Do I have the right to judge myself - Living in fear of being judged by others - Day 534

For context, please read:

Do you have the right to judge another - Day 531

Do I have the right to Judge myself? Potential consequences #1 - Day 532

Do I have the right to Judge myself? Living in an experience of being controlled - Day 533

Continuing to explore the consequences of not being honest with ourselves and thus accepting and allowing self-judgement to exists inside of ourselves, mostly projected through the eyes of others. In today post, we'll have a look at another potential consequence of participating with self-judgement projected as living in fear of being judged by others.

Fearing of being judged may starts in a very young age where you feel that you need to hide or do things in secrets because other people may have issues with what you do and you didn't have the courage to speak up and open this point in communication. It is mostly as a teen when the parents are trying to protect the child from the dangerous of the world, not understanding that the children will go and rebel and do exactly what the parents are trying to control. I personally went against the feeling of being judged by doing things in secret and only shared with those who I knew to not have any issues with it.

Living with the fear of being judged creates the experience of being controlled and although you will go and do the things you want to do, you will always feel you need to do these things in secret and that in itself compromises the integrity of your relationships with others.  The feeling of being controlled is due to the fact that you project your own judgement (with regards to the things you do in secrets) to the people in your environment, believing that if they would know what you do in secret, they will either look down at you or reject you in one way or another.

The consequence outflow here is that you will always blame and judge other people for allegedly judging you; and you may feel that you need to get away, to run away because your environment is closing down on you; you will feel trapped in your own environment and you'll have a growing force to leave all together and try making it in a new environment. 

All along it is you, living in fear in your mind, not willing to be honest with yourself in what you stand for and who you are to a point of respecting yourself enough to be able to communicate about it with others. Once you reach a point of self-honesty, you won't live in secret anymore because you'll stand very clear in who you are regardless of what anyone can potentially think of you.

So, if you want to develop relationship of worth with people, it is of utmost importance you become honest with yourself and stop judging your own self-honesty. The integrity with people you have relationship cannot be compromised by secrets and hidden information/expression because of fears that may only exists in your own mind.

The first step in assisting and supporting yourself to reach a point of self honesty as well as stopping participating with self-judgement is to apply this: when you think another is judging you, ask yourself: "Am I clear within this point or is it me that is judging myself through the eyes of the person who is in front of me?" This is to identify whether you are dealing with self-judgement or not.

The second step is to identify the source of your self-judgement and in the case you need additional support with that, you can always leave me a message or join the self-mastery free online course by clicking HERE. You can also visit a very cool free support forum

Is it possible to Cheat yourself? Day 185

This is a continuation to:

Copy Paste Character - the Way for Success? - Day 183

Copy Paste Character - The Education System - Day 184

 

 

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to Program myself deliberately as a consumer, always looking and seeking for the quick fix, the short cut in having things done, so that I could get MORE in LESS time within the common belief that MORE is what we should be seeking after, MORE is what we must become and through having MORE and MORE and MORE we will be successful and be seen as achievers by our environment and they would respect us and see us as superior not ever seeing, realizing and understanding that while rushing through within the journey to be and have MORE, we are missing the very BASIC more of what we could have be and become if we were to stop seeking for MORE and actually Participate with the Physical reality, Breath by Breath, in HEREness of and as Equality and Oneness and in that, Be in fact MORE than what we have become as a limited version of ourselves as our minds but rather, Live as Physical respectful of LIFE human beings.

 

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself, from an inferior starting point, to look for the short cut and the quick fix because I believed I cannot walk to my full potential unless I achieve something that is visible that could be respected by others whom would validate me for my achievement and thus, I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself through looking for the validation and appreciations of others, to use the short cuts and in doing so, diminish myself so completely as I've not accepted and allowed myself to walk my life, breath by breath within the inner self realization that there is only so much one can do in each and every breath and one should focus on making the best out of each and every breath instead of brushing off what one does within the starting point of pleasing others so that they could validate self as self beliefs that one cannot validate oneself unless someone else validate self.

