The Psychology of TIME - Day 190

This is a continuation to:

 

The Elite's delusion of stress - Part 1 - Day 45

The Elite's Delusion of Stress - Part 2 - Day 46

The Decision of TIME - Day 67

And:

Copy Paste Character - the Way for Success? - Day 183

Copy Paste Character - The Education System - Day 184

Is it possible to Cheat yourself? Day 185

It is time to STOP Existing as a Human Machine - Day 186

The End of Times - Day 187

Facing the Evil within - the KEY to LIFE - Day 188

Fear of Disappointing others - Day 189

 

For the purpose of context, suggest reading these posts above prior to reading the post below, if you haven’t already. Here I will be walking the 'I don't have TIME' Character - Fear Dimension - Practical support with Self Forgiveness and Self Commitments.

 

The List below consists of the Fears which are the foundation of the 'I don't have Time' Character.

 

Fear Dimension:

* Fear that I'll disappoint other people if I won't take more tasks on myself

* Fear that I would be defined as unworthy because I'm not using my time to
   it's utmost potential.

* Fear that I won't get things done and would regret it when consequences
   would emerged so basically, fear of the consequences.

* Fear that I would be seen as not good enough, replaceable, inadequate

* Fear of being exposed as self dishonest because I know, that if I put my self
   interest desires aside, I'm able to walk my tasks in absolute perfection.

* Fear of Missing out the Positive as Entertainment

 

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* Fear that I would be defined as unworthy because I'm not using my time to it's utmost potential.

 

Self Forgiveness:

 

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to create an idea within and as myself that within each and every breath I take, I must do something that is constructive from the perspective of having some work done, and within that idea, I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to judge myself when and as I use the time that I have for pleasure, entertainment and indulgent Within that, I forgive myself that I've NOT accepted and allowed myself to realize that who I am is not define by what I do but rather Who I am within what I do that is actual measurable in the outcome/result that is best for all and thus, through not accepting and allowing myself to realize that it is not what I do that defines me but rather who I am within what I do, I've accepted and allowed myself to project my own self judgement onto others within the belief that I will be judged for not being worthy if I won't invest in every second of the day, in doing a work and have it done.

 

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to fear being judged by others as unworthy when and as I'm taking a moment for myself because I've created an idea that worthiness is associated/defined/connected with what one do in every moment of every breath and unless one is working as much as possible, one isn't worthy. Within that, I forgive myself that I've NOT accepted and allowed myself to see my desire of being righteous within the point of doing a work and using the time effectively in having things done as a point of judgement of others who are not doing the same and so, through judging others regarding of how they use their time, I make myself feel more and righteous within and as myself and in that, always keep myself busy in having things done so that I could sustain my own worthiness in my own eye's view as well as the experience of righteousness in comparison to other people in my world and my environment.

 

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to define TIME within what I do without seeing, realizing and understanding that I've Tied myself to TIME as I've lived the word TIME as 'TIE Me' wherein I have literally tied myself to the idea of time, enslaving myself by Time and being control by the living definition I have given to Time.

 

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to define 'utmost potential' within the context of having work done instead of seeing, realizing and understanding that having things done, doesn't define me as who I am as the utmost potential application if the work that is being done, is being done in separation within a starting point of Fear of judgement, fear of disappointing others and the desire of being defined as worthy by others. That implies that what ever I did, wasn't for and as Self, wasn't within breath by breath living application of actually seeing directly what needs to be done within and as the principle of that which is best for all and accordingly, walk as the utmost potential I can be as life that is physically here, breath by breath.

 

 

Self Commitments:

 

 

I commit myself to SLOW myself DOWN and within that, making sure that I'm Physically Here, walking, moving and directing myself, breath by breath. I see, realize and understand that Worthiness isn't defined by the 'More' that one does, but rather as Who one is within what one does wherein Worthiness is measurably proven by one's actions/application within one's consistency of walking breath by breath within and as the principle of that which is best for all.

