Damn, I will never have everything done - Day 213

 

This is a continuation to:

The Elite's delusion of stress - Part 1 - Day 45
The Elite's Delusion of Stress - Part 2 - Day 46	The REAL Fear - Day 192
The Decision of TIME - Day 67	The things we Won't tell ANYONE - Day 193
The Decision of TIME - Day 67	Missing out on the Good Life - Day 194
Copy Paste Character - The Education System - Day 184	Let's have some Fun - Day 195
Is it possible to Cheat yourself? Day 185	Stupidity Loop - Jumping from the Bad to the Good to the Bad - Day 196
It is time to STOP Existing as a Human Machine - Day 186	The Smoke Screen of Ignorance - Day 197
The End of Times - Day 187	Leaving in a Dream - Day 208
Facing the Evil within - the KEY to LIFE - Day 188	Having the Life Style you always dreamt to have - Day 209
Fear of Disappointing others - Day 189	IT is MY time Now - don't say a word - Day 210
The Psychology of TIME - Day 190	Let's go on Vacation - Day 211
Comparison is a Bitch - Day 212	Comparison is a Bitch - Day 212

 

For the purpose of context, suggest reading these posts above prior to reading the post below, if you haven’t already. Here I will be walking the 'I don't have TIME' Character - Internal Conversation/ back chat Dimension - Practical support with Self Forgiveness and Self Commitments.

 

Here, one must understand that the Back chat, are the source of all Evil wherein, what one accepting and allowing within oneself, within the belief that no one will ever find out, is nasty and evil shit. Therefor, I will be walking back chat by back chat, in making sure I purify myself from the Evil that I've accepted and allowed within myself, in the context of the ' I don't have Time' Character.

 

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Damn, I will never have everything done.

 

Obviously not, how can I have everything done when I'm so preoccupied in my mind? How is it that I have time to participate in thoughts and imaginations but I don't have a sufficient time to walk in practicality, everything that needs to be done? That is an interesting question that all must inquire within and as themselves.

 

Within this backchat, what needs to be considered, investigated and looked at is 'Priorities' and when I was looking within and as myself, the only thing that separate me from 'Having everything done' is my own Desire and the Value that I gave to my Desires and within that, trying to manipulate myself, to be able to justify, why I have decided to not have everything that needs to be done within giving in and following my self interest desires.

 

Also a point to look at is that - what separate me with having things done is the very statement that there is Me, and there are things that needs to be done, as if it is 2 separate entities and what was not yet considered, realized and understood is the Interdependent relationship that this world is consisting of and existing as which then thus, there is not Me, as how I have defined myself within my mind, and 'things that needs to be done' in separation - what is Real is me, as Who I am, within what I do, in walking breath by breath by breath and in every step, direct myself according to the principle of what is best for all however, as long as I am in my mind, scheming for short cuts, having back chats, separating myself from what I do as if it is an entity that I must now achieve.

 

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to believe that things needs to be done, in separation of me, not seeing, realizing and understanding that there is nothing in separation of me that needs to be done, it is simply being Here, in absolute awareness, Breathing and directing myself according to a principle, step by step.

 

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to NOT see and realize that the reason why I have created 2 separate entities - Me, and things that needs to be done, implies, that my starting point within the decision that I've made was not clear and absolute and therefor, I forgive myself that I've NOT accepted and allowed myself to see, realize and understand that when I experience overload, and stress to have things done, it is just an Experience that I've created within my mind and I have not realized that there is so much that can be done in every moment of breath and so, I must direct myself in every moment of breath to do what I do, as who I am, in ease, with no effort and as an expression of Who I am, as what I have decided to do in a specific and particular moment within self honesty, responsibility and realization that I'm here, and there is always things that needs to be done which I am able to walk to the best of my ability, capability in making the most out of it, as an expression of myself.

