Emotion Driven Parents - Day 396

I get to observe interesting points while visiting my birth country and today I was a witness to a manipulative consumerized behaviour that is simply unacceptable and without effective parenting awareness, consequences that could have been prevented, are awaiting to burst.

 

So the story is as follows:

When young children (in the ages of 2-6 years old) go to a theatre show, and in this specific case it was Peter Pan, at the end of the show, right as the kids go through the exit door, a sale stand is there, provoking the kids to buy a toy that is related to the show they have just seen. With Peter Pan, it was swords that are not only very expansive but also, very dangerous from the perspective of their shape, the material it made from and its size. In fact, young children who do not yet have an effective assessment to their own power, without effective training as to how to use this sword, the consequences are immediate.

Now, if you have 2 children that both get these swords, you can imagine how fast one will get hurt and especially, when the kids are tired after 2 hours show where they didn't eat or sleep as they would have had if they were elsewhere due to the hours the show is running which is normally the hour that children are taking their noon nap.

 

The other problem in allowing these stand to sell products that may harm the children, is the manipulative way through which the sells people turn to the children and that in itself leaves no space for the parents to make a decision that is best for the child because once one parent buy it for their kid, a chain start and suddenly, all parents feel pressured to buy the product too because otherwise, they would feel as if they are bad parents. That means that the decision to purchase the product wasn't done from the principle of what is best for my child and in the sword case, also to other children, but the decision is made according to how would others and my children would define me if I won't play along and purchase the product that I know isn't best for my child. That means that the value the parents is basing their decision is one's own self interest as to how would others see me instead of the value being the value of life that is best for all.

 

So parents really - it is time to stop following the consemuerized behaviour and within that, to stop moving and directing yourself according to what is best for you as your Ego and self definition but rather according to what is best for the child and all children as a whole.

 

Understand that this sheep behaviour won't assist and support your child but rather transform the child to behave exactly the same way Emotion driven that is harmful, disrespectful and dishonour of life.

 

 

Singing Expression - Self Commitments - Day 108

This is a continuation to:

Suppressed Expression Character - Day 101

Suppressed Self Expression - The beginning of the End - Day 102

Singing Expression Character - Day 103

The Shyness Character - Day 104

The Shyness Character - Self Forgiveness as the parent - Day 105

The Shyness Character - Self Commitments Statements - Day 106

Singing Expression - Self Forgiveness - Day 107

I commit myself to SHOW that one of the dimension of suppressed Expression character within and singing, is the creation of the Shyness character which one have created through the acceptance and allowances of Past Memory Experience that one has stored in one's mind.

I commit myself to SHOW how we store picture inside our mind and how through those pictures, we make the decision of who we are in any given moment as automated compute characters without seeing, realizing and understanding that within that atomization of ourselves, we are not really Living within and as the physical reality but rather, living within an illusionary reality where we allow abuse and suffering of ourselves and each other as a protection mechanism that is based on self interest desire for an experience as energy. In this, I commit myself to SLOW myself down to be able to identify the pictures that I've stored in my mind as I see, realize and understand now the consequences of my permission to create myself as a picture in my mind and how through those pictures, I'm diminishing and suppressing who I am as a physical living being. And accordingly, when and as I see a picture in my mind, I identify the picture, investigate the origin of the picture and through a process of self forgiveness, I delete the picture and stand HERE, Breathing

I commit myself to When and As I see myself participating in comparison, to STOP, BREATHE and no accept and allow myself to follow the comparison thoughts as I see, realize and understand exactly where the thoughts will lead me - towards a stupidity cycle where I will utilize the comparison thoughts, to become jealous at others, to judge myself and through the negative energetic charge, attempt to raise my energetic vibration through becoming spiteful towards others in my mind, to elevate myself and as I'm now in the positive energetic charge, the diminishment character will step in and take me back to the negative charge. And so, as I see clearly the energetic cycle that can only exists when and as I allow comparison to be my directive principle, I STOP, and no more accept this shit as me. Till here no further.

I commit myself to stop jealousy towards anything and anyone within and as myself because I see, realize and understand that those whom I jealous at, have walked a process of perfecting their skills and accordingly, standing as an example that anything is possible if one will dare oneself to invest the time in oneself, to practice, educate and improve oneself within and as this space/time reality.