 

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to disrespect myself within accepting and allowing myself to direct myself within and as the starting point of brushing stuff off, looking for short cuts, seeking for the quick fix and I haven't accepted and allowed myself to realize that within accepting this starting point through having a projected idea of who and what I should be and in that - being a specific person according to my eye's views as soon as possible, I've NOT accepted and allowed myself to Stand HERE, BREATHE and directly see ME, in absolute Self Awareness, and accordingly make aware decisions that are based on a principle of what is best for all and in that, walking my decisions, breath by breath as to my utmost potential as who I am within what I do.

 

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to miss a breath when looking for the quick fix and the short cut to achieve my desires that I've created within and as my mind and in missing a breath, I have accepted and allowed myself to project the idea of what I require to do for me to be validated, appreciated by others so that I could be worthy in my eye's view once I'm worthy according to others eye's view.

 

I forgive myself that I've NOT accepted and allowed myself to see the consequences of the accumulation effect of taking more and more upon myself within the starting point of being MORE to other people so that they could respect, validate and appreciate me and then, when it comes to the point of having more things to do then what is possible to do within the space time breath by breath application, I looked for the short cuts to have my assignments done, not seeing, realizing and understanding that within that cycle that I've created for myself, I've compromised and sabotaged myself and others as not walking my assignment according to the utmost potential it can be done when walking each and every step in breath by breath.

 

 

Lost in the Future - Day 48

For clarity - Here is the drawing of the pattern that I will be discussing here -


The diamonds points represents points that I haven' aligned myself yet/haven't sorted out yet. The future projection is based on fears, on knowledge and information that I hold on, in separation of myself and that which is here. And thus, instead of walking breath by breath in alignment to all that is here, I go into my mind in the attempt to control the future to avoid the fears through a projection and within that, miss all the points that required being sorted out and directed which then thus, I manifest a time loop meaning - my future plans won't work out as I expected them to be and than, my decisions will be based on a reaction of fear and the cycle continue to the beginning where I'll plan new future out of fear and miss again the points that require my attention.



I forgive myself that I've NOT accepted and allowed myself to see the design that I've participated with throughout my life within and as the existence of a future projection and thus, I've accepted and allowed myself to avoid the points that require direction through projecting myself to the future which within that, could ignore and disregards the points that I require to align and sort out.

I forgive myself that I've NOT accepted and allowed myself to see how I instead of sorting out point by point, I went into my mind, within and as a future projection and when the future didn't played out as I expected it to be, I freaked out, and immediately went and build a new future plans and I haven't considered to stop for a moment, look at the practicality of the points and made an informative decisions that is based on what is HERE.

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to exits within and as future projection out of self interest desires and when the points didn't played out exactly as I've planed it, I reacted in fear and tried to figure out how to walk the point but I haven't considering that figuring out how to walk the point in my mind within a reaction of fear will not be the utmost beneficial solution and I rather stop the reactions, breathe and look at practicality and walk the decision thereof in absolute self trust, clarity and stability, breath by breath.

I forgive myself that I've NOT accepted and allowed myself to see that I'm existing in the Future within a future projections plans that I've made from the starting point of self interest desires which were based upon my past as the knowledge and information that I hold and I haven't allowed myself to see and realized that the most important point was missed all along - being HERE, walking breath by breath according to that which is best for all.

I forgive myself that I've NOT accepted and allowed myself to see that my future projections plans that I've made in my mind were based on FEAR according to the knowledge and information that I hold inside myself that I've carried from my past and thus, when things didn't played out according to what I planned I react in fear because I didn't carry the knowledge and information that I believed I require for making an informative decisions however, what I've missed was the common sense HEREness that is not defined according to one's past or future and thus, when one is walking breath by breath by breath, one is able to face and direct what ever a point is playing out in absolute stability and clarity.

