How I created my Meditation Experience - Day 237

This is a continuation to:

Is Meditation the Key to Enlightenment?

 

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to judge meditation within a negative emotional charge, not seeing, realizing and understanding that I've actually judged myself for the things that I've accepted and allowed myself to participate in my past, the things that I now see, realize and understand that had only benefited me within my own self interest delusional mind and through judging Meditation I distracted myself from facing the Practical correction because, so long as I judge, I still allowing my mind to be the directive principle instead of utilizing the Principle: Investigate all points and keep that which is best for all. Within that context, Breathing exercise as a self support tool can and should be utilized within a clear and directive starting point in assisting and supporting oneself to Bring oneself back to one's own physical body, where one could, in breath, assess, check and investigate oneself until eventually, Breathing becomes one's Directive Principle in any given moment.

 

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to associate and connect Breathing with Meditation and since I've Judged meditation as wrong, I sabotaged and compromised myself in not gifting myself the opportunity to assist and support myself in any given moment, to simply Breathe, Be here, within and as my human physical body in alignment to the Movement that Life is.

 

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to spiritualize Breathing and within that create an Experiences that would be aligned with the Spiritual Programs that I've created within and as myself. Within this, I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to fear having Spiritual Experiences as it indicate that I accepted and allowed my mind to take over the moment. In this, I forgive myself that I've not accepted and allowed myself to realize that it is useless to try and suppress that which exists within and as me and rather, if a Spiritual experience emerge from within and as me, it is cool, because then, I'm able to assist and support myself to release myself from the entity that I've created within and as myself through going to the draw board to investigate what I've not seen and sorted out within and as myself and accordingly, take self responsibility and correct the point within and as myself.

 

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to define myself as inadequate when and as a Spiritual Experience emerge from within and as me, as if I have done something terribly wrong, not seeing, realizing and understanding that I should simply see it as it is, another window of opportunity to sort out that which was already existent within and as me. In this, I forgive myself that I've NOT accepted and allowed myself to realize that if I react to the Spiritual Program that I've inserted and program myself, I create another experience, another entity and thus, only prolong my process instead of Quantified my process in walking through each and every point that reveal itself here, stand in stability and in self trust that I have all that I require for, to assist and support me to step out of mind experience and step into the Physical reality as an Expression of myself.

 

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to NOT realize that I've judged the Spiritual Experience that I had created within and as myself, because I've defined myself as More than a spiritual person, utilizing the Knowledge and information that I have, to justify for myself, why I am MORE than another. Within this, I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to want, need and desire to define myself as MORE than a spiritual person and within that suppress that which I've program myself to exists as, while I was myself a spiritual person, not seeing, realizing and understanding that the Program still exists within and as me, till I, as the directive principle, take the responsibility and release myself from the systems and programs that I've inserted and stored within and as myself with practical Self Forgiveness Process, in taking self responsibility for my own acceptance and allowances and change myself, immediately, within and as Breath. 

 

I commit myself to assist and support myself in practicing my Breathing application as a directive principle through which I expand my application to align with the movement that Life exists within and as till in every step, in every moment, I am Here, in and as Breath.

 

I commit myself to assist and support myself to - when and as a Spiritual Experience is emerging from within and as me, to Stop, to Breathe and to see where I'm not aligned and clear within and as myself and in that, to investigate the source/core/origin of the Experience and accordingly, to take Self Responsibility and, correct my physical living application and change.

 

I commit myself to STOP the internal and external friction and conflict within and as myself, within the context of Spirituality as I now see, realize and understand that I have a process to walk, in writing, regarding my self definition and relationship with Spirituality as points opened up within this blog that I must take responsibility for and direct and accordingly correct within and as myself.

The Correction Process and The Desteni Message (Part 4) - Day 201

This is a continuation to:

The Correction Process and The Desteni Message (Part 1) - Day 198

The Correction Process and The Desteni Message (Part 2) - Day 199

The Correction Process and The Desteni Message (Part 3) - Day 200

 

Please read this the blog before reading the following blog to make sure you understand the context.

 

Continuing with the Human Preprograming and within this blog, we will walk another dimension to understand further what is Preprograming/Programming and within that, I will clarify the Difference between Programming and Preprograming through utilizing example I walked yesterday and in that, seeing more directly why it is that one may react within a Negative Experiences when investigating the Desteni message. 

