Holding onto a Grudge - Part 3- Day 233

This a continuation to:

From Evilness to Life - Day 226

The seclusion in Inclusion - Day 227

Seeing the Evil Nature in Dreams - Day 229

Holding onto a Grudge - Day 230

Holding onto a Grudge - Part 2 - Day 231

 

Before you read this blog, I truly suggest to Invest in the Quantum Mind - Self Awareness Interviews as it is a tremendous assistance and support for me in getting to know the origin of myself in how I programmed myself to behave, speak, react, form personalities and so forth. In this, I can slowly but surely, expand my awareness of myself as what I've accepted and allowed myself to be and become through years of Self Programming with Zero self and real Awareness.

 

I Commit myself to Further expanding my Direct seeing of my own mind, from the Conscious to the Sub Conscious to the UnConsious and to the Quantum and the Physical Quantum Mind to understand the Mechanics of the Mind in how I've accepted and allowed myself to program my relationships with myself and with others with No Self Awareness.

 

I Commit myself to Investigate my Current Relationships within my Physical Environment to allocate the 'Preferences' that I've formed within these relationship so that I could see, realize and understand for myself, how I've programmed these preference in relationship with Past Memories Experiences as the Building blocks of how I would automatically experience myself in their presence, what Back chat would I have, How would I react and so forth. Within that, I commit myself to change my Relationship from Mind Experiences to Physical Living Expression of and as myself.

 

I Commit myself to when and as I see myself accessing defence mode in relation to another human being, to investigate and check if there are any memories from the past that I've associated and connected to this being and accordingly, assist and support myself to Forgive myself and delete the memories that I've utilize to Protect myself through holding onto Grudge as I now see, realize and understand that so long as I hold onto grudge, I'm not giving our relationship to transform to a supportive and effective relationship where we expand and grow ourselves within and as the principle of that which is best for all.

 

I commit myself to investigate all the fears that I've programmed myself within and as because I now see, realize and understand that so long as I'm approaching relationship within the starting point of fear, there is no way I could develop and establish a real and physical relationship with any human being as I would not allow myself to trust them and would keep a wall that separate us from really getting to know each other and develop a supportive and effective relationship that would stand for eternity.

 

I commit myself to - when and as I communicate with another human being, to allow myself to truly listen to their words, in letting go the defense mechanisms that I've created within and as myself from the starting point of fear. In this, I commit myself to self honestly getting to know the other human being in their totality as I now see, realize and understand that I have never accepted and allowed myself to see the being as who they are, but always approach the being from my own limitation of my own mind, through my opinions, beliefs, ideas, fears, reactions that I have created within and as myself throughout the years.

Holding onto a Grudge - Part 2 - Day 231

This a continuation to:

From Evilness to Life - Day 226

The seclusion in Inclusion - Day 227

Seeing the Evil Nature in Dreams - Day 229

Holding onto a Grudge - Day 230

 

 

I forgive myself that I've NOT accepted and allowed myself to Delete the Past Memory Experience, Either a Negative or Positive, as I've NOT accepted and allowed myself to realize that storing Past Memory Experiences is how I enslave myself, further into my mind in how I would from there develop preferences, likes/dislikes and emotions and feelings towards other human beings and within this, how I would chose the people I like/dislike being around instead of, assessing and checking the alignment between us to see if the relationship would produce an outcome that would result in the expansion and growth of each other within the principle of that which is best for all.

 

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to NOT realize that as long as I hold grudge towards another human being, based on a past memory Experience where I felt betrayed or hurt, I do not give the relationship a chance to transform to a supportive relationship where both are standing in alignment, assisting and supporting each other to become a better human beings in this world and through that, empower we are through strengthening ourselves with the assistance and support of each other because, the grudge that I hold onto the other human being is like a wall that I'm placing between us, a wall that cannot be walked through so that we both become One, unless I remove the wall in absolute self trust, through deleting the past memory experiences and within that, accepting and allowing myself to walk with a person, as who the person IS, in that very moment of Breath.

 

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to train and program myself to hold grudge towards the people in my world and my environment as part of my Survival tactics, in case that one day, I could utilize that grudge and transform it to a revenge, to strike first with all the weapons I have stored within and as myself, before they could harm and hurt me. In this, I forgive myself that I've NOT accepted and allowed myself to realize that my approach to any relationship is within FEAR as I've NOT accepted and allowed myself to trust anyone due to past memory experiences where I perceived people to harm and hurt me.

