And again… - Day 276

Today I've noticed an interesting Design that I've accepted and allowed myself to participate with. In the last few days, I was resonantly possessed. I didn't slow myself down enough to specify the possession in assisting and supporting myself to step out of it and thus, it had slowly but surely accumulated till there was no more excuses and justification to not sort this out.

 

It all started last week when we had a power cut for 3 days and I couldn't participate with my regular daily responsibilities which caused a lag throughout this week, after the power came back. I'm still pushing to catch up on all the points but I haven't got to everything because my normal routine is quite hectic in itself and to add to this 3 days of no work is almost impossible but absolutely doable.

 

Yesterday, around the evening, the possession started kicking in  but I was so busy that I couldn't find a moment to investigate it properly. I had an idea of what it is all about but I haven't made the directive decision to in fact step out of it but instead, decided to suppress it for a moment without considering the consequences that would manifest with such deliberate suppression.

 

I woke up today in tremendous irritation to the extent of reacting to whom ever was in my direct view. It didn't take long to see that the possession is now very much defined and has to do with self validation.

In my mind, I started to Compare myself to others, trying to justify why I should feel sorry for myself and how unfair it is that I don't have a moment for myself for more than a week. I blamed myself for the decisions that I made throughout the week and the Extra Responsibilities that I took on. When I realized that I'm busy comparing, I directed myself to STOP but, it came up again. And so I stopped again, and it came up again. It was round about 3-4 hours until I could STOP in a moment of absolute decision to stop. 

 

I reminded myself that I've seen this character before, that I've walked the entire personality system in specificity and thus, it was time to apply the Practical corrective application and to literally Stop. But it didn't stop because I've missed a point/layer within this personality which is Competition for Self Validation.

 

Have a look at how manipulative is this design -

When I compared myself to others, I was actually competing with Others in my mind in looking at who is better than me, who is lesser than me; Who is Superior to me and who is Inferior to me; in that, I could place me on a polarity scale and stand in a position of being MORE than and accordingly, secretly accept myself as worthy. It was such a secret that I it didn't even make me feel better lol - I was still irritated, angry and frustrated.

(The story of how I practically assisted and supported myself to step out of the repetitive thought pattern will be shared in blogs to come as I see now that there is more to investigate and I require deep self introspection, which I will first walk for myself, in making sure that the pattern is in fact deleted and I haven't created another entity for myself.

 

What I am able share today is some rhetorical questions that I asked myself through which I could see the stupidity that I've accepted and allowed myself to participate with.

So I asked myself: how is it possible that you have placed yourself as more than in your own mind and yet, it didn't change the internal experience? What worth does superiority has if inside, I feel like shit, irritated, angry and frustrated? What does it shows about WHO I AM if and when I accept and allow myself to only validate me through competing and comparing myself to others? What does the back chat expose about my starting point of what I do as Who I am?

 

The reason why I used the word 'Rhetorical' is because the answers to these questions are very clear to me. The Real Questions that I'm yet to answer to myself in self honesty are WHY and HOW it is that I didn't stand as the directive principle, as a decision, as breath and STOP the participation in the thought pattern the first moment I saw myself accessing this time loop?

 

I'm aware and understand that there are Mind Systems that works in the background and support the possession that I was in. fine. I cannot use it as an excuse though and I will not justify myself through the systems because who if not me were the one who accepted and allowed such systems in the first place?

 

So, this blog is not the end of the story but the tip of the iceberg. It is up to me now to make sure I walk through this point because I really had enough from me repeating the same patterns that do not support myself and others in any way whatsoever.

So stay tuned as I commit myself to further expand on this point, first with myself and when I have absolute clarity, I'll share.

 

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Note, the Mind system that I was referring to can be studied by listening to:  Quantum Mind - Self Awareness - Part 43 that was done yesterday, along with Quantum Systemization Repetitive Thought-Pattern Control System - Part 13

 

    

            

Unconditional Giving and Receiving or a Control System? - Day 269

 

 

I'm seeing lately more and more that I've created issues around the Principle of Give as you'd like to Receive which made me look more carefully and deeply into my starting point in relation to living principle of 'Give as you'd like to Receive'. Interestingly enough, the reactions that I experience are more in the context of the Receiver than the Giver however, what is more interesting is that the issues around the Receiver were actually derived from the issues around the Giver.