 

What we've seen yesterday through walking the Time Lines was how I created Fear as an Experience while listening/watching/reading the news as very young child and the consequential outflows that I manifested Like for example - my 'preference' in Not liking to hear/watch/read the news as a grown-up. In other words, we have seen how through one Memory as an Experience I PROGRAMMED myself as a child, to always react in Fear when and as I hear the words 'Murder', 'Arabs', 'War', 'Gun', 'Gaza', and how this ONE memory that I stored within and as myself had influenced my life within the decisions that I've made.

Thus, the Blog I wrote yesterday, shows how I accepted and allowed myself to create a program within and as myself, a program that will run in the background, and would have direct relationships to the Decisions that I would make throughout my life.

Meaning - the Decisions that I would make later in my life as a grown-up are based on my own Pre-Programing as a child. In other words - as a child, I created a program. As a grown up, I acted on the program that I've created within and as myself, in my childhood years.

 

So, lets go back to the following time line, and within that, we will focus on the Red part of the Time line:

 

-> Parents do not allow me to watch the news

->-> I don't understand why I cannot stay up and be with my family when they watch the
        news.

->->-> When I asked 'Why', I've been told it is not a show for kids but only for grown ups.

 

-> One night, I couldn't fall asleep

->-> and I went to the living room to be caressed by my parents.

->->-> While walking towards them, I stopped in front of the TV screen

->->->-> because I saw explosion of something and there was grey cloudiness going up from
               the explosion trigger point, up to the sky.

->->->->->I never seen anything like that before

->->->-> the way the news broadcaster speak,

->->->->-> I could tell it was nothing good (Positive) and something bad happen

->->->->->-> So I asked my father what's going on

->->->->->->-> He said to me that I shouldn't watch this, it's grown-up stuff, not for kids.

->->->->->->->-> And he would really appreciate if I won't watch the news.

->->->-> The Experience within me was of so overwhelming and I felt Fear

->->->->-> Because I couldn't understanding what's going on

->->->->->-> and knew that what I was just exposed to was bad (not Positive).

->-> So I went back to my room but still, couldn't fall asleep

->->-> I could still hear some of it from my bedroom.

->->->-> and specifically I could hear Words that I associated with Negative Value

->->->->-> Meaning, the Broadcaster emphasized and used specific tonality when speaking
                  the words: 'Murder', 'Arabs', 'War', 'Gun', 'Gaza'.

->->->->->-> I experienced extensive FEAR within and as me

->->->->->->-> I feared that I might get exploded one day.

 

Ok, so a point to consider in terms of how programming functions, here is an example of transferal of programming (Sins of the fathers) -

Let's say that in the moment that I've walked into the room where my family was watching the 9 o'clock news, where the Scene was of a place that was Bombed and what my parents experienced within that moment, in relation to what they saw on the TV was Fear.

What was in the room was a Behavioural resonance  of and as fear that I would then, pick up, imprint it into myself and live that 'program' as me, as part of my preprogram design; or in other words, I copied their program and made it my own programing. Preprograming from this context is - a program that I copied and instantaneously, accepted and allowed this program as myself and in that, created the program within and as myself, equal and one as me.

 

What I'm showing here, is an example of ONE unseen (to Self) construct that one has NOT investigated and checked within and as oneself. This construct shows how one can download or copy specific behavioural resonance design from those who have come before self, program it into and as self and live it out, believing that this is who one is, and that the experience one has is real.

What must be understood is that, there are multiple dimensions and layers that are involved with one's preprograming, from the perspective that one program consists of and exists as multiple constructs/relationships that were involved in the entire manifestation of one's Preprograming.

 

Now, if one had associated and attached specific values as positive or negative associations, within the constructs that self had programmed oneself with, to what the Desteni Material is revealing / unveiling and/or to the Specific words we are using, one is not able to Hear the actuality of the Desteni Message because one is already living out / trapped within one's Programmed designs, unable to see, unable to hear the Desteni message and on top of that one is not even aware of it.

The Correction Process and The Desteni Message (Part 2) - Day 199

 

 

 

 

The Heart of Winning vs. The Heart of Living.

 

This is a continuation to:

The Correction Process and The Desteni Message (Part 1) - Day 198

Please read this the blog before reading the following blog to make sure you understand the context.

