That moment when you hear people talking about you (Part 1) - Day 538

"Be Impeccable With Your Word. Speak with integrity. Say only what you mean. Avoid using the word to speak against yourself or to gossip about others. Use the power of your word in the direction of truth and love."

Don Miguel Ruiz

How many of you experienced a moment when you overheard people talking about you? How did it make you feel? What did you do about it? How did this moment changed your relationship with these people once you knew the truth of what they think about you? Where you able to overcome that moment and trust these people again? Here is my story:

I remember that day when my innocence flew out of the window. It was when I overheard my best friend talking shit about me with her father and it broke my heart. It wasn't even serious stuff, she didn't say anything nasty about me meaning, it wasn't what she said, it was the way that she said and what was the undercurrent of how she said it if that make sense.

I did not know from where it all came from and with being so overwhelmed, I went home and haven't spoken with her for months. Not until our parents intervene and "forced" the relationship back and I just agreed because I wanted to please everyone. Though, inside myself, I knew, I cannot trust this person and I've been secretly waiting for the day our path would split apart without having to hurt her, the family and other friends that were involved.

For years later, I went away from anyone who I perceived to betray my trust. If they used something that I said against me; if they went behind my back and caused frictions between me and other people; if they kept on going to other people to talk about me instead of coming to me; If any of that happened, I had no interest in continue developing my relationship with them.

Later, when I started my personal development process , I realized that these 'gossiping' moments are coming from the mind of people and it doesn't define who they really are underneath the layers of the mind. Same way, it doesn't define me. Yet, the experience of being betrayed kept on coming up inside of me which showed I haven't reached a point of self-forgiveness and self-honesty.

I continued working with these points and as I was walking through the layers of my mind, I found a protection mechanism I've programmed myself back in childhood: to protect myself from people that may hurt me or break my trust. Obviously, this again showed I haven't reached a point of self-forgiveness nor self-honesty. And so, self-introspection continued.

Will continue in my next blog.  

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Art: Anna Baklane | Saatchi Art

Holding myself captive in my own mind - Day 537

I've been looking at this point for quite a while. In fact, I started looking at it when I saw that I am holding past mistakes against people whom I judged, and in doing so, I saw that I didn't support them to move to a point of change.

For example, the judgement could come through a point of 'expectation' meaning, expecting someone to not change because their past action showed  that their application can't be trusted. I saw that I was expecting people to fail in changing a pattern they have been struggling to change and instead of holding their utmost potential of who they are, I've been reacting to the fact they haven't been changing.

But interestingly enough - what I did not see was how at the same time I've been expecting them to fail, I failed. That was because I always reacted to them not changing lol. And in that reaction, I didn't move myself to a point of change in the sense of stop reacting and stand as a point of support for them, with the pattern they are struggling to change.

IN other words, it was never about them not changing, it was about me not changing that I was mostly reacting to.

In looking at these things, another question came up. I usually don't ask metaphysical level questions because I can't answer the questions for myself but this one was interesting because the possibility the answer was 'yes' was big enough motivation for me to explore this option. I asked: "Is the reason why they don't change is because I'm not changing my reaction to them not changing?"

So now that the focus shifted completely to me I was looking at my self-honesty, responsibility and empowerment, and asked: where do I keep myself captive in my own mind? What are the patterns that I'm struggling to change? What ideas or judgement do I have about myself through which I keep myself locked in my own mind?

I turned the point back to myself and explored and still exploring and investigating the moments of self-judgement where I keep myself captive in my own mind and thus not allowing myself any moment of grace that could actually lead to a point of real time change.

It is actually this blog post that is the introduction to a blog series that I wrote: "Do I have the right to judge myself?". I will continue discussing and sharing more as it comes and for now, let's have a look or even make a list of all the moments we've been keeping ourselves captive in our minds due to self-judgement we've accepted and allowed to beLIEve to be real. Then, we'll set ourselves free from our own judgement with the support of specific self-help tools we can each apply for ourselves - Self Forgiveness, commitment to change and most importantly, the follow through with our commitment to change until we have, no matter how long it will take.

Thanks.

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Artist: Simon Birch

Is it too late? Day 527

Sometimes in my life, I find myself in a point of self-blame, regrets and self-judgements for the mistakes that I've done. By mistakes I mean - saying or doing things I should not have said/do, that caused a friction and sabotaged a particular relationship. Or things I haven't said or done, that I should have said or do to potentially prevent negative consequences from manifesting.

But what is the point of going into self-blame, regrets and self-judgements if we do not learn or make any effort to truly change? I've been looking at this question lately and here is what I have found:

We normally reflect back on our lives when negative consequences are showing themselves in our reality - this is where the self-blame, regrets and self-judgements experience start, along with the energy that it carry around the whole body.

It feels 'Icky' and uncomfortable and this can go on and on, so long as we still accepting the self-blame, regrets and self-judgements as valid and allowing the experience to continue inside of ourselves, without giving ourselves supportive direction. With accepting and allowing the energetic experience, we are essentially punishing ourselves for the mistakes that we have made and at the same time, we do not learn from our mistakes. Thus, we are continuing this vicious cycle that we never step out from.

