Determine the Future through the Past - Day 280

I was looking today at an interesting design of how we structure our lives, based on the Past, within the knowledge and information that we have gathered thus far, as memories, experiences, beliefs, opinion and etc.  and accordingly, project it all on the Future within the belief that X,Y,Z are then the only possible outcomes.

 

An Example -

As a child, I dreamt about being a National Geographic Photographer because:

 

A. I enjoyed taking pictures.

B. I Fantasized on traveling around the world.

Thus, A+B brought me to the conclusion that I must become a National Geographic Photographer.
Then, as i grow up, more variables came into the Equation:

C. There isn't much income in it.

D. I won't be able to have a stable and constant Home and Family because I'll be traveling around the world.

Thus, A+B+C+D brought me to the Conclusion that I cannot pursue my Childhood Dream because C+D had more value according to my Pre-program Design.

 

From there, when seeing that C+D are more valuable and powerful, I changed the Variables:

E. I want to be a Psychologist because I want to help people.

So I registered to the University, got accepted, found an apartment and was 2 months a way from starting my new life path.

But then, in the Summer brake, I discovered that there was 'More' to life then what I knew about life thus far (School, Army, Traveling, University). I discovered 'Partying', Alcohol, Men and a perceive sense of Freedom and thus now:

F. I want to Party and have fun - that doesn't work with studying.

So I dropped out of school before I even started and now, the Family Pressure started to kick in as I was pushed to do something with my life meaning - get education.

So now that F is a valuable variable, I looked at how I can manipulate D with maintaining F.

My Parties Friends told me about a Private Collage where they plan to go to, and how awesome the Social life there, and the people are all rich and good looking and.. The parties.. The best parties ever.. And because I knew that my parents will pay anything for the sake of my education, I thus decided:

G. I will Study Business and Marketing within a special program that include last year of Education in Las Vegas. That sound like Fun. But, it doesn't really fit in with the Preprogram design because, I must stay in Israel, Develop a Career, find my partner, get married and have Kids. So The Family Pressure kicked in again and I decided to change G. to:

H. I'll study Business with specialty in Finance and at the same time I'll do L.L.B in Law.   

 

I finished school and now had to stop the Partying stage, find a job and be something in this world. I started a job in marketing. Without realizing, I became poor really quick because I could no longer be a bar tender and make lots of money with the living expanses of renting a house and owning a car, Food, Electricity and Etc.

 

I quit my job for a what was seem at that time as a promising career as a trader in the Capital Market. That wasn't a huge success and I had to quit after a year because I was really not good at my job. I didn't know what to do next because all my attempts to manifest D were coming to nothing. Sure, I had B.A in Business and L.L.B in Law but there was absolute nothing I wanted to do with that. I still couldn't see my future and specifically, couldn't see future happiness unless D will in some may would manifest.

 

This all story is to show you that we are making our decisions based on Prospect Experiences/Desires and Past Memories/Experiences, Beliefs, ideas and etc. that were infuse into us already in childhood and we blindly accepted this is if this is who we are and the life we must walk as who we are.

 

D, was a direct influence within every decision that I made throughout my life while I never stopped and actually invested a moment to investigate each and every point and within that, look at what I really want, Where and how I can discover my fullest potential that would truly give me a life that I'll be satisfied with, in every single moment with no Shadow of Regret.

 

When looking at D: 

 

"I won't be able to have a stable and constant Home and Family because I'll be traveling around the world"

 

Stable and Constant Home/Family indicate that what I wished for in essence was Security of the Future that only Money could give me. Home and Family Represent Stability according to the world System eye's view and that is something that each one of us is being trained to desire from the first moment we remember ourselves. It has been advertised in any Children books, Movies, Magazines and TV Shows. It has been advertised in every Religion and Culture. We have been Programed, generation after Generation to maintain and sustain a Life of Survival within Separation as a principle. We have been Trained to do what ever it takes to Win the life anyone wants to have while only 1% of the 1% can physically have. We have Compromised through the Belief that Love worth it all despite of the Common sense seeing that Love doesn't bring food to the table but Money is.

 

To Understand Preprograming in a nutshell, I suggest reading my blog series - 'The correction Process and the Desteni Message' and in the Future to Come, a new series will be available on EQAFE - the Physical Quantum Mind which would explain in Detail how the Pre-Program works on a Physical Quantum Mind Level and how  the first 7 years of a Child life would be the stepping stone from which the Child develop and Establish the Variables that would shape and mould every decision one would make throughout one's life. 

