Learning a new language - Day 508

I've been in South Africa for more than 3 years now but I always refused learning Afrikaans - I kept on telling myself that I must first perfect my English before attempting to learn another language, that English is tough enough, learning another language will be too complicated... I can really give you a long list of excuses of why I should not learn Afrikaans but the truth is - I believed that I can't, that i am too old to learn a new language and mostly, I believed that I am unable to learn and integrate new information effectively enough and I didn't want to risk seeing that my assumption is real.

My high school learning experience wasn't one that empowered me to succeed and the imprint that was left inside of me since high school was of a failure. It was not that I was failing per say, I actually got very good marks but I could have done better if I wouldn't give up on myself since the first time I didn't succeed in a test as how I expected of myself. It was a struggle for me to consider higher education and with a lot of pressure from my family, I eventually studied law and business and even though I felt inferior all the way through university, my marks were again pretty good even though I invested very limited time in studying.

It is interesting how even with having good marks and achievements in university, my internal experience was of a failure. There was a part of me who knew that I could have done more, be more, if I wouldn't accept my own self-limitations. But the fear of proving to myself that I am a failure when investing time and effort in studying new material was something I was not willing to face. I preferred investing as little time as possible in my studies and make the best out of it because I always found a way around it, if that make sense.

The experience of being inferior and failure when it comes to learning followed me ever since which was why learning Afrikaans was something I was not willing to do. It is interesting how an idea of oneself becomes self-prophecy through which we use our experiences to validate our ideas of ourselves. With me and Afrikaans - every time someone would try and teach me a word, I would repeat it and try to remember it but inside of me, there was a 'knowing' that I will forget the word the next moment because after all, I am a failure so I didn't even bothered expanding my Afrikaans vocabulary.

In the past few weeks, Afrikaans was spoken more frequently around me and I became annoyed that I don't understand what people are speaking about. I kept on asking them to switch to English but every so often the Afrikaans kicked in again and I felt disempowered for not being able to participate in the discussions around me. So, I had to make a decision - Am I going to be annoyed each time I hear Afrikaans and within that accept my own limitations OR, I will expand my reality and learn Afrikaans? Well.. I decided to go with Self-Empowerment lol.

I asked a friend to teach me Afrikaans and she gratefully took upon herself the challenge. In the first few days, I made a decision to only integrate one word a day as at that stage, I still believed I was limited, failure and unable to integrate more than one word a day. 2 weeks have passed and I increased my Afrikaans vocabulary with 14 words lol and then, one day, I had couple of hours during a drive to a training function and I thought to myself, I might as well use this time to learn a few more words. So she started teaching me the days of the week and I surprised myself because an hour later, I could speak the days of the week with confident. Then she wanted to teach me to count and I for a moment said 'No, it has already been 7 words while I should only do 1 word per day. BUT, I just proved to myself that I could easily integrate 7 new words so why not just give myself the opportunity to learn to count? Again, I surprised myself with being able to count to 10 after just a few minutes with the ability to recall the information of all the 21 words (+ a few more random words) I integrated that day. today, I learnt to count to 100..

Someone asked me HOW am I doing it - how did I move myself from not being able to integrate any word in Afrikaans to now being able to learn and recall what I learnt in a very short period of time. My answer was.. "I Made a Decision".

They asked me "Decision? What do you mean?" I said: "You can decide to accept and allow your own created self-limitations or you can decide to accept and allow your own self-empowerment and growth. Once a decision is made, you still have to decide to consistently stand by the decision that you made in any given moment and that was all that I've done"

With understanding how learning works and what are the methods that assist me the most to effectively integrate information, I can choose to expand my reality and push myself to succeed. So, I am in the process of learning Afrikaans now which I find to be a fascinating process as it showed me how I am the creator of my own self-limitations and if so I choose, how I can also be the creator of my own self-empowerment and growth.

Determine the Future through the Past - Day 280

I was looking today at an interesting design of how we structure our lives, based on the Past, within the knowledge and information that we have gathered thus far, as memories, experiences, beliefs, opinion and etc.  and accordingly, project it all on the Future within the belief that X,Y,Z are then the only possible outcomes.