The Irony is that in self-honesty, regret makes us feel good about ourselves - it gives us the idea that we are taking responsibility for the mistakes. It is like almost a belief that because we are able to feel regret, we must be good because  bad people wouldn't give a damn and never take responsibility. Though, by accepting and allowing regret, we don't take self-responsibility for the mistakes like for instance:
1. Mapping out the event

2. Investigating the time lines

3. Slowing down to see the reactions that we accepted and allowed inside of ourselves

4. Practically learning to be able to correct our application when the next window of opportunity arrive.

Another point to looks at in self-honesty - when we judge and blame ourselves, we unconsciously believe that we are good people. We stand as our own judge, we put ourselves in trial, we are judged by the judge who is ourselves and we get punished. Once the punishment has been served, we could then be at peace with ourselves - we are forgiven by god in a way. Only the good people are forgiven by god.

Alright so by now it is becoming clear that feeling regret and blaming/judging ourselves is useless and counterproductive. Feeling regret, judging and blaming ourselves, doesn't bring us closer to the real root cause of the problem that we are facing. For the most part, as I just explained, it only makes us feel better about ourselves and that's as far as it actually goes. I mean, if it would take us to a point of correction, if it would motivate us to make real time change then sure, it can be valid. But as long we continue the vicious cycle of making mistake -> regret/blame/judgment -> feeling good about ourselves -> making another mistake, it will reach a point of being 'too late'.

So now what?

When or as you realize you made a mistake, or when the consequences have manifested, and the regret/blame/judgement start to come up and take over your mind -> STOP for a moment, TAKE a breath and FORGIVE yourself. Forgiveness would be the KEY, the foundation from which you are able to move yourself towards the a solution, towards a change. What do I mean by that? Well, why won't you find out for yourself? Here is a link to a self-development FREE course where you are able to learn about self-forgiveness and how to effectively apply forgiveness in your reality - DIP Lite.

Meanwhile, you can also leave a message at the comment section to continue this discussion.

The Door is open - will you walk through it? - Day 445

Sometimes in our processes, we face moments where we either fall or we stand; where we either go back to our preprogram life path or we stand by principle; These moments I define as 'Open Door' where one will either walk through the door or close it and never look back.

When these doors open, it is an opportunity for self to test oneself in one's physical reality where one brings into physical manifestation the words that one claims to stand within and as. These 'tests' are fundamental points in one's process where one can assess oneself and one's living application in terms of who one is and what one stands for.

 

Walking through these doors is very easy as the doors take one to one's preprogram life path where one's patterns are playing out automatically and before one notices, one's mind takes over and it's done; the decision to fall was made;

Shutting down the door so absolute is a different story; it is the most 'difficult' decision one could face as the mind would do everything possible to stay 'alive' so to speak and keep one in one's preprogram life path; the physical reality would present itself in a glorified way, where all one desires are playing out in one single moment and saying 'no' or 'stop' to all of these potential desire manifestations takes a lot from self.

 

The fascinating thing is that when these doors open, one can clearly see everything, both the physical reality and the imaginary reality; one can see all the play-outs, outcomes and consequences; Now here, one is working with Energy where the play-outs of one's desire as imagination would carry a positive charge (Positive feelings) which is exactly what one's mind require to sustain itself. At the same time, there is a point of hidden stability, a point of direct seeing, a point of self - there one can find a key to shut down the door. Here, there is no energy, there is a principle as who one is and what one stands for and as.

 

The problem is that energies are what we have become, it is what we used to in a way and when these energies flow around the body, presenting itself in a very delightful way, the belief of wanting to following these energies can cause one to indulge in one's imagination and 'see' the positive play-outs that one is projecting in one's mind - this is where we usually fall and walk through the door, walk into our desires, our preprogram life path.

 

However, we all have access to the core of our beingness on some level; we all can make the decision of who we are and what we stand for in every single moment and what ever we decide, we must accept that it is us who made the decision. When one is close to make the decision to stop, shut the door and stand, one would find all sorts of thoughts/feelings/emotions coming up as one had program oneself to do everything possible to continue one's life path. Here, the secret is within self - to realize that 'It is me who makes the decision now'; 'It is me who has the power to decide'; 'It is me HERE'.

 

Practical support for such moments - Stand within yourself and apply immediate Self Forgiveness and Realign your commitments; You must be absolutely clear within yourself because otherwise, the mind would find a point to take you back because this is how we programmed our mind to act. Again, this won't be easy but it would be worth it because than you know - it was you who made the decision as a directive principle of who you are and what you stand for.

 

 

 

From Dependency to Independency - Day 439

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to be dependent on another to direct points 'for' me instead of expanding myself by seeing, observing and learning how to effectively direct points, through the example of another. In this, I forgive myself that I've not accepted and allowed myself to realize that by creating a dependency on another to direct points 'for' me, I am limiting myself in the belief that I'm Inferior and unable to effectively direct points myself.

 

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to not Trust myself for being able to effectively direct specific points and thus, believed that I'm dependent on another to direct specific points 'for' me and within the distrust of myself, I haven't allowed myself to expand myself, to expand the way I look at things, expand the way I observe people, situations and events and accordingly, develop a direct seeing of what is here and how to effectively direct that which is here as an expression of myself.