 

What I've noticed was that when I Receive, I experience discomfort in my body, like anxiety almost. It's like, the moment I receive, I immediately go into the thought domain where I would see all the potentials and possibilities for me to Give back as if now, I must Give something back and unless I Give, I can't fully stand stable, Here, enjoy the moment, breathe - because I must give back.

 

For instance - if let's say, someone is offering to give me a massage because I had back pain or because they discovered a new pressure point in their back and now they want to show me the point while massaging, I go into anxiety. It is very slight anxiety but very much constant. If for instance, someone offers me a coffee or something to eat, I would immediately start calculating whether I should accept it because maybe it means that the next time I make myself a cup of coffee or something to eat, I should ask anyone around me if they would like so too. Or if someone buys me a gift, or a small thing that they know I would be pleased with, the anxiety kicks in again. I would then start calculating how much money I have to be able to gift them something back. And in sex as well, I never really allowed myself to Enjoy being 'treated' because I believed I would have to give back and then, I would give back according to the amount of time that I received. Quite fucked up story.

 

When looking at this point as a design, or the origin of the Design, as everything - all start at home where parents give their children gifts and expect in return the child to either be a good child, to do what was asked them to do, to be who they are expected to be which within that, the Child, as the Receiver feel obligated to Give something back to the parents. Often, the child doesn't really want to do or become what the parent wants them to do, be and become, but they do want to receive the gifts/rewards despite them knowing the Consequences it involves. Slowly but surely the demand from the parents makes the child feel slight anxiety and discomfort that would fade away and suppressed. And so, the Parents would control the child through a rewards system in a disguised of Unconditional Giving and if at any point the child rebel, the parents would always remind the child about the rewards the child had received and all the things the parents did for the child throughout time as a manipulation tactic to bring the Rebellion child back in track.

 

(Will continue in my next blog)

The Drama Queen Painfully calling for Attention - Day 259

What I haven't understood when and as I accessed to the Drama Queen Character is the relationship between the mind and the Physical and within that, the consequences it consists of.

It is interesting that the consequences are always being justified and/or Denied so that we can continue exactly as we always been without ever looking into and as ourselves to find out the core/source/origin of our behaviour, mannerism and attitudes towards ourselves and others.

 

So what is the nature of the Drama Queen? The first point that came up when I started to investigate character was the Desire for attention. It is when one experience oneself as insecure, inadequate and inferior within and as oneself through which one would try and balance oneself through deliberately create scenes, experiences and events that would draw the attention one required to receive from others.

Within and underneath this desire, exists a Fear. (I will get to the Fear Dimension in a moment).

 

For myself, the Drama Queen Personality/Character started in a very young age through creating Physical Painful experiences. What is fascinating is that when I look back at my life - the real Physical pain and consequences were very much in a silent experiences meaning - I would not go to the extreme of screaming and crying because in doing so, the pain increase. So for instance, when I was about 6 years old, I fell down the stairs in a friend's building house. It was a direct fall of one store height which I rolled all the way down. The Consequences of such event were severe. The doctors said to my parents that I lost my sight in my left eye and the chances that I will ever see again are very low. Fortunately, that wasn't so and my sight return to full function. The point is - the experience within myself was of silent. One of the neighbours who heard the fall came out to see what was going on but that was as far as my memory goes. The next thing was my mother taking me to the hospital.

 

Then, in another incident, already in high school - we were taken to a water park and my entire class went to the tubing slider together - we held hands, all connected to each other and I was the last one on the chain of people. Due to the force that was in play, when I got to the first slide curve, still holding hands with the person in front of me, I was pulled down and my body was thrown from head down till my head knocked the floor; I got a concussion and 2 spots on my spine were out. However, also within this, the experience was of silent within me. No screaming, no yelling out laud for attention. Can't remember the next scene in details. All I remember was 6 months of physiotherapy recovery after that event.

 

But now, when I go back to the memory I shared yesterday, about the 3 stairs that I fell from in the school yard - man, I made a huge scene. I remember it almost to the specific details because I knew that I was making a scene and by the time that I realized what I was doing, my Ego couldn't let me just go away with it - so I continued, trying to make it real so that I won't be judged as someone that yells 'wolf' while there is no wolf around.

 

Thus, what is interesting here is to see how I would create scenes for me to be the main star, through utilizing 'human compassion' when they see someone gets hurt. I guess it is also a cultural thing - in Israel, people are very compassionate when they see someone get hurts in front of their eyes. However for instance, when I was in Prague, I saw someone falls down on the street and I was the only one who approached him.