 

An Example -

As a child, I dreamt about being a National Geographic Photographer because:

 

A. I enjoyed taking pictures.

B. I Fantasized on traveling around the world.

Thus, A+B brought me to the conclusion that I must become a National Geographic Photographer.
Then, as i grow up, more variables came into the Equation:

C. There isn't much income in it.

D. I won't be able to have a stable and constant Home and Family because I'll be traveling around the world.

Thus, A+B+C+D brought me to the Conclusion that I cannot pursue my Childhood Dream because C+D had more value according to my Pre-program Design.

 

From there, when seeing that C+D are more valuable and powerful, I changed the Variables:

E. I want to be a Psychologist because I want to help people.

So I registered to the University, got accepted, found an apartment and was 2 months a way from starting my new life path.

But then, in the Summer brake, I discovered that there was 'More' to life then what I knew about life thus far (School, Army, Traveling, University). I discovered 'Partying', Alcohol, Men and a perceive sense of Freedom and thus now:

F. I want to Party and have fun - that doesn't work with studying.

So I dropped out of school before I even started and now, the Family Pressure started to kick in as I was pushed to do something with my life meaning - get education.

So now that F is a valuable variable, I looked at how I can manipulate D with maintaining F.

My Parties Friends told me about a Private Collage where they plan to go to, and how awesome the Social life there, and the people are all rich and good looking and.. The parties.. The best parties ever.. And because I knew that my parents will pay anything for the sake of my education, I thus decided:

G. I will Study Business and Marketing within a special program that include last year of Education in Las Vegas. That sound like Fun. But, it doesn't really fit in with the Preprogram design because, I must stay in Israel, Develop a Career, find my partner, get married and have Kids. So The Family Pressure kicked in again and I decided to change G. to:

H. I'll study Business with specialty in Finance and at the same time I'll do L.L.B in Law.   

 

I finished school and now had to stop the Partying stage, find a job and be something in this world. I started a job in marketing. Without realizing, I became poor really quick because I could no longer be a bar tender and make lots of money with the living expanses of renting a house and owning a car, Food, Electricity and Etc.

 

I quit my job for a what was seem at that time as a promising career as a trader in the Capital Market. That wasn't a huge success and I had to quit after a year because I was really not good at my job. I didn't know what to do next because all my attempts to manifest D were coming to nothing. Sure, I had B.A in Business and L.L.B in Law but there was absolute nothing I wanted to do with that. I still couldn't see my future and specifically, couldn't see future happiness unless D will in some may would manifest.

 

This all story is to show you that we are making our decisions based on Prospect Experiences/Desires and Past Memories/Experiences, Beliefs, ideas and etc. that were infuse into us already in childhood and we blindly accepted this is if this is who we are and the life we must walk as who we are.

 

D, was a direct influence within every decision that I made throughout my life while I never stopped and actually invested a moment to investigate each and every point and within that, look at what I really want, Where and how I can discover my fullest potential that would truly give me a life that I'll be satisfied with, in every single moment with no Shadow of Regret.

 

When looking at D: 

 

"I won't be able to have a stable and constant Home and Family because I'll be traveling around the world"

 

Stable and Constant Home/Family indicate that what I wished for in essence was Security of the Future that only Money could give me. Home and Family Represent Stability according to the world System eye's view and that is something that each one of us is being trained to desire from the first moment we remember ourselves. It has been advertised in any Children books, Movies, Magazines and TV Shows. It has been advertised in every Religion and Culture. We have been Programed, generation after Generation to maintain and sustain a Life of Survival within Separation as a principle. We have been Trained to do what ever it takes to Win the life anyone wants to have while only 1% of the 1% can physically have. We have Compromised through the Belief that Love worth it all despite of the Common sense seeing that Love doesn't bring food to the table but Money is.

 

To Understand Preprograming in a nutshell, I suggest reading my blog series - 'The correction Process and the Desteni Message' and in the Future to Come, a new series will be available on EQAFE - the Physical Quantum Mind which would explain in Detail how the Pre-Program works on a Physical Quantum Mind Level and how  the first 7 years of a Child life would be the stepping stone from which the Child develop and Establish the Variables that would shape and mould every decision one would make throughout one's life. 