 

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to within the belief of not being able to direct a specific situation with another human being, to in fact physically live this belief of myself as my living application which within that, I would accept and allow myself to build up and accumulate energy as emotions such as frustration, resentment, anger and judgment towards the being without realizing that I must first direct these points within myself to ensure that when I look again at the points, I see what is really physically presented here and accordingly, effectively direct the points if/when the point still require direction.

 

I commit myself to when and as I see a point that require direction, to first turn the point back to myself and direct within myself any and all sort of reactions I have towards the point. Then, to unconditionally place myself in the shoes of another and assess whether the point still require direction and if so - direct when the moments present itself.

 

I commit myself to NOT accept and allow myself to limit myself within the belief that I'm not able to effectively direct a point because I realize that within the belief of not being able to direct specific point, I'm giving my power to my mind where I would start accumulating and build up all sort of energetic reactions, which creates a smoke screen from which I'm literally unable to see what is really here, what requires direction and what would be the best approach to/when directing a specific point.
 

I commit myself to no longer accept and allow myself to depend on another to direct points 'for' me but to instead slowly but surely develop direct seeing skills through which I would allow myself to direct points within myself and my environment as an expression of who I am within the principle of 'what is best for all'. I realized that creating dependency towards another to direct points 'for' me is a limitation of myself as I haven't given me the opportunity to face the point myself, investigate who I am in relation to the point ,what can I learn from it so that I could also stand as a point of direction when/if the moment requires direction.

 

Please also listen to – Independence - 2013 - The Future of Consciousness - Part 33

Manipulation - the Art of Control - Day 418

Continuing with discovering the Art of Control that we so much got used to and without our direct awareness are walking our life within the starting point of Control. In the Previous 2 blogs I was showing examples of how we control specific situations in our lives, as a reaction within ourselves to a specific outcome and how little do we actually embrace moments in assisting and supporting ourselves to step out of our mind and actually investigate and discover who we are in relation to these moments.

 

Today, I will share a short story of a moment that had happened a few weeks ago, a moment that opened up for me an entire ray of pre-programming that I became aware of.

Esteni and I went to the mall and while we were driving there, I remembered that I needed to also buy a fabric softener in a specific store. To understand the time line of events, I have to give you an idea about this mall lol. This mall is not structured effectively from the perspective of - to cross the mall from one end to the other, you have to walk quite a bit and if you don't have much time, you have to calculate everything specifically to be able to manage your time effectively. The store that I wanted to go to is in the other side of where Esteni and I planned to go to and so, I asked Esteni: "Where do you want to park the car?" but what I really wanted to say was: "please park in the under parking because I need to buy a fabric softener". Before she answered my questioned, I made sure that I will get the answer that I wanted to get and to thus, control the decision to suite my momentary desire. So I said to her: "I'm asking because I would like to go to Dis-chem to buy a fabric softener". Esteni said "Ok" and I felt quiet weird within myself so I took a moment to investigate why the hell I couldn't be direct? Why wasn't I direct by saying: "please park in the under parking because…"?

 

When investigating the point I have realized that: "OMG" my entire design of communication is of Control and to Control I had to use manipulation. One would think that this is not a big point because no one is getting hurt from such "small manipulation" though, looking at my entire life, how I communicated with people, how I tend to get what I wanted without being direct, by manipulating my environment to get this "little" points as a desired outcome of events.

 

So I kept investigating and I looked at fears from the perspective of - What is the Fear through which I have programmed myself to communicate indirectly with other human? Is it that bad to get 'No' as an answer? Is my Ego will crash if I be direct and get a 'No' as an answer? Is it that I fear that others will see me as control freak? Is it that I don't want to be perceived pushy?  Gush, this was a revealing point in my process - to see how I have structured my communication with people by manipulating moments to be able to control a moment according to how I wanted the moment to play out.

 

Obviously there are many dimensions that are connected to the pattern of not being direct in a communication, which I will write about in the future though, here, what we must become aware of is our tendency to indirectly attempt to control a moments.

 

The fascinating thing was that - when I shared with Esteni what I've seen myself doing, she suggested that I will correct the statement and ask her directly to park in a specific place. You cannot believe how hard it was for me. I felt embarrassed to speak the question directly; I have tried so many times to structure one simple question in a direct way and nothing authentic came up. This showed my how rooted this design is within me - this is how I have expressed myself throughout my entire life so now when I attempted to speak directly, I met with resistance because, as all of us know, change usually start with resistance. So now that the point is 'here', I'm assisting and supporting myself to change the design that I've created as myself and be direct in my communication - there is no magic cure, it is a process that started with a decision to will myself to be direct with myself and others and I commit myself to moment by moment assist and support myself to change my living application, as a living expression of myself where I no longer accept and allow myself to communicate indirectly but instead, assisting and supporting myself to stand as expression of integrity in every given moment within clear and direct communication.

Learning to Accept myself - Practical Application (Part 3) Day 413

Within my process of walking self acceptance, I've realized how I have separated myself from everything of me that I judged, and within that judgment, I couldn't practically change because I didn't accept that which I've judged as a part of who I have become. I tried to resist it, not realizing that I'm resisting myself; I've tried to suppress it, not realizing that I'm suppressing myself; I've tried to ignore it, not realizing that within that ignorance, there is no space for real change.

