A process to Self Respect and Integrity - Day 366

Walking the process of Self Respect requires me to go back in time and identify the moment that I've made the decision to disrespect myself. Obviously, it is not an easy task because I made sure to suppress that decision so deep down because otherwise, how could I remain consistent with the lack of self integrity and self respect.

What is clear to me now is that to be able to walk in self respect, I cannot trust my mind even in moments where it seems so convincing to follow the thoughts/imaginations/emotions/feelings that comes up. I have followed my mind so many times and in each time, the illusion reality as future projection never met the physical reality and in this, never actually benefited me in anyway whatsoever.

 

What is interesting was the moment when I realized that I fell into the very same pattern was the moment where I promised myself that I will not follow this path again and instantaneously, in a quantum moment, the same pattern emerged only now, it was different sceneries, different people or in other words, different characters. When I investigated the point, I saw that the same had happened throughout my life wherein in one moment I let go of one point, and so suddenly and unexpectedly, a new point emerged, in a quantum time although it is not a 'new' point per say, it just presented itself as a new point while all along, it was just the same ole pattern repeating itself.

 

I see now the mechanics of how the pattern that I was working with was never released unconditionally but instead, mutated itself in a disguised so that it would be difficult to identify and once I've seen that I'm busy generating the energy that this pattern consists of, I decided to stop and write and to for once and for all, accept and allow myself to walk myself to self respect by letting this pattern go unconditionally, a pattern that I've lived as, so long as I can remember myself.

 

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to disrespect myself by accepting and allowing myself to follow my mind and in this, the thoughts, emotions and feelings that I programmed in my flesh throughout my life. In this, I forgive myself that I've NOT accepted and allowed myself to realize that I was the one who decided to give power to these thoughts, emotions and feelings that I've programmed within myself and within that, also installed the program to "forget" that I was the one who have programmed myself in disrespect or integrity but in this, I now see, realize and understand that I also created myself a door to walk through and step out of this self created cycle through standing up in clarity, self trust, self honesty, respect and integrity.

 

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to disrespect myself by following the repeating thoughts, emotions and feelings that I've placed inside myself and in this, I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to believe my own self programmed thoughts, emotions and feelings even though the physical reality contradicted and invalidated any of the thoughts, emotions and feelings that came up from within me without my directive will.

 

I forgive myself that I've NOT accepted and allowed myself to STOP the very moment a thought comes up, a thought that I already knows where it would lead me and who I would become once I decide to follow the thought. In this, I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to loop again and again based on one single thought that comes up in cycles of times. However within this, I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to judge myself for following the thought that can only lead to a destructive patterns, after I've seen the consequences of following the thought and within that, I have not accepted and allowed myself to correct the pattern because I was busy judging myself for falling, not realizing that in the very moment I accepted and allowed the judgement, was the moment where I've upgraded my own self programming and so, created a new form of thought as justification and excuses for why it is valid to access the pattern again. Thus, I forgive myself for NOT accepting and allowing myself to humble myself in moments I realize that I have fallen which from there I am able to stand up, investigate and correct myself instead of judging myself and in the judgement, quantumly upgrade the programming to snick in again without my direct awareness.

 

I thus Commit myself to identify the thoughts that had led me to destructive repetitive patterns and accordingly, when and as a thought comes up, I stop, I laugh about it and move on while breathing myself out of the pattern. In this, I commit myself to NOT accept and allow myself to judge myself when the pattern emerge but to instead, change my starting point, align myself, learn and correct myself. I see, realize and understand that it took me decays to program patterns so perfectly within and as myself and therefore, removing patterns requires the same consistent it took me to program patterns from the get go and thus, all I must do is stick to my decision of respecting myself, develop my integrity by stopping my participation with destructive patterns that do not support myself.

 

I commit myself to NOT accept and allow myself to upgrade the pattern but to instead remove the pattern through consistent application of Stopping participation and returning to physical breathing. I now see, realize and understand the extent of repetitive patterns that are layered within me and so I see now how I was the one who directly accepted and allowed my own creation of repetitive patterns as integral part of my self definition and so, I make the commitment to assist and support myself no matter how long it will take till I stop the participation with repetitive patterns that do not support me or others.

The Power of Fears - Day 360

 

This is a continuation to the Previous blog: The Compartment of Now - Day 359.

