The Caring Character–Day 83

This is a continuation to my previous blog:

My Life as a character - Overview - Day 79

The Family Charade in Character - Day 80

The Rebellion Daughter Mother Character - Day 81

The Submissive Daughter and the Controlling Mother Character - Day 82

For Context, also read: Day 79: Stepping out of Character with LOVED ONES - Creation's Journey to Life, Bernard Poolman.

Part 4: The Mother/Daughter Character - Looking at specific Characters:

The Caring Daughter and the relationship with the Mother

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself as Care Character to create myself as a caring Daughter because I've learnt that when I present me as a caring person, I get rewards in the form of presents, attention, hug etc. and I haven't realize that me as a care character, isn't caring from the starting point of equal and one self responsibility but rather, to satisfied my self interest desire for an experience as a reward.

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself as a caring daughter character to have failed to see that who I am as an unconditional self expression of 'Care' wasn't practically applied as my starting point wasn't Equal and One what's best for all but rather, a self interest desire for an experience due to a past memory where I was rewarded for my caring action.

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to create and manifest myself as the caring daughter character due to FEAR of an idea I have about consequences wherein, if I won't take care of my parents, my children won't take care of me and so, my starting point in being the caring daughter character wasn't a self expression of who I am but rather another character to hide and suppress the fear character and so, I trapped myself in character, creating more character to suppress myself as character and in that, making sure that I will never step out of character and live in a complete suppression of who I am as Life that is best for all.

I forgive myself that I've NOT accepted and allowed myself to consider that the reason for the fear of not being taken care of when we get old and thus, require our children to take care of us, is due to a self interest world system that we've created ourselves wherein, if we don't have money nor children, we won't be taken care by the system and thus, we have created characters as the caring children to ensure our survival in this world without realizing that we've ignored the real creation that we require to create - a world system that is best for all so that caring as a living expression of the word would be unconditional, as a self responsibility for all that are here, equal and one, regardless their culture, religion, skin colour, status etc.

I forgive myself that I've NOT accepted and allowed to see my starting point in my creation of me as the caring daughter or mother wherein within that care, I've been trying to control the relationship that I've created to keep me in character.

I forgive myself that I've NOT accepted and allowed myself to see that I've created me as the caring daughter/mother due to my fear of lose and I haven't realize that the fear of lose is just another character that I've created to not see that I'm in character and within that, not see me as LIFE that is eternal as who I am and within that blindness and ignorance, I believed that when my loved one dies, there is a part of me that I would lose and thus, I have to make sure that this part of me will never dies as I take care if that part and within that, I have failed to see, realize and understand equality and oneness as life that is eternal because I've separated myself from myself as life through defining death as the end without realizing that EVERYTHING has always been here, will always remain here as I'm here.

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself as fear of survival character, to design and manifest the Caring daughter character to ensure one's future financial stability as the desire for more money character, where the desire for money character would desire to receive a bigger portion of the heritage when one's parents would die due to one's caring character throughout the parents' life.

I commit myself to show that the Care character that we dress ourselves within and as, is not the living expression and practical application of the word 'Care' as it is done within the starting point of self interest desire for an experience as a reward.

I commit myself to show how we have imprinted the memory experience of rewards in relation to our Care towards others which has then become our starting point within walking the word Care.

I commit myself to show that the way 'Care' is being lived nowadays is within and as FEAR that drives us unconsciously and that FEAR is due to our understanding of how the system currently work and function as we've created this reality within the starting point of self interest and thus, it is our responsibility to recreate this existence within and as principle of oneness and equality by clearing up the mess that we have manifested within and without.

I commit myself to create a system that will take care of all individual equally and the fear of not being taken care of when we grow older will not be our primary reason for a character creation that will take care of us but rather all our creations will be from within and as that which is best for all LIVES.

I commit myself to show that the establishment of Equal Money System will diminish the inherited design of fear of the future and within that, the desire for money. That will bring about humanity that truly care for each other as part of who we are as the realization of absolute self responsibility for ourselves and existence as a whole.

The Submissive Daughter and the Controlling Mother Character - Day 82

This is a continuation to my previous blog:

My Life as a character - Overview - Day 79

The Family Charade in Character - Day 80

The Rebellion Daughter Mother Character - Day 81

For Context, also read: Day 79: Stepping out of Character with LOVED ONES - Creation's Journey to Life, Bernard Poolman.