 

Walking Self Acceptance practically implies that I must transform every single point of self judgment to a point of change and to do so, I must first accept that this point that I'm judging, is me and because it is me, I have the power to change myself within the principle of investigate all things and keep that which is best for all.

Here, one must realize that it is not just working with the negative judgment of ourselves, it is also to investigate the positive judgment we have of ourselves and see, in self honesty, whether the positive judgment stands as/by the principle of that which is best for all.

 

Within self acceptance, we can quantumize our processes from the perspective of, once we accept that which we judge about ourselves, unconditionally, within the realization that this is 'who I am', even if we don't like what we see within ourselves, it is sill who we are. however, it doesn't mean that we should continue to accept and allow ourselves to remain enslaved to who we have become; this is where self forgiveness within self honesty becomes real and self forgiveness can genuinely applied within an absolute decision to change and become a being that is actually trustworthy. 

 

What I am finding is that once the point of acceptance in relation to even the slightest point I've judged myself, stability exists. Meaning - once I transform the self- judgment into a point of self investigation through accepting that this is who I have been thus far in relation to this slightest point, I create stability within and as me through which I can support myself to unconditionally investigate the point, be honest with myself, forgive myself and make self commitment to change in a physical and practical manner. In doing so, the resistances to open up a point is no longer the directive principle because how can I resist to something that I've consciously accepted as myself within the understanding that through accepting myself, I can practically change within the principle of investigating all things and keep that which is best for all.

 

So, when self judgment comes up, and it doesn't matter what is the source of the judgment, whether it be because we completely fucked up something, whether we made a huge mistake, whether we regret it, whether we blame ourselves - none of that is valid - what is valid is to accept that we fucked up something and made a mistake and within that acceptance investigate how could we have possibly done things differently, how could have we prevented the consequences,  how can we ensure that we won't repeat the same mistake again, what can we learn about ourselves; and from investigating the point, find solutions and commit ourselves to walk the solutions as a living expression of ourselves.

Learning to Accept myself - Practical Application (Part 2) Day 412

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to hold onto ONE memory through which I've judged myself and accordingly, through and within a reaction, made a commitment within and as myself that I will continue to compromise myself within my relationships with others so that I won't have to face the same memory again, not realizing and understanding that making such decision/commitment within and through a reaction is detrimental as I consequentially sabotaged myself and my relationships with others without investigating ALL things and within that, directing myself effectively within the principle of Prevention is the best cure but rather, I accepted and allowed myself to exists within the principle of Reaction as my directive living power.

 

I thus commit myself to when and as an automated behavior is coming up from within me where I would make unconscious decision to compromise and sabotage myself within my relationships to others, to then, stop, investigate, look at the time lines, the memories and past relationships and to accordingly, move and direct myself according to what is best, within the principle of transforming reactions to corrections.

 

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to NOT realize that the way that I live relationships with other human beings in my life is a direct result of the accumulative patterns that I've structured myself  within my relationships with others throughout my life. In this, I forgive myself that I've NOT accepted and allowed myself to Investigate the source/Core/Reasons for why I am forming Dysfunctional relationships in my life and in doing so, recreating dysfunctional relationships and accordingly, change and correct myself as how I have accepted and allowed myself to define myself within my relationships to others and to then thus, establish effective and supportive relationships with other human beings in this world.

 

Thus, I commit myself to investigate who I am in relation to my relationships with other humans beings, what was my starting point within the relationships, what energies I form within these relationships, what is the force that I direct myself within the relationships, etc. and as I investigate each and each all parts of myself in relation to my relationships with others, I then Keep that which is best for all and realign that which do not stand in alignment to the principle I have committed myself to live as.

 

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to separate myself from that which I've judged myself  as, as I see, realize and understand that so long that I judged parts of myself that I dislike in relation to the relationships with other human beings, I separate myself from myself within the attempt to suppress that which I judged myself for, while all along, I recreate the same patterns that I've judged myself for and recreated the same problems as I've NOT accepted and allowed myself to realize that the solution is within self honesty, the solution is within allowing myself to truly investigate that which I've became in separation of myself and to then stand as a living correction, as a foundation through which I could develop and establish effective relationships with other human beings.

 

I forgive myself that I've NOT accepted and allowed myself to realized how I took ONE event, ONE moment, ONE point and made it so big within my mind as if this ONE point is absolute and real and pertain to everything and everyone else without investigating who I am within this ONE point/memory/event, what was the TIME LINE that led to this one point, what can I learn about myself and others from this ONE point and so forth. Within that, I forgive myself that I've NOT accepted and allowed myself to realize that defining myself and my relationships upon ONE single point is counterproductive within the understanding that ONE point doesn't stand alone as one point in space/time as this was created over time by accumulated moments by moments and within that, I haven't realized that looking at only this one point and disregarding everything that had accumulated into this one point is quite a consequential.

