I have nothing to do - something must be wrong - Day 437

 

 

With all the holidays that came up, my work load was extremely low in comparison to the rest of the year. Up until now, holidays didn't affect much the responsibilities that I have but this year, with the type of responsibilities that I'm currently walking, the holidays did have an affect on the tasks I normally walk on a daily basis.

Before the holidays, it pretty much felt like I'm running against time - there was so much to do and at the end of each day I was physically tired and so, the first morning that I had a 'relaxed' day, from the perspective of having far less tasks to apply, I woke up and felt stress within myself. I drank coffee like I do every day though, that morning, there was nothing in particular that I had to do after my morning coffee. The thought came up of: "Is it really that I have nothing to do at this moment? Can it be? Am I manipulating? Did I miss a point? Maybe I should sit all day and write 10 blogs to catch up on all the days that I could get to it? You know... I was stress that I have missed something.

Later on that day, I wanted to enjoy the sun, but because of the stress inside myself, and the busyness that I normally feel, I didn't allow myself to just sit in the sun and enjoy myself, so I took a rake and started raking the grass. After 15 min, the sun hit really bad lol and 'forced' me to take a break.

 

Another incident that happened about 3 weeks ago - I had a procedure in my eyes and the Doctor ordered me to spend the day in bed. After 3 hours I woke up and I wanted to go back to work. Esteni saw me and couldn't believe that I'm up on my feet again and had to really push me to go back to bed and follow the doctor's orders. After a few hours, I said to her: "You know, I really like being Busy, I don't like it when I have nothing to do"; This was a statement that clearly showed me the polarity that I've created within myself, the like and the dislike; the 'lots to do' and 'nothing to do'; I actually realized that: "ooops, I created a polarized character" meaning - I used to live the character: "I don't have time" and after walking through all the dimensions of that character, I misaligned the correction by creating a new character: "I like being busy" character.

 

So that morning, when I had nothing much to do "responsibilities wise", I felt this movement inside myself that initially wasn't so clear to me. I just walked around with a 'feeling' that there is something wrong, something isn't right, there must be something that I forgot to do and if I won't do it now, I would be stressed about it in the last moment.

 

The movement that I experienced within myself was a resonance movement that when I slowed myself down, it physically felt like the body shaking/vibrating inside all of the cells, very quick and short movements back and forth, in a constricted way. When I saw that this is what my body is expressing from the inside, it was clear to me that the stress has manifested on a physical level, as a constant movement inside my physical body and that if I continue to allow this physical manifestation to run amok in my body, it won't take long till physical consequences emerge.

 

I decided in that moment to stop my participation within stress and to support myself to change this pattern through a day by day living correction wherein the commitment that I've made within myself was to slow down, walk that which must be walked, to allow myself to indulge from time to time, take a break, even a few days if time allows, so long as the indulgent isn't becoming a point of self abuse/sabotage/suppression/isolation.

 

From time to time the stress point still comes up and thus, I still assist and support myself to stop, and to not accept and allow myself to physically manifest stress within my physical body within the realization that there is really so much that one can do in every given moment.
Realize that this character, as a pattern that I've created within and as myself through time, will also take time and consistency to change as a physical  living application of myself. I will continue to share points in relation to moments that I've seen within myself in the context of stress and how I assist and support myself to correct the pattern when/as it comes up in a moment.

 

Stress: The History, Origin and Nature - Atlanteans - Part 97

Stress: Sounding Self Forgiveness - Atlanteans - Part 100

Stress: Personality Development (Part 1) - Atlanteans - Part 98

Stress: Personality Development (Part 2) - Atlanteans - Part 99

Stress: Practical Living Support - Atlanteans - Part 101

Is the Zoo an Educational Experience for Children - Day 333

Continuing with the Blog Series 'Who is Responsible for our Children's Education':

 

I used to love going to the Zoo with  my family as a child; we used to go on Saturdays, seeing these amazing and rare animals that I would normally read/see in my Children books. It was a fun and Educative experience. Or so I believed…

 

A few months ago, I took my Nephews to the Zoo when I visited them in Israel. I thought it would be a cool time to enjoy myself with the kids because my memories of the Zoo were quite Awesome. However, the moment I stepped into the Zoo, and I saw the animals locked up in such small places and/or cages, it hit me hard.