 

I commit myself to assist and support myself through letting go, removing and deleting my own self definitions that I've defined myself as, according to my own programming that I was busy programming myself throughout my life. Within that, to question every action I do, everything I like or dislike, everything that makes me feel worthy and unworthy and to truly discover who I am without all those definitions that I set forth for myself which I automatically live as according to and by.

 

I commit myself to instead of walking according to TIME as Tie-Me, to assist and support myself in walking Breath by Breath, Moment by Moment according to what is physically supporting me and others and within that, walk my day to day application with Ease, in seeing and realizing that the pressure I put on myself is a stumble stone for things to not be done as I waste 'time' in thinking instead of practical directive movement in every given moment. Thus Time: T-I-Me = the decision I make to move and direct myself in any given moment, within a clear best for all starting point, breath by breath by breath that is not dependent on Energy.

 

I commit myself to get HERE and find out Who I am as the Utmost potential I can be and become when stepping out of the mind and walking breath by breath within and as a principle of Oneness and Equality as that which is best for all. Within this, I commit myself to assist and support myself to get HERE through walking the layers of my mind from the inside out, in changing myself, my automated acceptance and allowances that I've lived as, as a programmed organic Robot and to transform myself to stand within clear starting point regarding what I accept and allow and what I wouldn't not within myself and my world as a whole.

 

Art Work – Andrew Gable

The Layers of our Minds - Day 178

This is a continuation to:

Menstruation Pains as an Excuse to Indulge- Day 175

Menstruation Pains as an Excuse to Indulge - Self Forgiveness - Day 176

Menstruation Pains as an Excuse to Indulge - Self Commitments - Day 177

 

So, I'm continuing investigating the dimensions within the relationship of Headache and Menstruation that I've created within and as myself throughout my life and through walking the dimensions/layers within it, I've realized a fascinating point that I would like to share about today.

 

Also, for more context, I suggest listening to:

Reptilians - Thought and Thinking - a Deliberate Creation of Control - Part 105

Reptilians - Thinking as Mind vs. Direct Seeing with the Physical - Part 106

 

When working with Pain that was created through an accumulation of memories, thoughts, ideas, opinions etc. that were accepted and allowed within one's life, one would see the various dimensions/layers of the mind that slowly but surely starts to reveal themselves once a layer was removed in self honesty.

 

Within that context, I was looking at the differences between Meditation and quieting the mind and Stopping the mind as an act of self movement/direction, in self honesty.

What I've realized yesterday for myself was why and how when silencing the mind through meditation, it's nothing but creating another dimension, a silent dimension within one's mind with no actual and practical change but rather, suppressing the thought/pattern/personality/character and creating a new one and that is in comparison to stopping the mind as an act of self directiveness/movement that one is practically and physically taking responsibility for.

 

When I was practicing Spirituality and within that, practicing Meditation to silent my mind, I never investigated the nature of the thoughts, the consequences of suppressing the thought but simply ignored them as if they never existed however, within that, never seen, realized and understood the physical manifestation of the thoughts in and as the human physical body and how through suppressing the thought by ignoring it, we do not in fact removing/deleting the thought from the flesh of the body and therefor, there is no physical and practical change within oneself and one's living application but rather, one would create and manifest another character that would be so powerful in terms of suppressing other characters that self had accepted and allowed self to create and participate within and as oneself and one's world.

 

Stopping the mind, as a practical, physical self directive principle, is a total different story.

For a moment I was confused within and as myself regarding - what is the difference between deleting a thought and suppressing a thought through Meditation. For me, the outcome seems to be the same - in both cases, the thought is gone. What I haven't considered within this question, as mentioning previously is the physical aspect as well as self responsibility within and as the act of removing/deleting a thought vs. suppressing a thought in meditation.