 

But the specific point that I'm looking at here is how I would deliberately create pain or injury for myself to get attention and within that, the extent that I would take my body through, just for the sake of the attention I may receive. I mean - this is cruel self abuse even though it had never manifested to the extreme of real physical damage. Who knows what I would have done to myself if I haven't faced this point now? This is why it is crucial to move from a reaction to correction so that I won't have to face this point physically but rather, prevent the consequences because there is no real reason to manifest such things in one's life.

 

Will walk the Self Forgiveness and Self Commitments in tomorrow's blog so stay tuned.

 

Just another Drama Queen - Day 258

 

 

So a point opened up yesterday - I was off, down, without any specific reason, nothing really happened but the general Experience was of a mini Depression. For a moment, I allowed it, I justify it, tried to avoid it, saying to myself that I'm tired because it is extremely hot. The fact that my body is well adjust to heat and that the heat in South Africa is 'nothing' in comparison to Israel wasn't relevant in my eye's view.

I had pain in my upper leg which again, I justified it as a physical point that manifested due to me pushing myself in aerobic exercises. And again, the excuse was that "I need to take a day off from practicing, my body is showing me that I need to rest. it must have been because I pushed to hard in the last exercise session"'.

 

But, I am 'Lucky' to live in a supportive environment that would expose me to my own dishonesties and would 'force' me to a level of self honesty to see the real core/source point that I'm facing which I haven't sorted out as an indication of a physical consequences that manifested in my upper leg. So, Esteni came to see me and while we were discussing the system that were busy showing itself on my upper leg, I was looking at the core/origin/source point that I've accepted and allowed within myself. I saw a few dimensions that I haven't considered before within my application but the main point I would like to speak about today is my Need to Create a Drama when everything is OK.

 

It's like - Everything was fine, things works and I am becoming more effective within my time management which gave me a few hours during the day without any particular responsibility I had walk BUT, without having to work, my mind went into a shock and immediately I created a fake Drama for me to participate with. Which is fascinating because the few hours that suddenly cleared up on my Schedule, which was a shock to my systems,  wasn't something I prepared myself for; it was something out of my ordinary routine and so - instead of moving and directing myself, I allowed myself to follow my mind into fear of - "is this what I'm going to do for the rest of my life? Is it possible that I will have moments without having anything particular to do? Are you sure there isn't something I must do now? How can it be that I have a free moment for myself? Maybe I forgot something? There must be something that I've missed.. And so - from not having any particular task to do, and seeing everyone around me busy, I went into the Fear of my Future - to now think about: "what am I going to do with my life? Will I have a partner in my life? Who is a good candidate for a relationship? Can it be Here or would I have to leave the farm to find a partner in Israel? But maybe I should go to Prague? Or the US? or Canada or Mexico"? Man - my mind went into so many directions - everything but to simply be here, appreciate the moment of nothingness, breathe and be OK with myself without having to do anything..

 

So in essence - this train of thoughts was a distraction, was how I've programmed myself to react when I have a moment for myself and how I would occupied myself in my mind to avoid a moment of intimacy with myself by simply be 'here'. When I snapped out of this mind fuck and re-aligned my starting point through removing all the mind distraction I found an interesting design - the Drama Queen Character.

 

A few years back, I when I was just starting my 'real' independent life, I worked in a company where one of my Co-Workers ALWAYS had a Drama in her life. In comparison to her, my life was a complete boring story. My house was a few blocks from work and we spent lots of time in my house after work. Each day, she would tell me another Dramatic story from the Previous day. I was Jealous because I was bored and I also wanted to have stories to share. You know the saying: be careful what you wish for? Lol  I manifested the Drama that I wished to have but only if I knew that Drama, isn't pleasant in most cases.

 

But when I go back to my memories, the Drama Queen character was always active to a certain degree. I remember one day, grade 5, I fell down to the ground from a small platform. I mean, really small - it was only 3 stairs away from the ground. The platform was in the path between my class room and the teacher lounge.

When I fell down, I started screaming so laud so that all the teacher could hear me, and all the kids would feel sorry for me. Basically, I wanted the attention.