I forgive myself that I've not accepted and allowed myself to see the relationship between future projection and the manifested reality that reflected back to me within unexpected changes from that which I've planned, and instead of stopping the reactions to the unexpected changes and direct myself effectively breath by breath, I went back into my mind, creating alternative solutions and I have failed to see that by allowing myself to react in fear and run back to my mind, I've manifested unnecessary time loop because it is inevitable that I will face myself whether I like it or not.

I forgive myself that I've NOT accepted and allowed myself and gave myself the permission to walk breath by breath and instead, I've directed myself according to a future that I've planned out for myself, in my mind, a future that is based on fears due to not taking on the points/patterns that I've participated throughout my life and stop the points/patterns one by one, and so, walk my life in absolute awareness of myself, my mind and all that is here in equality and oneness.

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to have failed to see the creation of the illusion reality that I'm creating in my mind in the attempt to miss and avoid points that requires my attention, consideration and practical correction.

I commit myself to stop creating unnecessary time loop for myself through participating in a future projection that is not based on the equality equation of this physical reality but is based on fears and reactions.

I commit myself to a process of stopping patterns one by one, breath by breath and to not allow myself to create an illusionary reality that can only exists in my mind.

I commit myself to stop reacting in fear when the illusion reality that I've created in my mind didn't meet with the physical reality and utilize the moment to see how and why I've manifested the physical reality that played out and furthermore, investigate what does it reflect back to myself from the perspective of looking and investigating what have I missed while I was preoccupied in my mind, in the illusionary reality.

I commit myself to stop being influenced by fears and instead of reacting and making decisions that are based on fear, I give myself the permission to stop, breathe and look at the practicality of the points and accordingly correct and direct myself, breath by breath.

I commit myself to hereness, to myself, to a breath by breath process of stopping the patterns that I've created in ignorance.

I commit myself to make informative decisions that based on the equality equation of 1+1=2 and to stop making reactive decisions that has no foundation/ground within the physical reality.

I commit myself to explain in details how and why we have been consistently living in our mind and how within that, we have missed ourselves and this physical reality as well as presenting a practical solutions to assist and support oneself in one's process of stopping pattern by pattern, breath by breath and within that becoming a physical living expression of LIFE.

Illusion Reality vs. the Physical Reality - Day 3

Day 3

I forgive myself that I’ve NOT seen how I’m building up energy within me through projecting myself into the future in my mind, in expectation to get something or someone, and thus, when the moment that I’ve been waiting for comes and the physical reality doesn’t meet with my mind reality, the energy drops and I access depression.

I forgive myself that I’ve accepted and allowed myself to take for granted that I sometimes experience depression and low energy because I’m only human and in that, I’ve abdicated the responsibility to investigate and introspect how and why I’ve accepted and allowed myself to exists within and as an energetic polarity design of low/high energy.

I forgive myself that I’ve accepted and allowed myself to live in my mind through a future projection alternate reality that I’ve created for myself where I could experience myself happy and fulfil if the physical reality will meet with my alternate reality and in doing so, I’ve missed and blind myself to see and face what is ‘Here’ through supressing that which I’ve become while making sure that I will always be occupied in my mind.

I forgive myself that I’ve accepted and allowed self judgement when my alternate reality in my mind didn’t meet the physical reality and instead of facing myself, I’ve suppressed and moved on to the next alternate creation in my mind. in doing so, I’ve abdicated the responsibility of physically and practically exists Here, in my human physical body and direct myself effectively in order to get myself out of the mind, into my self.

I forgive myself that I’ve accepted and allowed myself to separate myself from myself by not even being attentive and aware that I’m accessing depression and thus, when I was asked what is up with me today, I’ve ignored it and made up excuses that even I believed myself so that I won’t have to see and face that which I’ve accepted and allowed myself to exists as and thus, continued creating alternate reality for myself when and as the previous alternate reality that I’ve created and build up for months didn’t meet the physical reality.

I commit myself to – When someone asked me what is up with me today because I’m not “myself”, to take a moment and investigate where I am and what I’ve accepted and allowed myself to participate with. When and as I see myself making quick excuses, I stop, I breathe, and I direct myself to sort out and face that which is here.