 

Thus, I commit myself to expand the way I investigate points, insist on the time line, on the moments by moments that had led to a consequential outcome. I commit myself to push myself to look at ALL things and keep that which is best for all as a living expression of myself. In this, I commit myself to when and as I react to what I perceive to be 'ONE' point, to remind myself that a reaction is bases on accumulative moments that I haven't directed myself effectively and thus, I stand within self responsibility and investigate the time line that had led me to react within and as myself and to then thus, correct my living application.

Learning to Accept myself - Practical Application (Part 1) Day 411

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to value what others think about me or more specifically, what I believed that others thinks of me and through this perceived value, I would then judge myself positively or negatively and created an idea of myself, in my own mind as to either being accepted or unaccepted by others through which I either accepted or unaccepted myself.

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to take one moment of when another was reacting to me, and in that moment, take the other personally and so placed an imaginary shield within myself, believing that this person was no longer accepting me and thus, I must walk away from this relationship. In that, I forgive myself that I've NOT accepted and allowed myself to see, realize and understand that reacting and taking things personally, walking away from a relationship/friendship also means that not only I compromise myself in giving power to the thoughts in my mind to define who I am and to then thus, abdicating my responsibility in walking away from the relationship/friendship without introspection/investigation and so, creating the same pattern again in the next relationship/friendship that I start immediately developing.

I forgive myself that I've NOT accepted and allowed myself to realize that as long as I am reacting to another and taking them personally, I cannot practically support them in seeing their self-responsibility within their reactions and thus contributing to the predisposition of our dysfunctional relationship.

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to create a pattern within and as myself wherein the moment I react to another within the context of taking their words personally to then leave, either physically or mentally instead of taking a breath, looking at all things, all relationships, dimensions, play outs, etc. and from that moment of clarity, to then direct myself effectively, stand in self responsibility and if necessary, communicate the point with the other within the starting point of mutual assistance and support.

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to place self value, self worth, self acceptance through other people's eye views without realizing that what I perceived to be the way others are valuing or accepting me is through my own mind, as how I saw myself and through this separation, not realizing that I was my own worst enemy and that I was always the one who in fact sabotaged and compromised myself.

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to see a conflict as the end of a relationship/friendship and so, when and as a conflict was created, I believed the end is close and so, not realizing that through that belief, I have actually created the end of the relationship/friendship slowly but surely made this belief real within and as myself as justification for myself to either run away from the relationship/friendship or unconsciously behave in a way that would literally end the relationship/friendship.

I commit myself to when and as a conflict with another comes up, to then stop any and all participation in reactions within and as myself, breathe, investigate, stand in absolute self responsibility in self honesty and direct myself effectively.

I commit myself to when and as another is making a statement about me, to stop any and all reactions that come up from within me, ask the person to clarify the statement and investigate in self honesty who I am within that statement, what is the context of which the statement was said and thus, I commit myself to make assumptions in my own mind as to what the person meant but to instead, be direct, clarify the point and if there is a problem to then find and walk solution that is best.

I realize that within self acceptance - no matter what another is saying to or towards me, nothing within me moves as I take in the information, assess, investigate and check the information, who I am in relation to the information and accordingly, trust myself to direct myself to the utmost potential in any moment of breath. I commit myself to stop sabotaging myself through and within taking another personally and thus, I commit myself to transform these reactions into solutions through effective communication.

Life without Fears start with a Decision - Day 361

This is a continuation to the Previous blog: The Compartment of Now - Day 359 and Establishing an Effective management system - Day 360 where we have seen how Fears play a role in our lives and within that, how ineffective we have become with the blindly acceptance and allowance of existing with fears within every moment we breathe in till the last moment we breathe out, at death. 

 

By now, it is clear as crystal that if we really want to change the way we approach Life, we must change our relationship to fears as it is our fears from which we base our decisions upon and ironically enough, we have never even considered that it was us who have made the decision to create the fears upon which we would later on base our decision on.

 

Let's go back to the first blog: The Compartment of Now - Day 359 where we have seen how we can look at our lives through the glasses of compartments that represents moments in time, moments that started with us taking a breath in and finished with us taking a breath out. Within each compartment, there are specific things that needs to be done that can be measured and applied by practical actions. So if for instance, we look at the example shared in the blog  Establishing an Effective management system - Day 360 where we were within a compartment of which all we had to do was posting our med school application and thus, this specific compartment ends the moment we posted our enrolment through the mail box. Now, ahead of us are multiple other compartments which for example, one of them was making dinner and cutting some vegetables to make ourselves a salad however, we decided to merged the 2 compartments through allowing fears and worries about whether or not we would be allowed to move to the next phase of med school evaluation and since we haven't being paying attention to the current compartment of a physical action of cutting a vegetable, we cut our self cause our attention was to our minds. Now this is just a simple example of how fears inteFEAR with our day to day living application as we have not understood or have been willing to see the simplistic of walking one breath at a time, one compartment at a time but instead, we live in constant fears as if Breath is equal to fear and instead of walking breath by breath, we walk fear by fear.

 

Wouldn't it make much more sense if we would simply post our med school application and you know, when the result arrive in 6-8 weeks we would face what ever the moment will be within self trust that what ever happen, we would align and adapt ourselves according to what is here, what needs to be done and simply keep on walking?

