‘Leaving’ the Dream - Day 208

This is a continuation to:

The Elite's delusion of stress - Part 1 - Day 45

The Elite's Delusion of Stress - Part 2 - Day 46

The Decision of TIME - Day 67

And:

Copy Paste Character - the Way for Success? - Day 183

Copy Paste Character - The Education System - Day 184

Is it possible to Cheat yourself? Day 185

It is time to STOP Existing as a Human Machine - Day 186

The End of Times - Day 187

Facing the Evil within - the KEY to LIFE - Day 188

Fear of Disappointing others - Day 189

The Psychology of TIME - Day 190

I Regret, therefor, I'm a Good Person. NOT!!! - Day 191

The REAL Fear - Day 192

The things we Won't tell ANYONE - Day 193

Missing out on the Good Life - Day 194

Let's have some Fun - Day 195

Stupidity Loop - Jumping from the Bad to the Good to the Bad - Day 196

The Smoke Screen of Ignorance - Day 197


For the purpose of context, suggest reading these posts above prior to reading the post below, if you haven’t already. Here I will be walking the 'I don't have TIME' Character -Imagination Dimension - Practical support with Self Forgiveness and Self Commitments.

 

 

Imagination Dimension:

• I fantasize of taking a vacation, lying down on the beach, with nothing else to do but enjoy the sun, swimming in the ocean, going to a restaurant, having a fruit shake - in India or Thailand lol.
• I imagine other people having fun just now, while I'm stuck on the computer, doing my routine work.
• I imagine the life of those who have money and can do what ever they want with their life - having a spa day, going out, enjoying themselves as I used to do myself a few years back.
• I imagine people coming back from work, after a long day, and sitting on the coach with their partner, hanging out, watching a movie, laying back, with nothing really to do.

 

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• I imagine the life of those who have money and can do what ever they want with their life - having a spa day, going out, enjoying themselves as I used to do myself a few years back.

 

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to have an experience towards my direct environment and within that, have associated/defined the Experience within a negative charge through comparing my environment to an environment that I've created in my mind, as an imagination within and as my mind, which I've associated and define within a positive charge. In this, I forgive myself that I've NOT accepted and allowed myself to see, realize and understand that Experience can only exists within and as Energy that I gave value to, either positive or Negative, while, not considering that when and as I accept and allow an experience to exists within me, I'm accepting and allowing myself to miss a breath, to miss a window of opportunity to assist and support myself to stand within and as my human physical body, Here and have the work done. In this, I forgive myself that I've NOT accepted and allowed myself to see, realize and understand that by the very acceptance and allowance of imagination within and as my mind, when and as there is a task or work that needs to be done, I'm actually preparing the way before me, to create the manifested consequences of not having enough time to finish the task/work because I've wasted the physical time in imagining things in my mind which then, physically I cannot have the work done because I'm preoccupied with something else as for instance, participating in imagination with myself, in my mind. 

 

I commit myself to assist and support myself in establishing self-movement as the directive principle in every moment of every breath and within that, assist and support myself to stop my participation in imagination as an experience I desire to have, as an experience that I've defined and associated within and as a positive energetic charge because I now see, realize and understand that when accepting and allowing myself to participate in imagination, I accept and allow myself to miss a window of opportunity for me to actually transform and change my living application to a physical, breath by breath living application wherein I'm effectively doing that which need to be done as I see, realize and understand my responsibility in having the thing done. Thus, when and as I see myself going into my mind, to the imagination domain, I stop, I breath and I remind myself that accepting and allow myself to miss a breath is simply not acceptable as I see why and how I've accepted and allowed myself to separate myself from the physical through the acceptance and allowances of imagination participation and through directly seeing what I've missed in separation of myself (which is - missing myself Here), I bring myself back here, to and as the physical, breathing, clearing myself from any energy charge that may exists within and as me and moving myself, as the directive principle in walking that which required to be walked as what is best for all.