 

In the Previous blog, we have seen that what ever our perception of reality - either Positive or Negative - it would not change the Physical reality and would not influence the Structure and the foundation of the Physical reality but only change our Experience that we have created within and as our mind as the perception we have towards reality within the Value that we have assigned to our experiences. 

 

Within this Blog, we will have a look at the difference between the Heart of Winning to the Heart of Living. Wherein, the Heart of Winning would represent the Positive thinker and attitude and the Heart of Living would represent the Desteni Message.

 

The Heart of Winning is when for example, one would walk one's life and would initially focus one's attention to one's immediate environment - One would care for one's family and Friends and even care for one's neighbours. Within one's heart - one's attitude is a Positive one or in other words, one would define oneself as a positive person who takes care of other people and not only focused on oneself.

 

When one is watching the news for instance, one would feel bad within oneself, when seeing the atrocities that exists in this world and even feel sorry for those who are in a lesser position in this world system. One would then thus, decides within and as oneself that once one have enough money, or when one is retired, one would commit oneself to make good in this world by helping here and there to the poor families, by donating money for charity or by volunteering in a shelter for abused children.

 

Within the 'Heart of the Winner' - one would Win one's life style through devoting one's life in labour for at least 50 years of one's life. One would Win in the world system from the perspective of oneself and one's family is safe and sound and could afford luxuries from time to time and only when one Win the Right to Life, through Money, one would then give some of what one have.

 

However, what one is NOT considering is, that life is too short! And there is no way, one could bring about any meaningful change in one's life and in the life of all, in the time period one have, till one's death.

Meaning - by the time one had accomplished and fulfilled oneself (winning), one would not have the sufficient space/time to actually move and direct oneself towards a change that is substantial and sufficient, in making sure that ALL are safe and sound, that all are taken cared for and all are equally provided with the basic necessities for a decent and worthy life.

 

Here, we can see again that despite of one's Positive Attitude, one would always focus on one's life and One's immediate environment lives and if there is any Extra left, one would give to others the time and money that one can give while the fact of the matter is - the Physical reality remain the same - the core/root/origin/source of the Problem wasn't corrected and changed.

 

The Heart of Living is a complete Different Scenario - it is to bring in practicality the Principle of Give as you would like to Receive as a Principle that one would walk for one's entire life and not only when one had already won the life one desired to have. The Heart of Living would then thus, is a commitment one is standing within and as, to do, what ever it takes in bringing about a world that is best for all, as a living expression of oneself, regardless the outcome, regardless of the chances, regardless of what everyone in one's society would have to say about it, regardless the attitude of others towards self and what self is standing for.

The Heart of Living is walking in seeing reality directly, seeing all the relationships that are involved in each and every Brick that is the foundation of this physical existence as a whole.

 

Desteni Represents the Heart of Living - seeing reality as what it is, as was explained in the previous blog - in being aware of all the relationships that form this physical reality and what ever is not aligned to the principle of what is best for all, must be corrected from the very foundation - as the core/origin/root/source.

 

The Heart of Living as a Principle - is NOT based on experience as either Positive or Negative - it is based on seeing reality directly and immediately take action, when and as the root/core/origin/source of the relationship that formed a part of this reality was misaligned with the principle of what is best for all.

 

Unfortunately, that in itself, would not change this world because, as I've explained in the previous blog, one's Living expression of oneself as one particle in this entire existence, won't change the foundation and the structure of the physical reality. I mean, even if I'm Here, fully aware of my own physical body and all the physical relationships that this physical reality consisting of and existing as, I would not be able, by myself, to change this world to a world that is best for all because we are already living in a manifested consequences that are far worse then what we can even imagine and to correct it - we all must come together and Correct the core/source/root/origin of the problem because one must understand - we are the Problem.

 

Will continue in the next blog.

Stupidity Loop - Jumping from the Bad to the Good to the Bad - Day 196

This is a continuation to:

The Elite's delusion of stress - Part 1 - Day 45

The Elite's Delusion of Stress - Part 2 - Day 46

The Decision of TIME - Day 67

And:

Copy Paste Character - the Way for Success? - Day 183

Copy Paste Character - The Education System - Day 184

Is it possible to Cheat yourself? Day 185

It is time to STOP Existing as a Human Machine - Day 186

The End of Times - Day 187

Facing the Evil within - the KEY to LIFE - Day 188

Fear of Disappointing others - Day 189

The Psychology of TIME - Day 190

I Regret, therefor, I'm a Good Person. NOT!!! - Day 191

The REAL Fear - Day 192

The things we Won't tell ANYONE - Day 193

Missing out on the Good Life - Day 194

Let's have some Fun - Day 195

For the purpose of context, suggest reading these posts above prior to reading the post below, if you haven’t already. Here I will be walking the 'I don't have TIME' Character -Imagination Dimension - Practical support with Self Forgiveness and Self Commitments.

