Impatience as Evilness - Day 219

This is a continuation to:

 

The Elite's delusion of stress - Part 1 - Day 45 The Elite's Delusion of Stress - Part 2 - Day 46 The Decision of TIME - Day 67 The Decision of TIME - Day 67 Copy Paste Character - The Education System - Day 184 Is it possible to Cheat yourself? Day 185 It is time to STOP Existing as a Human Machine - Day 186 The End of Times - Day 187 Facing the Evil within - the KEY to LIFE - Day 188 Fear of Disappointing others - Day 189 The Psychology of TIME - Day 190 I Regret, therefor, I'm a Good Person. NOT!!! - Day 191 The REAL Fear - Day 192 The things we Won't tell ANYONE - Day 193 Missing out on the Good Life - Day 194

Let's have some Fun - Day 195 Stupidity Loop - Jumping from the Bad to the Good to the Bad - Day 196 The Smoke Screen of Ignorance - Day 197 Leaving in a Dream - Day 208 Having the Life Style you always dreamt to have - Day 209 IT is MY time Now - don't say a word - Day 210 Let's go on Vacation - Day 211 Comparison is a Bitch - Day 212 Damn, I will never have everything done - Day 213 Standing as an Example - Self Interest or Self Realization? - Day 214 From the Bossy to the Loser - Day 215 Jealousy and Frustration - I want the Life they Have - Day 216 The Poison within Irritation and Anger - Day 217 Judgement as self Perfection - Day 218

 

For the purpose of context, suggest reading these posts above prior to reading the post below, if you haven’t already. Here I will be walking the 'I don't have TIME' Character - Reaction Dimension - Practical support with Self Forgiveness and Self Commitments.

 

Reactions Dimension:

* Jealousy

* Frustration

* Irritation

* Anger

* Judgment and Self Judgment

* Impatient

* Self Pity

* Depression

* Anxiety

* Stress

 

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Impatient

 

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to access impatient towards anything and anyone in my environment, when and as I embodied the 'I don't have time Character' that I've created within and as myself.

 

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to project impatient towards others in my world wherein the words that I will use would be taint with Evil and Poison, within the attempt to brush them off, either externally directly to them, or internally, within and as my mind as back chat and internal conversations.

 

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to wish that no one will talk to me, send me e-mails or ask me questions when I'm in the 'I don't have time' character, not seeing realizing and understanding that within that moment, I've separated myself form my entire existence, as if I'm the only one that is here, the only one that is busy and within that, the only one that is important and thus, whomever interrupt me or making noises, is lesser than me and not considering me and also annoying according to my eyes view, while the fact of the matter is that - I am the one that interrupt myself through participating within a reaction in my mind, having internal conversation with myself, as well as not being considerate towards others in my environment when I'm busy occupying myself in my mind, justifying why they are inconsiderate and annoying and within that, sees only ME without seeing them as who they are in that very specific moment.

 

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to be impatient towards others when they ask me questions while I'm busy with something else and thus, I would give them indirect answers, so that they would leave me alone as they would notice that I'm being impatient however, when they keep asking the same question because I didn't give them a direct answer, I become angry at them and even nasty towards them, in complete possession because apparently, they didn't consider me in that moment and haven't seen how busy I was. I forgive myself that I've NOT accepted and allowed myself to speak directly in the moment, within assisting the being with what they asked me, in being as clear as possible which would make the entire process less time than what it would be, when I'm impatient and indirect.

 

 

I commit myself to not accept and allow myself to access Impatient behavioural mode as I now see, realize and understand how Evil one can become when and as one accept and allow oneself to direct oneself within impatient towards others.

 

I commit myself to - when and as someone is asking me a question that I see within and as myself that I have the answer and yet, I'm busy, I take a breath, I assess within and as myself whether there is any slightly movement of energy inside myself that can turn into evilness in the nature of impatient and if there is, I move through the energy, letting it go, earthing myself, clearing myself, and assist the being in a way that is clear and direct, and go back to do what ever I was busy with a moment ago.

