO I am within the words as well as not investigating the words as a living expression and thus walking like a automated robot as words that I haven't integrated as myself in alignment in separation of me.

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to take the words of those who I define as more than me and follow blindly what I've been told because I haven't respected and trusted myself enough to walk and direct myself according to WHO I Am as the living expression of the words within alignment to as and me.

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to obey to the beings whom I defined as more than me and within that, allowed myself to be inferior to my self and haven't allowed myself to become the authority of myself as my mind within the practical living application as the directive principle of myself and my world.

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to follow other beings that I define as more than/authority because I haven't allowed myself to see the points for myself as well as giving me the permission to see the points for myself and thus, compromised and limited Who I Am by blindly follow what I've been told instead of taking responsibility and within self honesty, investigate and explore point by point by point for myself and thus, only walk that which is best for all in every moment of every breath.

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to be influenced by other beings and thus, already assumed that I know what their reaction would be and accordingly, design and direct myself according to how other people would like me to be instead of trusting me as WHO I am and direct and move myself without fearing what other beings say or do to me and within that, I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to shape and mould myself according to how other expect me to be through projections and assumptions and I haven't realized that I'm not directly influenced by other people because I'm living it in my own mind without considering the practical common sense, who I am within it and what I will or will not accept in my world and my reality and basing my decision to principles of that which is best for all. 

Art by Scoot Cook

Within that, I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to abdicate my responsibility of directing and moving myself according to that which is best for all because I've allowed myself to be influenced by other beings opinions/belief to such an extent that the scene was playing in my mind even before I did the act and I've thus, not directed myself as an expression of life but rather according to society norms as my directive principles despite of the evidence that the society norms are not the principle for the establishment of a world that is best for all because if it was, we were already living and experiencing a world that is best for all life.

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to be influenced by others opinions/beliefs and thus, compromised and sabotaged my physical living expression by following whom I should be according to the society norms instead of expressing myself as Who I am that is the same yesterday, today and tomorrow through the realization that who I am isn't defined by what I do or How I do and whom I do it with but rather, who I am is the reflection of what I allow, how I allow myself to be and thus - the question is - What, how and WHO will I allow myself to be? Life or Mind? I decide Life.

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to take the knowledge and information that is shared with me as the truth without questioning and investigate the information for myself and I forgive myself that I've NOT accepted and allowed myself to question the information and knowledge that was shared with me by those whom I perceive and define as more than me because I do not trust or respect myself enough to even question them and the information that was presented.

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed and gave permission to myself to be influenced by the manipulation of others whom I feel connected to and accordingly calculate my moves, assessing my expression and reacted and thus, shape and mould myself within the starting point of pleasing and avoid reaction and in that, sabotage, compromise and limiting myself and this world as that which I allow within, I allow without.

I forgive myself that I've NOT accepted and allowed myself to see how I'm allowing myself to be influenced by the advertisement on the various kinds of Media and thus, created myself as automated consumer machine within the belief that if I consume, I'll be happy or satisfied as the advertisement instructed and I have never question that point of how is that I accept and allow myself to be moved by something that is separated from me without me being the directive principle that moves myself in every breath.

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to be influenced and brainwashed by and through those who have come before me, within the belief that they know better as they are the authority that direct and move me and within that, abdicated the responsibility of having authority over myself as the directive principle of myself and this world and I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to be influenced by those who have come before me within the starting point of they must know better despite of the evidence that if they would have known better, they would have assisted and supported me within becoming the directive principle of myself and this world within the principle of what is best for all lives instead of assisting and supporting me to become a self interest person that do not consider everyone and everything and thus, allowed a world of abuse and suffering while I lived a world of abundance.

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed the fears of those who have come before me to influenced me and the decisions that I'm making and walking instead of standing within self trust and directing myself according to that which is best for all because I realize that as I can trust my breath, I can trust myself because I always have the breath to assist and support me with applying my decision of stepping out of my mind, direct and move myself according to that which is best for all as a physical living application.

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed blame those whom I perceived to influence me without taking the point back to myself within self responsibility and see how and why I've accepted and allowed myself to be influenced and thus control and enslaved to my own mind. 

Art by Scoot Cook

I commit myself to breath as the trust exists in breath and I commit myself to utilize the breath as my directive principle.

I commit myself to stop blindly follow the words of others and instead, take word by word and redefine it for myself so that I could walk the living expression of the words.

I commit myself to stop the existence of me as inferior and trust my breath to breath application because I realize that authority is my own to become as the authority of myself and I commit myself to NOT accept and allow myself to bounce from one side of the polarity to the other and align myself to myself as a physical living expression.

I commit myself to SEE ME in every moment and to question my existence in self honesty and to not accept and allow myself to blindly follow those who have come before me as I see and realize that there is no living example to follow but the example of myself as the role model that I am for myself alone.

I commit myself to investigate and explore each and every single point that is shared with me so that I won't accept and allow myself to ever again walk as a sheep after others.

I commit myself to make informed decisions after I've questioned and challenged myself in all ways possible so that I can trust WHO I am as a physical living expression in every moment of breath.

I commit myself to stand as an example for the children to come as a living physical expression that stand for what is best for all and do not accept and allow any shit from myself and others.