Obviously, I didn't look at these things as a child; I didn't have any reference for any other ways of living and existing and I accepted it exactly as it was. But now, as a grown up, I couldn't compute how we have accepted and allowed the lock up of these animals for our blissful Enjoyment; Enjoyment that we have justified for ourselves as Educational purposes to quiet out our inner conflict we try so hard to ignore.

 

Let's have a look at the Educational aspect of these entertainment parks, such as Zoo and within that, what would be installed and imprinted within the Child Mind and how that would influence the Child's life and the Decisions the Child would make in their Life. The best way I know how to do this is through traveling back in time to when I was a child, Experiencing myself in the Zoo, and bring the moment Here for self evaluation:

1. I couldn't grasp that a small area such as our National Zoo is in itself invalid in terms of the Limitation it places on the Animals ability to move, explore and experience themselves. As a child the Zoo area seemed like a huge place and it never crossed my mind that it is unnatural to place Animals in such a small space. Furthermore, I'm pretty sure that I were to ask this question, I would be given a manipulative answer that is not based on the Principle of 'that which is best for all Lives'.

2. Seeing Animals locked up in  cages while animating their Experience in my imagination based on my Children books - it made me believe that the Animals supposed to be locked up and it's ok because they are happy. I mean, they seem happy in my children book don't they?

3. Animals are Valued less than a human being because one wouldn't dare to lock up their child in a cage while it is very Normal when it comes to Animals and therefore, the conclusion must be that the Value of the Life of  animals is less than the Value of life of the human and as such, Humans are Superior to Animals.

 

These are just the immediate things that I could see when placing myself back in my 'younger' shoes. I'm sure there is much more to it on the Quantum mind, Unconscious Mind and Subconscious Mind.

 

Now another memory came up - I remember an event with a kid that I took care for, a few years back: he was watching a new DVD that he just received from his mother. In one of the Scenes, the Princess was locked inside a cage and in that moment, the Kid completely lost it and started screaming and yelling, asking to release the Princess from the Cage. Is it possible that Subconsciously, already at the age of 2 years, we are aware of the cruelty and the abuse involved in locking someone up in a cage, whether it is a princess or a tigress in a zoo?

 

So what are we teaching our Children in the relationship between humans and animals? We are perpetuating the separation between Human and animal, human domination over the animal kingdom, with no regard for the Life of the animal, for the Right to Life, within this physical existence. And so, continuing the cycle of human-animal abuse that come from an existential history of the relationship between man and animal. This existential history in the relationship between man and animal can be investigated in the History of the Animals on Earth, way before the written History, which is available on EQAFE within the Animal's Life Review Series. Thus, instead of showing/teaching/stimulating the minds of children to consider other ways/better ways of Co-existing/managing our relationship with animals, we perpetuate the Separation and leave them with no chance to actually stand in the shoes of another and in that case, the shoes of the Animals, to find solution within the Principle of Investigating all things and keep that which is best for all.

 

Here is also to note that there are Zoos that are treatment/health facilities that actually save and help the Animals that were caught up within our Existential Consequences. There are also facilities that assist and support animals that got hurt in nature and once the animal is ready and rehabilitated, the animal is being released to its Natural Environment. This are valid and honourable institutions/Facilities where children can  enhance themselves in terms of learning by Example, what does it mean to assist and support another and in that, Develop the understanding of what does it practically mean to Give as one would Like to Receive.

 

So, here is a point we can start looking at in terms of what we blindly teach our children and from here we could ask the question: why is it that we were never taught/shown by example why it is imperative to investigate all things and keep that which is best for all LIFE in a practical and physical manner. The Answer to this question will be introduce here, in blogs to come.

 

   

   

 

   

 

   

 

Pornography Messed up my Sex Life - Life Review - Day 238

 

A few days ago, I listened to the Interview - Pornography Messed up my Sex Life - Live Review and I found it fascinating in understanding the Minds of those who are addicted to Porn - the ins and out of the Design of the Addiction to Porn and what is it that these people are actually facing within and as themselves.