 

The point that I was specifically looking at was - how can I make sure that I have actually deleted the thought and I'm not fucking with myself again, as I've done as a spiritual. How can I make sure that I in fact stopped the thought and not just ignore/suppress it. the answer that I've found within and as myself was very simplistic - if the thought comes back again, I haven't in fact deleted it and what I've actually done was creating another dimension and manifested a time loop that would take me to the same place where I've initially wasn't honest with myself when stopping the thought. Also - a practical consideration is to - not accept and allow self to simply delete the thought, create a character of: I'm so good, I deleted the thought yopi hey hey hey and rather, take a moment and write the point out, see whether something was missed and whether one is in fact clear and stable within one self.

 

So, Deleting a thought or removing a memory through Self Forgiveness doesn't end there. All we have done was removing ONE layer, ONE dimension and ONE thought so that we could assist and support ourselves in seeing the next layer/dimension/thought so that we can walk through the next layer/dimension/thought and so on.

While in meditation, let's say that I've ignored the thought. Cool, for a moment the thought isn't there. What now? A time loop. Why?? Because I could have stand up and take responsibility for myself in investigating the nature of the thought and the core point of my acceptance and allowance of its existence and within that, walking through the layers of the mind and clear the entire network that is interconnected with this one thought. 

 

And so, in terms of practicality - once removing one thought, we can either take a moment and investigate the next layer/dimension or if in our day to day living responsibility we don't have this moment of self investigating, we can simply wait until the next layer would reveal itself within the realization that we cannot avoid it, it will appear/reveal itself in some way or another and in that realization, we are honest with ourselves within the starting point of: ok, I've seen one layer, there are much more that I've not yet seen, I'm making the commitment that when and as the moment is here and the next layer/dimension would reveal itself, I will stand up, take responsibility and sort it out. And so, we do not create another dimension of: "I walked and am now done with the point" but instead, being humble with and as ourselves, walking one step at a time, one breath at a time, and how long it will take is irrelevant as we trust ourselves to clear ourselves in every single breath, trough consistent application that is trustworthy, exactly as Breath is consistent and trustworthy.

 

So, back to the Menstruation and Pain - another dimension/layer/though/memory had reveal itself through the emergence of headache which "forced" me to have a look again what memory I haven't yet looked at within the relationship of headache and Menstruation.

Want to know what it was?? Stay tuned till tomorrow.

Menstruation Pains as an Excuse to Indulge - Self Commitments - Day 177

 

 

This is a continuation to:

Menstruation Pains as an Excuse to Indulge- Day 175

Menstruation Pains as an Excuse to Indulge - Self Forgiveness - Day 176

 

I commit myself to Disconnect the Attachment/association/definitions that I've manifested within and as my mind regarding the relationship between headache and Menstruation as I see, realize and understand that accepting and allowing the associations/definition/association/connection between headache and Menstruation is to accept and allow the abuse and sabotage of myself through literally manifesting pain through the belief that pain and Menstruation comes together. Thus, When and as I see a thought in a nature of the relationship between pain and menstruation, I stop, I breathe, I DETLET the thoughts as I now see, realize and understand why and how I've accepted and allowed myself to participate in the thought in separation of me which is no longer acceptable.

 

I commit myself to walk my Responsibilities within breath by breath living application as and within the principle of what is best for all and within that, to not accept and allow myself to excuse myself from my responsibilities through creating pain within and as me and to assess within self honesty when and how much rest my body is required to function in its utmost potential.

 

I commit myself to include in my  weekly schedule moments for self indulgent and to unconditionally be OK with taking these moments for myself without feeling guilty about it because, I see, realize and understand that I've previously took these moments but within guilt, I manifest pain so that I could justify the moment of indulgent through the excuse that my body is in pain and require a rest.

 

I commit myself to further investigate the Righteousness Character within and as me through a process of writing, self forgiveness and practical self change through standing in alignment with my commitments that I'm putting forth to myself.

