Is it possible to Cheat yourself? Day 185

This is a continuation to:

Copy Paste Character - the Way for Success? - Day 183

Copy Paste Character - The Education System - Day 184

 

 

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to Program myself deliberately as a consumer, always looking and seeking for the quick fix, the short cut in having things done, so that I could get MORE in LESS time within the common belief that MORE is what we should be seeking after, MORE is what we must become and through having MORE and MORE and MORE we will be successful and be seen as achievers by our environment and they would respect us and see us as superior not ever seeing, realizing and understanding that while rushing through within the journey to be and have MORE, we are missing the very BASIC more of what we could have be and become if we were to stop seeking for MORE and actually Participate with the Physical reality, Breath by Breath, in HEREness of and as Equality and Oneness and in that, Be in fact MORE than what we have become as a limited version of ourselves as our minds but rather, Live as Physical respectful of LIFE human beings.

 

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself, from an inferior starting point, to look for the short cut and the quick fix because I believed I cannot walk to my full potential unless I achieve something that is visible that could be respected by others whom would validate me for my achievement and thus, I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself through looking for the validation and appreciations of others, to use the short cuts and in doing so, diminish myself so completely as I've not accepted and allowed myself to walk my life, breath by breath within the inner self realization that there is only so much one can do in each and every breath and one should focus on making the best out of each and every breath instead of brushing off what one does within the starting point of pleasing others so that they could validate self as self beliefs that one cannot validate oneself unless someone else validate self.

 

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to disrespect myself within accepting and allowing myself to direct myself within and as the starting point of brushing stuff off, looking for short cuts, seeking for the quick fix and I haven't accepted and allowed myself to realize that within accepting this starting point through having a projected idea of who and what I should be and in that - being a specific person according to my eye's views as soon as possible, I've NOT accepted and allowed myself to Stand HERE, BREATHE and directly see ME, in absolute Self Awareness, and accordingly make aware decisions that are based on a principle of what is best for all and in that, walking my decisions, breath by breath as to my utmost potential as who I am within what I do.

 

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to miss a breath when looking for the quick fix and the short cut to achieve my desires that I've created within and as my mind and in missing a breath, I have accepted and allowed myself to project the idea of what I require to do for me to be validated, appreciated by others so that I could be worthy in my eye's view once I'm worthy according to others eye's view.

 

I forgive myself that I've NOT accepted and allowed myself to see the consequences of the accumulation effect of taking more and more upon myself within the starting point of being MORE to other people so that they could respect, validate and appreciate me and then, when it comes to the point of having more things to do then what is possible to do within the space time breath by breath application, I looked for the short cuts to have my assignments done, not seeing, realizing and understanding that within that cycle that I've created for myself, I've compromised and sabotaged myself and others as not walking my assignment according to the utmost potential it can be done when walking each and every step in breath by breath.

 

 

Walking Breath by Breath - Part 2 - Day 161

This is a continuation to:

Walking Breath by Breath - Part 1 - Day 160

 

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to place my trust in my mind, in my memories, in my beliefs, in my opinions, in my morality structure and in this, completely gave away my power to walk breath by breath, finding out whether it is possible to live a fulfilment life that is best for all without using the mind as the memory structure that I became to be and exists as. And in this, I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to fear stopping my mind and finding out for myself whether or not, one requires memories as knowledge and information to sustain a substantial Life and through not giving myself to permission to test this point for myself, I've accepted and allowed my own limitation, my own anaesthesia within and as the imprisonment that I've set for myself - the very same jail that I've accepted and allowed to direct myself and this world, without ever questioning its authenticity, its nature, its foundations.

 

I forgive myself that I've NOT accepted and allowed myself to make the definitive decision to accept and allow myself to walk breath by breath and within this, to essentially give up before I even started my process of stepping out of my mind, so that I could see for myself who I am when the mind stops.

 

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to look and seek for a quick fix to stop my mind because I've believed that I would be some magical human being that is able to do the impossible and within that starting point, I've separated myself from really be self honest with myself and walk the time/space path, breath by breath, to see for myself, who I am when the mind stops, without having any idea or perceptions about it, with no desires attach to the common sense practical application of really looking and investigating myself and my relationship with myself, when the mind is not longer my accepted and allowed directive principle.

