The Power of Fears - Day 360

 

This is a continuation to the Previous blog: The Compartment of Now - Day 359.

Now that we see how we can look at our lives and even our days, through a map of compartments representing moments in time that would always start in one Breath in and one Breathe out, we can start having a look at how Fears are the one Factor that would limit us from walking each compartment, each moment in time, to the best of our ability in consolidating our strengths and enhancing our natural skills; fears are the one thing that we believe to be Real as we haven't not realized how and why we made them physically and mentally be real through our participation within ourselves and within this world as a whole.

 

Let's have a look at the following example:

We have decided to walk a new adventure in our life, whether it be higher level of education studies, or a new job or a new business, there would always be a specific steps one must take to manifest the desired result. For instance, we decided to registered to medical school and to do that, we require to have previous track record upon which the medical school board would make the decision of whether or not passing they should pass us to the next phase of evaluation where we will be verbally reviewed by a committee to see if our character is aligned with what it takes to be a doctor according to the guideline the Medical school board had drawn out.

 

So we have applied and sent through all the relevant information we were required to submit for the first phase of evaluation. In other words, we are now walking a specific compartment in our life which we must have entered to while we were breathing in, and within that compartment, we require to collect all the relevant data for our initial application and in that moment in time, this specific compartment would end the moment we send through our application and if we slow ourselves down, we will noticed that what we naturally did when we posted our application by mail was taking a breath out didn't we?

 

So now, what do we know? That in 6-8 weeks, we will receive a letter from the medical school board, indicating whether or not we will continue with our evaluation or not. What would be our 'natural' behaviour is to worry about the answer we would receive in 6-8 weeks, from the moment we sent the application through.

Some of us would imagine how it would feel like to get the positive reply from the school board and how it would be to be a doctor and some of us would expect the worst and could already see themselves failing in the first stage. However, even those who are expecting positive result, what would be the dominant point that would trigger them to imagine positive result is the fear that they won't get what they want.

Is there anything practical in worrying about whether or not we got accepted or not? Is there anything we could possible do to change the result from the moment we posted our application till the day we would receive an answer? How does the quality of our lives is affected within these 6-8 weeks that we consistently participating in worries and fears of the future? How does the next compartment as moment in time that we are now in, is influenced by our emotional state and condition of fear? How does the physical body affected from the pressure we put the body through, so long as we accept and allow ourselves to participate within something that is so counterproductive such as fearing a point in the future we have no idea how it would play out? a point in the future that we cannot even control..

 

Here was just an example through which we could start understanding how ineffective we become once we allow fears to determine the quality of our lives.
Now, we can go further and see how our lives would play out during the next 6-8 weeks of which we anticipating the result to come in. For instance, let's say we decided to read a book - how quickly would we lose our focus and go into our minds, imagining again all the possible outcomes and how our lives would look like within each potential out come?

Let's say we are cooking dinner and as we chop the vegetable, we suddenly imagining ourselves performing a surgery, holding the scalpel in our hands,  saving lives, hearing all the life support machine until the fear kicks in and immediately we go into anxiety: "but what if I won't get accepted?" and ooops, what happen? We slightly cut our finger because we were simply not aware of that which is here as a physical action of cutting the vegetable; a moment that started with us taking a breath in, where we made the decision to prepare a salad and what should have been a moment of breathing out when the salad is done however now, we must move to the next compartment, to the next moment in time that would again start with breathing in only that now, instead of finishing up the salad, we must dress the cut we have so neglectfully did to ourselves while spending time in our mind instead of focusing on the physical living application of a simply thing such as cutting a vegetable.

 

More on that will come in my next blog.

Death Research - Day 350

 

This blog is not to terrify you or to make you be more fearful with regards to Death, it is rather to show you how little do we really know and how important it is to investigate all things and keep that which is best for all.

I've recently invested my time in listening to the Death Research interviews which is again to me, emphasized how we have created all sort of assumptions and opinions about Death without actually speaking with anyone that had died, someone who could share in details every moment of their death experience; you know, the real nitty gritty details and not just: "I saw the light".

