Showing posts with label Fairy Tale. Show all posts
Showing posts with label Fairy Tale. Show all posts
Jan 26, 2014 | By: A Woman

The Door is open - will you walk through it? - Day 445

Sometimes in our processes, we face moments where we either fall or we stand; where we either go back to our preprogram life path or we stand by principle; These moments I define as 'Open Door' where one will either walk through the door or close it and never look back.


When these doors open, it is an opportunity for self to test oneself in one's physical reality where one brings into physical manifestation the words that one claims to stand within and as. These 'tests' are fundamental points in one's process where one can assess oneself and one's living application in terms of who one is and what one stands for.

 

Walking through these doors is very easy as the doors take one to one's preprogram life path where one's patterns are playing out automatically and before one notices, one's mind takes over and it's done; the decision to fall was made;

Shutting down the door so absolute is a different story; it is the most 'difficult' decision one could face as the mind would do everything possible to stay 'alive' so to speak and keep one in one's preprogram life path; the physical reality would present itself in a glorified way, where all one desires are playing out in one single moment and saying 'no' or 'stop' to all of these potential desire manifestations takes a lot from self.

 

The fascinating thing is that when these doors open, one can clearly see everything, both the physical reality and the imaginary reality; one can see all the play-outs, outcomes and consequences; Now here, one is working with Energy where the play-outs of one's desire as imagination would carry a positive charge (Positive feelings) which is exactly what one's mind require to sustain itself. At the same time, there is a point of hidden stability, a point of direct seeing, a point of self - there one can find a key to shut down the door. Here, there is no energy, there is a principle as who one is and what one stands for and as.

 

The problem is that energies are what we have become, it is what we used to in a way and when these energies flow around the body, presenting itself in a very delightful way, the belief of wanting to following these energies can cause one to indulge in one's imagination and 'see' the positive play-outs that one is projecting in one's mind - this is where we usually fall and walk through the door, walk into our desires, our preprogram life path.

 

However, we all have access to the core of our beingness on some level; we all can make the decision of who we are and what we stand for in every single moment and what ever we decide, we must accept that it is us who made the decision. When one is close to make the decision to stop, shut the door and stand, one would find all sorts of thoughts/feelings/emotions coming up as one had program oneself to do everything possible to continue one's life path. Here, the secret is within self - to realize that 'It is me who makes the decision now'; 'It is me who has the power to decide'; 'It is me HERE'.

 

Practical support for such moments - Stand within yourself and apply immediate Self Forgiveness and Realign your commitments; You must be absolutely clear within yourself because otherwise, the mind would find a point to take you back because this is how we programmed our mind to act. Again, this won't be easy but it would be worth it because than you know - it was you who made the decision as a directive principle of who you are and what you stand for.

 

 

 

Nov 16, 2012 | By: A Woman

Jealousy and Frustration - I want the Life they Have - Day 216

This is a continuation to:

 

 

For the purpose of context, suggest reading these posts above prior to reading the post below, if you haven’t already. Here I will be walking the 'I don't have TIME' Character - Reaction Dimension - Practical support with Self Forgiveness and Self Commitments.

 

Reactions Dimension:

* Jealousy

* Frustration

* Irritation

* Anger

* Judgment and Self Judgment

* Impatient

* Self Pity

* Depression

* Anxiety

* Stress

 

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Jealousy

 

259308891016006529_LnW4ukdN_cI forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to access jealousy that I've activated within my participation in the Imagination Dimension and the Backchat dimension where I would compare a specific moment to an ideal in my mind, which I've defined and valued as a Positive Experience and accordingly, become Jealous when the Physical reality is not in alignment to the Ideal Positive Experience.

In this, I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to Experience Jealousy towards those that according to my mind, having the Ideal Positive Experience that I desire to experience myself. Within this, I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to attempt to diminish/judge/spite those that I'm jealous at to Balance the Negative Experience that I had accepted and allowed myself to create within and as myself, so that I could elevate myself and feel Superior and better than them.

