Parents are the KEY - Jamie Oliver Food Revolution Review - Day 382

This is a continuation to the blog Series review about Jamie Oliver's TV series - Food Revolution.

Thus, if you haven't already, I suggest watching Jamie Oliver's TV series - Food Revolution and read through the blog series where the question: Who is Responsible for our Children's Education? is asked.

 

Within this blog I will be focusing on the second problem that I've identify when watching the Food Revolution series - Ignorance of Parents with regarding the Nutrition Value of the food their children eat.

 

Not so surprising, Jamie Oliver encounter great resistance when presenting his food revolution. There is a very simple explanation for the resistance - FEAR. Fear to find out that we are actually accountable for the decisions we make and to the consequences to follow these decisions however, being aware of the problem and the consequences normally lead one to great emotions of Guilt which instead of facing what one have accepted and allowed and from there, moving to the correction process, one is possessing oneself with a future projection of guilt and therefore, one would prefer to ignore/deny the problem instead of facing, correcting and make a change. It is actually quiet interesting - we all know deep down who we have become, what we accept and allow and what we would not and despite of knowing that we have made some bad decisions, we would rather continue making these same decisions over and over again but in no way would be willing to admit that we have made some wrong decisions because then we would feel guilty about it. we also know that change isn't as easy as we would like it to be and we will have to work hard for a change to manifest and if there is anything we don't like doing is working hard, be persistent and devoted to make a change - we would rather avoid it now and face the consequences later; only later sometimes is too far gone that the only thing that one would face is one's own death.

 

Ok, back to the point - When Jamie was looking for ways to raise the awareness and receive support for his plan of making the citizens of the town healthier, he decided that he must group the parents together as they are the force that would make things happen if only they understand what they are really allowing their children to eat while being in the supervision of school. He gathered the parents in the school yard and it turns out that the parents were extremely ignorant about the nutrition value of the food their children are eating and so, Jamie showed them and made it presented in such a way that the parents could visually see for them the extent of the problem. So the parents jumped in and decided to support Jamie with his mission and accordingly, Jamie got the school permission to continue his revolutionary plans in the school.

 

As I've mentioned in many blogs before, there is no doubt that parenting doesn't comes with a training manual to assist the parent to be an effective trainer for their children however, from my perspective, parents can no longer play the ignorant card. If you have a child and you want the best for your child then invest your time in doing research! Investigate all things and allow your child only that which is good for them.

 

I mean seriously, didn't you know that eating junk food for breakfast and lunch isn't good for your child's body? Did you really needed Jamie to show you what your children are eating at school? When your child came home and you asked him what did they eat at school for breakfast and they told you they ate Pizza, no alarm went on inside of you? I'm sure it has and yet, you didn't do anything about it because you felt so powerless right?

So parents, realize that you are in fact powerless as an individual but you are very powerful when you gather in a group and you can make a change if you work together. From the smallest to the greater - if we all gather together and stand up for a change that is best for all in this entire world, we will become a powerful group that can make things happen. Look at Bolivia as an example - the minority started to slowly but surely gather together until they were big and powerful enough to make a change on a political level. We must stop resist our fears but rather face them and move on to the correction process so that our children and the generation to come would in fact have the basic foundation to grow from.

 

So if you as a parent understand the problem and can see the solution that we present within the Equal Money System, wouldn't you join the movement to ensure your child health, success, opportunity and dignity in their life? Remember to investigate all things because ignorance is no longer a bliss, it comes with consequences and your children will be the one who would face the consequences that follow your bad decisions. Stop that now, stand up, research, investigate and make a change.

Sudden and Unexpected Physical Shame - Day 313

..."You will do Self Forgiveness and Write Every day, but without SHAME - you will Not Change, and it will All be in VAIN. Even PAIN will not Change Humanity. It will Only Be SHAME. SHAME will be the First REAL Physical Feeling, and Once You Change – You Rebirth as Life, you will Learn to FEEL for Real and be Really Alive.

Those that are of the Illusion as CONsciousness, can Feel No Shame! The Only Shame they Know is the Shame the System use to Keep one Enslaved. Real Shame is a Physical Realisation that Will Remain WITH You, As You, ‘TILL YOU CHANGE!"... (Day 311: The Secret to Self-Realisation)

 

If you haven't already, I suggest reading through this blog above as it IS the key for Real Self Realization.

 

I have faced a few time this year a Physical, unexpected and sudden shame that I couldn't pinpoint or Define as Shame because the 'shame' as I was taught to feel/experience wasn't similar to the Physical Experience that all of a sudden encompassed me. Thus, I would like to share my Relationship with Physical Shame since I see it is a crucial point in one's process of self realization.