I forgive myself that I’ve accepted and allowed myself to separate myself from myself through creating alternate realities in my mind as a coping mechanism, to not face the actuality of myself that present itself in the physical reality and in that, I’ve NOT taken the responsibility to walk, face and correct myself in every moment of every breath.

I forgive myself that I’ve accepted and allowed myself to become emotional when and as my alternate reality that I’ve created in my mind as a future projection didn’t met the physical reality and in doing so, I’ve not seen and realized that what I’m actually participating with is energy polarity where as long as I project myself in my mind into the future, I’m experiencing high and positive energy and when the physical reality doesn’t meet the alternate reality, I’m accessing  low and negative energy.

I forgive myself that I’ve NOT accepted and allowed myself to see that the alternate reality/fantasy that I’m creating in my mind as future projection is an illusion and in no way physical and real and within that, I forgive myself that I haven’t accepted and allowed myself to live HERE and FACE myself here through running away to the fantasy/illusion domain in my mind as well as missing an opportunity to transcend a point, to breathe myself  through and direct myself and my world according to principle on oneness and equality.

I forgive myself that I’ve accepted and allowed myself to live in an illusion/fantasy domain in my mind, to suppress and hide the actuality of myself and in that, I’ve not allowed myself to get to know myself as who I am, and I haven’t allowed myself the opportunity to get myself back Here through facing me in every moment, direct, correct and change.

I forgive myself that I’ve accepted and allowed myself to separate myself from myself through the participation in the alternate/fantasy/illusion domain that I’ve created and lived in my mind.

I forgive myself that I’ve NOT accepted and allowed myself to realize that in essence relationships and sex are a distraction wherein, instead of focusing on myself and my alignment with myself, I’m existing in my mind, creating illusions/fantasies/alternate reality and completely miss that which is HERE as me and in doing so, not only I’m sabotaging and compromising myself, I’m also sabotaging and compromising this world because, until I won’t align myself to myself, and stand in stability in every moment of every breathe, I will not direct myself as this world into a world that is best for all since that which I’m allowing within, I’m allowing without.

I forgive myself that I’ve accepted and allowed myself to ALWAYS have something or someone to project myself towards through participating and creating a fantasy in my mind so that I won’t have to face myself and that which I’ve allowed myself to be and become and thus, I forgive myself that I’ve never seen that I’m participating in this pattern so that I won’t have to face myself in my immediate environment and actually/practically/physically correct and change myself.

I forgive myself that I’ve accepted and allowed myself to – When focusing and creating alternate/illusionary/fantasy reality, I’ve abdicated my responsibility towards all that is here as myself and this world.

I forgive myself that I’ve accepted and allowed myself to abdicated my responsibility to assist and support me to step out of my own mind, into the physical reality by focusing only on one point that is based on fear and self interest through living and existing in my mind, creating and developing alternate/illusionary/fantasy reality that keeps me occupied and busy in my mind and in that, I’m missing a breath, missing the physical world and compromising myself, my process and this world.

I commit myself to – When and as I see myself accessing my mind into a projected alternate/fantasy/illusion reality, I stop! I bring myself back here, to and as my human physical body and stabilize myself.

I commit myself to – When and as I see myself going into my mind and looking for the next man to focus on, I stop, I breathe and I direct myself to NOT follow the thoughts. I realize that I’ve done so thus far, to keep myself occupied in my mind so that I won’t have to face and correct myself and actually change who and what I have become.

I commit myself to stop the pattern of always having something or someone occupying me in my mind and become the directive principle of myself and my world.

I commit myself to focus on my alignment of myself so that in every moment of every breath, I will direct and move myself in stability, self trust and self respect, in the utmost effective way, according to principle of what is best for all.

I commit myself to myself – to NOT accept and allow myself to follow my mind into alternate/fantasy/illusion future projection that distract me from what is Here and thus, I commit myself to focus on stepping out of my own mind into the physical reality.