 

The point here to understand is: The Future is Unknown to us at the moment as we have separated ourselves from who we are and as such, can not see the physical reality clearly within all the relationships/variables it consist of and exists as. Sure, we can make common sense plans to make sure that our survival in this world is stable because we are still living in a system of Money and Survival. A point to consider here - is this the Life we want to leave for our Children? Is this the Future we want our Children to have? Isn't it the time to stop and create a future of abundance for all the member of the Family - Humans, Nature and the Animal Kingdom? If you find it in you to stand up for a future of Absolute Security, safety and dignity for all, I suggest to study the Equal Money System Proposal.

 

And on the Individual Level, one must understand how limited we are within our mind wherein, we believe that we can predict our future according to the variables we place in our Life-Equations without realizing that there are much more variables that we haven't consider at all. The Depression that I experienced in my life was due to me looking at the future through the glasses of the Past and not seeing anything that is worthwhile that may manifested within the Frame of Reference I programmed myself as.

I've realized though, that being Depressed when the Physical reality doesn't meat the Future Reality that I've planned, desired and wished for in my mind indicate the extent of separation that I have accepted and allowed within and as myself because in self honesty, I'm in a process of self discovery and if I project to  the future who I am now, I'm not giving me the space and time to expand, grow and discover myself because 'Who I am' in every moment was never part of the Dynamic Equation of Life.

Don't you Dare Blaming me - Day 244

 

 

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to react and access defense mode when and as someone is directly or indirectly blaming me for their Negative Experience and within that, I forgive myself that I've NOT accepted and allowed myself to Realize that when allow myself to React and take their Blame Personally, I accept and allow myself to embody energetic system into and as me, that I feed with my attention I give it through my emotions and feelings, which is really, a (re)act of insanity wherein, one is accepting and allowed oneself to embed energy systems that wasn't previously existent within and as oneself but now, making the system one's own, which now, one has a bigger problem as one has to go back, investigate one's acceptance and allowance and correct oneself.

 

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to program myself to (Re)act when someone is directly or indirectly blaming me for their negative experience that they have associated with me and within that, haven't investigated why and how I have programmed myself, when did I first stored and installed this program and what is the Self Interest starting point of this Programming because obviously, if I accepted this programming as myself, there was something i believed I would benefit from.

 

I forgive myself that I've NOT accepted and allowed myself to realize that if I react to another blaming me for their own Negative Experience, I do not stand as a pillar of support, both for myself and another because when I am in a reaction within a defense mode, trying to justify myself or fight for my righteous believes about myself and at the same time, the other will fight for their right to make their point while neither of us is actually inverting the points of reactions back to ourselves in seeing, realizing and understanding why and how we have accepted and allowed the reaction to exists within and as ourselves and accordingly, stand as the directive principle and make the decision to not accept and allow ourselves to participate in such reactions as we see, realize and understand that accepting and allowing these reactions to continue, we accept and allow ourselves to disempower and diminish ourselves which within that, become lesser version of ourselves than who we really are as an expression of ourselves.

 

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to program myself to react and take things personally when another is blaming me or having some sort of attitude towards my presence which within that, what I haven't considered and/or realized for myself is that when and as I take the other personally, I validate their experience by making it my own, and in that moment of acceptance and allowance, I disempower myself through not standing in stability and clarity, as Breath, within and as myself, and thus, cannot support myself or the other as I'm already in a mind fuck of my own.

 

I thus Commit myself to assist and support myself in investigating in depth the design of Reaction that I've created within and as myself and within that, investigate the multidimensionality of the design so that I could for once and for all, stop all reactions within and as myself, to assist and support myself to be and become an effective human beings in this world where I stand in any given moment as a pillar of support for myself and others.

 

I Commit myself to investigate the Reaction Games that I had accepted and allowed within and as myself to participate within the relationships that I have with other human beings in this world as I see now that when and as I accept and allow myself to react and take things personally, I accept and allow my own disempowerment, diminishment and thus, compromise of myself and others.

 

I Commit myself to Flag the points of Reaction when it occur and to remind myself that accepting and allowing myself to communicate while and within a reaction is useless and counterproductive and in no way a form of support for myself nor others.

How I created my Meditation Experience - Day 237

This is a continuation to:

Is Meditation the Key to Enlightenment?