 

While walking my Process of writing and taking on the Point of Relationships and Sex, I've seen how with some of the partners that I've been with, which were addicted to Porn, the Relationship couldn't stand because I took it Personally and was sure that the reason why the relationship didn't stand was because of my performance in bed. And holly fuck, it is so absurd that we've turn Sex to Performance and within that, limited Sex to such an extant that it is in no way an expression of 2 people coming together to explore, assist and support themselves and their physical.  

If only I had the tools that I have now to assist and support myself and my partner, much of the experiences that I faced within my relationships with men, could be prevented and corrected as I now see, realize and understand why and how beings finds themselves addicted to Porn and what it is within them that they either Fear or perceive themselves to be lacking off which then, they would go into Porn.

 

Understand - we have the tendency to Judge that which we don't understand; to Judge people that are walking a different life path than how we think and perceive life should be lived; we judge the consequences of Porn for instance within our society; What we have missed and didn't realize is that Judgement is a reaction to a well known Problem but instead of getting to the root/source/core/origin of the problem, we would either ignore, suppress, hide and/or Deny; or we would focus all our attention to our reaction, not realizing that the reaction is nothing but a distraction to actually face the point we faced within and as ourselves. But there is another way - we could stand up and find Solutions to Prevent the Problem from re-emerge and/or Re-occur. This is what Desteni is all about - Prevention as the Ultimate Cure.

 

Thus, instead of Judging or Blame, Let's educate ourselves to Understand the Mind and what we have become as the Mind; let's Expand ourselves in getting to know how our mind works and functions to the nitty gritty details because once we'll know ourselves as the totality of our minds, we would understand and see directly the totality of the universal mind and would be able to Prevent Consequences instead of Judging them; we would be able to take responsibility instead of shifting responsibility. We would be able to assist and support others in showing them, what we have seen for ourselves. Our Process is of Prevention, and Porn for that matter - it is not about closing down the Porn industry, that will only cause more friction and conflict in people's mind as this is not a real and substantial solution but a cover up for the real/source/origin/core of the Problem. the Prevention for that matter would be Education, the Studies of the Mind within all the Layers of the mind so that one could see for oneself how and why one had developed and established a relationship to and towards Porn and accordingly, one would find it much more easy to realize oneself once one would understand the design that one had accepted and allowed oneself to exists within and as.

 

So, If you find yourself addicted to Porn, or if you are in a relationship where your partner is addicted to Porn, I suggest listening to this interview to assist and support you in getting to know yourself and/or your Partner as what drives one into developing and establishing a close relationship with Porn.

Seeing the Evil Nature in Dreams - Day 229

This a continuation to:

From Evilness to Life - Day 226

The seclusion in Inclusion - Day 227

 

I had Quite a Vivid dream last night which was fascinating from the perspective that I had listen to the Life Review Interview - Dream Interpreter the day before, which was a great assistance and support in walking through the point that had opened up in the dream.

 

As was explained in the interview, Dreams are specific and represents one's Personalities Participation in one's day to day Living which Consciousness may imprint to the Dream Domain and through this, one could assist and support oneself to see what one require to further investigate within and as oneself and accordingly take responsibility and change from a Mind Personality to a Living Physical Expression of and as oneself.

 

In this Life Review, a man came through the Portal to share his life on Earth within his relationship to how he would interpret dreams and what he had Realized about himself and the Consequences of his actions on earth within his relationship to Dream interpretation after he had died and within that, how little did he actually understood about Dreams and their meanings.

 

It was suggested that one would look at one's reactions, behaviour, memories, past events, experiences etc. that came up in the dream because that will show the relationships that one haven't sorted out yet, within and as oneself.

 

So now that I'm working with the Evil Point within the last 3 days of writing, it was interesting that the Dream came up to show me another layer/dimension that I haven't looked at yet in self honesty, which I'm grateful for as I'm seeing within and as myself now that this unresolved point within me, is a key factor that is causing a friction and conflict within my relationship with another human being in my Physical Environment for more than 2 years now.