 

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to react in Jealousy when imagining or thinking about what Positive Experiences I could have had if I wouldn't be Busy with that which I am busy with instead of Stop the inner reaction and stand up for a Life where ALL can have Fun, where ALL could Enjoy their time with each other's company, where all have access to Entertainment. Within this, I understand my Responsibility in Making sure such a Life is would exists for everyone and thus, I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to consider only myself, within a Jealousy reaction, not realizing that when I'm busy with being jealous in stead of directing myself to the best of my effectiveness, I'm prolonging the Existential process as I've wasted my time in being in my mind, instead of walking as an expression of myself, as self movement, towards the establishment of a world that is best for all.

 

I thus commit myself to assist and support myself to stop any Jealousy reactions within and as me as I see, realize and understand that accepting and allowing Jealousy to exists within me, not only I sabotage and compromise myself but also, prolonging the Collective Correction Process as a whole because unless I stand absolute stable within who I am as an expression of myself and unless I practically correct and change my Living application, there is no way I could stand as a pillar of support, as an Example that a change is possible in us standing together, correcting ourselves and this world as a whole.

 

Frustration

Melinda-Konya-1-7I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to react in Frustration when looking at all the things that I must get done within the thought: "I would never get everything done", not seeing, realizing and understanding that in any moment I accept and allow myself to access an emotional reaction, it is a moment I've wasted and haven't walked in stability, in breath, to practically apply that which needs to be applied.

 

I thus, Commit myself to NOT accept and allow myself to participate in Frustration, I rather assist and support myself in taking a breath in, a breath out, stabilizing within who I am, in my own physical body, re-establish my starting point within and as myself, to stand in alignment as the principle of that which is best for all as I see, realize and understand that accepting and allowing frustration to exists within and as me, indicate that my starting point isn't absolutely clear and I thus, must re-investigate the point, see what I've missed, where did I not sort out myself yet and accordingly, walk the correction process within and as myself.

Nov 8, 2012 | By: A Woman

‘Leaving’ the Dream - Day 208

    a0abd8c11f756ab70a684a6a770bede3This is a continuation to:

    The Elite's delusion of stress - Part 1 - Day 45

    The Elite's Delusion of Stress - Part 2 - Day 46

    The Decision of TIME - Day 67

    And:

    Copy Paste Character - the Way for Success? - Day 183

    Copy Paste Character - The Education System - Day 184

    Is it possible to Cheat yourself? Day 185

    It is time to STOP Existing as a Human Machine - Day 186

    The End of Times - Day 187

    Facing the Evil within - the KEY to LIFE - Day 188

    Fear of Disappointing others - Day 189

    The Psychology of TIME - Day 190

    I Regret, therefor, I'm a Good Person. NOT!!! - Day 191

    The REAL Fear - Day 192

    The things we Won't tell ANYONE - Day 193

    Missing out on the Good Life - Day 194

    Let's have some Fun - Day 195

    Stupidity Loop - Jumping from the Bad to the Good to the Bad - Day 196

    The Smoke Screen of Ignorance - Day 197


    For the purpose of context, suggest reading these posts above prior to reading the post below, if you haven’t already. Here I will be walking the 'I don't have TIME' Character -Imagination Dimension - Practical support with Self Forgiveness and Self Commitments.

     

     

    Imagination Dimension:

    • I imagine the life of those who have money and can do what ever they want with their life - having a spa day, going out, enjoying themselves as I used to do myself a few years back.
    • I imagine people coming back from work, after a long day, and sitting on the coach with their partner, hanging out, watching a movie, laying back, with nothing really to do.

     

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    • I imagine the life of those who have money and can do what ever they want with their life - having a spa day, going out, enjoying themselves as I used to do myself a few years back.

     

    I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to have an experience towards my direct environment and within that, have associated/defined the Experience within a negative charge through comparing my environment to an environment that I've created in my mind, as an imagination within and as my mind, which I've associated and define within a positive charge. In this, I forgive myself that I've NOT accepted and allowed myself to see, realize and understand that Experience can only exists within and as Energy that I gave value to, either positive or Negative, while, not considering that when and as I accept and allow an experience to exists within me, I'm accepting and allowing myself to miss a breath, to miss a window of opportunity to assist and support myself to stand within and as my human physical body, Here and have the work done. In this, I forgive myself that I've NOT accepted and allowed myself to see, realize and understand that by the very acceptance and allowance of imagination within and as my mind, when and as there is a task or work that needs to be done, I'm actually preparing the way before me, to create the manifested consequences of not having enough time to finish the task/work because I've wasted the physical time in imagining things in my mind which then, physically I cannot have the work done because I'm preoccupied with something else as for instance, participating in imagination with myself, in my mind. 