 

The Death Research interviews are Fascinating from the perspective of being able to walk with a person who actually experience death, the moments of death and what is really happening to the Mind, the Physical and the being in those crucial moments.

I had this fantasy that upon death for instance, one would no longer experience Physical pain, that everything is gone, disappear and you are out of here but as with all fantasies it doesn't work like that.

I had this idea that I can trust what Science describe about death when for example the doctors says to the family of a person who died in traumatic event that the person didn't feel anything, that they lost consciousness and thus couldn't feel a thing. Unfortunately, that is not the case.

 

So why then, is it important to listen to these interviews? For myself, it is a point of motivation to actually Live and Use the time I have left to do something that is constructive, supportive and meaningful on earth, instead of reaching to my end of Life to only find out that I've missed Life while being on earth. Now, that doesn't mean that one should let go of all one's responsibility and have as much fun as possible. No, that is again not real LIFE but a distraction from the actual Gift of Life that only us, as individuals can discover for ourselves unless it is too late, and we die, without being able to come back and correct ourselves.

 

If anything, fearing Death is useless because so long as we fear what is defiantly certain, how can we honestly Live? How did we miss such a simple point of fearing something that is so definitive like the fact that we will die one day while all along, we are missing ourselves when having the physical opportunity to discover the actuality of ourselves as Life, an opportunity that will no longer exists at death. I mean, do you know anyone who didn't die? No right?! So why do we fear dying if it something that is so natural and if we appreciate life so much that we don't want to die, why isn't this appreciation is shown in a physical measurable manner?

 

If we really cared about Life, wouldn't we be busy creating a world where LIFE could be lived by all without having to face struggles, abuse and the atrocities that the majority of us are daily experiencing?

So, there is defiantly a dichotomy here - we fear Death and we do not want to die but yet, we do not appreciate Life according to our collective physical actions. So it is time to investigate these points and become clear about our starting point in terms of deciding if we appreciate and care about LIFE or we just here, till we die, spending the moments we've got left until our Life will be taken from us without any free will. I mean, we do not decide the time we die isn't?

 

So, the Death Research interview Series, describes specific events of death such as Heart Attack, Burning alive in a car accident, Drowning and soon you can find out what one IS experiencing when falling from a tall building. These interviews shocked me as it was nothing I could imagine; Investigate the points, prepare yourself to Life because you are living so why the hell we are not physically living but rather allowing our own mind to dictate us who and what we are? If you Dare to know the truth and debunk your fears - invest in this interview series.

 

Derren Brown Apocalypse - Day 243

Recently I watched Derren Brown - Apocalypse which raise concerning questions within myself that unfortunately, weren't fully addressed within the show as well as the Reviews that were made upon this specific episode.

 

In this episode, Derren Brown deliberately created the worst possible nightmare a person could have within the starting point of changing one's egotistic, self centered personality to compassionate, hearted, considerate personality. He choose specific being that Derren Brown perceived required a life changing event to be able to change himself. There were lots of lots of people participating behind the scene while the main character, Steven, didn't haver a clue about it.

 

During the show, it was shown how they prepared all the details, how did they programmed his mind through external forces that were involved, which also included hypnosis. Steven indeed step out of his comfort zone of being a rotten child with no consideration to anyone but himself to a leader, decision maker in stressful moments and compassionate.

 

What I found even more fascinating just a moment ago, in reading these various media reviews, was how the press or people with hidden agendas and interests had manipulate the Bazz the show had to distract themselves and others from the detrimental main/source/core point that must be focused, through claiming that that everything was staged, including Steven involvement.

 

If you read my blog - From Reaction to Prevention then you would see that here is another example of how we first React and then either suppress/ignore and/or Manipulate the consequences to suit with our best interest, or we would stand up, look at the core/source/origin problem and accordingly, take self responsibility to change while what we haven't realized is that through reactions, we distract ourselves from investigating the core/origin/source of the Problem to be able to Prevent the problem and stop the manifested consequences that problem consists of and exists as.