 

Moreover, I forgive myself that I've NOT accepted and allowed myself to realize that I've approached Relationship from fear, from a very young age and within that, didn't walk the 1+1 equation in understanding that that which I fear, persists and manifest itself over and over again, until I stand up and change.

 

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to NOT realize that when and as I hold grudge towards another human being, I'm not accepting and allowing myself to create a co-existing relationship with them, because I would always be in a state of protection and defense towards a possibility of getting hurt.

 

In this, I forgive myself that I've NOT accepted and allowed myself to realize that so long as I hold onto past memory experiences of all the times I perceived others to disappoint me, harm, compromise, betray or hurt me, I cannot expect having relationship with people from an Equal and ONE physical starting point as I gave value to past memories experiences which through the memories, as fears, I accepted and allowed myself to move and direct myself.

 

I forgive myself that I've NOT accepted and allowed myself to realize that so long as I'm holding a past memory Event/Experience that I've defined within and as myself as Negative, I'm Not accepting and allowing myself to really get to know another human being as my approach from the get go was of and as fear. In this, I forgive myself that I've NOT accepted and allowed myself to see, realize and understand that I have never in fact, accepted and allowed myself to get to know another human being so long as I hold memories within and as myself through which, I would interpret what I think and perceive they are saying, through associating their words, behaviour and mannerism with past Memories Events/Experiences that I've stored within and as myself.

 

 

Will be continued..

How little do we know about our Body - Day 223

This is a continuation to:

 

The Elite's delusion of stress - Part 1 - Day 45 The Elite's Delusion of Stress - Part 2 - Day 46 The Decision of TIME - Day 67 opy Paste Character - The Education System - Day 184 Is it possible to Cheat yourself? Day 185 It is time to STOP Existing as a Human Machine - Day 186 The End of Times - Day 187 Facing the Evil within - the KEY to LIFE - Day 188 Fear of Disappointing others - Day 189 The Psychology of TIME - Day 190 I Regret, therefor, I'm a Good Person. NOT!!! - Day 191 The REAL Fear - Day 192 The things we Won't tell ANYONE - Day 193 Missing out on the Good Life - Day 194 Let's have some Fun - Day 195

Stupidity Loop - Jumping from the Bad to the Good to the Bad - Day 196 The Smoke Screen of Ignorance - Day 197 Leaving in a Dream - Day 208 Having the Life Style you always dreamt to have - Day 209 IT is MY time Now - don't say a word - Day 210 Let's go on Vacation - Day 211 Comparison is a Bitch - Day 212 Damn, I will never have everything done - Day 213 Standing as an Example - Self Interest or Self Realization? - Day 214 From the Bossy to the Loser - Day 215 Jealousy and Frustration - I want the Life they Have - Day 216 The Poison within Irritation and Anger - Day 217 Judgement as self Perfection - Day 218 Impatience as Evilness - Day 219 Please feel Sorry for me - Day 220 Depression - Self Interest or a Real Physical Condition? - Day 221 Stress and Anxiety - Self Creation or Elite's Mind Control? - Day 222

 

For the purpose of context, suggest reading these posts above prior to reading the post below, if you haven’t already. Here I will be walking the 'I don't have TIME' Character - Behaviour Dimension - Practical support with Self Forgiveness and Self Commitments.

 

Behaviour Dimension:

* Shoulders downs

* Back carving in

* Head leans on the left hand

* Dragging the legs

* Rub my eyes

 

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to automate how I would Behave and how I would move myself as my human physical body, with no self awareness, when and as I've activated the 'I don't have Time' Character. In this, I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to NOT realize how and why I've automated my Behaviour body movement when and as I access the 'I don't have time' Character and within that, How I would accept and allow myself to sabotage my physical body through accepting and allowing myself to position my body in postures that do not support the physical body.

 

I forgive myself that I've NOT accepted and allowed myself to see how I've taken for granted my physical body and completely sabotaged myself as the physical body through accepting and allowing myself to access a total mind possession, as the 'I don't have time character' wherein I would accept and allow my body to be positioned in postures that do not support the body in any way whatsoever.

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to NOT see, realize and understand how in the moment of realizing that I will not get a task/work done wherein a moment before that, I've been stable within and as myself, I, in that moment, would change my body posture according to the Negative Experience that I've accepted and allowed within and as myself, in comparison to the Positive Experience that I've had within and as my mind and so, I my shoulders would go down and my back would crave in and I would lean my head on the left hand, in total desperation and self victimization that I've Perceived the Experience that I face to be. 