 

So - Within my relationship with this being, we had 2 past experiences wherein I perceived the being to betray me with getting involved with 2 males (in 2 separated occasions) that the being knew I was interested with. None one of these males where in alignment to where I was within my process and the chances of us actually getting to know each other and developing a stable and supportive relationship/agreement, were close to nothing, and yet, I still perceive the being to spite me and I started developing and growing resentment towards the being within and as myself, very slowly but surely.

 

I haven't face this point in writing till now but I see already that it is detrimental to face this point and correct myself because as long as I keep and hold onto this memory about this being, and the experience of being betrayed, I would not be able to stand in Equality with the being. What I've seen within and as myself was that, I would deliberately activate this memory of the experience of being betrayed in moments that I feel inferior within the relationship with the being and I would access this revenge that exists within me and would get the 'Power' to spite, and talk the being down through justifying to myself that I cannot trust them due to past event where they have hurt me.

 

In the Dream that I had, me and this being were in a camping park with lots of people around us, maybe watching a movie on a big screen or something and we saw a couple of friends of us, male and a female that were waving towards us to come over. The guy is someone that I knew in real life, a guy that I had a sex relationship a few years back. Our level of communication was abusive in nature where he would disrespect me in front of others and I would accept it because I had sex with him and I had to justify to myself that it is fine so that I would be able to continue having sex with him. In the dream, the being and I started walking towards the 2 friends and I've noticed that the being is planning to sit next to the guy and I felt a surge of jealousy, resentment and anger within me like: "what the fuck, why does she get to sit next to him, this is my guy". I can't remember which one of us set next to the guy but I remember I was talking to myself in calming myself down, reminding myself that this guy isn't someone that I even want to be with but I felt the competition in walking to them faster so that I could win and get what I wanted before the being could take the guy away from me again.

 

When I woke up and looked at the dream, investigating my reactions, the experience, the back chat, the thoughts, my expression, the way I behaved and so forth, it was clear that the past event of me feeling betrayed still affect my relationship with this being till this day, as there is a part of me that would not let it go and trust the relationship to stand when and as there is a male in the picture in particular but it also goes to the extent of which, I would not trust the being in other instances and would always keep a certain distance so that I wouldn't get hurt again.

 

It was fascinating because this part of me that wouldn't let go, the part that would keep the need to revenge to protect myself, is the Evil personality that I've been working within the last few days and here I go, having a dream that is so specific that shows a point within and as myself that I was not willing to face before.

 

I will continue walking this point with a process of Self Forgiveness and Practical corrective application however, for today, here is an example of how to work with dreams in a practical way, as was explained in much more specificity within the Life Review - Dream Interpreter.

 

For those who are working with dreams or have worked in the past, I suggest listening to this interview as it would give some insights and points to consider when and as one work with dreams.

 

Birthing a new Life through the Eyes of a Horse - Day 228

Birthing a new Life through the Eyes of a Horse - Part 1

Birthing a new Life through the Eyes of a Horse - Part 2

Birthing a new Life through the Eyes of a Horse - Part 3

 

Us human beings, Believe so Dearly that we are much more advance, Superior and intelligent than the Animal kingdom However, when listening to the Animal Life Reviews, one would NOT be able to deny and ignore the fact that it is quite to the contrary.

 

A horse is coming through the Portal for 2 hours interviews and shares insights about the Awareness, Consciousness and the Mind processes of the Animal Kingdom, within the context of How Animals had Evolved while Human Beings had Devolved in our relationship to Awareness, Consciousness and the mind.

But more specifically, the Horse focus on the Pregnancy and Birthing Processes of horses, from Conception till the moment of birth and their Level of Awareness in comparison to the level of Awareness of Humans in the utmost Specific Details that Science could never reached before.

The Pregnancy Process of the Horse, the Emerging of/as Life from the Physical is absolutely Fascinating Process that we, human being, should all learn and align ourselves with.