 

Thus, what was the reaction the people that manipulated the bazz where facing? Fear. What the shows implies is that only when one go through a traumatic Experience of Losing everything one defined oneself as, one might take a stance and force oneself to change. In self honesty, deep down, we realize we have got to change and we also know how deceptive we are in nature and how, if nothing would force us, we wouldn't stand up and change ourselves nor this world. I mean, the Desteni Haters and the beings that resists to the Message of Desteni and the Equal Money System demonstrate this very fact - unless something sever happens in one's life, one would not step out from one's comfort zone and do anything to Prevent/Change/Correct the problem we face both individually and Collectively. So the people that wrote the reviews were reacting within and as themselves and accordingly, the Act upon their Fear reaction, utilizing all that they have got to Prove wrong the point Derren Brown showed within this episode - that unless ones lose everything one have, one would not change and this is why, he suggested to not wait till that happens but to take responsibility and change ourselves to a better human beings.

 

The Concerning point that wasn't absolutely addressed within the Apocalypse episode of Derren Brown was the very Evil Nature of human being that accept and allow themselves to sit on their asses and take care of themselves and themselves alone while the majority of this world is in great suffering, starvation, abuse, etc.

What wasn't looked at is - we have a problem within human civilization - the problem is inequality in all sphere of Life as we know it today. We cannot wait until we destroy this world so completely for us to be able to finally change because by then, it will be to late. We must act now and stop Reacting to the Problems but rather, stand up, and prevent the destruction of this world as we are busy manifest within and without.

Really, we cannot afford to wait for the atrocity will get to a point of no return.

 

Derren Brown proves how easy it is to brainwash people. So how can we trust that we are not acting, reacting upon our Brainwashed Programming that we have so blindly accepted and allowed as if it was ourselves?

How can we trust our thoughts, feelings and emotions if the outcome of humanity is a complete disaster where we accept and allow the suffering of so many of us - that exists within this ONE world, like we do, but with no access to any of the resources that we have access to?

How is it that we haven't realized, seen or understood how Brainwash works and functions and haven't related and associated brainwashing with Consumerism for instance, despite of all the Research and Documentaries that proves this very point?

How is it that we accepted and allowed ourselves to hate our neighbours and go to war against them, because our ancestor hated them and taught us to hate them as well? How can we not call this hate brainwashing? A child that is born into this world doesn't have hate within and as themselves but only due to the influence of the family, they become washed with opinions, beliefs, perceptions, ideas, emotions and feeling, fears which are all based on One's Self interest

 

Time to wake up people, and realize it is not a dream we are leaving, it is a nightmare for most of human kind.

It is time to realize that we have the power to change, prevent and correct our living application BEFORE something so drastic and traumatic will manifest.

 

Will you Dare to investigate the Principle of Prevention? Will you dare to step out of your comfort zone and stand up for a world that is best for all, internally and externally?

Will you dare to face yourself and see the real nature of yourself? Do not wait till it is to late - investigate Desteni, the Desteni I Process (DIP Lite, DIP Pro, Relationship/Agreement Course) and the Equal Money System. We have the solution that encompass every aspect of this Life that must be changed and Correct. We are for real - will you accept the challenge? You Decide.

Singing Expression - Self Commitments - Day 108

This is a continuation to:

Suppressed Expression Character - Day 101

Suppressed Self Expression - The beginning of the End - Day 102

Singing Expression Character - Day 103

The Shyness Character - Day 104

The Shyness Character - Self Forgiveness as the parent - Day 105

The Shyness Character - Self Commitments Statements - Day 106

Singing Expression - Self Forgiveness - Day 107

I commit myself to SHOW that one of the dimension of suppressed Expression character within and singing, is the creation of the Shyness character which one have created through the acceptance and allowances of Past Memory Experience that one has stored in one's mind.