Now that we see how we can look at our lives and even our days, through a map of compartments representing moments in time that would always start in one Breath in and one Breathe out, we can start having a look at how Fears are the one Factor that would limit us from walking each compartment, each moment in time, to the best of our ability in consolidating our strengths and enhancing our natural skills; fears are the one thing that we believe to be Real as we haven't not realized how and why we made them physically and mentally be real through our participation within ourselves and within this world as a whole.

 

Let's have a look at the following example:

We have decided to walk a new adventure in our life, whether it be higher level of education studies, or a new job or a new business, there would always be a specific steps one must take to manifest the desired result. For instance, we decided to registered to medical school and to do that, we require to have previous track record upon which the medical school board would make the decision of whether or not passing they should pass us to the next phase of evaluation where we will be verbally reviewed by a committee to see if our character is aligned with what it takes to be a doctor according to the guideline the Medical school board had drawn out.

 

So we have applied and sent through all the relevant information we were required to submit for the first phase of evaluation. In other words, we are now walking a specific compartment in our life which we must have entered to while we were breathing in, and within that compartment, we require to collect all the relevant data for our initial application and in that moment in time, this specific compartment would end the moment we send through our application and if we slow ourselves down, we will noticed that what we naturally did when we posted our application by mail was taking a breath out didn't we?

 

So now, what do we know? That in 6-8 weeks, we will receive a letter from the medical school board, indicating whether or not we will continue with our evaluation or not. What would be our 'natural' behaviour is to worry about the answer we would receive in 6-8 weeks, from the moment we sent the application through.

Some of us would imagine how it would feel like to get the positive reply from the school board and how it would be to be a doctor and some of us would expect the worst and could already see themselves failing in the first stage. However, even those who are expecting positive result, what would be the dominant point that would trigger them to imagine positive result is the fear that they won't get what they want.

Is there anything practical in worrying about whether or not we got accepted or not? Is there anything we could possible do to change the result from the moment we posted our application till the day we would receive an answer? How does the quality of our lives is affected within these 6-8 weeks that we consistently participating in worries and fears of the future? How does the next compartment as moment in time that we are now in, is influenced by our emotional state and condition of fear? How does the physical body affected from the pressure we put the body through, so long as we accept and allow ourselves to participate within something that is so counterproductive such as fearing a point in the future we have no idea how it would play out? a point in the future that we cannot even control..

 

Here was just an example through which we could start understanding how ineffective we become once we allow fears to determine the quality of our lives.
Now, we can go further and see how our lives would play out during the next 6-8 weeks of which we anticipating the result to come in. For instance, let's say we decided to read a book - how quickly would we lose our focus and go into our minds, imagining again all the possible outcomes and how our lives would look like within each potential out come?

Let's say we are cooking dinner and as we chop the vegetable, we suddenly imagining ourselves performing a surgery, holding the scalpel in our hands,  saving lives, hearing all the life support machine until the fear kicks in and immediately we go into anxiety: "but what if I won't get accepted?" and ooops, what happen? We slightly cut our finger because we were simply not aware of that which is here as a physical action of cutting the vegetable; a moment that started with us taking a breath in, where we made the decision to prepare a salad and what should have been a moment of breathing out when the salad is done however now, we must move to the next compartment, to the next moment in time that would again start with breathing in only that now, instead of finishing up the salad, we must dress the cut we have so neglectfully did to ourselves while spending time in our mind instead of focusing on the physical living application of a simply thing such as cutting a vegetable.

 

More on that will come in my next blog.

Why doesn't God answer my Prayers? Day 349

 

Why doesn't God answer the Prayers of those who starve?

Why doesn't God answer the Prayers of those who in a daily pain?

Why doesn't God answer the prayers of the children who are born into slavery?

Why does God only answer those with Money?

Why does God only answer with/trough Money?

Wait! Does that mean that God is in essence Money?

 

For a few years I prayed as well. I didn't call it God, I called it Grandfather (that had died). When my prayer didn't come through, I finally decided to stop but it didn't last long and a few years later I found another 'higher source' I could pray to. This time I called it 'Guide'. But.. This guide didn't answer my prayer either and I felt lost for a moment until I started to develop some form of common sense in adding the points together when I asked the above questions.