 

The point here to understand is: The Future is Unknown to us at the moment as we have separated ourselves from who we are and as such, can not see the physical reality clearly within all the relationships/variables it consist of and exists as. Sure, we can make common sense plans to make sure that our survival in this world is stable because we are still living in a system of Money and Survival. A point to consider here - is this the Life we want to leave for our Children? Is this the Future we want our Children to have? Isn't it the time to stop and create a future of abundance for all the member of the Family - Humans, Nature and the Animal Kingdom? If you find it in you to stand up for a future of Absolute Security, safety and dignity for all, I suggest to study the Equal Money System Proposal.

 

And on the Individual Level, one must understand how limited we are within our mind wherein, we believe that we can predict our future according to the variables we place in our Life-Equations without realizing that there are much more variables that we haven't consider at all. The Depression that I experienced in my life was due to me looking at the future through the glasses of the Past and not seeing anything that is worthwhile that may manifested within the Frame of Reference I programmed myself as.

I've realized though, that being Depressed when the Physical reality doesn't meat the Future Reality that I've planned, desired and wished for in my mind indicate the extent of separation that I have accepted and allowed within and as myself because in self honesty, I'm in a process of self discovery and if I project to  the future who I am now, I'm not giving me the space and time to expand, grow and discover myself because 'Who I am' in every moment was never part of the Dynamic Equation of Life.

Is it possible to Cheat yourself? Day 185

This is a continuation to:

Copy Paste Character - the Way for Success? - Day 183

Copy Paste Character - The Education System - Day 184

 

 

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to Program myself deliberately as a consumer, always looking and seeking for the quick fix, the short cut in having things done, so that I could get MORE in LESS time within the common belief that MORE is what we should be seeking after, MORE is what we must become and through having MORE and MORE and MORE we will be successful and be seen as achievers by our environment and they would respect us and see us as superior not ever seeing, realizing and understanding that while rushing through within the journey to be and have MORE, we are missing the very BASIC more of what we could have be and become if we were to stop seeking for MORE and actually Participate with the Physical reality, Breath by Breath, in HEREness of and as Equality and Oneness and in that, Be in fact MORE than what we have become as a limited version of ourselves as our minds but rather, Live as Physical respectful of LIFE human beings.

 

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself, from an inferior starting point, to look for the short cut and the quick fix because I believed I cannot walk to my full potential unless I achieve something that is visible that could be respected by others whom would validate me for my achievement and thus, I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself through looking for the validation and appreciations of others, to use the short cuts and in doing so, diminish myself so completely as I've not accepted and allowed myself to walk my life, breath by breath within the inner self realization that there is only so much one can do in each and every breath and one should focus on making the best out of each and every breath instead of brushing off what one does within the starting point of pleasing others so that they could validate self as self beliefs that one cannot validate oneself unless someone else validate self.

 

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to disrespect myself within accepting and allowing myself to direct myself within and as the starting point of brushing stuff off, looking for short cuts, seeking for the quick fix and I haven't accepted and allowed myself to realize that within accepting this starting point through having a projected idea of who and what I should be and in that - being a specific person according to my eye's views as soon as possible, I've NOT accepted and allowed myself to Stand HERE, BREATHE and directly see ME, in absolute Self Awareness, and accordingly make aware decisions that are based on a principle of what is best for all and in that, walking my decisions, breath by breath as to my utmost potential as who I am within what I do.

 

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to miss a breath when looking for the quick fix and the short cut to achieve my desires that I've created within and as my mind and in missing a breath, I have accepted and allowed myself to project the idea of what I require to do for me to be validated, appreciated by others so that I could be worthy in my eye's view once I'm worthy according to others eye's view.

 

I forgive myself that I've NOT accepted and allowed myself to see the consequences of the accumulation effect of taking more and more upon myself within the starting point of being MORE to other people so that they could respect, validate and appreciate me and then, when it comes to the point of having more things to do then what is possible to do within the space time breath by breath application, I looked for the short cuts to have my assignments done, not seeing, realizing and understanding that within that cycle that I've created for myself, I've compromised and sabotaged myself and others as not walking my assignment according to the utmost potential it can be done when walking each and every step in breath by breath.

 

 

The Clever Daughter/Mother Character relationship - Day 84

This is a continuation to my previous blog:

My Life as a character - Overview - Day 79

The Family Charade in Character - Day 80

The Rebellion Daughter Mother Character - Day 81

The Submissive Daughter and the Controlling Mother Character - Day 82

The Caring Character – Day 83 Day 83

For Context, also read: Day 79: Stepping out of Character with LOVED ONES - Creation's Journey to Life, Bernard Poolman.

Part 5: The Mother/Daughter Character - Looking at specific Characters:

The Clever Daughter and the relationship with the Mother:

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself as the Clever Daughter Character in this world to design, program and manifest myself within the experience of being Clever which I can define myself as, that which gives me gratification, satisfaction, worthiness and validation from the Mother Character that I've co-dependently creation to sustain the Clever Character, in separation of me.