 

So, within my next blogs to come, I'll open up this point in more details to stop the sabotage cycle that I accepted and allowed through the creation of the Drama Queen Character and within that, assist and support myself in becoming Ok and intimate with myself. Now within that context, intimacy isn't from a sexual perspective, it is a relationship with myself of appreciation, care and respect. 

 

 

Coincidences or a Mind Fuck? Day 257

You know when you think about someone from your past and than, a few days after you hear about them, or they contact you? or when you think about something and the moment after someone comes and shared with you about what they were thinking and then you like - 'oh, wow, I just thought about the same thing'.

Or when you felt that something specific is about to happen and when it does, you like - 'OMG, I knew It'.

 

Have you noticed how much time and thoughts one invest when such moments occur? How one analyse it and talk about and go off into one's mind and look at it, create assumptions, ideas, interpretations?

And if that occur a few times and let's say that for instance, one and another always think about the same things, 'feel' each other and then create this special bond, connection between each other and one would speak about it, and share about it with others and feel so special.

 

But also, one would wonder in one's mind whether or not such things have a meaning, purposes; One would wonder whether it has to do with one's developed awareness or sensitivity to things; One would wonder about it A LOT in one's mind and would occupied oneself in a few occasions during one's day.

 

What I've noticed for myself the other day when I thought about something I would like doing and in the next moment, a friend came to me and suggested we will do the same thing I was just thinking about. We were making fun of it, saying that it must had happened because we are now aligned after the 21th December thing but in a way, it wasn't funny because we missed the point of self introspection and self responsibility within the principle of investigate all things and keep that which is good; I simply let it go.

 

But later on, I did find myself looking at this point while I was cleaning the floors; I was thinking about the tendency that I have lately to be more aligned with other people in terms of thoughts.

HOWEVER - I immediately could see, realize and understand how easy it is to fuck with myself because have a look - I was cleaning the floor, and instead of actually Breathe through this entire process and stand as the directive principle in every movement I make, I went of to my mind, wondered about this "ability" to be aligned with other people mind. I mean, come 'on - seriously, was I that stupid believing myself that I was aligned with other people minds while I am in my mind, not standing here, firm, stable, breathing, directing each and every moment?!

 

The Point that I would like to bring to this blog to expand our awareness to how easy it is for us to slip into our minds, where we wonder about things, think about stuff and within that completely miss a breath, miss a moment of opportunity to really be 'Here', one and equal to each and every movement we make.

It is so easy to occupy ourselves in our mind, imagining things, playing scenes, having internal conversations with ourselves and others in our minds. In that, we miss the actual Questions we must ask ourselves -

 

So for instance, with this coincident/alignment with other's mind - what we should ask ourselves is: How this application can assist and support me? How being aligned with another minds can result with an outcome that would be best for all? Why is it that I'm aligned with one's or two people minds and I'm not able to be aligned with everything that exists? Who am I within this? Was I or am I the directive principle within it? have I decided that I want to wonder off in my mind or I simply followed that which came up? why did it came up? where did it come from? From where my thoughts are coming from and why? Why have I felt so special with the bond/connection I developed with another to the extent of which we think about the same stuff?

 

What we must realize is - anything that comes up in our mind while we weren't the directive principle is an indication of us missing a breath, us missing ourselves, us following our pre-program designs and go to places that would give us an experience we would like to experience in separation of ourselves and each other.

Following our minds, wondering, imagining and occupying ourselves for hours, indicate our weakness of standing as the self power we can become if/when we decides to. So the real question we must ask ourselves is: Why are we still accepting and allowing this? Why are we so desperately insisting on keeping our mind's existent? Why are we allowing ourselves to continue existing as program instead of living as Physical human beings? And why is it so difficult to STOP? Is it really difficult or a justification we use?

 

I mean, there are many questions we must ask ourselves even though the answers wouldn't be answers that we would like to hear. Despite of this, we must ask the questions and commit to the practical application of the answers. Why? Because it had come too far - this world is a reflection of what we allow existing within ourselves - we must change and become the living example of that which is best for all because really, there is not excuse or justification that would be acceptable for why we shouldn't change and correct what we have done. Make sense?

 

 

 

 

 

 

Pets as a reflection of Self Intimacy - Day 252

This is a continuation to my Previous blog: My Dog as my Comfort Zone - Day 251 which was also a direct continuation to the Series:  'How to Cope with the Death of a Pet'.