Part 3: The Mother/Daughter Character - Looking at specific Characters:

The Submissive Daughter and the relationship with the Mother:

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself as the Daughter Character in this world to have refused to see how I have created the Controlling Mother character so that I could keep the Submissive Daughter Character and thus, I've I accepted this role and always accepted the Mother Character to tell me who I am, what I must do, whom I should be with, when to do it and where while all along, I was busy creating another character in my mind, of and as the rebellion as I've participated in my mind, with spiteful, resentment and resistance thoughts towards the Mother character. And I forgive myself that I've NOT accepted and allowed myself to see, realize and understand how I've trapped myself with multiple characters that serve only one purpose which is to keep me in character and never step out of character and actually change and rebirth myself from and as the physical as LIFE.

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself as the Submissive Daughter Character in this world to go into my mind with back chats towards the Mother character that I've created for me to remain submissive and participate with spiteful thoughts, resentment, anger and frustration where I'm having internal conversation with the mother character in my mind, in the attempt to prepare myself to stand up for myself and yet, what I haven't seen, realize and understood that in the moment I've prepared myself to stand up in my mind, placing the mother character within and as me where I talk to her in my mind, I've actually created and manifested the controlling mother character.

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself  as the Submissive Daughter character in this world to have create this character based on past memories that I've imprinted into my flesh where I was punished, yelled at or got beaten and through preserving the fear, I've locked myself within and as the Submissive character, trapped myself to the extent to which I will never step out of the character.

I forgive myself that I've NOT accepted and allowed myself to see, realize and understand how I have always been my own character creator and the script that I've written for myself and thus, I've blamed everything and everyone for my existence of me as the submissive daughter character in this world so that I would not have to face my own creation and thus, could remain forever enslaved. Because I've failed to see that for me to be the submissive daughter, I must have created the controlling character that will allow me to remain in the submissive character.

I forgive myself that I've NOT accepted and allowed myself as the Submissive Daughter Character in this world to see, realize and understand how I've created polarized characters wherein I will either integrate myself within and as the character of the submissive daughter it my complete and entire human physical body and become Equal to and One as the character and so, I will always remain within the Submissive character wherein I would create my children in the image and likeness that would suit with my Submissive character and would thus then, create my children as abusers of me. OR - I will either balance the existence of me as the Submissive character through the children that I've created and would become the exact duplicate of the Mother character that I've created earlier in my life and thus, create the characters of my children as submissive so that we can all together - continue the cycle and thus make sure that none of us will ever step out of character.

I forgive myself that I've NOT accepted and allowed myself as a submissive daughter character in this world to try and attempt to control the friends in my life in the attempt to balance my character without realizing that I've actually also created the controlling character and thus made sure that I will always remind in character. What a nice trap.

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself as the controlling mother character in this world, to create and manifest the child as the submissive character so that I could remain in my perceived control to hide behind my other character of inferiority and thus, through missing that very basic understanding of creation, I've NOT allowed myself to create myself as life but rather, created enslaved, controlled and limited life for myself and existence as a whole. 

I commit myself to show that as long as one create one's character in one's mind, one will remain enslave to one's own creation and will never become LIFE within and as the physical reality.

I commit myself to show that as long as one continue blaming others for one own creation of characters, one is deliberate responsible for the future of this world as one will continue creating more and more character to justify why one must remain in character because others are wrongs and will not stand in the face of LIE(f) and create LIEF that is best for all.

I commit myself to show how the cycle of abuse continue as we create our children in the image and likeness that will suit with the characters that we've created for ourselves and within that, make sure the children will remain in character and so, create their own children's character, generation after generation after generation.

I commit myself to show how we are not in fact changing when we jump from one character to the other character in the attempt to balance ourselves as character and that in fact, we have only created another character.

The Family Charade in Character - Day 80

This is a continuation to my previous blog:

My Life as a character - Overview - Day 79

I forgive myself that I've not accepted and allowed myself to see the separation that we have created within the family character wherein, there are specific roles that each participant is playing according to one's created character that one as accepted and allowed self to be defined as and accordingly, separate oneself as character from oneself as LIFE and the others as a whole.