I commit myself to Delete all Memories regarding Women with Menstruation pain as I'm now seeing, realizing and understanding that I've used these memory to manipulate and abuse my human physical body through utilizing these memories as an excuse to excuse myself from my day to day living responsibility for one day in a month. In this, Note - what I'm saying here is that some women are in fact having serious Menstruation pain once a month and that is their process to walk but it is not the case with me so it is not that all women are like me, utilize the pain as an excuse so please, do not make a judgement upon Menstruation pain through reading this blog.

 

I commit myself to STOP manipulating others through the experience of having to feel sorry for myself within the desire of them validating me as the pain and excusing me from my responsibilities. In this, I commit myself to investigate and explore where else in my life I've utilize the 'Feel sorry for me' character in alignment of my own self interest Desires for a specific experiences.

 

I commit myself to delete the values I've assigned to my day to day living responsibilities and to then thus, walk what ever is required to be done, breath by breath at my utmost potential, capability and ability, in self honesty.

Menstruation Pains as an Excuse to Indulge - Self Forgiveness - Day 176

This is a continuation to:

Menstruation Pains as an Excuse to Indulge- Day 175

 

 

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to connect/attach/define/associate Menstruation with Headache, not seeing, realize and understanding that within that connection/attachment/definition/association, I've accepted and allowed the belief that Headache must manifest once a month and within that not seeing, realizing and understanding that it was always me, the one who gave myself the permission to create and manifest the pain, in separation of me and therefor, experience the pain once a month.

 

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to want, need and desire for an excuse to release myself from my day to day Living Responsibilities within having a monthly pain to shut me out and in that, having to accept and allow myself to create and manifest pain within and as my human physical body to have a legitimate excuse that would be accepted by society and therefor, I won't be judge for taking a time off from my responsibilities.

 

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to fear being judged for not standing within and as my day to day living responsibilities and within that, had defined 'time off' as indulgent, pleasure, entertainment as something that is invalid, that I cannot have as it is not part of my responsibilities and in this, I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to sabotage myself as my human physical body through having creating and manifesting a monthly pain to be utilize as an excuse to rest, indulge and entertain myself in bed while others will keep up with my responsibilities.

 

I forgive myself that I've NOT accepted and allowed myself to include Indulgent and pleasure moments in my day to day living responsibility because I've defined it as a waste of precious time that can be utilized in moving forwards towards a world that is best for all, not seeing, realizing and understanding that within that definition, what I was really doing is trying to impose myself as the righteousness character, and in that, be more than others that are "not as devoted as me". Within this, I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to define Indulgent as wrong/bad within the starting point of a desire for my own self interest requirement for external sources to validate, appreciate and approve me as MORE instead of changing my starting point to and as a principle of that which is best for all where - who I am is not defined by what I do but rather, walking breath by breath as who I am within everything that I do. And thus, I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to sabotage and abuse my human physical body through creating a monthly pain, to maintain my righteousness character without imposing my own self judgement on me as I've utilized the pain as an excuse to excuse myself from my responsibilities without having to waste time on entertainment and indulgent through justifying that I cannot work anyway when having extensive pain.

 

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed memories of seeing women being excused from their responsibilities when having menstruation pain and through accepting the memory to be imprinted into my flesh, I've accepted and allowed the memory to be the stepping stone in creating and manifesting a monthly pain that I would utilize when and as I see I require some rest from my responsibilities as an excuse instead of moving and directing myself in self honesty and when/as a rest is required, to simply rest as  physical support.

 

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to feel sorry for myself when having menstruation pain so that other could relate and have sympathy towards me, to validate my need to take a rest instead of assessing in self honesty, when my human physical body require a rest and simply walk with my body and support my body, without having to abuse it by creating Energy as Pain and self pity to validate the Body requirement for a rest.

 

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to assess what are my responsibilities for a specific day and be frustrated when there is an activity that I would prefer not participating with, and in doing so, simultaneously, look for any physical pain that I could utilize to excuse myself from the activity. In this, I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to consider abusing my human physical body through creating pain just so that I won't have to participate in certain activities and in that, I forgive myself that I've NOT accepted and allowed myself to move and direct myself according to the principle of what is best for all and in that, do what ever is necessarily to be done to support myself and the people in my environment in sharing equal responsibilities.