 

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to NOT investigate what triggered and activated the thought: "Damn, I will never have everything done" and within that, had accepted and allowed myself to continue the thought within a Negative Energy Experience as an expression of what I've accepted and allowed myself in that moment to become, in separation of myself. In this, I forgive myself that I've NOT accepted and allowed myself to see, realize and understand that the starting point of having such thought indicate, that what ever I'm doing, I haven't done for myself, as myself, within realizing my own self responsibility in walking breath by breath to the utmost of my potential.

 

I forgive myself that I've NOT accepted and allowed myself to realize that the very statement of: "Damn, I will never have everything done" is entirely not true because eventually, what ever I'm working on will be done as a decision that I've made to walk a specific point until it's done. And thus, I forgive myself that I've NOT accepted and allowed myself to consider that maybe, the time frame that I've calculated for a specific task wasn't in alignment to the physical space/time reality and therefor, I can learn from my mistake and make sure that next time, my time estimation would be correct and in alignment to the physical space/time reality.

 

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to desire being validated within what I do and therefor, when not having things done, my entire self definition would be compromise and threaten and in this, I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to priorities my self definition as a desire before the principle of that which is best for all because my starting point was to satisfied my desire to be validated through what I do and not walking as an expression of myself within what I do as a self realization that: This is who I am, this is why I am here, that needs to be done and therefor, I walk.

 

I commit myself to remind myself that there is so much that one can do in every single breath and therefor, thinking about 'not having things done' and feeling stress about that, won't make anything magically done but quite to the contrary, all I am accepting and allowing when and as I participate with such a thought is to waste my time in compromising myself and my effectiveness within what I do as Who  I am. Thus, when and as I see that practically, I won't be able to have things done within a time frame that I've set forth to myself, I take a breath, I assess and check how can I practically walk this point and simply walk it, with no effort, no stress, breath by breath.

 

I commit myself to SHOW that having such a thought as: "Damn, I will never have everything done", won't make things done but to the contrary - having any thought, will only prolong the process and would compromise and sabotage self and the relationship self has with oneself and others in this world.
 

I commit myself to consider all points when making a decision so that my decision would be informed and practical in application and within that, to be humble and patient with myself that whether the time that I've calculate for a specific task isn't in alignment to the physical space/time reality, I learn from my mistake and align myself accordingly and so - expand and grow myself instead of diminish, sabotage and compromise myself within having a thought such as: "Damn, I will never have everything done" that is in no way supportive or practical in anyway whatsoever.

Comparison is a Bitch - Day 212

This is a continuation to:

The Elite's delusion of stress - Part 1 - Day 45	I Regret, therefor, I'm a Good Person. NOT!!! - Day 191
The Elite's Delusion of Stress - Part 2 - Day 46	The REAL Fear - Day 192
The Decision of TIME - Day 67	The things we Won't tell ANYONE - Day 193
The Decision of TIME - Day 67	Missing out on the Good Life - Day 194
Copy Paste Character - The Education System - Day 184	Let's have some Fun - Day 195
Is it possible to Cheat yourself? Day 185	Stupidity Loop - Jumping from the Bad to the Good to the Bad - Day 196
It is time to STOP Existing as a Human Machine - Day 186	The Smoke Screen of Ignorance - Day 197
The End of Times - Day 187	Leaving in a Dream - Day 208
Facing the Evil within - the KEY to LIFE - Day 188	Having the Life Style you always dreamt to have - Day 209
Fear of Disappointing others - Day 189	IT is MY time Now - don't say a word - Day 210
The Psychology of TIME - Day 190	Let's go on Vacation - Day 211

 

For the purpose of context, suggest reading these posts above prior to reading the post below, if you haven’t already. Here I will be walking the 'I don't have TIME' Character - Internal Conversation/ back chat Dimension - Practical support with Self Forgiveness and Self Commitments.

 

Here, one must understand that the Back chat, are the source of all Evil wherein, what one accepting and allowing within oneself, within the belief that no one will ever find out, is nasty and evil shit. Therefor, I will be walking back chat by back chat, in making sure I purify myself from the Evil that I've accepted and allowed within myself, in the context of the ' I don't have Time' Character.