I commit myself to SHOW how we store picture inside our mind and how through those pictures, we make the decision of who we are in any given moment as automated compute characters without seeing, realizing and understanding that within that atomization of ourselves, we are not really Living within and as the physical reality but rather, living within an illusionary reality where we allow abuse and suffering of ourselves and each other as a protection mechanism that is based on self interest desire for an experience as energy. In this, I commit myself to SLOW myself down to be able to identify the pictures that I've stored in my mind as I see, realize and understand now the consequences of my permission to create myself as a picture in my mind and how through those pictures, I'm diminishing and suppressing who I am as a physical living being. And accordingly, when and as I see a picture in my mind, I identify the picture, investigate the origin of the picture and through a process of self forgiveness, I delete the picture and stand HERE, Breathing

I commit myself to When and As I see myself participating in comparison, to STOP, BREATHE and no accept and allow myself to follow the comparison thoughts as I see, realize and understand exactly where the thoughts will lead me - towards a stupidity cycle where I will utilize the comparison thoughts, to become jealous at others, to judge myself and through the negative energetic charge, attempt to raise my energetic vibration through becoming spiteful towards others in my mind, to elevate myself and as I'm now in the positive energetic charge, the diminishment character will step in and take me back to the negative charge. And so, as I see clearly the energetic cycle that can only exists when and as I allow comparison to be my directive principle, I STOP, and no more accept this shit as me. Till here no further.

I commit myself to stop jealousy towards anything and anyone within and as myself because I see, realize and understand that those whom I jealous at, have walked a process of perfecting their skills and accordingly, standing as an example that anything is possible if one will dare oneself to invest the time in oneself, to practice, educate and improve oneself within and as this space/time reality.

I commit myself to SHOW that when and as we accept and allow ourselves to suppress our expression as who we are, we are in fact sabotaging our human physical body because when we are busy with suppressing who we are, when we are busy walking as characters, there are changes and movement within and as the  physical, movement that create pressure on the physical organs, which we take for granted as if it is normal because we have slow ourselves down to see the consequences that we are accepting and allowing within and as our human physical body.

I commit myself to stop placing Value in what others think or say about me because I see, realize and understand now how the mind works and functions a character upon character creations that one is creating to maintain and sustain one's own desire for an experience and thus, I give myself the permission to express myself as who I am, in any given moment; I give myself the permission to direct and move myself according to what is here, what is practically and physically available in this physical reality; walking according to what will be the utmost effective support for myself and others within the Equality Equation.

I commit myself to SING as me as self expression and to stop my own self judgement based on comparison, and values that I've placed in separation of myself. I commit myself to stop the Shyness Character when and as I sing and thus, I move through the character, I let go of the my own judgement, I let go of the fear of how others will see/think of me. I give myself the permission to STAND as who I am, as self expression and ENJOY myself.

Singing Expression - Self Forgiveness - Day 107

This is a continuation to:

Suppressed Expression Character - Day 101

Suppressed Self Expression - The beginning of the End - Day 102

Singing Expression Character - Day 103

The Shyness Character - Day 104

The Shyness Character - Self Forgiveness as the parent - Day 105

The Shyness Character - Self Commitments Statements - Day 106

 

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to create the Shyness Character when and as I'm about to move myself and sing, as self expression, here, and I haven't realized that the Shyness Character that exists according to past memory experiences, is the character that I've abUSEd to diminish and suppress my expression within and as singing and thus, so long as I accept and allow the shyness character to dictate who I am and Self expression, I'm not in fact a physical living human being but rather an automated organic robot that works and functions based on past memory experiences.

 

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to hold onto a picture in my mind of standing in front of an audience, on a small stage, Immobilized, frozen and hell scared and anxious and I haven't realized that as long as I hold onto this picture, I will not move myself and express myself in singing, as who I am within and as breath and in this, I forgive myself that I've NOT accepted and allowed myself to see my starting point with creating and holding on to this picture in my mind, and how I've (ab)USEd this picture to suppress myself, as self expression.