 

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to drag my legs when I'm walking while I'm in the 'I don't have time' character, so that within the way that I walk, I would be noticed by others, and they would either feel sorry for me, or offer to assist me and I have NOT seen how I would compromise and sabotage my human physical body for the sake of getting attention to validate the Character that I embodied within and as myself so that I could justify to myself why it's ok to 'Feel' what I feel, not seeing realizing and understanding the Design of the 'I don't have time' character that I've created within and as myself.

 

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to NOT realized that I deliberately rub my eyes when I'm possessed within the 'I don't have time' character that I've created within and as myself, to further justify for myself why it is ok to give up now and not push myself to finish the task/work that I've set forth to myself within the excuse that I'm apparently tired which manifest a physical consequences of dry eyes.

 

I commit myself to be aware and attentive to how I move and change my body behaviour in any given moment to assist and support myself in seeing what I've accepted and allowed within and as myself so that I could investigate the point for myself and accordingly walk the correction process, as myself.

 

I commit myself to - When and as I see myself going down the road of separation from and as my human physical body as I see that I'm changing the way that I move, speak, behave I then stop, Breathe, assessing within and as myself what's going on, what backchat, fear, reactions, imagination I've accepted and allowed within and as myself and accordingly, assist and support myself in bringing myself back here though physical self forgiveness and self corrective practical application.

Jealousy and Frustration - I want the Life they Have - Day 216

This is a continuation to:

 

The Elite's delusion of stress - Part 1 - Day 45 The Elite's Delusion of Stress - Part 2 - Day 46 The Decision of TIME - Day 67 The Decision of TIME - Day 67 Copy Paste Character - The Education System - Day 184 Is it possible to Cheat yourself? Day 185 It is time to STOP Existing as a Human Machine - Day 186 The End of Times - Day 187 Facing the Evil within - the KEY to LIFE - Day 188 Fear of Disappointing others - Day 189 The Psychology of TIME - Day 190 I Regret, therefor, I'm a Good Person. NOT!!! - Day 191 The REAL Fear - Day 192

The things we Won't tell ANYONE - Day 193 Missing out on the Good Life - Day 194 Let's have some Fun - Day 195 Stupidity Loop - Jumping from the Bad to the Good to the Bad - Day 196 The Smoke Screen of Ignorance - Day 197 Leaving in a Dream - Day 208 Having the Life Style you always dreamt to have - Day 209 IT is MY time Now - don't say a word - Day 210 Let's go on Vacation - Day 211 Comparison is a Bitch - Day 212 Damn, I will never have everything done - Day 213 Standing as an Example - Self Interest or Self Realization? - Day 214 From the Bossy to the Loser - Day 215

 

For the purpose of context, suggest reading these posts above prior to reading the post below, if you haven’t already. Here I will be walking the 'I don't have TIME' Character - Reaction Dimension - Practical support with Self Forgiveness and Self Commitments.

 

Reactions Dimension:

* Jealousy

* Frustration

* Irritation

* Anger

* Judgment and Self Judgment

* Impatient

* Self Pity

* Depression

* Anxiety

* Stress

 

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Jealousy

 

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to access jealousy that I've activated within my participation in the Imagination Dimension and the Backchat dimension where I would compare a specific moment to an ideal in my mind, which I've defined and valued as a Positive Experience and accordingly, become Jealous when the Physical reality is not in alignment to the Ideal Positive Experience.

In this, I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to Experience Jealousy towards those that according to my mind, having the Ideal Positive Experience that I desire to experience myself. Within this, I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to attempt to diminish/judge/spite those that I'm jealous at to Balance the Negative Experience that I had accepted and allowed myself to create within and as myself, so that I could elevate myself and feel Superior and better than them.

 

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to react in Jealousy when imagining or thinking about what Positive Experiences I could have had if I wouldn't be Busy with that which I am busy with instead of Stop the inner reaction and stand up for a Life where ALL can have Fun, where ALL could Enjoy their time with each other's company, where all have access to Entertainment. Within this, I understand my Responsibility in Making sure such a Life is would exists for everyone and thus, I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to consider only myself, within a Jealousy reaction, not realizing that when I'm busy with being jealous in stead of directing myself to the best of my effectiveness, I'm prolonging the Existential process as I've wasted my time in being in my mind, instead of walking as an expression of myself, as self movement, towards the establishment of a world that is best for all.