 

Unlike the Human beings, that are emerging as a mind into this world, the horses are emerging from/as/within the Physical. So from this perspective the horses are walking a Re-Birth Process of the Physical as the Physical while us Human Beings, incarnate as a Mind over and over again, in total separation from the Physical body and existence as a whole. Now, there is no doubt that us Humans are coming to this world with a mind that we utilize as a tool to create, later on, multiple personalities according to how we shape and design ourselves throughout time within the Environment, Culture, Religion and Family influences. While Horses for instance, are simply expressing themselves as who they are and do not create multiple personalities dependent on their environment, generational blood line and so forth.

 

Within this, a point to consider is our responsibility as Human Beings in bringing Life into this world which at the moment Life, is not something we are actually aware of as our awareness of Life as the Physical is very much limited as our awareness is mostly oriented to our Mind and not even to all the layers of our mind as for instance, all the points that we suppress within and as ourselves which play a role with unconscious decisions that we make in any given moment.

 

Now the Horse Female for example, would prepare her Body, before and during the pregnancy in making sure that her womb would be the Manifestation that would function as a chamber of Life meaning - the horse, that is standing as Equal to and One as their Physical structure, will assess and check the body structure alignments, in terms of the food, the organs, the cells, the chemical and the atoms that would function in the best supportive way to nurture the Life that is emerging from and within her Physical body. Not only that, the horse would also make sure that the external environment would function as a chamber of Life for the horse to birth into however, currently, within this world system of human's consequences, it is not possible for the horse in comparison to the equilibrium with how Nature was functioning before Earth was introduced with Human's consequences.

 

However, the Human beings, are in no way preparing the Chamber of Life for our children, internally and externally. Internally from the perspective that we are so far from standing in Equality and Oneness with every cell of our Human physical Body, we have no clue what would be the consequences of the food we eat and how it would affect the Child, we have no idea how the relationship between the Mind and the Body is created and what are the consequences of such separated relationships.

 

Also, the human being are in no way preparing the External Reality to be and become the Chamber of all LIFE on earth, as our world system is not a system that all children are being taken care for, considered and regarded. So, despite of us bringing children to a world of constant survival and fear, while wishing the best for our children, we would not do anything practical to manifest a world system that would be based on Principle of what would be best for all children of Earth.

 

For instance, when we introduced the Equal Money System, we have mostly faced resistance and friction from the majority of those that heard about it, which perpetuate the ignorance and separation that exists within and as our mind to the extent of which that even when a solution to create a chamber of Life and as Life on earth was introduced, people cannot hear and stand with because these people, have the money that would protect their children while the majority of the children of this world are in daily suffering and struggle.

 

So, there is much more to learn from the Animal Kingdom in how to prepare the body and Earth as the Chamber of Life instead of existing constantly within fear and Survival within the principle of the survival of the fittest as we currently, both Animal and humans existing as, due to Human's consequences.

 

I suggest to all Parents and Future Parents to listen to these interviews to get some perspective of what is possible and the Level of Awareness and Communication one could have with oneself and one's child as an Equal and One part of oneself, in Physical Equality and Oneness. 

 

For More interviews with the Animal Kingdom, Please visit EQAFE

From Evilness to Life - Day 226

There are moments in time where one sees what one is doing to another, what it is that one is deliberately accepting and allowing within and as oneself, one see’s how one's words and actions has an affect on others in harmful and destructive ways and yet, one would continue one's participation in one's design/program/pattern/character/personality and would never take responsibility for such moments in making sure that one would not accept and allow oneself to ever again harm oneself and other human beings in this world.

 

This is why I am now writing this blog as I've seen in myself the Evilness that exists within myself, that I've accepted and allowed to accumulate Evilness  over the years, without giving myself any constructive and supportive direction and as such, my actions, my words and my resonance outflows, may harm and cause damage to others as the only things that I would consider in such moments are ME and my Experiences and I would not consider the other beings at all. Till here no further.

 

This blog will be an overview of the points that I've seen within and as myself thus far and from here, I would go into more details and specifics in assisting and supporting myself in walking the path of standing Equal to and One as other human beings and within that, stand as a support rather than a machine that suck the life out from other beings to sustain my Ego/Personalities as how I've defined myself as 'who I am' in separation of myself, others and this world as a whole.