 

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to NOT realize that imagining the Life that I cannot have is simply impractical but instead, I can walk towards a life that is best for all where all our want/need/desire can be fulfilled equally if obviously, these desire/wants/needs do not harm and abuse anything or anyone else. Within that, I forgive myself that I've NOT accepted and allowed myself to realize that to establish a world where everyone can fulfil their desires/wants/needs when and as these desires/wants/needs do not harm anything and anyone, I must give up my desires/wants/needs for this ONE life time as that is the time that I have in making sure and in walking the physical space/time path that would bring about an actual correction/change within and as this world because, unless everyone equally can fulfil their desires, the desire in itself is not valid as it is based on the principle of self interest instead of the principle of that which is best for all within and as: Give as you would like to receive, Do unto another as you would like to be done unto you

And Investigate ALL things and keep that which is good for All.

 

I commit myself to give up this Life from the perspective of giving up my self interest desires because I see, realize and understand that unless my desires are equally accessible for all, the desire in itself isn't valid. Within this, I commit myself to stop the imagination of the Life that I can not have but instead, make sure that everyone equally will get to a point of living the life that everyone should have - a life that is best for all where everyone could express and fulfil themselves as long as we do not harm anything or anyone else.

 

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to deliberately forget the inner experiences that I had when living the life of the 'haves' where I had the funds and means to spend my money in luxuries and indulgent and in the outside, put a smile and present myself as happy and free while in the inside, I felt misery and sadness which would not go away despite of the positive things that I've done externally.

In that, I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to deliberately store the external experience that I've defined as positive and to store the inner experience that I had defined as negative as a program that would create my experiences for me, externally and internally, without seeing, realizing and understanding that both experiences are of the same coin and none can exists without the other side of the polarity exits. Thus, I forgive myself that I've NOT accepted and allowed myself to see, realize and understand that the purpose of the experiences, as energies is to keep me enslave to my own mind as my mind can only exists through energy which within that, I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to take myself further away from myself and this physical reality in every moment that I accept and allow these past experiences to exists within and as me, as stored memories that had accumulated to a program (a character) that activates when and as I'm perceiving and defining my experience within my environment as a negative.

 

I commit myself to assist and support myself to stop giving power to my mind to exists through my participation within and as energy that keeps the mind 'alive' and in control over my entire existence. Within that, when and as I find myself busy with an assignment/task/work which I define as negative experience through comparing the experience to a positive experience that I desire to have, I stop, I breathe, and I remind myself why I am here and who I am here because unless I establish an equal and one relationship/agreement with myself, in walking breath by breath according to that which is best for all, I'm preparing the way before me to fall into the energy traps that I've created for myself as my mind, to keep me 'alive' as energy, not realizing that that Life isn't Energy, Life isn't an experience; Life is something I must realize as who I am, when and as I am Life which for that, I must walk the physical space/time path, in assisting and supporting me to step out of my mind and step into Life.

Missing out on the Good Life - Day 194

This is a continuation to:

The Elite's delusion of stress - Part 1 - Day 45

The Elite's Delusion of Stress - Part 2 - Day 46

The Decision of TIME - Day 67

And:

Copy Paste Character - the Way for Success? - Day 183

Copy Paste Character - The Education System - Day 184

Is it possible to Cheat yourself? Day 185

It is time to STOP Existing as a Human Machine - Day 186

The End of Times - Day 187

Facing the Evil within - the KEY to LIFE - Day 188

Fear of Disappointing others - Day 189

The Psychology of TIME - Day 190

I Regret, therefor, I'm a Good Person. NOT!!! - Day 191

The REAL Fear - Day 192

The things we Won't tell ANYONE - Day 193

 

For the purpose of context, suggest reading these posts above prior to reading the post below, if you haven’t already. Here I will be walking the 'I don't have TIME' Character - Fear Dimension - Practical support with Self Forgiveness and Self Commitments.

 

The List below consists of the Fears which are the foundation of the 'I don't have Time' Character.

 

Fear Dimension:

• Fear that I'll disappoint other people if I won't take more tasks on myself

• Fear that I would be defined as unworthy because I'm not using my time to it's utmost potential.