 

I thus commit myself to assist and support myself to stop any Jealousy reactions within and as me as I see, realize and understand that accepting and allowing Jealousy to exists within me, not only I sabotage and compromise myself but also, prolonging the Collective Correction Process as a whole because unless I stand absolute stable within who I am as an expression of myself and unless I practically correct and change my Living application, there is no way I could stand as a pillar of support, as an Example that a change is possible in us standing together, correcting ourselves and this world as a whole.

 

Frustration

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to react in Frustration when looking at all the things that I must get done within the thought: "I would never get everything done", not seeing, realizing and understanding that in any moment I accept and allow myself to access an emotional reaction, it is a moment I've wasted and haven't walked in stability, in breath, to practically apply that which needs to be applied.

 

I thus, Commit myself to NOT accept and allow myself to participate in Frustration, I rather assist and support myself in taking a breath in, a breath out, stabilizing within who I am, in my own physical body, re-establish my starting point within and as myself, to stand in alignment as the principle of that which is best for all as I see, realize and understand that accepting and allowing frustration to exists within and as me, indicate that my starting point isn't absolutely clear and I thus, must re-investigate the point, see what I've missed, where did I not sort out myself yet and accordingly, walk the correction process within and as myself.

Damn, I will never have everything done - Day 213

 

This is a continuation to:

The Elite's delusion of stress - Part 1 - Day 45
The Elite's Delusion of Stress - Part 2 - Day 46	The REAL Fear - Day 192
The Decision of TIME - Day 67	The things we Won't tell ANYONE - Day 193
The Decision of TIME - Day 67	Missing out on the Good Life - Day 194
Copy Paste Character - The Education System - Day 184	Let's have some Fun - Day 195
Is it possible to Cheat yourself? Day 185	Stupidity Loop - Jumping from the Bad to the Good to the Bad - Day 196
It is time to STOP Existing as a Human Machine - Day 186	The Smoke Screen of Ignorance - Day 197
The End of Times - Day 187	Leaving in a Dream - Day 208
Facing the Evil within - the KEY to LIFE - Day 188	Having the Life Style you always dreamt to have - Day 209
Fear of Disappointing others - Day 189	IT is MY time Now - don't say a word - Day 210
The Psychology of TIME - Day 190	Let's go on Vacation - Day 211
Comparison is a Bitch - Day 212	Comparison is a Bitch - Day 212

 

For the purpose of context, suggest reading these posts above prior to reading the post below, if you haven’t already. Here I will be walking the 'I don't have TIME' Character - Internal Conversation/ back chat Dimension - Practical support with Self Forgiveness and Self Commitments.

 

Here, one must understand that the Back chat, are the source of all Evil wherein, what one accepting and allowing within oneself, within the belief that no one will ever find out, is nasty and evil shit. Therefor, I will be walking back chat by back chat, in making sure I purify myself from the Evil that I've accepted and allowed within myself, in the context of the ' I don't have Time' Character.

 

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Damn, I will never have everything done.

 

Obviously not, how can I have everything done when I'm so preoccupied in my mind? How is it that I have time to participate in thoughts and imaginations but I don't have a sufficient time to walk in practicality, everything that needs to be done? That is an interesting question that all must inquire within and as themselves.

 

Within this backchat, what needs to be considered, investigated and looked at is 'Priorities' and when I was looking within and as myself, the only thing that separate me from 'Having everything done' is my own Desire and the Value that I gave to my Desires and within that, trying to manipulate myself, to be able to justify, why I have decided to not have everything that needs to be done within giving in and following my self interest desires.

 

Also a point to look at is that - what separate me with having things done is the very statement that there is Me, and there are things that needs to be done, as if it is 2 separate entities and what was not yet considered, realized and understood is the Interdependent relationship that this world is consisting of and existing as which then thus, there is not Me, as how I have defined myself within my mind, and 'things that needs to be done' in separation - what is Real is me, as Who I am, within what I do, in walking breath by breath by breath and in every step, direct myself according to the principle of what is best for all however, as long as I am in my mind, scheming for short cuts, having back chats, separating myself from what I do as if it is an entity that I must now achieve.

 

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to believe that things needs to be done, in separation of me, not seeing, realizing and understanding that there is nothing in separation of me that needs to be done, it is simply being Here, in absolute awareness, Breathing and directing myself according to a principle, step by step.