 

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to judge meditation within a negative emotional charge, not seeing, realizing and understanding that I've actually judged myself for the things that I've accepted and allowed myself to participate in my past, the things that I now see, realize and understand that had only benefited me within my own self interest delusional mind and through judging Meditation I distracted myself from facing the Practical correction because, so long as I judge, I still allowing my mind to be the directive principle instead of utilizing the Principle: Investigate all points and keep that which is best for all. Within that context, Breathing exercise as a self support tool can and should be utilized within a clear and directive starting point in assisting and supporting oneself to Bring oneself back to one's own physical body, where one could, in breath, assess, check and investigate oneself until eventually, Breathing becomes one's Directive Principle in any given moment.

 

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to associate and connect Breathing with Meditation and since I've Judged meditation as wrong, I sabotaged and compromised myself in not gifting myself the opportunity to assist and support myself in any given moment, to simply Breathe, Be here, within and as my human physical body in alignment to the Movement that Life is.

 

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to spiritualize Breathing and within that create an Experiences that would be aligned with the Spiritual Programs that I've created within and as myself. Within this, I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to fear having Spiritual Experiences as it indicate that I accepted and allowed my mind to take over the moment. In this, I forgive myself that I've not accepted and allowed myself to realize that it is useless to try and suppress that which exists within and as me and rather, if a Spiritual experience emerge from within and as me, it is cool, because then, I'm able to assist and support myself to release myself from the entity that I've created within and as myself through going to the draw board to investigate what I've not seen and sorted out within and as myself and accordingly, take self responsibility and correct the point within and as myself.

 

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to define myself as inadequate when and as a Spiritual Experience emerge from within and as me, as if I have done something terribly wrong, not seeing, realizing and understanding that I should simply see it as it is, another window of opportunity to sort out that which was already existent within and as me. In this, I forgive myself that I've NOT accepted and allowed myself to realize that if I react to the Spiritual Program that I've inserted and program myself, I create another experience, another entity and thus, only prolong my process instead of Quantified my process in walking through each and every point that reveal itself here, stand in stability and in self trust that I have all that I require for, to assist and support me to step out of mind experience and step into the Physical reality as an Expression of myself.

 

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to NOT realize that I've judged the Spiritual Experience that I had created within and as myself, because I've defined myself as More than a spiritual person, utilizing the Knowledge and information that I have, to justify for myself, why I am MORE than another. Within this, I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to want, need and desire to define myself as MORE than a spiritual person and within that suppress that which I've program myself to exists as, while I was myself a spiritual person, not seeing, realizing and understanding that the Program still exists within and as me, till I, as the directive principle, take the responsibility and release myself from the systems and programs that I've inserted and stored within and as myself with practical Self Forgiveness Process, in taking self responsibility for my own acceptance and allowances and change myself, immediately, within and as Breath. 

 

I commit myself to assist and support myself in practicing my Breathing application as a directive principle through which I expand my application to align with the movement that Life exists within and as till in every step, in every moment, I am Here, in and as Breath.

 

I commit myself to assist and support myself to - when and as a Spiritual Experience is emerging from within and as me, to Stop, to Breathe and to see where I'm not aligned and clear within and as myself and in that, to investigate the source/core/origin of the Experience and accordingly, to take Self Responsibility and, correct my physical living application and change.

 

I commit myself to STOP the internal and external friction and conflict within and as myself, within the context of Spirituality as I now see, realize and understand that I have a process to walk, in writing, regarding my self definition and relationship with Spirituality as points opened up within this blog that I must take responsibility for and direct and accordingly correct within and as myself.

Holding onto a Grudge - Day 230

This a continuation to:

From Evilness to Life - Day 226

The seclusion in Inclusion - Day 227

Seeing the Evil Nature in Dreams - Day 229

 

So, the dream that I shared yesterday opened up a point within the Evil context that one wouldn't usually consider within and as oneself, in one's relationships to other human beings in one's world - How we Keep and Store Past Memory Events where we felt Betrayed and/or hurt by our Friend/Sibling/Parents/Partner/Co-worker, which then, we would utilize the Past Memory Negative Experience, the moment we feel threatened, to justify to ourselves why it is ok to behave and treat the other with Spite and/or Distrust.