 

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"I also want to watch a movie now, lay back for the rest of the evening; Why can't they share the responsibility so I won't have to work so many hours a day? "

 

Haha, this is a common one and it is again reflect a part of the Righteous character that I've accepted and allowed to define myself as meaning - If I had to walk my responsibilities within seeing my responsibility as Who I am and not as what I do; and who I am as my self realization that what I do reflect the principle of that which is best for all within what I do than, I would not have accepted and allowed this back chat to Exists within and as me because I wouldn't compare what other are doing to what I'm doing since Who I am is not dependent on what others are doing or don't do.

 

Thus, this back chat raise the question of - Who I am? What are the Decisions that I am making as who I am? The back chat in itself imply that the decision of Who I am isn't yet clear as I still require external factor to determine the definition that I define myself as, which is not so cool.

 

Then obviously, if what I do is not clear within and as me, as who I am, what was my starting point within the decision that I've made or maybe it is simply irrelevant what was my starting point because I can decide now to re-establish my starting point.

 

So -

 

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed the back chat - "I also want to watch a movie now, lay back for the rest of the evening; Why can't they share the responsibility so I won't have to work so many hours a day? " to exists within and as me because accepting and allowing this back chat to come up from within me, imply that I've separated myself from who I am, as what I do, and therefor, I must now re-establish my starting point in seeing, realizing and understanding that whatever I decide to do as who I am, is a decision that I've made for myself as and myself and thus, what others are doing with their time doesn't influence who I am because I'm standing stable and clear within who I am and the decision that I make.

 

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to simply accept and allow the back chat : "I also want to watch a movie now, lay back for the rest of the evening; Why can't they share the responsibility so I won't have to work so many hours a day? " to come up from within me, and within that, not questioning the ridiculousness of blindly accept and allow thoughts/backchat that would determine my Modes as an energy experience that I would either define as positive and negative according to the Environment stipulates that activates memories within and as me, as part of a pre-program design that I've accepted and allowed to manifest within and as me. (To understand the Pre-Program Design, please read: The Correction Process and The Desteni Message (Part 3) - Day 200)

 

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to be influence by what I see in my environment and accordingly to either access a Positive or Negative Experiences through making a judgement, in comparison to the Ideal that I've insert within and as my mind.

 

I forgive myself that I've NOT accepted and allowed myself to realize that when I make a decision, as myself and for myself, what others are doing is irrelevant and cannot influence my stance within and as me. Thus, I now see, realize and understand that if I'm accepting and allowing myself to be influenced by others, the Decision that I made wasn't absolute clear within and as me, as a decision of Who I am, in every moment of breath because if it was, I would simply apply myself according to the decisions that I made regardless the external stipulates that I see in my environment.

 

I commit myself to re-establish a starting point that is clear and absolute within and as myself and within that, to re-evaluate all the decisions that I have ever made in my life, that still control my current living conditions as I see, realize and understand that every decision that I made that I still have back chat coming up from within me, isn't clear within and as myself and must thus, correct and change so that who I am, is not defined and influenced by anything or any one and that all the decisions that I made and will be making in the future will be in absolute self honesty, clear, so absolutely which from there, all I have to do is to simply walk the practical application of the decision, breath by breath.

 

I commit myself to - when and as I make a decision, to check and cross reference within myself, that I'm clear, that I see all points and all the relationships that involve in making a decision and in that, making sure that the decision is made according to that which is best for all and accordingly, if or when a backchat comes up, to immediately stop, breathe and investigate in self honesty, what layer/dimension this backchat reveal and expose that I have not yet seen and sorted out and obviously, take the necessarily steps to sort myself out.

 

I commit myself to remind myself to be humble and patient with myself and with others and within that, remind myself that each one of us is walking their own individual processes; that we all make and will be making mistakes because that is how one learns and thus, I commit myself to not accept and allow myself to judge anyone's process including my own through comparison to an ideal that I've created within and as my mind because I now see, realize and understand that when I accept and allow myself to judge through comparison, I'm not standing in my utmost potential as a pillar of support for myself and others but rather, compromising myself and others within our existential processes.