 

I would also suggest to listen to the Interviews: Pets and Owners Relationship Review to have a better understanding of the relationship connection between Human Beings and Dogs.

 

I forgive myself that I've NOT accepted and allowed myself to Express myself and allow myself to approach new human beings without fear of rejections and judgement and I could only do it when there is an animal presence to support me to feel comfortable and safe within and as myself.

 

I forgive myself that I've NOT accepted and allowed myself to see, realize and understand that I've projected my Strength and my expression onto my Dog, as if she was the reason why I was able to express myself and approach human being and getting to know them and within this, haven't realized that my dog was standing as a reflection of me, of who and what I am and she was simply showing me the component that I have within and as me which I am able to stand as who I am, regardless of her presence.

 

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to utilize my dog as a source of power and confident to approach human being and getting to know them and I haven't allowed myself to explore who I am within approaching human beings and develop effective communication with them with or without her presence.

 

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to use my dog to avoid certain people within the excuse that my dog needs me because I felt uncomfortable to be directive in my expression and communication and simply walk away when I saw that the human beings are abusive in nature and there is no way I can assist and support them from where they are within their processes. Within this, I forgive myself that I've NOT accepted and allowed myself to realize how I have limited and compromised myself when I was not directive within and as myself as I allowed the morality codes to decide for me how I behave and act instead of seeing self honestly, in the moment, what would be the best approach to direct each and every point and go for it within absolute self trust, without having to use excuses and justification to present myself as nice to others, to not hurt their feelings. In this, I forgive myself that I've NOT accepted and allowed myself to see how I have manipulated myself to believe that I don't want to hurt people feelings instead of seeing the core of the fear which is the fear of being judged, mocked and defined as unpleasant. In this, I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed the fear of conflict and friction with other human beings to be my directive principle instead of walking according to a principle that would bring about the best for all outcome in every moment of breath, regardless the others onions, judgement, definition of me.

 

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to fear that people would judge my expression and define me as aggressive when and as I am being directive within my communication and thus, I utilized my dog as an excuse to avoid conversation with people that activated specific emotions and feelings within and as myself instead of first, turn the point back to myself and investigate what was the nature/source/core of such feelings and emotions and sort myself out so that I could direct the moment effectively regardless their judgement and definitions towards me. 

 

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to fear being and becoming intimate with other human beings and therefor, when and as moments of intimacy emerged where I could transcend the fears and become vulnerable in in allowing others to get know me and vice versa, I immediately went towards my dog, diverting my attention towards her and expressed intimacy with her and kept distance from the beings that I could have been intimate in communication with.

 

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to fear Intimacy with human beings and therefor, developed intimacy with Animals because they cannot hurt me, manipulate me and leave me when things get a little bit uncomfortable and tough. In this, I forgive myself that I've not accepted and allowed myself to trust myself to NOT attach any emotional value to Intimacy and simply stand as an expression of intimacy within and as me and thus, I avoided Intimacy with human beings and projected it onto animals so that I won't have to face my issues and could remain in fear, very much suppressed without ever sorting myself out.

 

I commit myself to investigate my Fears of Intimacy and to assist and support me in becoming an expression of intimacy within and as myself. In this, I Commit myself to discover my own relationship with intimacy and to sort out what ever issues I may find within and as myself.

 

I commit myself to allow myself to get to know people for who they are for real, to approach human beings with no previous judgement, opinions and ideas about them and within that, allow them to also get to know me which through that relationship, I commit myself to expand, grow and empower myself with the assistance and support of others as a reflection and mirroring of me.

 

I commit myself to allow myself to stand vulnerable with other human beings and to let go of all the protection mechanisms that I've created within and as my mind as I now see, realize and understand that what I was missing was Self Trust in moving and directing myself, in any given moment and therefor, utilize Mind Personalities to define and tell me who I am in any given moment.

 

I commit myself to assist and support myself to develop absolute self trust within and as myself and in this, to develop absolute self intimacy with myself because I realized that unless I sort out my own self intimacy issues, I won't be able to develop intimacy in self honesty with others and if I won't be able to develop intimacy with others, I won't be able to develop intimacy with all livings beings in existential level, in equality and oneness.

My Dog as my Comfort Zone - Day 251

 

 

This is a continuation to the Series -  'How to Cope with the Death of a Pet':

 

Today, I will be investigating one Dimension within my relationship with my dog, Yalda, due to a point opened up yesterday. But first, I will share the Time Line of Events so that one could follow the reason for the point that had opened up.