 

So I realized that Money is the force that direct our lives; that Money decide who lives and who dies; that Karma is just a brand name that was used to make us either feel better with ourselves if we have money or at least enough money to suppress the truth of ourselves or make us feel guilty and ashamed if we born to the wrong side of the Money polarity.

 

I think that it is safe to say that if God really exist, he doesn't do a great job and its creation had evolved to something that if God would have existed, he would be ashamed of himself for accepting and allowing this existence to become the manifestation it is now.

 

So, wouldn't you agree that it is time to take our godly powers back to ourselves and correct the mess that we live in? wouldn't you want to ensure that your children and grandchildren could live in a world where abundance is not a world that is associated with only a select few? Wouldn't you want the future of your generation to come to be a future where they could actually live in dignity and integrity without fearing for their survival? I'm sure you do. So let's do some simple Math:

At the moment: God = Money. and what is it that we truly desire for? A Life that can actually be lived in peace and harmony. Does, what needs to be changed? The value we define Money as. If we change the value of Money to Value that encompass LIFE that is best for ALL (Which include you as part of the all), we could finally start changing the course of our living experiences isn't right?

 

So - to learn how it can practically be done - Investigate the Equal Money System where the starting point of Money is Life that is best for all. Explore the possibilities of your Future and the future of your Loved one if only you would dare to take what was always belong to you but you forgot about it -> Life! It's time for a change so be the change you want to see in this world, in a practical and physical manner.

 

Determine the Future through the Past - Day 280

I was looking today at an interesting design of how we structure our lives, based on the Past, within the knowledge and information that we have gathered thus far, as memories, experiences, beliefs, opinion and etc.  and accordingly, project it all on the Future within the belief that X,Y,Z are then the only possible outcomes.

 

An Example -

As a child, I dreamt about being a National Geographic Photographer because:

 

A. I enjoyed taking pictures.

B. I Fantasized on traveling around the world.

Thus, A+B brought me to the conclusion that I must become a National Geographic Photographer.
Then, as i grow up, more variables came into the Equation:

C. There isn't much income in it.

D. I won't be able to have a stable and constant Home and Family because I'll be traveling around the world.

Thus, A+B+C+D brought me to the Conclusion that I cannot pursue my Childhood Dream because C+D had more value according to my Pre-program Design.

 

From there, when seeing that C+D are more valuable and powerful, I changed the Variables:

E. I want to be a Psychologist because I want to help people.

So I registered to the University, got accepted, found an apartment and was 2 months a way from starting my new life path.

But then, in the Summer brake, I discovered that there was 'More' to life then what I knew about life thus far (School, Army, Traveling, University). I discovered 'Partying', Alcohol, Men and a perceive sense of Freedom and thus now:

F. I want to Party and have fun - that doesn't work with studying.

So I dropped out of school before I even started and now, the Family Pressure started to kick in as I was pushed to do something with my life meaning - get education.

So now that F is a valuable variable, I looked at how I can manipulate D with maintaining F.

My Parties Friends told me about a Private Collage where they plan to go to, and how awesome the Social life there, and the people are all rich and good looking and.. The parties.. The best parties ever.. And because I knew that my parents will pay anything for the sake of my education, I thus decided:

G. I will Study Business and Marketing within a special program that include last year of Education in Las Vegas. That sound like Fun. But, it doesn't really fit in with the Preprogram design because, I must stay in Israel, Develop a Career, find my partner, get married and have Kids. So The Family Pressure kicked in again and I decided to change G. to:

H. I'll study Business with specialty in Finance and at the same time I'll do L.L.B in Law.   

 

I finished school and now had to stop the Partying stage, find a job and be something in this world. I started a job in marketing. Without realizing, I became poor really quick because I could no longer be a bar tender and make lots of money with the living expanses of renting a house and owning a car, Food, Electricity and Etc.

 

I quit my job for a what was seem at that time as a promising career as a trader in the Capital Market. That wasn't a huge success and I had to quit after a year because I was really not good at my job. I didn't know what to do next because all my attempts to manifest D were coming to nothing. Sure, I had B.A in Business and L.L.B in Law but there was absolute nothing I wanted to do with that. I still couldn't see my future and specifically, couldn't see future happiness unless D will in some may would manifest.