I commit myself to SHOW that when and as we accept and allow ourselves to suppress our expression as who we are, we are in fact sabotaging our human physical body because when we are busy with suppressing who we are, when we are busy walking as characters, there are changes and movement within and as the  physical, movement that create pressure on the physical organs, which we take for granted as if it is normal because we have slow ourselves down to see the consequences that we are accepting and allowing within and as our human physical body.

I commit myself to stop placing Value in what others think or say about me because I see, realize and understand now how the mind works and functions a character upon character creations that one is creating to maintain and sustain one's own desire for an experience and thus, I give myself the permission to express myself as who I am, in any given moment; I give myself the permission to direct and move myself according to what is here, what is practically and physically available in this physical reality; walking according to what will be the utmost effective support for myself and others within the Equality Equation.

I commit myself to SING as me as self expression and to stop my own self judgement based on comparison, and values that I've placed in separation of myself. I commit myself to stop the Shyness Character when and as I sing and thus, I move through the character, I let go of the my own judgement, I let go of the fear of how others will see/think of me. I give myself the permission to STAND as who I am, as self expression and ENJOY myself.

Singing Expression - Self Forgiveness - Day 107

This is a continuation to:

Suppressed Expression Character - Day 101

Suppressed Self Expression - The beginning of the End - Day 102

Singing Expression Character - Day 103

The Shyness Character - Day 104

The Shyness Character - Self Forgiveness as the parent - Day 105

The Shyness Character - Self Commitments Statements - Day 106

 

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to create the Shyness Character when and as I'm about to move myself and sing, as self expression, here, and I haven't realized that the Shyness Character that exists according to past memory experiences, is the character that I've abUSEd to diminish and suppress my expression within and as singing and thus, so long as I accept and allow the shyness character to dictate who I am and Self expression, I'm not in fact a physical living human being but rather an automated organic robot that works and functions based on past memory experiences.

 

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to hold onto a picture in my mind of standing in front of an audience, on a small stage, Immobilized, frozen and hell scared and anxious and I haven't realized that as long as I hold onto this picture, I will not move myself and express myself in singing, as who I am within and as breath and in this, I forgive myself that I've NOT accepted and allowed myself to see my starting point with creating and holding on to this picture in my mind, and how I've (ab)USEd this picture to suppress myself, as self expression.

 

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to compare my singing skills to others and within that, created an idea that only those who are capable of singing "beautifully", according to my eye's view, can sing out loud in public and those who didn't develop these skills, are better off singing only to themselves where no one can hear them and within that, I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to create an idea in my mind, of what is a valid singing and what is not and through this idea, I've participated in Comparison in my mind, of myself to others and others towards myself as the idea in my mind, not seeing, realizing and understanding that this idea that I used to compare with, is the stumbling stone that I've set forth for me to suppressed my expression within singing.

 

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to experience jealousy towards those who are freely singing and within that, I haven't seen the process that they have walked to perfect their skills, the time they invested in practicing and thus, I haven't considering the step to step process that those people have walked to perfect themselves; instead, I've accepted and allowed myself to immediately go into reaction as jealousy, not seeing, realizing and understanding that instead of investing my time in creating jealousy within and myself, I can walk the space time process of improving and establishing my singing skills through the example of others.

 

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to continue suppressing my own self expression and within that, deliberately ignore my body as the experience of discomfort in my entire physical body and specifically in my throat and front thighs as they all of a sudden constricted when and as I'm suppressing my physical movement as singing expression and not giving me the permission to sing;  in this, I forgive myself that I've NOT accepted and allowed myself to see, realize and understand how I'm accepting and allowing myself to abuse myself as my human physical body, when and as I accept and allow programs/characters to automated run and decide for me who I am in every moment because I haven't accepted and allowed myself to realized that those programs/characters can only exits because I'VE created them as ME, as my own Decision to diminish and suppress myself as life that is Here in any given moment and through not seeing the physical changes, I allow my human physical body to be stressed and constricted which put pressure on my human physical organs and in essence, sabotage my body's systems.

 

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to create the Supressed Singing Character within and as myself because I believed that if I would, I would be able to fit in with specific groups of people that think it is uncool to sing and I haven't accepted and allowed myself to realized what they have accepted and allowed within and as themselves as the Suppressed singing character and in addition, created the: "I'm so cool" character to hide the fact that they are accepting and allowing themselves to suppress who they are. However, because I haven't accepted and allowed myself to investigate the character creations within and as myself, I've copied their character as equal and one as me. Within that, I forgive myself that I've NOT accepted and allowed myself to trust who I am in every moment of every breath as the expression of who I am and accordingly, have accepted and allowed myself to create myself as characters to be able to be accepted and validated in my environment, not seeing, realizing and understanding the consequences of my doing - becoming automated organic robot that works and functions in absolute ignorance of who I am as Life that is here.