 

So, after I read the blog, I was looking at my process of self realization - I saw that I could count the moments of Physical Shame in only one hand which that in itself should emerged shame however, it didn't, I felt nothing in regard. I didn't feel shame for not walking through shame and even when I realized that I should have got myself to a consistent real physical feeling of shame and yet I haven't, I didn't feel shame. I was aware that I didn't feel ashamed/shamed about not feeling shame that I only felt shamed for a few times and when I looked within and as myself, I still didn't feel shame, I felt nothing.

 

The bottom line is that Shame as a Physical Shame isn't something that I can force myself to Feel, it's either Here in absolute self Honesty or it's of the Mind and any attempt to try and make myself feel Shame will be coming from the starting point of a Desire to be More.

 

I will share here my relationship with Physical Shame so that one will see, realize and understand and thus, stop the expectation that self change is manifested automatically the moment that Physical Shame is here because I am the living proof that it is not. I can allocate 3 instances where Physical Shame had emerged and yet, I could only see a change that is worthwhile in the last event as the shame that I faced that day was so overwhelming that I had to make a decision in that moment, within and as myself:

 

The first 2 times where I felt Physical Shame, wherein, a point of transcendence that I could have walked into perfection was here and yet, I didn't jump on this window of opportunity and walk myself into and as a physical change but instead, I got myself into another time loop that I'm still facing until the window is open again and it would be up to me again to decide whether I step up and transcend these 2 specific point.

 

So here, it is to emphasize that Shame isn't something to take for granted once one is experiencing or facing a physical shame because if one isn't absolute self honest and thus, will oneself to take self responsibility and  change as a decision one make within and as oneself, one would close this window of opportunity as one gave up one's power to the fears of change that one had created for and as oneself, in self interest.

 

However, a few weeks ago, I watched a documentary called: Why Poverty - Welcome to the World and a sudden and unexpected Experience overwhelmed me to the extent of me being SO angry, disappointed, overwhelmed and I cried and I couldn't believe how it is possible that I was physically in the places where this documentary took place and I haven't seen what I am seeing at this very moment? How it is possible that I was so blind and completely abdicated my responsibility as a human being in this world? How is it possible that only now, in my 30ties, I finally started becoming aware of the real problems that exists in this world. But I also realized at that very moment the extent of the problem and what will it take for humanity to stand up and change - it will take the impossible and it is up to us to make it possible - it won't be easy though; This undefined experience that I faced, I can now define it as Physical Shame. Here, I had a window of opportunity to either fall or stand up. I decided to stand up and made a clear decision of what will I do with my life. I could have easily fall because I truly understood the extensiveness of the problem and the very small chance that we could actually change our human nature enough to have a majority of votes to walk by/through/as the Equal Money System as a solution. I realized that I would have to give up my life and that I may not succeed to bring enough common sense and awareness to Humanity so that we could together manifest and implement a solution in this world. I realized that I may Die, devoting my life for a change that is impossible and that if we as a group of humanity Fail to establish such change, I would end up with nothing but my Breath.

But interestingly enough, this time, I used the Physical Shame as a point of self motivation tool to Continue investigating and study what is really going on in this world which from there, I could expand, develop and improve my Common Sense, Writing and Communication Skills and thus, would be able to stand in absolute stability and clarity in the face of any Abuser or Hater of Life and direct the points effectively.

 

So a point of assistance and support - One cannot force the experience of Shame because forcing it means, as I've mentioned before, that it is not real, that our starting point is of self deception/manipulation within the Desire to be More than who one is. When and as one face a point of Physical Shame, I suggest to take a breath, see what is directly here and the window of opportunity for a real self change is now here for one to walk through. If the Experience is so overwhelming, I suggest sharing yourself on the Desteni Forum for further assistance and support.

 

Now, I have to walk my talk and to prove to myself that the Decision that I made a few weeks ago stand the test of time because it is very easy to create a personality and/or Entity of/as self interest within the Desire to be More which then thus, all one does is prolonging our processes as a whole.