• Fear that I won't get things done and would regret it when consequences would emerged so basically, fear of the consequences.
• Fear that I would be seen as not good enough, replaceable, inadequate
• Fear of being exposed as self dishonest because I know, that if I put my self interest desires aside, I'm able to walk my tasks in absolute perfection.

• Fear of Missing out the Positive experience as Entertainment

 

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* Fear of Missing out the Positive experience as Entertainment

 

Self forgiveness:

 

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to FEAR missing out on a Positive experience when I'm busy working on a task/work/assignment because I believed that when I'm busy while others having a positive experience as entertainment and I'm not joining them, than eventually, they would stop inviting me to join them and I'll slowly but surely be cast away from all my relationships with other human beings. In that, I forgive myself that I've NOT accepted and allowed myself to see the nature of 'Fear of missing out' within that context wherein, what I fear missing out is my own self interest desire for an experience because I haven't yet realized who I am as breath in any given moment where - who I am is not define by either positive or negative experiences but rather - who I am within and as these experience.

 

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to fear losing my own self interest desires as I've valued these desires and defined myself according to my desires and accordingly, have separated myself from the physical experiences I'm participating with, breath by breath, when I've accepted and allowed myself to attach and assign specific values according to how I would benefit in walking these experiences within my own self interest. Within that, I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to define experiences as positive or negative in separation from myself wherein the Energy that I would gain from participating within these experiences would be my directing principle when making the decisions of what I would participate and what I  would not. In that, I forgive myself that I've NOT accepted and allowed myself to see, realize and understand how Decisions are made based on one's value that one is giving to the energetic experiences either as positive or Negative with no actual and physical consideration within and as the principle of that which is best for all as well as who one is within and as these experiences.

 

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to compromise and sabotage myself and therefor others when and as I accept and allow myself to act upon the fear of missing out where I would abdicate my responsibilities and go for a positive experience such as entertainment and within that, I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to rush through my tasks/work/assignment and brush it off within the idea that I don't have time however, when it comes to entertainment, I have enough time.

 

Self Commitments:

 

I commit myself to STOP my own self interest desires that are the stumble stones to an actual self change as I see, realize and understand that unless I stand up, in every moment of every breath, in absolute self honesty, in directing and moving myself ONLY according to what id best for all LIVES, as within as without - no change is possible. In that, I commit myself to SHOW that unless we stand up and transform our self interest to Best for all interest - we would not be able to change ourselves and this world as a whole because this world is a direct reflection of what the consequences within our collective acceptance and allowance of acting out on our self interest desires for Experiences within the definitions that we have assigned to these experiences and with no consideration, whatsoever to Humanity as a whole - Equal and One.

 

I commit myself to assist and support myself with identifying everything that I have assigned positive or negative value to, to then thus, investigate the nature of the definition, Who I am within it, is it standing within and as the principle of that which is best for all or is to protect my self interest desires - as I see, realize and understand that continue walking and directing myself according to experiences that hold a specific value as positive or negative energetic charge, is to walk and direct myself according to preprogram life design with no actual and physical, Hereness of really directly seeing who I am in every given moment and what alignments are required to be done to stand in absolute self honesty, hereness, breath by breath.

 

I commit myself to continue assisting and supporting myself in walking through the layers of the mind within and as the 'I don't have time' character and in that, to STOP sabotaging and compromising myself and therefor all, through abdicating my responsibility of acting, moving, directing MYSELF, breath by breath and to practically change myself to stand in alignment with ONE principle of Physical Equality that is best for all as I see, realize and understand my responsibility in changing myself and its effect on this world as a whole.

Inner Dullness light up in Energy - Day 68

Indulge - Dictionary definition.

1. to yield to an inclination or desire; allow oneself to follow one's will (often followed by in ): Dessert came, but I didn't indulge. They indulged in unbelievable shopping sprees.

verb (used with object)

2.to yield to, satisfy, or gratify (desires, feelings, etc.): to indulge one's appetite for sweets.

3.to yield to the wishes or whims of; be lenient or permissive with: to indulge a child.

4.to allow (oneself) to follow one's will (usually followed by in ): to indulge oneself in reckless spending.