     

    I commit myself to assist and support myself in establishing self-movement as the directive principle in every moment of every breath and within that, assist and support myself to stop my participation in imagination as an experience I desire to have, as an experience that I've defined and associated within and as a positive energetic charge because I now see, realize and understand that when accepting and allowing myself to participate in imagination, I accept and allow myself to miss a window of opportunity for me to actually transform and change my living application to a physical, breath by breath living application wherein I'm effectively doing that which need to be done as I see, realize and understand my responsibility in having the thing done. Thus, when and as I see myself going into my mind, to the imagination domain, I stop, I breath and I remind myself that accepting and allow myself to miss a breath is simply not acceptable as I see why and how I've accepted and allowed myself to separate myself from the physical through the acceptance and allowances of imagination participation and through directly seeing what I've missed in separation of myself (which is - missing myself Here), I bring myself back here, to and as the physical, breathing, clearing myself from any energy charge that may exists within and as me and moving myself, as the directive principle in walking that which required to be walked as what is best for all.

     

    I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to NOT realize that imagining the Life that I cannot have is simply impractical but instead, I can walk towards a life that is best for all where all our want/need/desire can be fulfilled equally if obviously, these desire/wants/needs do not harm and abuse anything or anyone else. Within that, I forgive myself that I've NOT accepted and allowed myself to realize that to establish a world where everyone can fulfil their desires/wants/needs when and as these desires/wants/needs do not harm anything and anyone, I must give up my desires/wants/needs for this ONE life time as that is the time that I have in making sure and in walking the physical space/time path that would bring about an actual correction/change within and as this world because, unless everyone equally can fulfil their desires, the desire in itself is not valid as it is based on the principle of self interest instead of the principle of that which is best for all within and as: Give as you would like to receive, Do unto another as you would like to be done unto you

    And Investigate ALL things and keep that which is good for All.

     

    I commit myself to give up this Life from the perspective of giving up my self interest desires because I see, realize and understand that unless my desires are equally accessible for all, the desire in itself isn't valid. Within this, I commit myself to stop the imagination of the Life that I can not have but instead, make sure that everyone equally will get to a point of living the life that everyone should have - a life that is best for all where everyone could express and fulfil themselves as long as we do not harm anything or anyone else.

     

    I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to deliberately forget the inner experiences that I had when living the life of the 'haves' where I had the funds and means to spend my money in luxuries and indulgent and in the outside, put a smile and present myself as happy and free while in the inside, I felt misery and sadness which would not go away despite of the positive things that I've done externally.

    In that, I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to deliberately store the external experience that I've defined as positive and to store the inner experience that I had defined as negative as a program that would create my experiences for me, externally and internally, without seeing, realizing and understanding that both experiences are of the same coin and none can exists without the other side of the polarity exits. Thus, I forgive myself that I've NOT accepted and allowed myself to see, realize and understand that the purpose of the experiences, as energies is to keep me enslave to my own mind as my mind can only exists through energy which within that, I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to take myself further away from myself and this physical reality in every moment that I accept and allow these past experiences to exists within and as me, as stored memories that had accumulated to a program (a character) that activates when and as I'm perceiving and defining my experience within my environment as a negative.

     

    I commit myself to assist and support myself to stop giving power to my mind to exists through my participation within and as energy that keeps the mind 'alive' and in control over my entire existence. Within that, when and as I find myself busy with an assignment/task/work which I define as negative experience through comparing the experience to a positive experience that I desire to have, I stop, I breathe, and I remind myself why I am here and who I am here because unless I establish an equal and one relationship/agreement with myself, in walking breath by breath according to that which is best for all, I'm preparing the way before me to fall into the energy traps that I've created for myself as my mind, to keep me 'alive' as energy, not realizing that that Life isn't Energy, Life isn't an experience; Life is something I must realize as who I am, when and as I am Life which for that, I must walk the physical space/time path, in assisting and supporting me to step out of my mind and step into Life.