 

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to desire to be so much more than another human being that within that, I would accept and allow myself to walk over their toes and smash them so completely, in making them so small within and as my mind so that I could remain in control over them which would give me the Experience that I'm More. Within that, I forgive myself that I've not accepted and allowed myself to question myself as to why and how I have accepted and allowed the pattern/design as desire to be more, to exists within and as me and within that, haven't assisted and supported myself in stopping this pattern/design as the desire to be more and accordingly standing in alignment to the other being, in an assisting and supportive relationship instead of diminished and compromised relationship that would not benefit anything or anyone.

 

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to try and attempt to make people so small in comparison to me, in my own mind, internally and externally and thus utilized all my "powers" as manipulation and defence tactics in doing all that I can so that they won't grow and expand themselves within who they are so that I won't have to stand in Equality with them but always remain more than them, in my own eyes but then, not seeing, realizing and understanding that I'm not only compromising them, but also compromising myself in  deliberately not assisting and supporting myself and others, equally as one to grow, expand and empower ourselves in becoming effective, trustworthy and respectful human beings in this world.

 

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to deliberately create and manifest relationships in my life with beings that I "see" and perceive as less than me so that I could always stand in a superior position, in control over them. Within that, I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself when the Relationship Dynamic changes and the being is actually moving and changing themselves in assisting and supporting themselves to grow, expand and empower themselves within who they are, to react within and as myself because how I have defined myself as more and superior according to them, has now collapsed and I can no longer sustain the superior personality that I've created within and as myself. Within this, I forgive myself that I've NOT accepted and allowed myself to assist and support myself in standing in absolute self trust as who I am, without needing/desiring/wanting to be More than who I am and specifically, in comparison to others.

 

I forgive myself that I've NOT accepted and allowed myself to see how Evil one can be and become, in how one would speak, move, behave to other human beings in one's world within and as oneself when and as one accept and allow oneself to deliberately manipulate oneself and one's relationships with other human beings, within the starting point of keeping the Relationship Dynamics as it always was in satisfying one's desire to define oneself according to a specific attribute or component that one perceive oneself as lacking within and as oneself through the other being.

 

I commit myself to STOP the Evilness that I've accepted and allowed within and as myself and within that, be aware of such moments where I would change my personality in the attempt to diminish others on my behalf, to sustain my own self created definition that I've defined myself as within my relationships with others.

 

I commit myself to assist and support myself in walking the process from Evilness to life that is best for all and within that, to investigate all the points within and as myself that I've accepted and allowed the Evil nature to override the principle of what is best for all life.

 

I commit myself to Re-Establish my relationships with other people in my world and direct myself within the relationships according to that which is best for all as a principle wherein, we transform the relationships to constructive and supportive where both would assist and support ourselves to grow, empower and expand ourselves as living beings instead of limit, compromise and diminish ourselves within who we are in our relationships to ourselves and each other.

 

I commit myself to investigate why and how I've created relationships that I could experience myself as superior and within that, its relationship to the polarized experience within and as myself, as inferior that I've attempted to suppress through creating relationship that would defined me externally, otherwise.

Stress and Anxiety - Self Creation or Elite's Mind Control?–Day 222

This is a continuation to:

 

The Elite's delusion of stress - Part 1 - Day 45 The Elite's Delusion of Stress - Part 2 - Day 46 The Decision of TIME - Day 67 opy Paste Character - The Education System - Day 184 Is it possible to Cheat yourself? Day 185 It is time to STOP Existing as a Human Machine - Day 186 The End of Times - Day 187 Facing the Evil within - the KEY to LIFE - Day 188 Fear of Disappointing others - Day 189 The Psychology of TIME - Day 190 I Regret, therefor, I'm a Good Person. NOT!!! - Day 191 The REAL Fear - Day 192 The things we Won't tell ANYONE - Day 193 Missing out on the Good Life - Day 194 Let's have some Fun - Day 195