 

Further Interviews to listen to:

Decision Making 101 (Part 1) - Reptilians - Part 156

Decision Making 101 (Part 2) - Reptilians - Part 157

I Regret, therefor, I'm a Good Person. NOT!!! - Day 191

This is a continuation to:

The Elite's delusion of stress - Part 1 - Day 45

The Elite's Delusion of Stress - Part 2 - Day 46

The Decision of TIME - Day 67

And:

Copy Paste Character - the Way for Success? - Day 183

Copy Paste Character - The Education System - Day 184

Is it possible to Cheat yourself? Day 185

It is time to STOP Existing as a Human Machine - Day 186

The End of Times - Day 187

Facing the Evil within - the KEY to LIFE - Day 188

Fear of Disappointing others - Day 189

The Psychology of TIME - Day 190

 

For the purpose of context, suggest reading these posts above prior to reading the post below, if you haven’t already. Here I will be walking the 'I don't have TIME' Character - Fear Dimension - Practical support with Self Forgiveness and Self Commitments.

 

The List below consists of the Fears which are the foundation of the 'I don't have Time' Character.

 

 

 

 

 

 

Fear Dimension:

* Fear that I'll disappoint other people if I won't take more tasks on myself

* Fear that I would be defined as unworthy because I'm not using my time to

it's utmost potential.

* Fear that I won't get things done and would regret it when consequences

would emerged so basically, fear of the consequences.

* Fear that I would be seen as not good enough, replaceable, inadequate

* Fear of being exposed as self dishonest because I know, that if I put my self

interest desires aside, I'm able to walk my tasks in absolute perfection.

* Fear of Missing out the Positive as Entertainment

 

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* Fear that I won't get things done and would regret it when consequences

would emerged so basically, fear of the consequences.

 

Within this fear - it is not the consequences per se that I fear, it is how other would perceive me, how they would judge me when the work isn't done in time. Thus, it is to see here, how the mind work and how I've manipulated myself to believe that I cared about the consequences when I'm not having a work done wherein the fact of the matter is, all I cared about was how others would perceive/see me if/when the work is not done by it's due date.

 

Within this obviously - how I've abdicated my responsibility in walking for and as myself, within and as the principle of that which is best for all in everything that I do, as who I am wherein, if I would have walked a point for myself, from the starting point of seeing directly how and why this point will benefit everyone, I would care about the outcome and within that, see how I can perfect, align and correct the point so that the outcome will be the best of my REAL abilities without giving value to how others would perceive me, in walking in absolute self trust, breath by breath.

 

Thus, the blog today wouldn't be directly regarding to the Fear dimension as the point of how others perceive me in relation to my work was dealt with on Fear of Disappointing others - Day 189 blog post. Within this blog than, I would walk the point of self manipulation and abdication of Self Responsibility when walking a point/work/task from a starting point of being appreciated rather than walking from and as SELF starting point where self see, understand and realize why self is doing what self does from and as the principle of that which is best for all.

 

This is part of the Consequences Dimension actually but since the point is already here, I might as well walk it. :-)

 

Self Forgiveness:

 

I forgive myself that I've NOT accepted and allowed myself to see that Regret is always based on deception/self dishonesty because Regret indicate that I knew what needed to be done and yet, I've accepted and allowed my self interest desire to take complete control and become my directive principle. I see, realize and understand that whenever I look back in Regret, I'm manipulating myself into thinking that I am a good for even experiencing regret instead of looking back from the starting point of seeing what I've accepted and allowed myself to stand as, be and become and how I'm practically going to align/change and correct myself within the principle of that which is best for all within the self realization that what was done was done and I cannot change the past but I can stop manifesting the same consequences that I've previously accepted and allowed myself to deliberately create.

 

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to manipulate myself in thinking and believing that I'm effective within what I do because my task/work is always done and I haven't considered that the task/work that is done, was done in absolute separation as my starting point wasn't having the work/task done in absolute perfection to the best of my abilities within and as Who I am as the directive principle, breath by breath but rather, having other people pleased with the work/task being done while trusting me that I've done it to the best of my ability while inside me, I know when I haven't. Within that, I forgive myself that I've NOT accepted and allowed myself to stand in absolute self honesty and walking a task/work to my utmost potential and within that, cross referencing myself, check and test if the outcome is in alignment to that which is best for all and accordingly, when and as require, align, correct, adjust and in that, being satisfied with myself and as myself, that I've walked the point/task/work in its totality wherein WHO I am is a direct reflection of what I've done.

 

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to NOT consider the consequences when and as I'm walking a point/task/work within the starting point of pleasing others and worrying about what they would think about me wherein, the outcome would not be as effective as when I would have walked a point/task/work when the starting point is Clear within and as myself, where I see directly what needs to be done within the principle of what is best for all and walk it, breath by breath till I'm satisfied from the application as who I am.

