It is NOT fair - Day 37

Art by Andrew Gable

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to react in frustration within the thought: "It is not fair; why I have to work more than others because the others aren't standing in absolute self responsibility" and within that, I forgive myself that I've refused to see that making that statement indicate that I'm NOT walking my responsibilities as Who I am within and as breath, but rather still defining myself according to What I do as that very thought shows that I'm comparing my doing to others to elevate myself as self righteous as well as clearly reveal that what I do is not been done breath by breath.

I forgive myself that I've NOT accepted and allowed myself to realize that containing negative energetic charge within the thought: "it is not fair" is the type of thoughts that many will have within the Equal Money System but because I've accepted the thought to elevate myself as righteous, I've failed to take the responsibility to clear myself and then stand as an example for others within sharing how I've supported myself to see and realize that the very acceptance of thought like: "it is not fair", is of no form of support to myself nor others as well as how I've realized that it is not about me nor them - it is about what is required to be done and simply walk it breath by breath within the principle of what is best for all.

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to be frustrated when I have more responsibilities than others but what I have failed to realize is that comparison is USELESS and that WHO I am isn't define by what I do or what others are doing and if there is any slight of reactions towards others not walking their responsibly in absolute within me, it actually means that I have not yet walked my responsibilities in absolute stability breath by breath by breath without allowing the mind to influence who I am within the attempt to make myself righteous and more than others to feed the Ego.

I forgive myself that I've NOT accepted and allowed myself to realize that as long as I have reactions towards others whom I perceive to be doing less than me, I'm not effectively supporting them within standing as an example because I've given value to what me and others are doing instead of Who I AM and Who the other are in fact as a living physical expression.

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed reactions within the thought: "it is not fair" to elevate my ego as I'm being Good while others are not and within that, I have failed to see that instead of focusing on changing Who I am as a living expression of Life, I gave permission to my mind telling me that I must compare myself to others to feel alive and through the comparison judging me either as good or bad.

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to expect that everyone will walk in absolute self responsibility while I haven't yet made the decision to walk in absolute self responsibility and I forgive myself that I've refused to turn the point back to myself and sort myself out and make the absolute decision of walking breath by breath in self responsibility.

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to exists within a negative/bad energetic charge towards those whom I perceive to be irresponsible and I have failed to see that I've only reacted to them because I've placed value in my own self interest because obviously, there are many irresponsible beings in this world whom I have not experienced  negative energetic charge towards but because it doesn't effect me, I don't care; which perpetuate the extent of separation from all that is here within not caring for anything or anyone if it doesn't have a direct relationship to my self interest and within that, I forgive myself that I've NOT accepted and allowed myself to stand in absolute Equality and Oneness breath by breath because I've allowed myself to become separated from all that is Here where WHO I am is directed according to self interest personality.

I forgive myself that I've NOT accepted and allowed myself to question Who I am within my responsibilities to make sure that my starting point within what I do is a direct reflection of Who I AM as the principle of what is best for all and thus, I forgive myself that I've NOT accepted and allowed myself to see that my reactions within the thought: "it is not fair" indicate that who I am is still defined by what I do and thus, unless I clear the starting point and making the absolute decision of who I am breath by breath, what I do is useless as it was not a self move, self direction but rather separated entity that moved and directed me to fulfil my self interest desires through the acknowledge of what I do by others.

I commit myself to a breath by breath decision of Who I Am as a living expression of what is best for all.

I commit myself to stand in absolute self responsibility as breath by breath within the decision of who I am as the principle of what is best for all and I commit myself to stop all reaction towards other beings because I realize that reaction is a direct reflection of what I'm allowing myself to participate with, within myself and within my world and with allowing that, I miss a breath and a moment of a living self expression HERE.

I commit myself to stop all back chat with regards to other people's responsibilities as I realize that focusing on others responsibilities within my secret mind/back chat indicate that there is a part of me that I've separated myself from through comparison to elevate myself within the self interest design to make myself righteous/more than, to perpetuate the acknowledgement of me as what I do by others.