Oct 3, 2012 | By: A Woman

Why Females attracted to Males that are unavailable for a relationship - Day 172

 

This is a continuation to:

Part 1 - My First Love.

Part 2 - What is Love to me?

What is Spiritual Love to me? - Part 3 - Day 158

No Sex - No Relationship - Day 167

Men only think about Sex? - Day 168

Values System Within my Mind – Day 169

The Love Experience - Day 170

Wanting to be Saved by Prince Charming - Day 171

 

Ray CaesarI forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to feel comfortable with unavailable men because then, the chances of me getting hurt are almost nonexistent however, within that, I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to consider me and me only wherein, I didn't take into consideration the female that is involved and how I'm directly responsible to a friction that is caused in their relationship.

 

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to orient myself towards unavailable guys to bypass the fear of being hurt again instead of taking responsibility for myself and that which I've accepted and allowed myself to participate with - blaming others for my own self victimization and to in that, sort myself out and prepare myself for an effective relationship with a male where we could start from the get go, build, develop and establish effective relationship that is not based on past memory experiences but rather on the potential of us standing together, in alignment, assisting and supporting ourselves to become a better human beings in this world, accepting our responsibilities as human beings in this world and so - grow and expand ourselves together within the principle of what is best for all.

 

I forgive myself that I've NOT accepted and allowed myself to utilize my abilities to assist and support human beings when it comes to unavailable males wherein, instead of supporting them to correct and establish a functioning best for all relationship/agreement with their partner, I would lure them into falling in love with me, so that I could feel desirable and yearn for while disrespecting within this, myself, the male and the male's partner.

 

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to consider unavailable men as a challenge, as if I must get them to prove that I'm more than their partner, as if having them, will satisfied my own self worth, not seeing, realizing and understanding that my participation within my desire to feel desirable in comparison to the male's partner is indicating exactly the opposite wherein, I've placed my self worth in other beings, in separation of me and in accepting and allowing the above design within and as me, self worth is nonexistent as I require something else to give me worth and in doing so, would crash over anyone in the attempt to get this alleged self worth as I've accepted and allowed my own self interest as my directive principle.

 

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to experience stress when talking with a man that is available for a relationship and experience calmness amalgamate with naughtiness when communicating with a male that is unavailable for a relationship and within that, I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to access the seducer character when and as I meet a guy that is unavailable for a relationship from the starting point of feeling desirable and more attractive than their own partner.

 

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to open a door for the males to leave their partner in order to choose to be with me instead of instead of standing as a pillar of support, deleting my own self interest desire to feel MORE and stand as a principle of that which is best for all and in that, assist and support the male to support himself to support the relationship with his partner within the principle of Give as you'd like to receive.

 

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to move and speak in a specific mannerism when communicating with unavailable guy for a relationship and within the way I move and speak, to seduce them in falling in love with me, so that they could break up from their partner and be with me and I'll get what I want - a momentary feeling of being MORE and in this, I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to move and speak differently as how I would move and speak with all human beings equally as one, when communicating with unavailable men.

 

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to be with a man that was previously unavailable and was breaking up with his partner for "me" and despite of me knowing how the pattern fold itself and how the man is really not trust worthy, I have accepted and allowed this man in my life for a momentary feeling like I'm MORE and thus, I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to- when in a relationship such as this, to constantly fear that the relationship would end as I know within and as me that the starting point of this relationship was based on Energy and that the energy would eventually dissipate and the guy would move on to the next target to continue recharging himself with a new and exciting experience.

 

I Commit myself to STOP and DELETE my desire to Feel MORE as I see, realize and understand the consequences of my actions when playing along with my desire for a specific experience.

 

I commit myself to stand as a pillar of support when and as I communicate with a guy that I see him having secret agendas in relation to me as I've came to learn how the body moves and how the voice change and what specific words the guy would use when and as the guy is interested in me while having a relationship with another woman. And thus, I commit myself to immediately assess, test and check within and as myself, whether or not there is even the slightest movement of a energetic desire within and as me. If I find that there is, I Delete the Desire, Breath and place myself back here. when I'm done, clear and stable within myself, I assist and support the male through showing him what he is accepting and allowing within himself and accordingly, open up this point, support him in changing his starting point in his relationship with his partner from energy starting point to Physical support starting point.