I forgive myself that I've NOT accepted and allowed myself to see, as the Clever Daughter Character of this world how I've participated within and as energetic polarized design wherein, if I excel and satisfied the Mother Character, I will experience good and positive energy as gratification and satisfaction and if I failed to excel, I experience low and negative energy as I perceived myself to be a failure and a disappointment for the Mother character that I've created in separation of me so that I could always remain within and as the energy design, in character.

I forgive myself that I've NOT accepted and allowed myself to see, realize and understand how through the Clever Daughter character that I've created and become in my totality, I've also created competition, jealousy, comparison and self judgement wherein for me to be the clever character, I must compare myself to others, be more than others in order to define myself as clever and thus, I've created the competitive character that will allow me to keep my clever character and within that thus, I've made sure to enslaved me for eternity as characters without ever being able to clear the mess that I've created as character, in mind as within, and the world system as without.

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself as the clever daughter character in this world, to create another character - Pressure; wherein, my experience of myself is of and as Pressure in every moment of my day because I believe that I must excel in all that I do and if I wouldn't, I wouldn't be able to receive my reward from the mother character of satisfaction, gratification and validation as a positive energetic experience.

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself as the mother character in this world, to create, design and manifest the Clever Daughter Character, so that I could brag about my child in social gathering, feel good about myself as the creator of the daughter character and within that, when and as I see and perceive the eyes of my friend full with jealousy and self judgement, I feel within and as me proudness because apparently, I did something right within the upbringing of the clever child character.

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself as the mother character in this world, to feel ashamed and embarrassed when and as the clever daughter character doesn't stand according to what society defined as excellence, when and as I'm in a social gathering and I can't win in the secret competition of who has the most clever daughter character.

I forgive myself that I've NOT accepted and allowed myself to see, realize and understand, as the mother character in this world, how I'm imposing my clever child character's EGO to motivate the child into excellence so that in essence, I could feel good about myself as the mother character and within that, have not realized the consequences of my doing wherein, instead of standing as an example of Oneness and Equality as what is best for all, I'm imposing self interest, my own fear of survival, competition and comparison as the directive principle in my child life.

I forgive myself that I've NOT accepted and allowed myself as the mother character in this world to realize that Cleverness doesn't define who one is but it can only utilize within this self interest world manifestation wherein, if one haven't accumulated enough knowledge and information, one is worthless in this world and yet, I haven't considered that Knowledge and information as how it was taught within the education system, only perpetuate the separation between us all and has nothing to do with applying the knowledge within the starting point of a world that is best for all; so as I impose more and more knowledge onto my child, I'm making sure that none of us will ever actually step out of our self interest character and actually see what the fuck we have created as characters, take our power of creation back as ourselves and create a world that is literally best for all.

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself as the mother character in this world, to attempt to relive my desire and fantasies through the clever daughter character that I've created for that purpose because I hope and dream that the daughter character will become a better version of me, become more successful than me which will thus give me inner gratification, validation and satisfaction that I've done something good in this world without ever raising the question - Did I really do something good in this world if the world is as fucked up as it is now, who I am within this world and what have I actually done to make sure that the children of this world would born into a world that is physically best for all?

I commit myself to show that cleverness doesn't define who we are as a living physical human being and that in fact, if we were to walk the practical living expression of the word Cleverness, we would be clever enough to see, realize and understand this creation we call Earth/Life and through seeing, realizing and understanding what we have done, we would have taken our power of creation as ourselves and create a world that is practically and physically best for all.

I commit myself to show how we co-dependently, in agreement with each other, create, design and manifest ourselves as character that will suit our characters as others and within that, blind so completely to see what we have actually created and character, take the responsibility to clean up the mess and create ourselves within and as ONE principle - the Principle of LIFE that is best for all as the sum up of all inter-dependent relationships.

I commit myself to show and expose how the parents character, create in character, their children in character that will suit their character and thus, are responsible for always remaining in character, making sure that no one will step out of character so that we could keep existing in our self interest desire for an exclusive experience that only the 'right' created characters can provide for us.

I commit myself to show that the source/origin/reason for competition, jealousy, comparison, self judgement in this world, start at home through the parents programming their children as characters.

I commit myself to show that through the fear of the parents characters of survival, they will design, shape and mould their children to excel and become someone in this world which then perpetuate the separation, self interest and competition instead of educating the next generation to stand up for life that is best for all, to show them how to stop creating more characters and within that of course, how to step completely out of character and birth oneself from the physical.

I commit myself to show why and how the parents character superimpose their fears onto their child and instead of birth LIFE as the child, they will create another character to support their character as fear and this is why it is detrimental that we will establish the Equal Money System to diminish one's fear of survival and start a process of re-education of ourselves and our children so that we could for once and for all, create ourselves as LIFE that is best for all through cleaning up the mess that we have left behind from the beginning of time.