 

What we haven't realized is - so long as we accept and allow ourselves to keep and store Past Negative Memories as an Experience, our Relationships with other human being wouldn't stand the test of time. Sure, one can continue to suppress the Negative Experience towards the other being but slowly but surely, the Experience would accumulate till a moment where everything would burst out where one would make the decision - Face the point and sort the relationship out regardless of the outcome or to suppress the point again, make fake peace and continue the relationship as it was, till the next outbreak. 

 

What I've seen within and as myself was that the relationship never get to a point of 'Peace' again because there is a constant movement within and as me, when being around the beings that I've associated them with a Negative Past Experience and within this, I would always expect the worse case scenario of them hurting or betraying me again  and accordingly, would never accept and allow myself to trust them. Interestingly enough, I never looked at the point of self trust within that context and why it is that I would always engage into relationships within the expectation of getting hurt and within that, the fears that I carry from the past that would drive me to participate in the same patterns, manifesting the same consequences, over and over again.

 

As I'm writing, I see that this point is a multi-dimensional point that would require further investigation and introspection. Unfortunately, I won't be able to go into it today, in physical space time consideration within the level of specificity that I would like to walk, . So, I will continue with myself for a moment and will share tomorrow the points that I've seen, realized and understood within and as myself so stay tuned.

 

Depression - Self Interest or a Real Physical Condition? - Day 221

This is a continuation to:

The Elite's delusion of stress - Part 1 - Day 45 The Elite's Delusion of Stress - Part 2 - Day 46 The Decision of TIME - Day 67 opy Paste Character - The Education System - Day 184 Is it possible to Cheat yourself? Day 185 It is time to STOP Existing as a Human Machine - Day 186 The End of Times - Day 187 Facing the Evil within - the KEY to LIFE - Day 188 Fear of Disappointing others - Day 189 The Psychology of TIME - Day 190 I Regret, therefor, I'm a Good Person. NOT!!! - Day 191 The REAL Fear - Day 192 The things we Won't tell ANYONE - Day 193 Missing out on the Good Life - Day 194 Let's have some Fun - Day 195

Stupidity Loop - Jumping from the Bad to the Good to the Bad - Day 196 The Smoke Screen of Ignorance - Day 197 Leaving in a Dream - Day 208 Having the Life Style you always dreamt to have - Day 209 IT is MY time Now - don't say a word - Day 210 Let's go on Vacation - Day 211 Comparison is a Bitch - Day 212 Damn, I will never have everything done - Day 213 Standing as an Example - Self Interest or Self Realization? - Day 214 From the Bossy to the Loser - Day 215 Jealousy and Frustration - I want the Life they Have - Day 216 The Poison within Irritation and Anger - Day 217 Judgement as self Perfection - Day 218 Impatience as Evilness - Day 219 Please feel Sorry for me - Day 220

 

 

For the purpose of context, suggest reading these posts above prior to reading the post below, if you haven’t already. Here I will be walking the 'I don't have TIME' Character - Reaction Dimension - Practical support with Self Forgiveness and Self Commitments.

 

 

Reactions Dimension:

* Jealousy

* Frustration

* Irritation

* Anger

* Judgment and Self Judgment

* Impatient

* Self Pity

* Depression

* Anxiety

* Stress

 

 

 

 

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Depression

 

One must understand that the context of what I've been walking in my last few blogs was Specifically within the context of the 'I don't have Time' Character. Today, I will be walking the Depression that I've accepted and allowed myself to participate with, within the 'I don't have Time' character.

 

I forgive myself that I've NOT accepted and allowed myself to see, realize and understand that the self created Depression that I've accepted and allowed to exists within and as me, when the 'I don't have time' character take the front, was done deliberately to justify the belief that I don't have time as Equal to and One as the accepted and allowed Self Pity design. (For more context, please read the previous blog - Please feel Sorry for me - Day 220).