5.Commerce . to grant an extension of time, for payment or performance, to (a person, company, etc.) or on (a bill, note, etc.).

My allocation point -

I attached the word within a negative energetic charge within and as myself wherein I feel guilt when indulging. Mostly because there are always other priority tasks and assignment that I must do as well as the thoughts of not everyone can indulge and thus I feel guilt that I can.

Sounding -

In-dull-g-e -> In Dull in the God Energy

Indo-legend

End-all-G-E -> End all Godly energy.

Indulgent is a polarized word - when one is indulging, one access a positive energy within one's definition of pleasure within doing something in the physical reality. After the positive experience has been experienced, one is accessing to the negative emotion of guilt as self judgment for allowing oneself to indulge. 

Redefinition - deriving pleasure from consuming different forms of energy.

To assist and support oneself is to delete the energy experience and allow oneself to be absolutely here within and as everything that one do, breath by breath.

(for the process of redefining words - read Earth Journey to Life by Esteni De Wet)

Self Forgiveness -

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to define and associated physical 'Hereness' within and as energetic polarization of either positive and negative and I haven't considered that 'hereness' is a physical living expression of and as me, breath by breath.

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to define/associated/connect the word indulgent within and as a polarity experience wherein I defined specific physical reality activities has Positive and accordingly, I experience myself to be indulging. And within that, I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to define/associate/connect the experience of indulgent within a negative energetic charge of Guilt and self judgement.

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to judge myself for indulging within and as the experience of guilt and I haven't allowed myself to embrace and accept myself within and as a breath, of simply being Here, within and as my human physical body and thus, remove the energy attachment to the word 'indulge' and walk the living expression of the word 'Indulge' as deriving pleasure from consuming different form of energy

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to separate myself from the word 'indulge' by judging and defining the word within a polarity experience and I haven't accepted and allowed myself to LIVE here, within and as breath, allowing myself to relax within and as myself/human physical body, enjoy the moment as me with no energy attached.

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to feel guilty when and as I indulge by accepting the thoughts: "I have to get this and that done", " I can't afford myself to indulge", " How can I stand for equality and yet indulge when 3.3 billion people are suffering"; and yet, what I've not accepted and allowed myself to see, realize and understand that changing the world is a process that takes time, regardless for example, if I take a moment for myself to relax my human physical body and do nothing but being here, breathing, or allowing myself to take a break and watch a movie.

I forgive myself that I've NOT accepted and allowed myself to assess in self honesty whether it is doable, practical and supportive for me to take a moment and indulge by making sure that I do not compromise myself nor others in this world and thus, when the moment is here and I'm indulging, I allow and commit myself to remain here, within and as my human physical body and thus, not accepting any thought/energy movement in the nature of guilt and self judgement.

I forgive myself that I have NOT accepted and allowed myself to see realise and understand that I am able to indulge in every breath that I take with any particular application that I may be participating within and as, as indulgence is deriving pleasure from consuming different forms of energy, such as eating food to sustain my human physical body, or breathing air to sustain my body or swimming in a pool on a hot day to support my body. And through this I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge the pleasure that I derive from indulging in a moment as I have connected the pleasure that I experience in a moment to self-interested actions.

I forgive myself that I have NOT accepted and allowed myself to enjoy the simple pleasures as pleasures of indulgence within every breath that I take because I've associated, defined and connected pleasure as indulgent to self interest and have thus judged the living expression of the words as well as the experiences of the words instead of redefining the words as a living expression that is best for all and walk the living word in self honesty, breath by breath.

I commit myself to investigate the living expression of every word within and as the principle of equality and oneness and to redefine the words to a living expression that I can stand according and as for eternity.

I commit myself to remove the energy connotation/association/definition that I've assigned to words and walk the living expression of words be redefining them according to principles of equality and oneness.

I commit myself to allow myself to indulge when and as I see in self honesty that it is a point of support to and as my human physical body.