 

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to NOT see and realize that the reason why I have created 2 separate entities - Me, and things that needs to be done, implies, that my starting point within the decision that I've made was not clear and absolute and therefor, I forgive myself that I've NOT accepted and allowed myself to see, realize and understand that when I experience overload, and stress to have things done, it is just an Experience that I've created within my mind and I have not realized that there is so much that can be done in every moment of breath and so, I must direct myself in every moment of breath to do what I do, as who I am, in ease, with no effort and as an expression of Who I am, as what I have decided to do in a specific and particular moment within self honesty, responsibility and realization that I'm here, and there is always things that needs to be done which I am able to walk to the best of my ability, capability in making the most out of it, as an expression of myself.

 

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to NOT investigate what triggered and activated the thought: "Damn, I will never have everything done" and within that, had accepted and allowed myself to continue the thought within a Negative Energy Experience as an expression of what I've accepted and allowed myself in that moment to become, in separation of myself. In this, I forgive myself that I've NOT accepted and allowed myself to see, realize and understand that the starting point of having such thought indicate, that what ever I'm doing, I haven't done for myself, as myself, within realizing my own self responsibility in walking breath by breath to the utmost of my potential.

 

I forgive myself that I've NOT accepted and allowed myself to realize that the very statement of: "Damn, I will never have everything done" is entirely not true because eventually, what ever I'm working on will be done as a decision that I've made to walk a specific point until it's done. And thus, I forgive myself that I've NOT accepted and allowed myself to consider that maybe, the time frame that I've calculated for a specific task wasn't in alignment to the physical space/time reality and therefor, I can learn from my mistake and make sure that next time, my time estimation would be correct and in alignment to the physical space/time reality.

 

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to desire being validated within what I do and therefor, when not having things done, my entire self definition would be compromise and threaten and in this, I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to priorities my self definition as a desire before the principle of that which is best for all because my starting point was to satisfied my desire to be validated through what I do and not walking as an expression of myself within what I do as a self realization that: This is who I am, this is why I am here, that needs to be done and therefor, I walk.

 

I commit myself to remind myself that there is so much that one can do in every single breath and therefor, thinking about 'not having things done' and feeling stress about that, won't make anything magically done but quite to the contrary, all I am accepting and allowing when and as I participate with such a thought is to waste my time in compromising myself and my effectiveness within what I do as Who  I am. Thus, when and as I see that practically, I won't be able to have things done within a time frame that I've set forth to myself, I take a breath, I assess and check how can I practically walk this point and simply walk it, with no effort, no stress, breath by breath.

 

I commit myself to SHOW that having such a thought as: "Damn, I will never have everything done", won't make things done but to the contrary - having any thought, will only prolong the process and would compromise and sabotage self and the relationship self has with oneself and others in this world.
 

I commit myself to consider all points when making a decision so that my decision would be informed and practical in application and within that, to be humble and patient with myself that whether the time that I've calculate for a specific task isn't in alignment to the physical space/time reality, I learn from my mistake and align myself accordingly and so - expand and grow myself instead of diminish, sabotage and compromise myself within having a thought such as: "Damn, I will never have everything done" that is in no way supportive or practical in anyway whatsoever.

Comparison is a Bitch - Day 212

This is a continuation to:

The Elite's delusion of stress - Part 1 - Day 45	I Regret, therefor, I'm a Good Person. NOT!!! - Day 191
The Elite's Delusion of Stress - Part 2 - Day 46	The REAL Fear - Day 192
The Decision of TIME - Day 67	The things we Won't tell ANYONE - Day 193
The Decision of TIME - Day 67	Missing out on the Good Life - Day 194
Copy Paste Character - The Education System - Day 184	Let's have some Fun - Day 195
Is it possible to Cheat yourself? Day 185	Stupidity Loop - Jumping from the Bad to the Good to the Bad - Day 196
It is time to STOP Existing as a Human Machine - Day 186	The Smoke Screen of Ignorance - Day 197
The End of Times - Day 187	Leaving in a Dream - Day 208
Facing the Evil within - the KEY to LIFE - Day 188	Having the Life Style you always dreamt to have - Day 209
Fear of Disappointing others - Day 189	IT is MY time Now - don't say a word - Day 210
The Psychology of TIME - Day 190	Let's go on Vacation - Day 211

 

For the purpose of context, suggest reading these posts above prior to reading the post below, if you haven’t already. Here I will be walking the 'I don't have TIME' Character - Internal Conversation/ back chat Dimension - Practical support with Self Forgiveness and Self Commitments.