 

I forgive myself that I've NOT accepted and allowed myself to walk breath by breath, stopping each and every single thought that comes up because the thoughts gave me the security that I came to believe to be necessary to sustain my life and thus survive. In this, I forgive myself that I've NOT accepted and allowed myself to ever question the nature of the thoughts, where thoughts comes from, why do I have these thoughts, what trigger the thoughts; and within NOT accepting and allowing myself to question my relationship with the thoughts, I've accepted and allowed myself to live in automation and thus, I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to place value and trust in my thoughts as if the thoughts are GOD and I must listen, obey and follow the thoughts, not seeing, realizing and understanding the religion of SELF that I've blindly establish within and as myself.

 

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to desire others to tell me what is that I'm experiencing and in that, basically giving up on myself, within realizing my capability and ability to see for myself, in self honesty, the point that I'm facing. In that, I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to judge myself when and as I do not clearly see the entire point that I'm facing, without giving myself a moment, to breathe, to become the point so absolutely, in equality, and through the physical equality and oneness, giving me the permission to see myself, to see the picture, to see who I am, in breath. Within this, I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to want to see the point in its entirety from a starting point of a desire, as knowledge and information, because I've defined this seeing as MORE, as something that is special instead of establishing equal and one starting point with myself - to assist and support myself to simply see, as this is what is here, as my living presentation that is determine my decisions, my expression the who I am in every moment and through this seeing, taking responsibility and change myself, breath by breath. 

 

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to believe that I must understand the point in all its dimensions to release myself form the ties of my mind and I haven't seen ,realized and understood, that in that moment, when I accepted and allowed the belief that in order to change, I must understand, I've sabotage myself in not giving myself the permission to simply BREATHE and stand HERE and release the energy holder that I've used to further separate myself.

 

I commit myself to TEST for myself Life where the mind as the memory structure that I've accumulated throughout my life, as the directive principle that I've accepted and allowed to direct and decide for me, STOPS, so that I could see for myself Who I am when the mind stops, Who I am as the directive principle in every moment of every breath. And so, through testing the point for myself and utilizing the tools to assist and support myself with stopping my mind such as self forgiveness, breathing, self honesty and self corrective application, I Stop, check, assess and evaluate for myself, who I am without a mind and through this, I would see, for myself as a point of cross reference without having to base any belief on other people's experiences.

 

I commit myself to STOP looking for a quick fix, for a miracle path that will end my negative experiences as I see, realize and understand that this desire in itself is based on a polarity charge that I would accumulate slowly but surely until the energy would eventually discharge itself, and so, I would use another source of energy to recharge the experience until again, the energy would discharged and the cycle continue. I now see, realize and understand that within walking breath by breath, one do not require any energy to move self but it is self that is here, moving and directing self and within this common self realization - I commit myself to assist and support myself in any given moment, to move myself as breath, discharge the energy when and as it comes up, for as long as it takes, for as many times that it takes because I see, realize and understand that when walking breath by breath and stopping the endless journey of finding energy to charge myself with, stopping my existence as energy and start living within and as the physical.

 

I commit myself to assist and support myself with educating myself regarding the Quantum Mind in understanding the organic machine that I've accepted and allowed myself to be and become. In this, I commit myself to Question myself, to challenge my beliefs, ideas, perceptions, judgements etc. through seeing the relationships that I've formed with these mind components so that I could finally get to know myself, what trigger my personalities/characters that I've accepted and allowed myself to become equal to; what makes me decide what I normally decide; and through getting to know myself, as the entire programming of myself, change is possible as I stand as self movement, as breath, as the one who decide.

Walking Breath by Breath - Part 1 - Day 160

I'm taking a momentarily break from the blog series that I've started walking regarding love, sex and Sexuality because today, I woke up with a knife stuck in my back (Metaphorically) and since the pain is here, the point is here, I might as well look at it and walk the practical correction.

 

The point is my Desire for a Magical solution, a desire that is based on the idea/belief/perception that once we step out of the mind, we access this godly domain and we could see behind the physical.

When looking at this belief, firstly I experience resistance which indicate that I'm right at the POINT and I must now look, in self honesty, what the hell I'm creating inside my mind and through this hell, I bound myself in my own prison - never getting in fact out.

 

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to place trust in Knowledge and information instead of walking breath by breath in self trust, testing each and every point for myself and as myself and making decisions according to that which is best for all through letting go of my self interest desires for experiences and Stand Absolute, here, Breathe - always checking, assessing, re-evaluating, changing the starting point, aligning - in breath by breath.