Part 1: The Mother/Daughter Character - Overview

The Daughter Character:

I forgive myself that I've NOT accepted and allowed myself to realize that I've created myself as a character of and as the 'Daughter' and within that, also created the parents as characters that will assist and support the Daughter character to remain in character.

I forgive myself that I've NOT accepted and allowed myself to see, realize and understand that who I am cannot be defined by characters and thus, the daughter character cannot be real.

I forgive myself that I've NOT accepted and allowed myself to realize that for me to be someone's daughter, I must have created that relationship in character, in agreement with all the other characters to remain in character and within that, I've not seen, realized and understood the limitation that exists within and as characters wherein one is tie to one's character and cannot express and experience oneself as who one is but only as the character that one has created for oneself, in separation of oneself.

The Mother Character:

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to create myself within and as the character of the Mother according to how I've observer my mother's character, the character mothers in the Movies, my characters' friends mother as so on and accordingly, created myself as the character that I would like to be in this life, not seeing, realizing and understanding that the character that I would like to be was also a character that I've defined according to my memories and experiences and that the fact of the matter is, the decision to be and become the specific mother character that I've created as myself, wasn't a free, informative and clear decision of who I am but was born from the circumstances of my life as the sum up of all the characters that allowed me to create myself as the character and within that, I haven't even considered that I've created the other characters so that I could remain in character.

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to create and design myself as the mother character because I believed that the mother character is who I am and I haven't realized that for me to remain in character of the mother, I must create in agreement other character that will provide me with the continuation of me as the mother character which than raise the question, what was my starting point in having children? To create myself in character or to actually bring a life that is best for all into this world?

I forgive myself that I've NOT accepted and allowed myself to see how limited the mother character is in fact where I'm not fully walking in absolute the physical expression of a mother in this world where I take care of all children in this world equally but rather, separated myself within and as my own little bubble which I've defined as the family character, taking care of only those who can keep me in character so that I won't have to step out of my character and walk my responsibility as LIFE to take care of all parts of LIFE equal and one.

For context, also read:

Day 79: Stepping out of Character - Bernard Poolman

Day 79: Kill the Buddha - He's Just a Character, Part 3- Lindsay Craver

Day 79. I'm Nothing But a Character - Malin Gunilla

Day 22 - Me as the Main Character within the Cinema of my Mind - Rozelle de Lange

Day 44: The Character game - Esteni De Wet

The Secret war between Women - the Childhood years - Part 1 - Day 53

This is a continuation to - The Secret War between Women - Overview - Day 52

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself as a parent in this world to prompt my child with the desire to have the best of all (clothes, games, hair style etc.) and I haven't consider the outflows and consequences of my doing wherein, my child will grow up within the self interest desire to be the best regardless of anything or anyone else and would then thus, try and compete for one's survival in the world system within the belief that who one is, is defined by what one has instead of Who one is as a living decision to walk breath by breath within the principle of what is best for all.

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself as a parent in this world to support the Media and have allowed my child to spend the time in front of the TV so that I could have a moment for myself and I have abdicate my responsibility as a parents to investigate how the Media works and how the media is being utilized to brainwash my child to be an become a demonized consumers through various of Marketing Psychologists/public relations and within that, programed the child into the ultimate belief that who the child is, is defined by what one has and not by who one is and thus, my child will walk one's life within a constant battle for one's rewards and when/if required, one would compete and fight for a moment of bliss without consider everything and everyone in this existence.

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself, as a mother in this world, to pass on my own inherited belief that I as a woman is somewhat weak and powerless and thus, has taught my daughter to design her life in the utmost potential of becoming the best man's wife so that he would take care of my daughter and I could die knowing that my child is safe in this world. Within that, I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to teach my child that she must be someone's wife in order to make it in this world and I haven't considered teaching my child to stand alone, in absolute self trust without being dependent on anything or anyone and instead, establishing interdependent relationships in her life, with herself first, and with others