 

For Further Support, please listen to : Life Review - A Life of Impatience

The Submissive Daughter and the Controlling Mother Character - Day 82

This is a continuation to my previous blog:

My Life as a character - Overview - Day 79

The Family Charade in Character - Day 80

The Rebellion Daughter Mother Character - Day 81

For Context, also read: Day 79: Stepping out of Character with LOVED ONES - Creation's Journey to Life, Bernard Poolman.

Part 3: The Mother/Daughter Character - Looking at specific Characters:

The Submissive Daughter and the relationship with the Mother:

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself as the Daughter Character in this world to have refused to see how I have created the Controlling Mother character so that I could keep the Submissive Daughter Character and thus, I've I accepted this role and always accepted the Mother Character to tell me who I am, what I must do, whom I should be with, when to do it and where while all along, I was busy creating another character in my mind, of and as the rebellion as I've participated in my mind, with spiteful, resentment and resistance thoughts towards the Mother character. And I forgive myself that I've NOT accepted and allowed myself to see, realize and understand how I've trapped myself with multiple characters that serve only one purpose which is to keep me in character and never step out of character and actually change and rebirth myself from and as the physical as LIFE.

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself as the Submissive Daughter Character in this world to go into my mind with back chats towards the Mother character that I've created for me to remain submissive and participate with spiteful thoughts, resentment, anger and frustration where I'm having internal conversation with the mother character in my mind, in the attempt to prepare myself to stand up for myself and yet, what I haven't seen, realize and understood that in the moment I've prepared myself to stand up in my mind, placing the mother character within and as me where I talk to her in my mind, I've actually created and manifested the controlling mother character.

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself  as the Submissive Daughter character in this world to have create this character based on past memories that I've imprinted into my flesh where I was punished, yelled at or got beaten and through preserving the fear, I've locked myself within and as the Submissive character, trapped myself to the extent to which I will never step out of the character.

I forgive myself that I've NOT accepted and allowed myself to see, realize and understand how I have always been my own character creator and the script that I've written for myself and thus, I've blamed everything and everyone for my existence of me as the submissive daughter character in this world so that I would not have to face my own creation and thus, could remain forever enslaved. Because I've failed to see that for me to be the submissive daughter, I must have created the controlling character that will allow me to remain in the submissive character.

I forgive myself that I've NOT accepted and allowed myself as the Submissive Daughter Character in this world to see, realize and understand how I've created polarized characters wherein I will either integrate myself within and as the character of the submissive daughter it my complete and entire human physical body and become Equal to and One as the character and so, I will always remain within the Submissive character wherein I would create my children in the image and likeness that would suit with my Submissive character and would thus then, create my children as abusers of me. OR - I will either balance the existence of me as the Submissive character through the children that I've created and would become the exact duplicate of the Mother character that I've created earlier in my life and thus, create the characters of my children as submissive so that we can all together - continue the cycle and thus make sure that none of us will ever step out of character.

I forgive myself that I've NOT accepted and allowed myself as a submissive daughter character in this world to try and attempt to control the friends in my life in the attempt to balance my character without realizing that I've actually also created the controlling character and thus made sure that I will always remind in character. What a nice trap.

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself as the controlling mother character in this world, to create and manifest the child as the submissive character so that I could remain in my perceived control to hide behind my other character of inferiority and thus, through missing that very basic understanding of creation, I've NOT allowed myself to create myself as life but rather, created enslaved, controlled and limited life for myself and existence as a whole. 

I commit myself to show that as long as one create one's character in one's mind, one will remain enslave to one's own creation and will never become LIFE within and as the physical reality.

I commit myself to show that as long as one continue blaming others for one own creation of characters, one is deliberate responsible for the future of this world as one will continue creating more and more character to justify why one must remain in character because others are wrongs and will not stand in the face of LIE(f) and create LIEF that is best for all.

I commit myself to show how the cycle of abuse continue as we create our children in the image and likeness that will suit with the characters that we've created for ourselves and within that, make sure the children will remain in character and so, create their own children's character, generation after generation after generation.

I commit myself to show how we are not in fact changing when we jump from one character to the other character in the attempt to balance ourselves as character and that in fact, we have only created another character.