 

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to compare my singing skills to others and within that, created an idea that only those who are capable of singing "beautifully", according to my eye's view, can sing out loud in public and those who didn't develop these skills, are better off singing only to themselves where no one can hear them and within that, I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to create an idea in my mind, of what is a valid singing and what is not and through this idea, I've participated in Comparison in my mind, of myself to others and others towards myself as the idea in my mind, not seeing, realizing and understanding that this idea that I used to compare with, is the stumbling stone that I've set forth for me to suppressed my expression within singing.

 

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to experience jealousy towards those who are freely singing and within that, I haven't seen the process that they have walked to perfect their skills, the time they invested in practicing and thus, I haven't considering the step to step process that those people have walked to perfect themselves; instead, I've accepted and allowed myself to immediately go into reaction as jealousy, not seeing, realizing and understanding that instead of investing my time in creating jealousy within and myself, I can walk the space time process of improving and establishing my singing skills through the example of others.

 

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to continue suppressing my own self expression and within that, deliberately ignore my body as the experience of discomfort in my entire physical body and specifically in my throat and front thighs as they all of a sudden constricted when and as I'm suppressing my physical movement as singing expression and not giving me the permission to sing;  in this, I forgive myself that I've NOT accepted and allowed myself to see, realize and understand how I'm accepting and allowing myself to abuse myself as my human physical body, when and as I accept and allow programs/characters to automated run and decide for me who I am in every moment because I haven't accepted and allowed myself to realized that those programs/characters can only exits because I'VE created them as ME, as my own Decision to diminish and suppress myself as life that is Here in any given moment and through not seeing the physical changes, I allow my human physical body to be stressed and constricted which put pressure on my human physical organs and in essence, sabotage my body's systems.

 

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to create the Supressed Singing Character within and as myself because I believed that if I would, I would be able to fit in with specific groups of people that think it is uncool to sing and I haven't accepted and allowed myself to realized what they have accepted and allowed within and as themselves as the Suppressed singing character and in addition, created the: "I'm so cool" character to hide the fact that they are accepting and allowing themselves to suppress who they are. However, because I haven't accepted and allowed myself to investigate the character creations within and as myself, I've copied their character as equal and one as me. Within that, I forgive myself that I've NOT accepted and allowed myself to trust who I am in every moment of every breath as the expression of who I am and accordingly, have accepted and allowed myself to create myself as characters to be able to be accepted and validated in my environment, not seeing, realizing and understanding the consequences of my doing - becoming automated organic robot that works and functions in absolute ignorance of who I am as Life that is here.

 

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to direct and move myself according to how my environment sees me and accordingly make the decision to suppress myself because I've placed value in other people's opinions, thoughts, judgements and haven't accepted and allowed myself to move and direct myself according to what is here, as the physical reality, but rather, accepted and allowed myself to move and direct myself according to the illusionary reality of and as the mind of myself and others.

 

Also read:

The Self Diminishment Character - Day 94

They are Better than me, I'm so fucked up - Day 95

Taking responsibility for my creation - Day 96

Singing Expression Character - Day 103

This is a continuation to:

Suppressed Expression Character - Day 101

Suppressed Self Expression - The beginning of the End - Day 102

 

In my previous blogs, I was looking at the Self Suppressed Expression Character and while I was walking my Self Forgiveness, I've realized: Oh man, this point is quite extensive, and I must stop and take it apart from various directions and dimensions because otherwise, I will not see the totality of the Character and would not be able to assist and support myself with stepping out of character and become a Living Expression of who I am in every moment of every breath.

 

Today, I will be walking the Self Expression within Singing and I'll be looking at why, when, how and where, I've accepted and allowed myself to suppressed my vocals, my expression within singing despite of my enjoyment of singing to myself and with myself.

 

Identifying the Suppressed Singing Expression Character:

 

1. Picture of the Character:

The Character, as a picture in my mind, is like.. almost dried skin being as the constriction of the being's human physical body had led to a dried manifestation of the human physical flesh/skin.

The character is standing in front of an audience, on a small stage, Immobilized, frozen and hell scared and anxious.