 

This all story is to show you that we are making our decisions based on Prospect Experiences/Desires and Past Memories/Experiences, Beliefs, ideas and etc. that were infuse into us already in childhood and we blindly accepted this is if this is who we are and the life we must walk as who we are.

 

D, was a direct influence within every decision that I made throughout my life while I never stopped and actually invested a moment to investigate each and every point and within that, look at what I really want, Where and how I can discover my fullest potential that would truly give me a life that I'll be satisfied with, in every single moment with no Shadow of Regret.

 

When looking at D: 

 

"I won't be able to have a stable and constant Home and Family because I'll be traveling around the world"

 

Stable and Constant Home/Family indicate that what I wished for in essence was Security of the Future that only Money could give me. Home and Family Represent Stability according to the world System eye's view and that is something that each one of us is being trained to desire from the first moment we remember ourselves. It has been advertised in any Children books, Movies, Magazines and TV Shows. It has been advertised in every Religion and Culture. We have been Programed, generation after Generation to maintain and sustain a Life of Survival within Separation as a principle. We have been Trained to do what ever it takes to Win the life anyone wants to have while only 1% of the 1% can physically have. We have Compromised through the Belief that Love worth it all despite of the Common sense seeing that Love doesn't bring food to the table but Money is.

 

To Understand Preprograming in a nutshell, I suggest reading my blog series - 'The correction Process and the Desteni Message' and in the Future to Come, a new series will be available on EQAFE - the Physical Quantum Mind which would explain in Detail how the Pre-Program works on a Physical Quantum Mind Level and how  the first 7 years of a Child life would be the stepping stone from which the Child develop and Establish the Variables that would shape and mould every decision one would make throughout one's life. 

 

The point here to understand is: The Future is Unknown to us at the moment as we have separated ourselves from who we are and as such, can not see the physical reality clearly within all the relationships/variables it consist of and exists as. Sure, we can make common sense plans to make sure that our survival in this world is stable because we are still living in a system of Money and Survival. A point to consider here - is this the Life we want to leave for our Children? Is this the Future we want our Children to have? Isn't it the time to stop and create a future of abundance for all the member of the Family - Humans, Nature and the Animal Kingdom? If you find it in you to stand up for a future of Absolute Security, safety and dignity for all, I suggest to study the Equal Money System Proposal.

 

And on the Individual Level, one must understand how limited we are within our mind wherein, we believe that we can predict our future according to the variables we place in our Life-Equations without realizing that there are much more variables that we haven't consider at all. The Depression that I experienced in my life was due to me looking at the future through the glasses of the Past and not seeing anything that is worthwhile that may manifested within the Frame of Reference I programmed myself as.

I've realized though, that being Depressed when the Physical reality doesn't meat the Future Reality that I've planned, desired and wished for in my mind indicate the extent of separation that I have accepted and allowed within and as myself because in self honesty, I'm in a process of self discovery and if I project to  the future who I am now, I'm not giving me the space and time to expand, grow and discover myself because 'Who I am' in every moment was never part of the Dynamic Equation of Life.

Expecting the worst - Day 49

Art by Marlen Vargas Del Razo

Art by Marlen Vargas Del Razo

This a continuation for my blog post from yesterday - Lost in the Future - Day 48

I forgive myself that I've accepted allowed myself to dramatize and make things bigger in my head and always expecting for the worst to happened and I have failed to realize that within walking breath by breath and facing everything that comes on my way within stability and calmness, I'm able to direct myself effectively and make decisions that has actual physical ground instead of trying and attempting to make decisions that are based on reactions of fear that do not support me or anyone else.

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to always think and believe that things will get worse and thus, I must prepare myself for each scenario that might emerge and I haven't considered that by those very thoughts, I'm actually creating the way before me for the worst out come that I will face instead of taking the responsibility to write it down for myself and see what is able to be faced, correct and walked and to stop the creation of unnecessary consequences.

I forgive myself that I've NOT accepted and allowed myself to see, realize and understand the consequences of participating in the dramatized thoughts, reactions, feelings and emotions in my mind and thus, instead of focusing on the things that I can change, I'm being occupied in my mind in irrelevant thoughts and within that, denying myself the opportunity to direct, move and walk myself breath by breath in absolute self responsibility.