I commit myself to support myself as equal to and one as my human physical body within participating in indulgent when and as I see that participating in indulgent wouldn't compromise anything or anyone

Maximizing Pleasure - Day 65

 I forgive myself that I've NOT accepted and allowed myself to realize that my pleasure is defined within the idea that I've attached to what pleasure is, the energetic charge that I've connected to it and the experience that I desire to have within it as an accepted past memory experience that I've associating to; none of which is a self expression within and as myself, as who I am, but rather accepted pre-program design that I follow in total separation form myself and this world.

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to have refused to see that for me to have access to pleasurable activities in this world, I must have Money because money firstly provides my basic needs within which I firstly derive simple pleasures from such as fresh water, food and a roof over my head and through this I forgive myself that I have attached pleasure with an external activity in separation of me and I haven't realized that Self Pleasure is an expression of me that I give to myself through my participation in and as LIFE. However, I forgive myself that I've NOT accepted and allowed myself to see, realize and understand that Self Pleasure as expression of Who I am can only exists when and as my basic needs are met (Food, shelter, clothes, health care etc.) and I'm no longer occupied with my physical survival and thus, it is my responsibility as an interdependent part of this world as a whole, to make sure that the basic needs of each and every being in this world would meet and the opportunity to express ourselves as self pleasure is Here for all.

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to define pleasure in external experience in separation of me and through seeking for the experience, I've locked myself down in my own little bubble of my mind, taking care of my own self interest pleasurable moments without consider anything or anyone else but me.

I forgive myself that I've not accepted and allowed myself to see that my ideas with regards to worldly pleasures are prompt via the media as a form of brainwashing, to feed the system with more money movement as energy from our own energy movement as a desire for a self interest experience within and as pleasure.

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to seek for and go after experiences that gives me the utmost pleasure in my Life and within that, have abdicated my responsibility of making sure that all beings on earth will all have equal opportunities to maximize their pleasure within having equal access to earth's resources and within that, I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to have failed to see how I've been preoccupied in my mind within the self interest desire for a specific type of pleasure experience and I haven't seen that all beings on earth deserve to have pleasurable physical experiences but yet they cannot as pleasure is can only be achieved by those who have money who are able to take care of their basic living needs. Those who don't have money, are busy focusing on their survival and cannot afford a moment of self pleasure in their daily pain and suffering.

I forgive myself that I've NOT accepted and allowed myself to see that the experience of Pleasure can only be pursuit if one has Money to be able to fulfil one's self interest desire for pleasure and within that, we have not taken into consideration the enslavement of others who make it happen for us to experience the pleasurable activities which within that, their experience is of survival and has nothing to do with actual pleasure.

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to justify why it's ok for me to participate and indulge in pleasurable activities as well as to justify why it's ok having slaves for me to have my pleasure experience that I believe I deserve to have.

I forgive myself that I have NOT accepted and allowed myself to see that the more money I have, the more I can fuel my self interest desire for pleasure and within it, I haven't even stopped once to question the nature of my desire, who is getting hurt in the process of providing me with my experience of pleasure and what are the consequences when and as I pursue my desire for my happiness within my EXPERIENCE of pleasure.

I commit myself to establish and walk towards a world where all are entitled for a fulfilling and pleasurable life where the fear of physical survival is removed by creating a world system that is best for all. And within that, I stand for the Equal Money System 'Well-Being' Goal:

The Equal Money System will Study the Psychological Well-Being of Humans to Ensure a Lifestyle free of Fear. The focus will be on Supporting Life to Practically Live Fulfillment and Happiness in Ways where Self-Gratification will not Harm any Living Being or the Environment. This is to Ensure the continuation of Earth as an Effective Resource for the Enjoyment of Future Generations.

I commit myself to show the harm and abuse that is being allowed within our current world system where being are being enslaved for the sake of the Elite's Pleasurable activities as well as the harm that it cause to the world resources where the pleasurable activities over use the resources without consideration whatsoever.

I commit myself to show that when one's basic needs are met, one can apply self pleasure as an expression within oneself without the requirement of any external stimulation to give one's a sense of pleasure.

I commit myself to show that our ideas of pleasure has nothing to do with self pleasure as an expression but rather a self interest desire for one's own fulfilment/experience that one has accepted as oneself in separation of oneself and existence as a whole.