 

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to direct and move myself according to how my environment sees me and accordingly make the decision to suppress myself because I've placed value in other people's opinions, thoughts, judgements and haven't accepted and allowed myself to move and direct myself according to what is here, as the physical reality, but rather, accepted and allowed myself to move and direct myself according to the illusionary reality of and as the mind of myself and others.

 

Also read:

The Self Diminishment Character - Day 94

They are Better than me, I'm so fucked up - Day 95

Taking responsibility for my creation - Day 96

Singing Expression Character - Day 103

This is a continuation to:

Suppressed Expression Character - Day 101

Suppressed Self Expression - The beginning of the End - Day 102

 

In my previous blogs, I was looking at the Self Suppressed Expression Character and while I was walking my Self Forgiveness, I've realized: Oh man, this point is quite extensive, and I must stop and take it apart from various directions and dimensions because otherwise, I will not see the totality of the Character and would not be able to assist and support myself with stepping out of character and become a Living Expression of who I am in every moment of every breath.

 

Today, I will be walking the Self Expression within Singing and I'll be looking at why, when, how and where, I've accepted and allowed myself to suppressed my vocals, my expression within singing despite of my enjoyment of singing to myself and with myself.

 

Identifying the Suppressed Singing Expression Character:

 

1. Picture of the Character:

The Character, as a picture in my mind, is like.. almost dried skin being as the constriction of the being's human physical body had led to a dried manifestation of the human physical flesh/skin.

The character is standing in front of an audience, on a small stage, Immobilized, frozen and hell scared and anxious.

 

2. Back Chats:

• I'm not singing as good as this person
• My voice is weird
• It's sound like a little girl voice when I sing
• Just give it up, you are not a singer
• Why they are comfortable with singing? We are coming from the same family.. Why one side of the family is so shy and the other one is so expressive? I should have born in the other side of the family.
• I would also like to sing like they do
• Why am I so shy? It isn't like me..
• What if I sing out of tune? Will others judge me? I better not take the chance.

 

3. Reactions:

• Embarrassment
• Jealousy
• Comparison
• Competition
• Spitefulness
• Shyness
• Anger
• Judgement

 

4. Body Changes:

• Discomfort with my human physical body:

• Can't find a place to place my hands - eventually, I will either clap them together with the melody or on the table/floor/what ever I can find.

• Constriction in my throat
• Pressure in my solar plexus area towards the heart
• Front thighs are constricted

 

5. Memories:

 

1. Within the Jewish culture, for each holiday, there are specific songs that are being sang when the families are coming together to celebrate the holiday. In Passover, there is one specific song that the youngest child supposed to sing and i have a specific memories where I felt pressure to sing because I have realized that none of the other kids would like to sing and but because I was the youngest, I was expected to sing.

 

I don't remember any problem singing before that evening but when I saw the resistance within others, I internalized the resistance within myself and have decided to resists singing in the family gathering as well. The backchat was: if I would sing, I will be defined and judged as the youngest and won't be accepted by the other kids in the family who are older than me and thus, to be accepted and validated as one of them, I must act like them and therefore, I mustn't sing so that I could fit in with the rest of the kids in our family.

I don't want them see me as young and stupid, I want to be part of the group, the grownup kids group.

And so - I've resisted singing in family gathering ever since - created the character of: "I'm not singing, it's stupid".

 

When we celebrated the same holiday with a different side of the family a couple of years later, or maybe a year later, a friction manifested within and as me.

In that side of the family, Singing was part of who they were and they enjoyed singing, enjoyed the sound, enjoyed the moment, no Shyness. At that night, I was asked to sing as the youngest kid on the table.

 

However, I have already became the character: "I'm not singing, it's stupid" and have thus, automatically resisted to sing. The friction emerged because within and as me, I wanted to sing, but I couldn't step out my character so that no one would be able to expose me when and as I'm in the presence of the other side of the family. And beside, what will my siblings say about me, that I'm young and stupid because I sing? No, I cannot allow that. And thus, I've decided to remain in character and act on my resistance to sing.