I mean, is there anything practical we can do within this 6-8 weeks that would change the result? No, we have no longer control over the point so why even bather with worrying about something we have no control over?

 

Unfortunately, we have accepted these fears as our normal behaviour that letting these fears go, may require a radical change in how we approach our lives. For that, we have designed fantastic free online course - DIP Lite where one is able to get to know some basic tools that would allow one to start seeing oneself in a different light; start seeing one's fears as one's current directive force and from that seeing, making the decision of what one would accept and allow and what one would not.

So, an interesting process ahead and if we dare, gift ourselves the gift of Life, the freedom of ForGifting ourselves, oh, I'm sorry, ForGiving ourselves for what we've created as ourselves with no awareness and to then, start living in awareness as the one who decides who we are in every moment of every breath, both in, and out.

 

 

 

The Correction Process and The Desteni Message (Part 10) - Day 207

The Collective Corrective Process

 

This is a continuation to:

The Correction Process and The Desteni Message (Part 1) - Day 198

The Correction Process and The Desteni Message (Part 2) - Day 199

The Correction Process and The Desteni Message (Part 3) - Day 200

The Correction Process and The Desteni Message (Part 4) - Day 201

The Correction Process and The Desteni Message (Part 5) - Day 202

The Correction Process and The Desteni Message (Part 6) - Day 203

The Correction Process and The Desteni Message (Part 7) - Day 204

The Correction Process and The Desteni Message (Part 8) - Day 205

The Correction Process and The Desteni Message (Part 9) - Day 206

 

We are finally in the last part of this blog Series where we are now going to discuss the Collective Correction Process and the Desteni Message.

 

We can all agree that there is a problem in this world. We can all agree that something must be done to minimize as much as possible the abuse, the suffering, the Starvation, the poverty etc.

We all have certain experiences towards this reality - some of our experiences are positive, some our experiences are Negative however, none of our experiences has a direct influencing in bringing about a physical world that is best for all because, as I was showing previously, our experience towards a physical point won't change the physical point, the only thing that would change is our experience that we have associated/connected/defined, within and as ourselves with either a positive energetic charge or a negative energetic charge.

 

At Desteni, we had realized that unless we correct the problem from its origin/source/core, no substantial change is possible because, everything that could have possibly be done, by those who define themselves as good and positive people, was already done and no physical result that is best for all was never seen on earth and thus, the test of time proves that Fixing and Sorting out the manifested consequences, do not ensure that the very same consequences won't emerge again and the fact of the matter is - the living condition of the majority of this world is getting worsen.

 

Thus - The collective Correction Process start with the Individual Corrective Process as was explained in my previous blog: The Correction Process and The Desteni Message (Part 9) - Day 206.

Why? Because, unless we understand the principle of self honesty wherein, we are directly and indirectly responsible for everything that exists and within that, unless we integrate the Principles:

- Give as you would like to receive

- Do unto another as you would like to be done unto you

- Investigate ALL things and keep that which is good for All.

Within and as ourselves, as our physical living expression of ourselves, there is no way we could even grasp what is the origin/source/core of the problem in this world, in its totality and entirety to be able to then thus, take responsibility as individuals, in walking towards a solution in practicality that is best for all.

 

Unfortunately, the individual corrective process cannot be walked by those with no free access to the internet or to a life style that would make it possible for them to invest the necessary time, to get to a level of self introspection that is the foundation of the individual corrective process.

nonetheless, the level of education within this current world system, is keeping the majority of this world limited by not having in place, an effective education system where all are educated in  the very least, in being able to read and write, which is the foundation of what one would require to be able to walk one's individual process of correction.

 

Therefore, we have presented a momentary solution - the Equal Money System to provide/give everyone on earth a life that we would like to receive ourselves, where at the very least - our basic needs are met.

A momentary solution meaning - the Equal Money System will not make a change in the Human Nature Level of responsibility and self honesty as our pre-programming is already so extensive and overriding common sense as we could have seen, for ourselves, through walking this step by step blog series, the extent to which our 'free choice' is not in fact free due to our blinded accepted and allowed programming within and as ourselves. Thus, for a moment, we would first create a platform for the Individual corrective Process through bring this world to a level of Equality that would ensure dignified Life of each and every living being on earth, regardless their willingness to assist and support themselves within and as the Individual Process. We are aware that the individual Corrective process can not be force on anyone as it is an individual decision each must take for themselves because after all - is it about ONE'S self Honesty.

 

The Principle of the Equal Money System is the Collective Correction Process wherein, we locate the Problem, get to its core/source/origin and correct the very foundation of the problem. for instance, Money is the Value we have currently define Life within and as. I mean, If one doesn't have money, one would die as one is not capable to assist and support one's physical human body with the basic requirements such as Food, Water, Health care, housing, and clothes. (Please listen to the song: I finally Understand) Thus, when we change the Value of Money to a value of Life that is best for all where all are equally having access to the world's resources, all have equal access to the basic necessities to sustain a dignified and worthy Life, we remove the consequences of Starvation, poverty, diseases etc.