 

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to believe that when one is stepping out of one's mind, one transform and hold Godly powers where one could see more than meets the eyes and can thus, no longer require for example, seeing a doctor, as one is able to move the physical at will. Within this, I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to desire having these Godly powers which indicate that I haven't yet walked my process from within the starting point of realizing what is best for all but rather walked my process, to be and have Godly powers, as a Desire that is based on my own self interest wish, for attaining and having a specific experience during my life time. In this, I forgive myself that I've NOT accepted and allowed myself to see, realize and understand how through accepting and allowing a desire to have godly powers once I transcend my mind, I have accepted and allowed myself to fear my death, as I've believed that I must achieve this Godly powers before I die, before it will be too late. 

 

I forgive myself  that I've NOT accepted and allowed myself to simply live and be, Breath by Breath and instead, I consistently and continuously desired for MORE; more than what is here, more than what is possible to be here.  Within this, I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to seek for this 'more' through Knowledge and information without realizing that everything is already here; from that perspective, the same as the Nature and The animal kingdom exists and functions according to physical and practical knowledge and information that through that physical and practical knowledge and information, they support their existence to the utmost potential it can be, I do not require for MORE knowledge and information as Mind Energy Knowledge and information to exists and justify my existence but rather, educate and skilled myself within and as practical and physical information that I could apply as myself and accordingly, would support myself and this existence within and as that which is best for all as a principle.

 

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to be controlled and enslaved to myself through my own desires for MORE and through this desires, I trapped myself in my mind, not considering to ever stop, breath, and walk in self integrity, breath by breath, step by step, getting to know who I am as LIFE that is HERE, in simplicity, in humbleness and respect for myself and existence as a whole, Equal and One.

 

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed through the desire for more, to keep myself occupied in my mind, trying to make sense from that which doesn't make sense, forming ideas, assumptions, perceptions as if it is the ultimate truth, without testing the point for myself, see what comes up, see who I am within that moment, see if I can alter and change the outcome into that which is best for all; see if I can change the starting point to align with that which is best for all, challenge myself and my existence, go behind my beliefs about myself and keep on testing and seeing who I am, how did I create myself and whether there is more than how I have limited myself to be and become; more from the perspective of more than what I constricted myself into and as through believes, opinions, judgement, desires etc.

 

 

I commit myself to assist and support myself in returning and aligning myself back to myself, and in that, to stop thoughts, feelings, emotions, reactions, possessions as I push myself to remain in breath, within and as self trust because I see, realize and understand that placing my trust in knowledge and information is to accept and allow my own imprisonment to the knowledge and information of those who have come before me, instead, stepping out of the box that I've defined myself to be, check, test, assess and re-evaluate each and every point for myself as that is the only thing that I can trust - when and as it is me, who have realized a point for myself, me, that is walking breath by breath, me that have proven to myself that I stand and within that trust, I change, alter and align myself to the principle that is best for all.

 

I commit myself to STOP looking at things from the Old system point of view and in that - placing judgement towards that which I do not understand - either positive or negative. In that, I see, realize and understand that there is nothing Godly in stopping one's mind as we are still bound to the physical space/time laws which means, that stopping the mind will not give one's Godly properties/powers but rather, stopping the Mind and becoming Equal and One to and as the physical would allow one to consider everything and everyone in any given moment, in each and every breath, wherein one would direct and move oneself towards only that which is best for all, as one is no longer bound to the self interests/fears that one had created oneself through and as the mind. in that, one isn't special, it is just what it is. a living physical human beings that walking breath by breath according to that which is best for all.

 

I commit myself to always Assess and evaluate my starting point in every breath, to make sure that I'm always aligned with that which is best for all. I see, realize and understand that properties that I've assigned/attached/defined/associated with one that had step out of the mind and through that definition, I've created the desire within and as me, to have these properties for myself and in that, making this process about me instead of a principle - that which is best for all. I commit myself to father investigate the Fear of Death as I see that accepting and allowing Fear of Death to control and influence my decision is not what is best for all but only that which is best for my own self interest which is no longer acceptable.
 

I commit myself to Delete all Knowledge and information that is of the mind, as Memories and past experiences that I've utilize to consistently looking for more and rather, focus on physical and practical knowledge and information that I could practical apply to sustain, maintain and create a world that is best for all, breath by breath.

 

I commit myself to STOP my desires for MORE than what is here and in that, when and as I see myself drifting off to my mind, fantasize, imagining and calculating how to manipulate the situation to my own benefit, I STOP, I breathe, I make sure that I'm HERE, assessing, testing and checking who I am in that very moment and accordingly align and change myself, in one Breath at a time.

 

 

To be continued...