I Regret, therefor, I'm a Good Person. NOT!!! - Day 191

This is a continuation to:

The Elite's delusion of stress - Part 1 - Day 45

The Elite's Delusion of Stress - Part 2 - Day 46

The Decision of TIME - Day 67

And:

Copy Paste Character - the Way for Success? - Day 183

Copy Paste Character - The Education System - Day 184

Is it possible to Cheat yourself? Day 185

It is time to STOP Existing as a Human Machine - Day 186

The End of Times - Day 187

Facing the Evil within - the KEY to LIFE - Day 188

Fear of Disappointing others - Day 189

The Psychology of TIME - Day 190

 

For the purpose of context, suggest reading these posts above prior to reading the post below, if you haven’t already. Here I will be walking the 'I don't have TIME' Character - Fear Dimension - Practical support with Self Forgiveness and Self Commitments.

 

The List below consists of the Fears which are the foundation of the 'I don't have Time' Character.

 

 

 

 

 

 

Fear Dimension:

* Fear that I'll disappoint other people if I won't take more tasks on myself

* Fear that I would be defined as unworthy because I'm not using my time to

it's utmost potential.

* Fear that I won't get things done and would regret it when consequences

would emerged so basically, fear of the consequences.

* Fear that I would be seen as not good enough, replaceable, inadequate

* Fear of being exposed as self dishonest because I know, that if I put my self

interest desires aside, I'm able to walk my tasks in absolute perfection.

* Fear of Missing out the Positive as Entertainment

 

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* Fear that I won't get things done and would regret it when consequences

would emerged so basically, fear of the consequences.

 

Within this fear - it is not the consequences per se that I fear, it is how other would perceive me, how they would judge me when the work isn't done in time. Thus, it is to see here, how the mind work and how I've manipulated myself to believe that I cared about the consequences when I'm not having a work done wherein the fact of the matter is, all I cared about was how others would perceive/see me if/when the work is not done by it's due date.

 

Within this obviously - how I've abdicated my responsibility in walking for and as myself, within and as the principle of that which is best for all in everything that I do, as who I am wherein, if I would have walked a point for myself, from the starting point of seeing directly how and why this point will benefit everyone, I would care about the outcome and within that, see how I can perfect, align and correct the point so that the outcome will be the best of my REAL abilities without giving value to how others would perceive me, in walking in absolute self trust, breath by breath.

 

Thus, the blog today wouldn't be directly regarding to the Fear dimension as the point of how others perceive me in relation to my work was dealt with on Fear of Disappointing others - Day 189 blog post. Within this blog than, I would walk the point of self manipulation and abdication of Self Responsibility when walking a point/work/task from a starting point of being appreciated rather than walking from and as SELF starting point where self see, understand and realize why self is doing what self does from and as the principle of that which is best for all.

 

This is part of the Consequences Dimension actually but since the point is already here, I might as well walk it. :-)

 

Self Forgiveness:

 

I forgive myself that I've NOT accepted and allowed myself to see that Regret is always based on deception/self dishonesty because Regret indicate that I knew what needed to be done and yet, I've accepted and allowed my self interest desire to take complete control and become my directive principle. I see, realize and understand that whenever I look back in Regret, I'm manipulating myself into thinking that I am a good for even experiencing regret instead of looking back from the starting point of seeing what I've accepted and allowed myself to stand as, be and become and how I'm practically going to align/change and correct myself within the principle of that which is best for all within the self realization that what was done was done and I cannot change the past but I can stop manifesting the same consequences that I've previously accepted and allowed myself to deliberately create.