If you trace each and every point in this world that manifest problematic consequences, we find that Money, in some way or another is involved and thus, when Money is Equal to Life that is best for all and no longer utilized for the sake of Competition, Survival, corruption etc. we would see in no time, that the world is in one step towards a world that is best for all, practically.

 

Understand that the collective correction Process include everyone, and you as well. We cannot correct this world alone, we must stand up as a united group, strong and effective so that we can together, change this world from its very core, to a manifested consequences that are Best for all lives.

 

And again, remember, it has nothing to do with being positive or Negative - it is to dare to see the problems and fix its root to first stop the manifested consequences that are not in alignment to that which is best for all which from there, we decide together, how to create a world that is best where no more abuse would be allowed in any way whatsoever.

 

Thus, the correction Process -> when and as there is a problem, we investigate what is the source/root/core/origin of the problem and we work it out from there, step by step, point by point, in always making sure that the outcome would be that which is best for all and when it's not, we go back to locate the core/source/root/origin and walk the correction process again, until everything is aligned and the outcome is an outcome that we can all be satisfied with, within and as the principles of:

- Give as you would like to receive

- Do unto another as you would like to be done unto you

- Investigate ALL things and keep that which is good for All.

 

There is a lot to be done and our journey is extensive. When and as you join, the journey will be shorter. The shorter it is, the less pain and suffer for everyone but at the end - it is always you that decide.

Be the Key; get to know yourself, our world and will yourself to accordingly take responsibility and walk the correction process, individually and collectively.

 

Please thoroughly investigate Desteni, DiP Lite, DIP Pro, Equal Money System and EQAFE.

When or if points of resistance comes up from within you, Stop, Breathe, and read this blog series again, to remind yourself that the resistance is nothing but a program that you have created within and as yourself.

Support yourself, support the group of humanity and lets walk this, until we are done.

 

Thank you!

Bring the point back to self - Day 141

To understand the context of this blog, please read first - Who will take the blame - Day 140

 

 

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to react in anger towards those who cannot hear the message of what is best for all in general and the EMS in particular and within that, I have not accepted and allowed myself to see, realize and understand that each one of us is a victim to our own brainwashed programming that we have came to be and accordingly, I forgive myself that I've NOT accepted and allowed myself to remind myself that it also took me a physical space time application to be able to hear the Desteni message and re-educate myself.

 

I see, realize and understand that it will take time and consistent application to educate the world within the principle of what is best for all and I realize that when and as I react and not standing in stability as the directive principle, I'm directly and indirectly, sabotaging not only myself but the beings I communicate with as I'm not standing as unconditionally support for them to be able to hear the message through placing myself in their shoes, equal and one, to see where they are within the existential process and direct the point as effective as possible, breath by breath.

 

I commit myself to when and as I see myself reacting in anger towards those who do not agree with EMS, to Stop, to Breathe, and to see where the being is in their existential process. I give myself the permission to remain quiet or to speak directly according to what I see would be the best in that moment as I see, realize and understand the programming that involved and what is require to be done in order to assist and support the beings I communicate with.

 

 

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to experience inferiority when and as people that I communicate with justify their point of view with history and because my knowledge and information about history is lacking, I experience myself as adequate to communicate and explain the EMS message.

 

I now see, realize and understand that the Living experience of this current world is the consequences of our acceptance and allowances throughout history and therefor, we are the living memory of our History. Within that, knowing the details of the History is irrelevant because what is relevant is that which is here and there is no doubt that what is here is not a world that is best for all.

 

I commit myself to when and as I experience inferiority within and as myself due to having lack of knowledge and information about History when communicating about the EMS, to stop, take a breath and remind myself that we are the living memory of our history and what is require to be done is change the current living experiences of this world as it is not a world that is best for all. Within that, I commit myself to direct the communication with Common Sense, step by step according to the equality equation which means that when I communicate with people that disagree to the EMS, to walk with them the common sense time line through which they would be able to see why and how the EMS is the only solution that is possible on earth as the initial step to bring about a world that is best for all.

 

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to judge myself for not being able to bring through a direct communication that people would see the common sense in the EMS and within that, I forgive myself that I've NOT accepted and allowed myself to realize that the reason why I wasn't able to bring through a direct communication with regards to EMS was because I wasn't standing within and as myself, as communication but rather, tried and attempted to justify and defend myself, as I accepted and allowed myself to separate myself from what is here as well as the people I was communicating with by missing a breath.

 

I see, realize and understand that when I miss a breath and communicate in separation from myself through reaction, I compromise myself, the beings I communicate with as I've abdicated my responsibility to stand in stability, common sense living application, breath by breath and direct the moment effectively.

 

I commit myself to when and as I see myself accessing a defensive mode within my communication with other beings, to stop, to breath and direct the moment as effective as possible according to what is see as best for all in every given moment.

Who will take the blame - Day 140

 

 

For context, please read Day 139: The Rapture and True Activism

 

Today I had a conversation with relatively, very rich people. They were asking me what am I doing on the Farm, what is our agenda, how are we going to pull it through and so on.

The interesting point was that no matter what I've said, they would come up with excuses and justification for why it wouldn't work, why I should focus on charities and medical aid in small villages in Africa and why am I wasting my time while I could do something else.