 

2. When I was around the age of 7-10, I was participating in the school chorus where I was placed in the Soprano group because I could sing high cords. The Chorus manger liked me because at that time, I was also playing on the Piano and she saw the potential that I could become with my music skills. But even then, I was preoccupied with self judgement and comparison which blinded me to see what the manager saw within me because according to my eye's view - I wasn't good enough, there were others who could sing better than me and I was so possessed with my shyness Character and therefore, I wasn't willing to sing Solo despite of the manager pushing me to sing Solo.

 

There was this girl (let's call her girl A), that sang beautifully and I was very much jealous at her, she used to sing the solo parts which I always dreamt to sing as well but didn't give myself the permission to step up and sing Solo because the Shyness Character was very much in control.

 

The next memory is quite vague and I cannot recall the specific time line but it was in one of the school shows where the solo was given to another girl (girl B) but she was sick at that day and couldn't join the show. From here on, I can't remember the specifics wherein I was either asked to sing instead of her because girl A wasn't there but than, they called her and asked her to come, or either I was wishing to be asked to replace Girl B but Girl A took the part at the end. Either way, I was extremely jealous and as far as I can remember, it didn't took long from that moment until I quit the chorus and stopped singing - Acting on the Giving Up Character.

 

I can write about more memories but the pattern remain the same - I have become the living memory of the Suppressed Expression Character as Singing. What is interesting is that before I started this blog, I couldn't recall the memories and when I spoke with another being, asking for a tool that I can apply to recall the memory, the being told me that the memory in itself isn't relevant as I've already become the living memory because the fact of the matter is - I am not giving myself the permission to sing, as who I am, within and as self expression. And as I was starting to write and opened up the non singing character that I've become, the memories started to come up only for me to see that what ever memory that I'll walk, the patter is still the same - Belief, Comparison, Jealousy, Judgement, Spitefulness looping in a cycle again and again, with different picture presentations, different beings, different environment, different space time - the only thing that is not different and is Equally the same - it the character that I've created as myself.

 

Ok, so in my next blogs, I will be walking the Self Forgiveness and Self Corrective statements and commitments in relation to Singing. The practical application would be…. A surprise.. Wait and see.

The Clever Daughter/Mother Character relationship - Day 84

This is a continuation to my previous blog:

My Life as a character - Overview - Day 79

The Family Charade in Character - Day 80

The Rebellion Daughter Mother Character - Day 81

The Submissive Daughter and the Controlling Mother Character - Day 82

The Caring Character – Day 83 Day 83

For Context, also read: Day 79: Stepping out of Character with LOVED ONES - Creation's Journey to Life, Bernard Poolman.

Part 5: The Mother/Daughter Character - Looking at specific Characters:

The Clever Daughter and the relationship with the Mother:

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself as the Clever Daughter Character in this world to design, program and manifest myself within the experience of being Clever which I can define myself as, that which gives me gratification, satisfaction, worthiness and validation from the Mother Character that I've co-dependently creation to sustain the Clever Character, in separation of me.

I forgive myself that I've NOT accepted and allowed myself to see, as the Clever Daughter Character of this world how I've participated within and as energetic polarized design wherein, if I excel and satisfied the Mother Character, I will experience good and positive energy as gratification and satisfaction and if I failed to excel, I experience low and negative energy as I perceived myself to be a failure and a disappointment for the Mother character that I've created in separation of me so that I could always remain within and as the energy design, in character.

I forgive myself that I've NOT accepted and allowed myself to see, realize and understand how through the Clever Daughter character that I've created and become in my totality, I've also created competition, jealousy, comparison and self judgement wherein for me to be the clever character, I must compare myself to others, be more than others in order to define myself as clever and thus, I've created the competitive character that will allow me to keep my clever character and within that thus, I've made sure to enslaved me for eternity as characters without ever being able to clear the mess that I've created as character, in mind as within, and the world system as without.

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself as the clever daughter character in this world, to create another character - Pressure; wherein, my experience of myself is of and as Pressure in every moment of my day because I believe that I must excel in all that I do and if I wouldn't, I wouldn't be able to receive my reward from the mother character of satisfaction, gratification and validation as a positive energetic experience.

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself as the mother character in this world, to create, design and manifest the Clever Daughter Character, so that I could brag about my child in social gathering, feel good about myself as the creator of the daughter character and within that, when and as I see and perceive the eyes of my friend full with jealousy and self judgement, I feel within and as me proudness because apparently, I did something right within the upbringing of the clever child character.