Stupidity Loop - Jumping from the Bad to the Good to the Bad - Day 196 The Smoke Screen of Ignorance - Day 197 Leaving in a Dream - Day 208 Having the Life Style you always dreamt to have - Day 209 IT is MY time Now - don't say a word - Day 210 Let's go on Vacation - Day 211 Comparison is a Bitch - Day 212 Damn, I will never have everything done - Day 213 Standing as an Example - Self Interest or Self Realization? - Day 214 From the Bossy to the Loser - Day 215 Jealousy and Frustration - I want the Life they Have - Day 216 The Poison within Irritation and Anger - Day 217 Judgement as self Perfection - Day 218 Impatience as Evilness - Day 219 Please feel Sorry for me - Day 220 Depression - Self Interest or a Real Physical Condition? - Day 221

 

For the purpose of context, suggest reading these posts above prior to reading the post below, if you haven’t already. Here I will be walking the 'I don't have TIME' Character - Reaction Dimension - Practical support with Self Forgiveness and Self Commitments.

 

Reactions Dimension:

* Jealousy

* Frustration

* Irritation

* Anger

* Judgment and Self Judgment

* Impatient

* Self Pity

* Depression

* Anxiety

* Stress

 

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Stress and Anxiety

 

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to react in Stress and Anxiety within the Embodiment of the 'I don't have Time' Character and within that, I forgive myself that I've NOT accepted and allowed myself to investigate the nature of the Stress and Anxiety within and as me, in seeing, realizing and understanding that I've accepted and allowed Stress and Anxiety because I've Defined myself according to what I do and specifically, how others would define/judge me according to what I do and the results that I bring and thus, when and as t 'I don't have time' to finish specific task/work in time, it is due to my expectations from myself to be more effective within and as myself as well as the Fear that others would be disappointed from me because they have expected better results from me. In this, I forgive myself that I've NOT accepted and allowed myself to see that unless expectations exists, either from myself or from others, Stress and Anxiety cannot exists. Please also, Read Day 61: Anxiety Character

 

I commit myself to STOP placing Value in how others would define me according to what I do and in this, to respect myself, to value and worthy myself within Physical Self Trust in assisting and supporting myself to walk breath by breath, seeing directly the Physical Reality as what would be the best for all outcome, in any given moment.

 

I commit myself to remind myself that Who I am is not defined according to what I do but within who I am as what I do and accordingly, to always cross reference myself, in questioning myself, and the starting point that I've based my decision of walking in any given moment and accordingly, if I see in self honesty that the starting point is not aligned and that I've projected the outcome to fit with my desire to be worthy, validated and accepted by others, I correct and change the starting point immediately, in breath.

 

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to create expectation from myself and within that, set myself in a goal of achieving these expectation, in my mind as a projection, and accordingly define myself as. In this, I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to access Stress and Anxiety when and as I'm not standing in alignment to my own goals/projections/expectations, instead of assessing whether the goals/projections/expectations that I've set forth for myself are realistic in a space/time consideration and within that, ask myself, what can I learn and correct within and as myself in how I could prioritize the time differently in aligning the space/time in a practical considerations so that the next time, I would have the sufficient time to walk through a point/task/work efficiently, specifically and effectively.

 

In this, I commit myself to transform moments of Stress and Anxiety to Gifts where I can learn, correct and perfect myself in how I look at things and make decisions, who I am within my decisions, what is my starting point and within that, align myself to self support practical consideration and application within the principle of what is best for all in any given moment, instead of Mind Self Destruction within and as for instance, accepting Stress and Anxiety to exists within and as me through a mind projections as expectations that I've set forth from the starting point of being validated, accepted and worthy in the eyes of others. .

 

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed the common belief that Stress is valid as it is one's catalyst and motivator for one's movement, in how one would direct and push oneself to perfect oneself however, within that, I have NOT accepted and allowed myself to realize that one do not require Stress as a motivator for one's movement because one can decide to move oneself, in all parts of oneself, in breath by breath living application as one realize one's Self Responsibility in Self honesty within and as the principle of what is best for all and in the very least, Stress as a motivator, was promoted by the world system, in how stress is connected with Money as how one would  motivate oneself in Comparison and Competition to others because one knows that unless one produce a specific outcome, one would not be rewarded and would face consequences that is not in alignment to one's self interest Desire to Survive.

 

I commit myself to further investigate the relationship between Stress, Anxiety and Money within the world system and within that, to educate myself in seeing how Stress was used throughout time to enslave and control human being for the benefit of the Elite of this world.