 

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to develop likes and dislikes towards my responsibilities and accordingly, assign to each one of them a specific value instead of seeing, realizing and understanding that what ever my responsibilities are, it is not about the responsibilities but who I am within my responsibilities and having a preference as likes and dislikes indicate that I have accepted and allowed myself to move and direct myself according to an Energetic experience in self interest in oppose to move and direct myself, breath by breath and do what ever is required to be done in my utmost ability, in self honesty.

Menstruation Pains as an Excuse to Indulge- Day 175

 

 

A few days ago, a point opened up when I experienced a slight headache. It was a familiar pain that I came to live with, once a month, just before I get a period. Usually, when I'm not taking care of it, it manifests to a Migraine that shuts me down for the rest of the day. Care of it meaning - taking a pill once it becomes unbearable.

 

When I'm looking at the pain that was here a few days ago and the pain that was here a month ago - there is one thing in common - on both days I was taking a time off from my day to day responsibilities. As I go along, you'd see why this point is relevant and in fact, the source point of the pain.

 

So back to a few days ago - when the pain was still bearable, and I had already made the connection between the pain and the menstruation as an actual, real and true fact within and as my mind, I asked a friend for a support through pushing a specific point in my hand as it is usually assist with reducing the pain and with breathing through the pain that is busy emerging in the hand, I see a dimension that is related to the pain and am able to work with it.

 

When we started to investigate the source of the point, I've seen that the pain started when she was asking me what date it was and my back chat was: "oh, I must get period soon". In that moment, without my awareness, I've accepted and allowed the thought and the pain that comes with getting a period that I've accepted and allowed within and as me. So I deleted the connection between getting a period and having pain and continued with my investigation regarding the source/core of creating the idea in the first place, between pain and getting period.

 

My friend move her hands and push on my upper right eye which open up a new point within and as myself. What I've seen was memories of women that are being excused from specific responsibilities when having period pain. When I looked within myself, I saw, that creating a pain, once a month, enough to shut me down for a few hours was deliberately created because I'm not a sick person, I usually don't get sick and thus, I always have to maintain my responsibilities. When I moved through this point, the pain was gone.

 

What I've NOT seen, realized and understood was how, through taking a time off by creating pain, I'm deliberately abusing myself and my human physical body, instead of giving myself a time off without a need to make an excuse for why it is ok for me to take a moment off.

 

In this, it is not surprising that the 2 times I had headache where times where I "took" a moment off from my responsibilities however, I wasn't stable nor clear within my decision to take the time off because I believed that taking a time off is wrong when there are so many other things that I could do to support myself and others.

 

Here, I would refer myself and you to a point that I've been writing about a while back and now, when another dimension opened up, I would get into more specificity in my Self Forgiveness and Self Commitment application: Inner dullness light up in Energy - Day 68.

 

What was not yet seen, understood and realized within and as myself is that who I am is not defined within what I do or don't do but rather, who I am within what I do will determine who I really am as a breath by breath living application.

Inner Dullness light up in Energy - Day 68

Indulge - Dictionary definition.

1. to yield to an inclination or desire; allow oneself to follow one's will (often followed by in ): Dessert came, but I didn't indulge. They indulged in unbelievable shopping sprees.

verb (used with object)

2.to yield to, satisfy, or gratify (desires, feelings, etc.): to indulge one's appetite for sweets.

3.to yield to the wishes or whims of; be lenient or permissive with: to indulge a child.

4.to allow (oneself) to follow one's will (usually followed by in ): to indulge oneself in reckless spending.

5.Commerce . to grant an extension of time, for payment or performance, to (a person, company, etc.) or on (a bill, note, etc.).

My allocation point -

I attached the word within a negative energetic charge within and as myself wherein I feel guilt when indulging. Mostly because there are always other priority tasks and assignment that I must do as well as the thoughts of not everyone can indulge and thus I feel guilt that I can.