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself as the mother character in this world, to feel ashamed and embarrassed when and as the clever daughter character doesn't stand according to what society defined as excellence, when and as I'm in a social gathering and I can't win in the secret competition of who has the most clever daughter character.

I forgive myself that I've NOT accepted and allowed myself to see, realize and understand, as the mother character in this world, how I'm imposing my clever child character's EGO to motivate the child into excellence so that in essence, I could feel good about myself as the mother character and within that, have not realized the consequences of my doing wherein, instead of standing as an example of Oneness and Equality as what is best for all, I'm imposing self interest, my own fear of survival, competition and comparison as the directive principle in my child life.

I forgive myself that I've NOT accepted and allowed myself as the mother character in this world to realize that Cleverness doesn't define who one is but it can only utilize within this self interest world manifestation wherein, if one haven't accumulated enough knowledge and information, one is worthless in this world and yet, I haven't considered that Knowledge and information as how it was taught within the education system, only perpetuate the separation between us all and has nothing to do with applying the knowledge within the starting point of a world that is best for all; so as I impose more and more knowledge onto my child, I'm making sure that none of us will ever actually step out of our self interest character and actually see what the fuck we have created as characters, take our power of creation back as ourselves and create a world that is literally best for all.

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself as the mother character in this world, to attempt to relive my desire and fantasies through the clever daughter character that I've created for that purpose because I hope and dream that the daughter character will become a better version of me, become more successful than me which will thus give me inner gratification, validation and satisfaction that I've done something good in this world without ever raising the question - Did I really do something good in this world if the world is as fucked up as it is now, who I am within this world and what have I actually done to make sure that the children of this world would born into a world that is physically best for all?

I commit myself to show that cleverness doesn't define who we are as a living physical human being and that in fact, if we were to walk the practical living expression of the word Cleverness, we would be clever enough to see, realize and understand this creation we call Earth/Life and through seeing, realizing and understanding what we have done, we would have taken our power of creation as ourselves and create a world that is practically and physically best for all.

I commit myself to show how we co-dependently, in agreement with each other, create, design and manifest ourselves as character that will suit our characters as others and within that, blind so completely to see what we have actually created and character, take the responsibility to clean up the mess and create ourselves within and as ONE principle - the Principle of LIFE that is best for all as the sum up of all inter-dependent relationships.

I commit myself to show and expose how the parents character, create in character, their children in character that will suit their character and thus, are responsible for always remaining in character, making sure that no one will step out of character so that we could keep existing in our self interest desire for an exclusive experience that only the 'right' created characters can provide for us.

I commit myself to show that the source/origin/reason for competition, jealousy, comparison, self judgement in this world, start at home through the parents programming their children as characters.

I commit myself to show that through the fear of the parents characters of survival, they will design, shape and mould their children to excel and become someone in this world which then perpetuate the separation, self interest and competition instead of educating the next generation to stand up for life that is best for all, to show them how to stop creating more characters and within that of course, how to step completely out of character and birth oneself from the physical.

I commit myself to show why and how the parents character superimpose their fears onto their child and instead of birth LIFE as the child, they will create another character to support their character as fear and this is why it is detrimental that we will establish the Equal Money System to diminish one's fear of survival and start a process of re-education of ourselves and our children so that we could for once and for all, create ourselves as LIFE that is best for all through cleaning up the mess that we have left behind from the beginning of time.

Expecting the worst - Day 49

Art by Marlen Vargas Del Razo

Art by Marlen Vargas Del Razo

This a continuation for my blog post from yesterday - Lost in the Future - Day 48

I forgive myself that I've accepted allowed myself to dramatize and make things bigger in my head and always expecting for the worst to happened and I have failed to realize that within walking breath by breath and facing everything that comes on my way within stability and calmness, I'm able to direct myself effectively and make decisions that has actual physical ground instead of trying and attempting to make decisions that are based on reactions of fear that do not support me or anyone else.

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to always think and believe that things will get worse and thus, I must prepare myself for each scenario that might emerge and I haven't considered that by those very thoughts, I'm actually creating the way before me for the worst out come that I will face instead of taking the responsibility to write it down for myself and see what is able to be faced, correct and walked and to stop the creation of unnecessary consequences.

I forgive myself that I've NOT accepted and allowed myself to see, realize and understand the consequences of participating in the dramatized thoughts, reactions, feelings and emotions in my mind and thus, instead of focusing on the things that I can change, I'm being occupied in my mind in irrelevant thoughts and within that, denying myself the opportunity to direct, move and walk myself breath by breath in absolute self responsibility.