Lost in the Future - Day 48

For clarity - Here is the drawing of the pattern that I will be discussing here -


The diamonds points represents points that I haven' aligned myself yet/haven't sorted out yet. The future projection is based on fears, on knowledge and information that I hold on, in separation of myself and that which is here. And thus, instead of walking breath by breath in alignment to all that is here, I go into my mind in the attempt to control the future to avoid the fears through a projection and within that, miss all the points that required being sorted out and directed which then thus, I manifest a time loop meaning - my future plans won't work out as I expected them to be and than, my decisions will be based on a reaction of fear and the cycle continue to the beginning where I'll plan new future out of fear and miss again the points that require my attention.



I forgive myself that I've NOT accepted and allowed myself to see the design that I've participated with throughout my life within and as the existence of a future projection and thus, I've accepted and allowed myself to avoid the points that require direction through projecting myself to the future which within that, could ignore and disregards the points that I require to align and sort out.

I forgive myself that I've NOT accepted and allowed myself to see how I instead of sorting out point by point, I went into my mind, within and as a future projection and when the future didn't played out as I expected it to be, I freaked out, and immediately went and build a new future plans and I haven't considered to stop for a moment, look at the practicality of the points and made an informative decisions that is based on what is HERE.

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to exits within and as future projection out of self interest desires and when the points didn't played out exactly as I've planed it, I reacted in fear and tried to figure out how to walk the point but I haven't considering that figuring out how to walk the point in my mind within a reaction of fear will not be the utmost beneficial solution and I rather stop the reactions, breathe and look at practicality and walk the decision thereof in absolute self trust, clarity and stability, breath by breath.

I forgive myself that I've NOT accepted and allowed myself to see that I'm existing in the Future within a future projections plans that I've made from the starting point of self interest desires which were based upon my past as the knowledge and information that I hold and I haven't allowed myself to see and realized that the most important point was missed all along - being HERE, walking breath by breath according to that which is best for all.

I forgive myself that I've NOT accepted and allowed myself to see that my future projections plans that I've made in my mind were based on FEAR according to the knowledge and information that I hold inside myself that I've carried from my past and thus, when things didn't played out according to what I planned I react in fear because I didn't carry the knowledge and information that I believed I require for making an informative decisions however, what I've missed was the common sense HEREness that is not defined according to one's past or future and thus, when one is walking breath by breath by breath, one is able to face and direct what ever a point is playing out in absolute stability and clarity.

I forgive myself that I've not accepted and allowed myself to see the relationship between future projection and the manifested reality that reflected back to me within unexpected changes from that which I've planned, and instead of stopping the reactions to the unexpected changes and direct myself effectively breath by breath, I went back into my mind, creating alternative solutions and I have failed to see that by allowing myself to react in fear and run back to my mind, I've manifested unnecessary time loop because it is inevitable that I will face myself whether I like it or not.

I forgive myself that I've NOT accepted and allowed myself and gave myself the permission to walk breath by breath and instead, I've directed myself according to a future that I've planned out for myself, in my mind, a future that is based on fears due to not taking on the points/patterns that I've participated throughout my life and stop the points/patterns one by one, and so, walk my life in absolute awareness of myself, my mind and all that is here in equality and oneness.

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to have failed to see the creation of the illusion reality that I'm creating in my mind in the attempt to miss and avoid points that requires my attention, consideration and practical correction.

I commit myself to stop creating unnecessary time loop for myself through participating in a future projection that is not based on the equality equation of this physical reality but is based on fears and reactions.

I commit myself to a process of stopping patterns one by one, breath by breath and to not allow myself to create an illusionary reality that can only exists in my mind.

I commit myself to stop reacting in fear when the illusion reality that I've created in my mind didn't meet with the physical reality and utilize the moment to see how and why I've manifested the physical reality that played out and furthermore, investigate what does it reflect back to myself from the perspective of looking and investigating what have I missed while I was preoccupied in my mind, in the illusionary reality.

I commit myself to stop being influenced by fears and instead of reacting and making decisions that are based on fear, I give myself the permission to stop, breathe and look at the practicality of the points and accordingly correct and direct myself, breath by breath.

I commit myself to hereness, to myself, to a breath by breath process of stopping the patterns that I've created in ignorance.

I commit myself to make informative decisions that based on the equality equation of 1+1=2 and to stop making reactive decisions that has no foundation/ground within the physical reality.

I commit myself to explain in details how and why we have been consistently living in our mind and how within that, we have missed ourselves and this physical reality as well as presenting a practical solutions to assist and support oneself in one's process of stopping pattern by pattern, breath by breath and within that becoming a physical living expression of LIFE.