 

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to manipulate myself within the belief that I would regret not having a task/work done and within that, made myself feeling better as a person for actually caring about the work being done while all along, what was my self interest was to be validated/worthy/value myself through the eyes of others.

 

Self Commitments:

I commit myself to STOP manipulating myself within stating that I could have done something better, I could have made other decisions within the experience of Regret because I now see, realize and understand that in self honesty, I must name the game I was playing with myself instead of trying to make it look better within myself by creating the experience of Regret. In this, I commit myself to - when and as an experience of Regret comes up, to immediately STOP, Breath and see the specificity of what I've accepted and allowed myself to participate with thus far and from there - assess, investigate, test and check, how to align myself within and as the principle of that which is best for all and through that, stop manifesting deliberate consequences and stand within and as self honesty as who I am, in every single breath.

 

I commit myself to assist and support myself in aligning my starting point within everything that I do through self introspection and in that, to perfect, empower and grow myself as who I am in what I do so that, in every breath, I walk to my best of my abilities, in self honesty, for and as Myself as I see, for myself, what needs to be done, how it needs to be done, what are the steps I must walk to perfect myself and accordingly, apply my realizations in a practical, constructive way to my utmost potential.

Art Work – Andrew Gable

Sexual Journey - Regret as Fear of Loss - Day 136

Continuing with my investigation of what I've created from a simple point of Sex and Sexuality and created layers upon layers of Judgement, opinions, excuses which from all of which I've created and manifest my own religion - My Religion of Self.

 

An interesting point that I came to realize lately is the derivative of the Fear of Loss -> Regret.

As I am walking back in time, observing who I am or more specifically who I was throughout my relationship Journeys and as I see what I have accepted and allowed and how I made the decisions I made, a feeling of regret flooding within and as me when a memory comes up; the back chat is like: if only I would have done things differently, how would my life would turn out to be?; I did a huge mistake, I should have stayed in that relationship; it's too late now, he already has kids; no one would never love and respect me the way he did; How stupid was I? Why couldn't I see what I had in my hands; If only.. What if.. Is it too late?

 

At the moment I'm in Israel for a 2 weeks visit and all my past is now busy hunting me. I hear stories about a guy I was with, I see an article on the news paper with another guy I was with, I hear that my first boyfriend got married and have kids now, I hear that most of the people I was with are already settled in with homes, wives and babies and here I am.. Doing the opposite from every route my life could ever take me, living on a farm far away from my roots, busy with something that only a few dares of doing.. Am I doing the right thing?

Should I stay here and build myself a house in Israel and try to forget the journey that I've walked thus far?

 

OBVIOUSLY NOT! It is just another character that I've accepted and allowed myself to take myself into and for a moment, just for a tiny moment, allowed those back chat that revealed the point of REGRET as fear of lose.

It's quite cool to have those backchat to reveal to me what and who I have accepted and allowed myself to be and become. It's quite cool to have a mirror, as my mind, to show me my deepest desires as the programming that I've programmed myself as throughout my life, with the assistance and support of my environment, culture, religion, family, friends, media etc.

 

What is clear now is - as long as I accept and allow those step backs into my past, as regret, I would never in fact LIVE as a physical human being because it is SOOOO easy to fall back into my back chat through the stipulation of memories and past experiences and unless I stand as the directive principle and Forgive myself for every inch of thought/feeling/emotions that I've automatically live, I've got no chance.

 

Regret is quite a bitchy character that I've created because it can so easily take one to self pity, self sorrow within the attempt that one would never start walking but would always remain enslave to one's past.

What was done was done and it is clear to me that I would have never be happy and satisfied with my life if I would have stayed ignorant and would never found the characters that I've created.

 

Like for example, the diminishment character that I've seen myself creating a while ago - that character would have played again and again within and as me, regardless of how my life would have turn out in any other scenario. I would keep comparing myself to everything and everyone and I would always find something to be jealous at, something to judge myself for, something to take myself down with no self value or respect.

I would probably compromise for a man that wouldn't support me in anyway to step out of my mind and I would be always always create myself as controlled, enslaved and dispower in absolute separation of myself. I would keep nodding and say I'm happy even though inside, I would have been miserable. I would praise and glorify my children despite the fact that they took over my life and all my worth is in making money, raise them and maybe, just maybe, would have enough to take myself into a vacation once in a while to try and achieve the desires I've installed within myself through what I hear/see in my environment.