Sounding -

In-dull-g-e -> In Dull in the God Energy

Indo-legend

End-all-G-E -> End all Godly energy.

Indulgent is a polarized word - when one is indulging, one access a positive energy within one's definition of pleasure within doing something in the physical reality. After the positive experience has been experienced, one is accessing to the negative emotion of guilt as self judgment for allowing oneself to indulge. 

Redefinition - deriving pleasure from consuming different forms of energy.

To assist and support oneself is to delete the energy experience and allow oneself to be absolutely here within and as everything that one do, breath by breath.

(for the process of redefining words - read Earth Journey to Life by Esteni De Wet)

Self Forgiveness -

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to define and associated physical 'Hereness' within and as energetic polarization of either positive and negative and I haven't considered that 'hereness' is a physical living expression of and as me, breath by breath.

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to define/associated/connect the word indulgent within and as a polarity experience wherein I defined specific physical reality activities has Positive and accordingly, I experience myself to be indulging. And within that, I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to define/associate/connect the experience of indulgent within a negative energetic charge of Guilt and self judgement.

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to judge myself for indulging within and as the experience of guilt and I haven't allowed myself to embrace and accept myself within and as a breath, of simply being Here, within and as my human physical body and thus, remove the energy attachment to the word 'indulge' and walk the living expression of the word 'Indulge' as deriving pleasure from consuming different form of energy

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to separate myself from the word 'indulge' by judging and defining the word within a polarity experience and I haven't accepted and allowed myself to LIVE here, within and as breath, allowing myself to relax within and as myself/human physical body, enjoy the moment as me with no energy attached.

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to feel guilty when and as I indulge by accepting the thoughts: "I have to get this and that done", " I can't afford myself to indulge", " How can I stand for equality and yet indulge when 3.3 billion people are suffering"; and yet, what I've not accepted and allowed myself to see, realize and understand that changing the world is a process that takes time, regardless for example, if I take a moment for myself to relax my human physical body and do nothing but being here, breathing, or allowing myself to take a break and watch a movie.

I forgive myself that I've NOT accepted and allowed myself to assess in self honesty whether it is doable, practical and supportive for me to take a moment and indulge by making sure that I do not compromise myself nor others in this world and thus, when the moment is here and I'm indulging, I allow and commit myself to remain here, within and as my human physical body and thus, not accepting any thought/energy movement in the nature of guilt and self judgement.

I forgive myself that I have NOT accepted and allowed myself to see realise and understand that I am able to indulge in every breath that I take with any particular application that I may be participating within and as, as indulgence is deriving pleasure from consuming different forms of energy, such as eating food to sustain my human physical body, or breathing air to sustain my body or swimming in a pool on a hot day to support my body. And through this I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge the pleasure that I derive from indulging in a moment as I have connected the pleasure that I experience in a moment to self-interested actions.

I forgive myself that I have NOT accepted and allowed myself to enjoy the simple pleasures as pleasures of indulgence within every breath that I take because I've associated, defined and connected pleasure as indulgent to self interest and have thus judged the living expression of the words as well as the experiences of the words instead of redefining the words as a living expression that is best for all and walk the living word in self honesty, breath by breath.

I commit myself to investigate the living expression of every word within and as the principle of equality and oneness and to redefine the words to a living expression that I can stand according and as for eternity.

I commit myself to remove the energy connotation/association/definition that I've assigned to words and walk the living expression of words be redefining them according to principles of equality and oneness.

I commit myself to allow myself to indulge when and as I see in self honesty that it is a point of support to and as my human physical body.

I commit myself to support myself as equal to and one as my human physical body within participating in indulgent when and as I see that participating in indulgent wouldn't compromise anything or anyone

Maximizing Pleasure - Day 65

 I forgive myself that I've NOT accepted and allowed myself to realize that my pleasure is defined within the idea that I've attached to what pleasure is, the energetic charge that I've connected to it and the experience that I desire to have within it as an accepted past memory experience that I've associating to; none of which is a self expression within and as myself, as who I am, but rather accepted pre-program design that I follow in total separation form myself and this world.