I commit myself to share my process of stopping the comparison of myself and my responsibilities to others and How I've transformed/changed myself to become WHO I AM within a breath by breath decision to walk according to principle of what is best for all because I realize that many will experience the same thought pattern when Equal Money System will be established and thus, I direct and move myself to stand as an example and support when the times arrives.

Curiosity of Knowledge and Information - Day 27

Art by Scott Cook

I forgive myself that I’ve accepted and allowed to design myself in the nature of limited form of curiosity wherein, I’m curious about the insignificant knowledge and information and disregarding the practical physical application of and as a living being that moves and direct according to that which is best for all life.

I forgive myself that I’ve NOT accepted and allowed myself to see the self dishonesty within the nature of curiosity wherein I seek for self empowerment through knowledge and information so that I won’t have to focus on the practical living application from the starting point of taking self responsibility to change myself, and could define myself as an intellectual and smart being to validate myself as EGO.

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to have failed to see that curiosity is a tool that I'm using to preoccupied myself.

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself as a spiritual being to preoccupied myself with curiosity of who and what I was in my past lives despite of the irrelevancy of the knowledge and information as it is clearly hasn’t assisted and supported me with realizing Who I am as a living physical being but rather kept me further away/separated from myself and life as a whole.

I forgive myself that I've NOT accepted and allowed myself to take into consideration the nature of curiosity design where I'm being busy and preoccupied in my mind, wondering and pondering about who and what I was in my past lives and within that, abdicated the responsibility to face WHO I HAVE PROGRAMMED myself to be in this life time and accordingly change myself from the starting point of Who I am as a physical living being that walk, move and direct myself and this world as that which is best for all.

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to be curious about who and what I was in my past lives instead of focusing on what is HERE and what is require to give direction to manifest myself and this world within the nature of what is best for all.

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to program and design myself within curiosity about other people lives because I haven't realized the relationship between curiosity and gossiping wherein curiosity is the trigger point of the  desire to gossip about other people either with other beings or within one's own mind.

(For better context with regards to Gossiping, please read Facing Gossip - Day 7)

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to seek for information and knowledge that will satisfied my curiosity and I haven't even consider my starting point within the desire to "know" and thus, I'm not taking responsibility for the information that I'm gathering from the perspective of zero self practical application and by doing so, I'm preoccupying myself within my mind and allowing myself to miss a breath and thus not living as a physical expression but as a mind expression which do not support a LIFE that is best for all but only the Life of myself as a self interest individual.

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to give value to curiosity within the definition and belief that a curios being is pushing oneself to be better, to be intellectual, to be smart but within that I've not realized that those components are a mind component that are based on the validation of self through external and separated forces and within that, I forgive myself that I've NOT accepted and allowed myself to realize that intellectual/smart/wise is useless unless it comes with a physical practical application that is best for all life.

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to develop curiosity towards irrelevant and insignificant points in my life to preoccupied myself in that which do not support LIFE because if I would have done so, I would have to take the responsibility to change and focus only on that which support all life.

I forgive myself that I've NOT accepted and allowed myself to realize that the starting point of fulfilling one's curiosity is because self experience oneself as limited and inferior.

Art by Scott Cool

I forgive myself that I've NOT accepted and allowed myself to realize that we live in a world where the information and knowledge is not accessible for everyone and thus, those who hold on the information are taking the rule of powerful and superior and the rest takes the rule of powerless and  inferiors and within that, I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed a world where information=power even though, the information is in no way a support of life that is best for all but rather the opposite

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to have failed to see how information is being a tool to manipulate and control within the power game of authority vs. submission  to authority.

I commit myself to focus only on that which can be practically applied as a physical living expression that is best for all.

I commit myself to expose all aspect of curiosity designs such as curiosity of sexual expression within children whom are not being assistance and support to understand and realize sexual physical expression and thus left alone within their mind and within that abuse themselves and others. As well as, I commit myself to expose the abusive nature of curiosity in relation to following one's thoughts in the illusionary/fantasy domain in the mind and the consequences there of.

I commit myself to stop participating in the power game of superiority/inferiority in relation to information and knowledge within the realization that I'm not defined by information/knowledge.