 

So, Commonsensically, I cannot accept and allow those thoughts/feeling/emotions/reactions that arise from within me while walking my journey to LIFE as I see, realize and understand it is another self manipulation that I'm doing to myself so that I would give up and stop walking out from my mind and instead, scroll back into my mind, into enclosure, till I die and then… it's absolutely toooooo late.

 

Tomorrow - Self Forgiveness..

 

 

 

For more context, please read -

Sexual Expression – Overview  Day 112

Investigating Sexual Expression - Self Forgiveness Part 1 - Day 113

Investigating Sexual Expression - Self Commitments - Part 1 - Day 114

 

Investigating Sexual Expression - Part 2 - Day 121

Investigating Sexual Expression - Self Forgiveness - Part 2 - Day 122

Investigating Sexual Expression - Self Commitments - Part 2 - Day 123

 

Spilling semen in vain - Day 115

Spilling semen in vain - Self Forgiveness -  Day 116

Spilling semen in vain - Self Commitments -  Day 117

 

Be Fruitful and Multiply - Day 118

Be Fruitful and Multiply - Self Forgiveness - Day 119

Be Fruitful and Multiply - Self Commitments - Day 120

 

Sexual Inadequacy - Overview - Day 124

Sex in the Dark – Sexual Inadequacy–Part 1 - Day 125

Sex in the Dark – Sexual Inadequacy – Part 2 - Day 126

Sexual Education - Part 1 - Day 127

Sexual Education - Part 2 - Day 128

 

My Partner is Boring - Let's breakup - Day 129

This relationship is BORING - Self Forgiveness - Day 130

My Partner IS BORING - Self Commitments - Day 131

 

Sexual Journey - Day 132

Sexual Journey - Early Adulthood years - Day 133

Sexual Journey - Early Adulthood years - Part 2 - Day 134

Sexual Journey - Early Adulthood years - Part 3 - Day 135

 

The cultural society norms character - Self Commitments - Day 99

This is a continuation to

The Chameleon Character in my Movie of my Life - Day 97

The cultural society norms character - Self Forgiveness Day 98

 

I commit myself to let the guilt of not standing within and as how I've programmed myself to be and become as my culture/society norms and behaviors because I see, realize and understand that guilt emerge when and as I hold onto memories of the other characters that I perceived to be disappointed from me stepping out of my character and so long as I allow those memories to dictate my living expression, I've not in fact changed and stood within and as a principle of what is best for all as I accept and allow myself to separate myself from here, as all that exists here, through giving value to specific groups/cultures/societies and disregard everything and everyone else in this world.

 

I commit myself to STOP the co-dependent relationships in my world and my reality and to transform the relationship's starting point to that which is best for all which then, the relationship will become interdependent relationship where all are working together, in agreement, assisting and supporting each other to step out of character, so that we can for once and for all, stand together and recreate the our existence through clearing up the mess within and as ourselves and clearing up the mess within and as existence as ourselves. I see, realize and understand that when the relationship isn't co-dependent relationship, when/if one step out of character, the other wouldn't be dependent on the other to remain in character and so, each make the decision to either remain in character or step out of character. We decide.

 

I commit myself to show that the value that we have attached/defined/connected to our culture/social norms that we brought up to accept and allow as ourselves was done within and as separation where we have only maintain our culture guideline and have protected our legacy while all along, disregard all other cultures and have allowed abuse and suffering all around the world.

Within that, I commit myself to show that when a baby comes to the world, he doesn't have any memories, thoughts, emotions/feelings and value towards one's culture and that the parents as the culture have brainwashed the child until the child accepted and allowed the value of the culture to be his dictator as the child is already lost within and as him mind, as character.

 

I commit myself to stand in the face of frictions/disagreement that may occur due to me stepping out of characters. I see, realize and understand that the cause of friction is due to me not standing as equal to and one as the memories that people are holding towards me and as I stand and challenge their character, they will access resistance and friction as that was the process that I've walked within and as myself. And I commit myself to show, how I've supported myself to step out of my characters, how I've walked and still walking through the resistances that I face in the moment of change as the memories that I stored within my flesh doesn't match the character that I'm busy deleting and as such, the mind resisting its deletion but it is only me who decide whether to give in or stand up. it is always me who decide.

 

I commit myself to show how the culture/society norms brainwash its followers through a rewards system for their good behaviour as it was the culture/society norms as who we are that have created the rewards system to enslave and control us to the source/power/god/elite of Money that will provide us our rewards.