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to have refused to see that for me to have access to pleasurable activities in this world, I must have Money because money firstly provides my basic needs within which I firstly derive simple pleasures from such as fresh water, food and a roof over my head and through this I forgive myself that I have attached pleasure with an external activity in separation of me and I haven't realized that Self Pleasure is an expression of me that I give to myself through my participation in and as LIFE. However, I forgive myself that I've NOT accepted and allowed myself to see, realize and understand that Self Pleasure as expression of Who I am can only exists when and as my basic needs are met (Food, shelter, clothes, health care etc.) and I'm no longer occupied with my physical survival and thus, it is my responsibility as an interdependent part of this world as a whole, to make sure that the basic needs of each and every being in this world would meet and the opportunity to express ourselves as self pleasure is Here for all.

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to define pleasure in external experience in separation of me and through seeking for the experience, I've locked myself down in my own little bubble of my mind, taking care of my own self interest pleasurable moments without consider anything or anyone else but me.

I forgive myself that I've not accepted and allowed myself to see that my ideas with regards to worldly pleasures are prompt via the media as a form of brainwashing, to feed the system with more money movement as energy from our own energy movement as a desire for a self interest experience within and as pleasure.

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to seek for and go after experiences that gives me the utmost pleasure in my Life and within that, have abdicated my responsibility of making sure that all beings on earth will all have equal opportunities to maximize their pleasure within having equal access to earth's resources and within that, I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to have failed to see how I've been preoccupied in my mind within the self interest desire for a specific type of pleasure experience and I haven't seen that all beings on earth deserve to have pleasurable physical experiences but yet they cannot as pleasure is can only be achieved by those who have money who are able to take care of their basic living needs. Those who don't have money, are busy focusing on their survival and cannot afford a moment of self pleasure in their daily pain and suffering.

I forgive myself that I've NOT accepted and allowed myself to see that the experience of Pleasure can only be pursuit if one has Money to be able to fulfil one's self interest desire for pleasure and within that, we have not taken into consideration the enslavement of others who make it happen for us to experience the pleasurable activities which within that, their experience is of survival and has nothing to do with actual pleasure.

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to justify why it's ok for me to participate and indulge in pleasurable activities as well as to justify why it's ok having slaves for me to have my pleasure experience that I believe I deserve to have.

I forgive myself that I have NOT accepted and allowed myself to see that the more money I have, the more I can fuel my self interest desire for pleasure and within it, I haven't even stopped once to question the nature of my desire, who is getting hurt in the process of providing me with my experience of pleasure and what are the consequences when and as I pursue my desire for my happiness within my EXPERIENCE of pleasure.

I commit myself to establish and walk towards a world where all are entitled for a fulfilling and pleasurable life where the fear of physical survival is removed by creating a world system that is best for all. And within that, I stand for the Equal Money System 'Well-Being' Goal:

The Equal Money System will Study the Psychological Well-Being of Humans to Ensure a Lifestyle free of Fear. The focus will be on Supporting Life to Practically Live Fulfillment and Happiness in Ways where Self-Gratification will not Harm any Living Being or the Environment. This is to Ensure the continuation of Earth as an Effective Resource for the Enjoyment of Future Generations.

I commit myself to show the harm and abuse that is being allowed within our current world system where being are being enslaved for the sake of the Elite's Pleasurable activities as well as the harm that it cause to the world resources where the pleasurable activities over use the resources without consideration whatsoever.

I commit myself to show that when one's basic needs are met, one can apply self pleasure as an expression within oneself without the requirement of any external stimulation to give one's a sense of pleasure.

I commit myself to show that our ideas of pleasure has nothing to do with self pleasure as an expression but rather a self interest desire for one's own fulfilment/experience that one has accepted as oneself in separation of oneself and existence as a whole.