 

2. Back Chats:

• I'm not singing as good as this person
• My voice is weird
• It's sound like a little girl voice when I sing
• Just give it up, you are not a singer
• Why they are comfortable with singing? We are coming from the same family.. Why one side of the family is so shy and the other one is so expressive? I should have born in the other side of the family.
• I would also like to sing like they do
• Why am I so shy? It isn't like me..
• What if I sing out of tune? Will others judge me? I better not take the chance.

 

3. Reactions:

• Embarrassment
• Jealousy
• Comparison
• Competition
• Spitefulness
• Shyness
• Anger
• Judgement

 

4. Body Changes:

• Discomfort with my human physical body:

• Can't find a place to place my hands - eventually, I will either clap them together with the melody or on the table/floor/what ever I can find.

• Constriction in my throat
• Pressure in my solar plexus area towards the heart
• Front thighs are constricted

 

5. Memories:

 

1. Within the Jewish culture, for each holiday, there are specific songs that are being sang when the families are coming together to celebrate the holiday. In Passover, there is one specific song that the youngest child supposed to sing and i have a specific memories where I felt pressure to sing because I have realized that none of the other kids would like to sing and but because I was the youngest, I was expected to sing.

 

I don't remember any problem singing before that evening but when I saw the resistance within others, I internalized the resistance within myself and have decided to resists singing in the family gathering as well. The backchat was: if I would sing, I will be defined and judged as the youngest and won't be accepted by the other kids in the family who are older than me and thus, to be accepted and validated as one of them, I must act like them and therefore, I mustn't sing so that I could fit in with the rest of the kids in our family.

I don't want them see me as young and stupid, I want to be part of the group, the grownup kids group.

And so - I've resisted singing in family gathering ever since - created the character of: "I'm not singing, it's stupid".

 

When we celebrated the same holiday with a different side of the family a couple of years later, or maybe a year later, a friction manifested within and as me.

In that side of the family, Singing was part of who they were and they enjoyed singing, enjoyed the sound, enjoyed the moment, no Shyness. At that night, I was asked to sing as the youngest kid on the table.

 

However, I have already became the character: "I'm not singing, it's stupid" and have thus, automatically resisted to sing. The friction emerged because within and as me, I wanted to sing, but I couldn't step out my character so that no one would be able to expose me when and as I'm in the presence of the other side of the family. And beside, what will my siblings say about me, that I'm young and stupid because I sing? No, I cannot allow that. And thus, I've decided to remain in character and act on my resistance to sing.

 

2. When I was around the age of 7-10, I was participating in the school chorus where I was placed in the Soprano group because I could sing high cords. The Chorus manger liked me because at that time, I was also playing on the Piano and she saw the potential that I could become with my music skills. But even then, I was preoccupied with self judgement and comparison which blinded me to see what the manager saw within me because according to my eye's view - I wasn't good enough, there were others who could sing better than me and I was so possessed with my shyness Character and therefore, I wasn't willing to sing Solo despite of the manager pushing me to sing Solo.

 

There was this girl (let's call her girl A), that sang beautifully and I was very much jealous at her, she used to sing the solo parts which I always dreamt to sing as well but didn't give myself the permission to step up and sing Solo because the Shyness Character was very much in control.

 

The next memory is quite vague and I cannot recall the specific time line but it was in one of the school shows where the solo was given to another girl (girl B) but she was sick at that day and couldn't join the show. From here on, I can't remember the specifics wherein I was either asked to sing instead of her because girl A wasn't there but than, they called her and asked her to come, or either I was wishing to be asked to replace Girl B but Girl A took the part at the end. Either way, I was extremely jealous and as far as I can remember, it didn't took long from that moment until I quit the chorus and stopped singing - Acting on the Giving Up Character.

 

I can write about more memories but the pattern remain the same - I have become the living memory of the Suppressed Expression Character as Singing. What is interesting is that before I started this blog, I couldn't recall the memories and when I spoke with another being, asking for a tool that I can apply to recall the memory, the being told me that the memory in itself isn't relevant as I've already become the living memory because the fact of the matter is - I am not giving myself the permission to sing, as who I am, within and as self expression. And as I was starting to write and opened up the non singing character that I've become, the memories started to come up only for me to see that what ever memory that I'll walk, the patter is still the same - Belief, Comparison, Jealousy, Judgement, Spitefulness looping in a cycle again and again, with different picture presentations, different beings, different environment, different space time - the only thing that is not different and is Equally the same - it the character that I've created as myself.