 

I commit myself to stand as equal and one as my self-responsibility to step out of character and within that, not accept and allow other people's character as I see, realize and understand that so long as I accept the shit of others, I accept the shit of myself and that is because I wasn't willing to stand up and direct my world and my reality within and as a principle of what is best for all and so long as I'm not standing in this position, I accept and allow myself to recreate my own shit that is a reflection of this world as a mirror of my acceptance and allowances.

 

I commit myself to let go of all my desires for a specific experience within self interest as I see the consequences of me accepting and allowing myself to exists within such desires; I commit myself to show that so long as we accept and allow the self interest desire of rewards as energy, we accept and allow the abuse and suffering in this world as all we care about is ourselves and ourselves only; I commit myself to show that so long as we care for ourselves only, we blind ourselves from the real physical reality that is Here, and we are not in fact doing anything to change the physical experience of the majority of this world into a fulfilling Life experience that is equal to and one for all; I commit myself to show that it is in our power, self will and ability to change this world if and as we let go of our individual race for our own self interest desire for an experience and practically apply the principle of do onto another that which you'd like to be done to you.

 

I commit myself to let go of the belief that I must explain myself to others as there is only ONE being that I must explain myself to and that is me - explain why despite of all I know, I haven't yet changed myself and accordingly, take the responsibility to do what ever it takes, as long as it takes, and change in fact.

The cultural society norms character - Self Forgiveness Day 98

This is a continuation to

The Chameleon Character in my Movie of my Life - Day 97

 

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to have taken for granted the belief that I must embody specific emotions and feeling within and as myself according to how the society and culture expect me to behave and thus, when and as I've not stood within the embodiment of a specific emotion/feeling when for example, someone questioned/challenged my stance, I access guilt for not being possessed by the expected emotion/feeling without realizing that in that moment of guilt, I've in fact have become possessed through accessing another dimension of and as Guilt and thus, I forgive myself that I've NOT accepted and allowed myself to stand as who I am, with no energy movement within and as myself and instead, have allowed the Chameleon Character that I've created and become to dictate the script I would play, the script that would ensure my position within and as the my society/culture so that I would please my environment and could maintain the 'peace' within the relationship.

 

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to not realize how instantaneously, me, as the Chameleon character, chooses the character that will suit the best outcome in any given moment wherein when my stance within the cultural and society norms is challenged, I would choose the best character that will automatically speak on my behalf so that I wouldn't create a friction within my environment. In this, I forgive myself that I've NOT accepted and allowed myself to see, realize and understand that the core/source/reason for why I haven't accepted and allowed myself to stand up as LIFE that is best for all is because of fear of losing my desires as I believed that only those in my culture/society can fulfil these desires because they have done so in the past and thus, I forgive myself that I've NOT accepted and allowed myself to see, realize and understand the co-dependency relationships that I've created with my environment wherein, we are dependent on each other to remain in character and fulfil each other desires, despite of the fact that it is only our desires, in self interest that we are providing for each other and there is no equal and one care and consideration to everything and everyone in this world and so, if one will step out of character, the relationship will fall and our desires wouldn't be able to be fulfilled any longer. 

 

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to have place Value within and as the culture and society norms that I grow up with and have thus, embodiment those values within and as my flesh to be guided and directed in any given moment and accordingly, have automated my behaviour through creating myself as the chameleon character, as a data bank of all the character that I can use to be able to maintain/sustain myself as my culture/social norms dictate me and would be able to fit in, be accepted, validated and rewarded.

 

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to fear stepping out of the culture and society norms character because I know that when stepping out of character, friction would defiantly manifest and within that, I forgive myself that I've NOT accepted and allowed myself to walk in self trust in every moment of every breath in absolute self honesty, trusting that I would keep walking no matter what may manifest and thus, I let go of the fear of friction as there is nothing to be afraid of - Friction will manifest as it is part of the change as the challenge that each one will face and unless I stand in the face of the challenge and friction, I will know one thing - I had a chance to step out of my character and stand up as Life that is best for all, and yet, I haven't as I've allowed myself as the fear character to direct, control, enslave and dictate me who and what I am as the culture and society norms that I've accepted as myself and within that, I forgive myself that I've NOT accepted and allowed myself to realize that unless I step out of character, I am useless as I have all that one needs for one self change - I've got the tools, I've got the support and it is me who decide whether I stand or fall and it would be me who would have to explain why and how I've allowed myself to fall with all the support that I have had throughout my Life.

 

I forgive myself that I've NOT accepted and allowed myself to see the relationship between remaining in the culture/society norms character and the self interest desire for a reward as an experience because according to my past experience, when and as I stood within the cultural/society norms, I got a reward for my behaviour and thus, have decided to remain in character so that I could maintain and sustain my rewards.

