Don't you Dare Manipulating me - Day 245

 

In my Previous blog, I started walking the point of Reacting to others and taking it personally when and as one is blaming me for their Negative experience.

 

As I wrote the Self Forgiveness statements, I've notice the multidimensionality of the Reaction point in how the reaction is varied according to a specific memory that I've stored within and as myself, throughout my life.

Thus, I will be walking and investigating how, why, when, where I react and to what, so that I can identify the points of reaction and within that, transform my application from Reaction to Prevention.

 

Within today blog, I will be investigating my reactions when and as I perceive another to manipulate me, directly or indirectly and within that, assist and support myself in standing stable when and as such instances occur because I realized that accepting and allowing myself to react to others is to accept and allow myself to disempower, diminish and compromise myself which is obviously not acceptable. But also, there is always 2 sides to the same coin and thus, another point to consider and investigate is when and as I'm the manipulator side. that will be walked in the next blog.

 

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to react in anger within and as myself, when I perceive another to manipulate me and within that, I haven't accepted and allowed myself to turn the point back to myself to see, that the reaction of Anger, has nothing to do with the other manipulating me or not, it has to do with me accepting and allowing myself to miss a breath, to allow myself to be manipulated and in that disempowering myself to the extent of which I would compromise not only myself but the other as well as I'm not standing as a pillar of support, in directing the moment within Common Sense Practical Consideration but I direct the moment within a dismissive, inferior position which I would then thus try to avoid by accessing a defense mode, attempting to diminish the other so that I won't experience my own victimization that I've accepted and allowed within and as myself.

 

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to React in Anger when and as I perceived another to manipulate me because by the time that I realize that I allowed myself to be influenced by another's manipulation, I blamed the other for manipulating me and accordingly, get angry at them, not seeing the actuality of how I projected the anger towards them as if they forced me to be manipulated, not seeing, realizing and understanding that it was me who decide to allow myself to be manipulated and the anger that I experience is actually towards myself for accepting and allowing myself to miss a breath and allow manipulation to influence my stance within and as myself. 

 

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to blame another for manipulating me instead of realizing that the source of this Blame is in fact anger towards myself for accepting and allowing myself to fall into their manipulation however, what I haven't realized that so long as I accept and allow myself to blame other for my experiences and/or, for what I have accepted and allowed within and as myself, I'm abdicating my responsibility to turn the point back to myself, seeing my responsibility within it and how I can prevent such instances and stand in stability and self trust and thus, direct the situation to the best for all outcome.

 

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself while and during my reaction when I perceive that another is manipulating me or the situation that involves me from the perspective of my self interest design that I created within and as myself to then, instead of STOP my reaction within and as myself, allocating my starting point and realign my starting point through and as the Principle of what is best for all and within that developing a common sense approach in how to direct such points that would result with the outcome that is best for all, I have accepted and allowed myself to try and attempt to take my power back from self interest starting point through diminishing the other, and prove them wrong and in that, keep my self interest intact, not seeing, realizing and understanding that in doing so, I compromise myself and the other through NOT standing as the directive principle but rather, allowing my emotions to take control and direct the situation for me.

 

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to react to another's manipulation of a situation because I fear that they will 'win' their argument and it will affect me in some way or another however, I haven't realized that when I accept and allow myself to react to another attempt to manipulate a situation, I disempower myself from the ability to direct the situation effectively, in supporting the other to see their participation in manipulation so that we could re-align our starting point in making an agreement of how we would resolve the situation and thus transform the friction and conflict as reactions to a solution that will stand in alignment to the principle of what is best for all.

 

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to judge and define another as manipulator because they have been manipulating me in the past and accordingly, haven't allowed myself to trust them as I accepted and allowed myself to hold onto grudge of the past event. In this, I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed my approach towards these beings to be from the get go, a defense mechanism approach and  thus, I would be alert and attentive and look for the spots of manipulation emerging so that I won't fall again and become manipulated. In this, I forgive myself that I've NOT accepted and allowed myself to turn the point back to myself in seeing, realizing and understanding that it was always me that had decided whether or not I allow myself to be manipulated and if anything, because I've accepted and allowed their manipulation in the past, I didn't stand as a support in showing them that they have accepted and allowed manipulation to exists within and as them. In this, Instead of developing self trust within and as myself, to effectively direct situation when another is manipulating and thus, support them to see what they have accepted and allowed within them, I created another program within and as myself to detect such manipulation and to automatically React in Anger, short temper and spite and accordingly, start to defend myself when it is occur. In this, I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to prepare myself to situation where I feel that another is manipulating me, through a program that I created within and as myself as Reaction where I would access a defense mode and attempt to prove the other wrong because I seemingly right instead of taking a breath, stop the reactions and direct the situation in common sense so that we can resolve the point to manifest the best for all outcome.

 

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to FEAR that another will manipulate me and their manipulation will affect me, as my self interest, in some way or another, and thus, I developed a defense mechanism as a reaction where I  will automatically access to, not seeing, realizing and understanding that while and during accepted and allowed reaction, I completely disempowered myself to practically direct a situation to produce the best for all outcome. In this, I forgive myself that I haven't accepted and allowed myself to trust myself to stand stable and clear when and as someone try and attempt to manipulate me or a situation that involves me, and within that self stability, to direct myself and the other according to a principle that would produce an outcome that is best for all.

 

I commit myself to further expand, open up and investigate reactions as I see, realize and understand that when accepting and allowing reactions to exists within and as me, I completely disempower myself and compromise myself, others and this world as a whole so long as I don't stand in self stability, breathing and direct the moment to the best for all outcome.

 

I commit myself to when and as I perceive another to manipulate me, to then stop, breathe and realign my starting point and in that, to make sure that I'm free from reaction and able to direct the moment to the best for all outcome as a principle.

 

I commit myself to when and as I see myself accessing anger towards another when I perceive them to manipulate me, to then stop, breathe, turn the point back to myself, let go of the energy possession of and as anger and remind myself that the anger is directed and towards myself for allowing myself to miss a breath and speak from a self interest reaction. I thus, make sure that I'm clear and only then speak.

 

I commit myself to assist and support myself in standing firm, stable and clear within and as myself, when and as I communicate with another, in any given moment.