I forgive myself that I've NOT accepted and allowed myself to instead of enjoying that which is here, to hold on the thoughts of: "it soon going to be over and I'm going to be disappointed so I better not allow myself to make the utmost of it" and I simply wait impatient for stuff to get worse. Within that, I forgive myself that I've NOT accepted and allowed myself to see the consequences that I'm creating through accessing my mind and always waiting for the worse to happen because I have failed to realize how the mind works, how creation works and my responsibility within it.

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself in a moment where things are actually getting worse, to panic and react in fear and instead of breathing, slowing myself down and look at the equations, I allowed myself to access my mind within the belief that I can make it work if I think about gateways to avoid that which is here for me to face, that which I've created in my own hands (or minds lol) and sort the shit out for once and for all instead of going time after time in a cycle that leads to no where; a time loop.

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to - within a relationship/agreement, to always fear that the relationship/agreement will fail and I'll get hurt and thus, I compromise and mould myself within several personalities that which one of them can give me a fake security and yet, I haven't realized that the very fear of ending the relationship/agreement will manifest itself for me to be able to face, stand up and clear myself from the dependency that I've created in separation of me, regardless of how many personalities I will create to be able to maintain the relationship agreement.

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to deliberately create Dramas in my life so that I could align myself with my friends within the starting point of having something to share/talk about and be the one that things happened to her so that I could get attention from my friends and within that I forgive myself that I've NOT accepted and allowed myself to consider the harm and abuse that I'm causing to myself and my human physical body within the drama creation only for feeling a part of a friendship relationship without realizing that if I require drama to sustain my relationships in my life, what value the relationship hold? Why am I allowing myself to participate in relationship where I require to supply dramatic stories to spice up the communication and I haven't allowed myself to establish supportive communication where instead of creating a mind reality, we assist and support each other to create a physical reality that is based on the principle of that which is best for all.

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to define dramatized life as interesting and thus, when friends shared with me all the dramas that are happening in their life, I've judged my life as boring and I haven't realized that within that moment of judgement, I've made the decision to create dramas which than, I took myself to places that was literally unnecessary to walk  for the sake of having 'interesting Life experience' without any consideration of the consequences, the outflows and the prices that I will pay for my decision.

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to define 'Drama' within the experience of feeling alive and I have failed to see that living in my mind within the drama creations is in no way a form of LIFE  but in fact, a form of self abuse.

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to worry about the future and expect the worst to happened and thus, instead of speaking and standing up and direct the point, I allowed myself to backchat in my mind within the attempt of figuring out a solution and I haven't considered that a solution must be physical and practical and it will not be magically fixed if I continue thinking about it without doing something about it - either within myself through writing and SF if the point doesn't have a physical ground to it or through communicating the point and ask for assistance if the point can be physically directed.

I forgive myself that I've NOT accepted and allowed myself to see that the real and physical Drama that exists is of those who have nothing to eat and no where to live while I'm busy occupying myself in my mind within my own created Drama and I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to= while being preoccupied in my mind within self creating Drama, I've ignore, disregarded or considered the real Drama of this physical realty.

I commit myself to stop the Drama in my mind and to stop creating unnecessary Drama in my physical LIFE.

I commit myself to develop and establish relationships that are not based on Drama but rather based on supportive communication within the principle of that which is best for all.

I commit myself to stop existing in the future within the pattern of expecting for the worst to happened and to walk myself breath by breath, Here - face, direct and correct that which required to be faced.

I commit myself to stop looking for Drama as a pattern that I've programmed myself throughout my life and instead simply walk in self trust because I am more than capable to walk breath by breath and face my own self creation within a process of stopping pattern by pattern until I'm absolutely here, as a living physical expression.

I commit myself to show the difference between mind created drama and a physical drama to assist those who are busy in their mind to step out of it to be able to stand up and correct the real drama that exists in this world which requires immediate consideration and correction.

 

I commit myself to assist and support with those who dare facing and change themselves and that which they have become in their process of stopping their patterns one by one, breath by breath.

I commit myself to show and explain in details how and why we have separated ourselves from all that is here into our own little bubble of the mind within thoughts, emotions and feelings and show by example how to assist and support oneself within taking responsibility for one's mind, stop patterns, align oneself to oneself in equality and oneness and to finally live a life that is not determined by the mind but is walked in alignment with and as the physical.