I forgive myself that I've NOT accepted and allowed myself to instead of enjoying that which is here, to hold on the thoughts of: "it soon going to be over and I'm going to be disappointed so I better not allow myself to make the utmost of it" and I simply wait impatient for stuff to get worse. Within that, I forgive myself that I've NOT accepted and allowed myself to see the consequences that I'm creating through accessing my mind and always waiting for the worse to happen because I have failed to realize how the mind works, how creation works and my responsibility within it.

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself in a moment where things are actually getting worse, to panic and react in fear and instead of breathing, slowing myself down and look at the equations, I allowed myself to access my mind within the belief that I can make it work if I think about gateways to avoid that which is here for me to face, that which I've created in my own hands (or minds lol) and sort the shit out for once and for all instead of going time after time in a cycle that leads to no where; a time loop.

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to - within a relationship/agreement, to always fear that the relationship/agreement will fail and I'll get hurt and thus, I compromise and mould myself within several personalities that which one of them can give me a fake security and yet, I haven't realized that the very fear of ending the relationship/agreement will manifest itself for me to be able to face, stand up and clear myself from the dependency that I've created in separation of me, regardless of how many personalities I will create to be able to maintain the relationship agreement.

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to deliberately create Dramas in my life so that I could align myself with my friends within the starting point of having something to share/talk about and be the one that things happened to her so that I could get attention from my friends and within that I forgive myself that I've NOT accepted and allowed myself to consider the harm and abuse that I'm causing to myself and my human physical body within the drama creation only for feeling a part of a friendship relationship without realizing that if I require drama to sustain my relationships in my life, what value the relationship hold? Why am I allowing myself to participate in relationship where I require to supply dramatic stories to spice up the communication and I haven't allowed myself to establish supportive communication where instead of creating a mind reality, we assist and support each other to create a physical reality that is based on the principle of that which is best for all.

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to define dramatized life as interesting and thus, when friends shared with me all the dramas that are happening in their life, I've judged my life as boring and I haven't realized that within that moment of judgement, I've made the decision to create dramas which than, I took myself to places that was literally unnecessary to walk  for the sake of having 'interesting Life experience' without any consideration of the consequences, the outflows and the prices that I will pay for my decision.

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to define 'Drama' within the experience of feeling alive and I have failed to see that living in my mind within the drama creations is in no way a form of LIFE  but in fact, a form of self abuse.

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to worry about the future and expect the worst to happened and thus, instead of speaking and standing up and direct the point, I allowed myself to backchat in my mind within the attempt of figuring out a solution and I haven't considered that a solution must be physical and practical and it will not be magically fixed if I continue thinking about it without doing something about it - either within myself through writing and SF if the point doesn't have a physical ground to it or through communicating the point and ask for assistance if the point can be physically directed.

I forgive myself that I've NOT accepted and allowed myself to see that the real and physical Drama that exists is of those who have nothing to eat and no where to live while I'm busy occupying myself in my mind within my own created Drama and I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to= while being preoccupied in my mind within self creating Drama, I've ignore, disregarded or considered the real Drama of this physical realty.

I commit myself to stop the Drama in my mind and to stop creating unnecessary Drama in my physical LIFE.

I commit myself to develop and establish relationships that are not based on Drama but rather based on supportive communication within the principle of that which is best for all.

I commit myself to stop existing in the future within the pattern of expecting for the worst to happened and to walk myself breath by breath, Here - face, direct and correct that which required to be faced.

I commit myself to stop looking for Drama as a pattern that I've programmed myself throughout my life and instead simply walk in self trust because I am more than capable to walk breath by breath and face my own self creation within a process of stopping pattern by pattern until I'm absolutely here, as a living physical expression.

I commit myself to show the difference between mind created drama and a physical drama to assist those who are busy in their mind to step out of it to be able to stand up and correct the real drama that exists in this world which requires immediate consideration and correction.

 

I commit myself to assist and support with those who dare facing and change themselves and that which they have become in their process of stopping their patterns one by one, breath by breath.

I commit myself to show and explain in details how and why we have separated ourselves from all that is here into our own little bubble of the mind within thoughts, emotions and feelings and show by example how to assist and support oneself within taking responsibility for one's mind, stop patterns, align oneself to oneself in equality and oneness and to finally live a life that is not determined by the mind but is walked in alignment with and as the physical.