 

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to believe myself when I felt Depressed because apparently, I didn't have time and within that belief, I've sabotaged, compromised and limited myself in actually looking at what is behind the Depression and how I was utilizing the depression as self manipulation to not face my own self interest desires that were activated within and as my mind, in the imagination domain. (For more Context, please read Stupidity Loop - Jumping from the Bad to the Good to the Bad - Day 196 and Leaving in a Dream - Day 208)

 

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to follow the feeling of Depression to justify why I took a moment for myself, to do nothing, and why it was 'ok' for me to neglect and compromise the things I committed myself to get done and instead went and do things to please my desire for entertainment because according to Society codes that I've accepted and allowed as myself, as a religion of myself, "it is valid to take a momentary 'break' when feeling Depressed; everybody does that".

 

I forgive myself that I've NOT accepted and allowed myself to see how I've manipulated myself and others within the Depression embodiment within the belief that I'm entitle to feel depressed because everybody does from time to time and therefor, I can take a moment and indulge within my self interest desires even though 'I don't have time' for it. Within this, I forgive myself that I've NOT accepted and allowed myself to consider the Physical reality but rather, trusted my mind within the experience of Depression to justify for myself that it's ok to take a momentary break and thus, have not realized, seen and understood that within that justification, my directive Principle is my Mind and not Me that moves equal and one as the physical as what is best for all. In this, I forgive myself that I've NOT accepted and allowed myself to see, that I do not require any form of manipulation to move myself in any given moment but rather, stand in self honesty, assess what would be best for all in a moment and accordingly move myself, without the mind telling me how I feel, what I should do, who or what I am

 

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to base my decisions according to how I perceive my Experience through my mind instead of trusting the Physical within the principle of what is best for all and move myself accordingly. Within this, I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to trust the experience of Depression, as if it is me, not seeing, realizing and understanding how I am the only creator of the depression within and as me and how I have used and abused myself in manipulating myself within the belief that I am depressed, to justify my fall into my own desires in the nature of self interest and to thus, compromise myself within giving up on that which I've committed myself to.

 

I forgive myself that I've NOT accepted and allowed myself to see, realize and understand how deliberate depression is, within and as me where I would give up on Life, on the Principle of what is best for all through justifying to myself my fall in the name of Depression that would entitle me to indulge and take the time I require to 'heal' myself from the depression because apparently, it wasn't me who decided to become depressed "because it is real and I could feel it" and within that, I forgive myself that I've NOT accepted and allowed myself to trust the Physical, to trust the Principle of what is best for all and instead, trusted my mind, in separation of me, within the belief that I'm experiencing Depression and that it is real because I can feel it.

 

I Commit myself to when and as I see myself accessing Depression, and now I'm referring whatever the reason for the self created depression is, not only in the context of 'I don't have time' character to Stop, Breathe, and remind myself why and How I've seen for myself that I've deliberately created depression to manipulate myself in not facing the real core/source/origin of the Depression as a cover-up to justify my desires in the nature of self interest. Within that, I commit myself to investigate and further expand the my SF application with regards to Depression within all the layers of the mind, for myself, and accordingly, to walk the correction process that is required to be walked, in self honesty/realization.

 

I Commit myself to Trust the Physical as what is here that I can cross reference and within that, to not trust the mind within the experience that I 'Feel' as I now see, realize and understand that whatever I feel and see through my mind is self created deception and it's not actual direct seeing of and as the Physical and if I accept and allow myself to trust my mind, I accept and allow the diminishment of myself, as living physical being and within that, in every moment that I accept and allow myself to base my decisions according to what I feel or see through my mind, I miss a breath and a window of opportunity to in fact change and walk, breath by breath, within and as the principle of that which is best for all lives.

 

I Commit myself to Establish Physical Self Trust within and as myself and to assist and support me in making decisions that are based on Physical cross referenced investigation rather than making decisions that are based on mind Trust as I've seen and proven to myself that I cannot trust my mind in anyway whatsoever.