 

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to manipulate myself in thinking and believing that I'm effective within what I do because my task/work is always done and I haven't considered that the task/work that is done, was done in absolute separation as my starting point wasn't having the work/task done in absolute perfection to the best of my abilities within and as Who I am as the directive principle, breath by breath but rather, having other people pleased with the work/task being done while trusting me that I've done it to the best of my ability while inside me, I know when I haven't. Within that, I forgive myself that I've NOT accepted and allowed myself to stand in absolute self honesty and walking a task/work to my utmost potential and within that, cross referencing myself, check and test if the outcome is in alignment to that which is best for all and accordingly, when and as require, align, correct, adjust and in that, being satisfied with myself and as myself, that I've walked the point/task/work in its totality wherein WHO I am is a direct reflection of what I've done.

 

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to NOT consider the consequences when and as I'm walking a point/task/work within the starting point of pleasing others and worrying about what they would think about me wherein, the outcome would not be as effective as when I would have walked a point/task/work when the starting point is Clear within and as myself, where I see directly what needs to be done within the principle of what is best for all and walk it, breath by breath till I'm satisfied from the application as who I am.

 

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to manipulate myself within the belief that I would regret not having a task/work done and within that, made myself feeling better as a person for actually caring about the work being done while all along, what was my self interest was to be validated/worthy/value myself through the eyes of others.

 

Self Commitments:

I commit myself to STOP manipulating myself within stating that I could have done something better, I could have made other decisions within the experience of Regret because I now see, realize and understand that in self honesty, I must name the game I was playing with myself instead of trying to make it look better within myself by creating the experience of Regret. In this, I commit myself to - when and as an experience of Regret comes up, to immediately STOP, Breath and see the specificity of what I've accepted and allowed myself to participate with thus far and from there - assess, investigate, test and check, how to align myself within and as the principle of that which is best for all and through that, stop manifesting deliberate consequences and stand within and as self honesty as who I am, in every single breath.

 

I commit myself to assist and support myself in aligning my starting point within everything that I do through self introspection and in that, to perfect, empower and grow myself as who I am in what I do so that, in every breath, I walk to my best of my abilities, in self honesty, for and as Myself as I see, for myself, what needs to be done, how it needs to be done, what are the steps I must walk to perfect myself and accordingly, apply my realizations in a practical, constructive way to my utmost potential.

Art Work – Andrew Gable

It is NOT fair - Day 37

Art by Andrew Gable

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to react in frustration within the thought: "It is not fair; why I have to work more than others because the others aren't standing in absolute self responsibility" and within that, I forgive myself that I've refused to see that making that statement indicate that I'm NOT walking my responsibilities as Who I am within and as breath, but rather still defining myself according to What I do as that very thought shows that I'm comparing my doing to others to elevate myself as self righteous as well as clearly reveal that what I do is not been done breath by breath.

I forgive myself that I've NOT accepted and allowed myself to realize that containing negative energetic charge within the thought: "it is not fair" is the type of thoughts that many will have within the Equal Money System but because I've accepted the thought to elevate myself as righteous, I've failed to take the responsibility to clear myself and then stand as an example for others within sharing how I've supported myself to see and realize that the very acceptance of thought like: "it is not fair", is of no form of support to myself nor others as well as how I've realized that it is not about me nor them - it is about what is required to be done and simply walk it breath by breath within the principle of what is best for all.

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to be frustrated when I have more responsibilities than others but what I have failed to realize is that comparison is USELESS and that WHO I am isn't define by what I do or what others are doing and if there is any slight of reactions towards others not walking their responsibly in absolute within me, it actually means that I have not yet walked my responsibilities in absolute stability breath by breath by breath without allowing the mind to influence who I am within the attempt to make myself righteous and more than others to feed the Ego.

I forgive myself that I've NOT accepted and allowed myself to realize that as long as I have reactions towards others whom I perceive to be doing less than me, I'm not effectively supporting them within standing as an example because I've given value to what me and others are doing instead of Who I AM and Who the other are in fact as a living physical expression.

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed reactions within the thought: "it is not fair" to elevate my ego as I'm being Good while others are not and within that, I have failed to see that instead of focusing on changing Who I am as a living expression of Life, I gave permission to my mind telling me that I must compare myself to others to feel alive and through the comparison judging me either as good or bad.