 

Imagination Dimension:

* I fantasize of taking a vacation, lying down on the beach, with nothing else to do but enjoy the sun, swimming in the ocean, going to a restaurant, having a fruit shake - in India or Thailand lol.

* I imagine other people doing the same just now, while I'm stuck on the computer, doing my routine work.

* I imagine the life of those who have money and can do what ever they want with their life - having a spa day, going out, enjoying themselves as I used to do myself a few years back.

* I imagine people coming back from work, after a long day, and sitting on the coach with their partner, hanging out, watching a movie, laying back, with nothing really to do.

 

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* I fantasize of taking a vacation, lying down on the beach, with nothing else to do but enjoy the sun, swimming in the ocean, going to a restaurant, having a fruit shake - in India or Thailand lol.

 

This is a direct imagination deriving from the initial picture that I've seen yesterday and I have shared in my blog: Let's have some Fun - Day 195

 

Self Forgiveness:

 

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to hold onto a memory experience of me spending a long period of time overseas where all I've done all day was lying on the beach during the days and partying during the nights and within that memory, contain the experience of Freedom as an energetic experience.

 

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to limit myself to such an extent, believing that lying on the beach and partying at night is the definition of Freedom and within that, deliberately "forgetting" the inner Negative experience that I've experienced while on vacation, the anxiety when meeting new people, the depression that I've suppressed and the slight sadness that was constant within and as me. Within that, I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to deliberately suppress the Negative experience and only remember the positive experience so that I won't have to face, correct and change both the Negative and Positive as Energetic experiences and in that, remain limited to only exists as polarized Energy experiences that would activate constantly and continuously the 'I don't have time' Character that I've accepted and allowed as myself.

 

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to NOT allow myself to investigate how the mind works and functions and who I am as the mind and thus, when and as a picture of a good and positive experience came up from within me, instead of stopping and investigating the source/nature of the picture, what the picture represents, why the picture suddenly came up, who I am as the picture, what activate the picture, where did this picture came from and what the picture implies about me, I've accepted and allowed myself to follow and go into the imagination dimension, preoccupying myself in my mind, in total separation from what is REAL, as Breathe, this Physical reality because, in doing so, I don't have to face the physicality, that which is Real, and that which is going on in front of me - Life, that I've missed in every moment I've accepted and allowed myself being in my mind, within the imagination domain.

 

I forgive myself that I've NOT accepted and allowed myself to see, realize and understand the stupidity loop that I've accepted and allowed within myself wherein - what I've NOT accepted and allowed myself to realize is that both the Negative experience as what I face in the physical reality within the 'I don't have time' character and the positive Experience that I'm imagining in my mind - Both are NOT real from the perspective that both is my acceptance and allowance of seeing existent through my eyes as the mind and not seeing the physical reality as a whole, directly, in a quantum moment. Meaning - the Negative experience as I perceive my reality to be like as a burden of all the tasks and work I must do, in a specific moment that the 'I don't have time' character is activated is through a veil that I've placed, Deliberately, as a mind Barrier and that negative experience can only exists through comparing the experience to the positive experience as imagination, in my mind.

 

Self Commitments:

 

I commit myself to SHOW and PROVE that how we see reality is ONLY through our mind as accumulated experiences that we so blindly believe to be real where our own self interest is the stepping stone which we would direct, move and walk this LIFE with no consideration to the actual and real Physical reality, to not face all of ourselves - bad and good, the Negative and Positive as energy experiences, so that we won't have to  take the responsibility, change and correct ourselves within and without - ourselves and this world as a whole, in physical Equality and Oneness.

 

I commit myself to when and as I see myself going into the imagination domain, in my mind, to stop, breathe and question the existent of the imagination, in specificity and in that- to ask myself questions and answer in self honesty until I see the entire design, see the positive/Negative experience cycle I've participated within and as and in that, investigate what it was , that I've tried to ignore, deny and suppress as the negative experience through running away to the realms of my mind as imagination as the positive experience and obviously, accordingly, change and correct my physical application.

