The Poison within Irritation and Anger - Day 217

 

This is a continuation to:

 

The Elite's delusion of stress - Part 1 - Day 45 The Elite's Delusion of Stress - Part 2 - Day 46 The Decision of TIME - Day 67 The Decision of TIME - Day 67 Copy Paste Character - The Education System - Day 184 Is it possible to Cheat yourself? Day 185 It is time to STOP Existing as a Human Machine - Day 186 The End of Times - Day 187 Facing the Evil within - the KEY to LIFE - Day 188 Fear of Disappointing others - Day 189 The Psychology of TIME - Day 190 I Regret, therefor, I'm a Good Person. NOT!!! - Day 191 The REAL Fear - Day 192 The things we Won't tell ANYONE - Day 193

Missing out on the Good Life - Day 194 Let's have some Fun - Day 195 Stupidity Loop - Jumping from the Bad to the Good to the Bad - Day 196 The Smoke Screen of Ignorance - Day 197 Leaving in a Dream - Day 208 Having the Life Style you always dreamt to have - Day 209 IT is MY time Now - don't say a word - Day 210 Let's go on Vacation - Day 211 Comparison is a Bitch - Day 212 Damn, I will never have everything done - Day 213 Standing as an Example - Self Interest or Self Realization? - Day 214 From the Bossy to the Loser - Day 215 Jealousy and Frustration - I want the Life they Have - Day 216

 

For the purpose of context, suggest reading these posts above prior to reading the post below, if you haven’t already. Here I will be walking the 'I don't have TIME' Character - Reaction Dimension - Practical support with Self Forgiveness and Self Commitments.

 

Reactions Dimension:

• Jealousy
• Frustration
• Irritation
• Anger
• Judgment and Self Judgment
• Impatient
• Self Pity
• Depression
• Anxiety
• Stress

 

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Irritation and Anger

 

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed Irritation to exists within and as me, when and as I access the ' I don't have time' Character and I haven't realized that the irritation is a reaction within a friction and conflict between the Ideal Positive Experience that I created in my mind to the Current Negative Experience that I also created in my mind.

 

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to lash out, in irritation on those that are in my direct Environment that I perceive having the Ideal Positive Experience that I desire to have and in this, I forgive myself that I've NOT accepted and allowed myself to realize that accepting and allowing irritation within me, is to accept and allow poison to burst out from my inner evilness into my external environment and thus, everything that I speak is taint with Poison, taint with Evilness that I accepted and allowed within and as myself.

 

I forgive myself that I've NOT accepted and allowed myself to turn the point back to self when I lash out on people in my environment from the starting point of being irritated within and as myself towards them, in seeing, realizing and understanding where I am not aligned within and as myself, where the inner irritation is coming from within me, why I have accepted and allowed irritation to exists within and as me and accordingly, to take a moment, release myself from the Energetic reaction as Irritation and in doing so, bring myself back here, stand in alignment within who I am and move on.

 

I forgive myself that I've NOT accepted and allowed myself to see, realize and understand that Irritation imply that there is something I perceive myself as lacking and don't have and thus, when I didn't get or experienced that which I perceived myself to be lacking of, a reaction of irritation was manifesting within and as me.

 

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed Anger to exists within and as me within the Character Creation - 'I don't have time' wherein the fact of the matter is that Time is not something I have, it is simply mathematical measurement to assist and support us to organized our Life to function in the best way possible. Thus, I forgive myself that I've NOT accepted and allowed myself to STOP the inner Anger that I've created within and as myself, towards myself and others in this world, when and as I activated the ' I don't have Time' character because the reason why I was angry at myself, in self honesty, is when I accepted and allowed myself to spent time in my mind, in being angry, irritated and frustrated with myself and my Environment.

 

I forgive myself that I've NOT accepted and allowed myself to realize that the starting point of Anger and Irritation is based on Comparison that I've participated within and as my mind where one would compare one's Current Self created Energetic experience to the Ideal Positive Experience one perceive oneself as lacking and thus, lash out the Irritation and anger towards the world when and as one's physical reality isn't standing in alignment to one's illusionary reality in one's mind. 

 

I forgive myself that I've NOT accepted and allowed myself to Realize that I deliberately accessed Irritation and Anger towards others in the attempt to manipulate them in assisting me with the work that I need to do because I know within and as myself, that my self movement is influenced when and as someone is irritated and angry and my desire to assist and support them, as the Saviour character activates.

Within this, I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to move myself according to external environment to satisfied my own self interest instead of establishing and developing Self Movement according to Seeing Directly what needs to be done and simply walk it.

 

I Commit myself to - when and as I see myself preparing the way before me to access Irritation, I stop, I breathe and I place myself within and as myself. I see that accepting and allowing Irritation within and as me, is to accept and allow myself to become a Poison to myself and my environment which is not acceptable.