 

Ok, so in my next blogs, I will be walking the Self Forgiveness and Self Corrective statements and commitments in relation to Singing. The practical application would be…. A surprise.. Wait and see.

Riding on the back of inferiority – Day 20

 

I forgive myself that I’ve accepted and allowed myself to ride on the backs of those who experience themselves as inferior and I haven’t realized that I’m doing so to hide and suppress the existence of me of inferior by attempting to gain a momentary experience of myself as superior.

I forgive myself that I’ve NOT accepted and allowed myself to live according to the principle of do to others what you’d like other to do to you and within that, I’ve ride on the back of those whom I perceived to be inferior to me even though when I’m the inferior in the relationship and I’m allowing someone to ride on my back, I do not enjoy the experience, within that, I forgive myself that I’ve accepted and allowed others to abuse me to sustain their inferiority through projecting their superiority onto me, exactly as I have accepted and allowed myself to abuse those whom I perceive to be inferior to me while I’m projecting superiority towards them AND, I forgive myself that I’ve accepted and allowed myself to experience discomfort and irritation within a relationship where I experience myself as inferior, when someone is abusing that moment to project superiority and I haven’t accepted and allowed myself within that moment to stand up in self trust and direct the relationship effectively because instead, I inverted myself into becoming a complete zombie, accepting the shit of others, in total separation of myself and others.

I forgive myself that I’ve accepted and allowed myself to become nasty and bitchy to those whom I perceive to be inferior to me as well as those whom I perceived to experience themselves as inferior to me because within that, I was balancing the existence of me as inferior by being able to, for a moment, to be and become superior.

I forgive myself that I’ve accepted and allowed myself to attempt and control those whom I perceived as inferior to me because through them, I could balance my inferior personality and for a moment, experience myself as superior.

I forgive myself that I’ve accepted and allowed myself to exists within and as polar personality design of inferior and superior wherein the dominant existence of me throughout my life was the existence of inferior and within that, I forgive myself that I’ve accepted and allowed myself to abdicate the responsibility to stand equal to and one as life because when a moment arrived and I felt inferior, I didn’t stand up and directed the moment effectively but rather, remain quiet and within that made the statement that I’m less than life, that I have no power and that I’m limited.  

I forgive myself that I’ve accepted and allowed myself to deny the nature of me as an abuser that I’ve become towards myself and towards others within the relationships in my world where I accept and allow the polarity design of inferior/superior to exist within me.

I forgive myself that I’ve not accepted and allowed myself to see the abusive nature that I’ve become within my relationships with myself and others wherein, I accept and allow myself to ride on the backs of those whom I perceive to be inferior to me without realizing what I’m actually doing which is to sustain the polarity design so that, within a moment, I’m able to experience myself as superior while 99% of the time, I experience myself as inferior.

I forgive myself that I’ve not accepted and allowed myself to redefine the word ‘Inferior’ and yet, accepted and allowed myself to walk the living expression of the word as myself wherein, Inferior = In Fear and Horror is the living expression of the word within this current world system however, Inferior within the principle of oneness and equality is and can be utilized as a support point wherein when and as One see oneself accessing inferiority, One Stop, Breathe, Correct the pattern and LIVE.

I forgive myself that I’ve accepted and allowed myself to participate within the polarity design of and as inferiority/superiority without realizing that those two polar existence of me can and must be utilized as a red flag where I stop, breathe, re-bring myself to my human physical body and correct myself in that moment to stand within and as a principle of Oneness and Equality.