Having the Life Style you always dreamt to have - Day 209

 

This is a continuation to:

The Elite's delusion of stress - Part 1 - Day 45

The Elite's Delusion of Stress - Part 2 - Day 46

The Decision of TIME - Day 67

And:

Copy Paste Character - the Way for Success? - Day 183

Copy Paste Character - The Education System - Day 184

Is it possible to Cheat yourself? Day 185

It is time to STOP Existing as a Human Machine - Day 186

The End of Times - Day 187

Facing the Evil within - the KEY to LIFE - Day 188

Fear of Disappointing others - Day 189

The Psychology of TIME - Day 190

I Regret, therefor, I'm a Good Person. NOT!!! - Day 191

The REAL Fear - Day 192

The things we Won't tell ANYONE - Day 193

Missing out on the Good Life - Day 194

Let's have some Fun - Day 195

Stupidity Loop - Jumping from the Bad to the Good to the Bad - Day 196

The Smoke Screen of Ignorance - Day 197

Leaving in a Dream - Day 208

For the purpose of context, suggest reading these posts above prior to reading the post below, if you haven’t already. Here I will be walking the 'I don't have TIME' Character -Imagination Dimension - Practical support with Self Forgiveness and Self Commitments.

 

 

Imagination Dimension:

• I fantasize of taking a vacation, lying down on the beach, with nothing else to do but enjoy the sun, swimming in the ocean, going to a restaurant, having a fruit shake - in India or Thailand lol.
• I imagine other people doing the same just now, while I'm stuck on the computer, doing my routine work.
• I imagine the life of those who have money and can do what ever they want with their life - having a spa day, going out, enjoying themselves as I used to do myself a few years back.
• I imagine people coming back from work, after a long day, and sitting on the coach with their partner, hanging out, watching a movie, laying back, with nothing really to do.

 

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I imagine people coming back from work, after a long day, and sitting on the coach with their partner, hanging out, watching a movie, laying back, with nothing really to do.

 

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to program myself within the belief that a person must work during the day and when a person comes home, it is then time for a being to rest, spend time with the family, watch TV or go out and within that, define that lift style to be normal and within that context, through defining that preprogram belief within and as a positive charge, I accepted and allowed myself to compare that ideal to my current living condition of working from day till night. In that, I forgive myself that I've NOT accepted and allowed myself to see how I've created a friction/conflict within and as myself wherein, the physical reality clashes with the imaginary reality as ideal that I've created within and as my mind.

 

I commit myself to assist and support myself with studying the Quantum Mind - Self Awareness as I now see, realize and understand how little do I know about myself and the relationship that I have with my mind and this physical reality. Also, I commit myself to SHOW that what we have defined as Ideal and Normal is in fact Abnormal as we have used and abused Normality to justify our priorities that would serve our self interests wherein for instance, we would come back from work, believes ourselves to ''earn'' our rest in the evening while there is an entire world out side that can benefit from us standing up and move ourselves within the direction of finding out what is really going on in this world so that we can do something about it. in this, Normal is to Give Up our self interest movement and consider everything and everyone and not just ourselves wherein our higher priority is establishing a world that is practical and physical best for all.

 

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to NOT realize how and why I've programmed my ideal life style as is reflected in the imaginary domain in my mind, and accordingly, define that ideal as Normal, not seeing, realizing and understanding that through this ideal as imaginary, I'm placing a stone for me to stumble on wherein, I would fantasies of having the ideal life to justify why it is that I'm not willing to give up everything of myself for just this life, and do what ever it takes to bring about a world that is best for all as the desire of having the idea, would be my directive principle as a pre-program design that would override common sense.

 

I commit myself to remove the ideal of what is Normal Life Style as a pre-program design within and as myself as I see, realize and understand that Ideal as Normal Life style is only valid when everyone have equal opportunity to have that life style and unless people are in life condition that would not allow them to have a normal life style, something in the definition of Normality is misaligned and thus, we must change the definition in practicality in establishing the physical condition, physical system that would result with Dignified and worthy life style for all as a basic right for all humans on earth, within and as the principle of Equality because Normal - is that which is best for all.

 

 

The Correction Process and The Desteni Message (Part 7) - Day 204

Is Free Choice Real?

 

This is a continuation to:

The Correction Process and The Desteni Message (Part 1) - Day 198

The Correction Process and The Desteni Message (Part 2) - Day 199

The Correction Process and The Desteni Message (Part 3) - Day 200

The Correction Process and The Desteni Message (Part 4) - Day 201

The Correction Process and The Desteni Message (Part 5) - Day 202

The Correction Process and The Desteni Message (Part 6) - Day 203

 

So, What is Free Choice?