 

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to compromise and diminish myself through taking other people cultural and society norms characters personally and have thus, wear specific suits and changed my colours to sustain the peace within our relationships because I feared facing friction and within that, I haven't seen, realized and understood that so long as I accept and allow them to remain in their characters, I'm supporting their characters and thus, support their acceptance and allowance of the diminishment and compromise of themselves as characters because I wasn't willing to step out of my character and stand as a pillar of support within and as myself and within and as others as myself.

 

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to change my colours around people which I've stored memories about and haven't allowed myself to express myself as who I am, despite of me knowing exactly what is that I'm accepting and allowing when and as I allow myself to change my colours and submit to the cultural/society character and I forgive myself that I've not accepted and allowed myself to stand in self honesty as who I am, in every given moment due to fears of being mocked, judged, not accepted and validated because there was a desire that I didn't allow myself to give up yet, a desire for a self interest reward that I may get if I play along with the game, a desire that I didn't allow myself to let go because I haven't established self trust within and as myself that I will stand in the face of what ever my come, and walk the same as yesterday today and tomorrow, that I will stand and find a practical solution for what ever that may come because there is ALWAYS a solution if I dare myself to see it because the solution is Me, as what I decide ME to be and become, what I will accept and what I won't - it is always me who decides.

 

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to believe that I must explain and justify why I've changed to those who are still in character and within the fear of sharing myself as what I've walked, I in fact made sure that I won't step out of character and as such, will have nothing to explain and the truth is that I have not changed in fact because if I had, I would stand no matter what.

 

 

Inner Dullness light up in Energy - Day 68

Indulge - Dictionary definition.

1. to yield to an inclination or desire; allow oneself to follow one's will (often followed by in ): Dessert came, but I didn't indulge. They indulged in unbelievable shopping sprees.

verb (used with object)

2.to yield to, satisfy, or gratify (desires, feelings, etc.): to indulge one's appetite for sweets.

3.to yield to the wishes or whims of; be lenient or permissive with: to indulge a child.

4.to allow (oneself) to follow one's will (usually followed by in ): to indulge oneself in reckless spending.

5.Commerce . to grant an extension of time, for payment or performance, to (a person, company, etc.) or on (a bill, note, etc.).

My allocation point -

I attached the word within a negative energetic charge within and as myself wherein I feel guilt when indulging. Mostly because there are always other priority tasks and assignment that I must do as well as the thoughts of not everyone can indulge and thus I feel guilt that I can.

Sounding -

In-dull-g-e -> In Dull in the God Energy

Indo-legend

End-all-G-E -> End all Godly energy.

Indulgent is a polarized word - when one is indulging, one access a positive energy within one's definition of pleasure within doing something in the physical reality. After the positive experience has been experienced, one is accessing to the negative emotion of guilt as self judgment for allowing oneself to indulge. 

Redefinition - deriving pleasure from consuming different forms of energy.

To assist and support oneself is to delete the energy experience and allow oneself to be absolutely here within and as everything that one do, breath by breath.

(for the process of redefining words - read Earth Journey to Life by Esteni De Wet)

Self Forgiveness -

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to define and associated physical 'Hereness' within and as energetic polarization of either positive and negative and I haven't considered that 'hereness' is a physical living expression of and as me, breath by breath.

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to define/associated/connect the word indulgent within and as a polarity experience wherein I defined specific physical reality activities has Positive and accordingly, I experience myself to be indulging. And within that, I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to define/associate/connect the experience of indulgent within a negative energetic charge of Guilt and self judgement.

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to judge myself for indulging within and as the experience of guilt and I haven't allowed myself to embrace and accept myself within and as a breath, of simply being Here, within and as my human physical body and thus, remove the energy attachment to the word 'indulge' and walk the living expression of the word 'Indulge' as deriving pleasure from consuming different form of energy

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to separate myself from the word 'indulge' by judging and defining the word within a polarity experience and I haven't accepted and allowed myself to LIVE here, within and as breath, allowing myself to relax within and as myself/human physical body, enjoy the moment as me with no energy attached.

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to feel guilty when and as I indulge by accepting the thoughts: "I have to get this and that done", " I can't afford myself to indulge", " How can I stand for equality and yet indulge when 3.3 billion people are suffering"; and yet, what I've not accepted and allowed myself to see, realize and understand that changing the world is a process that takes time, regardless for example, if I take a moment for myself to relax my human physical body and do nothing but being here, breathing, or allowing myself to take a break and watch a movie.