I forgive myself that I've NOT accepted and allowed myself to consider the consequences and outflows of my desire that my daughter will have the best man which will take care of her so that I could die at peace knowing that my child is safe and sound in this world but within that, have been in total denial, suppression and separation from the origin/source of the fear which reveal itself as a desire - my accepted and allowed world system wherein beings are not being taken care of only because they are here, as their birth right but instead, Money is the factor which will determine whether or not one will survive in this world and I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed the denial, suppression and separation to keep me enslaved to this current money system wherein the upbringing that I give to my child is that of survival instead of taking a moment and look the equation in common sense, enough to be able to see the origin of the problem and thus then, stand up as a solution within the realization that no mother should fear for her child's future and as a mother, a woman in this world, I must lead the way before my children so that they could exist in a world that is best for all.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself as a mother in this world to encourage the secret competition between women by standing as an example where I gossip with my friends about other women in my world, and I haven't  considered that my daughter will pick up on that and utilize gossiping in her mind as well as with other people in her world and thus, maintain the inherit design of the secret competition between women without being aware of it exactly as I was never aware of it and yet, lived as it. And within that, I forgive myself that I've NOT accepted and allowed myself to realized, as a mother in this world, that I'm standing as an example for my children and if I allow myself to be directed by my mind within the design of competition, comparison, jealousy, judgement, gossiping etc. my children will pick up on that, program and design themselves in the exact nature of me. And thus, I forgive myself that I've NOT accepted and allowed myself to realize that I'm able to stand as an example for my children of walking breath by breath as that which is best for all and thus, instead of showing them how to follow one's mind in self interest and survival mode, I could show and direct them to be and become the directive principle of themselves and this world.

I forgive myself that I've NOT accepted and allowed myself as a mother in this world to see how I'm brainwashing my child in her childhood years into becoming competitive being with other females in her world wherein for example, I would ask her after a school party what the girls were wearing and whether she looked the best according to her eye's view and I haven't considered the back chat that I'm imprinting into my child mind wherein she would now go and constantly compare her clothing to other girls clothing and from that moment, attempt and try to compete to be and have the best - in all life aspects.

I forgive myself that I've NOT accepted and allowed myself as a mother in this world to realize that my desire for my child to have the best man to take care of her in her adult life has a direct influence of my child becoming a participant in the secret war between women wherein, I will teach my child how to behave, dress, stand, talk for her to have the best man without realizing that my child would then thus, compete, compare and judge other female in her world, consciously, subconsciously and unconsciously in her attempt to define herself as something in this world.

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself as a mother in this world to stand in front of the mirror and look at myself in self judgement and within that essentially standing as an example for my child that self appearance as a greater value than anything else and I haven't realized or considered that my own self judgement is being imprinted in my daughter's mind and within that, I forgive myself that I've NOT accepted and allowed myself to see, realize and understand that self judgement is always in comparison to a picture/image in my mind of a perfect symbolism that I've created in relation to other women and through that perfect symbolism I'm participating in the secret war between women, always trying to elevate myself upon another without seeing my responsibility towards my own allowance of my mind being the directive principle but also my responsibility as the educator of my child by passing on the war between women to my child by a simple act of looking at myself in the mirror.

I commit myself to show and expose the self interest desire  of having the best and the consequences it has on our society wherein, we will move and direct ourselves to have a momentary experience of reward (which is based on energy) by getting the new best thing without considering the enslavement chain in the production process, as well as the abuse of the earth's resources and within that, I will prove that the only reason we have ignored those aspects was because we are brainwashed consumers that has no respect for LIFE nor the participants within this existence.

I commit myself to show and make it clear that the current media is based on the starting point of profit and greed regardless the harm that it cause to earth as well as earth's inhabitants and I commit myself to show, reveal and expose the consequences the media has on the children of tomorrow, the children that could have been taught how to lead and establish a world that is best for all but instead, they are being brainwashed from the first encounter with TV into become a future consumers and a lesser human being than who they really are as LIFE.

I commit myself, as a woman in this world, to lead the way towards a world that is best for all because I realize that WHO I AM isn't defined by the generation that has come before me and thus, I see my responsibility as a human being in this world and I will utilize this ONE LIFE to make the utmost of it as a directive decision to walk/lead us to a world that we would like to pass on to the next generation to come - a world where all are taken care of as their birth right, regardless their race, color, religion, gender or culture.

I commit myself to stand as an example for my children and the children of this world as a whole and to consider that unless I'm changing myself according to a principle of that which is best for all, my example has no value as we have proven it already with the manifestation of this cruel world.