 

As I've shared, we experienced on the farm a wave of unexpected Death of Animals that had now extended to a Domino effect wherein Grootman, Fidelis's horse, Physically reacted to the Lose of Titan and become Extremely Sick with a Colic diseas, to the extent of us having to be with him 24/7 to monitor his health. It seems that he pass through the hard phase and he is now alright.

Yesterday, when I was spending a moment with Esteni and Robert, Maite came to see us and called us to run towards the stable to assist with Grootman. We had to keep him moving and in turns, we took him for a run. This event went on for an hour and that was an hour after Leila, Cerise, Gian and Fidelis were running with him.

 

At some stage, the horse Vet came and we were all there to support Grootman while receiving the treatment. We were all there for hours, waiting for him to stabilize with no results. There were moments when Grootman had to be sedated and injected with Pain Killers and we were sitting outside his stable, having conversations and you know - having "forced" to have communal evening with each other. If it wasn't for Grootman suffering in Pain and the circumstances of us gathering together, it could have been a pleasant and enjoyable night.

 

I've been on the farm for more than a year now and it was the first time I spend time with all the farm people together which made me wonder about why is it that only when consequences emerged, people come close to each other and stand as a support for each other. Why can't I just enjoy the company of others and arrange Communal Gathering in a spontaneous way, without having to have consequences that would place us together in the same time/space?

 

So today, I was looking at the point of my relationship with my Dog. What also supported me in opening up the points regarding the Relationship between Humans and Pets was the Dog's Life Review we recorded Yesterday.

 

What I have not realized within my Relationship with Yalda was the Mirroring System and what she was actually busy showing me which I wasn't willing to see, till today.

 

What was cool about having a dog is that the responsibility 'forces' me to get out of the house to allow the dog to pee and shit. What was also cool that almost everyone in my neighbourhood had a dog and accordingly, I met many new people Which I enjoyed as I got to know them.

I was always grateful for my dog for being the reason of meeting new people because without her, I wouldn't not approach new people and I would not dare to start conversations with strangers.  That is the point Yalda was showing me - that in essence, I didn't really had to have her around to be able to get to know new people, I could have simply do it, approach people, with no fear. But.. I didn't saw it.

 

Yalda was my comfort zone, the thing that I could either get close to the people that I wanted to get close to, or either go away from those that I didn't want to get involved with. And on a certain level, she could sense who I didn't like and who I liked and accordingly support me in giving me the door to choose how I want her to behave in every single moment.

 

I didn't feel alone with her - I could go to the beach when ever I wanted, without having to schedule it with anyone to come with, I could go at night and take a walk in the dark, I could do what ever I wanted, as long as she was with me. The moment we were apart, I felt uncomfortable, that something is missing and I did what ever I could to go back and be with her. It was to the extreme where if a friend didn't allow me to bring her with me, I didn't went to see them, they had to come visit me. And lol, after a while, I quit my job and found other jobs where she could come and join me.

 

Anyway - the point is that - Yalda, or Animlas, give us the 'excuse' to develop Relationships, open for us a door to start talking to people and get to know them. what I haven't realized was - that the point that held me from doing the same without her was Fear.

 

I'll go up to here for today and continue with Self Forgiveness and Self Corrective application tomorrow.

Our Responsibility and Accountability for Each Death that could have been Prevented - Day 250

Here I am continuing walking the 'How to Cope with the Death of a Pet' series which I've started walking when Babitjie (Cat) died 2 days ago from Kidney Failure which also followed by the Death of Titan (Horse) due to extensive and aggressive unexpected cancer. Within this blog, my focus will be on Human Intervention and the Existential Consequences that resulted with the abuse and suffer of the Animal Kingdom; abuse and suffering that could have been Prevented if Human Beings would have been Aware, considerate and compassionate.