 

Here, one must understand that the Back chat, are the source of all Evil wherein, what one accepting and allowing within oneself, within the belief that no one will ever find out, is nasty and evil shit. Therefor, I will be walking back chat by back chat, in making sure I purify myself from the Evil that I've accepted and allowed within myself, in the context of the ' I don't have Time' Character.

 

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"I also want to watch a movie now, lay back for the rest of the evening; Why can't they share the responsibility so I won't have to work so many hours a day? "

 

Haha, this is a common one and it is again reflect a part of the Righteous character that I've accepted and allowed to define myself as meaning - If I had to walk my responsibilities within seeing my responsibility as Who I am and not as what I do; and who I am as my self realization that what I do reflect the principle of that which is best for all within what I do than, I would not have accepted and allowed this back chat to Exists within and as me because I wouldn't compare what other are doing to what I'm doing since Who I am is not dependent on what others are doing or don't do.

 

Thus, this back chat raise the question of - Who I am? What are the Decisions that I am making as who I am? The back chat in itself imply that the decision of Who I am isn't yet clear as I still require external factor to determine the definition that I define myself as, which is not so cool.

 

Then obviously, if what I do is not clear within and as me, as who I am, what was my starting point within the decision that I've made or maybe it is simply irrelevant what was my starting point because I can decide now to re-establish my starting point.

 

So -

 

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed the back chat - "I also want to watch a movie now, lay back for the rest of the evening; Why can't they share the responsibility so I won't have to work so many hours a day? " to exists within and as me because accepting and allowing this back chat to come up from within me, imply that I've separated myself from who I am, as what I do, and therefor, I must now re-establish my starting point in seeing, realizing and understanding that whatever I decide to do as who I am, is a decision that I've made for myself as and myself and thus, what others are doing with their time doesn't influence who I am because I'm standing stable and clear within who I am and the decision that I make.

 

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to simply accept and allow the back chat : "I also want to watch a movie now, lay back for the rest of the evening; Why can't they share the responsibility so I won't have to work so many hours a day? " to come up from within me, and within that, not questioning the ridiculousness of blindly accept and allow thoughts/backchat that would determine my Modes as an energy experience that I would either define as positive and negative according to the Environment stipulates that activates memories within and as me, as part of a pre-program design that I've accepted and allowed to manifest within and as me. (To understand the Pre-Program Design, please read: The Correction Process and The Desteni Message (Part 3) - Day 200)

 

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to be influence by what I see in my environment and accordingly to either access a Positive or Negative Experiences through making a judgement, in comparison to the Ideal that I've insert within and as my mind.

 

I forgive myself that I've NOT accepted and allowed myself to realize that when I make a decision, as myself and for myself, what others are doing is irrelevant and cannot influence my stance within and as me. Thus, I now see, realize and understand that if I'm accepting and allowing myself to be influenced by others, the Decision that I made wasn't absolute clear within and as me, as a decision of Who I am, in every moment of breath because if it was, I would simply apply myself according to the decisions that I made regardless the external stipulates that I see in my environment.

 

I commit myself to re-establish a starting point that is clear and absolute within and as myself and within that, to re-evaluate all the decisions that I have ever made in my life, that still control my current living conditions as I see, realize and understand that every decision that I made that I still have back chat coming up from within me, isn't clear within and as myself and must thus, correct and change so that who I am, is not defined and influenced by anything or any one and that all the decisions that I made and will be making in the future will be in absolute self honesty, clear, so absolutely which from there, all I have to do is to simply walk the practical application of the decision, breath by breath.

 

I commit myself to - when and as I make a decision, to check and cross reference within myself, that I'm clear, that I see all points and all the relationships that involve in making a decision and in that, making sure that the decision is made according to that which is best for all and accordingly, if or when a backchat comes up, to immediately stop, breathe and investigate in self honesty, what layer/dimension this backchat reveal and expose that I have not yet seen and sorted out and obviously, take the necessarily steps to sort myself out.

 

I commit myself to remind myself to be humble and patient with myself and with others and within that, remind myself that each one of us is walking their own individual processes; that we all make and will be making mistakes because that is how one learns and thus, I commit myself to not accept and allow myself to judge anyone's process including my own through comparison to an ideal that I've created within and as my mind because I now see, realize and understand that when I accept and allow myself to judge through comparison, I'm not standing in my utmost potential as a pillar of support for myself and others but rather, compromising myself and others within our existential processes.