I forgive myself that I’ve accepted and allowed myself to sabotage my relationship with myself and with other beings in my life wherein I’m bouncing between the personality polar design of inferiority/superiority and I’m either inferior within the relationship or the superior within the relationship and I forgive myself that I’ve NOT accepted and allowed myself to equalize and align myself to myself and other beings in my life because I’ve accepted and taken for granted my existence of my mind without questioning and or support myself within establishing a relationship with myself that is based on self trust, self directiveness, self respect and  self worth.

I forgive myself that I’ve NOT accepted and allowed myself to see the abuse that I’m accepting and allowing within myself wherein I taken for granted my existence of inferior where I’m trying/attempting to balance myself through projecting superiority towards others.

I forgive myself that I’ve NOT accepted and allowed myself to see that the polarity design of inferiority and superiority is based on competition and comparison where I’m comparing myself to other human beings personality design within the nature of superiority/inferiority and thus assessing whether I can compete with them to gain a moment of superiority or whether I should simply become totally inferior when I’m around them.

I forgive myself that I’ve accepted and allowed a world system that is based on the polarity design of inferiority/superiority because I haven’t yet stand up as an example of Oneness and Equality as WHO I AM and within that, I forgive myself that I’ve NOT accepted and allowed myself to see my responsibility within the creation of a world system that is based on a polarity design of inferiority/superiority through the basic common sense that, that which I’m allowing within, I’m allowing without.

I forgive myself that I’ve accepted and allowed a world system that is based on a polarity design of inferiority/superiority wherein those who have the power and money are superior towards those who doesn’t have power and money and within that acceptance and allowance, we have agreed to a world where the majority are being enslaved and control for the behalf of a select few and within that, I forgive myself that I’ve accepted and allowed a world system that do not consider and regard everyone as equals and thus, allowed a world of abuse and suffering instead of common sensically a world that is best for all.

I forgive myself that I’ve NOT accepted and allowed myself to see that the polarity design of inferiority/superiority was taught initially within the family construct where the parents are being superior over their children who are inferior to them and within that, I forgive myself that I’ve NOT accepted and allowed myself to see the relationship between the family construct and the world system and thus, remain blinded to our creation of this world within the nature of competition and comparison through and as a polarity design of inferiority/superiority.

I forgive myself that I’ve NOT accepted and allowed myself to see the relationship between the world system as MONEY and the Inferiority/superiority polarity design wherein those who have money, has power and thus are superior to those who don’t have money and are being enslaved and control by the elite in this world and I forgive myself that I’ve NOT accepted and allowed myself to see my responsibility within it and thus, stand up and become a living example of Oneness and Equality where no abuse is allowed and LIFE isn’t subjected to Money as the living force of this existence.

I commit myself to correct myself and my relationship that I have with myself as well as with others and utilize the experience of superiority/inferiority to a self support transformation tool.

I commit myself to direct and push myself to stop the existence of me of inferior and to stop riding on the backs of other only to sustain the polarity design so that I could feel powerful and worthy by abusing other beings in my world.

I commit myself to stop the existence of me as inferior and align myself as LIFE, equal to and one as the physical and I commit myself to stand as an example and not accept and allow anything that is less or more than WHO I AM as LIFE as the PHYSICAL and thus, direct myself and this world according to what is best for all within the establishing of a world that is best for all lives equally.

I commit myself to – when and as I see myself accessing inferiority/superiority, to STOP, Breathe and bring myself back to my human physical body. I realize that I can and must utilize a flag points such as inferiority/superiority to support myself within my process of facing what I have become and changing myself to WHO I AM as Life as a living principle of Oneness and Equality.

I commit myself to ESTABLISH a relationship/agreement with MYSELF and support myself in all ways possible within my process of stepping out of my mind and stepping into this oneness and equality physical reality.

I commit myself to expose the polarity design of superiority/inferiority within this world system and make sure that all human beings has the potential to be and become Superior human beings within the context of Super-Peer -> Super person of equal rank or standing

I commit myself to stop sabotaging myself and my world through abusing and using others to stabilize the energy body that I’ve become and instead, changing and correcting myself to stand in every moment as a living example, as a living expression of LIFE that is best for all.