 

Before I start, there is a quote I'd like to bring forth:

 

"...as has been mentioned within the Animal Life Review Series, how Human Intervention interfered with the Equilibrium between the environment/weather and the earth/animal/insect/plant Kingdoms and created an complete imbalance in/as so many physical relationships, that it has forced all such parts/dimensions/beings in/as/of this Physical Existence into and as states of Survival/Compensation. This has caused an outflow-consequence within and as the Physical Relationships in/as this Physical Existence – from some parts of the Earth becoming inhabitable, to the extinction of animal/nature Species, to the Pollution of rains, to the unpredictability of weather conditions and its according consequences in its relationship to the Earth/Environment. To which human beings would attribute further consequence, because with the physical changing its relationships according to the Human Factor – the Human will then accordingly Respond to the changes the Physical made, because of the Human - to Survive, and more often than not; the human will ‘respond’ to Physical Changes – at the Sacrifice of the physical, the earth, the environment and all species, from the minute, to the small to the great within and as it. “Conquering” the Physical – well, the consequence of the Human Factor in its relationship to the Physical is clearly becoming evident, as the Physical, especially now within the bacterial, virus, microscopic, micro-organism dimensions/parts/particles is definitively showing who in this relationship between Man and Physical is in fact in Control. I mean, human beings have not even 1 + 1’d this Equation in the relationship between ourselves and the Physical with how Little human’s awareness in fact extend to understanding the Complexity of the interrelationships within our own Physical Bodies, let alone Existence as a whole…" Heaven's Journey to Life - Consciousness + Time = Doomsday? - Day 245

 

And:

 

"...Each time an animal has to be put down as the result of undue suffering – it is testimony to our legacy of fucked-up-ness.

Each time a child dies of starvation, while it could have been provided for, but we didn’t care to create and structure the world in a way to make it possible for all to live a dignified Life – it is a testimony to our fucked-up-ness.

I’ve dealt with a lot of deaths on the farm, and this is the one point that keeps on striking me, because most of the time the death was not a natural death where an animal’s life had been lived to completion – but most of the time the death was the result of consequence as a ‘negative side-effect’ of the world we’ve produced and participate in, which means it was each time an untimely death that could have been prevented…" Leila's Journey to Life - Day 146: Death of a Horse

 

 

So - for a long time I didn't want to face my Self interest within it all to see my accountability and responsibility for each and every Death that could have been Prevented. I couldn't connect the dots to see my direct relationship with the Manifested consequences as the current abuse, suffering of Humans and Animals.

It was only a few days ago where I could finally see this point for myself, while writing a blog Review on Derren Brown's TV show: Derren Brown Expose - Crowed behaviour is Evil - Day 246: "...What was not exposed in this show is the Indirectly Crowd Behaviour of us human being, that have the means and power to change the fate of this world, to prevent the birth of children to a world of abuse and instead to prepare the way before them to birth into world that will take care of them, from birth till death.

Understand, our Silent Expression is still an expression of what we accept and allow and what we will not. The fact we do nothing to change the face of this world indicate our Evil Expression of Human Beings…"

 

So now I understand why and how I'm directly accountable and responsible for each and every unnecessary death in this world - because I have the means and access to stand up and stand as and example in this world and yet, I haven't done so to my full potential. Each one of us that sit back and allow this world to continue in it's current manifestation is accountable and responsible for each and every death that couldn't have been prevented if we were to change the world system.

 

There can be no Excuses, no Justification, no Blame. We must Realize and Understand that our Silence is the Voice that accept and allow the abuse, harm, crime, war, suffering, diseases, etc. in this world. Let's stop the Silence and make sure our Voice is Heard and that our Voice is standing in alignment to the Principle of 'What is best for all Lives on Earth'.

You must understand - there is no one that would come and save us, there is not magic pill we can take to sort everything out, there is no last minute bail-out.

 

Educate yourself to understand what is really going on in this world to within that, understand your accountability and Responsibility:

 

Blind Spot

http://www.youtube.com/watch?feature=player_embedded&v=pByCxG2dIWY

 

War on Democracy

http://johnpilger.com/videos/the-war-on-democracy

The Century of the Self: Part 1- Happiness Machines

http://youtu.be/prTarrgvkjo

 

The Power Principle

http://metanoia-films.org/the-power-principle/

 

The Trap

http://archive.org/details/AdamCurtis_TheTrap

 

Psywar

http://metanoia-films.org/psywar/ 

 

Human Resources: Social Engineering in the 20th Century

http://metanoia-films.org/human-resources/

 

 

Here is one of the Equal Money System Policies that is in direct relationship to what was discussed here. let's make sure this policy is coming to it's optimum manifestation: Stewardship

Within an Equal Money system it will be recognized that Humans are a part of the Ecosystem they live in. The word 'eco' stands for 'home' - and thus, each human will be responsible for maintaining the Balance and Harmony within their home, within their Ecosystem. This involves the Monitoring of the Well-Being of the Plants and Animals within one's Environment and to Intervene when Disharmony occurs as a result of Human Impact, so that a new Equilibrium can be established.