Let's have some Fun - Day 195

 

 

This is a continuation to:

The Elite's delusion of stress - Part 1 - Day 45

The Elite's Delusion of Stress - Part 2 - Day 46

The Decision of TIME - Day 67

And:

Copy Paste Character - the Way for Success? - Day 183

Copy Paste Character - The Education System - Day 184

Is it possible to Cheat yourself? Day 185

It is time to STOP Existing as a Human Machine - Day 186

The End of Times - Day 187

Facing the Evil within - the KEY to LIFE - Day 188

Fear of Disappointing others - Day 189

The Psychology of TIME - Day 190

I Regret, therefor, I'm a Good Person. NOT!!! - Day 191

The REAL Fear - Day 192

The things we Won't tell ANYONE - Day 193

Missing out on the Good Life - Day 194

 

For the purpose of context, suggest reading these posts above prior to reading the post below, if you haven’t already. Here I will be walking the 'I don't have TIME' Character - Thought as Picture Dimension - Practical support with Self Forgiveness and Self Commitments.

 

 

Thoughts Dimension:

I see myself pleasuring out in the sun, taking a swim, lying on the grass, watching a movie.

 

In looking at my words - it is clear that the thought that pop up in my head when I access the 'I don't have time' character is based on………… Self Interest. Because what the picture represents is a Desire for a Positive experience that would benefit ME and ME alone and even if I wouldn't act on it in my day to day living application, I still desire it, it is still a point that influence the decisions I make because I've separated myself from the Desire to such an extent that I couldn't even see the existent of the Desire within and as me because this thought as picture flashes so fast that unless I slow down completely from the starting point of being self honest with myself and see it, I would never notice or have been aware that this thought as picture is existent within and as me; and accordingly, would have still make decisions based on a Desire that I'm not even aware of, in total separation from myself, as an automated machine with no self awareness whatsoever.

 

Thus -

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to separate myself to such an extent that I'm not aware at all of my own mind flashing thoughts as picture, in quantum time, which then thus, these thoughts as picture would the hidden foundation of my decisions within the belief that it was ME who made the decision, that the decision was informed, calculated, considered.

 

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to come up with a picture in my head of me pleasuring out in the sun, taking a swim or lying in the grass or watching a movie that activated the possession of 'I don't have TIME' character and through accepting and allowing this picture to exists within and as me, I've accepted and allowed myself to get myself further into the realm of my mind, feeling sorry for myself for not having time to do the things I believe I enjoy doing because it is apparently, gives me a positive energetic feeling, as an experience.

 

I forgive myself that I've NOT accepted and allowed myself to see, realize and understand that for the mind, Participating in the 'I don't have time' character is a "positive" thing because the mind isn't functioning on the differentiation between positive and Negative energy; for the mind, energy is just energy that the mind would utilize for its survival. In that, I forgive myself that I've NOT accepted and allowed myself to See, Realize and Understand that the polarity within the 'I don't have time' character exists within and as one's self interest desire for positive experience vs. the Negative Experience such as feeling sorry for oneself for having lots of work to do.

 

In that, I forgive myself that I've NOT accepted and allowed myself to see that for the polarity existent within the 'I don't have time' character, the thought as a picture activate the character from a comparison starting point wherein, unless one compare one's current experience through a picture of a desired positive experience, one would not be able to define one's current experience as negative. 

Thus,

 

I commit myself to assist and support myself with getting to know the entirety of myself and in that, to slow myself Down so completely that I would be able to see what I've accepted and allowed myself to activate each and every character that I've created within and as myself and through realizing the design of the character, the activation/trigger point, I would understand and realize how I as the mind works and functions and accordingly, Forgive myself for my previous acceptance and allowances in separation of myself and practically assist and support myself in changing the pattern/characters/personality to no longer be govern by my own creation that I've created in separation of and as myself.

 

I commit myself to delete the picture in my mind - 'pleasuring out in the sun, taking a swim, lying on the grass, watching a movie' as I now see, realize and understand why and how I've accepted and allowed this picture to exists within and as me as the foundation of the 'I don't have time' character so that I could compare my current experience with the experience the picture represents, which would perpetuate the negative experience and from there - the path to self destruction is already known.