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to expect that everyone will walk in absolute self responsibility while I haven't yet made the decision to walk in absolute self responsibility and I forgive myself that I've refused to turn the point back to myself and sort myself out and make the absolute decision of walking breath by breath in self responsibility.

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to exists within a negative/bad energetic charge towards those whom I perceive to be irresponsible and I have failed to see that I've only reacted to them because I've placed value in my own self interest because obviously, there are many irresponsible beings in this world whom I have not experienced  negative energetic charge towards but because it doesn't effect me, I don't care; which perpetuate the extent of separation from all that is here within not caring for anything or anyone if it doesn't have a direct relationship to my self interest and within that, I forgive myself that I've NOT accepted and allowed myself to stand in absolute Equality and Oneness breath by breath because I've allowed myself to become separated from all that is Here where WHO I am is directed according to self interest personality.

I forgive myself that I've NOT accepted and allowed myself to question Who I am within my responsibilities to make sure that my starting point within what I do is a direct reflection of Who I AM as the principle of what is best for all and thus, I forgive myself that I've NOT accepted and allowed myself to see that my reactions within the thought: "it is not fair" indicate that who I am is still defined by what I do and thus, unless I clear the starting point and making the absolute decision of who I am breath by breath, what I do is useless as it was not a self move, self direction but rather separated entity that moved and directed me to fulfil my self interest desires through the acknowledge of what I do by others.

I commit myself to a breath by breath decision of Who I Am as a living expression of what is best for all.

I commit myself to stand in absolute self responsibility as breath by breath within the decision of who I am as the principle of what is best for all and I commit myself to stop all reaction towards other beings because I realize that reaction is a direct reflection of what I'm allowing myself to participate with, within myself and within my world and with allowing that, I miss a breath and a moment of a living self expression HERE.

I commit myself to stop all back chat with regards to other people's responsibilities as I realize that focusing on others responsibilities within my secret mind/back chat indicate that there is a part of me that I've separated myself from through comparison to elevate myself within the self interest design to make myself righteous/more than, to perpetuate the acknowledgement of me as what I do by others.

I commit myself to share my process of stopping the comparison of myself and my responsibilities to others and How I've transformed/changed myself to become WHO I AM within a breath by breath decision to walk according to principle of what is best for all because I realize that many will experience the same thought pattern when Equal Money System will be established and thus, I direct and move myself to stand as an example and support when the times arrives.

Help!! - They are influencing me - Day 32

Art by Scott Cook

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to be influenced by the words of others when and as I experience myself as inferior and thus, I believe and perceive that they know better and I should submit to their suggestion/obligation/authority  without considering the point for myself within common sense and accordingly, make a decision within self trust and walk the decision as a physical living application.

I forgive myself that I've been accepting and allowing myself to follow other beings words without considering the words for myself and WHO I am within the words as well as not investigating the words as a living expression and thus walking like a automated robot as words that I haven't integrated as myself in alignment in separation of me.

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to take the words of those who I define as more than me and follow blindly what I've been told because I haven't respected and trusted myself enough to walk and direct myself according to WHO I Am as the living expression of the words within alignment to as and me.

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to obey to the beings whom I defined as more than me and within that, allowed myself to be inferior to my self and haven't allowed myself to become the authority of myself as my mind within the practical living application as the directive principle of myself and my world.

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to follow other beings that I define as more than/authority because I haven't allowed myself to see the points for myself as well as giving me the permission to see the points for myself and thus, compromised and limited Who I Am by blindly follow what I've been told instead of taking responsibility and within self honesty, investigate and explore point by point by point for myself and thus, only walk that which is best for all in every moment of every breath.

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to be influenced by other beings and thus, already assumed that I know what their reaction would be and accordingly, design and direct myself according to how other people would like me to be instead of trusting me as WHO I am and direct and move myself without fearing what other beings say or do to me and within that, I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to shape and mould myself according to how other expect me to be through projections and assumptions and I haven't realized that I'm not directly influenced by other people because I'm living it in my own mind without considering the practical common sense, who I am within it and what I will or will not accept in my world and my reality and basing my decision to principles of that which is best for all. 