The Correction Process and The Desteni Message (Part 2) - Day 199

 

 

 

 

The Heart of Winning vs. The Heart of Living.

 

This is a continuation to:

The Correction Process and The Desteni Message (Part 1) - Day 198

Please read this the blog before reading the following blog to make sure you understand the context.

 

In the Previous blog, we have seen that what ever our perception of reality - either Positive or Negative - it would not change the Physical reality and would not influence the Structure and the foundation of the Physical reality but only change our Experience that we have created within and as our mind as the perception we have towards reality within the Value that we have assigned to our experiences. 

 

Within this Blog, we will have a look at the difference between the Heart of Winning to the Heart of Living. Wherein, the Heart of Winning would represent the Positive thinker and attitude and the Heart of Living would represent the Desteni Message.

 

The Heart of Winning is when for example, one would walk one's life and would initially focus one's attention to one's immediate environment - One would care for one's family and Friends and even care for one's neighbours. Within one's heart - one's attitude is a Positive one or in other words, one would define oneself as a positive person who takes care of other people and not only focused on oneself.

 

When one is watching the news for instance, one would feel bad within oneself, when seeing the atrocities that exists in this world and even feel sorry for those who are in a lesser position in this world system. One would then thus, decides within and as oneself that once one have enough money, or when one is retired, one would commit oneself to make good in this world by helping here and there to the poor families, by donating money for charity or by volunteering in a shelter for abused children.

 

Within the 'Heart of the Winner' - one would Win one's life style through devoting one's life in labour for at least 50 years of one's life. One would Win in the world system from the perspective of oneself and one's family is safe and sound and could afford luxuries from time to time and only when one Win the Right to Life, through Money, one would then give some of what one have.

 

However, what one is NOT considering is, that life is too short! And there is no way, one could bring about any meaningful change in one's life and in the life of all, in the time period one have, till one's death.

Meaning - by the time one had accomplished and fulfilled oneself (winning), one would not have the sufficient space/time to actually move and direct oneself towards a change that is substantial and sufficient, in making sure that ALL are safe and sound, that all are taken cared for and all are equally provided with the basic necessities for a decent and worthy life.

 

Here, we can see again that despite of one's Positive Attitude, one would always focus on one's life and One's immediate environment lives and if there is any Extra left, one would give to others the time and money that one can give while the fact of the matter is - the Physical reality remain the same - the core/root/origin/source of the Problem wasn't corrected and changed.

 

The Heart of Living is a complete Different Scenario - it is to bring in practicality the Principle of Give as you would like to Receive as a Principle that one would walk for one's entire life and not only when one had already won the life one desired to have. The Heart of Living would then thus, is a commitment one is standing within and as, to do, what ever it takes in bringing about a world that is best for all, as a living expression of oneself, regardless the outcome, regardless of the chances, regardless of what everyone in one's society would have to say about it, regardless the attitude of others towards self and what self is standing for.

The Heart of Living is walking in seeing reality directly, seeing all the relationships that are involved in each and every Brick that is the foundation of this physical existence as a whole.

 

Desteni Represents the Heart of Living - seeing reality as what it is, as was explained in the previous blog - in being aware of all the relationships that form this physical reality and what ever is not aligned to the principle of what is best for all, must be corrected from the very foundation - as the core/origin/root/source.

 

The Heart of Living as a Principle - is NOT based on experience as either Positive or Negative - it is based on seeing reality directly and immediately take action, when and as the root/core/origin/source of the relationship that formed a part of this reality was misaligned with the principle of what is best for all.

 

Unfortunately, that in itself, would not change this world because, as I've explained in the previous blog, one's Living expression of oneself as one particle in this entire existence, won't change the foundation and the structure of the physical reality. I mean, even if I'm Here, fully aware of my own physical body and all the physical relationships that this physical reality consisting of and existing as, I would not be able, by myself, to change this world to a world that is best for all because we are already living in a manifested consequences that are far worse then what we can even imagine and to correct it - we all must come together and Correct the core/source/root/origin of the problem because one must understand - we are the Problem.

 

Will continue in the next blog.