 

I Commit myself to not accept and allow myself to continuing the game that I was playing with unavailable guys within the belief that in this way, I cannot be hurt again and instead, to sort myself out within and as myself through a process of self forgiveness, self honesty and self corrective physical application as I see, realize and understand that participating in this game indicate that I've not accepted and allowed me as who I am and that in fact, I'm less than who I am when requiring others to validate and give me worth.

Oct 2, 2012 | By: A Woman

Wanting to be Saved by Prince Charming - Day 171

This is a continuation to:

Part 1 - My First Love.

Part 2 - What is Love to me?

What is Spiritual Love to me? - Part 3 - Day 158

No Sex - No Relationship - Day 167

Men only think about Sex? - Day 168

Values System Within my Mind – Day 169

The Love Experience - Day 170

 

 

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to create and believe in my creation of my own misery so that I could live out the fantasy of being saved by my Prince Charming and as years passed by and the ONE LOVE didn't show up, I created more misery for myself and more sadness for myself, not seeing the relationship between my desire to be saved by the ONE and the misery that I put myself through so that I could have this experienced of being saved. In this, I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to separate myself to such an extent that I prepared the way before me, in deliberateness, for someone to save me through the belief that it would be the only way that I could experience the LOVE, not seeing, realizing and understanding the consequential outflows of my desires.

 

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed the desire of being saved from  my own sadness as a design that I've created within and as myself, looking for the missing piece - for a guy that would play along within this design - one that had accepted and allowed oneself to participate within and as the Desire to Save.

 

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to want to LIVE out the fantasy of a princess that is being saved by prince charming and accordingly, had set the scenes, preparing myself so completely with accessing all the agony and sadness that comes with it and I haven't seen, realized and understood how this fantasy was created through imprinting the fairy tales story into me, already from the childhood years, believing that this should be my story and therefore, became the character of my own life, to stand in alignment with the fantasy scene that I was busy building up where all along, the one point that kept me going was HOPE that my Love Story would end up like in the Movies = happily ever after.

 

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to get in a relationship from the starting point of the desire of being saved and I haven't seen, realized and understood the consequences of starting a relationship from a desire to be saved wherein, once I change my the dynamic within the relationship where I no longer need to be saved as I already experienced that LOVE and already got the guy, the relationship can no longer stand since it was no more in alignment with the desire of wanting to be saved as wanting to save.

 

Ray CaesarI forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to manipulate guys through my own desire to be saved, through presenting myself as Sad and within that, to open a door for the guy, to access his own design of being the saviour so that we could both play the game and live happily ever after.

 

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to manipulate myself through deliberately become the sadness character - always seeking for Drama, for a story that I would then utilize to manipulate the guys that are carrying the Design of a saviour and within my own self manipulation, I became to know me as Sad and accepted the sadness as me, not seeing, realizing and understanding that becoming sad was my own deliberate decision that I've accepted and allowed myself to stand as and I haven't seen how powerful I am within my own creation of sadness, as I've also created the forgetfulness that I was the one who decided to create myself as sadness as a manipulative action to attract a guy.

 

For male's perspective regarding the design of wanting to save a girl - suggest reading Fidelis's Journey to Life - Day 65 - Also Attracted to Broken Girls Part 2 

 

I Commit myself to show how a child is creating a fantasy in one's mind, in the first 7 years of one's life and accordingly, would slowly but surely, start playing the character role that one had put forth to oneself without seeing, realizing and understanding the consequential outflows that one is creating within the acceptance and allowance of oneself to participate in one's desires that one would design oneself as throughout one's life.

 

I Commit myself to remind myself that I am always the ONE who decide and what ever I created myself as, I also created the forgetfulness of becoming my own creation so that I would never find out that I've created myself as such and accordingly change.

 

I Commit myself to Expose the Design of the Saviour and being Saved that human beings are participating in our journey to find the ONE, the LOVE and within that, SHOW the relationship between the Design and the Media.

 

I Commit myself to be attentive to how my Mode is changing when and as I meet a guy and within that, make sure that I'm not accessing the design of being saved where I would manipulate myself into becoming sad to draw attention within the Hope that the guy would play along and carry the Saviour character.