Art by Scoot Cook

Within that, I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to abdicate my responsibility of directing and moving myself according to that which is best for all because I've allowed myself to be influenced by other beings opinions/belief to such an extent that the scene was playing in my mind even before I did the act and I've thus, not directed myself as an expression of life but rather according to society norms as my directive principles despite of the evidence that the society norms are not the principle for the establishment of a world that is best for all because if it was, we were already living and experiencing a world that is best for all life.

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to be influenced by others opinions/beliefs and thus, compromised and sabotaged my physical living expression by following whom I should be according to the society norms instead of expressing myself as Who I am that is the same yesterday, today and tomorrow through the realization that who I am isn't defined by what I do or How I do and whom I do it with but rather, who I am is the reflection of what I allow, how I allow myself to be and thus - the question is - What, how and WHO will I allow myself to be? Life or Mind? I decide Life.

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to take the knowledge and information that is shared with me as the truth without questioning and investigate the information for myself and I forgive myself that I've NOT accepted and allowed myself to question the information and knowledge that was shared with me by those whom I perceive and define as more than me because I do not trust or respect myself enough to even question them and the information that was presented.

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed and gave permission to myself to be influenced by the manipulation of others whom I feel connected to and accordingly calculate my moves, assessing my expression and reacted and thus, shape and mould myself within the starting point of pleasing and avoid reaction and in that, sabotage, compromise and limiting myself and this world as that which I allow within, I allow without.

I forgive myself that I've NOT accepted and allowed myself to see how I'm allowing myself to be influenced by the advertisement on the various kinds of Media and thus, created myself as automated consumer machine within the belief that if I consume, I'll be happy or satisfied as the advertisement instructed and I have never question that point of how is that I accept and allow myself to be moved by something that is separated from me without me being the directive principle that moves myself in every breath.

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to be influenced and brainwashed by and through those who have come before me, within the belief that they know better as they are the authority that direct and move me and within that, abdicated the responsibility of having authority over myself as the directive principle of myself and this world and I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to be influenced by those who have come before me within the starting point of they must know better despite of the evidence that if they would have known better, they would have assisted and supported me within becoming the directive principle of myself and this world within the principle of what is best for all lives instead of assisting and supporting me to become a self interest person that do not consider everyone and everything and thus, allowed a world of abuse and suffering while I lived a world of abundance.

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed the fears of those who have come before me to influenced me and the decisions that I'm making and walking instead of standing within self trust and directing myself according to that which is best for all because I realize that as I can trust my breath, I can trust myself because I always have the breath to assist and support me with applying my decision of stepping out of my mind, direct and move myself according to that which is best for all as a physical living application.

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed blame those whom I perceived to influence me without taking the point back to myself within self responsibility and see how and why I've accepted and allowed myself to be influenced and thus control and enslaved to my own mind. 

Art by Scoot Cook

I commit myself to breath as the trust exists in breath and I commit myself to utilize the breath as my directive principle.

I commit myself to stop blindly follow the words of others and instead, take word by word and redefine it for myself so that I could walk the living expression of the words.

I commit myself to stop the existence of me as inferior and trust my breath to breath application because I realize that authority is my own to become as the authority of myself and I commit myself to NOT accept and allow myself to bounce from one side of the polarity to the other and align myself to myself as a physical living expression.

I commit myself to SEE ME in every moment and to question my existence in self honesty and to not accept and allow myself to blindly follow those who have come before me as I see and realize that there is no living example to follow but the example of myself as the role model that I am for myself alone.

I commit myself to investigate and explore each and every single point that is shared with me so that I won't accept and allow myself to ever again walk as a sheep after others.

I commit myself to make informed decisions after I've questioned and challenged myself in all ways possible so that I can trust WHO I am as a physical living expression in every moment of breath.

I commit myself to stand as an example for the children to come as a living physical expression that stand for what is best for all and do not accept and allow any shit from myself and others.