 

I Commit myself to Remind myself when and as I see myself accessing irritation and Anger, to investigate how and why I've separated myself from all that is here, through my perception that there is something I'm lacking of or don't have, which I desire to experience or have. I see, realize and understand that Physically, there is nothing that I'm lacking of but only in my mind, through accepting and allowing imaginations and backchat to exists within and as me, as a Ideal Positive Desire that I programmed, installed and stored within and as my mind, as a past memory experience that I either had myself or saw in the Movies and TV series.

 

I Commit myself to establish and Develop Self Movement, within Self Honesty where I walk breath by breath according to the principle of that which is best for all and to thus, not accept and allow myself to direct and move myself according to energetic influences from my environment but to see the energy, direct the point in self trust and MOVE. In this, I commit myself to not accept and allow myself to manipulate others to do what I want them to do in separation of me as well as not be influence by other's program design of manipulation but rather, develop inner common sense that would result with me moving and walking only according to principles.

 

 

 

 

Wanting to be Saved by Prince Charming - Day 171

This is a continuation to:

Part 1 - My First Love.

Part 2 - What is Love to me?

What is Spiritual Love to me? - Part 3 - Day 158

No Sex - No Relationship - Day 167

Men only think about Sex? - Day 168

Values System Within my Mind – Day 169

The Love Experience - Day 170

 

 

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to create and believe in my creation of my own misery so that I could live out the fantasy of being saved by my Prince Charming and as years passed by and the ONE LOVE didn't show up, I created more misery for myself and more sadness for myself, not seeing the relationship between my desire to be saved by the ONE and the misery that I put myself through so that I could have this experienced of being saved. In this, I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to separate myself to such an extent that I prepared the way before me, in deliberateness, for someone to save me through the belief that it would be the only way that I could experience the LOVE, not seeing, realizing and understanding the consequential outflows of my desires.

 

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed the desire of being saved from  my own sadness as a design that I've created within and as myself, looking for the missing piece - for a guy that would play along within this design - one that had accepted and allowed oneself to participate within and as the Desire to Save.

 

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to want to LIVE out the fantasy of a princess that is being saved by prince charming and accordingly, had set the scenes, preparing myself so completely with accessing all the agony and sadness that comes with it and I haven't seen, realized and understood how this fantasy was created through imprinting the fairy tales story into me, already from the childhood years, believing that this should be my story and therefore, became the character of my own life, to stand in alignment with the fantasy scene that I was busy building up where all along, the one point that kept me going was HOPE that my Love Story would end up like in the Movies = happily ever after.

 

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to get in a relationship from the starting point of the desire of being saved and I haven't seen, realized and understood the consequences of starting a relationship from a desire to be saved wherein, once I change my the dynamic within the relationship where I no longer need to be saved as I already experienced that LOVE and already got the guy, the relationship can no longer stand since it was no more in alignment with the desire of wanting to be saved as wanting to save.

 

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to manipulate guys through my own desire to be saved, through presenting myself as Sad and within that, to open a door for the guy, to access his own design of being the saviour so that we could both play the game and live happily ever after.

 

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to manipulate myself through deliberately become the sadness character - always seeking for Drama, for a story that I would then utilize to manipulate the guys that are carrying the Design of a saviour and within my own self manipulation, I became to know me as Sad and accepted the sadness as me, not seeing, realizing and understanding that becoming sad was my own deliberate decision that I've accepted and allowed myself to stand as and I haven't seen how powerful I am within my own creation of sadness, as I've also created the forgetfulness that I was the one who decided to create myself as sadness as a manipulative action to attract a guy.

 

For male's perspective regarding the design of wanting to save a girl - suggest reading Fidelis's Journey to Life - Day 65 - Also Attracted to Broken Girls Part 2 

 

I Commit myself to show how a child is creating a fantasy in one's mind, in the first 7 years of one's life and accordingly, would slowly but surely, start playing the character role that one had put forth to oneself without seeing, realizing and understanding the consequential outflows that one is creating within the acceptance and allowance of oneself to participate in one's desires that one would design oneself as throughout one's life.

 

I Commit myself to remind myself that I am always the ONE who decide and what ever I created myself as, I also created the forgetfulness of becoming my own creation so that I would never find out that I've created myself as such and accordingly change.

 

I Commit myself to Expose the Design of the Saviour and being Saved that human beings are participating in our journey to find the ONE, the LOVE and within that, SHOW the relationship between the Design and the Media.

 

I Commit myself to be attentive to how my Mode is changing when and as I meet a guy and within that, make sure that I'm not accessing the design of being saved where I would manipulate myself into becoming sad to draw attention within the Hope that the guy would play along and carry the Saviour character.