When looking at what we have discussed regarding our Preferences, Free choice doesn't seem to be so much Free as we had believed it was; I mean, If my Preference, for example, to not get involved with the current world events, in reading/watching/hearing the news, to avoid the Fear Experience that I've stored within and as me, as memory from my childhood, did I really have a choice in 'disliking' watching/hearing/reading the news as a grown-up? was the Choice Free or was I only living the illusion of free choice by responding to my pre-programmed design?

 

From a certain perspective, Yes, it was a free Choice, but one that I've made early in my childhood, within my Decision to store the Memory experience as Fear within and as me, through how I had accepted and allowed myself to program myself with the storage and thus the imprint of my experience which I would then act upon within my adult years.

 

However, within that, we must not forget our innocence wherein, as a child, I didn’t have the tools to be able to look within and as myself, to investigate the nature of the fear, see the outflows that may occur through my acceptance and allowances of my pre-programmed designs; wherein if trained as an effective human being I could have seen the consequences that result from that which I accept as my programming, such as 'preferring to not get involved with the Current world Matters', and through this directly seeing, and making the decision to Free myself from the Fear Experience through the CORRECTIVE application of - Immediate self forgiveness, BREATH, and standing within and as my human physical body, checking/assessing that I'm in fact, Here, in the Physical, with no energy movement because I see, realize and understand that if I accept and allow energy movement to remain in my body, I've already accepted and allowed myself to separate myself from myself as a physical living human being and in that, give my power a way to the Energy that would slowly but surely accumulate within and as me, and become my directive principle in how I would move, walk and direct my life.

(The corrective application process will be discussed in more detail in the blogs to come)

 

As was described in my Previous blog, Preference is:

"Preference is the choices one would make according to the 'possibilities' that one sees in one's world and one's reality which one would then, evaluate according to what would be the best choice to make that would result with the best outcome that would be best for self within one's own self interest and desires . This we can also see in the 'Sounding' of the word 'Preference' -> Pre-Reference; wherein one would firstly look at all the References that exists for self, those references represents the Choices/possibilities one have and accordingly make the decision that is best for self."

 

Let's have a look at 'Possibilities that one sees' in relationship to Preferences.

As was explained and shown in The Correction Process and The Desteni Message (Part 1) - Day 198 - our Seeing of Reality is through our Experiences that we have created within and as our minds within the context of attaching/associating a Value which is either Positive or Negative to what we see in our reality according to our pre-programmed designs. For instance, with the Brick example - either I like or dislike the colour/shape/texture of the Brick, won't change the Physicality of the Brick but only change my Experience in relation to the Brick.

 

The Positive or Negative Value within the context of 'Preferences' is what we Like and Dislike or what we Desire or have a resistance towards, which would determine the value we will assign/attach/associate with our experience wherein, Like/Desire would be the Positive Value as a Positive Experience and Dislike/Resistance would be the Negative Value as a Negative Experience. Therefor, the 'Possibilities' that we 'see' in our reality, as the foundation of our Preferences as  the Choices we would live out, would be according to our Desires/Likes or our Resistances/Dislikes, all of which within the context of one's Self Interest to manifest the best outcome for oneself.

 

The questions that must be asked now are - where do my Desires come from? Where do my Resistances come from? Where/when/how/why have I decided to Like or Dislike a certain thing? Where/when/how/why have I decided to have a Desire or have a Resistance towards certain things? Without investigating these points within and as myself but rather take my Preferences for granted, place the entire design of Free choice in Question because I can clearly see for myself that, my Preference of not getting involved with the Current world matters were  a Justified preference I made within and as myself, to not Face my Resistance to a Past memory as an experience of Fear wherein I programmed myself to believe that I simply Dislike watching/reading/hearing the News and thus, I can state for myself that, I had no free choice in moments where I had the possibility to watch/read/hear the news and decided not to participate, because I blindly followed my pre-programmed design in 'choosing' to not get involved with the news.

 

Thus - Does Free choice exists when and as we follows our pre-programmed Life Design? Are we in fact the Directive principle in every moment of every breath when we follow our Pre-programmed life design? These are questions that can be answered in Self Honesty. However, the Difference between Self Honesty and Honesty is a blog by itself that I would walk in my next Blog.

 

*Note - to understand the relationship between Energy and our Human Physical body, I suggest studying the Quantum Mind Series on EQAFE.