 

I commit myself to further expand the investigation and self introspection regarding Self Interest in its entirety and all the various dimensions of myself as my mind as I see now, how Evil it is in fact, to exists within and as Self Interest and the consequences self interest application manifest within my life and the life of all.

The things we Won't tell ANYONE - Day 193

This is a continuation to:

The Elite's delusion of stress - Part 1 - Day 45

The Elite's Delusion of Stress - Part 2 - Day 46

The Decision of TIME - Day 67

And:

Copy Paste Character - the Way for Success? - Day 183

Copy Paste Character - The Education System - Day 184

Is it possible to Cheat yourself? Day 185

It is time to STOP Existing as a Human Machine - Day 186

The End of Times - Day 187

Facing the Evil within - the KEY to LIFE - Day 188

Fear of Disappointing others - Day 189

The Psychology of TIME - Day 190

I Regret, therefor, I'm a Good Person. NOT!!! - Day 191

The REAL Fear - Day 192

 

For the purpose of context, suggest reading these posts above prior to reading the post below, if you haven’t already. Here I will be walking the 'I don't have TIME' Character - Fear Dimension - Practical support with Self Forgiveness and Self Commitments.

 

The List below consists of the Fears which are the foundation of the 'I don't have Time' Character.

 

Fear Dimension:

* Fear that I'll disappoint other people if I won't take more tasks on myself

* Fear that I would be defined as unworthy because I'm not using my time to

it's utmost potential.

* Fear that I won't get things done and would regret it when consequences

would emerged so basically, fear of the consequences.

* Fear that I would be seen as not good enough, replaceable, inadequate

* Fear of being exposed as self dishonest because I know, that if I put my self

interest desires aside, I'm able to walk my tasks in absolute perfection.

* Fear of Missing out the Positive as Entertainment

 

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* Fear of being exposed as self dishonest because I know, that if I put my self

interest desires aside, I'm able to walk my tasks in absolute perfection.

 

Self Forgiveness:

 

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to - Despite of seeing my own self-dishonesties through observing my own thoughts/backchats, I've developed a relationship towards being self dishonest and had hold that relationship so dearly through developing FEAR of being exposed for what I've accepted and allowed instead of standing up, Face myself as all that I've accepted and allowed myself to be and become, inside and out and obviously - change myself accordingly.

 

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to place my own desire as valuable, and in that, disregarding the principle of that which is best for all life as that principle do not stand in alignment to my own self interest desires and within that, I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to FALL within moments where my self interest desires override the principle of that which is best for all lives, deliberately because one ALWAYS know what one is accepting and allowing within oneself but one would justify and validate why one should pursue one's desires and make it OK within one's eyes despite of seeing, directly what one is accepting and allowing oneself to participate with, one's own deliberate self dishonesty within the hope that no one would notice, no one will be effected or harm because only self knows what self is planning, and justify in one's mind and in that, one would FEAR being exposed so that one could keep on acting in on the behalf on one's self interest and remain an abuser of Life without ever having to take SELF responsibility and change.

 

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to deliberately round the corners and walk a task till it's acceptable, but not perfect within the excuse that I don't have time and I have many other tasks waiting in queue and I simply can't invest my time in walking in perfection. Within that, I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to ignore, suppress, hide and avoid my inner self honesty force of stopping myself for harming, sabotaging and compromising myself within my accepted and allowed decision to round the corners instead of walking in self perfection and as long as no one knows that I've compromised a task, I can get along with it, remain self dishonest and untrustworthy in fact. 

 

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to truly believe that if no one knows about my inner thoughts and decisions, I'll be fine and everything would be OK, and within that, accepting and allowing the FEAR of being exposed because I haven't accepted and allowed myself to move and direct myself in self honesty, breath by breath and only FEARed being exposed as who I have accepted and allowed myself to be and become because my entire self definition is based on what others would say about me or see me as. In that, I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to in spite of seeing my own fear of being exposed as untrustworthy, I have done nothing about it to in fact change.

 

Self Commitments:

 

I commit myself to - when and as I see I have inner conversation with myself, scamming how to round the corners so that no one would noticed, to Immediately Stop as I see, realize and understand the relationship I've created with being dishonest within myself and with that relationship, to fear being exposed because once I am exposed, the relationship I've created with myself must fall.