How to Deal with a Death of our Pets - Part 2 - Day 249

 

 

This series was started with the Death of Babitjie, a cat that I had created a relationship connection to, which I suggest reading through the blog I wrote yesterday for full context and understanding of this blog.

As I've opened up the point, I've seen multiple points to look at and investigate wherein the main/core point to be aware of is our Self Interest design within the Context of Pets in particular and Animals in general.

 

Unfortunately, we had another death on the farm - Titan, Gian's horse had to be put down immediately due to extensive cancer that suddenly emerged which caused with inability to drink and eat. There was also no treatment that could have cured him.

And yes, we had another death yesterday, this time it was a Duck but interestingly enough, I didn't give it much value. I didn't know about it but even if I knew, it wouldn't move me, I was to focused on the Death of Babitjie. which again, the questions I must ask myself are - why it is that I give value to a horse, a cat, a dog but nothing moves inside myself when a duck or a chicken dies? Why is it that nothing moves inside myself in every single moment of the day/night where lots of beings dies.

 

This has obviously to do with the extent of separation we have accepted and allowed within ourselves. This has to do with the extent of limitation we as human beings are consisting of and existing has. This has to do with our value systems that we have created, Morality, social norms. This has to do with are true Evil Nature of Self Interest.

 

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to attach Positive Value to specific beings and Neutral Value to other beings and accordingly, activate or deactivate specific emotions and feelings, not seeing, realizing and understanding that either Positive/Negative or Neutral is still based on Separation and in the lack of understanding within absolute self realization of Equality and Oneness as a living Principle.

 

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to care for the Animals that I attach a positive Value to and disregard the animals that I attach a negative or Neutral value to and within that I forgive myself that I haven't thus far investigated the nature of the Value I assign to Animals or Humans in separation of me as I see, realize and understand that feeling ashamed or guilty about it won't make a difference, won't assist and support me to stabilize and equalize myself but it is rather a coping mechanism, as a reaction, to avoid the real problem, the core of the problem, to not face the problem and change my approach from a Mind separation to Physical living application.

 

I forgive myself that I've NOT accepted and allowed myself to see that feeling sad over one being that had died in comparison to the millions beings that dies in every moment, implies separation which I've accepted and allowed and within that, I forgive myself that I've NOT accepted and allowed myself to see, realize and understand that the fact that I cannot feel anything for the beings that dies in every single moment, is how I would abdicate my responsibility as a human being with the means, sources and capability to actually stand up, investigate all points, investigate the outflows and consequences, investigate the starting point and the core of the problem, understand the problem in its totality and accordingly, make the decision to move, direct and walk myself into and as a solution that is best for all Lives, Equally.

 

I forgive myself that I've NOT accepted and allowed myself to see, realize and understand that what I accept and allow in my direct environment is what I would accept and allow in the world system as a whole. Here, I've just realized that I had accepted and allowed myself to not give a moment of consideration to the Duck that had died but was all possessed by a cat that died at the very same day. Which is the same in the world system, I would not accept and allow the harm of my family and closest friends and would be possessed if anything will happen to them and yet, children and adults are dying every single second from Starvation, Malnutrition, dehydration and diseases and I do nothing to Prevent and stop this from ever manifesting again.

 

I commit myself to get myself to a point of Equality and Oneness with and as everything that is here, from the smallest to the greatest as I see, realize and understand the irrationality in accepting and allowing Separation to exists within and as me and the consequences of such acceptance and allowance both in my direct environment and in this world as a whole.

 

I commit myself to SHOW that what exists within, exists without and in that, what we accept and allow in our direct environment, is what we will accept and allow in our external environment which then thus, perpetuate the extent of the Problem as why and how we would ignore the cruelty that exists within this world through deliberately attach a Neutral/Negative value to the Majority of this world that are in great suffering so that we won't have to take responsibility for them in making sure to create a foundation/platform of a world that is best for all equally, exactly as we attach a neutral/negative value to the 'irrelevant' beings as we have defined them as irrelevant within our own minds, in separation, such as the Duck example that I've shared above but it can also be the ants that we walk over, the bugs, the flies, etc.