 

The point where I stopped the communication was when I've noticed that they are trying and attempting to find blame/fault in others for why they wouldn't change and stand up if others won't change and stand up because if they would change and stand up and others won't, others would use and abuse them according to their eye's view.

 

So who will take the Blame? Who will see and realize it is those who can hear the message that must stand up, regardless of whether or not others would change? Who would take the blame and bring it back to self and become a living example in this world? Who would allow oneself to see what self has accepted and allowed in this world and accordingly, walk the path into correction, internally and externally?

 

It is all about rewards and what we will not do because others won't do. Unconditional walking was never part of our living application. Why is it that 'what is best for all' is not part of the education? Why is it that all we ever taught was to take care of our assess while always finding something to blame for our experiences and the experiences of others?

 

In my next blogs, I will walk the Self Forgiveness application in relation to my reactions towards in my environment who would disagree and dismiss the EMS and Desteni and within that, turn the point back to myself. Because what is clear is that if I were stable within and as myself, I wouldn't react in my communication and was able to direct the point regardless of the others' words and deeds. I suggest also reading - Equal Money System? No… It's not going to work  - Day 60

 

 

The Decision of TIME - Day 67

This is a continuation to:

The Elite's delusion of stress - Part 1 - Day 45

The Elite's Delusion of Stress - Part 2 - Day 46

I forgive myself that I've NOT accepted and allowed myself  to see in self honesty that my decision of walking in every moment of every breath according to principle of that which is best for all, wasn't absolutely clear, because if it was, I wouldn't have spend time in Backchat, internal conversations and thoughts within and as me.

I forgive myself that I've NOT accepted and allowed myself to see how deceptive the statement of " I don't have time" is because if I play with the variables and add Money to the equation as a reward for my good work, I would simply walk all my tasks until they are done and perhaps I even would have take more tasks on myself, to increase the rewards (Money) and I would still won't make the statement "I don't have time to do everything".

I forgive myself that I've NOT accepted and allowed myself in self honesty, to see, realize and understand that when I allow myself to participate in the statements: "OMG, I don't have time, I will not make it, I don't have time for myself", I'm actually wasting my time in thoughts, emotions and feelings instead of standing up, delete the experience of stress, self victimization and simply direct myself as effectively as possible, breath by breath.

I forgive myself that I've NOT accepted and allowed myself to see, realize and understand that if my decision to walk in every breath according to that which is best for all was clear, I wouldn't have accepted and allowed myself to be stressed and nervous about not having enough time during the day because clearly, I did have time to participate in backchat. What I'm showing here to myself is that when and as I allow the thought "I don't have time,  omg" to come up from within me - what I know is that I wasn't breathing, I wasn't clear in my starting point and that I must take a step back, realign myself back to myself and my decision and to accordingly walk my day to day responsibilities, breath by breath until it's done.

I forgive myself that I've NOT accepted and allowed myself  to consider that when I experience my day to day tasks as a burden within and as myself, I'm not in fact here within and as my human physical body but rather somewhere in my mind, missing a breath. And within that, I forgive myself that I've NOT accepted and allowed myself to red flag the experience of burden within and as myself in relation to my day to day tasks because the very fact that I gave permission to the experience should worry me as it is indicating that my initial decision of walking those tasks was not done from the starting point of what is best for all but as a point of self interest to be able to reward myself with Energy that I would get from others, who would validate and approve me according to what I do.

I forgive myself that I've NOT accepted and allowed myself to see, realize and understand that if I compare the amount of my daily tasks with the tasks that others have, I'm not in fact standing clear within my decisions of walking my daily tasks because if I would have a clear starting point, what others do or not, wouldn't influence me in anyway whatsoever and I would focus on my breath by breath living application and walk my daily task in the utmost effective way possible regardless of the others.

I forgive myself that I've NOT accepted and allowed myself to see, realize and understand that some of my tasks might be lagged as there is so much that one can do within each and every breathe and thus, instead of judging myself for not having it all done, I direct myself to assess in self honesty whether I was effective throughout the day and if not, I investigate where, when and how I wasn't absolutely directing myself effectively  to be able to correct my living application and change that which required to be changed;

I commit myself to realign my starting point within everything that I do according to that which is best for all. When and as I see energy movement as frustration, stress, burden, anxiety, comparison and judgement, I stop, I bring myself back to this physical reality, I ground the energy back to earth and I direct myself to apply myself, as the expression of who I am, breath by breath.

I see, realize and understand that my starting point thus far wasn't clear as I've accepted and allowed back chat to exists within and as me. I take responsibility to investigate and introspect in self honesty and through a process of self forgiveness, to then thus, stop indulging into self interest desire for a reward and instead, to move and direct myself as who I am, as life that is best for all, in every moment of every breath.

I commit myself to stop the back chats that I've automated in separation of me, as I see the consequences of allowing backchat for myself and this world. Every moment that I spend in my mind, is another moment that I could have done something that actually has value in this world, it is another moment that someone is dying from starvation and it is another moment that I've separated myself from myself and this existence as a whole.

I commit myself to assess my days every night before I go to sleep and to check in self honesty the level of effectiveness that I've walked throughout the day and accordingly take responsibility, correct and change.