 

I commit myself to get HERE, Physically, in full awareness of everything the is HERE and to do that, I commit myself to assist and support myself to expose ALL my inner self interest desires as I see, realize and understand that unless I stand, within and as the principle of that which is best for all lives and in that, letting go my own self interest desires, there is no real and substantial change within myself and accordingly in the world as what I allow to exists within, I allow to exist without.

 

I commit myself to SHOW and EXPOSE the Evil that we have become within the hope and belief that what we think in the inside, doesn't harm, influence, sabotage and compromise anything and anyone and in that, I commit myself to prove that the EVIL exists within each and everyone of us and unless we come to terms with the fact that we are EVIL, no change is possible within oneself and this world as a whole. I commit myself to PROVE that when one accept and allow oneself to THINK - one is EVIL.

For Further understanding of EVILness - suggest listening to: Day 187 - EVIL – Journey to Life  and study the Quantum Mind on EQAFE

The REAL Fear - Day 192

This is a continuation to:

The Elite's delusion of stress - Part 1 - Day 45

The Elite's Delusion of Stress - Part 2 - Day 46

The Decision of TIME - Day 67

And:

Copy Paste Character - the Way for Success? - Day 183

Copy Paste Character - The Education System - Day 184

Is it possible to Cheat yourself? Day 185

It is time to STOP Existing as a Human Machine - Day 186

The End of Times - Day 187

Facing the Evil within - the KEY to LIFE - Day 188

Fear of Disappointing others - Day 189

The Psychology of TIME - Day 190

I Regret, therefor, I'm a Good Person. NOT!!! - Day 191

 

For the purpose of context, suggest reading these posts above prior to reading the post below, if you haven’t already. Here I will be walking the 'I don't have TIME' Character - Fear Dimension - Practical support with Self Forgiveness and Self Commitments.

 

The List below consists of the Fears which are the foundation of the 'I don't have Time' Character.

 

 

Fear Dimension:

* Fear that I'll disappoint other people if I won't take more tasks on myself

* Fear that I would be defined as unworthy because I'm not using my time to

it's utmost potential.

* Fear that I won't get things done and would regret it when consequences

would emerged so basically, fear of the consequences.

* Fear that I would be seen as not good enough, replaceable, inadequate

* Fear of being exposed as self dishonest because I know, that if I put my self

interest desires aside, I'm able to walk my tasks in absolute perfection.

* Fear of Missing out the Positive as Entertainment

 

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* Fear that I would be seen as not good enough, replaceable, inadequate

 

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to Fear not being seen as good enough, replaceable or inadequate without giving me the permission to see the REAL fear that I'm accepting and allowing within and as myself which is in essence the fear of loss the Value I've assign to What I Do. Wherein:

Fear of being replaceable in one's Job/work is in itself clearly shows that one had assign value towards one's Job/work through which one is defining oneself as worthy and when one is being replaced, one take it personally because one defined oneself as one's Job/work.

Fear of feeling Inadequate implies that again, one had taken one's Job/work as one's self definition and thus, when the outcome isn't meet one's or other's expectation, one take it personally instead of Stopping for a moment, breath and see, in self honesty whether one should invest the time and effort in aligning one's skills, perfect oneself, learn from other's example and from there, walk in every moment within and as self trust.

Fear of being seen as no good enough is again, taking things personally because one could have investigated where one wasn't standing within and as the principle of that which is best for all and accordingly, align oneself but when taking things personally, one is so possessed in one's mind that no Common sense is seen or considered.

 

Within that thus, I commit myself to - when and as I see a thought and or reaction in the nature of fear of losing a point that I've defined myself as, to Stop, Breathe, and investigate in self honest why and how I've accepted and allowed myself to separate myself from who I am to such an extant that I've limited myself to only this one point as self definition instead of Value myself as who I am as I direct, move and support myself in walking breath by breath, in getting myself back Here and out of the mind. I see, realize and understand that Value myself as Who I am isn't base on energy movement, on self definition, on others to validate myself. Value myself means that I recognized that I'm Here, and that I'm walking towards getting Here, as Who I am and within that, assisting and supporting myself in making decision that are supportive in fact as a principle of Life that is best for all and in that, not accepting and allowing myself to fuck myself with automated reactions, thoughts, behaviours that originated from Fears which I haven't taken the responsibility to look at, investigate, realize myself and accordingly direct.