I forgive myself that I've NOT accepted and allowed myself to assess in self honesty whether it is doable, practical and supportive for me to take a moment and indulge by making sure that I do not compromise myself nor others in this world and thus, when the moment is here and I'm indulging, I allow and commit myself to remain here, within and as my human physical body and thus, not accepting any thought/energy movement in the nature of guilt and self judgement.

I forgive myself that I have NOT accepted and allowed myself to see realise and understand that I am able to indulge in every breath that I take with any particular application that I may be participating within and as, as indulgence is deriving pleasure from consuming different forms of energy, such as eating food to sustain my human physical body, or breathing air to sustain my body or swimming in a pool on a hot day to support my body. And through this I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge the pleasure that I derive from indulging in a moment as I have connected the pleasure that I experience in a moment to self-interested actions.

I forgive myself that I have NOT accepted and allowed myself to enjoy the simple pleasures as pleasures of indulgence within every breath that I take because I've associated, defined and connected pleasure as indulgent to self interest and have thus judged the living expression of the words as well as the experiences of the words instead of redefining the words as a living expression that is best for all and walk the living word in self honesty, breath by breath.

I commit myself to investigate the living expression of every word within and as the principle of equality and oneness and to redefine the words to a living expression that I can stand according and as for eternity.

I commit myself to remove the energy connotation/association/definition that I've assigned to words and walk the living expression of words be redefining them according to principles of equality and oneness.

I commit myself to allow myself to indulge when and as I see in self honesty that it is a point of support to and as my human physical body.

I commit myself to support myself as equal to and one as my human physical body within participating in indulgent when and as I see that participating in indulgent wouldn't compromise anything or anyone

Trying to avoid my responsibilities - Day 39

Marlen Vargas Del Razo

Marlen Vargas Del Razo

 This is a continuation of my previous blogs:

It is NOT fair - Day 37

http://mayaprocess.blogspot.com/2012/05/it-is-not-fair-day-37.html

Judgment isn't Fun - Day 38

http://mayaprocess.blogspot.com/2012/05/judgment-isnt-fun-day-38.html

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to deliberately ignore the points that require to be directed in my direct environment within the thought of: "it's ok, someone else will see it and direct it" and I haven't allowed myself to consider the entire equation - the time of others, the consequences of not directing the point, why do I have resistance to immediately direct the point.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to resist directing the points that require being directed in my immediate environment within the thought - "but why everyone else ignoring the points and only I direct it?"; I realize within this that following the thought is an act of spitefulness not only towards others but also towards myself and if I allow myself to follow the thought and not direct the point, I'm ineffective within my breath by breath application because I allow myself to be influence by my mind instead being the directive principle in every moment of every breath and move myself according to that which is best for all.

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to - in the moment after I see that I've resisted directing a specific point to go and do what was required to be done out of guilt of being self dishonest which within that, what I've missed was that I was still moving and directing myself according to my mind within the emotion of guilt, instead of immediately stop the reaction, Breathe and do what ever needs to be done breath by breath by breath.

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to deliberately not direct the points I see that required being directed because I hope that if I won't act on it immediately, someone else will take the responsibility and learn that everything is easier if everyone are equally sharing the responsibilities but I have failed to see that instead of standing as an example and direct myself breath by breath, I'm being spiteful within the experience of righteousness.

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to within the experience of being righteous to NOT take into consideration the consequences and outflows of not directing the point that I see to be required being directed because of my own self interest as to gaining the experience of being self righteous.

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to within directing the point that required to be directed to cycle the experience of "it is not fair" that I have to do it because others do not, within the resentment and self victimization and I haven't allowed myself to simply direct, breath and do what is required to be done.

Marlen Vargas Del Razo

I commit myself to direct the points that I see as required to be directed in my immediate environment regardless what other do or don't do because I realized that Who I am as a breath by breath decision to walk according to principle that are best for all has nothing to do with anyone but me.

I commit myself to stop feeding myself with energy as the experience  of righteousness from seeing the points that required to be directed while others do not within the attempt to make myself more than them because I realized that what required to be directed from the starting point of what is best for all cannot be influenced by self interest.

I commit myself to stop moving myself through guilt by rather direct myself according to that which is best for all.

I commit myself to stop all back chat and reactions when moving and directing points.

I commit myself to STOP being concern whether or not others will become responsible and focus only on myself becoming absolute responsible being because I realize that only by example I can stand as a support for others, after I've walked through the point and I stand in clarity, stability and in Breath.